"i'd like to believe that," a soft smile curls onto sutton's lips as he imagines wes as a child : wide-eyed and with that infectious laugh that still spills from his lips when he's happy. sutton doesn't know much about wes' upbringing, but he can tell it was scarring and his heart aches for him, wishing he could rewrite history for the man he loves. maybe suttonβs naive, maybe heβs willing something into existence that isnβt there - - but he thinks there are soft spots to wes. spots that wes, himself, hides from. and maybe ( just maybe ) sutton is lucky enough to get glimpses. he hopes those moments arenβt just for show, arenβt just for wes to get what he wants from sutton. this sudden anger, this violence, makes sutton feel like a monster. like his father. and, fuck, heβs spiraling - - after all of his hard work, is he going to end up like him? cruel, miserable, and awful? guilt makes an unwelcome home beneath his ribs as he has wes shoved against the wall. blue eyes meet their twin flames as his chest heaves, anger and hurt tangling together. the jab lands exactly where wes meant it to.βfuck you, wes. you worse than those rich kids,β voice is raised ( and sutton doesnβt even recognize it ), forearm is raised to wesβ collarbone to keep him in place as his knee lifts higher ( rougher ) between wesβ thighs. βdonβt you fucking dare bring my father up,β suttonβs lower lip trembles. wes knows itβs a sore spot, knows what suttonβs father is like. he pulls himself together - - that is, until wes is whispering against his ear and shivers are sent down his spine. hand finds wesβ jaw and sutton holds it as he pulls back. βyou think i like never knowing what version of you is going to show up? you think i like getting my heart broken whenever my friends send pictures of you on a fucking dating show? you think i like when you treat me like i donβt deserve a damn thing?β whatβs twisted is that there is part of him that does. thumb gently brushes over wesβ lower lip as sutton speaks, and the words come out slowly, βwhat would happen if i left? if you didnβt have the only stable thing in your life to fall back on when you fuck upβ¦or when you get lonely?β