Probably taking a nap rn

Emma ♠️ 30 ♠️Political science student and full time cybersecurity analyst ♠️

[stressed-out-studies]

//Bio//

Hello! I thought I'd be out of the clutches of high education when I dropped out of university a century ago.

Turns out I was wrong.

I'm Emma, 30 years old and I'm a full time SOC Analyst. I'm married and I have three cats.

I have bad ADHD, and since I hate myself I've decided to get a degree in political sciences. Last time I went to university and decided to study physics. I still love math and physics to the core, even if I choose to pursue a different path.

Why political science? Because my goal is to specialize in intelligence (applied to cybersecurity in the private sector) and this course will give me insights from the non-technical aspect.

I'm from Italy and I speak 5 languages, currently learning mandarin.

//Typology stuff//

1w9 - sp (I used the OG theory to type myself, not an online test)

ENTP

(for the ones who are into this thing)

//Courses for this semester//

Political philosophy

Political Economy

Public law

General Psychology (accidentally added it)

//Stuff I'm learning random or for work//

Python scripting (for work, obviously)

Mandarin (that's just because I'm a nerd)

Piano

PSA: I'm a terrible photographer, my handwriting is trash and my home office is constantly a mess. This will be reflected into my pictures lol.

Here's my Instagram

My stuff is tagged emma.txt

(last update: 24/10/2025)

[stressed-out-studies]

05/04/26

Hello and Happy Easter (or generic Sunday)!

Today I had a morning shift, which meant I tried to do something useful with myself. Did it work? Ehhhh.

Since I've felt quite lazy I've decided to take notes with a grid structure, so I'd be forced to reduce the number of information.

Here's the (not yet completed or revised) result:

I'm happy that I did something, but after 9 hours of staring at a screen waiting for something together (my job is like that sometimes) I'm exhausted.

[stressed-out-studies]

Sat, 28th March

While I'm waiting for my ADHD meds to kick-in.

Today's to do:

◽Finish chapter 4 public law notes

◽Finish reading for political philosophy

◽Finish chapter 2 of Psych

I have a lot of "finishing" to do, so it should be easy. But I'm having work done on my house, so it's very noisy here. Idk how much I'll do.

[noradoesrevision]

The geese where my dad works. The pretty spring day.

Diaries of a Burnt-Out student

Thursday 26/03/2026

Oh my god. Today started off horribly. I woke up at 07:00 after about three hours of sleep. I sat down and did my lab report and didn’t stop until 12:00, I handed it in 11 seconds before the deadline.

I actually was really quite enjoying it. I so wish I could focus like that without an impending deadline looming over me - well the focus might have had a bit to do with the ADHD meds, but I can’t really notice much difference with them. I didn’t even properly finish the lab report. The first two thirds I think were pretty good but the last bit was just really bad. I didn’t even do the references properly, just pasted the links ar the bottom.

After the deadline, at least it was finally other with. My friends called me up then, and I read out a couple of chapters of the fic we have been reading together (ATYD). After that, I went on an little side-quest to let some dogs out into the garden where my dad works at my neighbours' house. The sky was so lovely and warm for that part of the day.

By this point, I was very aware I still hadn't eaten anything yet, so I made myself some lunch and watched Netflix for a while. I was watching 'the a word' which I'm honestly just finding depressing for how the parents are treating the child, I hope they get better over the series at least.

Then I had to walk my dog. It was nice, just a pretty average walk; I threw a stick for her to fetch. Afterwards, I ate tea and chatted to my dad. At 18:15 my friend picked me up and two of us went to watch a play she was in. When we got back, we sat in my driveway and just chatted for ages - it was one of those easy conversations where no one wants it to end.

When I got into my house it was 23:00, but I made myself some food because I was so hungry. Then I got ready for bed and wrote this blog!

Have a wonderful day!!!

Bye :)

[princessmacabre]

Day 23/30 of the Ophelia Spring Challenge

no study work (but drowning in “normal” work)

1 h housekeeping

no walk but did some yoga and abs exercises

learned some new stuff about lamb’s lettuce (Valerianella locusta) or so called ‘Rapunzel’

herbal tea, no reading

“When he shall die, Take him and cut him out in little stars, And he will make the face of heaven so fine That all the world will be in love with night And pay no worship to the garish sun.”

— from Romeo and Juliet, W. Shakespeare

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[missys-mansion-of-mistakes]

March 13th, 2026. Friday. || Failure = avoidance = more failure

I think I figured out. I'm in sort've a shame spiral from dropping my epidemiology class, so I think I'm avoiding any productive work possible. Of course that means I fall even further behind, which means more shame, and etc.

But today (3/14) when I'm writing this, I've already turned and faced some of my work. It feels a lot better than I expected it would. Actually addressing the source of your negative feelings helps a LOT!

What I accomplished:

Wrote 1 Slowly letter

Wrote bullet journal entry

Self-care sort of day

[mudwisard]

my trick for getting through grad school is learning to navigate the quadrants with all their nuances

[mysticalcollegestudent]

12.03.2026

Conference update: done! 3h of poster presentation, overwhelming but a lit of interesting questions, that will i think help me for the intro of the thesis.

I visited as much of the campus (and coffee stands) as I could, and enjoyed having my own bathroom immensely :)

I also enjoyed visiting Dresden, very romantic center and beautiful buildings! Awful for pedestrians though.

[howsoonitwasover]

25.03.26. spring phd diaries: baking, reading, writing, & lots of coffee

[studyblrspace]

🗓 | 25 march 2026

made some progress on my research project with reading papers + simulation work over spring break. also, I went to an (indoor) orchid show, it was very pretty and these photos are a repost from my photography acc but I just think it looked so pretty!!

🎧 | breathe! – leven kali

[alwaysbeenjessica]

before and after ✂️ a spring collage to begin a new journal!

[stressed-out-studies]

Last semester has been a disaster (for various reasons, some of which were 100% my fault), this one I'll do better.

It's very hard to balance work, study and life together. When I close the book, I have to work, and when I stop working, I need to do chores. And when I don't do any of these things, I still have to, you know, do the basic human stuff like eating or sleeping, and managing it has been a challenge, also because of my ADHD and fibromyalgia.

Thankfully my husband has been doing 80% of the chores or I would have gone insane a long time ago, but still, finding time to do anything else has been a struggle.

At work has been hell too, but now I'm back on doing shifts, which means I'll have more time to study. Unfortunately I've been saddled with an industry cert that will probably have priority but ok, I'll end up like this I think -> 🫩

Regardless I hope I'll hit my target, although it's very unlikely.

[kosmogrl]

the day is gonna end anyway and your warm bed will be waiting so you might as well do the hard things and not let them ruin your day

[kosmogrl]

this is unironically how I push myself to do everything I dread

[pwrfectsnoopy]

10.03.26 — finallyyyy caught up on chemistry today sigh. did around two hours of study on it and then practiced some trigonometry in maths. also i thought my window looked very pretty night so enjoy the random picture :3

[dddivination]

had a contract law exam today!📚 it went meh, but at least it's all done... that was today's setup for the pre-studying :).

next week I have a criminal law exam and a writing assignment - will keep you updated 🫂.

moon.

[stressed-out-studies]

We're so back folks!