The Starry Meadow

I make art of the things I like and ramble! The meadow invites you all to gaze at the stars :) Ask and dms are open

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Decided I should probably make an intro post

Hi! You can call me Tay/Crow or any part of my user,

Bi and acespec (also probably arospec)

I use They/he/she/flower/star prns and I’m genderqueer!

Enjoy art, read, watching analysis vids, history and sleep

Practicing witch and I’m pagan!

I’ll mostly just post art on here but I’ll also have some rambles about various topics

Probably neurodivergent? Not diagnosed yet :(

I have people in my head! (Therapist calls it internal family system but we’re not to sure of what we are just that we exist) but it’ll usually just be me here :>

^ (note from said people, if it’s not Tay, we most likely won’t mention it’s not as again, we aren’t quite sure what we are but on here we won’t exactly make efforts to hide it’s not them, most of us don’t care to hide in this anonymous site-S.G.)

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Ask and Dms are open! I like talking to people in my fandoms or who just wanna be friends:)

BTW!! If you send me an ask that you do NOT want me to post please explicitly say you do not want it posted thank you :>>>

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Fandoms (main/currently into)

- Bannerfall

- vampires smp

- life series

- Omori

- alnst

- empires smp

- hermitcraft

- BSD

- The flight

- SFAWTDE

- dsmp

And more!!

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Kins:

Basil (Omori)

Rats1!Scott (ratssmp)

Dazai(BSD)

Poe(BSD)

Ranboo (dsmp)

Bf!scott(bannerfall)

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TAGS

#art <—— my art :)

#rambles <—— rambles! Can be fandom or just random

#vents/ vent <—— venting about things

#queer <—— me yapping about my gender or sexuality :)

#reblog <—— self explanatory

#stars ask <—— ask

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Okay so, I’m an Avid introject, and this whole situation has made me feel icky. Like I’m stuck in tar. Our system in general isn’t very familiar with Avid’s content, but our host’s enjoyment of his character in Vampires SMP is very much what influenced my existence in the system and is what shaped me.

I’m deeply connected to v!Avid, and I don’t feel right separating myself fully from that character. I’m my own person, but I’m also the guy from Vampires. I’m honestly scared for my own safety, in a mental sense. v!Avid is part of my identity, but with everything cc!Avid’s done I can’t help but fear that people will think that I — or the system in general — support his actions because of my inability to separate myself.

I feel guilty and selfish, and I know my hurt is nowhere near as heavy as the hurt of the actual ccs involved in this, but it still feels important to me. I can’t help who I am, and I really don’t want to completely divorce myself from my source character.

We as a system are usually pretty chill with proxying in certain discord servers, but now I feel like I shouldn’t. That I won’t be welcome anymore. I don’t know, it’s weird.

I’m rambling at this point. I don’t want to come off as selfish and like I’m making it all about me when real people were hurt, but I don’t know how else to put things.

Sincerely, 🐀Avid.

(Feel free to post, btw)

You are not to blame or feel guilty for CC!Avids actions. Just because of who you are it doesn’t mean you support their actions and I’m so sorry that this whole situation has made you feel this hurt, you are allowed to be hurt.

You or ANY other Avid and Marm fictive or introject are not to blame for their actions and your existence does not mean you support them

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Stinky >:(

-S.G.

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Updated my intro a bit :>

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For the person asking about what Marm's done specifically, Scott's stream got into that.

"I am on a personal crusade to systematically destroy Scott smajor and everything he holds dear" - a Discord message from Marm, screencapped.

"If this were a movie, I would be able to kill them [Scott and Cam] and then get away with it and everyone would know I did it but no one would be able to prove it" - in person quote from Marm, as remembered by VikingPilot

^^^

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HUZZAH JOYUS DAY

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alright here's a funny fictive story we have. our lovely resident scott goldsmith fronted having a real shit time of it, talking to our boyfriend for like a half hour, when he actually finally took a look at the man's display name in our chat: VAMPIRE FUCKER. it genuinely shook him out of his spiral and he got really flustered, it was fantastic.

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Gem and Grian: Make the best family photo you can!

Bdubs, Skizz and Cleo: Everyone here is family, let's get as many people as we can and make Bdubs the baby.

Joel, Oli and Joe: Ok we need two gay dads, two gay moms and two gay grandads stat. Scott and Jimmy, you two be the gay dads.

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Honestly it feels like Avid got vsmp and real life mixed up... like he confused scott smajor and scott goldsmith and couldnt seperate the character from the creator, which is quite ironic

(ok to post..,)

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It’s funny Tay thinks star is going to be the only one around when we’re babysitting

He is in fact not, I’m here as well

I don’t know how she keeps forgetting that/pos

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Water is taking an indefinite hiatus from content creation

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i don't know if you heard about water's announcement: https://docs.google.com/document/d/134bquKVchCVboHKA_amoD64-Q8ARnji-CAJudp0Shrg/edit?usp=drivesdk

Thank you will post rn

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I don't watch Avid (I only knew them from vsmp) but the whole situation is so surreal to me because the exact same thing happened in my last year of high school. A girl had been strategically turning her classmates against each other with lies and manipulation, instigating fights and talking about people behind their backs. Eventually one student came forward and they had a big discussion where they realised they were all being lied to by the same person. She eventually withdrew from the school and was homeschooled the rest of the year. Thankfully both that situation and the current Avid situation ended with the perpetrator(s) being exposed. But I had serious deja vu reading about all this

On another note, thank you for providing resources and information as well as taking vents. I hope you're taking care of yourself during this time.

(This is okay to post)

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Hey you can post this if you wish

But does anyone else feel like super guilty for owning any merchandise from Avid, it was my first piece of merch ive been able to buy.

I got his vampires sweater and jacket and I loved them, its my perfect style and its so comfortable but now I feel completely guilty because I adore scott and I just dont know if its ok to even wear his merch anymore. Especially with his face being on the jacket, we'll his oc anyways.

Please give me your honest opinion and if anyone else has any advice let me know pleaseee.

Best wishes to everyone! And share your kindness with others, we all need it right now.

I personally don’t have merch of them but I have of other creators I don’t support

It fully depends on what YOU choose to do but what we did was keep it and wear it at home only, it’s comfy and still fits me to this day so it became stuff I wear to sleep or just chill in our home

But again it’s your choice what you do with it <33

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Hey no worries if not but do you have any sort of master post or dedicated tag for your posts regarding the Avid and Marm situation? You seem to have posted a lot of CC statements and updates ect here and I’m wondering if there’s any one place I can go to find everything.

(Also just gotta say thank you for making the posts I have seen, as I don’t use Twitter or watch vods I probably wouldn’t have learned abt the situation for another month if not for posts like yours)

Actually just did that! Anything I’ve posted involving the whole Avid and Marm situation has been tagged

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Hands you a him for reward for dealing with all this

AWWWWWW

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sorry to send you another ask on the avid/marm situation. ive watched everyones statements now up until scotts, and read statements/screenshots etc but... it feels like theres not enough on marm. avid is absolutely an abuser and incredibly dangerous, but everyone is focusing on avid, when i keep hearing different people add background info on marm (she dm'd the death threat. she whispered things to avid in voice calls for him to repeat. she sent messages saying her boundries were violated first. it was marm who wanted the council. it was marm who never left avids side, ever).

im not going to "avid is a victim" because hes not, but does it not sound to anyone else like marm was a massive enabler in this? everyone keeps saying it came out of nowhere. he didnt use to be like this. this was out of the blue in the last few months. why are we only looking at what avid has done instead of going ??? over how marm was involved too?

Marm is absolutely an enabler and just as dangerous as Avid and it should NOT be forgotten.