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Seeing where this goes.

Whatever happens.

Wherever it takes me.

There’s only one way to ever be sure.

I can never catch a break, can I?

This is why I get the worst anxiety whenever something relatively good starts to happen. Something. Will. Fuck. It. Up,

All the time.

I seriously thought I would have my shit together by now.

#twenties #late twenties #quarter life crisis #lost #confused #scared #panic attack

The signs are all there, you just need to make a choice--keep going and crash or make that turn and see where it takes you.

#signs #future #what's ahead #road #turn #choices #breaking point

Hi there, old self.

I miss your confident smile and content heart.

#those were the days #half-past reality #before #old #past #what happened #what is happening

Why am I never good enough?

#I just want to know #i just want to be happy #I just want to be enough

It’s always been a struggle for me--to want my own space and to want to be close. I think that’s why it’s been so hard for me to deal with attachments. I tend to stop myself from getting attached to someone, because when I do, it becomes too much, too intense (and all too quickly). Unhealthy attachments are like the switches to my self-destruction.

How they became so unhealthy, I have yet to figure out. It seems to be out of my control, like most things and most of my feelings.

I have had to do the laundry, twice. Cook 2 different dishes for every meal. Walk through every aisle in the grocery and browse through every shelf. Extend my time in the shower. Read a shitty pocket book. And everything else I could do to keep my mind off of you.

Great thing about it is I got a lot of stuff done. Worse part is that I’m not sure it’s been as difficult for you as it has been for me. Worst is that I may never know.

#relax #anxiety #anxiety attack #separation anxiousness #separation anxiety #sepanx #nerves #distraction #out of sight out of mind #uncertain #separation #i miss you

All the chances were for you to take

Not one move did you ever make

I can no longer live for your sake

Because all that’s left is my heart in ache.

#dark clouds #lost in thought #midnight thoughts #I wrote a poem for you #words you'll never read #feelings I'd never admit #confession #secrets #unrequited love #lonely nights

My debilitating anxiety

I know I should be chasing this deadline, but I just don’t care anymore.

#dealines #crunch time #pressure #apathy #debilitating #anxiety #attack #i give up #rolling into a ball #and just running away from my problems

I can’t remember the last time I felt this much joy and the last time I had been this secure and confident--about the future and about myself. That smile is something I have been missing for a while. I keep longing for it, but I also don’t know where to look for it.

That smile is mine. But right now, it is not.

How can you lose something that s just yours?

And where can you find it?

#smile #secure #sure #okay #anxiety #inhibitions #lost #complicated #confessions #midnight thoughts

There’s nothing worse than seeing you so cast down I feel responsible and I feel like a failure It means I was no good You’re still not okay I blame myself every time. And somehow, I feel like you do too.

#sunset #sand #beach #salt water #i'm sorry #i tried #i'm tired