Story of thoughts

[storyofthoughts]

I am going and going and going when all I want to do is catch my breath.

SOT (Day 37)

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He is more than I've ever dreamed of and I have him. But why do I feel so empty and alone.

SOT (Day 36)

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The vivid memories of him are starting to fade and only thing left is pain.

SOT (Day 35)

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He will never be mine. He is just an experience.

SOT (Day 34)

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People around me question my every move, every breath and it is driving me absolutely insane. I cannot sit back and relax even for a second

SOT (Day 33)

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I became the person I hate the most. I feel like I betrayed myself.

SOT (Day 32)

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I am afraid of him and his absence.

SOT (Day 31)

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He makes it easier and easier to hate him.

SOT (Day 30)

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He picked a very wrong time to play this game. I am on the very edge and he is trying to push me off it. I haven't had a thought of death for a while.

SOT (Day 29)

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I need to find a little straw in this tornado, that could pull me out before I lose myself in this turmoil.

SOT (Day 28)

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He made me cry today...

SOT (Day 27)

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I cannot shatter my soul again. It is already trembling at the sight of me. Waiting for me to just give it a break.

SOT (Day 26)

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I woke up, I was okay. I went to the city and something robotic inside of me wanted to go out, maybe I see him. What? Who is this robot inside of me. Of course I saw him. I held my breath and the pain started to drip into my soul.

SOT (Day 25)

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It seems I only write if I am feeling disconnected from myself.

SOT (Day 24)

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I had to call him to ask him something... He said that I thought you were dead... So he did notice we hadnt spoken fo a while...

SOT (Day 23)

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I threw myself at a tornado, thinking I wouldn't be blown away. Stupid much?

SOT (Dat 22)

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It doesn't matter if you are a saint or a sinner. Nobody can win, so whats the point?

SOT (Day 21)