SuchFunAreWe

Crafty Queer Vegan. I work at a chicken sanctuary, caring for tiny dinosaurs. Cat & quail mumther.

[froginakettle]

[bitchwhattt]

I shouldn’t be laughing this much. 

[katteens]

After you left Heaven, when did it start to feel like you fit, like you belonged here? Well, I’m still not sure I do.

[some-people-call-it-tragic]

do you understand what you’ve done? (r.a.) (insp)

[ilostmyshoe-79-deactivated20181]

I keep seeing that Destiel hug and the phrase “touch starved” showing up on my dash. So this happened.

At first, Dean doesn’t notice how often Cas is hugging him. Cas hugs him when he realizes he’s still alive, hugs him when they get Sam home, hugs him after their next particularly close call…it’s all appropriate and normal. Dean doesn’t notice that there’s something more to it until Cas is hugging Dean hello and goodbye every time he sees him.

“Hey, Sam? You notice anything different about Cas lately? About how…friendly he’s gotten?”

Sam laughs and shakes his head in that way that says you deal with him, he’s your angel, but all he says is “Cas is seeking a lot of human contact. I think the term is touch starved.”

Dean spends the next few days mulling that over more than he’ll ever admit. Touch starved. Is that what’s making Cas cling a little more? A little longer?

The next time Dean sees Cas, he’s holds on a little tighter. He wants Cas to be happy, wants him to know that he’s there for him. Cas sighs a little and stays pressed against him until Dean ends the hug. It’s actually not so bad, Dean decides. Cas is warm and solid, and Dean likes the safety and reassurance of the gesture.

Soon, they are not only hugging all the time, but touching each other on the arm when they talk. Dean slings an arm around Cas as they walk down the street. Cas bumps into Dean with his shoulder as he slides into the diner booth next to him. Neither of them feel the need to pull away if they accidentally brush against the other.

And finally, Cas timidly stretches his hand across the seat of the Impala, palm up, a clear invitation. Dean takes a deep breath, lets it sit there for a while as he considers. Then carefully, like he’s afraid Cas’ skin might burn him, he laces his fingers through Cas’. It’s a simple touch, only a small part of their bodies connected, but something warm and soothing spreads through Dean’s insides. After that, he holds Cas’ hand at every opportunity, glaring at Sam and daring him to make some sort of joke. Sam never does.

Eventually, they’re on Dean’s bed, watching a movie. It never occurs to Dean not to just slide up against Cas, and he goes without a fight when Cas scoots down and pulls Dean completely in his arms. The movie plays on with neither of them watching. By the time the credits roll, their legs are tangled, Cas’ hands are stroking Dean’s hair, and Dean has his face buried in Cas’ shoulder.

Maybe they were both a little touch starved.

And maybe they don’t have to be.

[suchfun-arewe]

My Cas vid won at Minncon. Oops I destielled. ;)

[whoeveryoulovethemost]

Be brave. my darling. You have faced dark times before and you’re still here now.

[twistandflowers]

“That smile cound end wars and cure cancer.” - John Green

[razziedazzie]

Someone’s gonna have to teach Misha the language where:

Gross = Adorable

Hate him = Love him

Get this disgusting thing out of my face = This is the greatest post ever and I appreciate the content

He needs to stop = I hope he never stops

Can they let me live for, like, one day??? = I am so grateful for all the ___ that has been given to us today.

[suchfun-arewe]

Cas’ trueform, as described by @northern-sparrow in her AWESOME Destiel fic Into The Fire. http://archiveofourown.org/works/4080676

The big pdf is much much prettier, btw.

https://www.dropbox.com/s/b2bvn4cv3gv2wch/castrueform.pdf?dl=0

[suchfun-arewe]

Update. Had this printed on a bag at redbubble and Misha signed (and hearted) at DC Con. He said it was beautiful, pet the bag, and looked at it a long time. I die. 😍

[amypondstolemyname]

So to address Destiel in 11x23.  I see many posts saying how Dean ‘Friendzoned’ Cas,  I personally don’t see it that way.  

I have always thought that Dean doesnt know how to differentiate between different kinds of love, he just feels love and lumps it all in the category of familial love.  To me the scene in the Impala where Dean calls Cas his brother is so meaningful as that is Dean’s own little way of expressing his love for Cas.  Whether he voiced it or not however,  it is very clear that it is very different from his brotherly love for Sam.  

Whether he voiced it as romantic or platonic we got Dean admitting love for Cas.  We got him validating Cas’s decisions and telling him he is important. 

The graveyard scene just broke me. So often in the past we have only seen Destiel from Cas’s perspective.  There is ABSOLUTELY no denying Cas’s love for Dean, but for once in a rare moment it was nice to see this from Dean.  

I know people may not agree with me, but this is my own personal take on their relationship.

[dudewheresmypie-deactivated2023]

the way cas looks at dean breaks my heart

[buccky]

cas in the finale

finally comes back

is instantly cared for

is told he’s a brother to the winchesters

is told he’s a best friend

is told that he’s helpful and his choices are pure in heart

wanted to hug dean tightly and fuckin did it

“i could come too” he says with a waver in his voice

*the sun goes back to normal* “but dean?”

offers sam his moral support and a listening ear and a kind presence. “if you ever want to talk about things” 

IN CONCLUSION the finale treated cas beautifully up until he was zapped away and i am very Thankful

[thetwelfthdr]

I could go with you.

[suchfun-arewe]

*Dean driving with Cas*

Dean: You're our best friend.

Dean thinking: Tell him you love him. Tell him you love him.

Dean: You're our brother, Cas.

Dean thinking: Dammit.

--Later at the cemetery--

Cas: Dean... *hugs Dean*

Cas thinking: Tell him you love him. Tell him you love him.

Cas: I could come with you.

Cas thinking: Dammit.

[pondlifeforme]

[rosetylr]

“there are no galaxies underneath my skin. i am not a collection of stardust and unbound potential. i am brittle bones and ugly bruises. i am a mess.” [x]

Castiel Graphic Challenge | rosetylr | prompt: Language (English)

[persephoneshadow-deactivated202]

I can't watch the episode yet and the posts I'm seeing all over tumblr are... well, various, many people seem upset? :( You are the voice of reason, please tell me, was the episode any good? Was it bad?

It was…packed! But I thought it was very good! It could have done with more character moments but I’m looking forward to rewatching!

[nihilisticlinguistics]

some people have been quite negative because they were expecting the boys to talk to Cas and convince him to eject Lucifer, (show him he’s loved and all) but I’m not sure why since they actually tried that already and it failed…? So now they seem to have decided that his entire storyline about ptsd and feeling expendable has been dropped even though he was literally alone in the vessel for 1 minute before the episode ended and he was UNCONSCIOUS

[obsessionisaperfume]

The fact that they’re saving it for the finale means it’s going to be HUGELY IMPORTANT, for fuck’s sake. Getting Cas back has literally been Dean’s driving motivation for the last half of the season. It’s been mentioned in EVERY EPISODE SINCE THEY FOUND OUT CAS SAID YES TO LUCIFER. There’s going to be a reunion. It may not be all rainbows and puppies–in fact, I’d bet actual money on it NOT–but they haven’t been building something up that much without intending to deliver on it somehow or another. Even if it’s to make Destiel seem completely impossible because they both think they’re too damaged for the other. Which, if that’s what we get, I will be OVER THE MOON, because that is one of the most Happy Ending romance tropes EVER.

[charlie-minion]

People seem to be forgetting that we’re getting season 12 and the promise of season 13 if the numbers hold up. The codependency between the brothers wasn’t resolved in season 10 and we still saw some of it this season. However, Dean let his brother make his own decision in 11x22.

Therefore, I don’t think that Dean and Cas’ relationship will be resolved this season. Now that Cas is free, they will have to address the elephant in the room in season 12. Things won’t be resolved with just a simple talk. That would simply cheapen Cas’ arc.

[little-crazy-misha-minion]

EDIT: Sorry if I sound angry Charlie-minion, it’s just ‘cause I am angry, but not at you! I’m angry at the writers. Just wanted to make it clear that my angry tone is not directed at you. I really like your blog and respect your opinion, but this is mine and it happens to have a lot of teeth, that’s all. 

I may be just talking for myself, but my major problem with the episode isn’t even the fact that Dean and Cas didn’t have a grandiose moment of “we need you” to get Cas to eject Lucifer. Not really.

My biggest problem with the episode is the way they treated Dean. 1st he was out of character. As someone else already said Dean’s motivation for almost half the season has been getting Cas back so why does he suddenly act like it’s not even an issue? He get’s Lucifer back and doesn’t even mention the fact that he wants Cas to be safe? I am sorry but it just feels oddly out of character after everything else I have seen. I could understand him not saying anything to Chuck, but not even talking about it with Sam? Come on, Dean just sitting there, letting Lucifer drag Cas around and risking Cas’ safety makes almost no sense. The man just spent weeks whit out sleep over this matter!!

2nd They blame Dean for “wanting Amara” on top of that they do it in the most ridiculous nonsensical way possible. “Dean wants Chuck to kill Amara because Dean doesn’t want to kill Amara himself”??? What??? How does that make any sense? Also what happened to “Right here, right now, every bone of my body wants to run her trough.” They had very explicitly stablished that whatever Dean felt for Amara he didn’t want it, it scares him and is beyond his control and then they blame him for it? They make him feel guilty for an all powerful supernatural being controlling his feelings? I don’t understand how wanting Amara to die equates to “I have the hots for her?” 

Now Cas… Cas was out of character too. How can I say that when he only talked for a little bit? Simple… the fact that he even talked makes zero sense. Last time we saw Cas he was confused and totally numb to absolutely everything happening outside. He was buried deep in his own mind doing nothing but staring blankly at a TV and you are telling me that he just talked to the angels like nothing happened? Are you kidding me? Cas should have had absolutely no idea of what was going on, just like he didn’t have any clue of what was going on during 11x18. Not only that but the Cas from 11x18 and the Cas from 11x22 are like night and day. Cas was numb and possibly depressed, you can’t just fix that magically whenever you want and expect me to be okay with the inconsistencies.

Another big issue that I have was Amara… You explicitly tell me that Chuck and Amara are equals, then make a big show of hurting her, making her weak, etc. And then suddenly, out of nowhere she is more powerful than Chuck (after you told me like 5 minutes ago that they are of equal power) almost kills the guy and is suddenly completely cured of all her injuries? Even after the angel’s tried to smite her Amara was injured and had to take some time to recuperate, but now she is suddenly completely fine and it turns out that this entire episode was worthless because she isn’t even hurt…

Sorry but that makes no sense at all… I can let it slide if she overpowered Chuck because she got angry and took him by surprise, fine. But to heal her out of nowhere after she couldn’t even stand up on her own? I’m not ignoring that. Specially not after the preview for next episode… because that’s the worst crime of them all.

The preview for the next episode. You are going to use Dean, not as bait, but as a friken suicide bomber. You are going to strap a nuke to Dean Winchester and send him on a suicide mission to get rid of the darkness. That was the whole point of this episode wasn’t it?

Finding a way of killing (or almost killing) Dean Winchester was the entire point of this episode. And here is why:

1st you make him feel guilty, for something he had no control over. So that he will feel the need to sacrifice himself.

2nd you get rid of Rowena’s friends so that they can’t help any further attempts to get rid of Amara.

3rd like wise you kill Lucifer, so that there is no hope of using an archangel to fight her either. 

4th you then also leave God in an extremely weak state so that he is also in no condition to challenge Amara.

5th You make sure that Amara is magically fully powered and healed (after making a whole show of weakening her, by the way) so that there is no alternative but using an extreme measure to try to get rid of her.

And this is why I am so angry at this episode. Because I study writing and I can tell when they are forcing stuff just to make some convoluted end game happen. They are not “going where the story takes them” they are making a mess of the story to force it to go where they want. There is no other reason for half the things that bothered me on this episode to happen other than to force Dean Winchester to sacrifice himself. I could have written a better season finale than they did, whit out Destiel.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s fine to have an ending planned before hand, it’s fine to know where you are going. What is not okay, is to get there by making your characters act in irrational ways, drop entire plot lines, ignore your own canon and magically fix things for your convenience with absolutely no explanation what-so-ever other than “I did this just so I could arrive at the ending I had planned.” That is lousy writing, it’s not okay now and it will never be okay. If you must arrive at a certain point at least do it gracefully and if you can’t do that then change the ending you planed. But don’t waste your audience’s time just so you can pull off some weird gimmick that puts one of your main character’s at risk. 

I honestly feel pretty confident that there are more reasons to dislike this episode than “Dean and Cas didn’t talk to each other.” Honestly I could forgive even that, if it was handled well. But it wasn’t. Making your character act in an inconsistent way in order to dance around the subject is bad writing. And I have every right to dislike their bad writing.

[charlie-minion]

Don’t worry @little-crazy-misha-minion, I totally understand why you’re angry. Notice that I only wrote about the Dean/Cas issue. I haven’t talked about the rest of the episode because I try to be a positive blog no matter what. Unfortunately, this episode gave me a huge challenge. I can barely recognize Berens as the writer. He’s third on my list of favorites, but I don’t know what happened here. This could have easily been an episode written by the dreadful duo. It hurts even more to know that it wasn’t. I’m on my phone, on my way to work, so I can’t write much. But I had to tell you that what you said about making Dean feel guilty about the Amara thing and having Cas suddenly talk as if 11x18 didn’t happen were things I really felt confused about. Therefore, I want you to know that even if I’m not as angry as you are, I acknowledge your feelings and understand why you have them.