Written February 26th, 2026.
Tattoo tomorrow and we'll be talking about a sleeve!!
Jade's concert Wednesday... like that's my bday twin, my favorite little mix member ♥️
Potentially a pizza on Saturday... don't even ask me why it's making the list. Life just feels sweet like that.
Cheol looked like the most adorable teddy bear in the world, and I wanna bite him.
I got OT8 Ateez pcs in 5 sealed poca albums on Vinted... it was 15 bucks, those are my 1st Ateez albums. I collect too many people already so I always thought no, but life is saying yes, so I'm going for it.
Like all 2023/2024/2025 and even January of 2026, I've been deep in the trenches, wishing I was dead, I have little to no memories of what happened in my life prior to 2023... even Covid is a blur, and now suddenly I make plans? I get out of bed? I eat? I maintain my hygiene?
I'm not "cured" like some days are fucking hard still but instead of wishing I was dead when those happen, I just wish Spring comes faster? I'll be fr, I always thought "it gets better" was a lie, and some people (me) weren't made for life and eventually stopped imagining it and committed, but NO!! IT GETS BETTER FR, like I have dreams and goals and plans that only involve me...
I used to say, "I can't bc I wanna see my brother get married and have kids." Now it's like: I'm gonna work to afford tattoos, my driving lessons, concert tickets, help my parents even more. I'm gonna get said driver license and also finish my evening formation about computer science successfully by the end of the year, and why not apply to Spanish and German classes? I can go back to higher education in 2028? Okay, I'll work 2 years and then go back to it and get at least a bachelor degree... wtf? I had no idea life could make your heart go 💗💗
I feel like the Grinch, feeling his heart grow
That tattoo is gorgeous, getting touch-ups next week.
Got groped during the dj set at Jade's concert, but her concert part made it all better. Top 3 performers I've ever seen. Honestly would be a 10/10 if it wasn't for that man (it's a 9 still: people called security for me, he got kicked out of the venue and more importantly the people who helped me I'm still in contact with and went to get a coffee with since so awful yes but I made friends out of it? So yes its going into positive things)
My brother, whose education I took care of, taught me how to build my planter and how to use each machines and he was hella proud of my execution for my 1st time.
I got 24 flowers from my grandma when we went to the Netherlands.
I am actively cleaning my depression rooms, and I have full access to my desk.
I got gifted my new favorite necklace and a concert ticket to go see Suzanne in early 2027!!
One of my Discord friends, whom I love like a real irl friend, supported me through me leaving a bad server and made us a new one. All my favorite people joined... I genuinely am starting to stop doubting those friendships.
I got a new pain doctor for my chronic illness... He didn't mention my weight. He was understanding, and he is eye candy.
I got a 100% at my midterm.
I did adjust my plans, and I will be taking German still but changing Spanish for Japanese since they lead trends and I want to work in marketing.