a fawn

insane girlblogger am i the girl you dream of?

[sullenteengirl]

I want to feel the rush of watching the cars go by with you. I miss you even though you're right there.

[sullenteengirl]

Literal Goddamn Manchild

[sullenteengirl]

I am such a wannabe sylvia plath, emily dickinson, girl in an ottessa moshfegh book- I was visiting a cemetery with a friend, and I don't think he was nearly as impressed as I was.

[bloodgutsangelcakes]

what the hell am i even doing with my life

[lanadelreyretroaesthetics]

Change is a powerful thing, people are powerful beings,trying to find the power in me to be faithful.

[stargirl1l]

[californiastrs]

[sullenteengirl]

I am my father's daughter. My paternal grandmother was my first father. I look at her and I see me I see my hair and my eyes and my nose and my avoidant tendencies and my appreciation for beautiful things. She is a hoarder, of course, and my obsession with boxes, and stacks of books, and figurines, and pictures, and cooking appliances, is rekindled when I see her. The obsession I have had since childhood with material things is constantly hidden away and locked in a secret gold case, in fear of being sniffed out by the rest of the world. I kept my infatuation with beautiful things a secret, I would take inventory in my head and keep the possessions themselves hidden in drawers, cabinets, closets, bags, anywhere you can think of. Then I stepped into her house and all of the pent-up addiction sprawled out of me like a million ribbons all gliding and twirling in the dank and stale air. I was enamored with it all.

[sullenteengirl]

To be in my head is a misfortune

To be in my head, hearing my thoughts racing past at the speed of horses I see galloping in my dreams, racing past like streaks of burnt lightening. God how terrible it must be.

[sullenteengirl]

rereading the bell jar by sylvia plath

I am 100 pages into the bell jar because the last time I read it- I was in eighth grade. I wanted to see if I would notice or relate to anything different upon the second read. I was also kind of curious to see what eighth grade me wrote in the book. She was naïve.

[sullenteengirl]

But

I can bat my lashes at you and hope for the best

[sullenteengirl]

You look at me the way clavicular looks at woah vicky and i really don't like how much i needed u- i'm such a girl loser

[sullenteengirl]

the girl in me sees everything in you

[sullenteengirl]

How to get people to excuse your strange demeanor and odd tendencies

Be extremely beautiful

Let everyone hit your vape

Kill your need for control

Keep a push-up bra in your rotation

Search and search and search for the good and pure in everyone.

[naturalbornunicorn222]

[sullenteengirl]

I hope he knows that I love them and I have been spending my time with them in the same way that a meteorite burns up- sparkling in the sky and mingling with the gasses and heat in the atmosphere right before it makes its impact onto earth.

But just before it crashes into some unknown land, it will look and it will see the vast blues and greens of the world. It will see the world as many of us have never even seen it. Taking it all in until the last second and then the blissful, painless impact.

[sullenteengirl]

Driving in cars with boys the lana del rey song rewired my brain- in such a catastrophic way. I live for driving in cars with boys- riding around town drinking in their white noise.