after a lot of thought, i've decided to leave the mogai community.
you all have been wonderful and i've thoroughly enjoyed my stay, for the most part. i made almost 2500 posts' worth of content. probably over 1000 genders. i've fullfilled dozens of requests and answered hundreds of asks.
and it's been great.
you guys are awesome. every anon who's come to my inbox, everyone who's ever sent a request, everyone who leaves positive comments on my posts. you guys are some of the best people i've ever known. and this community will always be in my heart. but coining has taken too much out of me. running this blog feels like a chore. this is horrible on my mental health and it's time i realise that disappoining one or two followers is less important than my entire state of mental wellbeing.
on that note, though, i am sorry. it's gotten harder and harder to convince myself that anyone actually likes my content, that anyone actually wants me here. but if there's someone who enjoys my posts, or likes the genders i make... i'm sorry. i can't keep doing that and i'm sorry. you don't deserve for me to just dip out on you like this.
it hurts too much to carry on. when i don't coin, i hate myself for not coining. when i do coin, i hate myself because of the quality of my posts, the quality of my genders. i hate myself because i will never be reign or cinna or mason or the sunrise system. i will never be enough, or so it seems. i've tried going on a hiatus. i've tried "pushing through." i've tried to act like my usual fun and peppy self from january. i've tried to make my flags better and my posts cuter. there's only one thing left to try. so that's what i'm doing.
thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart. thank you for some of the wackiest conversations, happiest days, and best friends i could've ever asked for. thank you for being my safe place- my people. thank you for making me smile and making me cry. thank you for being here. i love you all.
goodbye.
