HI THERE! I cosplay. I also write, draw, voice act, stream/record video games and generally I like a lot of things and dabble in a lot of things and I put it all here! I am also easily excitable and TALK IN CAPS A LOT.
wEE-WOO RADIO SILENCE FOR SUCH A LONG TIME OVER HERE I’ve been. Very busy.
Youmacon 2018 prep is consuming my soul again as we draw ever closer to November. I’ve been posting progress and costume updates mostly on my instagram account since it’s just. Easier. My twitter too. Figured this account was over-due for an update! :V
So here is the latest costume I’m making. The left side being the mockup piece, and the right side being the shirt almost done. Hopefully doin’ a duo-cosplay this year with this costume~ :3
Looking back on 2017... This year wasn’t the best for me personally, though it certainly wasn’t the worst.
A lot of things I had been looking forward to this year got canceled or involved my mental illness creeping up to try and ruin good things. And it was kinda rough, and took its toll on me physically quite a few times.
But a lot of delightful things happened to balance out the bad. And a lot of self discovery and growth too. My friends and family all made it through 2017, for one thing, and we shared a lot of laughs and learned lots of things together. Although some faced their own demons, some rougher than others, I’m glad they made it through and were open to seeking help.
I think, though, of all the things that happened, the highlight of 2017 for me personally would be that... I realized what it means to have a passion.
At the start of the year, I spent some nights alone in my room, anxious and quietly crying. I had no idea what I was going to do for the rest of my life, and that I was falling behind so quickly. I lacked skills to help me find Good Jobs, lacked the schooling, the college education. And it was in this moment, sitting in the literal dark of my room with my phone in hand, that I had the idea of looking up jobs for people who type fast, because I was told that was a useful skill to have, and journalist came up. I stared at it, and thought the idea of being a journalist for video games was something I could do. But doubt crept in, I had no idea where to even start and that I couldn’t apply for such a position because I had very little skill in it beyond reporting news to my friends, and I shut my phone off.
I’m a Christian, for those who may not know, and I was told that God does not give you things outright, instead, he provides you the means to get to the things you want. He gives you the road, its up to you walk it, with all the good and bad that comes with it. So in that moment of having turned my phone off, I prayed for a sign. Something that would point me in the direction of what I was supposed to do with my life. And should one appear, I’d take it. Because I didn’t know what else to do. “Just turn me toward a path, and I will do the rest.”
A week later an opportunity presented itself in such a way that I was babbling on about it and I’m sure people probably thought I was crazy, because it was so perfectly timed it was like being hit in the face with the sign I asked for. And as I promised, I sent in an application, I set out to do the work, to walk that road. And as of April 1st of 2017, I’ve been writing Square Enix related news for large fan-run news sites. I... Stepped my foot into video game journalism and dipped my toe into video games as my job. And it was in the first few months of writing for this site that I realized writing in general was something I thoroughly enjoyed and could do without much effort.
It was my passion. And one I plan to pursue.
I’m a lazy muther fuk, but 2018 I want to make the year I start seriously working on personal projects I’ve been on the fence about. I’ve realized that, if anything is going to change, I need to step up and do it. To grasp things, to try things, to work for it as hard as I can. I’m probably gonna stumble, hit a bunch of walls and be so terrified I can’t move, maybe even give up at some point. But I’m going to do my very best.
There are things I want in life, most importantly, I just want to be able to look at myself in a mirror and not think that I’ve let so much of my time pass by because I was too afraid to say yes to the good things presenting themselves to me. I’m so fucking tired of being afraid of everything because of my mental illness, I’m so tired of giving into it just to feel secure and safe and not triggered.
And you know, some things may not work out, and that’s okay, I just want to know in my head that I at least tried, even if it ended in utter failure.
So. Thanks 2017, you sucked sometimes, but because of you, I learned more about myself and grew a bit more.
IT HAS BEEN 84 YEARS SINCE I UPDATED WITH COSPLAY WORK I have been gradually working on things I just forget to post about them here whoops. I do most of my cosplay updates on my instagram.
REGARDLESS. Rey’s staff has been completed since like three months ago, I weathered her costume so now she’s all dirty and sandy like the perfect scavenger she is. And I just finished altering Lunafreya’s dress so now it fits better and also the train is gone so I won’t die to the RenCen Escalator Extreme!
Pretty much next week is going to be me becoming best friends with hairspray. Strap yourselves in boiz its Wig Stylin Time.
And so begins the count down to Youmacon 2017. In the costume department, I’m far more relaxed this year since my Rey costume is pretty much already finished and now my second costume, Lunafreya, was purchased online because I thought I wouldn’t have time to make it myself.
Turns out I did, since I decided to put Widowmaker on the back burner for now to focus on my sewing skills. However the dress came far too big on lil ol’ me, and I had to resize it, so sewing was still involved!
I’m still in the process of altering it. I am getting rid of that long train because wow that’s death waiting to happen with the high heeled booties I have to wear in a place filled with escalators. o-o;;;
The wig is unstyled as well, I was just doing a fitting and decided to try the wig out with it. :3c
So the other night my friends and I were doing quick doodles on discord and I decided to quickly doodle a stinky drunk hobo being a grump in his giant fluff.
I can’t watch it, because I’m unable to handle the gore(weeps for my weakness) but holy shit from what I’ve seen so far by skipping around.
I was worried that the “gothic romance narrative” to Castlevania would be overlooked or forgotten. But it wasn’t. They remained faithful to what little story we had from the original titles, all the while adding depth to it. I don’t want to go into detail in fear of spoiling other people though, so, that’s all Imma say.
Castlevania appears to have finally been freed from the Konami Pachislot Curse. :’D
It's a "long" wait for Final Fantasy XIV: Stormblood, and my guild and I have gotten the pre-expansion blues. So we try to ease the wait by playing various games. Minecraft being one of them.
Lipstick or Chapstick: I wear chapstick mostly because I am obsessed with making sure I am near constantly clean and that dries out my skin a lot so whoops. I wear lipstick for cosplay tho
Last song I listened to: Paired Wintry Wind dubbed and on repeat because yaaay inspiring music for drawing. :V
Last movie I watched: uuUUUUUHHHHH ITS BEEN A WHILE. Beauty and the Beast live action thing in theaters! \ovo/
Top 3 ships: FemShepxGarrus(Mass Effect), SwanxHook(OUAT) and ShiroxAllura(Voltron) are my Big Ships rn. (That aren’t Star Wars related. Please send help)
Top 3 Characters: Lightning, Rey and GENO!
People I tag: @suigon @auropengu @capriciouskupo aND ANYONE ELSE who wants to do the thing!
Midwest Media Expo is next weekend and my Rey costume is nearing the finish line. Just have a few more things to finish/working on and its fully done aaaaaaaaaa
I’m so excited to have done this costume, and I am so excited to wear it. It’s taught me a lot about sewing and wig styling, things I hadn’t tried or done before because prior costumes never called for it. It has been so much FUN! @A@
