i don't think I'll fully deactivate, I want to keep my posts and artwork up for others to see, if anyone even looks at them anymore idk. But instead, I think I'm just going to take a break/hiatus from tumblr. It used to be this safe place where I could go on it and post my stuff and I had friends and it would distract me from the shitty parts of my personal life. It was like a second home that i actually felt welcomed. It no longer feels like that to me. That's not anybody's doing, or because of a specific person, I just go on here and it doesn't fufill me like it used to. I don't get the same welcomed happy feeling. It now feels like walking into a room with hundreds of people who know each other and I keep waving my sign and trying to fit in, with my shoes untied and shirt inside out. And only to have a couple glances my way, or even worse, someone coming over and ripping my sign. My mental health has been getting worse recently, and this is just another reflection of it to me. Tumblr was keeping my mental health at least somewhat okay, now I feel its just another thing pushing it down. I know this is long and people probably don't care or won't even read this. But if you are, that means I will be away from tumblr for a while. I'm not sure how long, I'm not sure if people will even notice. But this will stay my pinned until I'm back. I hope you all have a nice day.
