You were my best friend and I miss you so much.
In high school, we were so close. You were my most treasured friend in the darkest and most dire time of my life. You were my first love. The person who I told everything to for the first time and I was met with unconditional love.
But I was codependent, I was fighting just to survive. You were caught in the crosshairs. I was so unbelievably toxic, and made the relationship one sided. You were dealing with your own problems but still put me first. I am always going to be so grateful for that.
Now I’m just a memory of yours. And I have no idea how you’re doing. I still dream of you, I still wish you so much joy and happiness. My heart aches for you, I wish I could hug you, talk to you, listen to what you have to say. You were always so insightful and hilarious. I only have conversations with you late at night. You still have a space in my heart that sometimes wishes things had gone differently.
I just wish you would reach out to me. I wish that we could be friends again. But we both know how that would go. I hate knowing I may never see or hear from you again. I wonder if my soul will ever feel whole again.
-Dee
