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truly fucking insane how i spent all that time caring about/for a man who was incapable of doing it back. like who on this earth tells someone who is deeply lonely to 'can you not listen to music or something' or responded to my anxiety with the suggestion that i should have a drink. i don't regret caring abt him bc that's what you're supposed to do with people you love, but jfc he did not get the memo and he is not nearly as emotionally intelligent as he thinks he is
i went through such a shit time that was exacerbated by his actions and he goes 'I'm worried that you're struggling' and when I said yes, I was, he just disappeared for three days
and then he has the NERVE to slide back into my dms to say that he fancies me and to angle for a hook-up*
(*which is another topic that he'll react to with a complete lack of empathy and compassion bc the answer is no and he's given me serious trust issues)
