Peace be with you.

♱ Sebastian | 24 Episcopalian Anglo-Catholic | 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️| Venezuelan-American ♱

[stsebbb]

Who am I? What's my deal?

I'm Seb, 24, Episcopalian with Catholic seasoning.

I like the Book of Common Prayer, the rosary, choral music, smells and bells, saints, and Ignatian spirituality.

I believe in seeking and serving Christ in all persons, loving my neighbor as myself.

Sometimes things get a little heavy here, but more than anything this blog is meant to be a respite from the world out there.

Live without fear: Your creator has made you holy, Has always protected you, And loves you as a mother. Go in peace to follow the good road And may God’s blessing be with you always.

[wovi]

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simone weil

[wovi]

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ursula k. leguin

[queerprayers]

christians trying to get queer people to stay closeted or celibate, and especially those invested in queer people entering/maintaining cisgender heterosexual relationships, often use language of sacrifice: god asks us to give up our desires. doing god's will isn't always easy or what we would choose for ourselves. it doesn't matter what the world tells us is acceptable. we can't give in to cultural norms. we can't always trust ourselves. sacrifice your desires and longings and needs and lay them at god's feet.

and the thing is, I don't disagree. lately I've been thinking a lot about what god has asked me to sacrifice by making me queer: familial approval/acceptance. confidence in legal protection and medical care. safety in every public space. an easily accessible history of christians like me. implicit trust in fellow christians. an understood and not sexualized relationship. a wedding that could be held in any church, presided over by any pastor, and attended by everyone I invite. the ability to have biological children with my partner.

I have had, at different times, great desires and longings and needs for these things. and I lay them at the feet of a god who is bigger than them. I sacrifice what the world asks of me for what love asks of me. I ask for the grace to live out my own life, not for skilled enough repression to force myself into a different one. I ask for forgiveness for conscious and unconscious sin, and god shows me what bears good fruit.

coming out was (and is, every time) a repentance, a turning. an amendment of life--or rather, an amendment of everything that prevented me from life. sometimes I like to use the worn-out phrases that make me sound like a testimonial. I was born again, yes. god showed me the light. I was so lost. I was so focused on comfort and success but I had to give up everything. I had to trust the lord instead of my instincts to conform to the world's sin. love the sinner, though, of course. invite them to the wedding. I'm just sharing what's on my heart in this season.

[pukicho]

fuck/marry/kill father son holy spirit

That's one guy, you fucking shit

[pervigilatrix]

Council of Nicea, 325 C.E.

[rose1water]

“The people who know God well—the mystics, the ascetics, those who risk everything to find God—always meet a Lover, not a dictator.”

— Richard Rohr

[stsebbb]

I got confirmed yesterday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ohholydyke]

Jesus Christ is Risen Today but it’s remixed into a beat drop that transitions into club music do you see my visions

[cinema-whore]

"Wild Geese" by Mary Oliver

[bobdylanyaoi]

“Subverting” Catholic art? Oh, okay. I see, you think this has nothing to do with you. You log onto the internet and you post about how “Wound of Christ” from Psalter and Prayer Book of Bonne de Luxembourg, attributed to Jean le Noir, c.1349, for instance, looks like a vulva because you're trying to tell the world that you enjoy Catholic art and imagery in an alternative, queer, risqué way that challenges Christian beliefs. But what you don't know is that that stigma isn’t just a vulva. It's not just a mandorla. It's not just yonic. It's actually intentionally erotic. And you're also blithely unaware of the fact that around 1297, Saint Angela of Foligno experienced a vision of Christ himself, who called her to put her mouth to the wound in his side and lick the freshly flowing blood. And then I think it was Saint Catherine of Siena who drank blood and a clear liquid from the wound before receiving a ring made from Christ’s foreskin? And then graphically erotic encounters with the side wound of Christ quickly showed up in the writings of eight different mystics. And then the yonic interpretation of the stigmata filtered down through the illuminated manuscripts and then trickled on down into some pseudo-intellectual corner of the internet…where you, no doubt, fished it out of some Pinterest board. However, that interpretation represents hundreds of years and countless visions of religious ecstasy. And it's sort of comical how you think that you've come up with an idea that exempts you from Christian theology when, in fact…you're posting an image that was sexualized for you by the very Medieval saints you think you’re so different than…from “subverted” Catholic art.

[eesirachs]

do you think its alright to criticize god?

yes. wrestle him for your blessings

[eesirachs]

sarah laughs in god's face. moses refuses the prophetic call. jeremiah refuses the prophetic call. elijah tries to kill himself to refuse the prophetic call. jonah tries to kill himself to refuse the prophetic call. psalmist 88 tries to kill himself to refuse the prophetic call. saul goes right ahead and does kill himself. jacob sees god in the wilderness and tackles him. noah tells god he's a liar. micaiah ben imlah makes god a liar. if scripture has anything to say about the god-us relationship, it's that he doesn't fight fair, and so we shouldn't, either

[eventually--darling]

is she... you know... *recites nicene creed*

[eesirachs]

i kiss god's cheek

*he kisses yours too*

[magdaleneanthony]

sorry for showing everyone the painting of st bernard of clairvaux in ecstasy embracing the crucified christ at coffee hour. do you still think im cool

[apenitentialprayer]

“I note, too, that Christ puts no limits on who we should be serving. We are not asked to visit those imprisoned unjustly, but anyone imprisoned; to feed only those who are hungry by no fault of their own, but anyone who hungers; to welcome just those who have their papers in order, but any stranger in our land. We are asked to love without limits, so we might grasp that God’s love for us is limitless.”

— Michelle Francl-Donnay (Not By Bread Alone 2020: Daily Reflections for Lent, March 2nd)

[brotherhumphrey]

how to stay safe in the heat (monk edition)

embrace the cool, glistening darkness of the crypt and stay hydrated through licking the moisture off its walls

tiny sunhat to cover just the tonsure

[clovers-practice]

Forever thinking about how Mary conceived via the holy spirit, which is a historically feminine entity. Lots of untapped potential for Something here. Not sure what yet

[ohholydyke]

Lesbianism strikes again

[clovers-practice]

This made me giggle out loud

[faithfulidiot]

“He’s the only man I can really trust. He’s like a spirit that follows me around …he helps me out in my hours of need and listens to all my problems and never laughs at me. He takes me very seriously,”

- Marsha P. Johnson (left) on Jesus Christ

"AND GOD CREATED HE AND SHE BUT HE ALSO CREATED ME!" Sylvia Rivera (right), banner emblazoned with a Street Transvestite Action Revolutionaries (S.T.A.R.) logo, Christopher Street Liberation Day, New York City, June 26, 1983. Photo by Steve Zabel, c/ o @lgbtcenternyc on IG