#šššš·šš°šš“š | independent and selective queen helaena targaryen from grrm's fire & blood / house of the dragon. multiship and multiverse. heavily headcanon based, inspired by personal interpretation. [ brought to life october 22, resurrected may 25. ]
a quick study in unfathomable loss, speaking truth in volumes, brother's keeper, love's rage, finding peace among savages and martyrs, living to the fullest with death perched on your shoulder, surviving through the wreckage and portraying an inevitable future. ( always dreaming with nova. )
. about mun + museĀ . hiya, my name is nova. im 29, wasain and i have been writing on and off since 2012, starting on tumblr then moving to discord and rpme. recently ive come back to tumblr. please be kind, and let's have fun.
.Ā Ā preferencesĀ Ā .Ā helaena is an indie multiship and multi verse character. so, im open to writing her in many verses, as long as it makes sense to me. i usually can work a verse in if it fits the character. as far as shipping, i go with chemisty. if it's not there, then there wont be any romance. please do not push me for a romance.
.Ā Ā activityĀ Ā Ā .Ā this blog will be muse dependent. the more you interact with helaena, the more you'll get. it's crazy how that works. i'm not particular with mutuals, meaning we can interact if we don't follow each other. i usually follow/follow back. but, 9 out of 10 times, im following to stalk ya'lls amazing writing/aesthetics.
.Ā Ā writingĀ Ā .Ā my writing comes in sporadic bursts. like my activity, it depends on muse. most of the time, though, i will write what i ( helaena ) has to say, so multi-para at best. I do try to mirror my partner's writing, but i will draw the line at novella unless we have been writing for quite a while. i will take my time, because if it can't be perfect i won't be doing it. I do write 1POV but if youād like me to write 3POV. Just ask.
.Ā Ā disclaimersĀ Ā .Ā i will not be tagged spoilers or mature themes. it goes without saying that im writing a character that is involved in tab.oo and adulterated themes. i dont feel the need to explain where im musing. i am block friendly. soft blocks aren't a thing for me. i work hard to have a drama-free environment, especially when im writing with friends, and it will stay that way.
PROMO PINNED HEADER ICON + DIVIDER ~ CREDIT TO CALI
ā Ā please don't leave me alone. i cannot do this without you.Ā ā
ā Ā just fucking leave me alone!Ā ā
ā Ā i'm done crying about this. i'm done crying about you.Ā ā
ā Ā why do you even pretend to care?Ā ā
ā Ā will i ever be good enough?Ā ā
ā Ā i hate you!Ā ā
ā Ā i don't ever want to see you again.Ā ā
ā Ā if you don't go now, i promise i'll make your life a living hell.Ā ā
ā Ā did you ever really love me? or was it all just a game to you?Ā ā
ā Ā you're not my friend ... not anymore.Ā ā
ā Ā i don't love you anymore.Ā ā
ā Ā how could you do this to me? i trusted you!Ā ā
ā Ā i gave you my heart, and you just walked away like it meant nothing.Ā ā
ā Ā it's all my fault, isn't it? i ruin everything i touch.Ā ā
ā Ā this is goodbye. i hope you find the happiness i couldn't give you.Ā ā
ā Ā can't you see i'm hurting? or do you just not care enough to notice?Ā ā
ā Ā i don't even know who i am anymore. it's like i've lost myself along the way.Ā ā
ā Ā i never thought i'd see you again. why did you come back into my life now?Ā ā
ā Ā i'm finally happy ... why do you have to try and ruin this?Ā ā
ā Ā i never meant to hurt you.Ā ā
ā Ā what happened to us? we used to be so good together.Ā ā
ā Ā promises are just words, meaningless and easily broken.Ā ā
ā Ā i pushed you away when all i wanted was for you to stay.Ā ā
ā Ā why couldn't you love me back? am i not enough?Ā ā
ā Ā i never meant for you to find out like this. i'm so sorry.Ā ā
ā Ā i wish we could go back and fix the moment everything went wrong.Ā ā
ā Ā i feel like we're drifting apart, and no matter how hard i try, i can't stop it.Ā ā
ā Ā i can't believe you'd say that to me.Ā ā
ā Ā i thought you knew me, but your words make me question everything.Ā ā
ā Ā i'm trapped between two impossible choices, and neither one feels right.Ā ā
ā Ā no matter what i choose, someone i care about is going to get hurt.Ā ā
ā Ā once trust is broken, can it ever be truly repaired?Ā ā
ā Ā you don't get it! no one does ...Ā ā
ā Ā no matter what i do, it's never enough.Ā ā
ā Ā you said you'd always be there for me. where were you when i needed you the most?Ā ā
ā Ā why should i have hope when everything around me is falling apart?Ā ā
ā Ā i can't move forward. i keep reliving this moment over and over again, and i'm stuck.Ā ā
ā Ā i thought i was doing the right thing ... but i realize now that i was wrong.Ā ā
ā Ā was it all just a lie?Ā ā
ā Ā i don't even know who i am anymore. i've lost myself in trying to please everyone else.Ā ā
# DAYRISEN dļ¾ā ft, headcanon based, private and selective portrayal of Rumi ; influenced by show ( kpop demon hunters ) but not always following the storylines ; Rumi as canon-divergent and heavily worked on by the mun. 21 + only, cared for by nova. ā dļ¾
alr, Iāve decided to make a multi featuring my faves like carl poppa grimes (twd), tanya denali (twi), uraraka + toga (bnha), clarke griffen (100), fern (frieren), many more + a sprinkle of OCs. Iāll slowly work on making the acct xp
Thinking of making a multi-muse..and moving muses there? because I have a lot of muses like fern from frieren, OCs from twd, and other fandoms I want to try out that I would like to write. O.o not moving helaena tho. but just thinking about it..
Helaena dreams of the past, present and future. The prophetic messages vary from blurred lines to clear as crystal. It depends on her mental state in how often the dreams come or how strong they force through her barrier. Some days, sheās steady as a stone wall while others, she crumbles like dust. They come and creep during the night. But sometimes, all she needs to do is touch someone and get visions. The visions tell her ancient stories doom to repeat. In rare cases, she gets a glimpse of their future in small doses.
ā ā ā ā ā ā THE BLOOD RAN IN RIVULETS, slim crimson streaks against pale skin, adopting a more pinkish hue where it mingled with a thin, glistening layer of sweat ā he was not even sure where he was bleeding from, could feel little of the wounds that had caused it themselves, aside from the undeniable damp, the palpable heat of it as it oozed out and ran down his skin, whatever pain would, undoubtedly, follow later, when adrenaline spreading like fire, and feeling equally as fierce, through veins carrying, and currently gracelessly spilling, the blood of the dragon, at last, waned and something quiet settled not only around him, but also within him, still feeling far from him in these current moments as dark brown eyes trailed helaena's form as she drew near, brought up hands to wipe at the mess coating features, the first contact drawing a quiet, barely even audible hiss of breath from between his teeth ā not from pain, for he still couldn't feel much of that yet, rather surprise, a gesture so tender feeling nigh so surreal in the wake of violence, of a fight, that it was startling.
ā it's fine. i'm fine. ā perhaps futile attempts at reassurance left lips in a quiet tone as the long blade within his grasp was relocated to the other hand and his right drifted up slowly, hovering over helaena's, barely settling, barely brushing, yet still at once feeling the tremors that coursed through her fingers, palpable against his own, against his face, all too quickly becoming aware of the tension that seemed to reside within her, a brow furrowing with the realisation that she was shaking as he sought her gaze with his own, fingers now closing around one of her hands to halt the movements, ā helaena? ā
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ā āĀ āĀ private and selective roleplay blog for helaena targeryan from g.r.rmartinās fire and blood / house of dragon. Contains mature themes, 20+ only. protected by nova. credit
šŖ²Iāll be around tmrw to put up some new graphics for pinned and promo ( that Iām SQUEALING about to ) and to write some owes. So if you want a prompt, yall can send them my way. Theyāre always open. Maybe Iāll get to writing a verse list.