All-aboard The Struggle Bus

✨26✨ 🌸TW: ED content 🌸 🫶🏻 MINORS DON’T INTERACT PLEASE 🫶🏻

[strugglebus23]

TW: ED content - Please don’t report my account. Instead, just block me. This is the only safe space that I have and losing it will only make me worse.

My Stats:

26 🍓 She/Her 🍒 180cm/5’11”

HW: 222.4 (04/07/2026)

CW: 218.9 (09/07/2026)

Goals:

220 🍓 215 🍒 210 🍇 205 🍉 200

195 🍓 190 🍒 185 🍇 180 🍉 175

170 🍓 165 🍒 160 🍇 155 🍉 150

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I’m sort of like if Pinocchio’s wish to be a real boy got stuck and stopped when he was halfway through transforming

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And then not only does it get stuck but he actually reverts into a tree and has to become a puppet again before he can even THINK about being a real boy 🙃

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I need to deep clean the house for my friends coming over tomorrow but this heat wave is making me feel like I’m gunna die. I’ve had to eat earlier than I wanted coz I thought I was gunna pass out and now I’m annoyed.

I hate summer

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Giving up is the only guaranteed way to fail

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Caught between wanting to lose the we!ght slowly, healthily and sustainably so I can actually keep it off but being so disgusted by myself that I just want to lose it as quickly as humanly possible so I can stop looking and feeling like this

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I’m attending a wedding in 7 weeks and I WILL be under 200 at that point

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I need to lock tf in to reach this first goal and then I can change to losing more steadily and “healthily” but if I go to that wedding and I’m anything above 199.9 I might actually end it all tbh

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I’m attending a wedding in 7 weeks and I WILL be under 200 at that point

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Genuinely feel like I’m being swallowed whole by my own f@t. Like it’s a separate entity that is slowly eating and k!lling me.

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I can’t even do half of a low impact workout without wanting to give up and go lay down. I can’t believe I’ve let myself get to this point…

Teenage me would be so upset, angry and disappointed in me

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I need a soundproof room in which I can scream and cry and release 26 years of rage

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How to lose 40łbs in 50 days no glue no borax?

Why am I so bad at having an ED? Literally what is wrong with me

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I’m actually so beyond pissed off at myself for getting this bad…

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Feel like shit, just want my LW back

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The female urge to rip your skin off and dig out all the f@t underneath

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I am so beyond sick of feeling this way

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I’m genuinely so sick of this viscous cycle of losing and then gaining everything back AND MORE

I’ve been stuck in this loop since I was 13. That’s literally half my life. Someone free me from this hell

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The funny thing is that I literally went to my Dr last week to ask for help so I could be healthy in mind and body and yano what he said???

“We don’t have a specific service that can help you with your habits. If you want to lose we!ght, I can prescribe you a pill that binds any f@t you eat and makes you poop it out”

Right… so I’ve actually asked for help (like I’m meant to do) and instead you’ve offered me what is basically a l*xative… coz that’s definitely going to help my 3D 🙃

[strugglebus23]

I’m genuinely so sick of this viscous cycle of losing and then gaining everything back AND MORE

I’ve been stuck in this loop since I was 13. That’s literally half my life. Someone free me from this hell