Sushma's Word

[sushmawrites]

I'm an old soul when it comes to love and music.

[perfectquote]

“It’s so hard to leave - until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.”

— John Green // Paper Towns

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They hurt you because they are hurting and have nothing to offer but pain. So, forgive them and help them heal.

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Everyone talks about the

ART OF LETTING GO,

but what about learning to HOLD ON, REPAIR, TO LOVE, AND NOT LEAVING

when things get difficult...!

very few people talk about the art of staying.

Staying long enough to understand each other.

Repairing after misunderstandings.

Taking responsibility instead of walking away at the first difficulty.

Psychologically, strong relationships aren't built by people who never face conflict

they're built by people who learn how to repair, communicate, and grow together.

Real love isn't only about knowing when to leave.

It's also about knowing when something is worth holding onto and working through.

Because sometimes the deepest connections are not the easiest ones

they are the ones two people choose to protect.

[sushmawrites]

कति सादगी छ तिमीमा,

कति साधारण सोच्छौ आफूलाई तिमी??

एकचोटि मलाई त सोध, कति खास छौ तिमी??

मेरो हरेक धड्कनमा धड्किने सास हौ तिमी

आफैसँग प्रेम गर्न सिकाउने, त्यो मधुर आभास हौ तिमी

खडेरी छाएको मनमा जीवन फुलाउने, शीतल वर्षामास हौ तिमी

मेरा हर मौनतालाई अर्थ दिने, कवि कालिदास हौ तिमी

मेरो अँध्यारो मनको, उज्यालो प्रकाश हौ तिमी

साँचै भनूँ??

यो कलियुगको कपटमा शान्ति दिने, ईश्वरको पवित्र बास हौ तिमी ।

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तिमी पनी मेरोलागी खास भयनौ

गार्हो पर्दा आफ्नो सोचि समाउने हात भयनौ

सुख दुख- दुख सुख सँगै साटेर

लामो यात्रामा सँगै हिड्ने साथ भयनौ

तिमी पनी मेरोलागी खास भयनौ

अन्धकारमा उज्यालो छर्ने पूर्णिमाको रात भयनौ

[sushmawrites]

The Quiet Between Us

We exist in the quiet,

Not together, yet not apart,

An invisible line that stretches

Between my soul and your heart.

I crave your touch,

But fear what it would mean,

We are caught in the moment,

In places we’ve never been.

You look at me,

And I look away,

Not ready to dive deeper,

But I’m already drowning anyway.

We speak in silence,

And listen with our eyes,

Words would ruin what we have,

Or at least, that’s what we tell our lies.

This isn’t love,

But it isn’t nothing,

It’s the void we fill

With the things we never say,

The feelings we never admit,

But both of us know,

They’re there, hidden away.

And so we stay,

Dancing in circles,

Neither of us ready

To take the leap

Or let go of the fall.

[sushmawrites]

जिन्दगीको झरिमा कोही रहरले भीजे, कोही बाध्यताले

यो त आफ़्नो आफ़्नो रोजाई थियो

कसैलाई भिझनुमा आनन्द लाग्यो, कसैलाई भिज्दा चिसो लाग्यो

यो नी आफ़्नो आफ़्नो भोगाई थियो

फूल झर्दा फूललाई भन्दा धेरै पिडा मालीलाई भयो

सायद यो पनी आफ़्नै यौटा सोचाई थियो

जित्नेको मात्र चर्चा हुने यो संसारमा, हार्नेको त भगवान नी आफ्ना हुन्नन

अनी यो पनी कसैको कठोर सिकाई थियो

यौटै परिस्थिति कसैलाई राम्रो कसैलाई नराम्रो

आखिर यो नी एउटा आफ़्नै बुझाई थियो ।

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That off-white cream color suit

That off-white cream color suit you wear,

Like morning light resting gentle in air,

It doesn’t just fit — it finds its place,

Like calm confidence stitched with grace.

So simple in shade, yet strikingly bright,

Not loud at all, yet it owns the light.

It wraps around your quiet glow,

A gentle aura the world should know.

There’s softness in the way you stand,

Peace flowing steady from your hand,

But in your eyes — a fearless spark,

A bold flame dancing in the dark.

From far away, I simply see

How effortlessly you just be.

Admiring quietly, heart kept tight —

You in that cream suit…

Soft as dawn,

Strong as light. 🤍

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There's no wish left in this heart or perhaps there is no heart left. Free from all desire I sit quietly like Earth. I am not worried about it, I know it will be heard by no one except me.

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Across the miles and glowing screens,

You light up nights like golden dreams.

Your fingers glide on silver strings,

Turning simple chords to beautiful things.

Every note you play feels true,

Confident, calm — completely you.

That smile of yours? Effortless charm,

Soft but powerful, steady and warm.

You don’t just sing — you inspire,

There’s passion wrapped in every wire.

From far away, I cheer your art,

Proud of the magic in your heart.

Keep shining in your own sweet way,

Keep strumming hope into each day,

From far away, I softly smile—

Admiring you… across the miles.

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I Saw You in My Dream After So Long

I saw you in my dream after so long,

Like a forgotten lyric in a half-remembered song.

No warning, no sound—

Just your smile turning the silence around.

The night had been ordinary,

Stars scattered without care,

But then you walked through my sleep

As if you had always been there.

Your eyes still held that quiet glow,

The one I tried so hard to outgrow.

Time has passed, seasons has changed,

Yet in that dream, nothing felt rearranged.

We didn’t speak of the distance or pain,

Didn’t measure the loss or count the gain.

We just stood in a moment soft and deep,

Two souls meeting where memories sleep.

I woke with a heart both heavy and light—

Heavy with absence, light from the sight.

Because after all this silent, aching wrong,

I saw you in my dream… after so long. 🌙✨

[sushmawrites]

Letter to my future Husband

मैले जिन्दगीमा संघर्ष गर्न सिकिसकेको छु त्यसैले तिमी आउछौ भने असीमित आँट अनि भरोसा लिएर आउनु मलाई म जसरिनै स्वीकार्न सक्ने माया लिएर आउनु।

म भन्दिनँ तिमी यस्तो हुनुपर्छ उस्तो हुनुपर्छ बस् तिम्रा व्यवहारले कहिल्यै मर्यादा नबिर्सिउन।

वाचा गर परिस्थिती जस्तो भएपनि तिमी मेरो आड बनेर बस्नेछौ। अनि मेरो पनि यो वाचा तिमीलाई की तिम्रो सुख दुःखका लडाइँहरु एक्लै लड्न दिने छैन।

जुनी जुनीको साथ हुन्छ हुन्न त्यो त मलाई थाहा छैन तर ढुक्क हुनु यो जुनीको साथ अन्तिम सास सम्मनी तिम्रो लागि हुनेछ।

तिम्रो कुलको इज्जत बचाउने जिम्मा मेरो भयो बस् तिमी मेरो स्वाभिमानको ख्यालगर्नु।

के फरक पर्छ र तिम्रा कमजोरीहरूले? सर्वपूर्ण त म पनि छैन। यी अपूर्ण म र तिमीलाई, एउटा पूर्ण हामी आफै मिलेर बनाउँला।

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Between Smiles and Strings

Your smile feels like home to me.

the kind I find after wandering too long.

It settles in my chest softly,

like a familiar melody

I didn’t know I’d been missing.

If loving you is listening from afar,

your music becomes my shelter,

and every string you play

keeps pulling me closer to you.

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अकथ्य कविता

म तिम्रो कथा होइन,

सायद एउटा वाक्य पनि होइन,

तर तिमी मेरो सम्पूर्ण

अकथ्य कविता हौ।

तिम्रो जिवनमा म

गुमनाम पात्र मात्र हुँ

तर तिम्रो ब्याख्या

मेरा हरेक शब्दहरुमा हुन्छ।

म तिम्रो दिनको

कुनै यादगार क्षण होइन,

तर मेरो हरेक बिहान

तिम्रो नामले सुरु हुन्छ।

सायद तिमीलाई

मेरोबारे कहिल्यै थाहा नहोला,

तर तिमीलाई टाढैबाट चाहनु

मेरो मौन हृदयको

सबैभन्दा साँचो परिचय हो।

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उसलाईं लाई फरक नै नपरोस यस्तो पनी हुन्छ र?

म मरिहत्ते गरूँ उस्कोलागी, तर उसलाई फरक नै नपरोस-यस्तो पनि हुन्छ र?

म मरीरहूँ विरहका धारहरूमा, तर उसलाई घाउ र दुखाई सम्म नलागोस्-यस्तो पनि हुन्छ र?

अरे ढूँगा पनी पग्लिन्छ सहि तापमानले छोयो भने

म पग्लिएर वाफ बनूँ , तर उसलाई तातोपनै नलागोस-यस्तो पनि हुन्छ र?

म उस्को नाममा ईश्वरलाई पुजूँ, अनि उसलाई आशीर्वाद नपुग्ने—यस्तो पनि हुन्छ र?

म प्रेमको परिभाषा लेखिरहुँ, अनि उसको नाम नै लेख्न बिर्सिने—यस्तो पनि हुन्छ र?

म वर्त बसी ईश्वर भाकी उसलाई मागिरहुँ, अनि ऊ नै भाग्यमा नपर्ने—यस्तो पनि हुन्छ र?

म उसलाई सम्झिएर तड्पिरहु, अनी उसलाई बाडुल्किनी नलाग्ने-यस्तो पनि हुन्छ र?

[thequietheartbeat]

I thought I knew the difference between real and imagined, until you became both...