lonely

I'm broken & bleeding

[bpdohwhatajoy]

[imsadperiod]

[idkpleasekillme]

sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal

[c0ffinbunnii]

geloyconception on insta

[honeypleasejustkillme]

who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

[terminally-unlikable]

Actually upon further inspection that shit really hurted my feelings

[snake-habitat1]

“do you want to talk about it?”

no, i want to kill myself because of it.

[thiabeagoodgirl]

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

[medicalsin]

nice personality disorder did your mom give it to you

[quick2love]

“don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Back when I used to hang out with people this was so real

[ribcagewolf]

something about growing up suicidal and extremely mentally ill. being the kid that your parents fight about, that sees psychiatrists and misses school. and creating this character for yourself, accepting yourself as someone that loves suffering and victimhood and depravity, that relishes in shocking or disgusting adults, that seeks pity. seeing death as your destiny, as this beautiful catharsis that will relieve you of all your suffering. imagining your own death for a sense of comfort, because you needed to feel like everything would culminate and be worth something.

how do you heal and move on? how do you grow up and become a normal person. when you're used to walking around crying for help, trying to express the urgency and enormity of your situation at all times. how do you let go of that.

[thiabeagoodgirl]

despair has no place to go but my skin

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Fuck everyone who took advantage of me when I was naive and attached you’re all sick and disgusting

[classycookiexo]

[faverinfairy444]

me

[prettypositivity]

be careful with how much you tolerate. you are teaching them how to treat you

[earthtodes]

My problem is I never healed I just kept going