my absence explained (serious post)
Back in september 2024 i started getting really bad chest pains and was having trouble breathing so a 2 weeks later in 2024 i went to the emergency room and got told it was anxiety
these chest pains and breathing problems have gotten worse over time and in january 2025 i went back to the emergency got told i have anxiety yet again
in late march i went to a Kylie Minogue concert in montreal (amazing show by the way) and shortly after that the pain gotten worse. i could barely walk from my bedroom to the kitchen during this period i got diagnosed woth pneumonia i tried telling the doctor i had severe chest pains that felt like multiple knives stabbing me and he dismissed me claiming im too young for heart problems despite my mom having heart issues (she had a bypass in 2021 and has a few stents) my maternal grandmother had a pacemaker, and 3 of my grandparents had heart attacks (my paternal grandmother doesnt have a heart but thats a story for another day) and my maternal grandfathers heart attack killed him before i was even born.
i got prescribed antibiotics but my stomach couldnt handle them so i kept throwing them up so i went back to the emergency room yet again and got a second pneumonia diagnosis and got prescribed a different type of antibiotics however despite my stomach being able to hold them they did not work.
so in june shortly after my 31st birthday i went back to the emergency room and i saw the same nurse i did the last time she noticed there was something wrong with me (about time someone did) so they kept me over night.
this hospital had no idea what was wrong with me so after a week i got transferred to a different hospital a heart hospital to be more specific, they did an mri and ultrasound for my heart. it turns out the so called pneumonia was internal bleeding around my heart.
on top of the internal bleeding 2 of my valves in my heart were failing which meant i needed to have heart survery to replace the valves i got one mechanical heart valve and a cow heart valve.
but after a week after the surgery my heart was still failing which meant i also needed a temporary pacemaker. due to the temporary pacemaker helping my heart function it meant i needed a permanent pacemaker and was scheduled to get one the following day.
on the day i was supposed to get my pacemaker it ended up being delayed since another patient needed a heart transplant. i am honestly glad that the patient got their new heart, they survived and managed to go home before me.
after i got my pacemaker i was removed from the ICU on a friday and i started having breathing problems and chest pains like i did before getting hospitalized and on monday i got another ultrasound on the heart and it turns out i was internally bleeding again. so i got sent back to the ICU and had my third and final surgery in the hospital the following day.
when i woke up from the internal bleeding surgery i was in less pain than i was before going to the hospital. but sadly my last day in the ICU i had such a toxic nurse who wanted me to share a room with 4 other patients but the head nurse in the main recovery section (where you go after leaving the ICU) decided to put me in a room where i only had one roommate and that toxic nurse got so pissed and then yelled at my mom saying “it must be nice to have friends” in a very condescending and sarcastic tone. i regret not reporting her.
after a week of leaving the ICU again i finally got sent home, i just had my follow up appointment for my pacemaker and everything is working well.
i am in pain still especially where the scar where they cut me open for my heart surgery. my pacemaker surgery they went throw the groin which still also occasionally hurts but nowhere near as bad as my future chest scar.
it will be a while before i make more gross mark skidz videos since doing my karen voice hurts my chest at the moment and i fall asleep at the weirdest times do to still recovering from surgery. i did start writing poems (no toilet humor but more serious stuff but still very cheesy)
so thats why i disappeared for a long time ill be back to making cursed videos next year
