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20 | any pronouns | my coping mechanism for all of my mental illness | one of us

[scunthotter]

I get annoyed when people are making posts that are shocked that Shane pulled Ilya. And like maybe, /maybe/, Shane locked down Ilya (there's an argument that Ilya 'domesticity kink' Rosanov locked himself down as soon as he could get Shane to agree to it) but Shane did not pull Ilya, Ilya pulled Shane.

Canonically Shane is one of the hottest men in the world, he's rich, he is at the top of his high intensity career, and he has the biggest saddest wettest most beautiful brown eyes out of anyone on the planet. The moment Ilya saw a scrap of interest he was arranging for them to be in a commercial and jerking off in the shower at him. Ilya watched this man fold his pants one (1) time and thought "well i gotta fuck him forever now". Shane tried to say there wouldn't be a next time and Ilya was like it's too late, I've got your number, you're never getting rid of me, if I annoy you enough you will come organize my socks as like a sex thing.

[itwasagunshot]

this age discourse around the six of crows characters is so interesting to me. i’ve seen a lot of people over the years say that they feel like the characters should have been older, but as someone who read it at 16 for the first time, at no stage did i feel like the characters could not have been my peers. if anything, now as an adult, when i reread them now i feel like i’m older than them, even if i am still undeniably more sheltered than them.

six of crows is a peak example of the ya coming of age conflict where they, in many respects, are being disrespected and suppressed due to their age. even kaz, who is probably the character easiest to age up, is irrefutably different from pekka rollins and per haskell because he is still on the front lines of the barrel conflicts. he doesn’t have that privilege of sitting down and ordering others around at the beginning of the duology, because he doesn’t have that experience! he’s still too young.

and it’s the characters emotions and relationships that really cement the fact they’re teenagers! i actually don’t think nina and matthias’s relationship would have worked if nina was any older, because she would have had too much experience with fjerdan violence and oppression to consider him in any capacity. alternatively, matthias being mentally indoctrinated into an ideology and having actually physically undertaken it in his life are two very different positions to be in. the youth and inexperience that allows for their relationship to develop. the naive conviction both characters exhibit is something i strongly related to as a teenager, which as an adult doesn’t resonate to the same extent - despite only being in my mid 20s.

idk, i just think that six of crows is such a masterful young adult novel, and this attempt to remove it from its genre is really strange, and is harming the quality of the story.

[clairvoyantly-yours-deactivated]

we all talk about sweet kaz and inej moments a lot, but remember the time kaz displayed a soft spot for jesper too? when jesper asked kaz to give him parem to keep as a safety measure in crooked kingdom, kaz knew it would be the smart thing to do, but still didn't give it to him. and instead told him that his life mattered more to his father than some plot of land. i think about that scene a lot, because even though in quite a lot of the duology kaz was mad at jesper for basically ratting the crew out to the dime lions, he still cares about him a lot and views him somewhat like a brother ("who the hell is jordie" lol).

also, from the entire crew, jesper is the only one who he addresses by a nickname. i know it's nothing personal and "jes" is simply a shortened form of his name, but i still personally like that detail.

[sciroccoorion35]

​I also think the sense of betrayal is deeper because it’s Jesper. Jordie betrayed him too, just as unwittingly, because of his weakness, his desire for a quick score. And he hasn’t grappled with it yet, this big tangle of emotions he has surrounding Jordie: loss, betrayal, guilt, abandonment.

[lilxmoo]

Kaz loving magic tricks as a boy and falling in love with a girl who can dissapear. Inej being told to find a boy who remembers her favorite flower, and falling in love with a boy who remembers her most important dreams. Jesper losing the one person who saw him as blessed and falling in love with a boy who sees him as even more than that. Wylan seeing magic in every mundane thing, and falling in love with a boy with magic in his veins. Nina growing up knowing she would always be targeted and falling in love with a boy who vows to protect her. Matthias losing his love for the world as a child and falling in love with a girl who loves even the simplest of pleasures.

No one writes romance like Leigh Bardugo

[phantasymistart]

some kaz to get me out of an art block

[rosiethorns88]

"You're Better Than Waffles"

Living vicariously through Wylan, who I imagined cuts up his waffles into individual squares like I used to do as a child.

Officially licensed prints available in bio link!

[vilecemetery]

leigh bardugo has massively edited and rewritten the six of crows books and no one has noticed

or has for some reason decided not to mention it at all or let anyone else know.

I just found out something insane today. in the new dregs editions that came out for the 10th anniversary, leigh bardugo has removed any and all mention of the crows being teenagers, cut out whole sentences and completely changed quotes that are classic and very well known by fans of the six of crows duology. she’s replaced any mention of words like ‘children’ ‘boy’ ‘girl’ and ‘kids’ with ‘man’ ‘woman’ ‘grown’ etc

this is concerning, bewildering and just feels wrong for so many reasons. but besides the obvious —which is that the six protagonists of the duology being young is essential to many aspects of the plot, seeing as their world weariness and competence is a result of their experiences as children and survivors who are victims of their environment—besides even that, editing a piece of literature that’s been published and on shelves for 10 years is objectively not a good idea at all, and doesn’t at all take into account the new contexts and connotations the new wording brings.

above is an example of the original scene we know verses the new version. lots of it has changed, namely their ages, but the sentence at the end in matthas' pov doesn't even sound like him at all. her writing quality has declined noticeably and she sounds like she wrote that sentence in a rush. it makes no sense, and it's not something matthias, who knows practically nothing about the barrel, would be thinking.

and not to mention the famous line 'brekker's eyes were ancient, but he couldn't be any older then matthias' — cut out of the book completely. I do wonder what impact, effect and influence these changes will have on new readers.

this is another example. such a classic line and they cut it completely.

the entire books are like this. inej saying kaz looking seventeen is changed to kaz looking like someone's apprentice. the boy of the barrel changed to man. criminal prodigy changed to just mastermind. inej described as a woman in place of a sixteen year old girl. wylan changed from boy to young man. full scenes cut. 'jesper is zemeni but don't hold it against him' changed to ‘don’t let him wax sentimental about it’ which sounds way worse then the original.

and I don't actually own the new copies of these books, my best friend was looking at them in a bookstore and that's when we first noticed all of the changes. so I truly have no idea what else could possibly be changed besides the things I noticed as I cannot look at them for reference - the crow's physical appearance, more of the plot, other famous scenes just being cut completely, etc. if nothing else has changed, then it’s still way too much and massively changes core aspects of the books. but I do wonder. if you own the dregs special editions, I suggest looking for similar differences. I might have to write examples to express how messed up the new connotations are.

leigh now implies that jesper, an adult black man, made the right choice by handing over his share from his job to his white father to keep for you, as he cannot control himself and isn't ready to receive his own funds, as he is a mindless gambler. this is extremely different to a reckless irresponsible teenager grieving his mother and making stupid mistakes, and then deciding to make better decisions in the future with help from his parent. I'm sure you can see without me spelling it out how awful, racist and problematic the new context of jesper being a grown man makes this situation sound.

another example is matthias' childhood centrally seeing him be groomed, manipulated and indoctrinated by a nazi coded witch hunting organisation that targets grisha, an oppressed community, with the intention of torturing, burning, hanging, raping and eradicating them from the world

matthias is just turning 18 when he meets nina. he has not yet done any of these terrible things himself. he is fresh out of training and still basically a child. his views are first challenged, and he eventually breaks out of the brainwashing and mental manipulation that has been taught and instilled in him with repetition. it's not an excuse, but it's more understandable. matthias, now a grown man apparently way older then 18, has no excuse for these bigoted views as he is way more mature, has way more experience, and would have had to have done these horrific things to grisha at some point.

it feels like some sort of fever dream that six of crows was edited and re published so that these famous teenage characters (who were first written so obviously— in dialogue, actions, pov, - as teenagers) and their criminal prodigy leader were made into poorly written adults. I can put into words how much this has deeply bothered and distressed me and many other readers I've spoken to.

it's such an odd choice and makes me think it was done to soften the backlash the shadow and bone adaption received from some fans for aging up the characters in the first place.

I cannot stress this enough- leigh bardugo would edit iconic lines and change core aspects of her characters that have been around for 10 years to justify a cancelled netflix adaption of these incredibly popular and well loved books. it's odd and uncomfortable.

now, these books mean the world to me, they have quite literally got me through physical, mental and emotional childhood abuse, suicide ideation and self harm, the everyday ableism and oppression, chronic pain and disability experience, severe depression and anxiety, absolute hopelessness, work and life, etc) but the sheer absurdity of this all just outmatches my distress that it happened. it feels like some sort of hallucination becasue it's lowkey just insane. she never even mentioned she was going to do something like this?

there is just no conceivable reason for leigh bardugo to have done this secretly and quietly other then to have stopped people negatively critiquing the show or some other deeply odd notion. and with all of these changes, the new books absolutely are not the 'dregs' editions— the heart of the dregs is the young blood, 'the kids like kaz who he had brought in a organised, who worked the hardest and took the worst jobs'

they are the bad netflix adaption editions. the sympathy for terrible adult cast editions. it's troubling, clearly not a well thought out decision, and deeply bizarre. tell me others agree.

[haikeren]

[wyrdpersonwhowanders]

loving that fact that even though dean only ever refers to cas as "the angel" while looking for him in purgatory, everyone else seems to have clocked that cas is "that crazy human's angel"

8x01

8x02

then there's this in 8x05

while benny also calls cas THE angel in this scene, i think it's because cas calls him THE vampire

it's a two-way thing where they both refuse to call the other by name, only be species. benny is undoubtedly VERY aware that the angel is really dean's angel - case in point with this scene where benny calls cas dean's "buddy," putting a special emphasis on the way he says "buddy"

pretty sure the reason for that goes back to this scene in 8x02 and benny realising that they might be a bit more than buddies but are probably in denial

[knotboy-dean]

There is something to be said about the plot line that purgatory is all instinct and pure action of survival without the normal humanity/morals getting in the way and yet all Dean did in purgatory was look for Cas. Like yeah he killed monsters in the process but it was widespread knowledge among the monsters that he was only doing that bc 1. They were hunting HIM of course and 2. He was looking for info about Cas. It’s just wild to me that in a place where it’s basic instinct and survival, Dean’s instinctual survival tactic is find Cas. And because there are no other issues to worry about from the normal outside world (like Sam or the safety of all humanity for example) he can do this without interruption of feeling guilty. Do you get what I’m saying here

[felixblindluck]

[valdelion]

"sunshine" is an insane pet name not just because it apparently became a regular occurrence, but because it's a bunker. Dean lives in an underground bunker and calls his buddy sunshine

[witha-boxofscraps]

Finally started S8 of supernatural and Cas being universally known in fucking purgatory as Dean’s Angel PURELY BY DEANS ACTIONS HAS ME FUCKING GNAWING AT THE BARS OF THIS QUEERBAIT ENCLOSURE LET ME OUT

[sunflowers-n-sage]

s8 is the gayest thing they ever did

[thefriendlypigeon]

"Dean, it's a human portal. There's still no proof that an angel can pass." "Stow it, Cas. You're coming. That's final." "I'm just saying… if it doesn't wor … thank you. For everything." "Save the Hallmark. Okay? It's gonna work. Nobody gets left behind."

For a moment, Dean tried to hold on to that stubborn certainty, but Cas’s eyes wouldn’t let him. There was something in them, something too final, like a shadow already written in the future.

The forest was hushed, shafts of pale light breaking through the trees, dust motes drifting like falling ash. Dean felt a knot in his chest, the kind he couldn’t punch his way out of.

“Cas…” he whispered, softer than he meant to.

Cas tilted his head in that familiar way, but the gesture carried a weight now. Like he was memorizing Dean’s face, burning every detail into eternity.

Dean’s throat worked, anger and grief tangling in equal measure. He grabbed Cas by the collar, dragging him closer, pushing a huff out of him.

"I feel like, Cas, I - Ah fuck it"

Dean kissed him.

Cas pressed back, steady and unyielding, clawing his hands into Dean's jacket.

When they parted, their breaths lingered in the cold air between them. Dean’s hand stayed on Cas’s jaw, trembling. “You’re not leaving me,” he said, almost a prayer. “You hear me? You’re not.”

Cas’s lips quirked in the faintest, sorrowful smile. “Then perhaps… I’ll see you on the other side.”

And before Dean could answer, the light from the portal flared, swallowing the space around them in silence and shadow.

💚💙💚

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[sunflowers-n-sage]

i wish show writers weren’t cowards 💔

[maneatermatthews]

I think the fact that Dean tore purgatory apart looking for cas and refused to leave without him while Cas purposely stayed away from Dean to keep him safe really describes the very essence of their relationship.

[wyrdpersonwhowanders]

garth here totally thinking that dean broke up with cas and is now dating some guy called benny that he met in a bar in miami called purgatory

[sunflowers-n-sage]

lincoln’s death will always destroy me