My Script

♥♥♥♥♥ Friendly, outgoing, and wanderlust. ☆College student.

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An Object

Blood rushes through my body each morning, something that I never pay attention on. Since the first thing on my mind each day I wake up are the errands I have to do! When I just wish I can run out of space and everything goes blank. I feel like I'm an object and not a human. I'm an ambitious person and when I want something I make sure I get it. I have plans and goals I want to accomplish along with marrying an Indian!! I would not quit until I get what I want. My life does not seem to be where I want it to be, but I should not worry because I have the support of the one person who will never leave me.. God! I've done things I should not have, but let's be realistic, no one is perfect. I am done trying to feel wanted or useful, because at this point it seems that I don't matter to no one. Family and friends are the most important people in my life, but at this point I have learned to do things by consulting it with God only! He doesn't disturb me when I'm talking, and I can talk for hours without getting a single "excuse" From now on, I'm going to do what I do best and is to be a loner with God by my side only!!

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Patiently waiting....

My dumb self had unprotected sex and now I'm patiently waiting for my period to get here. I really hope I get it. God please be with me!! Let me get my period..

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Wedding and reflecting on life

Well today I went to one of my friends wedding and it was the first wedding that I have been to that was a friend of mine. I am super happy and excited for her next chapter of life. I see all my friends dating, getting engaged and getting married. While I'm still single and I feel like I would never get married because I've been single for 9 years. That's depressing, sometimes I feel like I was just meant to be single forever and just help those who are waiting for me in third world countries. Thanks to a friend that I have he reminds me that I I am pursuing something and aiming higher. Which is true. I want to become independent before I can actually get married. I want to be able to take care of myself first before I can take care of someone else. Life is not short. It's full of surprises and I'm just going to keep on doing what I'm best at and that is to keep pursuing what I always wanted to. Which is to help those who are less fortunate. Reminder to myself: Keep moving forward, and aim to accomplish your dreams.

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A week from today

I had the most embarrassing thing happen to me a week from today. I was having SEX and after we were done I noticed that I was on my period. I stained the bed and he had cleaned himself and there was blood on his dick but not a lot. I was so embarrassed but then once he pulled out he cum right in my stomach. I believe we both just felt so embarrassed. I really need to stop having sexy without protection. I have goals I need to achieve!

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I met Traveler

One month ago today I met this one handsome man which I called traveler. He was a very handsome man, he was one of my birthday presents since my birthday was on April 30. My friends and I went to Atlanta as usual and he came a long. I had a blast 😊😊 Well is been a month and now he doesn't even message me. I guess I was just another girl for him. I actually thought that something would happen between him and I but I was completely wrong. I'm such a fool 😢

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The two most ultimate sentences have four words!

We need to talk! 

Is one of the few sentences which many women's do not want to hear when they are in a relationship. Since is most likely to lead to a break up. If i can recall i remember hearing this sentence one time and i was devastated for months. Since i was in a four year relationship, but now i can look back and be thankful because i am heading towards a successful path unlike the guy who broke up with me and is just working at McDonalds.  

On the other hand, 

Will you marry me?

Is the one question which every single women is waiting to hear. For instance, i been single for years and the majority of my friends are getting engaged and I feel as if I'm going to be that one friend who dies single. Having success is an important aspect in life, but i also believe that one should have that one significant other who they can home to. 

I just hope that the next guy I date "If it even happens," that he will say to me "Will you marry me?" with an engagement ring which would make me speechless after saying "Yes" and some Christian Louboutin heels, because lets just admit it every girl deserves to have a pair of fancy heels. 

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Second week of summer

It has been the second week of summer and the only thing i have been doing is watch television. I been catching up to my tv shows. Life is a struggle sometimes. Although i am working so I'm not completely lazy. 

I miss writing. During this summer i would start writing more on my blog. Even though i know many people don't read it. I just enjoy expressing my thoughts. 

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Understanding

I don't think anyone understands me this moment. Three years ago I was heading to the one place that I never imagined and it has been three years. I don't want to be in America anymore. I want to be back in Sri Lanka. I need to finish my studies right away. Is not easy to live in one place and be craving another where my heart has stayed. My girls, they are my everything I miss them like crazy. I cannot wait to see them in May 2015. That is all I ask for my graduation. A trip back to Sri Lanka. I cannot express my feelings in any other way. Nov 16, will be a date that I would never remember. I met the most amazing people spending 7 months in Sri Lanka and I would never take that back. I would never regret it. My life was destined to go back to my girls and give them much more love, laughter and much more. Why must I been in this continent so called North America. I don't even go to church I do things I'm not suppose to I rather be in a place surrounded by my girls and go I church seeking God so I can make it to heaven with my girls. Whom change my entire life completely. I just want to bundle up in my bed all day and think about the inevitable moments I had in Sri Lanka.

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I am blessed. Thanksgiving arrived early for me this year. I have a very grateful friend that donated 500 dollars to my school account. I have a clue on who it might have been, but I'm not going to say nothing. I'm love you. I can truly say that I have three friends in general that I can count on and I know that without them my life will not be as amazing as how it is. I cannot wait to graduate because I want to thank all those that have helped me through out the years while being in college. Jesus has blessed me a lot. I don't know what I would have done without my family and friends. Ps. I love you anonymous person that donated 500 dollars. I hope that one day I can find out who this person was. I want to be able to return the favor back by making it big in this world because I know you believe in me and I would not let you down. You are going to make it big as well. We are going to make it through life with the support of each other.

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I would make this happen 😉

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Isle 5 It all started with a simple "Hello", and had a short conversation last night. I finally spoke to the Indian guy working at Walmart on isle 5. His name is Anish.

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Epic Fail

So each time that I try to plan to go clubbing it always fails. I guess is a sign that I should just stop clubbing because is not healthy for me and I always do crazy shit that I shouldn't do. Enough said I guess I won't be going clubbing anymore /:

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Thinking

So lately I been thinking a lot since all I do is work and exercise. So my mind is not worrying about classes for the moment. Well back to the point... I have been thinking and what I have been thinking is not easy. I was thinking that this whole time I have been telling myself that I am want to date a Pakistani, but will that actually happen? Will a Pakistani actually fall for me? I am getting older and older each day and I'm already 24 with no boyfriend, no college degree yet (still working on it), but I do have a job. Am I going to be single forever? Will I ever find someone? Will I ever get engaged? What will happen this upcoming school year? When will I meet my Prince Charming? Too many questions to ask, but no response or miracle.

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Working out

I been working out today is my fifth day and I must say that I have seen some results. I'm so happy. Working out with a friend often has made me come to the conclusion of not clubbing anymore and eating useless fast food. I am on a goal to get abs and have nice calves and to accomplish that I need to stop drinking alcohol and making out with guys because they are guys that I would never see again. Working out is a great way to escape the bad habits!

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Received a raise

Today is one of the happiest days of my life because not only did God give my mother another year of life, but I got a raise at my job!! I went from 8 to 9.25.. Check me out! Balling status haha

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4 years ago

I was attending my first college class. I cannot believe how fast the time has pass by. I have had some unbelievable experiences. For example after my first year of college I went off for 7 months to be a Student Missionary in Sri Lanka and then this summer that just passed I went to Argentina to preach. I can honestly say that my college experience has been one of a kind. And I should be graduating this school year coming up since I took a year off to be an SM, but things happen. I will be graduating May 2015 since I switched majors and my life was all turned around. I don't mind being an extra year in college because to be honest I am not ready to enter reality. Although I still need to get my masters to pursue my dream job which is to work with United Nations. I have set many goals and with the help of God I will accomplish them. I want to do an internship in New York next summer and after graduation I want to go back to Sri Lanka and hopefully find a job for 3 months and study Arabic in Lebanon. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me Phill 4:13

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July 13, 2013

There are things that I have done and I do not regret but there are some actions that I have done and I do regret.

Today I took it to the next level and I was not even drunk. I did something I never imagined, but didn’t actually do it.

Wtf.. I think the only reason I do all this is because I feel lonely and it seems that the only guys that seem attracted to me are the ones that I have meet at the club and still keep in touch with them.

I need to stop doing some actions that later on I will regret!!

Today I was so close into doing something that I am not suppose to, but thankfully I did not do it..

I need to get my head straight and become a better lady!!