Something I think about SQQ's reaction to Binghe at the edge of the Abyss and then in Jin Lan City and the like is
From his perspective, he's gotten the equivalent of a psychic vision that Luo Binghe Will Do These Things. He keeps missing and rationalising away signs that that vision no longer applies, but, he does have good reason to think that those events are likely to happen, and isn't just... making wild assumptions.
But Binghe doesn't know that.
From his perspective, SQQ learned that he had heavenly demon heritage. And IMMEDIATELY turned on a dime on him. IMMEDIATELY forgot about everything else Binghe had ever done, everything about their relationship, everything he knew about Binghe - all of that no longer mattered or counted for anything anymore. Because Binghe was born a particular way, everything he said and did would only ever be Bad.
And so... it's certainly true that Binghe underestimates how genuinely fearful Shen Qingqiu is in Jin Lan City. But I think it's more than that. He thinks that SQQ is afraid of him purely because he is a heavenly demon.
And SQQ clearly believes that Binghe will suddenly start acting, now, in a way Binghe has observably never acted before. Like, when Binghe comes to see him at night? And he leaps out of the window to run away? Does he think Binghe would just - forget that he's a high-ranking member of Huan Hua and start doing violence on him then and there, dash the consequences?! It's kind of - ridiculous!! When has Binghe ever acted like that kind of person, ever?!
As a comparison... imagine someone who has impressed upon you how progressive they are, and that they believe people of every race should be treated equally. And then they find out that you belong to a particular ethnicity that they didn't know about. And suddenly they're telling you that, no, this ethnicity is the exception, that 'throughout history your people have been the cause of every ill' etc. etc.*
Yes, Binghe doesn't want Shen Qingqiu to be afraid. But the sheer extent of this turnaround is also... really hurtful and insulting...? Like, is Shen Qingqiu's bias really that strong that he would discard every experience they ever shared together...?
And Binghe asks him to his face if he truly believes that he is incapable of compassion or of valuing all that is good and loving in the world because he is a heavenly demons. That heavenly demons - and therefore Binghe - could only ever truly be motivated by a desire for destruction and dominance.
And SQQ's reaction is "hell yes I do????? that is 100% correct my dude????"
Binghe isn't acting the way he does in Jin Lan City for no reason. It's not even entirely because of Xin Mo, though that is inarguably a highly important factor.
He's also just... genuinely hurt. That somebody he cared about and loved - and somebody who professed, repeatedly, to care about and love him, who took him in and encouraged him to depend on him, who guided him and mentored him and patted his head and told him how brilliant he was and believed in him when no-one else would - would suddenly believe that he was a whole other person. Someone incapable of any of that. Just because of something he couldn't control, and never wanted for himself at all.
(Something, also, which would get him hunted for sport by a lot of other powerful people around him. Shizun allowed him to believe that he might be a safe person who wouldn't do that. But he wasn't.)
And, also, you know: trying to kill him by throwing him into hell when he first found out about this stuff. He's pretty hurt about that, too.
(Plus Binghe is smart enough to realise that there was probably something else going on and Shizun maybe didn't really mean all those things he said... except, no, yeah, uh, apparently, he did and he does. RIP.)
tl;dr as far as Binghe has any possible way of knowing, SQQ is suddenly terrified to be around him mainly just because he is Extremely Racist. and. that is part of the reason why he doesn't show him a a little more sympathy.
*Or, if you think that's an inappropriate comparison because demons are physiologically different to humans in a way other races aren't, then, alternative: some particular mental illnesses and disorders increase the likelihood of them not necessarily being the most convenient to be around. (I say this myself as someone with AuDHD.) But if someone found out that you had one of those stigmatised disorders and then suddenly treated you like you were some Always Chaotic Evil race from a racist fantasy story. They would very much be the bad guy, there.
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