Just keep swimming! @survivorwithscars - Tumblr Blog

Well who knew my account still existed 😂 honestly thought tumblr would be dead and gone now but got a notification email today from it so I checked it out. Hi all its been a while pmsl😂 👋

It's been a looooooong time

Where do I begin?

Well, I'm now 28 years old. I'm 10 years clean from self harm and my health is a shit show.

After being diagnosed with eupd and depression mixed in with my other health problems. I decided to get a part time job as full time became impossible. I currently work in a card shop and I love my job so much. It's easy, it's different everyday and I just clock in and clock out. I like not having overwhelming responsibilities like I've had in other jobs.

I got diagnosed with eupd in 2021, which made everything make sense. Both past and present. I never realised all I was feeling as a teenager related to eupd but as I said it all makes sense now.. I also got an official diagnosis for depression because you know camhs didn't ever give me a formal diagnosis. I have undiagnosed chronic stomach problems which is still in the process of being investigated, my thyroids underactive but under control, still have ridiculous sleeping issues and I found out I have 3 kidneys. Because of course I do 😂 I take ALOT of meds everyday for both my mental and physical health but it is what it is. They are the only things getting me through each day comfortably as possible. I also have a binge eating issue that relates to my eupd.

I've been single since 2020 and I'm happy being single. I always thought I'd be lonely but I'm actually pretty okay.

My dog went over the rainbow bridge in March 2022 after he battled oral cancer. I miss him everyday, I still expect him to be there when I get home. The whole thing happened so quickly that there wasn't much time to process what was happening.

Anyway. Sorry for a negative update but that's literally my life at the minute 😂

Peace out ✌️

#Eupd #Depression #Update

Just letting you guys know I'm still alive and pretty much recovered. I haven't self harmed in nearly 4 years and I am in a loving relationship with an amazing person. Mental health sucks but there's always light at the end of the tunnel!!!

I've been pretty bad recently, I've experience bad confusion and simple things become a mission because my head just wont process anything. My anxiety and depression levels have rocketed. I'm sleeping too much. I'll be okay.

it's times like these I need someone and there is no one here.

everythings moving so fast, yet I'm moving so slow. My heads hazy, foggy. I don't know what's real. I'm struggling. I really am.

#depression #mental health #idk #struggling #recovery #self harm #i can't deal with this

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I can't actually believe I'm a year clean. It's gone so fast, and I cutting sometimes. However, I don't think I will ever turn back. I've got freedom now, I'm no longer trapped in a vicious cycle. I'm happier within myself, and only 2 of my scars are left to fade. I've grown confidence to go out in public in just a tshirt and shorts. I'm not ashamed, I'm proud of myself. You know why? Because I won the battle against my demons and I'm still alive!

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After a long,long year. I've finally made it. One whole year self harm free. I am so happy and I honestly wouldn't have done it without the support of my family, my wonderful boyfriend and my best friends :) xxxxxxx #recovery

#recovery #self harm #self injury #pro recovery #depression #recovery is possible

In 5 days I will be 365 days clean....

That's one year. One whole year, and I've come so far. It's true what they say, time does heal.

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Hi I think you're a beautiful amazing person and i hope you can exist on this planet for as long as possible because you're awesome! Have a great year :)

Thank you :3

I love you & your blog

Thank you