SAGAU fic | f!reader — HIRAETH. pt.1
Hiraeth — It is a Welsh word that describes a deep sense of nostalgia, homesickness, or a melancholic longing for a home, place, or time that no longer exists.
TW: reader is a bit too self-aware, derealization, daydreaming. (please, let me know if I forgot anything !!!)
A/N: it's my first time writing for Genshin and tbh im quite anxious I've been anxiously writing this since morning and couldn't wait to post it.I hope you like it, I'll probably do a masterlist for it later !
English is not my first language, so please excuse my poor grammar and dialect
It's been a week already.
A week, or perhaps even more, since you arrived here. Suddenly, without warning or anything precious you were attached to. It was like being ripped from your mother's womb all over again.
Not that you remember this, but the analogy still stands on.
All you could see was white, a white so deep that if it weren't for the sky and the few trees around, you would think you were in one of those white hospital rooms. But it didn't matter that much, at least not more than the fact that you couldn't move or even open your eyes. It was like that feeling of falling asleep on the bus and being awake, but at the same time still sleeping.
It was like seeing from your own eyes like a spectator, like in a movie scene or anything like that.
In any way, there wasn't much you could do other than just watch. Watching as the sky changed, as winter turned in spring, spring into summer, and summer in autumn, and it kept going. It was strange, because time was moving so fast and yet, you felt like just a few minutes or hours passed.
It was like playing The Sims 4 all over again, and staying in your room making characters, and then ...
You really couldn't remember much more now that you stopped and thought about it.
Who were you? You remember being an adult, having finished high-school, you couldn't remember if you have been to a university, or if you had a job, or anything at all. It was like your memories had all broken into little tiny pieces and just some were big enough to be seen.
You remember playing Genshin Impact when you arrived from school, maybe playing with a friend or two, maybe more. You can remember almost everything about that game, but you can't remember much about your life.
Around the sixth day you stopped thinking about it, it was making your head hurt all over again.
You remembered your name at least, and that was more than enough.
Really, seeing the world just going to its cycle of day and night was becoming quite boring, it was impressive to watch at first, but everything in excess lost its appeal.
Around the seventh day you felt like your conscience was being pulled, like waking up from a deep sleep you didn't know you needed. And when your eyes opened, you saw the sky full of dark clouds, where snowflakes kept falling.
Your eyes continued to stare at the clouds, blinking slightly as if still waking up, until a snowflake fell right in your nose and made you sneeze. And slowly, it was like you remembered that you now had a body, a body that was laying on top of a very comfortable bunch of snow.
It was like the cold didn't affect your body, or maybe you were just so out of it and already with hypothermia and dying. Something that wouldn't make you very happy, having just woken up. And now that you have stopped to really think about it, you didn't even know where you were since you've spent all the time reflecting about who you were.
What a shame really, but there wasn't much you could do to change that now, so you just tried to get up. Surprise filling you up when your body succeeds and doesn't dramatically fail like in those fanfics you used to read.
The thought made you stop and blink slowly.
Oh, that's right. You used to read, books, manhwa, fanfiction, everything that would fulfill that need of belonging somewhere that you always had. It made you wonder if somehow you managed to get in one of those 'I was reborn as the villainess' manhwa's, or anything like that.
Well, you would never know if you stayed here sitting in the snow, so you started to gather your surroundings while getting up. But you still couldn't see much more than snow and dead trees. And now that you finally stopped to try to look around you noticed that your body wasn't bare, you were using clothes, warm ones. With a stylized red coat that you couldn't really understand anything in it.
It seemed full of unnecessary details that would probably draw attention, but it's not like you'd refuse the heat source that kept you safe from freezing in that eternal cold. Looking around, you noticed that the clothes were the only thing with you. No bag, no ID, no spare clothes, no money, nothing.
With a deep sigh leaving your lips, you turned around and looked to the sky, a trail of smoke was coming from somewhere nearby. And it could only mean that there was a fire nearby, and a fire meant a shelter.
So, with an objective in mind, you started to move towards whatever was your destiny now.
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