since nobody's looking anymore, might as well post
i remember joining tumblr somewhere in elementary school. don't go on the internet then. my internet experience from when i was little to when i was 12 consisted of getting chased off from place to place for being annoying and/or a dick. one day, a group of persistent assholes followed me here. i was angry, because i felt like the one place i could be in control of was no longer in my control. (i refused to use the block button, because my ego was too big. this was to my detriment)
this blog got briefly internet-famous under a different username in 2015. i was in 7th grade, getting groomed by an alt-right radicalizer, missed the irony in a funny post by a tumblr famous person that disagreed with my opinions at the time, replied, they replied back, and i got roasted by dozens of people online. i also made the choice to respond to every single person who laughed at me. i think i pushed the bounds of harassment multiple times. i don't remember what i said exactly, but it was bad. if you're hate-following me and you still check your blog for some reason, i'm sorry if i hurt you.
people behind the screen are human. one person, who i only found a couple years later, asked people to be respectful toward me because i was only in middle school. i wish i returned the favor at the time. i've since made peace with most of the guys who followed me here. the original "niche internet microcelebrity" died two years later. i've cut all contact with the person that groomed me. i'm now in college, thinking about my major, my hobbies, a transition, and getting a job, not always in that order. i genuinely love how tumblr's become a safe space for other lgbt people to express themselves. sorry for ruining a corner of it years ago. remember the human, don't get groomed, see you elsewhere
