#eupd

[maliusaidh]

[nagichi-boop]

I know that this scene is about Shadow grappling with the fact he has alien DNA, but I feel like his thoughts in this scene are relatable to people with conditions like autism, BPD and NPD (not an exhaustive list) who struggle with feeling and being treated like an outcast or monster at times. For some, it’s because we struggle to operate in a world not designed for us. For others, it’s fighting against all the negative perceptions society has of us.

Shadow sees himself as a monster. But Maria assures him that just because he expresses himself differently, that doesn’t make him evil. I feel like especially for people who struggle with empathy, this really hits home. People often assume that people who struggle with empathy, whether cognitive or emotional, are heartless. And for those with personality disorders, they’re often treated as if they are abusive or manipulative just because of the disorder they have, even though people with said disorders are victims of trauma and abuse themselves.

I hope you all have a Maria in your lives. And if not, please remember that it’s your actions that define you, not your neurotype or disorder. If you struggle with socialising, or emotional regulation, or empathy, you’re not a monster. You’re strong for living in a world that so often seems to outcast and insult you. You’re strong for choosing to be as kind as you can be, even though so many people refuse to show that common courtesy in return. Even when you can’t be strong, you are not a monster.

Please be kind to yourselves. You deserve it.

[someplacehigh]

When will I start feeling less *static noises*

[velv3tdream]

Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month is a reminder that behind the stigma are real people doing the hard work to survive and heal. I was diagnosed over a decade ago, and since then I’ve had to confront deeply rooted trauma, intense mood swings, a constant fear of abandonment, and long periods of self harm and substance abuse. It hasn’t been linear. There have been years in and out of therapy, but with the right support, recovery is absolutely possible. What makes it harder is the judgement we face. Being labelled manipulative, difficult, or attention seeking, while our very real emotions are dismissed or minimised. The reality is, we feel things deeply, and learning to live with that takes strength most people will never see.

[ineffectualdemon]

So my situation is that I can't seem to write without my antipsychotic and I am significantly less able to manage my emotional regulation without the ability to write

The mental health service is reluctant to put me back on my antipsychotic because they think my GP won't keep up the repeat prescription

My GP who referred me so I can go back on it if I want

Also even if they agree it would require me coming off amitriptyline which I take for my back pain. Which I already tried reducing and which made everything much worse

I went to emotional regulation group therapy which was good! I learned a lot of useful stuff which is helping me manage my dysregulation better then before I went and is keeping me from danger when I spiral. But I am still very dysregulated and it's getting worse

I just feel like if I can write again I'll do better but I can't fucking write

I have tried and there is a huge disconnect from the ideas and putting it on paper

I am scattered so often and I just feel stuck

I don't think more therapy is going to help. I need to write and I can't and I feel like I'm cracking in half

[bpdamn]

sorry for looking like i just cried for an hour. it’s just that i cried for an hour

[noplaceformehereinthishell]

im so tired I'm so tired I'm so tired I'm so tired I'm so tired I'm so tired

[bramblewinstonfloandmikey]

Going to also post about fidget toys that I use here too. I am a massive user of fidget and sensory toys alongside my soft toys.

I am obsessed with them and they work at managing my EUPD and Bipolar breakdowns so well. In fact with my sensory room and soft toys I have gone 3 months without crisis or a breakdown. My emotional regulation, although a daily thing to manage, has been on point. I recently started carrying this lanyard around with me.

Its amazing the difference sensory stuff has made to my life. I am also neurodivergent (not autistic or ADHD) but feel like a bit of a fraud for finding fidgets and sensory lights/weighted blankets/kaleidoscope ect key to helping me deal with overwhelm/underwhelm/dysregulation but my brain seems wired to needing sensory input to calm down. I wish the neurodivergent community wasn’t so gatekeepery.