A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
Mydei is not outwardly affectionate. Heâs reserved by nature and tends to keep to himself, so heâs more restrained with outward expressions of his feelings, especially vulnerable ones like love or fear.
He doesnât do big displays of affection like bringing you bouquets of flowers or confessing his undying love for you. Still, he does little things throughout the day that show he cares. One could even call them mundane, but the fact that he doesnât do these things with anyone else is proof of how important you are to Mydei.
The Kremnoan prince shows his affection through acts of service. He struggles to express how himself verbally but finds it much easier to do so through actions. Plus, he is a firm believer that actions speak louder than words, and that you can tell he loves you based on all the things he does for you. For example, Mydei cooks for you whenever he has the time. He wants to take care of you, and cooking is an easy way for him to do so. Feeding you nutritious and delicious meals brings him joy because he knows this way youâre at least eating right, and your body is getting the nutrients it needs to stay strong. Plus, hearing you praise his cooking skills strokes his ego, even if he wonât admit it (you can tell by the blush that spreads across his cheeks that he likes your praise).
He doesnât say it outright, but Mydei grows concerned whenever you say you skip a meal or eat little. His desire to take care of you spurs him on to whip you up a meal so you donât go hungry, saying something like âYouâll grow weak if you donât eat properly. Here, eat this. Get your strength up.â instead of admitting heâs just worried about your health. If youâre sharing a meal, Mydei will let you take the tastier morsels and bigger bites without complaint. In fact, he encourages you to take more food so he can be sure your belly is full.
Other ways Mydei shows his affection are through spending time with you, giving you small gifts (covered in the Gifts section), and keeping a protective hand on your person. Usually, the prince likes to seclude himself on the rooftops of Marmoreal Market to stay away from the hustle and bustle of the streets and have a moment of solitude. His choosing to spend his time with you is a sign that Mydei genuinely likes your company and seeks more of it. You donât have to do anything together, just sharing the same space with you is enough for Mydei.
Whenever you head out, Mydei ghosts a protective hand on your lower back or side in crowded areas so you donât get swept away by the sea of people. He also lets you walk on the less crowded side and keeps his body as a barrier between you and the other pedestrians as an extra precaution to keep you safe.
When youâre alone and sharing a tender moment, Mydei is a little more open with his feelings. He expresses his loyalty and devotion to you by swearing to protect you and keep you safe as long as he still draws. He also calls you an affectionate nickname in Kremnoan. During intimate moments like these, Mydei is more physically affectionate. He nuzzles into your neck like a cat and lets out satisfied purrs when you pet his hair. He also wraps you up in his strong arms and buries his face in your neck or chest to breathe in your scent, which eases the tension in his shoulders.
The most telltale sign of Mydeiâs affection for you, though, is the gentle manner in which he treats you. Heâs never rough with youâonly gentle. The way he grips your shoulder or arm, the way he brushes the hair out of your face, or holds your hand are all careful and controlled to not bruise you. Even the way he looks at you can be described as tender. Mydeiâs eyes soften around the edges whenever his gaze shifts to you (Phainon teased him about this before).
B = Beauty (What do they find most beautiful about you?)
Mydei finds you physically attractive, though your outward beauty is not what draws him to you. Itâs your inner beauty that holds him captive. He highly admires your strength of character and determination to see things through to the end. He also finds your confidence attractive.
Though deep down, what he finds most beautiful about you is the way you look at him. Whenever you look at him with unbridled love and wonder, it steals his breath away. Itâs both overwhelming and exhilarating knowing you care so deeply about him, and Mydei swears youâve never looked prettier than in the moments when you look at him like heâs your entire world. It makes him want to keep you safe and happy until the day he dies.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
Since heâs restrained with physical affection, it took some time for Mydei to warm up to cuddling. He was awkward with it at first, stiffening up whenever you cuddled against him, and grew uncertain with where to put his hands. However, once he got used to it, Mydei became a great cuddle buddy.
Cuddles usually happen when heâs reading or youâre getting ready to sleep. Mydei enjoys reading during his downtime and doesnât mind if you join him by lying next to him. He holds his book in one hand and wraps the other around your waist or shoulders to tuck you against his side. You can read a book of your own or rest your head on his shoulder or chest and take a nap. Mydei wonât mind.
During bedtime, Mydei sometimes wraps you up in his arms and tucks your head under his chin or spoons you from behind. He likes feeling you against him before he goes to sleep since it reassures him that youâre here and safe in his arms. He doesnât realize it, but Mydeiâs hugs are protective. He wants to surround you with his body as if to shield you from all the bad things in the world.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
If he werenât the last prince of a fallen nation, Mydei would have liked to settle down. Although a quiet, domestic life is foreign to him, who had grown up fighting for survival and led an army across Amphoreus like a nomad, it offers something heâs been deprived of ever since his father tossed him into the River of Souls as a baby. Stability. Peace. A family. Someone who loves him unconditionally.
Having a place to come home to and be greeted with a smiling you at the door is appealing to Mydei, even though such a happy future seems far-fetched in these turbulent times in Amphoreus. If a stable and happy future does come to pass, though, Mydei will absolutely want to settle down with you.
The prince is great at doing chores. He enjoys cooking and baking and is good at it too, so he wouldnât mind taking on cooking duty in the house. Mydei is also good at keeping the house tidy, doing laundry, washing dishes, grocery shopping, and fixing things around the home. An all-in-all perfect househusband. He would voluntarily do all of these things without being asked, simply because he wants to ease your burden and take care of you, and also because he likes having something to occupy himself with.
E = Embarrassed (What about you flusters them?)
The easiest way to embarrass Mydei is to tease him. Point out how attentively he takes care of you, how soft he gets around you or children, or how he acts like the perfect househusband. Mydei will simply scoff at you or lightly brush off your comment, seemingly unbothered, but you can tell it gets to him by how the tips of his ears and the apples of his cheeks redden.
He also grows flustered when you act overly affectionate towards him, especially in public. His face reddens whenever you nuzzle into his neck and murmur how much you love him, pepper his face in kisses, or say something so smooth and romantic that it makes his heart skip a beat.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quickly would they want to get married?)
Mydei never really thought about marrying someone before, especially given how busy he was providing for his people and fighting for their survival. Marriage just wasnât a priority. He knew that as a prince, he would be expected to find a wife and have children to keep their lineage going, even if Kremnosâs rulers had always been determined by bloodshed rather than blood ties.
After Mydei had been in a romantic relationship with you for some time, he knew he wanted to make you his wife. He wants you to be a permanent part of his life so you can continue to share the joys and sorrows by each otherâsâ sides. While heâs content with not making things official, Mydei would still like the stability and security that comes with calling you his wife and him your husband.
However, Mydei will hesitate to ask you to marry him for a long time. He wants to take his time weighing the pros and cons of marriage, mulling over whether it would be right to ask you to be his wife, considering his status as a prince. He quietly worries about how his people would take the news, whether you would be accepted as a potential queen, and whether you would be willing to bear the burden of such a title. Mydei doesnât want to put you into an uncomfortable position with his proposal, so he will hesitate until he comes to a sure answer.
After some consultation and encouragement from his friends and colleagues, Mydei made up his mind to ask you to marry him. The prince was advised to be romantic, gallant, confident, eloquent, and many other things. The pressure was heavy, so he tried practicing corny speeches in front of a mirror, but those sounded fake even to his own ears. In the end, Mydei abandons that approach and simply waits for the right moment instead of trying to force it.
During one of your private conversations about the future, Mydei will pose the question. There is no preamble or flowery words when he asks if you want to be his wifeâMydei is direct and gets straight to the point. His expression is the picture of calm inquisitiveness, but thereâs a tension to his features that hints at his nervousness. If you were to place your hand over his chest in that moment, you would feel Mydeiâs heart pounding fast and hard against his ribs.
Mydei respects whichever answer you give, even if itâs not the one he hoped to hear. If you are not ready for marriage or feel intimidated by his status as a prince, he will be understanding, albeit a little disappointed. However, should you accept, Mydei will give you his motherâs ring as an engagement ring. Itâs a dear artifact to him since itâs the only thing he has left of his mother, but he thinks itâs right to give such a precious item to you, the woman who brought so much joy into his life.
G = Gifts (Do they like giving gifts? Receiving them?)
Giving gifts is one of Mydeiâs ways of expressing his affection for you. He gets you practical gifts that will be of use to you, such as shoes, cooking utensils, books he thinks you might like, your favorite sweets, or little trinkets or figures that remind him of you.
If you off-handedly mention that your knives have grown dull or that you need a new pair of shoes, Mydei will remember those comments and buy you a new set of knives or shoes to replace the worn ones. If you say you like a particular dessert, Mydei will go out of his way to buy or even make it. When giving it to you, he makes an excuse that he was just passing by the area or felt like trying a new recipe instead of admitting he just wanted to make you happy.
Mydei spends an egregious amount of time picking out presents for you, carefully contemplating which of two items you would like best. Heâs very meticulous about getting you the right gift because Mydei wants you to like it, though he acts nonchalant when giving you the present, as if he didnât spend a solid half an hour deciding whether you would like the comb with the pink or the green butterfly ornament more.
He might act like giving you these presents doesnât mean much, but it does. Mydeiâs heart swells with joy and satisfaction at seeing you enjoying and making use of the gifts he gives you. Seeing you smile means that his efforts paid off.
When it comes to receiving gifts, Mydei has no expectations. He doesnât expect you to give him anything, so itâs always a pleasant surprise when you do. Handmade gifts are his favorite because they show that you took the time to make something with him in mind, and just the thought alone makes something in Mydeiâs heart ache with surging love. But store-bought trinkets are fine with him because theyâre proof that you thought of him when buying them. He safely stores away every item you give him for safekeeping or hangs it on his teleslate as a charm. If you give him food, he eats it without complaint, even if itâs a little burnt or undercooked. Mydei is just happy that you care enough to give him a gift at all.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
Mydei feels awkward with hugs and at first did not initiate them in your relationship until he grew more comfortable with physical affection. Even then, it is still mostly you initiating them, though Mydei seldom turns you down. He feels a little embarrassed being so physically affectionate, but he canât deny that it feels nice to be held in your arms, so he eventually reciprocates if you hug him for long enough.
He hugs you a lot in bed, though, like when youâre cuddling and he spoons you from behind or youâre sleeping on his chest. His larger figure completely envelops yours when you go to sleep because he feels better knowing youâre safe and protected in his arms.
Mydeiâs hugs are protective. Nowhere is safer than in his arms. His battle-hardened body is your shield that will protect you from anything that might try to hurt you. This, he promises to you. Mydei swears to keep you safe until he draws his last breath.
I = I love you (How quickly do they say âI love youâ?)
Mydei would only say âI love youâ after heâs gotten to know you well over of months, if not years. But just like marriage, he would spend a long time debating whether confessing his feelings is truly wise. He wants to be sure before taking such a big step.
Depending on how brave and patient you are, you will either beat Mydei to the punch and say it first, thus prompting him to admit his love for you sooner than he expected, or wait a while before Mydei confesses to you in a direct yet unintrusive manner. All in all, it will take time for Mydei to say those three little words, but once he does, you can be sure that his mind is made up and he means them with his whole heart.
J = Jealousy (Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?)
Mydei is secure in your relationship and doesnât worry about you leaving him for someone else, so he has no issues with you spending time with others. He understands that you have other relationships aside from the one with him, and heâs all for giving you the time and space to nurture them.
That said, it still gets under Mydeiâs skin whenever another guy flirts with you. Heâs not worried that you will be stolen away from him; the prince just hates seeing someone making moves on his partner, doubly so if you look uncomfortable by the attention. You are his, and Mydei protects that which belongs to him.
As much as his fists may itch to sock the scoundrel, Mydei keeps things civil. At first, he stands protectively beside you and levels the perpetrator with a hard glare, looking like a predatory wildcat keeping its eyes on its prey. His body tenses in preparation to act in case the other man tries anything, but otherwise his posture remains unaggressive.
Usually, his harsh gaze and title as the bloodthirsty prince of Castrum Kremnos are enough to send people scampering away. If thatâs not enough, then Mydei will shield you with his body and firmly tell the man to stop and get lost. If that fails and the situation gets violent, he will immobilize the perpetrator and escort them to the guards. Violence will be Mydeiâs absolute last resort if there is no other way to keep you safe.
If youâre the one who gets jealous, then Mydei will be surprised. He assumes that you also feel secure in your relationship with him because heâs fully committed to you. No force in Amphoreus will make him leave you for someone else. You getting jealous makes him think that heâs not doing enough to make you feel secure, so he verbally reassures you that youâre the only woman he loves and makes a mental note to be more physically affectionate to chase away your doubts. However, if your jealousy is difficult to assuage, Mydei will try to talk it through with you. Heâll find a private moment for you to discuss your insecurities in the hopes of sorting things out and putting your jealousy to rest.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
(Shamelessly copy-pasting my kissing HCs for Mydei from a prior work)
Mydei doesnât like kissing in public (or being overly affectionate in public in general), so he usually reserves kisses for when youâre alone with him. It can be in an alcove hidden from prying eyes or at home. Heâs usually more affectionate at home and will pull you onto his lap to get a kiss or, if youâre significantly shorter than he is, then he lifts you up and presses you against the wall so your faces are level. He likes feeling your body against his when kissing, so expect him to pull you closer until thereâs barely any space left between your bodies.
Mydei has a wide variety of types of kisses he gives you. His usual ones are firm yet chaste, just a simple slant of his lips upon yours. One of his hands cradles the back of your head to pull you closer, or gently cups your jaw while running a careful thumb across your cheek. He holds you there for a few long moments, not rushing to break away but not dragging it out too long, either. Itâs just enough to let you know how much you mean to him.
He's also capable of passionate kisses that leave you dizzy and breathless. When you push his buttons enough or if heâs in the mood to be intimate with you, Mydei pulls you flush against him and captures your lips in a hungry kiss. His tongue explores the inside of your mouth and caresses your tongue, inciting you to play with his own before taking back control of the kiss. The sound of your muffled moans is like music to his ears, and when you finally part for breath, a string of saliva connects your lips. These types of kisses leave you dazed and weak in the knees, and Mydei looks at you with smug satisfaction and desire darkening his golden eyes at seeing you reduced to a breathless, blushing mess from a single kiss. He traces your bottom lip with a gentle thumb and feels an urge to kiss you again, so he pulls you in for a deeper kiss this time. Donât worry if your knees give out. Mydei will catch you and hold you securely in his arms.
Despite his gruff exterior, Mydei can be gentle. During moments when he feels deep affection for you (such as in the afterglow of lovemaking), he pulls you close and kisses you softly and sweetly. Itâs a gentle and slow press of his lips on your mouth, forehead, or temple accompanied by a soft gaze and light caress of your cheek. These types of kisses are tender and loving, an expression of his raw feelings of love for you that he struggles to say aloud.
Aside from your lips, Mydei also likes to kiss your temple or the top of your head, usually when heâs carrying you in his arms because youâre tired or cuddling with you. He also gravitates towards your chest. He canât help but kiss over your heart and the soft swells of your breasts because he loves those parts of you. He adores the soft parts of your body in general, but your feminine chest holds a certain appeal to him because he lacked a feminine presence in his childhood.
In terms of where he likes being kissed, Mydei enjoys it when you kiss his back and shoulders. Feeling you hugging him from behind and pressing those soft lips of yours on such a vulnerable part of his body makes his heart squeeze with an emotion he canât name, but it makes him want to turn around, wrap you in his arms, and never let go.
When you kiss his cheek in thanks or as a sign of affection, Mydeiâs heart skips a beat. Heâs not used to such affection, and thereâs something about this simple gesture that flusters him, but he tries to hide it by brushing it off. Even so, the dusting of red on his cheeks gives him away.
You often find that Mydeiâs lips taste of pomegranate juice, and he scoffs to mask his embarrassment when you say you like his kisses because they taste sweet.
L = Little ones (How are they around children? Do they want any?)
Perhaps itâs because he never had much of a childhood himself and wants other children to have what he did not, but Mydei is very good with kids. Despite his gruff exterior, children end up loving him because he takes the time to play with them. Many look up to him as a role model and hope to grow up to be a strong warrior just like him. Mydei just encourages the children to keep practicing, eat their vegetables to grow up strong, and take care of their parents.
Although he likes kids and would make a great father, Mydei is hesitant to have any of his own. While the issues of Amphoreusâs demise and the Kremnoanâs bloody traditions persist, Mydei will feel like it is not the right time to bring a child into this world. The end of the world aside, Mydei knows that as a royal, any child he has will be expected to uphold the crown and continue the needless warfare that has plagued their people for centuries. He doesnât want his child to be cornered into such a position the way he was, and would rather they choose their own fate. Only once Mydei is certain that a safer and better future awaits the upcoming generations will he want to have children.
That said, he will never pressure you to have any if you do not want them. Mydei always respects your decisions and will try to be understanding. Though he would like to have a child with you, he does not need one to have a happy family. He would even find a silver lining in not having to worry about raising a child in a world that would be so hostile towards them.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
Mydei is an early riser because heâs used to waking up early to get some training in. If youâre also someone who wakes up early to work out, then you and Mydei would spend the early hours of the morning jogging together or doing some light exercises before getting breakfast.
If youâre not into working out or struggle to wake up early, then Mydei will quietly get out of bed to start his training and let you sleep longer. He doesnât like staying idle for long periods, so he doesnât stick around to laze and cuddle in bed, but he makes sure youâre properly tucked in before leaving the bedroom.
By the time you rise from bed, Mydei will be in the kitchen cooking a hearty breakfast for both of you. He usually makes his signature pomegranate honeycakes or one of your favorite breakfast foods, though he also likes experimenting with other recipes to keep things fresh. And donât even think about skipping breakfast, Mydei wonât let you leave the house until you get some food in you. He will not have you starving yourself on his watch. If you worry about gaining weight, he offers to devise a workout plan to help you stay in shape and cook you healthier meals.
Mydei tries to stick around long enough to have breakfast with you just so he can spend a bit more time in your company before heading out to take care of his duties. He gets flustered whenever you see him off with a kiss and will take some time to get used to it, but once he does, he expects you to give him a goodbye kiss every day and will even pull you into a quick peck if you forget to do so.
Mydei feels most productive in the mornings, so if heâs not in a rush to be anywhere, heâll do some chores around the house. Heâll want to tidy and clean the house, do the dishes and laundry, or go out for a grocery run. While he wonât pressure you to help him, he would appreciate it if you pitched in and worked together to take care of your home.
If there are no chores and he has some free time, then Mydei ventures to the rooftops of Marmoreal Market to admire the scenery. He likes it when you join him and engage in idle chatter or just sit together in silence and enjoy the peaceful atmosphere. Such tranquil moments are rare for Mydei, so he treasures them.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
During Parting Hour, when the workday comes to an end and people head home, Mydei likes to spend some free time relaxing with you before getting ready for bed during Curtain-Fall Hour. He takes you to catch a late performance, lets you cuddle up to him while getting some reading in, or lets you scrub his back while he takes a bath. The last hours of the day are the times when he can spend the most time with you, so Mydei tries to take advantage of them to do shared activities.
When it comes time to sleep, Mydei wraps you up in his arms and tucks your head under his chin or spoons you from behind to keep you close. He likes feeling you beside him when going to sleep because it reassures him that youâre safe. Though if you feel suffocated being hugged like that, then he lets you go. Nonetheless, he still slings an arm around you at the very least until he falls asleep.
If you have trouble sleeping for whatever reason, Mydei will stay up with you. He struggles to fall asleep when he feels you tossing and turning beside him since heâs a light sleeper. He offers to make you a drink or give you a massage to relax you and hopefully make you sleepy. Alternatively, he can stay up and chat with you until you get tired and pass out or, go out for a walk with you to clear your head.
Because heâs a light sleeper, Mydei wakes up whenever you leave the bed to go to the bathroom or have a nightmare that has a strong effect on you. If you struggle to fall back asleep because of your nightmare, Mydei pulls you into his side and tells you that everything is alright because he will protect you. Nothing will hurt you as long as he is here, so donât worry and go to sleep. He will watch over you. And true to his word, Mydei will stay awake until you fall asleep in his arms. If sleep is impossible for you, then he stays in bed with you for as long as you need until you feel better or gets up and starts his day early while trying to rope you into joining him to help take your mind off the nightmare.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
It will take a considerable amount of time (think years) for Mydei to know you before he feels comfortable enough to open up and share his vulnerabilities with you. He does not trust people easily, so you will first have to prove your trustworthiness through consistent actions before he deems you worthy of his trust. Rest assured that once you win him over, the Kremnoan prince will trust you with his life.
However, even after gaining his trust, Mydei will be slow to reveal things about himself. Not because he doesnât want to but simply because he doesnât share things unless he is asked about them. He doesnât talk much about himself to begin with because he doesnât see it as important, so if there are things you want to know, you will have to ask Mydei directly. He will, however, share some of his memories with you. He will tell you the things he heard about his mother from Krateros, how he committed patricide against his father, how he survived in the Sea of Souls as a child, and the many tales of his travels across Amphoreus with his detachment. Mydei will also be more open about his thoughts and feelings with you. He'll freely give you his honest opinions, be they positive or negative.
P = PDA (Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?)
Mydei is okay with holding hands and sharing brief hugs or kisses in public, but that is the maximum he is willing to tolerate. Anything more than that makes him uncomfortable. He doesnât like PDA because he gets embarrassed showing off the intimacy of your relationship in public. As far as he is concerned, your relationship is not anyoneâs business, so they donât need to see the love you two share.
Overall, Mydei keeps his relationship with you discreet. He doesnât try to hide it, but neither does he boast about having a girlfriend to all his friends and colleagues. If someone asks, he will tell them youâre his lover, but otherwise wonât bother them with this information. However, Mydei might feel compelled to rub it in Phainonâs face that he has a girlfriend if the Deliverer happens to be single.
In terms of actual PDA, Mydei is okay with holding hands while walking through the Marmoreal Market with you so you donât get separated, or while youâre watching a performance at the Marmoreal Palace. Heâs also okay with wrapping an arm around your shoulder in a half-hug or letting you hug him if youâve been separated for a while. For kisses, Mydei prefers to stick to quick and chaste pecks on the lips, cheek, or forehead. Short enough so it doesnât become a spectacle, but enough to convey each otherâs tender feelings.
Q = Quality Time (How do they like spending time with you?)
Mydei has a variety of activities he likes doing with you. His favorite is training, though he doesnât pressure you to join him if working out is not your thing. He just likes the idea of doing a shared activity where you both improve your health and bodies. While he usually does intensive training thatâs not beginner-friendly, if you wish to join him, Mydei will simplify the training so you can follow along. He gives pointers and helps adjust your form so youâre minimizing injury while doing the workout. If youâre going for a jog, he slows his pace so you can keep up with him. However, if youâre not into working out but still want to participate in his training, then Mydei gets you to help him. Think of the classic âsitting on his back while he does pushupsâ trope. Mydei would let you do something similar.
The Kremnoan prince will also volunteer to teach you self-defense maneuvers so you can protect yourself when he is not around.
Aside from working out, Mydei also has an interest in the arts. He enjoys visiting theater and music performances with you as a kind of date. He keeps a protective arm around you or holds your hand while you stand in the crowd and watch the show. Afterwards, he is happy to discuss the performance with you and listen to your thoughts on it. If you like it, he will try to find similar shows to take you to next time.
As mentioned before, Mydei also likes reading with you. Being able to spend a quiet moment in your company is always pleasant for the prince. You donât have to talk about anything and can each mind your own business. Just having you next to him is enough to bring Mydei a sense of peace and tranquility that he so often lacks in his tumultuous daily life.
R = Romance (How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? ClichĂŠ or rather creative?)
Romance is not Mydeiâs strong suit. He struggles to express his affection openly, so things like giving flowers and showering you with sweet compliments and lots of physical affection are not his style. Nonetheless, he has his romantic moments. For instance, Mydei makes promises to keep you safe and happy, which he takes very seriously. Heâs the type to not make a promise lightly and to see it through to the end, so when he promises to protect you even at the cost of his own life or move heaven and earth to make you happy, know that he means every word he says.
Cooking might not seem like a romantic gesture, but it is to Mydei. He goes out of his way to make your favorite dishes just to see you happy and learns all your favorite and least favorite foods by heart. He got into the habit of making you breakfast every morning and sometimes brings it to your bedroom so you can enjoy a breakfast in bed, though he usually does that after a night of passionate lovemaking. Speaking of, if you feel sore or too tired to move after sex, Mydei will help you into the bath and will carefully and gently wash you himself.
Another romantic gesture Mydei does is carry you in his arms whenever youâre tired or have sprained an ankle. He holds you bridal-style without complaint and lets you rest your head on his shoulder until you get home, where he can properly take care of you by treating your ankle or tucking you into bed.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Mydei is quite protective of you. He practically functions like your bodyguard. It is in his nature to fight and keep others safe, but this tendency of his grows stronger when it comes to you. Mydei has lost many loved ones in the past, and the pain of their deaths left scars upon his heart. The thought of losing you terrifies him, so he will do everything in his power to keep you safe.
His first instinct is to use his body as a shield. Youâre mortal, so even one deadly strike from an enemy would take you away from him forever, and Mydei canât stand the thought of losing you. Unlike you, Mydei is practically immortal, so he sees it only right that he should take the heavy hits and deadly blows. His body regenerates at an impressive speed, and even if he dies, he will just come back to life. Itâs no big deal, he assures you each time he takes an arrow in the shoulder or intercepts the slash of a blade that was meant for you. Itâs fine if he bleeds and even dies as long as it means youâre safe. As he had once promised you, Mydei will protect you until he draws his last breath.
Aside from shielding you, Mydei also keeps an eye out for any potential threats like thieves, criminals, and other unsavory sorts whenever you go out into crowded areas. If he spots someone trying to take advantage of you, Mydei will be beside you in an instant to chase the perpetrator away or hand them over to the authorities. He encourages you to walk to one side of him, where there are fewer people, so he can use his body as a buffer between you and the crowds.
He also defends your honor. If anyone dares to badmouth you behind your back, Mydei calls them out and practically threatens them to shut their mouth.
T = Tend (How do they act when youâre hurt or sick, and vice versa?)
Mydeiâs protective instincts flare up whenever you get injured or fall sick, and he turns all his attention to helping you get better. If you sustained a light injury, he helps you clean and patch up the wound while remarking that you should be more careful in the future. Donât be too upset at him, his grumbling stems from worry about your wellbeing.
If you sustained heavy injuries that require professional medical attention, Mydei wonât find peace until he confirms that youâre okay. He visits you at the medical center as often as he can to check how youâre recovering and will ask the doctors for detailed information on how to take care of you at home when you finally get released. Mydei will be meticulous about changing your bandages or ensuring you take all your medicine so you can make a full recovery. You can call scold him for being too controlling over this, but he will not budge on this matter. Not until youâre fully healed, that is.
If you fall sick, Mydei will take care of you. He hates seeing you feeling weak because it makes him feel helpless, but he still tries his best to nurse you back to health. Mydei acts a bit like a fussy mother whenever you get sick, even if he tries to hide his worry behind his usual stoic exterior (though you can see it in his eyes when he looks at you). He places a cool rag on your forehead to help lower your fever, makes you take your medicine, cooks you soup and porridge so you get some food in you, and helps with household chores so you only have to worry about resting and recovering. He never complains about taking care of you when youâre at your weakest. He just tells you to focus on getting better so you can go training with him again or catch that one theater performance you told him about.
U = Upset (How do they act when youâre upset?)
Mydei isnât great at comforting people, but he still tries his best to help you through whatever may be troubling you. His response will depend on the severity of your distress. If youâre upset over something small, Mydei will try to lighten the mood by playfully asking whatâs got you looking like a piece of wilted lettuce. Heâs not the best at giving words of comfort, so he tries to distract you from your sour mood with some teasing and suggestions to go do something productive to help you feel better.
If youâre so upset that youâre on the verge of crying, Mydei wonât speak much but will instead offer comfort through touch. He feels awkward comforting someone who is crying and might at first place a hand on your back or shoulder in a show of silent support, but if you ask him for a hug or bury your face in his shoulder in search of comfort, then heâll wrap you up in a proper hug. Mydei holds you and lets you cry without interrupting or demanding you tell him whatâs wrong, even if he wants to know what happened to make you so upset. He keeps his questions to himself until you calm down and feel a bit better, and only then asks you to tell him what happened. Mydei will offer advice if he thinks it will help you solve your problem or directs you to someone else who can. If the cause is not something that can be easily fixed, then he continues to be supportive of you and keeps a close eye on your mental state. Even if heâs not the best at comforting others, Mydei is loyal and has a strong desire to see you safe and happy, so he will do everything within his power to help you get through the rough patch youâre in.
V = Vulnerable (When was the first time they were vulnerable with you?)
Mydei was vulnerable for the first time when he shared his worries with you. He usually bottles up his doubts and insecurities because he doesnât trust others enough to be vulnerable around them, and also because he doesnât have many people to lean on. As the proud crown prince and leader of his people, Mydei does not want to appear weak in front of his fellow Kremnoans. Some look up to him while others place their hopes of restoring Castrum Kremnos to its former glory upon him, and he does not want to let them down. Furthermore, their Kremnoan traditions do not support things like vulnerability, so if Mydei permitted himself to appear weak in front of his people, it could cause unrest among their ranks.
But it is not like that with you. You donât expect him to be infallible and treat him as an equal, so Mydei takes comfort in your unconditional love and openness with him. The way you treated him like an ordinary human instead of an immortal warrior or crown prince prompted Mydei to open up and share his troubles with you when they weighed too heavily on his mind. You are one of the few who got to see the man beneath the prideful arrogance and learn just how many doubts, life-changing decisions, expectations, and hopes Mydei carries upon his shoulders.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
Yes and no. Mydei is self-sufficient. He grew up without a family and spent his early childhood fighting off monsters in the Sea of Souls. Heâs also lost countless soldiers and friends throughout his short life, so he is no stranger to losing loved ones. He learned very early on how to depend on his own strengths to survive and how to be independent. Plus, as the leader of a nation, Mydei cannot afford to be heavily reliant on others. He carves out his own path and sticks to his beliefs even if they go against the norm. That is why, if you are not a part of his life anymore, Mydei does not falter. He will persevere and live his life as he believes is right.
However, his life will not feel the same without you. You showed him the joys of mutual love, of what itâs like to have someone care about him for who he is instead of for his title as a prince or a Chrysos Heir. You gave him new experiences and taught him the beauty of loving someone with your entire being and having that love be reciprocated in full. You were the closest thing he had to a family and were someone he treasured dearly. While Mydei can go on without you, his life will never be the same. Now that he has experienced real love, being unable to have these same joys and tender moments makes his life feel duller. As if you took all the colors with you when you left.
He will miss you and will think about you from time to time. Heâll have a box filled with items that once belonged to you that he looks at from time to time and reminisces about your happy times together. Youâll also become a sore topic for him to discuss for years, even when heâs grown old and grey. While Mydei acts aloof and discourages others from getting close, once he accepts someone into his life and heart, he has a hard time letting go and truly moving on.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them)
The Kremnoan language is as rough and rugged as the natives who speak it and offers little in terms of affectionate words of endearment. Yet, Mydei still found a way to soften the language into something loving when using it around you. He knows you donât understand Kremnoan, but he uses that to his advantage. Things he is too embarrassed to say to you in normal conversation, he can say in Kremnoan instead. For example, when your eyes light up with joy when eating his cooking or when you rest your head on his shoulder, Mydei thinks you look adorable, but he struggles to express that openly. During those moments, itâs a lot easier for him to call you precious or sweet or say that he loves you in Kremnoan than in your shared language.
At the start of your relationship, Mydei will be too embarrassed to reveal what he said when you ask him for a translation. Thankfully, you can always ask Krateros or another Kremnoan to explain it to you, so Mydeiâs little secret doesnât stay secret for long. Eventually, he will be honest and give you the translation when you ask, but at the beginning, he will try to dodge your questions and pretend that he said something to make fun of you rather than express his endearment.
If you turn the tables and say something like âI love youâ in broken Kremnoan, Mydei will be pleasantly surprised and touched that you took the effort to speak to him in his language. While he frowns down upon the recklessly bloodthirsty traditions of Castrum Kremnos, he does take pride in his culture and would love it if you expressed an interest in it. He may not be proficient in Kremnoan since he canât write in it, but he can help teach you how to say a few basic words and phrases if youâre interested. It would be a great way for Mydei to deepen his bond with you.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldnât like, either in general or in a partner?)
Mydei wouldnât like a partner who isnât honest with him. If they have secrets they want to keep, thatâs fine. He wonât pressure them to spill everything unless it is important to their safety or their relationship. He has things he doesnât want to reveal, either. But he absolutely hates being lied to and taken advantage of after he put his trust in someone. By nature, Mydei is honest and blunt and will say things as they are because he believes the bitter truth is better than sweet lies. He wants to receive honesty in return, so if his partner lies to him often or about major things, his trust in them will be broken.
Mydei also values loyalty in general, but particularly in a romantic partner. If they cheat on him or take advantage of his kindness, they will lose his love, and he will never again let them into his heart. Once Mydei commits to a relationship, he devotes himself to his lover and remains loyal to them no matter what. If his partner canât show him the same amount of devotion, then they are not worth his time.
For the relationship in general, Mydei wouldnât like it if his partner put him on a pedestal or gloated about having him as a partner. It would make him uncomfortable to be treated like a trophy or a person of a higher social status than his partner, even if it is true. Mydei just wants to be treated like an equal by his romantic partner because thatâs how he views them.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleeping habit of theirs?)
This is more of a fun fact than a habit, but Mydei has a naturally higher body temperature just like other Kremnoans. Itâs fantastic for when youâre cold because Mydei lets you warm your cold fingers and toes against his skin and keeps you warm during chillier temperatures, but awful for when the weather is warm since you overheat in his arms. When you start squirming in his arms to escape the furnace that is his body, Mydei usually wakes up and reluctantly lets you go. However, sometimes he will just kick the covers off and wrap his arms tighter around your waist, letting you know that he's unwilling to let go of you yet.
Smuts or any fics really where Mydei is being gentle would be my Roman Empire if i could fucking find any âšď¸
I see a lot where he's being more careless and aggressive, but he's also inherently gentle. E.x: He's good with kids and I believe there's a scene where if the TB decides to kill a black tide creature that wasn't attacking, Mydei then calls then a killer or something.
when you make a living in the bowels of the eternal holy city, nothing is ever personal. until you catch yourself wondering just how heavy of a crown that kremnoan prince actually bears.
â featuring; mydei x f!reader
â word count; 40.6k words (i'm sorry.....)
â tags; canon compliant, red light district, prostitution, doomed relationship, yearning, heavy angst (like,,, this is not an exaggeration i swear), implied/referenced past abuse, smut (MINORS DNI)
â notes; the very first mydei fic i've written, coming to you on tumblr dot com! i was wondering if the character limit is going to permit the existence of a monster wall of text like this, but surprisingly, it did! on ao3, this is actually a trilogy of fics, but part of me thought it really would have been better if it was posted in one go AJSJDHFSHD so here we are!!!! the title is also from lorde's world alone <3
â header art cr; chongguolyb on x
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â Â SMUT TAGS; vaginal fingering, vaginal sex, mating press, creampie, oral (f receiving), come eating, emotional sex, wall sex, really every smut scene is just so tender and melancholic
Despite its reputation as the city dearly loved by the sun, Okhema has its own share of misgivings.Â
Youâve known since you first set foot within the borders of the Holy City that you have no place here. Even if it prides itself as a sanctuary for those whose homes were ravaged by the Black Tide, the reception for refugees offers none of the hospitality once promised to you.Â
Perhaps those born and raised in the capitalâfar from the city states that have fallen prey to the eternal nightâwould rather not involve themselves with people like you. People that have seen the worst of what the impending calamity has in store. People who only wish to find some place to call home.
But you donât condemn them from feeling the way they do. Okhemans treat all outsiders with an equal amount of disdain: the Kremnoans, the Dolosians, even the Aidonians. Then again, if your hometown suddenly has an influx of strangers pouring in from every part of the world, you would be alarmed by it as well.
Thatâs why you try your best to stay in their good graces. Always.
âBig Sis Thalia? Someoneâs looking for you.â
Your session of early morning tea is quietly interrupted by a child named Nikolas. He peeks through the curtain of seashells separating your quarters from the rest of The House, eyes closed just to make sure heâs not intruding on anything. The boyâs discretion makes you laugh.Â
âNik, itâs alright. Come in,â you insist and ever-so shyly, he does.
Nikolas has been inside here before, but the bedazzled look in his eyes whenever he takes in the trinkets youâve decorated your space with is nothing short of amusing. You give him some time to gawk around as you finish the rest of your tea.Â
âSorry,â he mumbles once he snaps out of it. âMother wanted me to tell you that the swordsman is here again. The one with the white hair?âÂ
You shake your head. âNik, Lord Phainon has done enough for the undercity that you should at least remember his name.âÂ
âY-Yes, him! Lord Phainon.âÂ
âOkay, did Elena tell you what he wants?â you ask, despite already hazarding a couple of reasons for his visit. âI doubt heâs here to avail of my services.âÂ
Unlike most boys his age, Nikolas doesnât get flustered by casual mentions of your line of work. After all, he was born in this very brothel. His mother raised him to treat all his big sisters with love and respect, and itâs hard not to dote on him because of it. âShe didnât say,â he sighs. âShould I tell the other big sisters to let him up here?â
âI donât see why not.â
Shortly after, another person parts the curtain of glittering shells by the entryway. Phainon lets himself inside with a polite look on his face, as if heâs walking into the Pantheonâs grand hall and not some common whoreâs quarters. âLord Phainon,â you address him with an inquisitive smile. âWhat brings you here?â
Phainonâs lips crack into a handsome smile. âLady Thaliaââ
That makes you groan. âPlease, you donât have to address me with that name. Youâre a friend.âÂ
âBut itâs only proper if Iâm here on the prospect of business, isnât it?âÂ
â...Forgive me, but the mere idea of doing business with you feels horrendously wrong. Iâm afraid I must declineââ
Phainon says your real name as a matter of throwing you off, and your face contorts with mild vexation. But now that he has your attention, he says, âYou donât have to worry. Iâm not here to seek the paradise that The House offers to all willing patrons. Itâs more likeâŚa referral of sorts.â You take in his words slowly, making sure thereâs no underlying wordplay. But you suppose the man is as direct as he can be with what heâs trying to say.Â
âA referral?â you echo with a snort. âNow, who could a Chrysos Heir like you be referring to a shoddy place like this? Your mere presence here is already enough to send Lady Aglaea into a fit of rage, you know. What more if you endorse our services to someone else?â
âIf that's the case, then Iâm afraid that you gravely misunderstand her,â Phainon chuckles softly. âBut I digress. I think it would be best for you to meet this person face-to-face rather than have me put in a word for him.â
âSo youâre basically asking if Iâm willing to accommodate whoever this is?â is your deadpan retort. âLord Phainon, when you work here in the undercity, making ends meet is difficult if you donât pull enough strings. Someone like me has no business refusing clientsââ
âYet you refused me?â he sighs dramatically.
âYou just said youâre not here for that! Can you please make up your mind?â
Phainon lets out a laugh he pulls straight from the pit of his stomach, and it makes you think that maybe you would have fallen for someone like him if your life had been more different, if fate had been kinder to you. But this is the reality you live in; a reality where youâd rather drown in the Black Tide than put your friendship with Phainon to the test.Â
âAnyway,â he interjects once heâs done guffawing. âI take it that youâre agreeing to meet this friend of mine? I donât usually bring up The House to just anyone, but I think he might need the distraction. And the company.â
Heaving a sigh, you fold your arms together. âI take it that you have no plans to even tell me your friendâs name?â
âIf I did that, you would probably decline in an instant,â Phainon laughs again, âwhich is perfectly fine in any case. I just want you to give him a chance first.â
â...Your description alone is already making me second guess.â
Placing a hand over his chest, he bows. âI swear on Kephaleâs name that this man will bring neither you nor the other residents of The House any harm. If he does, Iâll personally end him for you.â
That makes you arch an eyebrow. âSo youâre saying he has the capacity to do that?â
âYes, but apart from free will, intellect is another one of Kephaleâs greatest gifts to mankind.â Phainon rises back to his full height, eyes brimming with optimism as usual. âEven if my friend is free to hurt others, it doesn't mean he will. Amphoreus is past the age of barbaric violence, after all.âÂ
Thereâs something infuriating in how cheeky Phainonâs reasoning is, but heâs always been gifted with words. You suppose itâs alright to do him this favor, given that heâs the reason The House has yet to be cracked down on by the Council of Elders. If it werenât for Phainon, you and the other girls would have been forced back into the streets of the Holy City, with those Okhemans who seem to despise foreigners more than the Black Tide itself.Â
â...Fine. When is he coming?â you relent eventually, much to your dismay. âI donât have any patrons to accommodate this evening, so your timing is actually impeccableâsuspiciously so.â
The subtle jab does not go unnoticed. âWhy, I have nothing to do with that at all. But Iâll let him know. Thank you for your kind consideration, Lady Thalia.â
âIf you call me that one more timeâŚâ
Phainon eventually bids his farewell, not just to you but the rest of the girls in The House. Of course, they practically swoon from his unintentional charm. Everyone here loves that man to varying degrees, after all.Â
âBig Sister, should I help draw a bath for you?âÂ
The third person who crosses your seashell curtain today is a girl named Iris. Her voice is meek, as is her countenance, and youâre convinced that, whatever hell she escaped from, she must not be used to being able to speak as freely as she does now. âIris,â you sigh. âIâm not your master or anything like that. You donât have to draw me a bath.â
âB-But Lady Elena mentioned you were accommodating someone tonight,â she squeaks, embarrassment coloring her cheeks with warmth. âI just wanted to help you out, just like you did for me back thenâŚâ Her thoughtfulness makes you smile candidly. âAlright. If you insist.â
The straight affirmation makes her face light up, and the sight warms your heart. Iris constantly stammers with her words as she helps you prepare for the arrival of Phainonâs friend, but her nervousness is compensated for by her sincerityâsomething youâve come to enjoy as a staple ever since you started living at The House.
Why live amongst the vicious Okhemans when not even the Dawn Device can light up their obscured view of foreigners like you? Itâs much better to stay with your newfound sisters here in the shadows. Even if youâre lifetimes away from the vast ocean you once called home, what you found here is the closest thing.
Youâd be a fool to trade it for anything else.
Evenings have always been long in Okhemaâs red light district.Â
Itâs a place devoid of the usual rules they follow up there on the surface. Absolutely anything goes in the undercity, and the promise of secrecy is enticing enough even for the overworlders to come crawling down into the darkness. You know itâs hypocritical of those Okhemans to shun outsiders whenever they feel like riding their moral high horses, only to succumb to the pleasures of the flesh when itâs convenient for them.
But itâs even more hypocritical of you to despise them in equal measure, just for you to accept their money as if itâs your only lifeline. Debauchery is only second to the stench of hypocrisy that lingers in the stale air of the undercity. But the only way to survive here is to never take anything to heart.
Much like the fact that Phainonâs friend still hasnât shown up past midnight.Â
Youâre no stranger to missed appointmentsâif you can even call them that to begin with. While there are some depraved men who would do anything for a minute of your time, there are also others who donât think youâre worth a moment of theirs. At the end of the day, youâre just some prostitute they can do as they please with.Â
Iris waits with you out of courtesy. Even if the poor girl is better off resting in bedâgiven that her last client did quite a number on herâshe insisted on keeping you company. But when the fourth hour ticks past with no sign of Phainonâs friend, she gives up and obeys when you plead with her to get some sleep.Â
Eventually, the ruckus youâve grown accustomed to hearing around The House dulls into shared whispers between your sisters who are thoughtful enough to keep their voices down. The location of the red light district allows for the illusion of night without the threat of the Black Tide. Here, anyone can fall into a deep sleep without the sun razing their eyes.
âI didnât think you would agree.â
Elenaâs voice is soft like thunder rumbling in the distance, strangely comforting to hear. She joins you in the room youâve reserved for tonightâs tryst. Titans know youâd never bring patrons to your own quarters. Still, as the head of The House, itâs only natural for her to make a place meant for sinners to feel like home for girls with nowhere else to go. âTo what?â you ask, deciding to play along.
She smiles before taking a seat next to you on the bed. âTo Lord Phainonâs outrageous request. You seem like youâd do anything but take anyone associated with him as a patron.âÂ
âThatâs what I thought, too. But you know how convincing he can be.â
âVery much so.â The two of you share a laugh in the dim lights of the lanterns. If there are any people who know how much Phainon has helped The House, itâs you and Elena.Â
âThat boy is a bit of a gray character, isnât he? A hero of the people, telling his friend to relieve some tension at a place like this?â Elena shakes her head in disbelief. âIâd understand why that friend of his is a no-show. Phainon is the only overworlder crazy enough to not have a bone to pick with us bottom dwellers.â
You hum. âNot so sure about that. I heard that Penelopeâs client for tonight is a wealthy merchant that has no problem with her dominating him into oblivion.âÂ
âDo me a favor and exclude the nymphomaniacs from the conversation, please?â
Despite his status as both an overworlder and a Chrysos Heir, the main reason why Phainon even involves himself with the undercity is Elena. The two of them came from the same small village at the edge of the worldâlong forgotten, long burned to ashes.Â
Aedes Elysiae is a place youâve only learned about when Elena took you in. While you donât bother with the specifics, itâs comforting to know that Phainon is well aware of the gripes that come with being a foreigner. Youâd call him a hypocrite too, for cozying up to the overworlders, but heâs much too kind to everyone he encounters. Coupled with the fact that he helped save you and Elena from the clutches of the old master of The House, you suppose he deserves your respect.
âDid he tell you who it is though?â To be fair, curiosity is starting to eat at you. âI canât think of a single soul that would even consider Phainonâs suggestion. Itâs as you said: no one is as crazy as he is.âÂ
Though Elena is good at masking her thoughts from the others, you can read her like an open book. Even if she only hums in response, thatâs already an answer on its own.
âFine. Keep your secrets then,â you grumble. âSo can I wash off my makeup now? Though I feel a bit bad since Iris helped out. She even did my nails.âÂ
âYou know, that girl has taken a liking to you the same way you did with me back in the day.â
âYou wish.âÂ
Elena shakes her head endearingly. âNo need to wish for something thatâs already true. Oh, but I suggest you wait just a while longer.â
That warrants an immediate groan. âWhy? The entire districtâs asleep by now.â
âExactly.â
Like she always does, Elena gets up without elaborating further. She makes a beeline toward the entrance with a knowing look on her face and, without so much as another word, the head of The House leaves you to your own devices. Great.
Speaking with Elena isnât so different from speaking with Phainon. You wonder if they have a shared trait where they can rile you up without trying. Is it something exclusive to Aedes Elysians? Thank Titans, her son Nikolas hasnât manifested anything similar. You wouldnât be able to handle three troublemakers.Â
In the midst of your musing, you hear the sound of footsteps down the hall. You typically wouldnât mind the noise, given that this brothel houses about a dozen and a half of your sisters. But each step sounds deliberateâstrong and sure, like a person who knows the value of their presence.
You initially assume itâs Elena, but have an inkling that the footsteps are much too heavy to be hers. Just when you decide to get up and check who it is, you come face-to-face with the perpetrator the moment you parted the velvet curtains.
The man that stands before you is more of a legend than anything else.
Youâve heard about him from tall tales that Kremnoan patrons have shared out of the blue. The Last Prince. The Immortal Lion. While the reputation of those who hail from Castrum Kremnos precedes them, you didnât think theyâd be so devoted to their Prince until that day. Your patron spoke about him as if he was a Titan himself.
But now that youâre faced with none other than Mydeimos in the flesh, everything has started to make sense.Â
He towers over you with ease, his presence effortlessly domineering. The placid look on his face as he sizes you up makes you feel like youâre on opposite sides of the battlefield, and youâd rather not fight a seasoned warrior whoâs nearly twice your sizeâ
âHello,â he greets surprisinglyâŚnormally. âMy name is Mydeimos, but Iâd rather you call me Mydei. You are?âÂ
His directness makes you blink up at him. You didnât think he was the type to introduce himself. He seems like someone who expects every person he crosses paths with to know his name. After all, Mydeimos made waves when he brought the Kremnoan Detachment in Okhema and helped defend the city against the mad Titan, Nikador, among other feats.
âThalia,â you tell him your working name while keeping a straight face, trying not to let him see just how befuddled you are. âItâs nice to meet you.â
âThe Deliverer has told me about you a couple of times in passing,â he tells you, all while taking in the interior of the dimly lit room. âWhile I was initially against his proposal, one thing led to another and Iâve found myself right where he wants me.â
It takes you a moment to figure out who this Deliverer is. âOh. Lord Phainon can be quite persuasive.âÂ
âPersuasive is an understatement,â the blond huffs before affixing you with that golden-eyed stare. âSo, how will this go? Iâm afraid I am wholly unfamiliar with how you operate in the undercity. IâŚdonât want to overstep any boundaries.â
That only serves to confuse you even more.
Youâve been in the business long enough to know that men are disgusting scoundrels one way or another. Most of them would just pay to use your body and not even say a word when theyâre done. Theyâd never even think twice about you since youâre working for them at that moment, after all.Â
Itâs a lifestyle youâre not proud of. Youâve never felt more empty than when a man pumps you full of his seed with no regard for your wellbeing. But this is all you know. All youâre good for. And you love Elena and your sisters too much to leave The House behind. Then this man walks into the room with overstepping boundaries as his main concern instead of getting impatient to fuck you against the closest solid surface.
Still, you tread carefully.Â
âBefore anything else, Iâd like to clarify what exactly it is you came here for,â you say, proud of how firm you sound in spite of how anxious you are. âWe canât work on anything if I donât know where to start, Lord Mydeimos.âÂ
He sighs. âAs I said, just Mydei is fine. And didn't the Deliverer already tell you?â
You cast him a pointed look. âLoâ Mydei, we both know Lord Phainon well enough to know that he tends to exaggerate certain details. Heâs not the one paying for my servicesâyou are. So I ask you againâŚâ
In a show of confidence, you step closer to him, eyes drifting to the ornate necklace sitting across his throat. It was a band of dark metal inlaid with gilded sapphires gleaming in the waning light. You muster enough courage to curl your fingers around it and tug. He yields disarmingly easily, grunting in contempt but with no signs of protest. For some reason, it fills you with a strange sense of accomplishment.
âWhat are you here for?â you say, voice barely above a whisper.Â
His jaw clenches for a moment, as if biting something down. Though you try your best to keep your eyes focused on his gaze of molten fire, you canât help but notice the way his posture shifts to accommodate the compromising position you forced him into.Â
Mydeiâs body is as flawless as people say it isânot a single scar denting his strong, rippled flesh. This is the physique of a man who has gone to war far more times than you can imagine. There is no blade in the world sharp enough to cut him down, and you quietly revel in the detail that Kephale personally took to mold this statue of a man.Â
âIâŚâ  He starts, but hesitates still.
Feeling emboldened, you caress Mydeiâs face gentlyâtracing the bright red marks that bleed from his right eye before swirling in deliberate patterns across the rest of his body. He shudders at your touch and you flash him a lopsided smile.Â
Then and there, you pull up a mental catalogue of every single thing youâve heard about Mydei in passing. What the people love about him, what they hate, what they wish they could emulate for themselvesâall of it. Because your line of work requires you to deduce what will make your patrons unravel at the seams in a mere glance.
Thatâs how you decide to play your cards: out of a plethora of guesses about their character. From the way Mydei has acted in the five minutes youâve been together, itâs painstakingly obvious that he bears the weight of a crown he does not even want. Which makes things much easier for you.Â
âGo on,â you murmur, letting your breath fan across his face. âThereâs no need for hesitation here. When youâre with meâŚ
âYou donât have to be anything else but mine.âÂ
While it always works on your more eager patrons, saying something so intrepid to a Chrysos Heir is near-unthinkable. A shot in the dark. You arenât even sure if Mydei is into being addressed that way by a complete stranger, but you see it againâthat not-so subtle click of his jaw, which tells you more than enough.
The tension hangs heavy in the air. You can barely breathe without feeling your heart race erratically. Thereâs an unspoken fervor in Mydeiâs gaze as his lips quiver like he has something to say.
But you quickly realize that there is little need for words when it comes to someone like him.
Mydeiâs intentions translate much better when he puts them into action. He barely gives you any time to process what was happening. All you know is that thereâs nothing sweeter than the moment the distance between you disappears, and his warm lips slant across yours. The kiss catches you off-guard for only a moment. Most of your patrons donât bother. In the red light district, kissing is far too intimate for most of them. Yet Mydei doesnât even think twice about it.
His warmth permeates into you as Mydei holds you as close as he canâpressing you flush against his rigid body. Itâs a dizzying feeling, but one you canât dwell on for long when you feel his tongue prodding at your lips. You grant Mydei entrance far too easily, letting him map the cavern of your mouth with the slick appendage. He pulls a moan out of you, and in turn, you feel a strong hand firmly pushing your head further into the kiss.Â
The feel of his cold gauntlet in your hair should have scared you, or at least, made you wary. But his armor is of little consequence when Mydei holds you like youâre the most precious thing in the entire world. You donât recall the last time youâve felt so lightheaded from a patronâs kiss. You donât even remember the last time any of them even kissed you.
Thatâs how you know that this encounter with Mydei will cement itself into your memory whether or not you want it to. Not just because heâs a Prince, but because he makes it a point to remind you that things like this are supposed to feel good.
You gasp his name against his lips, but Mydei devours the words before you can get them out. That simple show of dominance already has you clenching your thighsâa reaction that isnât lost on the perpetrator himself.
In another attempt to catch you completely by surprise, Mydeiâs armor-clad hands travel to your thighs, where the high slits of your skirt conveniently part to accommodate the intrusion. Your doughy flesh is hot against his gauntlets and you nearly whimper when he grabs the meat of your assâthe sharp tips digging into your sensitive skin.Â
Despite your mind being thrown into a haze, you still catch on to what he wants. You curl one of your thighs around his hipsâlips still melded together as Mydei helps hoist you up. Once heâs balanced your weight sufficiently, youâre able to cage him between your legs. Still, the both of you know who truly holds the reins.
Mydei traces a path of flames along the hollow of your throat, murmuring words in a language you canât understand. When he presses you against the nearest wall and takes full advantage of the leverage, you canât ever hope to resist. He doesnât say anything more, content with swathing your skin in reds and blues from each bruising kiss.
The man hasnât even done much, but youâre already this willing to let him do as he pleases. Itâs difficult to miss just how much slick has pooled between your thighs, and the anticipation makes you shiver. When was the last time you were this eager to let a patron have his way with you?
âHold on,â he whispers before gently nibbling on your bottom lip. âI need to feel you.â
Head still fuzzy from his ministrations, you barely notice when Mydei maneuvers you to the bed, setting you down as gently as he can. The cool sheets are a stark contrast to your fever-pitched skin. But you barely pay attention when you notice Mydei pressing a knee onto the bed, molten gold irises entirely transfixed on you as he unlatches the gauntlets from his arms.Â
His words only begin to dawn on you then.Â
I need to feel you.Â
Did you excite a reaction so intense that Mydei felt such a carnal need to touch you with his bare handsâskin to skin, and nothing in between? You donât care if his armor clatters uselessly onto the floor. Not when Mydei surges forward to capture your lips again and nudges your legs apart. Saliva trickles past the corner of your mouth as another moan is lost to his fervent kiss. Â
Contrary to your initial beliefs, Mydei is not the legend many think he is. In fact, he is just as human as anyone elseâthose large, hot hands of his are proof of that. Mydei spreads you apart before him like he wants to take in every inch of youâto devour you with his gaze.
Heâs not much of a talker, which poses no problem, as youâve been with enough men who think far too much of themselves. Fools often compensate for their poor performance with senseless talk. But thereâs none of that with Mydei, whose gaze alone can melt you into nothingness.Â
(You hope he knows that you're all too willing to surrender all that you have for a taste of him.)
When Mydei leans closer, you expect another kissâeven pucker up in sheer anticipation. But his first display of petulance comes in a small smirk that plays at his lips. The Prince quickly evades you to nose at your collarbone, licking at the motley of bruises he left in his wake. Almost like a quiet apology despite himself.
His discretion makes you squirm, and it distracts you from the fact that heâs undoing the laces holding your dress together. When the fabric comes apart, heâs granted a generous view of your breasts, and the noise that escapes him would make you think heâs unearthed some holy relic from a past gone by.
Mydei wastes no time peppering your chest with the degree of affection heâs lathered along the column of your neck. Itâs like he means for every biting kiss to leave a mark, a lasting reminder of your time with him for days to come. The moment he takes one of your pert nipples into his mouth, you barely contain your own sounds, and you wonder if youâll lose yourself completely once heâs gone all the way.
Unlike the cold bite of his gauntlets, Mydeiâs bare hands are warmer than the unsetting sun on the surface.
He touches you with the intention of committing each dip and crevice of your body to memory. You feel him pawing at your breasts, his nails digging into the curve of your ass, and when those wandering hands settle along the curve of your hips, you involuntarily buck up into him. Itâs a reaction that makes him pause, those golden eyes like gilded lanterns in the night flickering to yours in a heartbeat.
Your breath hitches as your gazes meet. Strange enough, you find the eye contact much more intimate than whatever heâs doing to your body. Wordlessly, Mydei stops suckling at your breasts to sink lower on the bed. The man doesnât even bother removing your skirt, content with nudging it out of the way before settling himself between your lovely thighs.
When you realize what heâs trying to do, you tense up for all the wrong reasons.
You know what people say about the whores of The House. No matter how many times you cleanse yourselves with Phagousaâs blessing of the stream, your bodies will remain tainted by the touch of all the men youâve let inside of you. You should know better. The Titan of the Sea is much closer to you than meets the eye, but if you stay in Okhema for far too long, you start to forget what youâve been taught at homeâyour real home.
âYour mind is wandering.â
Mydeiâs quiet voice snaps you out of your reverie, making your face flush. But he quickly dispels the lingering shame when his soft fingers prod at your mound. He spreads your lips apart with caution, like he doesnât wish to hurt you. And when he has a firsthand look of how drenched you are, he barely stifles a groan.
He doesnât comment on your momentary distraction again, thank Titans. However, he momentarily robs you of your capacity to speak when he hoists your thighs up his broad shoulders, not even thinking twice before licking a long, deliberate stripe across your dripping cunt. Your nerves are set alight every which way. Mydei repeats the motions of his tongue in dizzying succession, even taking the time to trace tight circles around your sensitive nub. It has you gushing in an instant, and Mydei is all too eager to lap up every drop of your essence.Â
So tender in the way he pleases you, you canât help but tangle your fingers into his fiery blond hairâpressing his face even closer to your sopping heat. Mydei licks and slurps at you cunt like some mere mortal gifted ambrosia for the first time. Nothing makes sense about the passion heâs exhibiting for a complete stranger, but youâre too intoxicated from pleasure to deny yourself his devotion.Â
You know youâre doomed the moment those thick fingers start to gather the slick thatâs collected along your seamâworking in tandem with his sinful tongue as he presses the lone digit inside your tight cunt. Your toes curl at the blissful intrusion, and youâre certain youâve pulled at his hair enough for it to hurt. Mydei doesnât exhibit any signs that he particularly minds. In fact, he even moans into your wet heat, making come hither motions with his finger that stimulates your walls in all the right ways.
The premise of foreplay has been lost on you for a long time, and getting someone like him to do all of this without a second thought makes you wonder if this is all a dream. But then the Prince slides in another of his thick digits inside you, anchoring you to the shores of reality as he fucks you on his fingers and feasts on you with his mouth. The way he grips harshly onto your thighs ought to hurt, but the only thing that spills from your lips is pure ecstasy.
Mydei doesnât lick between your folds with reckless abandon. He makes sure each flick of his tongue is slow, dragging, purposefulâenough to render you squirming beneath his touch.Â
He builds up that steady burn flickering in the pit of your stomach. The more he tongues at your clit, fishes for that patch of spongy flesh that makes you keen just right, the closer he brings you to the precipice. You donât know how he can possibly tell, but when you start feeling that blissful release starting to boil beneath your skin, Mydei noticeably amps up the effort.Â
His fingers barely retract from your cunt, in favor of driving those thick digits even deeper into you. That unfairly talented mouth latches onto your nub and Mydei concentrates all his attention to helping you reach that high you donât always see with most patrons. The stimulation is too good, too much.
Youâre not used to this, not used to him.Â
You thought that the stars had left Amphoreus when Aquila closed their eyes. But all you see are a dozen constellations dancing across your blurry vision when you come apart on Mydeiâs tongue. He holds your hips down as you ride out that blissful highâmaking sure you feel it course through your veins and shoot straight through your skull. From his hedonistic stare alone, you would know heâs far from done with you.
When the dust settles, you catch your breath in short gasps, pulse thundering in the confine of your ribs. You donât immediately realize that Mydei is in the process of taking off the rest of his armor. Though you canât help the soft giggle you make when you hear him curse out the offending garments when they refuse to yield to him.
So, despite having little to no feeling in your legs, you scoot closer to the edge of the bedâundoing the latches that hold his belt and leg plates in place. Mydei awkwardly steps out of them, and you try your best to stifle your laughter; really, you do!
âI donât understand why this is so amusing for you,â he grumbles.
All you can offer him is a grin. âYouâre just notâŚthe person I expected.â
âHm? Care to elaborate?âÂ
âI think you would enjoy it more if we pick up where we left off.â
The Prince doesnât protest. Instead, he lets you pull him back to the bed not without stealing another kiss that grows more heated, more desperate with each passing second. Even if youâre still feeling the tingling sensation in the wake of your last orgasm, youâre eager to return the favor. Mydei doesnât object when you undo the clasp of his trousers. The fabric feels expensiveâbefitting of a man of royal lineage. But the way he sheds the rest of his clothes makes their value feel inconsequential when he has eyes on one thing only.
You.
Thereâs a teasing edge to the way you kiss him as you grasp his throbbing length. He feels hot and heavy in your hand, thick veins jutting along the underside. The girth of him troubles you for a moment, making you consider retrieving that jar of lubricant safety stashed in one of the nearby drawers.Â
Before you can voice out the suggestion, however, Mydei rests his forehead on your shoulder, breathing heavily as you pump his cock in your feeble little hands. The show of vulnerability startles you a bit. Is he so deprived of relief that he crumbles the moment itâs given to him?
Normally, this is when you would crawl between a patronâs legs and suck him off before letting him fuck you. But this entire session with Mydei is anything but normal. No man has ever gone down on you the way he has, and from the way he shudders so adorably from your hands alone tells you he needs release much more than he lets on.
So, you plant both of your knees on either side of his hips to straddle him comfortably, and with all the strength you can muster, you push the Prince onto his back. Although you do fail to account for the manâs rapid reflexes. The moment he feels the extra force, his hand is quick to seize your wristâtight enough that it actually hurts.Â
âM-MydeiâŚ?âÂ
The hint of fear in your voice seems to snap him out of it, and his ironclad grip loosens. Mydei stares up at you apologetically. âForgive me. ItâsâŚa force of habit.â
Oh, right. First and foremost, he is a warrior. A Kremnoan Prince. And though he has no business floating inside of your head at the moment, the conversation you had with Phainon earlier resurfaces in your head.Â
Even if my friend is free to hurt others, it doesn't mean he will.
The dissonance between what you know about the battle-hungry spirit of Kremnoans and the tenderness that Mydei has shown you so far only serves to puzzle you even more. Phainon was right to assume you would turn him down if he told you that the friend in question is Mydeimos of all people.Â
BecauseâŚwhat else would you expect from a man whoâs known war more than heâs ever known love? Youâve lied with warriors before, and soldiers, and even some city guards. None of the people who have tasted what itâs like to stand on the battlefield have ever been kind to someone they only think of as a hole to fuckâa source of relief and none else. But Mydei? In the short time youâve known him, heâs convinced you that no harm will come to you as long as youâre in his company. Instead of fearing for your life, you feelâŚsafe. Something you consider a luxury for someone in your line of work.
You feel like thereâs something twisted in the fact that youâre relieved just from the thought that he isnât here to kill you. But too many of your sisters have lost their lives to pigs who want to silence them for good. Unfaithful husbands that didnât want their wives to find out about their infidelity. Important societal figures that wanted no trace of their illicit activities.
After all, anything goes in the undercity. Even the death of a prostituteâa foreigner, at that.Â
âYouâre thinking too deeply again.â
Count on Mydei to catch on to your little tells. Another thing you didnât expect about him is how easily he can read you. Or maybe youâve always been an open book. Itâs just that your patrons donât usually give as much of a damn as Mydei does.Â
âItâs nothing,â you chuckle, mentally chiding yourself for being so distracted today. âYouâre just⌠I canât even put it into words. I might just be a bit overwhelmed is all.â
You canât tell him that you canât wrap your head around the fact that youâre servicing a Chrysos Heir. It feels all sorts of inappropriate. Mydei studies you for only a moment before he rises back into a sitting position. Youâre about to protestâto let him let you please him this time. But he doesnât seem interested in heeding your quiet request.Â
He manhandles you in a way that swiftly switches your positions and you find yourself back beneath him. The lanterns cast a faint halo around his muscular glory. Even in the dim light, the red marks on Mydeiâs skin glow like veins of fire beneath the earth. He pins you in place not only with his strong hands, but also with eyes like liquid sunlight.
âItâs as you said before,â he murmurs quietly before leaning closer to your ear. The warmth of his breath tickles your neck, and you shudder as he presses a soft, chaste kiss on your temple.Â
âWhen youâre with me, you donât have to be anything else but mine.âÂ
The fact that he just used your words against you makes heat shoot straight to your core. Mydei makes the crude yet attractive motion of spitting into his hand before lathering his cock with saliva. Your mind whispers a reminder about that lubricant you were just thinking about, but thereâs something more carnal in the thought that heâs going to loosen you up with his spit alone.
Yet despite the need burning in his eyes, each movement he makes is weighted with caution. You feel as if heâs compensating for that knee-jerk reaction from earlierâsomething youâd tell him is past you, and that he doesnât have to treat you like fragile glass. But again, the words evaporate on your tongue when you feel the head of his thick cock by your entrance.Â
Mydei lets out another shuddering breath, nudging your knees apart before rubbing his length along the seam of your cunt. It glistens with spit and slick, and you pull him even closer to let him know what it is that you want. The abrupt tug you make on his arm disrupts his center of gravity, and Mydei nearly topples into you. But of course his reflexes work in time yet again and suddenly your faces are but a hairâs breadth apart.
Youâve said it before and youâll say it again: eye contact is a thousand times more intimate than the act of sex itself.Â
He breathes out a word from that unfamiliar language yet again. The way it rolls off his tongue is soft, tender in a way that it almost hurts. Like something meant to be heard by a person close to his heartânot some whore heâll probably never see again. You close your eyes and his lips find yours. Ever-so gently, he pushes himself in.Â
Everything about Mydei is difficult to process. From his presence to his attitude to the sheer girth of himâyou had to take a moment to recalibrate yourself to every single one.
You clutch the sheets tight enough that they start to pull off the edge of the bed. The intrusion is sharp, but not uncomfortable. Not when he eases inch by delicious inch into you with the patience of a saint. While he doesnât coo and coddle you, his eyes are expressive enough to let you know of his concern. You even feel him start to withdraw, possibly out of fear that you wouldnât be able to take him, but you hold on to his forearm to keep him in place.
âI do not wish to hurt you,â Mydei whispers.
You shake your head vigorously. âYouâre doing everything but.â
That doesnât immediately quell the doubt on his face, but Mydei presses forwardâslowly, slowly until his hips are flush against yours.Â
All of a sudden, you forget how to breathe. Heâs⌠huge inside you. Spreading your walls so far apart, you wonder how you were even able to accommodate his size. Youâve never been so filled to the brim that tears nearly well in your eyes because of how good he feelsâ
âFuckâŚâ
Hearing him voice his own blissed out delight and seeing the euphoric look on his face makes you involuntarily clench around him. Itâs a reaction met with a snarl from the man currently eclipsing your smaller frame. Mydei makes the motions to pull out slowly, only to buck his hips with unforgiving force.
The switch-up blindsides you for a moment, lips gaping from a soundless moan. When the Prince catches on to how much you like it, he hammers into you relentlesslyâpushing his fat cock desperately deeper into your slick sex.Â
Your arms curl around his broad shoulders, fingers seeking purchase along the rippling flesh of his muscles. The sinew of his back shifts with each thrust, making you mewl his name pathetically as Mydei drowns you in the heat of him. There are no words shared between you. Only gasps and moans lost in the wet squelch of flesh. Youâre mindful enough to keep it down, and so is he. But even if the red light district is fast asleep, you and Mydei are only getting started.Â
He doesnât quite fuck into you the way youâre used to. The intensity is there, but so is the unbridled passion. It feels like something that isn't yours, but Mydei gives it to you again and again and again until you have no choice but to claim it as your own.Â
To take him as yours.
(Even just for tonight.)
Your nails dig in sharply into his rigid skin, but the fact that he has an indestructible body makes you throw all caution to the wind. Where other men would bleed, he would only use it as a means to push ever-so deeply. As if Mydei isnât already pounding you into the bed, he grasps your chin and meets your lips in an open-mouthed kiss. He spreads you on his cock like he was made for you, and you alone. You can feel him so far inside of you that you fear itâll take days to sweat him out.Â
The nature of your work requires you to never get too attached to any of your clients, which used to be as easy as breathing. None of the men you encounter are worth remembering and you thought that none of them ever will be.
But when itâs a prince who kisses you like a lover and holds you like his queen, how are you supposed to put up a fight?
Mydeiâs pace eventually starts to lose its sound rhythm. From the sharp breaths he takes to the fact that his eyes seem to be going in and out of focus, you can tell that heâs close to the edge.
Who are you to deny him that?
Your fingers tangle in his hair yet again and you whisper every sort of expletive in the book. You fuck me so good. Can feel you throbbing inside me. Come on, Mydeimos, I know youâre almost there. Please, please, pleaseâ
That does just the trick. Mydei reaches the apex of bliss with a sharp hiss. But instead of finishing inside you, he musters up the strength to pull out and lets his white hot emission coat the sheets instead. You don't realize right away, but when you see the pearlescent essence of his cum on the sheets, your heart sinks.Â
âW-Why did youâŚ?âÂ
You donât know why you sound so miserable at the idea of his seed not being deep inside of you. The mere thought of a manâs spend dripping from your cunt repulsed you to no end. But Mydei has a knack for being the sole exception to many things. Heâs quick to wipe the tears that trickle across your face, thumb swiping gently across your soft cheek. âI⌠I do not wish to burden you with having to bear my child. And I have my own reasons for not wanting to sire an heir at this point in time.â
âButâŚâ
Mydei continues, having not heard you protest. âKremnoan children are also difficult to bear, according to many mothers Iâve spoken to before. The last thing I want is for you toââ
âMydeimos,â you sigh in exasperation, grabbing his face so that he would pay attention. âIâve been sterilized long before I met you, so you neednât fret about any children growing inside me.âÂ
The silence that follows is deafening, and it makes you want to bury your head in sand.
Mydei is too baffled to speak right away, and you don't fault him for it. The rumors about women at The House have been floating around for a while, but none of you didn't want to sow any more conflicts than there already are. Instinctively, you trail your fingers along your navel. Though the scars have long been healed by Phagousaâs blessing, you remember what you lost like it was just yesterday.Â
âWe canât bear any children because the previous head of The House took that away from us,â you murmurâmemories, old but still painful flashing in the forefront of your mind. âSo please donât concern yourself with trivial things like that. I only want to provide the most out of your experience.â
Your chest aches at your own words. Itâs not that youâre dying to have children of your own. Nikolas being the first and last child to be born here is more than enough for you. Children should never have to grow up in the darkness anyways.
Mydei frowns. âWhy do you speak of yourself like youâre nothing but an object made for my enjoyment?â
âAm I not?â
He doesnât answer. Instead, he pulls you uprightâanger glowing in his golden eyes. It doesnât scare you. Somehow, you know the ire in his gaze is not directed at you.Â
But despite the obvious shift in his mood, Mydei kisses you again with nothing but passion imbued in his lips. He quickly melts away the bitterness dredged up by those memories he unknowingly dug up into the surface. The faith youâve put in him tonight is phenomenal, especially when you allow him back between your thighs despite what you just discussed. You donât understand how heâs still hard after releasing so much of his emission earlier. But if thereâs one thing you know about Kremnoans, itâs that their stamina is unparalleled.
Unlike the first time, Mydei doesnât rut into you hard and fast. Everything about this is slow and sensual, as if he wants to mold your cunt into the shape of him. He presses your thighs into your chest, tilting your body at just the right angle so he can let his cock hit even deeper.Â
âMydeiâŚâ His name sounds strained, like youâre choking on your own voice. âPlease.â
You donât know what youâre begging for. You donât know what you even want at this point. But Mydei heeds your unspoken wishes anyway. He folds you further into the bed in a way that makes you feel like his desire for you is inescapable. The position youâre in is meant for lovers trying for a child, to make sure the seed takes and bears fruit. You two are nothing but strangers basking in each otherâs bodies deep in the darkness of the undercity.Â
But even if you can never have children of your own, thereâs something oddly comforting in the fact that Mydei fucks into you like this anyway. Like youâre worth more than a bottom dweller lost to the shadows.Â
Your orgasm crests without much bravado either. Itâs straightforward, having been exacerbated by the Prince rubbing your clit as he nearly breaches a place inside of you that has never been reached by anyone else. It feels intrusive at first, making the hairs on the back of your neck stand in instinctive wariness. But as the head of his cock continues to drag along your spongy flesh, as he keeps hitting that sinfully sweet spot, your caution begins to fray at the seams. You embrace him with a quiet sob, tight walls squeezing his cock for all heâs worth.Â
And then you fall off the edge of ecstasy itself. Itâs much different from when you came undone from his mouth. That felt like you were reaching for stars that burst in the back of your eyelids.
This feels like coming back home.
Mydei murmurs yet another string of words that are beyond your range of understanding, each one sounding more vulnerable than the last. And with one last, stuttering thrust, he burstsâcoating your walls in the warmth of his release.Â
He fills you to the brim, pumping you full of his seed until it drips out of your cunt with his cock still flush inside you. The sensation is filthy but not in a way that you despise. You even move your hips to let him fuck his cum deeper inside you.
When Mydei notices, he lets out a sharp laugh. âI didnât thinkâŚyouâd still be this eager.â
You donât say anything in returnâor more like, you canât. The sensation of him filling you up has rendered you into a mindless deviant. Only his cock can stoke the fire still raging inside you.
So you do your best to entice him. While you loathe the idea at first, you slip his cock out of your soiled cunt. Mydei watches your every move with rapt attention and a growl nearly tears through his chest when you get on your knees, facing away from him before presenting your ass for the taking. His seed trickles out of you and onto the sheets. No man would be sane enough to resist the same display of seduction.
âAre you sure you want to provoke me like this?â he warns. âThe woman in charge of this place told me I should be gone by sunrise.âÂ
Your mind doesnât quite register the fact that Elena herself imposed that restrictionâtoo desperate to be speared on his cock once more.
The sun doesnât even rise in a place like this.Â
âI donât care,â you whimper, tugging him closer to you. âMydei, fuck me more.âÂ
Mydei looks up at the ceiling, as if praying for some sort of deliverance.
âWhat am I going to do with you?â
Fortunately for you, the Prince surrenders far too easily to the desires of the flesh. The two of you go at it with no end in sight. Mydei proves to live up to the Kremnoan stamina thatâs grown recently popular amongst your sisters. And despite the room smelling of sex and depravity alike, he doesnât relentâcommitted to fulfilling your desires until youâre completely spent.Â
Youâre the first one to tap out, as expected. Mydei didnât seem finished with you at first, but when he finally notices the mess heâs made of your body, his rationality comes back to the surface.Â
He lays your head on the pillow gently, positioning the rest of your body upright once heâs done wiping down the evidence of his time with you. Mydei knows youâre not quite asleep when your eyes slowly flutter in confusion, and he sighs before leaning forward to kiss your forehead.
âCan I ask something?â
âHmmâŚ?â Hopefully, that translates to a yes.
âWhatâs your name? Your real name.âÂ
âMmmhâŚâ
On a regular day, you would think twice before giving that information out so freely. Your line of work is more dangerous than it seems, and the most basic precaution is to never give patrons your real name. But you donât usually get your brains fucked into mush on regular days either, so you suppose Elena can forgive you for the lapse in judgement.Â
Mydei repeats your name with a hint of fondness in his voice. You donât quite hear it, given that youâre halfway to the land of slumber.
âThank you⌠Your⌠has been⌠splendid.â
What was that�
Youâre too far gone to give his words another conscious thought.Â
Instead, you dream of a man with eyes hewn from pure starlight. Of a life you could have with him if only you hadnât been born with the lives you had.Â
But like all dreams do, they cease to exist the moment you open your eyes.Â
âB-Big Sister, how do you make this much in one night?â
This is the first thing Iris asks when you step into the pavilion. Well, youâre not sure if itâs even morning. Itâs difficult to tell here in the undercity.
Still feeling the lasting throb of a headache, you gaze at Iris with a befuddled look. âWhat are you talking about?âÂ
Itâs only then that you realize a handful of your other sisters have gathered around the large table in the middle of the room, where bags upon bags of gold overflow on the marble surface. You stare at them with a nonplussed expression, not sure why they think all this finery belongs to youâ
Mydei.
âAlright, girls, give poor Thalia some space.â
Sometimes, youâre grateful for Elenaâs timely interventions. While some of your sisters bemoan the lack of an explanation for thisâŚmassive influx of currency, they all have enough courtesy to step out when itâs needed. Shortly after, you enjoy a meal that Elena already prepared for you beforehandâone glass of pomegranate juice and a plate of golden honeycakes.Â
âIâve never seen you that spent before,â the head of The House snickers to herself. âThat man did a number on you now, did he?âÂ
You would have glared at her, if only her cooking wasnât so good. âElena, shouldnât we practice the art of minding our own business?â
âTechnically, youâre working for my business, yes?â
This woman can really be insufferable sometimes.Â
Thankfully, Elena gives you enough grace for the next several minutes. You get to finish your food without so much as a quip on her end. But just when you think sheâs let you off the hook, she has the gall to ask:
âAnd youâre sure you havenât fallen in love with that Prince?â
Elenaâs preposterous words nearly make you choke on your drink. âIf I start falling for every man that shows me an ounce of kindness, then I wouldâve been long dead, Elena. You know that men who mask their intentions are worse than those who are outright scoundrels.â
âBut is he?â
â...What?â
âA man who masks his intentions?â
Her question is met with a puzzled stare. âOf course notââ
âThen why not let yourself fall for the kind man?â Elena chuckles.Â
âBecause heâs a Chrysos Heir? He has much more pressing concerns than some random woman in the red light district. If the lesser men that have had me never even thought twice about me, why would he?â
Elena shrugs. âOnly you can answer that, Iâm afraid.â
Eventually, one of your sisters ends up calling Elena for an urgent matter. You donât quite hear what itâs about, but the head of The House steps out of the pavilion to leave you to your devices⌠Or to your heaps of gold, in this case.Â
You still donât know what youâre supposed to do with all of this, but you might give half of the money to Elena to help with the much needed repairs around The House, and the other half to Phainon so he can give it to the less fortunate citizens up on the surface. Though you immediately scratch the latter off the list since the chance of Mydei finding out is fairly high.
The moment your thoughts drift back to him, your face heats up with embarrassment.
You were not yourself last night. You donât know what drove you to go such lengths just to please him, and where you even got the courage to keep going. But when you recall the warmth of Mydeiâs golden eyes, the tenderness weighted beneath his touch, and the fire that seemed to burn behind those marks on his bodyâŚ
You spend the rest of your day ruminating about your time with Mydei. Hell, you even consider reaching out to Phainon to ask all your pressing questions just to sate your biting curiosity. Why did he come here? Did he need reprieve from his princely duties so badly?Â
No. You shouldnât think of him anymore.Â
Mydei is nothing but a client. Youâve rendered your services. Heâs paid his dues. That should be the end of the transaction, and nothing else. Time and time again, you tell yourself the same thing:
When you make a living in the bowels of the Eternal Holy City, nothing is ever personal. Until you catch yourself wondering just how heavy of a crown that Kremnoan Prince actually bears.
âBig Sister? A customer is asking for you.â
Nikolas peeks through the curtain of seashells dangling by the entrance of your room again. He doesnât wait long for your answer because the speed in which you burst into a sprint is somewhat embarrassing.
âWho is it?â you ask, eyes wide and pulse roaring in your ears. âDid you see?â
âUmm, I think itâs just one of the bartenders working down the street. Why?â
You visibly deflate at the news, and you know that despite being fairly young, Nikolas doesnât miss the disappointment on your face.
In the end, you decline to see any potential clients for the next few days. Your official statement is that youâre still recuperating from your last session. The only reason your sisters donât nose in on the matter is the fact that you brought so much revenue to The House in just one session, theyâre fully convinced that you deserve all the rest you can get.
But the truth is that you spend most of your time lost in thought, daydreaming of a man with fiery hair and molten gold eyes.Â
You wonder if heâll ever come back.
In the seaside state of Lethe, itâs fairly easy to forget about oneâs problems.
Wine and song filled every street and back-alley, as the land is loved by the Titan of honey brews and banquets. Tales of the neverending festivities reached far and wide in Amphoreus, and that word-of-mouth alone was enough to attract visitors from across the land.Â
Itâs for this reason that Lethians are as hospitable as they are. Phagousa taught them how to cultivate the sweetest wine from mere grapes; taught them the art of music and how it brings life to the darkest of nights.Â
For thousands of years, your people simply dedicated their toasts and sang their shanties to honor the Ocean Motherâs kindness. When others hailing from places near and far started to gravitate towards such a profound relationship between a Titan and their people, you welcomed them with open arms.Â
After all, Phagousaâs benevolence is meant to be shared, not kept.Â
Your mother has been bringing you into the jovial streets since you were ten years oldâsinging and dancing amongst drunken sailors and tourists who wanted a quick getaway. It was easy to let loose in a place meant for you to forget about lifeâs worries. But on some days, you preferred basking in the comfort of waves lapping gently across the shore.
The stars were much easier to see along the coastline, far from the entertainment district that robbed a personâs attention of the vast sky that stretched above their heads. Though Phagousa exists in every goblet overflowing with drink, Their presence is most captivating when youâre out here at sea.Â
The spot youâve chosen was a ways away from the wharf that received and sent off ships. Which is why one bothers to encroach on this safe haven of yours. Not even your own mother. But apart from the privacy the secluded shore offered, there was another reason why you liked to sit here and observe in your lonesome.Â
A reason that might get you in trouble.Â
Several miles east of Lethe is the stronghold of the Titan of Death: the city state of Styxia. Legend has it, Lethians used to live there a long time agoâbefore the end of Era Chrysea, when Thanatos was born. The godâs presence was a plague that spread throughout the land. Not even Phagousa could protect Their people from Deathâs inviting fingertips.
But since the lost city state isnât too far from here, sometimes, fragments of the Nether Realm end up leaking into the open sea.
There, you often see things that others would deem impossible.Â
Soulsâby the hundreds, sometimes even by the thousands. They all drift aimlessly across the ocean like luminescent creatures youâd normally find deep underwater. The first time you witnessed this happening, you simply thought that it was migration season for the crystal jellyfish. Lethians even have a festival dedicated to that specific phenomenon.
But that only ever happens during the Month of Joy, which was over five months ago.Â
Instead of spiraling into a panic and alerting the entire island of what you saw, you chose to lingerâobserving as each soul meandered across the moonlit ocean and into the unknown. The sight reminded you of a tale about the Sea of Souls, and how you would inevitably make the journey towards it once you pass.Â
You wondered if these souls have simply lost their way to their supposed destination. Though youâve never heard of this happening before, it wasnât such a farfetched ordeal. Perhaps even the dead long for Phagousaâs promise of gratification and delight.
Every day since the first, you began visiting the secluded shore in hopes of getting a glimpse of that literal sea of souls. Sometimes, they light up the sea like specters bathed in moonlight, but most of the time, itâs just you.Â
Always just you.Â
âBig Sister? Youâre dozing off again.â
Youâre not sure how exactly your mind managed to register the fact that youâre being scolded, but you jolt awake anyways. Eyes darting around, you grasp at the information availableâwho are you with, what are you doing, whatâs going onâand visibly relax when you remember that youâre with your sisters in the pavilion, feasting on todayâs breakfast after a rather long night.
Iris stares at you with a concerned look. âIs the food not to your liking?â
âOf course not!â you insist before shoveling a spoonful of eggs into your mouth and biting down on a piece of flatbread. âBreakfast is especially appetizing when youâre the one making it for me.â
âSo itâs not the case if Iâm the one cooking?âÂ
At the sound of Elena's sulking, you have to stifle a groan. The head of the House could be such a child at times, despite already being a mother herself. But then again her petulance knows no bounds. Elena joins you and the rest of your sisters at the dining table, depositing some of Irisâ cooking onto a plate before taking a seat. Though you try your best to avoid her gaze, itâs a bit difficult when the person in question is quite literally next to you.
Youâve been with Elena for so long that you donât even have to look at her to know whenever sheâs scheming something.Â
âIâll be heading up to the overworld today,â she imparts the information casually before popping a blueberry into her mouth. âNikolas has been meaning to join the Academy that trains the Holy Cityâs guards. Unfortunately, those scoundrels have rubbed off on my boy.âÂ
Despite your caution, you let slip a soft laugh. âWell, whenever we take some guards as clients, they have no one to talk to in the lobby apart from other patrons and Nik. You trained him to be too good of a conversationalist for a fourteen year-old.âÂ
âThis is what we get for those god-awful waiting times we subject them to,â Penelope chuckles. âBut look at the bright side: the city guards are the least rotten of the bunch. Nik at least chooses his heroes wisely.â
âI wouldnât call Officer Theodorus a hero,â snorts Alexandria. âHe has a wife and two children yet he goes down here to ask for me at least once a fortnight! Men are all the same, no matter what job they have.â
You donât blame your sisters for feeling the way they do. Working as prostitutes in the underground had little benefits. But people with nowhere else to go donât have much of a choice. Itâs just nice to be able to air all these frustrations out as freely as you all do now.Â
Unlike beforeâŚ
All of a sudden, Lyra pops into the discussion, snapping her fingers. âRemember that man who pretended to be an envoy from the Grove? I still wonder why he thought doing that to curry Elenaâs favor would give him any discounts. Not even Chrysos Heirs can haggle with her.âÂ
At the mere mention of that title, you feel several eyes on you at once. Just great.
âI thought we all agreed not to bring him up again?â you groan.
âBring who up?â Elena muses with a whimsical tone that annoys you a little. âI didnât know you felt so strongly about that fake scholar, Thalia.â
You know damn well itâs not about that impostor!
âU-Um, would you like some more juice, Big Sister?â Iris, ever the last to play the devilâs advocate, offers with a wobbly smile. You nod all too quickly before she refills your cup with enough pomegranate juice to last you until the end of your meal. Still, the sweet drink doesnât stop you from glaring daggers at Elena and your other sniveling sisters.Â
After breakfast, you all do your share of the housework. Elena wasnât very strict, but she did have a rule that you should all have at least one designated chore for each day.
Today, youâre in charge of the dishes.
For some reason, itâs everyoneâs least favorite. Most of your sisters didnât like it when their fingers pruned up after washing over twenty sets of plates and silverware after every meal. But fortunately for you, you grew up in a place that requires more than just your hands to get wet for prolonged periods of time.Â
âAre you coming along?â
Cue Elenaâs timely entrance once again. Sighing, you cast her a sidelong glance as you finish up rinsing the cups you all used for breakfast. âDo I want to know what this is about?âÂ
âI already told you this morning.â She smiles. âIâm enrolling Nikolas into the Academy. I havenât been to that part of the city, so I would appreciate some company.â
âElena, you know I donât like coming up to the surface,â you grumble.Â
âYes, and I also know itâs high time we broke you out of that shell of yours,â the older woman encourages. âThe Okhemans arenât as bad as you think they are, Thaliaââ
âMaybe to you, they arenât,â you snip back curtly. âBut me? They know where Iâm from, Elena. They know the face of the girl that Agamemnon stole from the Island of Debauchery.âÂ
Your voice still trembles with each word, but you find peace in the fact that uttering that manâs name no longer strikes fear into your heart. From the soft set of Elenaâs brow, you know she notices this as well. The faucet creaks when you twist it to turn off the water. You hear nothing over the sound over your heart pounding in your ears.Â
âBut Agamemnon is no longer with us,â Elena reminds you quietly. âIâm not telling you to forgive the man who ruined our lives, but you shouldnât let the ghost of him dictate the course of your life. If he found out how much of a hold he still has on you, that monster would be coming in his own grave.âÂ
As twisted as it is, you find comfort in the way she speaks of the old head of The House with as much disdain as you do. Itâs been a while since heâs been taken care of, but the scars he left will never really fade.Â
No matter how badly you want them to.
âNik and I will leave in half an hour,â she continues after a few moments of silence. âCome with us to the surface, please? I promise that if your experience is anything less than stellar, Iâll never ask you the same thing again.â
The sincerity in her plea is far from Elenaâs usual cheekiness, which makes you think that she might be getting a bit desperate to get you to agree. At that moment, you parse through dozens of possibilities as to why Elena thinks itâs such a good idea to bring you to the surface on such short notice. The other girls might be more amiable to the idea, whereas you are perfectly content with your life here in the undercity with other outcasts just trying to make a living.Â
âŚSure, you kind of want to visit the cafes at the Marmoreal Palace that Phainon told you about whenever he visits, but thatâs besides the point!
When you first set foot in Okhema as the newest addition to Agamemnonâs collection, you werenât gazed at with disgust because you were a prostitute. It was because you were Lethianâpeople widely known as swindlers who used Phagousa in their blasphemous schemes to sap people of their hard-earned money. Those revolted stares haunted you well into your dreams for months.
So even if the person who dragged you across the ocean under the false pretense of protection is gone, there are some things that you cannot move past so easily.
âBig Sis Thalia? Are youâ oh! Mother, hello.âÂ
Just your luck, Nikolas chose the perfect time to pop into the kitchen. You notice that heâs all dressed upârobes all pinned in place, brass wrist bands and other pieces of jewelry glinting in the light of the lanterns. You canât help but gush about how proper he looks.Â
âStop,â he groans, cheeks all dusted pink as you ruffle his hair. âMother told me to make myself presentableâŚwhatever that means. I mustâve done a good job if youâre doting on me like this.â
âYou sure did,â you coo.Â
âSo youâre coming along with us then?â Nikolas segues with raised brows. âMother said sheâll try her best to convince you to go to the surface. Did she?â
From the expectant twinkle in the boyâs eyes, you figure that he mustâve been really looking forward to you chaperoning them to the Academy. You heave a deep sigh before your gaze flickers to Elena, who simply grins at you like the angel she is.Â
Hook. Line. Sinker.Â
âYeah, just give me a few minutes to get ready.â You force out a smile of your own before pinching the tip of Nikolasâ nose. âI might need some sunlight after all this scuttling in the dark.â
Nikolas stares at you with his mouth agape, then at his mother, and back at you again in mere seconds. âW-What? Really?â
â Really ,â you say, hoping you sound as sure as you hoped. âIâll see you in half an hour, okay?â
The grin that stretches across his chubby little face is so wide, it makes your heart hurt. How in the world are you supposed to say no to him?Â
When you head up to your quarters, the curtain of seashells parts at your entrance with a characteristic clinking sound. You donât usually rush inside this fast, but time is of the essence when you agree to go to the surface even if you only planned on finishing a novel today.Â
Youâve never been as particular with what you wanted to wear as you are now. Most of the dresses in your wardrobe are meant for workâmeaning, theyâre far too revealing to wear in the streets of the Eternal Holy City. The last thing you want is to get arrested for public indecency.
Thankfully, you manage to spot some rather pristine robes that probably wonât get you kicked out of the Academy in the back of your closet. You try it on without another thought, smiling to yourself in the mirror when you find that itâs still a perfect fit. The rest follows swiftly after. Minimal makeup. Nothing too extravagant for jewelry. Comfortable sandals. Youâre pretty much all set.Â
But then you make the mistake of thinking, I wonder if Iâll run into Phainon today, which then makes you think about him.Â
Mydeimos.
Truth be told, the thought of that name incites an even more volatile reaction out of you than that of Agamemnonâs. Even if heâs a prince, he should be nothing but another name on your neverending list of clientele.Â
Before meeting him, you never quite understood prostitutes who hanker for certain patrons more than others, who even go as far as to fall in love with them. The next thing you know, their rooms in The House have been emptied and news of them being bought out by said patrons starts to spread. Youâre happy for them, of course. But the thought of having any sort of affection for a man who only used you for your body was near-unfathomable for you for a long, long time.Â
Until you met Mydei.Â
âBig Sis, are you ready?âÂ
The sound of Nikolas calling out for you down the hall dispels any and all thoughts of a certain Kremonan Prince. You shake your head, staring at yourself hard in the mirror as if wanting to remind you of your place. Whatâs done is done. They say you need countless lifetimes of fate to meet a person even once in this life. If you miss it when it brushes past, that's the end.
Right?
âIâll be down in a minute!â you shout back. âSorry for the wait!â
With that, you set off for your first excursion to the surface in a good whileâpraying to the heavens above. Youâre not even asking for a good day. You just need to be able to get through this without getting traumatized into hiding again.
Please. Just this once.Â
There are no gods left that would heed your plea, but it costs nothing to hope.Â
The air in Okhema feels different today.Â
Maybe because itâs been months, maybe longer, since you last walked these streets. Yet the weight of it allâthe towering marble spires, the golden banners, the bustling crowdsâclings to you like a second skin. You feel alien in a place that should have welcomed you. But instead, itâs the echo of past insults, cold stares, and harsh judgment that rises to the surface. It threatens to choke you, but you do your best to overcome it. You canât afford to lose face where Nikolas can see.Â
As you walk through the cityâs grand streets, the young boy skips ahead, eagerly pointing out the towering buildings and guards marching in formation. Elena walks beside him, hands on his shoulders, keeping him grounded as she smiles proudly at her son.
Thereâs a quiet confidence in Elenaâs step, the kind of strength that you find yourself envying. Despite claiming otherwise, she knows this city well, knows how to navigate it, and how to move among the people. But for you, every step feels foreign, like an outsider trying to be something sheâs not.
You eventually reach the Academy without much spoken word. Nikolas is excited, tugging Elenaâs arm, eager to begin his training, while his mother smiles, giving him a gentle nudge toward the entrance. You linger a few paces behind, staring at the stone-carved doors before feeling a slight knot in your stomach as the reality sets in. This is where Nikolas will learn to become something great, something noble. And here you are, a shadow in the background, caught between worlds.
Elena turns to you, her smile faltering slightly. âThalia,â she says, voice soft but firm, âAre you all right?â
You blink, as if snapping out of a daze and before attempting to force a smile that only feels hollow. The words youâre looking for stick in your throat, tangled with the memories of your time in Okhemaâthe judgment, the whispers, the pain of feeling like you didnât belong here, like you were nothing more than an outcast.
âIâm fine,â you reply, though the words feel like a lie. You canât bring yourself to say more.Â
The city around you feels suffocating, its beauty just a façade for all the ugly truths beneath. Your gaze drifts toward the golden banners fluttering in the wind, the bright, polished marble reflecting the sun. It all feels too perfect, too pristine. But thereâs no life in it, no warmth. Just cold, glittering stone.
Nikolas notices the quiet tension between you. His youthful face scrunches in confusion, then concern. âBig Sis Thalia, you look sad.â
Youâre quick to shake your head, as if to push the feeling away. âItâs nothing, Nikolas. JustâŚâ A pause. âItâs a lot to take in.â
Elena watches you for a moment, her eyes narrowing slightly as if she can see right through the carefully constructed farce. âYou donât have to linger if you donât want to. I promised I wouldnât ask you to come again if it was too much, didnât I?â
The offer hangs in the air, a lifeline thrown your way, but you refuse it with a sigh. âNo. Iâll stay. Iâll wait for you two.â
Elena gives you a thoughtful look but doesnât press further. She turns back to Nikolas, her voice warming as she speaks to him again. âCome on, Nikolas. Letâs get you settled in.â
You watch them go, feeling like an outsider once more.Â
Eventually, you find yourself leaning against a nearby stone pillar, trying to push away the gnawing unease. As the sounds of the city swirl around youâlaughter, the distant clatter of metal, the hum of conversationâyou find yourself yearning for the stillness of the undercity. For the quiet comfort of familiarity, even if it was painful.Â
Here, in Okhema, thereâs nothing but unfamiliar faces, bright lights, and the weight of expectations. The city feels too big, too cold, too far removed from everything youâve known.
Your eyes catch the glitter of the golden sun off a nearby building, and you swallow hard. Somewhere, deep down, you know that this is what you should want. This is where Nikolas will build a better future. This is the world of the privileged, the elite.
And yet, all you can think of is Letheâthe island you came from, where the waves washed away the weight of the world for a time. Where you could drown your worries in song and drink, forgetting the ugliness of life. But even there, you were no stranger to suffering.
You blink back the feeling of helplessness that threatens to overwhelm you. For a brief moment, you wonder if youâll ever be able to escape the shadows of the pastâif you can even reconcile the girl who once wanted more with the woman who knows sheâll never have it all. The silence between you and the world around you stretches on, heavy like the weight of a thousand unspoken thoughts.
You don't know how long you stand there, watching the bustling crowds of Okhema, feeling the chill of being far from homeâfar from Lethe. The sharp, rich laughter of the city mocks your uncertainty.
But just as youâre about to let yourself drown in it, a voice cuts through the air, low and familiar.
âLady Thalia?â
You jerk upright, eyes snapping toward the source. Standing a few paces away, tall and unruffled, is Phainon. His wide shoulders are relaxed, his posture easy, yet there's something about himâhis unwavering calm in this sea of chaosâthat makes him seem like an anchor in this storm of unfamiliar faces.
"Phainon!" you breathe, voice laced with surprise.Â
You hadnât expected to see him here. Heâs usually a fixture in The House, checking in on you, Elena and the others. But here? In the heart of Okhema? Itâs a little too much to process.
Phainon smiles, his eyes soft with something between surprise and delight. âI didnât expect to find you in the overworld, let alone at the Academy of all places. This is a first.â
You laugh quietly, though itâs a hollow sound, like the air leaving a balloon. âYeah, I guess I didnât expect to be here either,â you tell him, gaze flicking to the Academyâs entrance. You can feel the weight of the city press against you once more, but Phainonâs presence is like a breath of fresh air, grounding you in the moment.
He tilts his head, a glimmer of something thoughtful in his eyes. âSo what brings you here? Nothing bad, I hope?â
You nod, a smile tugging at your lips despite yourself. âIâm waiting for Elena and Nikolas. Theyâre just finishing up inside. Little Nik has been accepted into the Academy, and Iâm just here to provide some moral support.â
For a moment, you pause, gaze wandering again to the grand doors of the Academyâthe same door Nikolas will walk through everyday. It feels like the world is turning a page, and youâre left on the outside, watching it all happen.
Phainon studies you, sensing the flicker of doubt in your eyes. âWell, thatâs quite an accomplishment,â he says, his tone warm, though his voice drops a little, as though trying to lighten the mood. âAnd who knows, maybe youâll find your way around the city in time. Okhema isnât so bad once you get used to it.â
You offer up half a smile, though the sentiment doesnât quite ease the discomfort curling in your chest. âIâm not so sure about that. Itâs just... Iâm not sure I fit in here.â
Phainonâs expression softens, the playful energy draining from his face. âYou donât have to fit in, Lady Thalia,â he says simply. âThis city doesnât get to dictate who you are. Youâre the one who decides that.â
Before you can respond, the doors of the Academy finally open, and Elena and Nikolas step out. The former beams at you and Phainon, her proud smile lighting up her face. On the other hand, Nikolas is glued to her sideâhis eyes wide with excitement.
âI still canât believe it,â he exclaims, his youthful energy spilling over. âIâm going to be trained to fight! Iâm going to be a guard just like the ones we saw earlier!â
You chuckle softly, shaking your head. âYouâll be great, Nik. Youâll make us all proud.â
Elena looks over at Phainon, offering a warm smile as well. âI see we have company.â
Phainon grins back at her. âYou could say that. And what a pleasant surprise it is. I didnât expect to find Lady Thalia in Okhema, let alone in the Academy district.â
That makes you roll your eyes, but thereâs a warmth that you haven't felt since you set foot in this city. âI didnât expect it either,â you mutter, though thereâs something almost comforting in Phainonâs presence.
âWell,â Phainon continues, his voice taking on a playful note, âsince weâre all here, why donât we make the most of it? I was just on my way to the Overflowing Bath, and Iâd be more than happy to invite you all for a little dip.â
Your expression shifts, surprised by the offer. âThe Overflowing Bath?âÂ
Phainonâs mention of it stirs something in youâa memory of tales passed among your sisters, of how the bath is rumored to have healing waters, soothing both body and spirit. The waters, blessed by Phagousa, the Titan of the Ocean, have long been a comfort to those who sought solace in their depths.Â
It was in those very waters that you had found a semblance of peace after all those years you spent with Agamemnon, your scars slowly healing under the gentle flow of the blessed stream. That was the closest youâve been to the Titan who you used to believe in. Yet, despite the healing they offered your body, the scars of your heart have never quite mended.
Phainon notices the faraway look in your eyes and softens his tone. âThe Overflowing Bath is a place of peace,â he says, âblessed by Phagousa herself. Youâve heard of it, Iâm sure. Itâs a place where you can leave your burdens behind, even for just a little while.â
You nod slowly. âYes, Iâve heard of it. In fact, thatâs where Elena brought us first after you freed us fromâŚâ
The thought trails off, but the rest of them catch the unsaid message regardless. Elena smiles gently before placing a hand on your shoulder. âI know the bath has helped you heal before,â she says softly. âYouâve earned some time for yourself.â
Phainonâs grin is wide and inviting. âCome with me, then. Thereâs no rush, and no need to worry about anything for a while. I had the bath reserved for the morning if being in the company of strangers bothers you.â
That makes you scowl. âYou booked an entire bath for yourself?âÂ
â...More or less.â
Elena shakes her head, laughing lightly. âAs much as Iâd love to join, Nikolas still has to get his uniform made, and that will take some time. But you two go ahead. This one deserves the break she needs.â
Nikolas pouts. âAww, we canât go?âÂ
âIâll take good care of her, Elena,â Phainon assures, his voice light yet sincere. âI swear it in the name of the Flamechase Journey.âÂ
âWhat a tall oath,â the head of the House chuckles before egging you on. âGo ahead, Thalia. Itâs a rare moment of peace. Take it.â
You look between them with evident hesitation, a quiet thanks in your eyes as you finally nod in agreement.
âAlright,â you say, your voice steadier than it has been in a while. âIâll go.â
Phainonâs grin widens as he leads the way, the sunlight glinting off the gold-tinted streets of Okhema. The city fades behind you as you walk, the towering structures and polished marble giving way to the softer, more tranquil atmosphere of the Overflowing Bath. Phainonâs presence, calming and steady, makes you feel like you can breathe again, if only for a moment.
When you reach the specific area that Phainon reserved, he pushes open the ornate doors with a flourish. The sweet scent of warm water and incense wafts out, drawing you inside. Your eyes search the steamy, serene atmosphere, until your gaze catches on a figure lounging on one of the ledges of the bath.
You freeze in place, breath catching in your throat. Mydei, who you havenât seen or heard from in weeks is here. Of all the places. Of all the times.
Phainon, oblivious to the shock written on your face, smiles warmly. âAh, Mydei, I see youâve already made yourself at home.â
Mydei looks up, his lips curling into a small, knowing smile. âI thought Iâd get a head start.â His gaze shifts towards you, and for a moment, thereâs a flicker of something unspoken in his eyesâa softness that immediately makes your heart flutter.
âThalia,â he greets, his voice low but warm.
You don't know what to say. How do you speak to someone you tried so hard to forget, but whose presence still calls to you in ways you canât ignore? Sure youâd only seen Mydei once during that fateful encounter, but your sisters can attest to the fact that the Prince has affected you in ways no man has ever done before.
âIâdidnât know youâd be here,â you murmurs, your voice betraying the swirl of emotions youâve been hiding for so long.
Mydeiâs smile deepens, though it holds a trace of sadness. âI didnât expect to be, either.â
As the water of the Overflowing Bath beckons, you canât help but feel like the healing waters wonât just soothe your body this timeâbut perhaps, for better or worse, it will stir your heart once again.
The soft murmur of the stream fills the gaps in between your conversations. Phainon has settled into the pool with his usual ease, splashing the water lightly as he leans back with a relaxed grin. You, however, feel every drop against your skin as if it's a reminder of your discomfort. Coupled with Mydeiâs presence, itâs difficult to maintain your composure.Â
You lower yourself into the water slowly, trying not to meet the princeâs gaze. His figure is hard to ignoreâhis chiseled form outlined in the glow of the bathâs warm light. Heâs right there, and yet, the space between you feels as vast as the ocean.
âWhat compelled you to rent out an entire bath?â you ask more to settle your nerves than anything else. You then turn your eyes to Phainon, finding something familiar in his carefree demeanor.Â
The Chrysos Heir lounging with his eyes half-closed, simply shrugs, a playful smile tugging at his lips. âI do have a tendency to pull off stuff that others least expect. Keeps things interesting, donât you think?â
You try to laugh, but it sounds hollow, even to your own ears. Mydei, on the other hand, remains quiet, his gaze shifting from Phainon to you, his expression unreadable.
âI... didnât think Iâd find you both here, together,â you add, fingers trailing lazily through the water, finding solace in its movement.
Phainon glances over at you, his eyes sparkling with his usual wit. âWell, you know Mydei. Heâs always full of surprises.â
Mydei shifts slightly but doesnât respond, his silence more eloquent than any words could be. You are acutely aware of the space between youâhow small, yet how loaded it feels. Itâs not the first time youâve felt something unsaid lingering in the air, but somehow this time feels different. More fragile.
You find yourself stealing a glance at The Prince as he speaks with Phainon about some uproar in the Marmoreal Market. His broad shoulders are relaxed, his wet hair framing his face in a way that, for a moment, makes you forget the tension in the air. You quickly avert your eyes, ashamed of the way your heart flutters, even now.
âWhat about you? What are you doing here?âÂ
The sound of Mydeiâs voice startles you, low and deepâlike the distant rumbling of thunder. You know heâs talking to you because his words carry a characteristic softness that you donât really hear when heâs conversing with Phainon.
âI didnât mean to intrude,â you murmurs, trying to fill the silence with anything. âIâm just...passing the time.â
Mydei gives a low hum of acknowledgement, but itâs clear heâs not about to press you for more. Instead, he turns to you with an almost imperceptible nod. âThis place... itâs been known to heal more than just wounds,â he says casually, his voice laced with a tone you canât quite place. âIf youâve been carrying scars... the water here helps.â
âIâve heard,â you say, voice low enough to be a whisper. âWhen I first arrived here... I thought it was too good to be true.â
He looks at you then, his gaze softer than it has been before, but still guarded. âItâs true. The waters here have a way of healing whatâs broken. And they donât ask for anything in return.â
You dip your hand further into the water, feeling the warmth seep into your skin, almost as though it could wash away everything youâve tried to forget. You hadnât realized how much you needed this peace until you found it, in this strange, blessed space.
âI think Iâm used to broken things,â you tell him quietly, unsure whether you mean it for either of them to hear. âBut maybe... some things can be fixed.â
Mydei, still sitting near the edge of the bath, shifts slightly, but doesnât respond. Thereâs a weight in his eyes as they meet yours, and for the briefest of moments, it feels like the world outside of the bath has ceased to exist. There are no words for the thoughts passing between youâonly the waterâs gentle rhythm and the faint echo of an old song neither of you dares to sing aloud. Just as the silence begins to feel suffocating, Phainon rises from the water.Â
âIâll leave you two to talk,â he says with a grin, clearly not fooled by the unspoken tension. He starts moving toward the exit, his hand resting briefly on your shoulder as he passes. âEnjoy the waters. Donât forget, you twoârest is as important as duty. Youâve earned it.â
You watch him leave, feeling an inexplicable weight lift off your shoulders. Alone now, youâre left with the gentle pull of the water and the quiet, watchful presence of Mydei. The space between you has become an almost tangible thingâfragile and full of unspoken possibilities.
When he speaks again, itâs only after several moments have passed, as if heâs still choosing his words carefully.Â
âDoes it get easier?â he asks.
âNo,â you reply, your tone matching his. âIt doesnât.â
And with that, the silence returns, but this time, it doesnât feel quite so heavy.
You don't know how long you sit like thatâstill, silent, steeped in the warmth of the water and the ache of unspoken words. Around you, the sacred scent of herbs mingled with steam rises from the surface, curling in the air like incense in a forgotten temple.
Somewhere beneath the hush of the baths, you can almost hear the pulse of the cityâdistant bells, murmured prayers, the echo of footsteps beyond the marble walls. You shift slightly, drawing your knees closer to your chest beneath the water. Mydei remains at the other end of the pool, his arms draped over the edge, head tilted back, eyes closed. If you didnât know better, youâd think he was asleep.Â
âDid you mean it?â you ask, soft but sudden. âWhat you said... about the water not asking for anything in return.â
He opens his eyes, but doesnât look at you right away. âYes,â he says after a pause. âNot everything here is like the rest of the city.â
You let that sit for a while. âThatâs rare,â you murmur, brushing your fingers over the surface of the water. âThings that donât take something from you.â
At that, Mydei deigns to look at you. His gaze isnât sharp or probingâitâs quiet. Careful. Like heâs trying to read a page you haven't decided to turn yet.
âIâm sorry,â he says after a moment. âFor what you were put through.â
The words catch you off guardânot because of what they are, but because of how gently he says them. Not as a prince, or a warrior, or a man trying to soothe his conscience. Just...a person who sees your pain. You don't respond right away. You canât. Your throat tightens in that way it sometimes does, where it feels like if you say anything at all, the mask youâve carefully kept in place will crumble.
Instead, you swallow it down with a minute nod.
âI know,â you finally say. âBut it wasnât your fault.â
âThat doesnât mean I donât carry it.â
The water laps quietly between you as you close your eyes. Youâre not supposed to be kind, you think bitterly. Youâre not supposed to see me.
But he does. You know he does.
Just then, Nikolasâ laugh echoes faintly from the corridor beyond the marble walls. Elena must have found something to delight him on their way hereâhis joy is unmistakable, pure and bright. It makes something ache deep in your chest. A reminder of why youâre still here. Why youâre trying, even if you havenât figured out how to start healing yet.
You open your eyes and let your gaze sweep across the bath. Mydei is watching you again, but thereâs no expectation in his molten gold irises. In spite of this, you manage a small, wry smile. âYouâre quieter than I remember.â
He gives a faint, sheepish shrug. âI talk less when I donât know what to say.â
âI thought princes were trained to always know what to say.â
He huffs softlyâmore breath than laughter, but itâs genuine. âMaybe I missed that lesson.â
You surprise yourself by laughing too, and for a moment, itâs easy. Light and fleeting as it is, it lifts something heavy off your chest. The two of you donât speak again after thatânot because youâve run out of things to say, but because silence feels safer now. More honest.
When you finally step out of the bath, wrapping yourself in one of the palaceâs pale linen towels, you feel... lighter. The pain hasnât gone. The past hasnât changed. But for a moment, the weight is a little easier to carry. Mydei stands as well, quiet and respectful, and doesnât look at you until you turn to him.
âIâll see you around,â you tell him. Not a question, not a promiseâjust something that hangs in the space between maybe and someday.
Mydei nods. âYou will.â
And then, as they part ways, the steam rises behind them, curling upward toward the sky where the temple windows open wide, letting in the late morning light. Letheâs daughter walks beneath it.
And for the first time in a long while, she doesnât feel like sheâs drowning.
That night, sleep finds you gently in your room at The House.
Itâs quietâunusually so. The murmurs and laughter from the halls have faded, and even the candlelight flickers soft and low, as if unwilling to disturb you. The sheets smell faintly of lavender and mineral salts still clinging to your skin. For the first time in a long while, your body feels light. Almost whole. But the moment your eyes close, the world begins to shift and suddenly, youâre in Lethe again.
The air smells like salt and fruit wine. Music drifts down cobbled streets, bright and winding, and laughter spills from open balconies. The sun dips low, spilling honey-colored light over everything. You remember this partâhow beautiful it always looked from the outside. A paradise that asked nothing of you but to smile, to dance, to forget. You tried so hard to forget.
The tide starts to rise.
Your bare feet slap against wet stone. The cobblestones fade beneath a creeping tide of black water. The music warps, slows, becomes something hollow. You try to run, but the water climbs higher, dark and cold, and from its depths emerge faces.
Wandering souls. Pale, half-formed, drifting just beneath the surface. Eyes like moons, wide and lost. You saw them onceâback on the shores of Lethe, before Agamemnon took you away. Now theyâre reaching for you. Calling for you like sirens. But before you can answer, the dream fractures again.
Youâre in the undercity.
A lantern swings overhead, casting jagged light along damp stone walls. You hear sobbing from behind closed doors, moans of pain, the dull thud of fists against flesh. You know these sounds. They followed you for years.
He is here.
Agamemnonâs voice slithers through the dark, oil-slick and indulgent.Â
âYouâre lucky,â he says, âA beauty like yours shouldnât be wasted in some seaside slum.â
âYouâll be taken care of. Treasured.â
âYouâre mine.â
You see him againâhis eyes devouring, hands like shackles dressed in gold. He touches your chin. You want to spit. You try to scream.
And thenâlight.
Like a blade cleaving darkness, you see Elena. Bent over, cradling a crying baby, shielding him from a world that wants nothing but to unmake him. Her eyesâtired, fierce, filled with love. Nikolas. His cries cut through the dream like a signal fire.
You run.
Through water, through shadow, through screams and shattered laughter. You donât know if youâre chasing something or fleeing from it. But the sea rises. The souls call. The walls bleed gold. And thenâ
You gasp awake, heart jackhammering in your chest. Sweat clings to your back, and the cool, sacred air of the overworld feels far too still. For a moment, you forget where you are.
Then you remember the bath. The light. The gentle way Phainon laughed. The quiet look Mydei gave you, unreadable and tender. You remember the promise of healing, the way the blessed water wrapped around your wounds like a whisper. But even the kindest waters cannot drown what lives inside you.
You wipe your face with trembling fingers. The night is silent, but your pulse is loud in your ears. Though the blessed water may have healed your body, the scars inside you still sing.
The ghosts are quiet now.
But not gone.
The sun never sets in Okhema.
By late afternoon, the light should have softened, dipping into that gentle hush before duskâbut here, under the watch of Kephaleâs Dawn Device, the city remains suspended in a perpetual golden hour.Â
Itâs beautiful in a way that makes your skin crawl if you think about it too long. The warmth feels artificial, borrowed. Like the heavens forgot to turn the page. You step onto the polished stone streets, the hem of your cloak catching faint glimmers of light. The satchel you carry is light, barely filled with anything but a half-eaten persimmon and a cloth to wipe Nikolasâ ever-sticky hands. Still, its strap rests against your shoulder like something heavierâsomething earned.
The walk to the Academy winds through quieter neighborhoods, far from the towering temples and the chatter of merchants. The air smells like crushed citrus and dust. You keep your head down. You always do, even now, even when people donât seem to look at you with the same venom they once did.Â
Itâs been some time since Agamemnon fell, but his ghost lingers in certain corners of your mind, like mildew that clings no matter how many times you scrub.
At the gates of the Academy, you pause, eyes tracing the archways carved with symbols of Kephaleâs divine mindâlogic, clarity, vision. Itâs meant to inspire discipline. Youâve never been particularly fond of order, but something about Nikolas in this place makes a strange kind of sense. He deserves more than survival. The gates creak open and children spill out like laughter, sharp and careless. Your eyes scan for him.
And there he isâNikolas, his hair a wild crown of dark curls, cheeks smudged with ink, a leather-bound workbook clutched to his chest like a badge of honor. His smile is wide when he spots you.
"Big Sis Thalia!" he calls, breaking into a run. He nearly barrels into your legs, arms wrapping tight around your waist. You let out a soft laugh despite yourself.
âYouâre filthy,â you murmur, brushing ink from his cheek. âElenaâs going to think I dragged you through the gutters.â
âShe always says that,â he shrugs, then looks up with that disarming earnestness only children possess. âDid you wait long?â
You shake your head. âOnly a little. Come on. Letâs head home.â
But he doesnât move. Instead, Nikolas digs his heels into the stone, tilting his head back with a grin that already spells trouble. âWaitâThalia, can we go to the Hall of Respite? Just real quick? Please?â
You raise a brow. âWhy so suddenly?â
He bobs his head eagerly. âThey have those honey-glazed flatcakes I likeâthe really soft ones! And I got a perfect score today. Ask anyone. Master Irenas even patted my head. That never happens!â
You blink. âA perfect score?â
He puffs out his chest, smug in the way only little boys whoâve just conquered the world can be. âI studied really hard. Even Lord Phainon said I should treat myself more. He did!â
You sigh, but itâs mostly for show. âI doubt he meant âbribe your guardian into feeding your sweet tooth.ââ
Nikolas clasps his hands together dramatically. âPlease? Iâll even save you a bite.â
You glance down at himâthe sunlight caught in his lashes, the pink blooming across his cheeks from too much running, the way heâs still slightly out of breath and doesnât care at all. The kind of breathless you used to be, back when days were filled with sea spray and laughter and song.
âAlright,â you sigh again, and this time itâs gentler. âBut only one. And donât think this means Iâll cover for you if you throw up before dinner.â
He whoops with victory, grabbing your hand and tugging you toward the Hall of Respite, where the scents of warm milk, nutmeg, and golden syrup linger in the air like an embrace.
You follow, the goldlight casting your shadows long behind youâbut for now, you donât look back.
The Hall of Respite is a marvel in gold and gentle laughter. Soft harp strings hum in the background, accompanied by the distant trickle of a fountain somewhere beyond the marble colonnades.
You and Nikolas sit tucked near one of the arched windows, bathed in dappled light as he gleefully tears into his honey-glazed flatcake, cheeks sticky with syrup and joy. He talks between bitesâfast and animatedâhis voice barely able to keep up with his thoughts.
ââand then he flipped Cassander over with just one arm! Just one! Like this!â Nikolas throws his arms out, nearly knocking over your cup of mulled cider. âAnd he made us practice breakfall drills until our backs hurt. But he said it was so we wouldn't crack our heads open later, which makes sense, right?â
You blink at him, smiling despite yourself. âWhat happened to that gentle etiquette instructor you said reminded you of a housecat?â
âOh, Master Aetius?â Nikolas waves him off. âHeâs still there. But this new guyâthey say he was a real warrior! Like, a real real one. He's a little scary. But⌠heâs kind too. He taught me how to breathe when I'm scared.â
Your smile falters just a little.
âYouâre scared?â
âSometimes,â he says plainly. âBut not with him around. Master Mydeiâs really strong. Like Lord Phainonâbut sharper. And he never talks down to us. Even if he looks tired sometimes.â
The name settles in your chest like a dropped stone. Your cup stills in your hands, forgotten. Youâre about to askâMaster Mydei?âbut before the words even leave your mouth, Nikolas is already wriggling around in his seat, eyes lit with recognition.
âHeâs over there! Hey! Master Mydei!â he shouts, waving one syrup-slicked hand in the air.
You nearly choke.
Across the hall, seated near a towering ficus and sipping from a ceramic cup with a journal open beside him, a figure turns his head. And the moment your eyes meetâthose same sunlit-gold irises now caught in the warm light of the Hallâtime slips. Your breath stutters. He doesnât look surprised.
A flicker of something unreadable passes across his face before his mouth curves into a small, polite smile. He closes the journal softly and stands.
Nikolas is already halfway out of his seat, grinning from ear to ear. âHeâs the one I was telling you about! Heâhe taught us how to roll without breaking our necks! And he gave me a second try when I tripped the first time!â
You, however, are frozen.
Of all the faces to find in the afterglow of a sun that never sets, it had to be his.
âMaster Mydei, this is Big Sis Thalia!â Nikolas beams, tugging on the hem of your sleeve like heâs about to introduce a treasured friend to a local god. âShe picks me up after class now!â
You feel your heart thrum a little too hard at that name spoken aloud. Mydei is already making his way toward your table, each step measured and unhurried. He moves like he always doesâlike someone born of silence and gravity, like someone whoâs learned the value of taking up just enough space. He stops just beside the table, gaze dipping to meet yours.
âItâs good to see you again, Thalia.â His voice is smooth and composed, but not cold. Thereâs a flicker of something warmer under the surfaceâfamiliarity, perhaps. Or curiosity.
You rise a little from your seat, unsure whether to bow, curtsy, or offer a nod. You settle for a soft, polite greeting. âLikewise, Lord Mydei.â
He waves the title away. âIâm only âMasterâ here in the Academy halls, and only because the instructors insisted.â
Nikolas clambers back onto his seat, already patting the bench beside him. âCome sit! Youâre not gonna leave already, are you?â
Mydei glances once at you, as if gauging your comfort, then back at the boy. âOnly if your guardian doesnât mind.â
Your mouth feels dry, but you manage a nod. âPlease. We were just having a small treat before heading home.â
âThen Iâll join you for a moment.â He lowers himself gracefully onto the bench beside Nikolas, placing his journal aside, hands folded neatly on the table. âYouâve had quite the day, havenât you?â
Nikolas puffs out his chest. âGot a perfect score on our formations quiz. Even the scary second-year instructor said so.â
âImpressive,â Mydei says, tone light but sincere. âMaybe youâll be teaching me something before long.â
The boy snickers proudly, and conversation carries on easily enoughâfor him, at least. You sit across from them, quietly, sipping from your cooling cider and watching the exchange. But before you can get lost in your thoughts, Nikolas looks between you both, his brows furrowing with curiosity.
âWait... Do you two know each other?â he asks, his voice suddenly serious, as if heâs stumbled onto something important.
You freeze for a split second, unsure of how to answer, but Mydei simply smilesâan easy, natural smile that doesnât reach too far into anything personal.
âWeâve met a few times,â Mydei says smoothly, his eyes flicking over to you briefly before returning to Nikolas. âMostly through your motherâs good work.â
Nikolasâs eyes narrow as he looks between you both. His lips quirk, understanding settling in like a quiet revelation. Heâs been around enough to know the weight of that phrase, to know what it means when someone mentions meeting through his motherâs âgood workâ.
A subtle, knowing look passes between the two of you, and you can see Nikolasâs mind working. He doesnât press it, though; instead, he just nods as if heâs pieced things together in that young, perceptive way of his.
âGot it,â Nikolas says with a slight grin, his voice dropping to something quieter. âWell, anyway... Master Mydeiâs pretty cool, right?â
He sounds more casual now, as if the conversationâs already shifted away from anything thatâs uncomfortable for him. But heâs not blindâhe knows.
You meet Mydeiâs gaze, and for just a moment, the question lingers in the air between the two of you. But for Nikolas, itâs already passed. Heâs not going to make things harder for you. Heâs just glad to have his perfect score to boast about.
Nikolas chatters on beside you, still glowing with excitement from his day at the Academy, especially now that heâs seen his new instructor outside the training halls. You try to listen, but your eyes keep drifting toward the man standing before youâMydei, now dressed in a much more practical outfit than when you last saw him, though no less composed. His gaze doesnât linger on you long, but when it does, it feels as if he sees far too much.
âWell,â he says at last, with a polite nod toward Nikolas, âIâll leave you two to enjoy your treat.â
Thereâs nothing overt in his tone, but something in the weight of those words sticks with you, and you find yourself offering a small nod in return, though your chest tightens.
Nikolas, thankfully, doesnât notice the shift. He keeps talking, something about how Master Mydei demonstrated a maneuver with a practice spear earlier. You murmur something in response, but before you can fully catch your breath, Mydei is at your side again.
You feel the brush of his handâlight, fleetingâguiding you a few paces away from Nikolas and the noisy crowd of the Hall. You donât resist. The moment feels suspended in air. He leans in, just enough that you feel the warmth of his breath against your ear.
âIâll see you again tonight,â he whispers, his voice low, meant for you and you alone.
Your heart skips. Youâre not sure what you expectedâif you expected anything at allâbut that wasnât it. Before you can gather a reply, heâs already stepping away, his touch gone, his presence retreating with effortless grace. You stand there, the din of the Hall slowly returning around you, and wonder if he knows just how much weight his words now carry.
Nikolas tugs at your sleeve, oblivious. âAre you okay?â
You manage a soft smile, though your thoughts are still chasing after the shadow of a prince disappearing into the golden light.
âYeah,â you say quietly. âLetâs finish that snack.â
You shouldnât be fussing this much.
You tell yourself that as you smooth the silken sheets for the third time, as you adjust the folds of your robe for the third time, as you dab perfume just under your jaw, though itâs not the kind you ever wore for clients. Itâs subtle, something like rosewater clinging to the memory of seafoam.
Your sisters have noticed. Of course they have. Fewer and fewer names on your ledger, fewer nights where you let your hair down for anyone but him. They donât say it outright, but you catch the glances. The knowing smirks. A gentle elbow here, a raised brow there. Elena says nothing, bless her, but thereâs a glint of worry behind her eyes.
Because girls like you are not meant to hope.
The fourth hour comes, quiet as a whisper. Mydei doesnât knock. You just know when heâs arrived. The door creaks open, and there he isâbathed in the low amber light of your chamber, looking more god than man. His hair is like a flame pulled taut into a low tie at his nape, loose strands catching the light like cinders. His golden eyes find yours, but they don't linger in lustâthey search. For what, you arenât sure. Answers, maybe. Or something youâve tucked too deep to name.
Red markings glisten faintly across his skin, crawling down the ridges of his arms, over the firm landscape of his torso. Not painted. Not cosmetic. They pulse faintly with some inner rhythm, as if alive with meaning. Youâve traced them before. With fingers. With lips. But youâve never asked about them. And heâs never offered.
You rise from the bed.
âI wasnât sure if youâd come,â you say softly, trying to keep your voice level. âI said I would.â He closes the door behind him. He walks with the silence of someone used to being watched. Every step deliberateâquiet, measured. âI didnât want to disturb the others.â
You nod, heart beating like a drum. For a moment, you hesitate. This is the part where he usually takes off his cloak. Where hands meet skin. Where everything unravels into motion. But instead, Mydei says, âI donât want that tonight.â
â...You donât?â
He shakes his head, steps closer, his expression unreadableâbut not cold. âI just want to sit. With you.â
Your body stills, breath catching. No manâs ever said that before. Not in this room. Not with that look in their eyes.
âWhy?â
He doesnât answer right away. Just walks past you and sits at the edge of your bed, elbows resting on his knees, eyes watching the floor like it might swallow him whole. âWhen Iâm with you,â he says at last, âI remember Iâm still human. That I havenât been swallowed yet by the weight of everything waiting outside.â
You take a slow breath, and then, you join him.
Silence stretches between you for a while, warm but unfamiliar. Youâve never had to fill it before. Not like this. Not with someone like him. So when you speak again, your voice is careful, hushed.
âWhat did you want to talk about?â You look down at your hands as you say it, suddenly aware of how tightly youâre wringing the fabric of your robe. âIâm⌠not very good at small talk.â
He glances your way, not with judgment, but with something quieter. Gentler. âNeither am I.â
Thereâs a pauseâhe leans back slightly, gaze on the ceiling for a heartbeat, as if weighing the shape of the question heâs about to ask. Then, softly:Â âPhainon.â
You blink. âWhat about him?â
âI was just⌠wondering,â Mydei says, his voice measured but curious, âwhy heâs always around. Why heâs so close to everyone here. Itâs unusual.â
You study his expression. Thereâs no accusation behind it, no jealousy or condescension. Just a quiet sort of puzzlement. You suppose that makes sense. Mydei walks through the world like a figure carved of duty and divine weightâphilos, strategos, prince. A man raised in marble halls where power is either taken or inherited, never simply given away.
So you exhale and say, âCan I tell you a story?â
He nods once.
âThere was a man,â you begin, fingers tracing invisible lines along the embroidered edge of your sleeve. âA wicked man. Not in the way people always expectâhe didnât shout, didnât strike in public, didnât bare his teeth. He wore silks. Spoke softly. Promised the world.â
You glance up, briefly, and find Mydeiâs gaze hasnât wavered.
âThey said he had a collection. Not of art, or relics, or trinkets. But of little dolls. Girls, mostly. Women from across the land. He wandered farâcoastal villages, mountain towns, the wine-soaked islands. Heâd find the ones with songs in their hearts and stars in their eyes. The beautiful ones. The dreamers. The desperate.â
Your voice drops. âHe would say, âCome with me. Iâll give you a place to shine. A home. A future. A better life.ââ
âBut the moment they stepped into his palace, they were no longer people. Just property. Stripped of name, of will, of voice. He dressed them up. Painted them pretty. Locked them behind velvet doors, and called them his treasures.
âAnd if they cried, heâd say they were ungrateful. If they fought, heâd punish them. But if they stayed quietâif they obeyedâheâd smile and say they were his favorite.â
You fall silent then, and the memory of it coils like smoke in your throat. The sweet, rotting scent of those early days in Okhema. The illusion before the trap snapped shut.
Mydei doesnât interrupt. But when you look at him again, thereâs a new sharpness in his gaze, tempered only by a sadness you didnât expect to see. Like the weight of your story has settled somewhere behind his ribs. âAnd what became of the wicked man?â he asks softly.
You offer the ghost of a smile. âA good man drove a sword to his chest.â
The corners of Mydeiâs lips twitch ever-so slightly. You like to think that he was proud. You go on, voice low but even. âWhen the wicked man still ruled the undercity, we werenât anything more than possessions. Broken things, caged and bruised, prettied up for those who could afford cruelty. He was cruelest of all.â
The words are flat, almost clinical. Itâs easier that way.
âPhainon was sent to take himâdead or alive. I donât know who gave the order. But when he found us, locked behind his velvet curtains, we werenât his mission. Just⌠collateral.â You draw in a breath, remembering the blood, the broken door hinges, the weight of Agamemnonâs silence as it fell to the floor.
âBut Phainon didnât walk past. He stayed. He broke every lock. Carried the ones who couldnât walk. He helped bury what was left.â
You glance at Mydei now, his golden gaze unwavering.
âThatâs why heâs always around. Because even after that day, he never left. Never once tried to collect on our gratitude. He just⌠checks in. Makes sure the water still runs. The food still comes. That weâre still whole.â
A silence settles between you again. You didnât mean to say so much. But somehow, with him, the words come easier than you expect. And still, youâre not sure what heâs thinking. Not yet.
But he nods, slow and solemn. âHeâs a good man.â
âBetter than most,â you murmur, softer still. âHe never wanted anything from us. Not even a thank you.â
You donât say the rest. That in some ways, Phainon taught you that not all men come bearing knives beneath their smiles. And maybe⌠maybe Mydei could be one of them, too. âEnough about me,â you say after a beat, forcing a lighter tone. âI bet you have stories that are far more worthwhile to hear.â
He huffs a quiet laugh, eyes flitting down for a moment as though considering it. âI donât know,â he murmurs, lips curving. âDepends on whoâs listening.â
You raise a brow at him. âThat sounds like a princeâs way of dodging.â
âItâs worked so far,â he admits, unapologetically amused.
But you catch the glint in his eyesâthe kind that speaks of walls heâs not quite ready to lower. Heâs not being cruel. Just careful. You know that kind of silence all too well. So you pivot, gently.
âFine,â you say, leaning back on your palms. âThen let me ask you something real.â
That gets his attention.
âIs it true?â you ask. âThat you donât die?â
His expression shifts, just slightly. Not alarm, not defensivenessâbut something older. More tired. You continue before he can pretend ignorance. âThey say you walked away from death. That not even blades or poisons or the sea can keep you.â
For a moment, Mydei says nothing. Thenâ
âNo,â he says, voice like flint striking stone. âItâs not true.â
âI do die,â the prince adds, and thereâs a strange stillness to him now, like a sword balanced on its edge. âJust not permanently.â
âIâve been killed before. My lungs have filled with blood. Iâve drowned. Iâve been burned. Iâve been sent to the nether realm where the dead drift, where the living are not welcome. And every timeââ He tilts his head slightly. ââIâve clawed my way back.â
âClawed?â you echo.
He nods ever-so slowly. âThe nether realm is not a quiet place. Itâs full of things that shouldnât be remembered. Things that donât forget. I kill whatever stands in my way. Until the path home opens.â
You can hardly breathe for a moment.
âSounds lonely,â you whisper.
âIt is,â he says simply.
But thereâs no sorrow in the way he says it. No anger either. Just the truth. Heavy and hard and worn like old armor. And suddenly, you understand the look in his eyesâthe way it always seems like heâs staring through time itself. Because maybe he is. Maybe heâs already lived a hundred lifetimes. Maybe the only thing thatâs ever tethered him back to the present⌠is the choice to return.
âCan anyone else just kill their way out of the nether realm?â you ask, the words half a jest, half wonder.
Mydei's lips twitch, but his gaze doesn't waver.
ââŚIf there was,â he murmurs, âI think I wouldâve run into them by now.â
You fall into silence at that, eyes dragging over the lines of himâhis broad shoulders, the golden hue of his skin kissed by something celestial, and the red marks that wind down his arms, chest, torso. Not scars. Not tattoos. Something older, etched into him like language itself.
Wordlessly, your hand lifts. You rest your palm lightly against his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heartbeat beneath warm skin. He doesn't move, doesn't flinch. Just watches you. Your fingertips trace the red markings slowly, following the curl of them as they wind over muscle and bone.
âThis body is special, then,â you say, voice almost reverent. A beat passes. His breath hitchesâbarelyâbut you catch it.
âCursed,â he says quietly. âOr blessed. Depends on who you ask.â
âAnd if I ask you?â
His gaze flickers down to where your hand rests, still trailing those strange, divine brands.
ââŚAsk me later,â he says, softer now.
As though heâs not ready to name what he is. As though something about your touch is unraveling the edges of him. You donât move your hand from his chest. You feel the warmth of himâtoo alive for someone whoâs clawed his way back from death. Too human for a man on the precipice of godhood. He looks at you, eyes shining gold even in the low light, flickering with something he doesnât say.
You tilt your head, your voice barely above a whisper. âLater, then.â
And you shouldâve pulled away. Shouldâve stepped back and said goodnight, like the polite fiction you both pretended to believe in. But you donât.
Instead, your hand slides higher, fingers grazing his collarbone, resting against the side of his neck. Youâre closer now. When did that happen? His breath mingles with yours, his lips parted slightly, like heâs on the edge of a word he canât find.
Then it happensâslow and inevitable.
He leans in first, but itâs you who closes the gap.
The kiss is soft the moment your lips touch. Careful. Testing. The kind of kiss that asks a question neither of you can put into words. His hand finds your waist, anchoring you like youâll vanish, like maybe he already thought you would. Itâs only when you deepen it, that he lets out the faintest sound against your mouthâhalf a sigh, half a surrender. And for a moment, thereâs nothing holy or tragic about either of you. No gods, no ghosts. Just this. Just now.
You forget what it means to be someone broken, and he forget what it means to be someone burdened. You just feel. Your lips part just barely from his, breath catching between the narrow space that remains. His hand still rests at your waist, his thumb moving in slow, lazy circles against the fabric of your robe. You search his face, trying to decipher if he means to pull back or dive in again.
âI thought you werenât here for this,â you whisper, your voice trembling not with fear, but the weight of wanting.
His eyes flicker down to your mouth, then back to yours, and a soft laugh escapes himâlow and rich, like the crackle of embers.
âYes,â he murmurs, âbut what sort of man would I be if I left you wanting?â
The corner of your mouth lifts, not quite a smileâmore like something delicate unraveling. His words coil around your ribs like silk, tightening gently, beautifully. You should say something clever, something to keep this from slipping too far.
But your mouth finds his again before you can even try.
The quiet between you lingers after the kiss, but itâs not empty. It thrums with something unspoken, something deeper than words. Mydeiâs breath brushes against your skin, warm and steady, his hands still resting at your waist as if anchoring himself in your presence. You donât say anything when you lean in again. You donât have to.
The moment folds in on itself, soft and slow, like the hush before a storm. Your fingers trace the red markings on his chest again, not out of curiosity this time, but reverence. Thereâs something sacred about the way they wind across his skin, the way he lets you touch him like thisâopen, unguarded.
He follows your lead, hands gliding up your spine, over your shoulders, until they frame your face. When he kisses you again, itâs not with the urgency of want, but with the ache of longing. As though heâs been waiting to do this properly. As though he knows this might be the last night heâs allowed to feel human.
The world outside your room fades, replaced by the rhythm of shared breath, the brush of skin against skin, the silent promises made in the space between heartbeats. The weight of your historiesâhis battles, your chainsâfalls away for just a little while.
What remains is tenderness.
Your clothes fall away one by one. Amidst the passion that seeps into your very bones, you find it in you to make a quip about how much easier things are when heâs not wearing his armor. Mydei scoffs, but thereâs no sign of annoyance on his face. Just the subtle endearment for somethingâsomeone he never knew he could connect with so deeply.Â
Heâs careful with you, even when your hands wander, even when your heartbeat quickens under his touch. Thereâs a reverence to the way he holds you, like heâs afraid to break something delicate, even though youâve long since learned to be unbreakable.
His fingers slide into you with perfect precision, the slick between your legs granting him enough lubrication to make you feel every sensation there is to give. Your velvet walls clamp down on him with fervor, curling into the heat of his indestructible body as he spreads you open for him.Â
âYouâre so good for me,â he whispers. âToo good for me.âÂ
Thereâs an undertone of something you canât quite name that accompanies his words. But the notion is lost on you when he curls his fingers just so. A broken whimper escapes your lips, unable to stifle it as Mydei continues to hit that sweet, sweet spot inside you. You feel it far too soonâthat telltale sizzle of release. It bides its time, tying your stomach in knots until the pressure in your navel becomes too much to bear.
Mydei growls into the curve of your neck when he feels your body spasm beneath him; having given into the pleasure so easily, it awakens something primal within him. Itâs like your body is on fire. Sensitive to the touch wherever his skin meets yours. Part of you wants to recoil, to beg for respite. Too much, too much, too muchâÂ
Sensing how deeply he's unraveled you, Mydei tempers the urgency of his touch into something gentlerâtender strokes that barely skim your skin, grounding you, reminding you he's still here. That he's not going anywhere. As if in silent apology, he presses a kiss to the tip of your noseâsoft and reverent.
âAll I want,â he breathes, his voice rough with restraint, âis for you to feel good. Do you trust me?â
You know he already holds the answer in his hands, but still, you blink through the blur of your tears until his face comes into focusâfractured by light and emotion, and yet still so beautiful. With a shaky breath, you reach up, fingers weaving behind his neck, and pull him into a kiss that speaks the answer for you.
âYes,â you whisper into his mouth, like a vow youâve been holding your whole life. âI trust you more than anything. More than anyone.â
This kind of vulnerability is something you never imagined you could offer so freely. Not after everything. Not to anyone. But with Mydei, it doesn't feel like surrender. It feels like remembering something you thought you'd lost: the ability to feel safe in someoneâs arms, to be seen without shame, to be held without fear.
Despite yourself, heat flares in your cheeks at the sight of himâaroused and aching. His leaking cock strains against his abdomen, flushed with a need so primal, he practically grinds the throbbing shaft between your supple thighs.Â
âI need you,â you breathe, voice trembling, desperate. Your hand slips between your thighs, guiding him with aching intent. âPlease, Mydei⌠justâplease.â
He gives in to your wishesâheâs starting to grow much too weak against them. Mydei guides his length into your dripping heat, the head of his cock penetrating you with the same cautious anticipation he exhibited during your first night together.Â
And then, inch by inch, you feel whole again.
For a while, the two of you remain tangled in that momentâheat blooming between your bodies, thick and breathless. The stretch of him shouldâve been too much, but all you can feel is how right it is. How perfectly he fits, like he was always meant to be there. He groans, a proud lion reduced into nothingness when you purposely clench the walls of your cunt around his poor length.
You find yourself grinning mischievously when Mydei starts speaking in that language long lost to time. You should ask him about that sometimeâwhen your heads arenât clouded with sheer desire. But for now, you live in the moment.Â
âI regret not finding you sooner,â he admits with a quiet laugh. A moment of clarity hovers across your mind, and your first instinct is to tease. âWhy? Would you have bought me out of this brothel if you did?â
âPerhaps,â Mydei murmurs before suckling a band of hickeys above your collarbones, initiating slow yet languid thrusts that have your toes curling with bliss. âBut if I had found you sooner, you never would have had to live the life you lead. I wouldâve stolen you away from Lethe myself.âÂ
You know those are just the words of a man lost in the throes of pleasure. Men tend to start running their mouths whenever theyâre high on the feel of your cunt pulsating around their cocks. But Mydei has a knack for being candid about all sorts of things.
âWould youâhah! W-would you have put me in a cage too?â you taunt and it gets you the exact reaction you want. Mydei snaps his hips harshly, nearly punching the breath from your lungs. âDress me up in the f-finest of silk and flaunt me to the world?âÂ
âNo. Never.â He grits his teeth so tightly, you swear you hear the strain in his jaw. âIâll make you mine, but only on your terms. Only if you want me to.â
Even in the haze of desire, he manages to remain the most honorable man in all of Okhema. The thought of it, the weight of his words, makes something warm well up inside youâso overwhelming you could weep with joy. His raw honesty encourages you to wrap your arms around his broad backâholding him so close that he canât ever hope to slip away.
The heat of his skin against yours is grounding, a reminder that, despite everything, youâre here together, tangled in this moment. When his calloused fingers find the sensitive bud of your clit, you jostle beneath him in surprise. You were so focused on how good heâs giving it to you, that you failed to notice his hands wriggling down to your thighs.Â
âM-Mydeiâ!â you gasp, but he only fucks into you harder.Â
Mydeiâs breath stutters in quiet, devout gasps, the edge of release so close he could reach for it. But he holds back. Draws out the moment like a hymn. He could stay like this foreverâjust to savor the weight of your body beneath his, just to feel the hush between you stretch into something timeless.
You memorize the feel of himânot just the way his body fits against yours, but the quiet sighs that escape when your lips find the hollow of his throat, the way he lingers on every touch like heâs afraid to let go.Â
Heâs fire and gold and thunderstorms, and yet he looks at you like youâre the miracle.
Mydei spills into you with reckless abandon, canting his hips with clockwork precision as he fills you to the brim. For a moment, the world quietsâlike the tide pulling back before the next great wave. He buries his face into the crook of your neck, breath hitching, arms locked tight around you like heâs terrified of the space that might form between your bodies.
You feel him trembling, not from exhaustion, but from the gravity of it all. As if something in him has broken looseâsomething raw and sacred and entirely yours. But it doesnât end there.
You donât realize what heâs doing when he swiftly breaks free of your embrace. But when his face hovers across your soiled cunt, you make the motions to pull him back upâonly for your beast of a lover to devour the mess heâs left in his wake.Â
Mydei laves at your hole like he intends to feast on you for the rest of his life. He scoops his own cum out with his own fingers, slurping your mixed essence with so much depravity shining in his golden eyes, you can hardly believe heâs a prince. No sane man would look so blissed out whilst doing something soâ
âI can feel you,â he growls. âNeed you to come for me.â
The words are spoken with such authority, it sends a guilty thrill straight to your throbbing cunt. Mydei latches his lips onto your sensitive nub, fucking his cum back into you with those godlike fingers. You thrash around beneath him, but Mydei keeps you in place with a steady gripâmaking sure you feel everything heâs willing to give.
Your body trembles, overwhelmed by the relentless tenderness he wields like a weapon. Every curl of his fingers, every flick of his tongue draws out a fresh wave of pleasure that crashes through you with no mercy. Your cries are half-muffled by the pillow, but he hears them all the sameâdrinks them in like a sacred prayer.
âMydei,â you sob, unable to do anything but hold onto him. Your legs shake around his shoulders, your hands tangled in his hair like lifelines.
He doesn't stop. He wonâtânot until heâs certain thereâs nothing left unsaid between your bodies. Not until your body recognizes him as deeply and completely as your heart already does. When he finally slows, itâs not because heâs spent, but because heâs sated. Because he knows you are too. And as he pulls you into his arms, nestling your exhausted form against the warmth of his chest, you realizeâthis isnât just release. Itâs devotion. A vow whispered into your very bones.
Time passes strangely in the dark. You donât know how long the two of you stay like this, curled in the comfort of each otherâs warmth. His hand is cradling the back of your neck, his breath evening out as you rest your forehead against his shoulder. There are no declarations. No promises. Only the quiet understanding between two people whoâve found something rare in each otherâif only for a night.
And that, somehow, is enough.
You are back on the shores of Lethe yet again.Â
The scent of the ocean is heavy in the air, salt mixing with the sweetness of the breeze. The horizon stretches wide before you, the sea infinite and restless, each wave a soft whisper against the shore. But thereâs something elseâsomething familiar, something that stirs deep within your chest.
The souls.
They drift across the water, gliding in and out of the mist that rises from the waves, countless and silent. At first, you donât see them clearly. Theyâre indistinct forms, like smoke or vapor, just the shape of something that used to be. They are lost, wandering. Some of them move in clusters, others alone, each drawn to the sea like they were always meant to be here.
Itâs always been this way. Youâve seen it many times before. The souls spill from the nether realm, drawn across the waters, stretching between Lethe and Styxia. Youâve stood here before, in this same silence, watching as they passed by.
This time, though, thereâs something different. One soul catches your eye. Itâs faint at first, barely distinguishable among the others, but it glowsâa soft, golden light, faint but warm, as if itâs radiating from deep within. Youâre drawn to it without thinking. The pull is gentle, but it grows stronger the closer you get. The light flickers in the mist, barely visible behind the shadows of the other souls. But itâs there, unmistakable.
You take a step forward, and the light grows, a shining ember in the endless grey. You know, without a doubt, that this one is different from the rest. It moves with purpose, not like the others who are aimless, lost in their endless drift. This one seems... aware. Alive, somehow.
As you move closer, the light brightens, and you catch glimpses of a shape, a form within it. At first, itâs unclearâblurry, indistinct, like the edges of a dream. The golden light wraps itself around a figure, but itâs not fully defined, not yet. You reach out toward it, a quiet yearning stirring in your chest. Then the figure shifts slightly. You feel it, a subtle movement in the water, and your heart skips.
The golden glow swirls, growing stronger, as if it recognizes you, as if itâs meant to find you. The warmth radiating from it is overwhelming. It's like sunlight after rain. You step forward again, closer, closer still, the feeling of it wrapping around you, pulling you toward the shore.
But then, just as quickly as it appeared, the light begins to fade. The soul drifts away, slowly at first, and then faster as the current pulls it back. You reach out, desperate to hold on, but your fingers touch only the mist. The light dims, vanishing into the expanse of souls, swallowed by the sea.
You stand still, the warmth that had filled you fading like the last embers of a fire. The mist thickens again, and the souls continue their endless journey, their forms lost to the distance. But something lingers. The feeling. The warmth. The sense that youâve witnessed something important, something that has been waiting for you all along.
You donât know what it means, but you know, somehow, that itâs a connection youâre not meant to forget.Â
Not yet.
The bells of the Academy chime across the courtyard, clean and melodic like everything else in this part of Okhema.
As the students depart for dismissal, you wait by the marble fountain just a ways away from the main entrance. A tree that curls over it offers ample shade beneath the unchanging light of the Dawn Device above. Nikolas emerges from the throng of students scurrying out. He doesnât run to you anymore, but his steps are quick, a little uneven, like he hasnât quite grown into his legs yet.
âWe talked about the Titans after our drills today,â he says after giving you a quick hug. âOne of my classmates asked if Kephale ever puts the Dawn Device down. Master Theon said, âNot once in all of history.ââ
You smile faintly, brushing a curl from his temple. âThat sounds like something youâd ask.â
He grins. âI wouldâve made it sound smarter. And I did 'cause Master asked us to make an essay about it.â
Nikolas tries to sound casual, but the way he looks at you afterward like heâs waiting for you to be proud makes your heart twist a little. Itâs only been a few weeks since he first walked through the Academy gatesâstill all knees and elbowsâbut heâs already grown so much. They donât ask for perfect speech or polished manners here. Just grit, and enough fire to stand when the Black Tide comes crawling. This isnât the Grove of Epiphany, where scholars chase after the elusive truth and speak in riddles. Here, boys and girls are shaped into the last line between the dark and everything worth saving.
You have half the mind to ask if Nikolas wants to make another detour to the Hall of Respite. To treat him to some of his favorite flat cakes. But then an unwelcome voice slithers into the quiet moment.Â
âWell, what do we have here? The whore walks in daylight.â
It takes effort to turn, to meet the manâs eyes without flinching. Heâs older now, more jowled than you remember, but the silk of his robes and the stink of indulgence are the same. Aeson. One of the men who used to come slinking through the undercity when the sun was too high for shame. He once asked you to sing for him while he undressed. Said you had a voice like smoke, a body like borrowed gold. He was never violent, just entitled. And worse, comfortable.
âI suspected that it was you for a few weeks now but even I knew how much you despised the overworld,â Aeson says, condescension dripping from every word. âThen again, you always did love playing mother to that stray.â
You hear Nikolas bristle at the manâs words, and you put out a hand to keep him from doing anything rash. Even at his young age, heâs seen how men treat you and your sisters like gunk beneath their sandals. And youâve seen how a boy, raised with so much love even in the dark, has tried to give it all backâto protect the women who became that love for him.
But youâre not in some smoke-choked alley of the undercity. Youâre in the pristine courtyard of the Academy itself. And thereâs no way in hell youâre jeopardizing Nikâs education just to put some pompous old coot in his place. Elena would never forgive you.
Instead, you give him a flat look before saying, âGo pester someone whoâs desperate.â
But the man steps in closer, a haughty look painted high on his wrinkly face. âI remember you desperate, girl. I paid for it. You should be grateful that anyone still looks at you nicely, knowing you're old Agamemnonâs trash.â
And that sinks teeth into you.
The insult doesnât surprise you. Youâve heard worse from softer lips. But it stirs something darker: the memory of what it cost you to not belong. The long, awful ache of surviving by grace of what others wanted from your skin. The truth of it is what burns most.
Because Agamemnon did claim you. And now his name clings to you like grease you canât scrub off.
You square your shoulders. You wonât give him the satisfaction of seeing it land. But before you can speak, the air shifts like something heavy has entered the scene.
âIâll give you one chance to take that back.â
The voice is low, deliberate. Not loud, but heavy with promise. You and the nobleman both turn. Mydei stands at the edge of the courtyard, backlit by the cold radiance of the Dawn Device. His armor catches the light like forged fire, making his presence all the more unmistakable. There is no rage in his face, only clarity. The kind that makes cowards remember their manners.
âPrince Mydei,â Aeson stammers, dipping into a mock-bow. âIâm afraid I didnât see you there.â
âNo,â Mydei replies. âYou only saw who you thought you could speak over.â
He draws up beside you, a hand hoveringânot touchingâbut near enough that you feel it like heat through fabric. Similarly to how you did with Nikolas, however you did that to prevent. Mydei does so to protect. âYou said too much,â Mydei says, voice iron-flat. âAnd the next time you think of talking to a woman like that, remember this moment.â
A pause. You don't think you remember how to breathe, not in the face of Mydei's quiet fury. Then, as sharp as a blade, he grates out,
âLeave.â
Aeson recoilsâstammers something too low to hearâthen stumbles back into the crowd, his velvet trailing like a cloak of rot. You follow his hunched form until he disappears completely out of view. Only then does the tension in your shoulders ebb away. Nikolas looks between you and Mydei, uncertain.
âWas that one of the cityâs... uh, patrons?â he mutters.
You exhale slowly, shaking off the sting. âYou could say that.â
Mydeiâs eyes donât leave your face. Not even as Nikolas tries to catch his attention with a look. You donât meet his gaze, but you feel itâthe weight of what he didnât say. The rage he carried in like a blade still sheathed.
âOld men like that never forget a girl they once thought they owned,â you say softly, reassuring Nikolas with a smile that takes more out of you than you thought. âDoesnât mean they matter.â
âYou matter,â Mydei says, quiet but unflinching. It startles you only because you didnât expect for him to put in another word. âThey just donât know what that means yet.â And for a breath, the city stills around you. Not in reverence, nor silence. But in recognition.
âThank you,â you whisper, not knowing what else to say. âNik and I will be off now.â
The princeâs gaze doesnât shift. His hand lingers near yours, and when you hesitate, he takes a half-step closer. His voice is firm, though his tone softens just slightly. âIâll walk you back to the undercity.â
You open your mouth to refuse, but the remnants of the encounter with Aeson hang over you like a heavy fog, and the words fall flat in your throat. Thereâs a pull in your chestâa need for distance from everything that just transpiredâand you find yourself nodding before you can think better of it.
âAlright,â you murmur.
Nikolas watches the exchange quietly, still unsure of the silent tension between the two of you, but he follows nonetheless, his footsteps light against the cobblestones. Mydei falls in step beside you, his presence unyielding but steady, like the silent promise of protection.
The city stretches out before you, its lights distant and hollow beneath the unblinking gaze of the Dawn Device. The hum of Okhema fades into the background as you walk.Â
You donât speak, but you donât need to. His proximity alone quells any lingering fear, and you find comfort in the silence that comes with it.
Since that day in the courtyard, walking home together just started...happening.Â
Mydei never asked. He simply waited outside the gates of the Academy, where the marble gave way to cracked stone and the air grew thick with real life. Nikolas would spot him first, sometimes with a grin, sometimes pretending he hadnât been looking for him.Â
It was a strange little ritual, but one that settled into place before you realized it. Nikolas walking beside one of his instructors like it was the most natural thing in the world. And you beside them both, listening, nodding, adding the occasional remark when Nikolas recounted the latest training mishap or philosophical disagreement with a teacher.
It wasnât how these things were supposed to goânot a prince, not a prostitute, not a boy from nowhereâbut it worked.
And then, over time, Mydeiâs steps carried him a little farther. Past the alleys you knew like breath, and the entrance to the undercity that you insisted was far enough for a chaperone.Â
Today is one of the two rest days that Nikolas has within a school week, and you spend a chunk of your time helping around The House. It always feels different on slower days like this. Softer, almost. Less like a cage and more like a secret place between worldsâwhere laughter could still echo against peeling walls, and perfume hung in the air like memory.
You hear the rustling of his armor before you see himâfamiliar now, no longer something that makes the girls stiffen or reach for the knives tucked beneath silk pillows. Just outside, the lanterns have begun to glow gold, and from the hallway, a voice calls out:
âThalia, your knightâs here again!â
You roll your eyes as you round the corner, but you canât stop the smile that forms at the sight of him. Mydei stands in the foyer with a small basket of fruit in one handâdates, you guess, or maybe honeyed apricots from the upper district market. He's still donned in his armor, though heâs unstrapped the shoulder pauldrons. Less imposing that way. Still unmistakable.
âI wasnât sure if youâd be busy,â he says, a touch uncertain, as if his presence might overstep.
âPenelopeâs braiding Irisâ hair,â you reply. âThe rest are pretending not to peek.â
As if on cue, the door behind you creaks. Penelope leans out, a wry grin curling at her lips while Iris stammers out apology after apology for eavesdropping.Â
âThalia, really,â Penelope says, mock-scolding. âYou keep bringing in decent men and setting the bar too high for the rest of us.â
You snort, and even Mydeiâs mouth twitches in something thatâs not quite a smileâbut itâs close. âI can leave the fruit and go,â he offers.
âNo,â you say too quickly. Then, gentler, âStay. They like you here now, but donât let it go to your head. Elenaâs already figured out how to turn your visits into good business.â
Mydei nods with half a smile gracing his face. He steps further in, letting the warmth of The House wrap around him. One of the younger girls, quiet Calliope, flits by and steals an apricot from the basket. He lets her.Â
Later, you find him sitting cross-legged on the floor while Penelope retells some outlandish story about a drunk client who mistook her for a goddess. Mydei doesnât laugh, not loudlyâbut thereâs light in his eyes. One you donât often see up in the sanctified marble of Okhemaâs spires.
And maybeâjust maybeâThe House feels a little safer with him in it.
The following morning, the sky in the overworld is bleached bone-white. The unsetting sun hums high above, softened by distance and with it, Okhema shines, immaculate and hollow. Despite your more frequent visits due to your new job as Nikolas' guardian, you haven't grown to like it much. Too polished. Too sanctified. But today youâre not alone.
Mydei walks beside you, his long stride unhurried, matching yours. He carries your satchel without needing to be asked. Youâve got a listâwritten in Alexandriaâs looping handâand a basket slung over your arm. Thereâs something gently absurd about it all. You, running errands in the overworld. Choosing peaches. Haggling for bath oil. The sort of thing the other girls usually do. But today, you offered.
Youâre not sure whatâs more startling: that no one questioned you, or that you meant it.
The Marmoreal Market is alive. Vendors cry out over pyramids of citrus and hanging lanterns of glass. Incense smoke curls in lazy spirals above marbled stalls. A bard plays something languid on a flute near the olive barrels. The air tastes of brine and roasted almonds.
It should be overwhelming. Once, it might have been. But today you just walk. Mydei doesnât fill the silence. He lets it breathe between you like he always does. You pause to examine a twist of lavender soap. He waits patiently while you hold it to your nose, frown, and mutter, âToo much oil, not enough flower.â
When you change directions suddenly to get to the honeyed fig vendorâthe fig vendor, the only one who doesnât cheat the glaze with sugar waterâhe follows without question. You almost feel normal. Not broken. Not fallen. Just here.
âThalia?â
You turn. And itâs like the sun tilts sideways.
Daphne.
She looks... different. Or maybe not. Maybe youâre the one whoâs changed. Her hair is coiled into a gold-pin bun, her robes the sort nobles wear when they want to look effortless. Thereâs a softness around her nowâa shine to her skin, a plumpness to her face, like love and safety have filled her out. Her bracelets tinkle when she steps closer.
âGods,â she breathes, laughing. âI almost didnât recognize you. You look... good! Healthier than I remember. And your hairâstill doing that wave in front, huh? I always said it made you look like one of those Lethean sirens.â
You manage a thin smile. âItâs you.â
She steps in like she might kiss your cheek, and you let her, though every inch of you braces like it's being touched with salt. âItâs been whatâtwo years? Maybe more? I kept asking Elena about you, but she always just smiled and changed the subject.â Daphneâs eyes flick to Mydei, then back to you with a teasing grin. âAnd here I thought I was the only one who came out of that place lucky.â
She twirls a lock of hair around her finger, feigning modesty. âDid I tell you? No, of course I didnâtâyouâve been hiding down in the bones of the city. Well, you remember Heron, donât you? The grain magnate with the crooked teeth and all the rings? Turns out he wasnât just talk. Married me proper.â She lifts her hand, lets you see the band. âIâve got a little garden now. A cook. Weâre thinking of getting a dromas of our own, but I thought that would be a bit too much!â
You say something. You think you do. It sounds like âThatâs nice,â but your mouth feels numb. Daphne laughs again, easy and breezy as a woman whoâs forgotten how deep The House used to cut.
âI still remember how Agamemnon used to spoil you, you know. Oh, donât look at me like thatâitâs not jealousy. I used to think, âShe must have Lethean blood in her veins to bring a man like that to his knees.ââ She tilts her head, studying you. âFunny how things turn out, huh?â
Your grip on the basket tightens. Mydei hasnât moved. You donât have to look to know heâs watching her. Watching you. You lift your chin. Even if you know the man keeping you company is more than capable of stepping in like a guard dog, you don't let him. There are some things in this world that you'd rather not rely on Mydei for.
âI should get going,â you say, and your voice doesnât crack. âWeâve got things to pick up.â Daphne blinks, surprised. âOh. Of course. I didnât mean toâwell. You look well, Thalia. Really. I mean that.â
You nod once and turn. Mydei doesnât speak until the crowd swallows her up behind you. His voice is quiet, but certain.
âAre you all right?â
You keep your eyes forward. âShe didnât mean it cruelly.â
âNo,â he agrees. âBut she still cut you.â
The fig vendor appears ahead. You make a beeline for it, needing something solid to do with your hands. Something to hold onto. Mydei doesnât press. He stands beside you as you weigh fruit and speak numbers and pretend the world didnât just tilt under your feet. And when you walk away, his hand grazes yours again. Not demanding, but simply offering.
It pains you to pull awayâto refuse something he's always given freelyâbut you avoid his hand altogether. You turn the corner, pushing through the crowd, trying to breathe again. The air feels tight, sharp, as though the weight of everything that just shifted in your chest is pressing down on you.
Daphne. A wife. Sheâs happy now. And yetâsomething about herâsomething about the way she carries herself now, so light, so untetheredâbothers you.
The House. Agamemnon. The way the air used to feel thick, like every breath was a crime, and the walls hummed with all the things people would never say. Did the time away make her forget the way he used to drag you through rooms like cattle, like property? The way sheâd walk in and out of those same halls, always knowing the price of every touch, the cost of every whispered word?
You shake your head. Itâs not her fault, you remind yourself. Daphneâs not the one who held your body hostage, not the one who let it break beneath the weight of his need. But...why does it feel like sheâs forgotten?
A soft laugh. A garden. A gods damned dromas. And in her voice, in her smile, you hear the echo of a life away from all of that. As though the past was just something easily shaken off. It gnaws at you, that inconsistency. The way she walks with easeâlike she didnât have to bleed for it, didnât have to drown in every unspoken rule of The House, its suffocating power, its price.
You feel it again, in your chest. A tightness, a rawness. And as you push your hand against the basket's rim, trying to steady yourself, the question lingers, still unanswered:
Did Daphne truly forget? Or is it just that sheâs moved on, and you... youâre still here, carrying pieces of it, like shards of glass you canât pull from your skin? You donât realize how tight your gripâs gotten on the basket until Mydei speaksâsoftly, like the sound might startle you if it were any louder. It didn't occur to you that even if you evade him, he'll follow you like a shadow either way.Â
âDo you want to go home?â
You glance at him, caught between the din of the market and the roaring in your own head. His eyes are steady. Not prying. Just there. Like a door already open, waiting for you to step through. He takes the basket from your hands without asking. The tension eases just enough for your fingers to ache.
He doesnât rush you. He stays close as you weave through the crowd, his presence a quiet shield against the glances, the voices, the past. He doesnât say anything about Daphne. Doesnât ask what she meant or what it meant to you. And thatâs what makes you want to cry.
Not because he doesnât care, but because he doesâand he knows better than to pick at a wound that's still bleeding.
By the time you make it back to The House, the light above has cooled to its twilight hueâsoft gold thinning into rose where it filters through the grates. The sun doesnât set in Okhema. It only shifts, like a watchful eye half-closing. The undercity glows beneath it, wrapped in the kind of light that feels like the end of a long breath.
Inside, things are loud again. Familiar. One of the girls calls out about a client who tried to pay with temple scrip. Someone else has braided jasmine into the worn curtain rods, and the scent clings stubbornly to the air. You smile when you need to, nod when you must, and brush off any lingering edges from earlier like itâs routine. Because it is. No one notices the way your shoulders hitch too quickly when you laugh. Or the way you avoid the looking glass near the stairs. No one, except the man whoâs still standing by the door like he doesnât quite belongâbut doesnât want to leave just yet.
Mydei shifts slightly, readying himself to depart, the way he always does once youâre safely home. But something in you rebels at the thought.
âIf youâre not busy,â you say, quieter than you intend, âcould you stay? Just for a little while.â
He pauses, brows rising ever so slightly. âYou want me to?â
You nod. âOnly if you want to.â
A beat of stillness. Then: âThen Iâll stay.â
You turn before your face gives you away. You donât lead him to the front parlors where guests are meant to lounge. You donât steer him toward the back alcoves where girls entertain more private company. Instead, you climb the stairs. Past chipped paint and perfumed cloth. Past laughter behind closed doors and one girl humming a tune you havenât heard since Lethe. You walk until you reach your room.
Your room.
Youâve never brought anyone here apart from your sisters and Nikolas. Phainonâs the only outsider whoâs ever crossed its threshold, and even then, only when you couldnât stand to be alone. This room is yours. A sanctuary carved from hand-me-downs and half-stolen quiet. The walls are soft with age, the bedding faded but clean. Thereâs a tiny dish of dried figs near the window, even though you'll never finish them. They don't taste the way they do back at Lethe.
There are no doors to your room. Only a curtain of seashellsâbright, iridescent, strung together in delicate strands. A gift from Elena, thoughtful as she is. It reminds you of home, of the sea, of the ebb and flow of tides. Itâs not a door, not really, but itâs enough to separate your space from the rest of the world.
You open the curtain, casting a sidelong glance at Mydei in a quiet invitation. He hesitates only briefly as his eyes scan the room before he steps inside. The prince says nothing. Doesn't gawk or wander. He simply stands in the middle of there like someone waiting for permission.
You amble across the wooden floor, the tension finally unspooling from your spine. Mydei stays closeâbut not too closeâand it strikes you again, how careful he always is with you. Not delicate. JustâŚrespectful and measured.
âNot what you expected?â you ask, gesturing vaguely at the modest space.
âI wasnât expecting anything,â he says softly. âBut it suits you.â
You look down at your hands, then up at him. âI didnât want to be alone,â you say. The words fall like something confessional.
âIâm glad you called for me,â Mydei tells you, honesty bleeding into his voice, and thereâs something in it that makes you look at him again.
In the silence, you walk over to a shelf in the far end, one that the prince has been eyeing since he stepped inside. A small, eclectic collection of trinkets are lined up together on its surface. You can feel his gaze touch each item, but thereâs no judgment in itâonly quiet wonder.
âThese are the pieces I kept,â you murmur, and his eyes flick to you as if waiting for a story, a reason.
A small glass vial, still corked, filled with syrupy red wine the color of dusk. âFrom the lushest vineyard in the entire island. I stole it,â you say with a faint smile. âRan all the way down the hills with red hands and a mouth stained purple.â
Beside it, a faded ribbon, sea salt-blue and frayed at the edges, tied in a lazy bow. âFor the dances,â you murmur. âWe wore them on our wrists, so even the shy ones could be pulled into the revelry.â
Next, a small, tarnished fluteâits surface dulled by time, but the carvings of swirling waves and grapevines still visible. âIt only plays when the wind is right,â you say, lifting it briefly to your lips. A single note spills out, thin and wandering. âMy mother bought it for me. Said no Lethean should be without music.â
There are seashells, of courseâreal ones, not like the ones strung in your curtain, but pale and pink and lavender, collected from the shallows. One of them still smells faintly of brine when warmed by your palm. Another is cracked down the middle, but you never threw it away. âThe ugly ones are often the ones that lived longest,â you explain, as if it matters.
And then, near the end of the shelf, sits a delicate pendant, the size of a coin, fashioned from mother-of-pearl and set in brass. Its surface has worn smooth from years of handling, but if the light catches just right, the faint outline of a chalice brimming with waves and fruit still glimmersâthe old symbol of Phagousa, the Titan of Plenty. You used to wear it around your neck. Now it just rests there, like something left at an altar.
You donât explain that one.
Mydei is silent, not out of discomfort. He watches you with a strange, quiet intensity, as though your memories hold a significance beyond words. His hand brushes lightly across the ribbon, then rests on the shelfâs edge.
âYou brought Lethe with you,â he says, almost to himself.
You nod, slowly. âI didnât want to forget. Even if everyone already did.â
In that moment, everything floods back. The deal you made with Agamemnon. How you packed what little you could into a single satchel and left behind the life you knew. How you walked away from the island you once called home without so much as a goodbye to your mother. But it doesnât matter now. Agamemnon is dead, and Lethe is gone.
Not wanting to spiral back into what Mydei did his best to haul you out of, you walk towards your bed, patting the space beside you. Oddly enough, he joins you without complaint. Not touching. But close enough that if you shifted an inch, you would. You both sit in silence, the air between you warm, but not heavy.
The soft flicker of twilight outside dances across the walls, casting long shadows that stretch with time. The quiet is comforting. It doesnât feel like the heavy silence of distance, but something closer, like the stillness of two souls finally aligning.
Mydeiâs presence in the room feels different now. Less like a visitor and more like someone who belongs here, who fits with the gentle rhythm of your life. His armor clinks softly as he shifts to make himself more comfortable, but thereâs nothing forced about the movement. You look up at him, your gaze tracing the familiar red markings on his arms and chestâhis half-worn robes draped in a way that speaks of battles fought and distances traveled.Â
He doesnât try to hide anything, not the weight of what heâs carried, not the quiet strength that lingers in every measured movement. His stillness is calm, but you sense the storm just beneath it, the tumult that never fully goes away.
You can feel the question in the airâthe unspoken one, hanging between you, something about where this moment will lead. But neither of you needs to speak it. Youâve crossed unspoken lines before, danced on edges, and tonight, the edge feels softer, more accepting. You shift a little, a quiet invitationâyour leg brushes his, just enough to send a ripple through the calm.Â
Mydei doesnât pull away.Â
Instead, his hand shifts to the space beside you, fingers barely grazing the fabric of your bedding, as if this is something heâs always respected. Your eyes meet, and thereâs a quiet understanding there, a promise wrapped in the kind of intimacy that doesnât demand. He moves slowly yet deliberately.
When his hand finally meets yours, itâs as if the world outside this room falls away, and all thatâs left is the soft brush of skin against skin, the way your breath hitches when his thumb runs over your knuckles, grounding you in the here and now.
The space between you disappears with that small touch.
Mydei doesnât rush. Thereâs no hunger, no desperationâonly the kind of stillness that comes after a long journey. You feel it in the way his fingers thread through yours, slow and certain, like he's holding something precious. Like heâs afraid if he holds too tightly, youâll vanish.
Your other hand lifts without thinking, drawn to him as if by instinct, fingertips brushing the line of his jaw. He leans into it, and you can feel the weight he carries, heavy beneath his skin, and still he lets himself soften here, with you.
His forehead presses against yours. Neither of you speak. His warm breath fanning against your face tells you enough. The silence between you isnât emptyâitâs full. Full of the things neither of you could say before. Of every stolen glance. Every almost. Every ache that built into this moment. When he kisses you, itâs not a question. Itâs an answer. Warm, unhurried, and steady.
His lips taste like memory and promise all at once. And when Mydei pulls you closerâcloser stillâitâs not possession. Itâs presence. Itâs the quiet vow that, here in this moment, he is entirely yours.
You fall into him like tide to shore. And for the first time in a long time, you donât feel like something adrift. You feel found.
Sounds of lovemaking fill your room in a way that has never happened before. It's a given that privacy in The House is close to none, but all the girls who managed to catch you bringing your fiery-haired lover into your sacred space knew better than to intrude. They also told the others that upstairs is off-limits until either you or Mydei emerged again. What they don't know is that with Mydei, sex takes a very good while.
He starts the way all men usually doâmissionary. Simple, straight to the point. But where you'd often just lie there and let your patrons take you sloppily, Mydei grounds you beneath his weight like he wants you to remember the moment. He doesn't piston his hips with the intent of chasing after his own sweet release. But lets that gaze of molten fire seep into your very bones, his girth spreading your aching walls far apart with each thrust.
You moan his name like you're stringing a litany of prayers. Mydei is all too happy to heed each desperate plea. He hoists one of your legs over his shoulder, tilting your body just several degrees sideways. The angle confuses your brain for a moment, unused to being positioned in such a way. But your thoughts are eventually lost to pleasure when his cock breaches your wet heat once moreâbullying past gummy walls that yield all too easily to his touch alone.
"More, more, more," you dole out mindlessly, tears catching in the corners of your eyes. "I need you more."
You're not sure if any of your words even make sense, but Mydei reads between the lines anyways. He slants your lips together, like stars melting into each other. His kiss swallows your cries, tender and consuming all at onceâlike heâs trying to hold you together with his mouth alone. His hips roll deeper still but slower now, savoring the tremble in your thighs, the desperate way your fingers clutch at his back.
âIâm here,â he murmurs against your lips, voice frayed with restraint. âIâm always here.â
The words break something in you. Maybe itâs the past youâve tried so hard to outgrow, or the girl who once believed no one would ever stay. Either way, she shattersâand in her place is a woman who is being seen, held, loved in a way that feels like becoming.
Mydei presses his forehead to yours, breath uneven. The rhythm of your bodies is a language now, spoken in heat and motion, in the slick slide of skin and the muffled gasps you share like secrets.Â
And when you come undone, it isnât with fireworksâitâs with something quieter. A tremble. A sigh. A sense that, for once, the ache inside you has been met with something that understands it.
He's carrying you by your thighs before you can even form another thought. You think you bleat out a weak protest but Mydei presses your back against the nearest wall like he didn't hear a thing. You feel something dig into your spine, but the pain is eclipsed by raw ecstasy when he slots himself inside you againâa shuddering gasp stolen from his chest while he noses at the crook of your neck.
Your nerves are still burning with sensation, but the slide of his cock makes you want him more. Desire him deeper. You're past the point of caring whether or not he'll break you, because you know he will and he'll do it deliciously.Â
"You're more than what your past made you out to be," he huffs hoarsely, teeth scraping across sweat-slicked skin. "You're more than just some dead monster's favorite."
Your breath catches as his words sink into the tenderest part of you, far deeper than where his body touches. It makes your pulse throb in places untouched, makes your body arch for more of him, for all of him. Ever since the first time, Mydei has never made you feel like some sort of commodity.Â
He makes you feel human. Always.Â
His hands are rough where they grip your thighs, but thereâs reverence in the way he holds you open, like youâre nothing short of a miracle even now, especially now. His pace slows, deepens. Not to teaseâno, itâs devotion. Every thrust says, I see you. Every breath he steals from your lungs is a promise that heâs not here to use youâhe's here to worship what's been denied worship for far too long.
"I donât care what they called you,â he murmurs, voice ragged, forehead pressed to yours as if he needs to feel your thoughts against his. âYou're mine now. If youâll have me.â
And gods, you do.
You meet him stroke for stroke, mouth chasing his with a hunger that borders on holy. Thereâs nothing soft left in the roomânot the air, not the wall, not your shared breathingâbut there is something real, raw, and rising fast. Like the sea in a storm. Like love, if you're brave enough to call it that. His lips find your throat, trailing heat and tremble in their wake. He doesn't kiss you like you're fragile. He kisses you like you're fireâmeant to be burned by. Tongue and teeth dragging along the slick curve of your collarbone, he groans your name like itâs some sort of invocation heâll never stop repeating.
âYou take me so well,â he breathes. âEvery time.â
And Titans, you doâgreedy and trembling and insatiable, taking all of him because you can, because you want to. Because his desire doesnât just touch your bodyâit drenches it, floods it, marks you in places no one else has ever dared to reach. The rhythm builds again, languid and punishing in its control.
He doesnât fuck like a man trying to get offâhe moves like heâs trying to memorize you from the inside out. Etching himself into your marrow, into every twitch and gasp and please. He cups your face with one hand, forcing your eyes to meet his. The look in them nearly undoes you.
âYouâre not allowed to forget,â he growls, lips brushing yours with maddening restraint. âNot how this feels. Not what you are to me.â
You nod before you can speak, the sound caught somewhere between your lungs and your throat. But he sees it. He feels it in the desperate flex of your hips, the trembling grip on his shoulders, the way your mouth parts for his without needing words. You donât forgetâhow could you, when heâs everywhere? Inside you, around you, underneath your skin?
His kiss turns hungry again, all heat and tongue, no gentleness this time. Just raw needâhis and yours, tangled and indistinguishable. You drink each other in like youâll never have another chance. His thrusts deepen, rougher now, but still preciseâhis cock dragging just the right way, hitting every spot that makes your eyes roll back and your breath shatter in your chest.
Your thighs start to shake around him, and he feels it, curses low under his breath as shifts your weight to tether further against the wall. One of his hands slips between your bodies, fingers finding that slick bundle of nerves already pulsing.
âCome for me,â he murmurs, and itâs not a request. Itâs a command, one laced with reverence and heat and a promise that heâs going with you.
The pleasure rips through youâwhite-hot and blinding. You shatter around him, trembling and crying out, clinging to him like heâs the only real thing left in a world gone molten. He follows with a broken sound, burying himself to the hilt, forehead pressed hard to yours as he spills into you with a groan that sounds like itâs been clawed from his soul.
For a long moment, all you can do is breathe together, chests rising and falling in the same rhythm. Your skin sticks where it touches, but you donât pull away. He doesnât either. Mydei's thumb brushes your cheek, catching a tear you didnât know you shed.
âI meant what I said,â he whispers. âYouâre more than what they made you believe. So much more.â
And somehow, in the quiet between heartbeats and aftershocks, you believe him.
The morning carries a softness that feels borrowedâlike it wasnât meant to belong here, but slipped through anyway. At breakfast, the House begins to stir fully, louder with each passing minute. Girls laughing down the hall. Doors creaking open and shut. Water being drawn. Someone tuning a string instrument with off-key determination.
And Mydei is still here.
You spot him in the tiny galley kitchen, sleeves rolled up, red markings stark against the pale curve of his forearms as he folds dough with a focus that borders on reverence. His half-worn robes are still askew from the night before, hair tousled but face composed. You lean against the doorframe, arms crossed, watching as he flips a pan with entirely too much grace for someone who used to command legions.
âDidnât think youâd stay,â you murmur.
âI said I would,â he says, not looking up. âBesides, Elena refused to take any money as payment for...â
He pauses, face flushing only for a moment. You feel like he's embarrassed by the prospect of paying for what you suppose was a rendered service, but you're past the point of caring about those little nuances. Elena clucks approvingly as she bustles by, balancing a tray of sweet tea. âThis oneâs more helpful than half the men whoâve ever darkened our doorstep,â she says. âYou sure youâre not already married, Mydei?â
He almost smiles. âWouldnât want to subject anyone to that.â
Calliope, who's lounged in a chair with her legs over the armrest, perks up. âI heard a rumor once,â she says, grinning, âthat the Crown Prince of Kremnos has a secret love of cooking and baking. Thought it was ridiculous, butâŚâ She gestures at the evidence: golden pastries cooling by the window.
âIt wasnât a secret,â he says, quietly. âJust not something I could do often. Before.â
The mood shifts for a moment. A faint shadow touches the edge of his voice. But itâs gone as quickly as it came. Shortly after your sisters and Nikolas have helped themselves to Mydei's surprisingly good cooking, you find two clay cups. Inside, you pour the pomegranate juice from the jug Elena leaves on the counter before offering one to Mydei. He takes it and raises a brow when you offer him a pitcher of milk.
âTry it,â you say, smirking. âIt cuts the tartness.â
He mixes the two with a flick of his wrist and takes a cautious sip. Blinks. ââŚBetter than I thought.â
That draws a laugh from you. âFunnily enough, there's actually a story about that.â
He glances over curiously as you cradle your cup in your palms, leaning against the counter. âThe legend says Phagousa offered pomegranate juice to Nikador after he emerged from the battlefield drunk on the blood of his enemies. Said it would calm the fire in himâmake him less likely to kill the wrong people. He took it. Said it tasted like war and sweetness in equal measure.â
Mydei is quiet. He drinks again. âA Lethean offering peace to a Kremnoan,â he says after a pause. âFitting.â
You smile around the rim of your cup. âAnd did it work?â
âFor Nikador?â He shrugs, then looks at you. âMaybe not. But I think itâs working on me.â
You donât say anything, just nudge your foot against his under the table. Youâre still smiling when the kitchen curtain rustlesâand someone stumbles in, awkwardly frozen mid-step. A young man, clearly from Kremnos by the style of his cloak and the glint of bronze on his collar. His gaze darts from Mydei to you, then back again. His face drains a shade paler.
âMyâuhâMaster Mydei. Sir.â He clears his throat, eyes flicking quickly away from your legs, bare beneath a short sleeping tunic. âIâI didnât realize you were⌠here.â
âYou are?â Mydei asks, calm as ever.
âAndreas, sir,â the man says too quickly. âI-I'm a patron here. Not often. JustâŚsometimes.â
You exchange a look with Mydei. He doesnât smirk, but his silence feels like one. The soldier straightens with a snap. âA-Also, General Krateros is looking for you, sir. Told the entire battalion to let you know it was urgent if we ran into you.â
Mydei nods once. âTell him Iâll be there.â
The man retreats in a flurry of embarrassment and half-bowed apologies. You and Mydei are left alone again, the moment suddenly fragile with the knowledge that itâs ending.
He sets his cup down. Then, without ceremony, leans in and kisses you. Not a lingering promiseâjust enough to make you feel like youâre being remembered. When he pulls back, you catch the brief return of that storm behind his eyes.
âIâll see you soon,â the prince says.
You nod, but your gut twists. Youâve seen too many men vanish behind words like that. And this time⌠something in the air tastes different.
Like milk stirred into blood.
They meet in the outer sanctum beneath the Marmoreal Palace, where gold and obsidian twist in solemn pillars, and the air always tastes like old fire. Mydei stands alone, back turned, watching the Dawn Device cast long beams across the chamber floor.
âYouâve been difficult to find,â Krateros says, voice echoing off stone. No preamble. Just that.
Mydei doesnât turn. âYou found me.â
Krateros crosses the room in measured steps. His armor creaks with each movementâclean, precise, like the man himself. âThatâs not an answer.â
âYou vanish for days at a time,â Krateros continues, quieter now. âAnd when you return, you say little. No reports. No council. Youâve always kept things close to your chest, but thisâŚâ He trails off, the restraint in his voice pulling taut.
Still, Mydei says nothing.
Krateros studies him. The faint burn of the Dawn Device catches the edges of Mydeiâs profileâthe worn robes, the exposed red markings pulsing like coals. He looks less like a prince, more like a relic. A weapon waiting to be wielded.
âI know what youâre doing,â Krateros says. âI know where youâve been.â
Now Mydei turns. Thereâs no guilt in his expression, only that cold, unreadable stillness he wears when heâs weighing whether or not to unsheathe something sharp. Krateros doesnât flinch.
âIâm not here to scold you,â he says. âBut you are a Chrysos Heir. The last son of Kremnos. You carry the blood of kings and the fire of a dying god in your chest. You donât get to drift like this.â
A pause. Then:
âDistractions,â he says, âwill cost us more than time. You know this.â
Mydeiâs gaze narrows, unreadable. âAnd what would you call your lectures, Krateros, if not a distraction?â
âI call them necessary,â Krateros replies, jaw tightening. âYou think I donât understand? That I havenât been tempted to take some warmth where I can find it? But we donât have the luxury of choosing comfort over cause. Not with the Coreflame waiting. Not with the Black Tide pressing in on all sides.â
He steps closer now, not as a soldier, but as something olderâfriend, brother-in-arms, the last remnant of a broken home trying to hold whatâs left together.
âYou led us here,â he says. âWe followed you. Through fire. Through exile. Through the death of everything we once knew. Donât let your crown slip now, Mydeimos.â
Thereâs a long, brittle silence. Mydeiâs jaw ticks, something flaring behind his eyesâanger, maybe, or something far more human. And when he speaks, his voice is low and measured.
âI havenât forgotten who I am,â Mydei answers, low and steady.
Krateros watches him. âYet you act otherwise.â
A beat passes, and he feels like the entire world has tilted several degrees off its axis. âI donât begrudge you wanting something thatâs yours,â his general adds, quieter now. âBut you donât get to lose yourself in it. Not when all of Amphoreus is watching.â
For a moment, neither of them speaks. Then Mydei lifts his chin, that same old stubborn steel in his voice. âI know what Iâm doing.â
Krateros stares at him for a long moment, then nods once. âThen donât make the rest of us pay for it if youâre wrong.â
And with that, he turns and walks awayâboots echoing through the temple like the sound of time running out.
When you go to pick up Nikolas with the intent on celebrating his first quarter at The Academy, he tells you something unusual.Â
âMaster Mydei wasnât there today,â the boy says, even before you can ask how his lessons went.
You pause, blinking. âNo drills?â
Nikolas shakes his head, scuffing the ground with his heel. âHe hasnât been there all week. The other instructors are taking over, but itâs not the same. Master Mydei made the exercises feel like... like they mattered.â
He says it lightly, already moving on to recount how one of the boys tripped over his spear and brought the whole line down with him. You smile when he looks up at you, but your thoughts lag behind. You try to brush it off. Itâs not like Mydeiâs vanishedâhe still comes to The House often enough. Still lingers in the quiet hours when the world outside feels far away.
But⌠you realize that it's been a while since he last walked the two of you home. Since you last saw him leaning against the sun-drenched pillars while waiting for Nikolas' day to end.
You tell yourself itâs nothing. Heâs a Chrysos Heir. Of course he has other things to tend toâgreater things, things that were always meant to take him elsewhere. And yet, a small, unwelcome unease begins to settle just behind your ribs. Not loud, not sharp. Just there. Your fingers curl a little tighter around the strap of Nikolasâs satchel as you walk, listening to him talk and laugh beside you.
Something had shifted. You just donât know what yet. And itâs not just at the Academy.
Mydei still visits The Houseâbut not like before. The frequency of it has thinned, like footsteps fading further down a hall. And when he does come, he doesnât stay long. Sometimes, he barely speaks. Sometimes, he stands in your doorway for all of two minutes before offering some small, unreadable look and leaving again. He doesnât touch you anymore. Not like he used to. Not with that quiet hunger that made him feel almost human.
He doesnât reach for you in the way a man reaches when heâs afraid he might fall apart if he doesnât. He used to take comfort in the simple closenessâin being held, in pressing his brow to your shoulder and saying nothing at all. Now he barely lingers long enough to sit.
You try to rationalize it. Maybe heâs tired. Maybe heâs too burdened, too pulled in a dozen different directions to find room for softness. You tell yourself that. Again and again. But the warmth is waning, and with it, something unnamed and precious slips quietly from between your fingers.
That golden silhouette in the Sea of Souls has begun to plague your dreams again, despite having nothing but peaceful sleep weeks before. And day by day, it's slowly beginning to resemble Mydeiâdrifting further and further from the shore.Â
You're still lost in that thought when the sound of soft footsteps pulls you back. Elena approaches you at the foyer, her gaze steady as ever, but softer than most get to see.
âCome,â she says gently, placing a hand at your back. âLet Iris fetch Nikolas today.â
You open your mouth to protest, but she shakes her headâjust once. âYou need a moment,â she adds, lower now. âDonât pretend you donât.â
You donât argue.
You let Elena guide you, her hand steady between your shoulder blades. She doesnât speak again as she leads you through the quieter halls, past the small garden and into the corridor at the back of the Houseâthe part that used to feel off-limits, even if no one ever said so aloud. She opens the door without ceremony. You realize where you are only once you're inside.
Agamemnonâs old quarters.
NoâElenaâs room now. The heavy furnishings are gone, replaced by soft lamplight and shelves lined with small comforts: books, folded blankets, glass jars of dried herbs and sealed ink pots. The walls still wear the same paint, but the presence in the room is wholly different. The old chill that once haunted it is gone. She took it back. Firmly. Like reclaiming stolen ground.
She gestures to a cushioned seat in the corner, and you sink into it, your limbs suddenly heavier than they ought to be. She doesnât sitânot yet. She pours a bit of warm tea into a cup and sets it on the table near your elbow. âYouâve always been good at reading people,â she says, tone gentle but without pity. âBut you never let anyone read you.â
You donât respond right away. The room smells faintly of citrus peel and ink. You stare into the steam curling from the tea. âThereâs nothing to read,â you murmur.
Elena lets out a quiet, unimpressed sound. âThen you wonât mind if I guess anyway.â
You almost smile. Almost. She finally settles across from you, folding her legs beneath her like she has all the time in the world.
âItâs about him,â she says. Not a question.
You close your eyes. âHe still visits.â
âMhm.â
âBut itâs different. He barely stays. Doesnât evenââ You stop yourself. The words catch on something sharp. âHe used to reach for me like he was trying to stay tethered. Now he comes and goes like... like itâs a task.â Elena doesnât answer right away. Her fingers drum once against the arm of her chair.
âItâs always hardest to hold onto something when it stops reaching back,â she says finally.
You nod, just once. You canât bring yourself to say more than that. âI donât think itâs because he doesnât care,â Elena adds. âBut whatever path heâs on now⌠itâs pulling him somewhere you canât follow.â
You stare down at your hands. âI know. But it still feels like losing something.â She leans forward, brushing her thumb briefly over the back of your handâa rare gesture of softness from her.
âThen mourn it,â she says. âAnd if it comes back to you, youâll meet it where you stand. Not where youâve been.â
You donât cry. Not here. Not in this room reclaimed by strength and memory. But you let yourself be still for a while, with Elena beside you, the tea growing cold between you, and the truth settling like dust in the warm silence.
No matter how much you hoped, the distance just widensâslowly, then all at once.
At first, itâs just a missed day. Then two. Then a week, and another. Until eventually, Mydei stops coming to The House altogether. No familiar footfall. No pause outside your curtain. No voice saying your name in that low, quiet way that once felt like it belonged only to you. You try not to let it bother you. You tell yourself heâs busy. That heâs important. That you were foolish to expect anything different.
There, you try to return to old rhythmsâtake patrons again, smile when you need to, pretend your body is yours to give rather than a thing left behind like an empty shell.
You let your sisters dress you up in gold and laughter, let yourself be seen again, touched again, admired again. But nothing fits quite right anymore. None of them are him. None of them have his silence, his gravity, the way he made you feel like you were the one thing in the room that mattered.
You shouldâve known better. Heâs a Chrysos Heir. The future of Okhema. He carries burdens most men would shatter under. You had no business placing your heart in hands already full with destiny. Mydei is not like the othersâyou know that. He didnât use you. He didnât forget you. He just⌠had somewhere else to be. Something bigger than you to answer to. But that doesnât make the ache any smaller.
In a moment of foolish desperation, you even try to reach out to Phainon. You think maybe heâll know something. Maybe heâll tell you what happened. Maybe heâll offer some sliver of truth that makes it easier to bear. But Phainon, too, is gone. Not a whisper of either Chrysos Heir's presence left to trail after. And for the first time in a long while, you start to wonder if you're the one being left behindânot because you were unworthy, but because some things arenât meant to stay.
Just like that, youâve slipped back into your old life.
The one you had before Mydei ever crossed The Houseâs doorway. Silk draped over your shoulders, bracelets tinkling at your wrists, voice low and teasing when it needs to be. You smile the way youâre meant to, laugh when itâs expected. To anyone watching, youâve returned to formâgraceful, poised, untouched by the ache he left behind. But in private, you still let the pain simmer.
You still wake in the middle of the night, clutching your sheets, heart thrumming with the echo of dreams you canât fully name. Always the same: a golden silhouette adrift in the Sea of Souls. Always just out of reach. Always walking away. And still, you go on.
Tonight is no different. One of your regulars has come byâa young man, handsome in that polished, golden-boy way. Elena says he likes you. Really likes you. She catches the way he watches you like youâre more than just a passing indulgence, like he wants something real. Something lasting.
But youâve already gone down that road. You know better now. You light the lamp. Offer him wine. Let your fingers graze his shoulder as you guide him down the hallwayânot to your room, never your roomâbut to one of the Houseâs standard chambers. Comfortable, detached, forgettable. Just how it should be.
Youâre halfway through undoing the knot at your shoulder when the front door slams open. Not gently. Not cautiously. Itâs the kind of sound that slices through everythingâthrough music, through laughter, through the sighs of someone trying to forget. It echoes down the halls, startling a few girls into silence. The hush that follows isnât just surprise. Itâs recognition.
You barely hear Elenaâs voice from beyond the corridor, sharp and uncertain: âThalia.â
You pause. The young man on the couch shifts, half-rising, brows furrowed. You donât give him a word of explanation. Just press your robe back into place, step out into the hall, and follow the tension crawling down your spine. You round the corner. And there he is.
Youâve seen him in lamplight before, cloaked in shadows and quiet rage. But this timeâthis time he looks like something pulled from another realm entirely. His hair has grown longer, burnished gold streaked with fire, one side neatly braided, the other loose and tangled like he hasnât slept for days. His skin is dusted in sweat and ash, and the red markings on his arms burn brighter now, like veins of molten ore running beneath his flesh.
His eyes find you. And gods, theyâre tired. Not in the way of men worn down by time, but of someone who has looked too long into a fire he could not escape.
Thereâs distance in them now. Not coldnessâbut something deeper. Like heâs gone someplace you canât reach, and left the door half-open behind him. He doesnât say your name. Doesnât need to. Because standing there in the House's low flickering light, Mydei looks nothing like the man who used to listen to your stories in the quiet after midnight.
And yet, for one awful, aching second, you wish he did. You donât know what heâs lost. What heâs won. Only that whatever road brought him here, it was not kind. You want nothing more than to throw yourself into his arms. To forget the silence. The ache. The long, hollow stretch of nights he wasnât there.
But time has carved you into someone sharper. Someone careful. And when you finally speak, your voice is cold enough to frost over the doorway. Whatever softness once lived in you for him has learned to hold its breath. Youâve patched yourself up too many times to tear open at the seams now.
So when you speak, it isnât tender. âWhat are you doing here?â Your voice echoes in the narrow hall, too poised for how fast your heart is beating. You donât give him time to answer. You straighten your shoulders, glance behind you at the door you just stepped out of. âIâm busy tonight. With a patron.â
The words taste sour, but you say them anyway. You watch the shift in his face, subtle but unmistakable. His gaze hardens, jaw tightening like heâs biting something back. Thereâs a fire in himâthere always wasâbut now it crackles at the edges, no longer tempered by gentleness. Not rage, not quite. But something close. Still, you hold your ground.
You wonât let him look at you like that. Like he still has the right. Youâve taken yourself apart piece by piece to survive without him, and now he shows upâunannounced, unchanged in all the ways that still hurt. You clench your fingers in your robe, exhale through your nose. âYou donât get to come back and expect everything to be the same,â you say, quieter this time.
He doesnât respond. Just watches you with eyes that have seen too much, and a silence that says he knows it. But youâre not ready. Not yet.
For several days, Mydei attempts to reach out, and for several days, you refuse him.Â
Elena constantly tells him that he's the last person you need to see. But Mydei has Kremnoan blood running through his veinsâstubborn, unyielding, relentless. He doesn't take no for an answer. His presence lingers like a shadow, and it becomes a silent war of wills.
Finally, Iris, sweet, gentle Iris, whoâs always been the heart of this place, is the one to snap.Â
You hear it from the hallâa raised voice, sharp with frustration, followed by silence. The next thing you know, Iris is standing between Mydei and the door, her face flushed with the strain of trying to be firm.
âIf you donât leave now,â she warns, voice trembling with quiet fury, âIâll call the guards.â
Itâs a rare thing to see Iris so resolute. But you know sheâs doing it for you, for the pieces of you that have been broken and scattered too many times. Later, you overhear the girls talking, gathered in hushed voices. You stand just out of sight, pretending to be absorbed in something else, but the words sink into you like a slow poison.
âI never wanted to turn him away,â Iris whispers, the sound of her voice raw with something you canât quite place.
âBut... If he left and vanished without a trace, maybe... maybe that would be better for her. He was the one who made her happy once. I havenât forgotten that. But now...â Her voice cracks. âNow, heâs the reason sheâs in so much pain.â
You feel the weight of her words like a stone in your chest. And for the first time in days, you allow yourself to feel the ache of it allâthe loss, the betrayal, the gaping hole that used to be filled with his presence.
Is this all that's left between the two of you after all?
The next morning, The House is quieter than usual.
Even the laughter from the girls seems dulled, as if they, too, are caught in the fog of yesterdayâs storm. You wake early, before the sun has fully risen, and the weight in your chest hasnât left. If anything, it has settled deeper. The ache is no longer sharp. It's something quieter now. Constant.
You leave without telling anyone. No makeup. No disguise. Just a long shawl draped over your shoulders and sandaled feet slapping against cold stone. You don't know where you're going until you're already there.
The Marmoreal Palace gleams under the light of the Dawn Device, pristine and untouched. Here, the world feels distantâlike something imagined rather than lived. Inside, the air is warm and still, a mix of sea-salt and something floral you canât place. Steam curls in lazy tendrils around the painted columns. You disrobe in silence and slide into the water with only the barest splash, letting it cradle you like a memory you canât shake. The baths are quieter than you expected. Until they arenât.
âYouâre here,â comes a familiar voice.
You flinch, not because youâre afraid, but because you werenât prepared to hear him. Phainon stands at the edge of the pool, looking only mildly surprised to find you already there. His long white hair is damp at the ends, his robe half-slipped from his shoulders. He hasnât changed, not muchâbut your heart clenches anyway.
You narrow your eyes. âYou disappeared too.â He blinks at you, as though he hadnât expected that to be the first thing youâd say. âI did,â he admits, quiet and unapologetic. âI had to.â
âOf course you did,â you murmur, sinking further into the water. âEveryone has to.â
A silence stretches between you. Youâre too tired to keep the edge in your voice, but itâs there nonetheless. The warmth of the bath does little to ease it. Phainon doesn't enter the water right away. He sets his robe aside and sits on the poolâs edge, feet dipping into the blessed waters. âI go here a lot when I need to get something off my mind,â he says instead of answering. âI suppose the same is true for you as well?â
You donât respond. You don't trust your voice not to break. He doesnât look at you when he speaks again. âThe Black Tide started rising faster than any of us expected. We had no choice but to actâquickly.â You shift, water rippling around your shoulders. âSo you just vanished.â
âI told him we should say goodbye to you first,â he says softly, finally looking at you. âHe wanted to. But there was no time. We left at dawn the next day.â You donât realize youâve curled your fingers into fists until your nails bite your palms beneath the surface. âSo where did you go?â
Phainon exhales. âCastrum Kremnos.â
Your gaze snaps to him. He continues, slowly, like the words are stones he must carry across a river. âMydei needed to reclaim something that was lost. Something his people had forgotten. Nikadorâs Coreflame. The power that was once theirs before the Titan fell into madness.â
âHe fought for it. We all did. The Coreflame is back where it belongs now, in the Vortex of Genesis. Waiting for someone worthy to take it up.â You look away. Your voice is thin when it finally comes. âSo thatâs why he left.â
âHeâs not just trying to be a prince anymore,â Phainon says. âHeâs preparing to become something else. A protector. A demigod. The Bastion of Okhema.â You close your eyes, letting the steam soften your expression, though it can't quite dull the ache in your chest.
âAnd you?â you ask. âAre you becoming something too?â
Phainon smiles faintly. âIâve always been someone in the background. That hasnât changed.â
That's not an answer. You want to laugh. Or cry. Or both. Sensing your unease, he leans forward slightly, voice lower now. âI just didnât want you to keep waiting in the dark, thinking he abandoned you. He didnât. Not really.â
You donât respond right away. Youâre still trying to fit all the pieces together. The silence stretches againâonly this time, it doesnât feel so lonely. Outside, the golden light deepens, catching the mist like spun thread. You donât feel lighter, not yet. But at least now you understand what happened.
The mist swirls around you both, catching golden in the morning light. For a long time, you say nothing. Just the sound of water, soft and steady, and the occasional hush of distant footsteps echoing in the marble halls. Then, finally, you speakâyour voice low, but clear.
âI was cruel to him.â
âI didnât see him,â you go on. âNot once. Not when he knocked. Not when he waited in the hall. I made my sisters turn him away. I let Elena speak for me. I didnât even... I didnât even ask why he left.â Your voice catches. âI didnât want to hear it. I was too angry. Too hurt.â
Phainon looks at you, not with pity, but with something gentler. Something like understanding. You draw in a breath, steadying yourself. âHe tried. And IâI let my silence answer him. I thought it would protect me. I thought... if I didnât open the door, it wouldnât hurt as much when he disappeared again.â
âBut it still did,â Phainon says softly.
You nod, just once. âAnd now I donât know if Iâll ever get the chance to say anything to him again.â Phainonâs expression is hard to read. The bathwater reflects golden across his features, giving him a soft, solemn glow. âHe wouldnât fault you for it,â he says at last. âHe doesnât carry anger the way most people do. But he does carry weight. The kind that never really leaves you.â
You let the silence stretch again, letting his words settle in the spaces your regret has carved out. âI thought he was choosing something else over me,â you admit, your voice almost a whisper. âBut it was never about that, was it?â
âNo,â Phainon murmurs. âIt was about all of you. All of us. The people of this city. The ones who still believe in something better.â
You lean back against the stone, letting the warmth seep into your bones. The water may have been blessed by a goddess, but it canât wash away everything. Still, it helps. âI think,â you say after a moment, âI just wanted to feel like I mattered. Like I was worth saying goodbye to.â
âYou were,â he says simply. âYou are.â
You donât thank him for the words. But you donât argue either. Phainon stretches his legs out into the water, letting the silence settle between you again. Thereâs something almost peaceful about it nowâlike the ache has found room to breathe.
Then, casually, as if heâs commenting on the weather, he says, âIf you ever want to get away from the city... thereâs a spot by the eastern slopes. Hardly anyone goes there. You can see all of Okhema from up top. Even the Dawn Device looks small from there.â
You glance at him, narrowing your eyes slightly. âThat sounds oddly specific.â He just shrugs, the corner of his mouth curving. âJust thought youâd like the view.â
Thereâs something veiled beneath the wordsâsomething left unsaid. But Phainon is too practiced at deflection. You donât press him, but the suggestion lingers in your mind like a note in a half-finished song. One you intend to see through until the end.
Later that afternoon, after making Phainon swear he won't disappear without a trace again, you leave the marble gates behind.
The route he mentioned winds through the less-traveled parts of the cityâstone paths lined with ivy, stairways sun-bleached and cracked, quiet courtyards where birdsong carries between empty alcoves. The air feels different here. Less ostentatious. More honest. The slope rises slowly, and the buildings thin out. Eventually, you're left with wildflowers brushing your ankles, old roots breaking through forgotten stones, and a sky that feels far too big.
And then you see it.
Tucked into the edge of a cliff, half-forgotten by time, is a small, crumbling terrace. Vines have crept through broken latticework, and moss clings to the faded stones. There are remnants of garden bedsâempty, but outlined lovingly, like someone had once planned to grow something beautiful here. It wouldâve made a lovely garden. And standing at its edge, back turned, bathed in gold and shadow, is Mydei.
Heâs not in armor. Just loose robes, wind-tossed, the markings on his skin catching the light in flickers of red and copper. Thereâs a weight to his stanceâheavy, as if he might as well replace the Titan who bears the world on his back. But there's also a quiet sort of anticipation lingering there. As if heâs been waiting. You stop. The wind carries the scent of dried leaves. And in that instant, all the breath youâd held over these past weeks escapes you.
He turnsâslowly, carefully, like the world might shift beneath him if he moves too fast. And when his eyes find yours, they soften. He looks like someone whoâs walked through fire just to make it here. Someone who never stopped hoping you would come.
You donât say anything, but your feet carry you forward. Because heâs here. And somehow, so are you.
He watches you approach. Still, unmovingâas if the moment might scatter like birds startled from branches. But you've committed enough mistakes to know when you're supposed to make up for them.Â
âMydei,â you breathe, unsure if you even want to say his name. It tastes like salt and grief on your tongue.
His eyes meet yours, steady. He doesn't address you with Thalia like the rest of the world, but with a name you trust only his voice to say. The sound of it makes warmth simmer beneath your skin, slipping into the cracks that time has broken into your soul.Â
You stop a few steps away. Mydei doesn't come closer. He just stands there, hands at his sides, waiting. You try to hold it in, all of itâthe storm, the ache, the betrayal you swore you'd buried. But it frays at the seams. And once it starts, it doesnât stop.
âI was cruel,â you say. The words come through clenched teeth, tears spilling even as you try to swallow them. âYou tried to see me. I wouldnât even look at you. I didnât let you speak. And nowâŚâ Now youâre the one standing here, hoping heâll listen to what you have to say. âI thought you left me,â you whisper. âNot just me. Everyone. But especially me.â
It sounds selfish, yet he doesn't deny it. He doesnât make excuses. He just lowers his gaze, jaw tightening for a breath before he says, quiet as dusk, âI shouldâve told you.â
You shake your head hard. âI didnât make it easy.â
âThatâs not why.â He looks up again. âThere wasnât time. It all happened fast. The Coreflame⌠Castrum KremnosâŚâ His fingers curl slightly at his sides, like heâs reliving it. âI didnât want to go without saying anything. But I had to.â
Your chest caves, air escaping you like a punctured wineskin. âAnd when you came backâŚâ
âI didnât know where to start,â he says, and his voice carries the sort of quiet that borders on sadness. âYou looked at me like I was a stranger.â
âBecause you were.â
He accepts that. Just nods, slow and quiet. You glance around the terrace, at the garden-that-never-was, and back at him. âThis is where youâve been?â
He gives a small nod. âThereâs a place just down the slope. An old house where itâs quiet enough for me to hear my own thoughts.â He looks out toward the city. âI didnât want to stay in the Marmoreal Palace. Itâs⌠easier to think here.â
You wipe at your face again, suddenly self-conscious about how much youâre crying and how dry his eyes are.
âSo youâve been alone all this time?â
His voice is soft. âNot really.â
You look at him again, confused. Finally, Mydei steps forwardânot all the way, just close enough that you can hear the breath he takes before he says, âYou were always with me. Even when you hated me.â Your mouth trembles from his honesty, and you don't know what to make of it. He challenged a god and won, yet his thoughts still drift to you?
âThat doesnât make this hurt less,â you whisper.
âI know.â
In the silence, he doesnât ask if you want to come with him. Mydei just starts walking down the slope, and when you donât stop him, when your steps fall in beside his, itâs enough. Your footsteps fall quietly along the worn path. Behind you, Okhema glows with its usual lightâsoft and steady, as it always is. The sun never sets here, but the city feels quieter now, like it knows to dim its voice when the world needs rest.
The place he stays in is small. Unremarkable. Worn wood creaks beneath your feet, and the stone floors have seen better days, their surface chipped and cracked in places. The room is sparsely furnished, without any of the pomp you might expect of someone of his lineage.
There are no guards. No banners. Just a kettle by the hearth, a narrow bed with a folded blanket, and a half-finished meal on a plain wooden table. It feels like a room for someone who wants to be forgotten. Or perhaps just needs the space to remember.
He pours you water from a ceramic jug and offers it to you wordlessly. Your eyes catch the bottle of wine sitting beside his bedâan afterthought, a companion for moments too heavy to be filled with words. You take it, uncork it with a quick twist, and drink. The liquid is sharp, its warmth moving down your throat like a slow burn. Mydei doesnât comment.
His gaze lingers on you, and in the quiet of the room, it feels heavier than any words could be. You sit on the edge of his bed, and itâs strange, the intimacy of it. The way it feels small beneath you. The way his presence feels familiar enough that it cuts deep. He stays standing at first, watching you for a beat too long, before slowly sitting beside you.Â
"Phainon told me about the trial," you say, your voice unsteady, more vulnerable than you mean it to be. Your fingers curl around the neck of the bottle, your eyes still not meeting his. "Nikadorâs Coreflame. That youâre going to take it."
He nods, barely a movement. âI am.â
âWhen?â
A long pause hangs between you, thick with things neither of you can say.
âTomorrow.â
Your chest tightens. You close your eyes for a moment, as if trying to gather the pieces of yourself back together. âOf course.â
It should have been easy to accept. Yet you swallow hard, the words tasting like ash in your mouth, and your hands tremble slightly as you take another drink from the bottle. He watches you quietly, and for a long moment, you just sit there, caught between the past and the future, each breath heavy with things you wish you'd said earlier.
"It wasnât supposed to be like this,â Mydei murmurs, his voice heavy with the weight of all the things heâs already lost.
You laugh, but it's bitter, a raw sound that catches in your throat. "It never was, but we're here anyway." The wine burns as it slides down, but it feels like nothing compared to the burn in your chest, the ache thatâs been there since the first time you pushed him away. The silence between you isnât sharp anymore. Itâs softened, worn, tired. And you know itâs not just the long day thatâs tired. Itâs you. Itâs him. Itâs everything in between.
âYou know," you begin, your voice quiet now, more frayed than angry, "we couldâve had more time. All those days you waited outside, and Iââ Your voice cracks on the last words. "I thought pushing you away would make it easier. But it didnât. I just...wasted what little we had left."
His eyes are soft when they meet yours, as always, thereâs no judgment in them. Just understanding. And maybe thatâs worse. Because understanding makes the hurt feel heavier.
âI wouldâve waited as long as it took,â he says, and his voice breaks, just a little. Itâs the quietest thing, like heâs afraid you might shatter if he speaks too loudly.
You meet his gaze, and for a moment, you forget how heavy it all feels. The reality of what you both are about to face. The gravity of your mistakes. You look at him, really look at him. Not the demigod. Not the prince. Just Mydei. The man sitting right next to you, exhausted and hurting, full of things heâs never said, and so much heâll never get to. And then, almost without thinking, you cross the space between you.
The distance doesnât feel right. It never does. So you reach out and kiss him. Not out of desperation. Not even out of need. Just out of acknowledgement. Of everything you were. Of everything you are. And everything youâll never get to be.
The kiss is tender, slow, like youâre both trying to savor it before it slips through your fingers. His hands come to rest on your back like heâs afraid youâll vanish if he lets go. Your fingers tangle in the fabric over his shoulders, and you feel the rough texture of the red markings beneath your touch.
His body is warm, solid against yours, like the only thing holding you together in the midst of the unraveling. But in spite of it all, you climb on top of his lap and his hands meander to your hips like clockwork. Mydei breathes out your name againâyour real nameâand it takes every ounce of self-control to not unceremoniously spear yourself on his hard, leaking cock.
Instead, you hold on to the tenderness in his voice, guiding his length slowly into you as you sink yourself inch by inch. His golden eyes observe in quiet rapture as you envelop him in the heat of your cunt. And for a moment, time stills. It's only you and him in this world. No higher calling. No inescapable destiny.
Just two lovers entangled in each other's embrace.Â
You both linger not because you have toâbut because neither of you can bear to end it. When you kiss him again, his mouth tastes like grief and gratitude, like unspoken apologies and quiet forgiveness. When you finally part, itâs not with a gasp, but a breath.
âI shouldâve told you sooner,â you whisper, your voice shaking against his skin. âThat it wasnât just comfort. It wasnât justâjust survival. I chose you. Even when I pretended I didnât.â Mydei lets out a quiet exhale, one that sounds like itâs been locked in his chest for too long. âI know,â he murmurs. âAnd I chose you too. Every time.â
You swallow hard, and it burns. Like all the things youâll never get to say are rising up at once. âBut you have to go,â you say, and you hate how much it sounds like youâre trying to convince yourself.
The prince nods. Not because he wants to. But because he has to. Thereâs no anger in it, no bitternessâjust that quiet, devastating calm he always wears when the world asks too much of him. And this time, itâs asking for everything.
He brushes his knuckles along your cheek, trailing them down to your jaw, memorizing the shape of you like it might be the last time. Maybe it is. âIâll come back,â he says, softly, reverently. âEven if Iâm not the same. Even if I come back a god, or a shadow of oneâIâll still find a way to be yours.â
You shake your headâwanting to refuse, wanting to insist that he shouldn't choose you over the rest of the world. But your voice fails you when you bring your hips down once more and the tip of him kisses a spot inside you that makes you see stars.
âJust⌠donât forget this,â you manage, struggling with sincerity when your mind is overloaded with pleasure. âDonât forget who you were before.â
His lips press to your browâfirm, steady, lingeringâand the warmth of it spreads like a vow youâll carry in your bones.
âI wonât,â he says, a shadow of regret already flitting to the surface. âBecause youâll be the part I remember most.â
You want to say more. You want to tell him that remembering wonât be enough. That memory is fragile, easily rewritten by divinity or time or duty. But instead, you stay there, wrapped in him, letting the silence fall like a shroud around your tangled limbs. Words feel too small now, and besidesâheâs still human. For just a little longer.
You lie against him in the quiet, his heartbeat steady beneath your ear, his warmth grounding you. The world outside doesnât shiftâthereâs no setting sun, no stars to blink into view. Just the bright, aching stillness of Okhema, stretching on like it always has.
Mydei shifts slightly beneath you, his voice low and gravelly. âWhat do you want most in the world?â
You blink, not expecting the question. The wine dulls the edges of your thoughts, but not enough to soften the truth. You tilt your head up, looking at him. His expression is unreadable, but his eyes search yours like he needs an answerâone that matters.
âIn this moment?â you whisper. He nods once. You swallow. The answer feels foolish, but itâs the only one that comes.
âYou.â
Something flickers across his faceâregret, maybe. Longing. Love, too, but buried beneath it all is something heavier. Something finite.
He shakes his head slowly, gently. âThatâs not something I can give.â
It doesnât feel cruel. Just honest. You exhale, the breath shaky, and let your gaze wander to the walls, the table, the pale jug on the hearth. The silence presses in again, not oppressive but inevitable, and you dig past the ache, the wanting, to something deeper.
So, softer now, more to yourself than to him, you say,
âA fig tree.â
Mydei's golden eyes startle as he tilts his head. âA fig tree?â
âMm,â you nod, eyes still on the ceiling. âA big one. Sweet fruit, low branches. Shade so thick, you could sleep under it all day and no one would find you. And itâd be mine. Just mine. Not in someone elseâs garden. No clients, no watchers, no debts.â You smile, but it barely lifts your lips. âIâd name it something stupid. Figgy, or Kephaleâs Ass.â
That gets a laugh from himâlow and surprised. But when you glance his way, heâs already watching you differently. Like heâs trying to memorize the shape of the wish beneath your joke.
âYouâre serious,â he says.
You shrug. âIâm tired of wanting things that cost too much.â
He doesnât answer. Just reaches for your hand where it rests between the folds of the blanket, his fingers brushing yoursâtentative, warm. You donât pull away. And in the silence that follows, you both know: heâll claim Strife's Coreflame tomorrow, and youâll remain here with thisâthis moment, this ache, this impossible tree blooming behind your ribs.
You close your eyes. And when you finally sleep, itâs not peace that cradles youâitâs the ache of knowing morning always comes. Because when it does, nothing will be the same.
News of a new demigod spreads like wildfire.
Trumpets blare from the upper terraces, their notes caught and carried by the ever-blazing sun. Laurel garlands are tossed from balconies. The Kremnoans, long-suffering and scattered, gather in droves across the plaza steps of the Marmoreal Palace, crying and singing in a tongue most in Okhema donât understand. But you recognize the shape of itâreverence. Relief. Rapture.
Their king has risen.
The rest of the city does what it always does when faced with something greater than itself: it hopes. Whispers pass from market stalls to sun-washed colonnades. Heâll stop the Black Tide. He has to. He has the strength now. Maybe the nightmares will end. Maybe the tide will be driven back into the deep where it came from.
But you donât go aboveground to hear any of it.
For a long time, you donât leave the undercity at all. The lamps still flicker, The House still bustles, Alexandria still braids jasmine into the curtain rods. Everything is exactly the same. Except it isnât.
You donât read the news scrolls. Donât look at the mural of the Dawn Device glowing gold above. You pass the stairs leading up without a glance. And when others mention the name Mydei, you simply excuse yourself, as if youâve grown bored of the story.
But Elena notices. She always has. The way you pause by the seashell curtain longer than you mean to. The way your makeup is lighter these days, your smile more practiced. How you move through the House like youâre carrying something delicate and heavy all at once.
She doesnât say anything, but the tea she leaves by your bedside is your favorite kind. The chores she assigns are quieter, further from the crowd. On days when the sun feels too loud, she dims the lanterns near your corner without a word. Nothing big. Nothing obvious. Just the kind of help that doesnât ask you to admit you need it.
And then, one day, Phainon comes.
He doesnât knockâjust waits outside your curtain, patient as ever. When you finally let him in, he looks older than you remember, like something behind his eyes has sunk deeper into itself. You sit on the floor. He doesnât offer pleasantries, nor does he mention the revels or the rumors.
âMydeiâs gone,â he simply tells you straight away.
You say nothing.
âHe left this morning. Headed east, back to Castrum Kremnos. There are reports of the Tide breaching the mountain passes. Heâs going to defend the border.â
Still, the silence persists.
âHe didnât tell me where exactly. Didnât tell anyone, really. Just said it was time.â
Itâs that last part that does it.
Something in your chestâfragile and waterlogged for daysâsplits down the middle. The breath you pull in is shuddering, tight, and the laugh that escapes you is barely a sound at all. You press the back of your hand to your mouth like you can stop it from coming, but you canât. Phainon stays with you. He doesnât try to stop you from crying, nor comfort you with false words. He just sits there as you fold in on yourself, as your body heaves with the grief of it, the hollow and the heat of it. The kind of grief you only feel when you lose something you were never meant to keep.
He reaches over, quietly, and squeezes your shoulder. In the distance, the bells of the Palace ring again. Not for you. Not for him.
For the god they now call Strife Incarnate.
For the man you loved.
And ultimately lost.
Years pass in the blink of an eye.
Okhema, still burning beneath the tireless light of the Dawn Device, becomes a sanctuary for the displaced. City-states once proud and untouched by ruin collapse beneath the weight of the Black Tide. Their people arrive in drovesâhaunted, half-starved, wide-eyed with griefâand the city takes them in. The sanctity of its alabaster spires strains under the weight, but it does not break.
Mydei and the other Chrysos Heirs push back with fire and fury, golden shields against a growing sea of death. They are everywhere and nowhereâalways spoken of, rarely seen. Even when they stem the tide in one corner of the continent, it seeps through another. Victory comes in fragments. Defeat is slower, quieter.
But still, life goes on.
Nikolas has grown into adulthood. Taller. Sharper. These days, he wears the armor of one of Okhemaâs elite guardsâthe kind that gleams like polished sunstone. These days, he's too busy to live anywhere other than his company's assigned barracks. But he brings gifts sometimesâcandied nuts, new thread, secondhand books for the girls. He doesnât linger long, but when he sees you, his expression softens. He bows his head, always. Not with ceremony, but with something gentler. Something that says: I remember where I came from.
Down to the undercity. To the House.
The House that is much different now. No longer a brothel, but a resting place for the weary. At the start of the exciting change, Penelope asked, why didn't we turn this into an Inn the moment that old bastard died? A sentiment echoed by yourself and your other sisters. Elena answers simply.
"Because I wanted us to start, not from the wealth Agamemnon made off of our suffering, but with the money we all earned on our own terms."Â
Rooms that once held secrets now hold stories. Travelers sleep beneath patched roofs, fed by kind hands that ask nothing in return. You stayed through every change. Through every wave of newcomers. Through every whispered prayer sent up toward the unblinking sky.
You havenât heard from Phainon in years. The last thing you received was a letter, edges sun-bleached and curling. He didnât say muchâbut what he did say stayed with you. That it was no small thing, to keep a soft heart in a world that rewarded hardness. That kindness, in hands like yours, meant more than most people would ever understand.
At the end of the letter, he told you: If you ever need a breath, a moment, a sliver of peaceâgo back to the eastern slope. The place where the light hits just right. Where hearts had once been laid bare.
You hadnât thought of it in a long time. But today, while clearing out a drawer, you find it again. The edges of the paper are curled. The ink faded in places. But the words remain. You read it three times before setting it down. Then you pack a small bag with water, a slice of flatbread, and nothing else.
The walk is longer than you rememberânot because the distance has changed, but because the world has. This part of the city, once overgrown and forgotten, is no longer deserted. Homes have been built into old stone. Children run barefoot down winding paths. Lanterns hang from beams softened by age, and laughter drifts like wind through the open spaces.
You almost turn back, unsure if this place remembers you.
âAre you lost?â a voice calls from the side of the path.
You turn. An older man with silver in his beard and a scar across his brow stands beside a cart of firewood. His sleeves are rolled up, arms weathered from work. Not a soldier anymore, but something about his posture says he once was.
âIâm looking for an old terrace,â you say. âThe one that looks over the eastern rise.â
He studies you. Something flickers in his expressionârecognition, maybe, though you donât recognize him. Still, he nods and sets down the bundle he carries.
âThis way,â the man says, ushering you further.
You follow him in silence. Through quiet lanes. Past gardens planted with practiced care. The city didnât build these homesâpeople did. Survivors. Settlers. Refugees who carved something that's now theirs from the wreckage.
âThe people of Castrum Kremnos live here now,â the man says, almost offhand. âMost of us settled after the last wave several years ago.â He glances back at you. Slows. âRumor has it that this is where Mydeimos spent his last days as a man. Before he crossed the threshold into divinity.â
You say nothing, despite that same exact scene flashing behind your eyes, but the bitter memory is cut short the moment your eyes find the once-abandoned terrace.
The garden plot is still thereâbut itâs not wild anymore. It's thriving. Every inch of soil breathes with care, with memory. Herbs spill over low stone borders, blossoms lean into the sun, and trailing vines curl like quiet laughter around hand-hewn posts. It doesnât shout its beautyâit hums with it, steady and sure.
And at the heart of it all stands a fig tree.
Tall and deeply rooted, its bark dark and knotted with age, its limbs outstretched like open arms. The leaves catch the wind with a soft rustle, and from its branches hang ripe fruitâheavy, sweet, and low enough to reach.
A big one. Sweet fruit, low branches. Shade so thick, you could sleep under it all day and no one would find you.
And itâd be mine. Just mine.
The man slows beside you. âThat treeâs been here a while now. We were told to plant it. Given seeds and a spot. It was the prince's final order before leaving for Castrum Kremnos.â
You look at him. âHe⌠Mydei asked for it?â
He nods. âDidnât say why. Only that it had to grow. That it mattered because it belonged to someone important.â
You step closer to the tree, fingertips brushing the bark. You recount the past several years, where it always felt as if you were wading through a sea of mist. You would even think to yourself that maybe you're becoming one of those wandering souls in your dreams. But this very tree that was planted here on the whims of a man who still thought of you even past his divine countenance.
It mattered...Â
Even after all this time. Even after he became something more than mortal. This fig treeâthis patch of earthâtells you he remembered. That part of him stayed.
You stand beneath its branches, and for a long while, you say nothing at all. The wind rustles the leaves above you. The figs hang heavy in the warm lightâsweet and low.
Here, at last, something is yours.
Something he left behind.
When you return to The House, the sun is still high above Okhema, as it always is. The basket in your armsâgiven by that kind old stranger who you know now as Kraterosâis heavier than you remembered, brimming with ripe figs, their skin warm from the walk.
Nikolas is the first to spot you. He bounds over, looking like he was still fourteen despite being in full uniform, and snatches one from the top before you can say a word. âThese are real?â he says, mouth already full. âWhereâd you get âem?â
Your other sisters drift into the foyer like petals on a breeze, drawn by the smell, the sight, the rare smile tugging at your lips. They ask what the occasion is. You shrug, setting the basket down where everyone can reach.
âNo occasion,â you say softly. âJust⌠felt like it was time.â
You donât tell them about the eastern slopes. Or the fig tree. Or the man who once stood beneath that sky beside you, heavy with a goodbye neither of you could speak. You donât need to. Because for the first time in your life, you are not looking back.
You're no longer the girl from the sea, from an island long lost to time. The one who only lived out of fear and anger at the city who made her the way she was. You like to think it was Mydei's presence who made you realize all the things you're not, but part of you knows he would say something along the lines of, No. This was all you.Â
And it was.Â
You sit among your sisters and the boy you all raised together, the sweet taste of fruit on your tongue, and let the moment hold youânot as someone who was left behind, but as someone who still remains.
And in the warmth and laughter around you, you begin to understand:
Some loves donât end.
They simply grow roots in the quiet parts of you.
...and keep on living.
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So I watched the Odyssey movie with my friends and it was 3 hours but it was so worth it because of how good the movie is. Hear me out, guys.... what if the reader is Penelope while Phainon or Mydei is Odysseus? Or switch the roles because I'd never seen a reader become the heroic in the storyline before.
If anyone actually made that into fanfic, please send me a link below in the comments! I wanna read it! đ
years after your messy breakup that broke up the band, you and mydei are forced back together for a reunion tourâand the public canât get enough of your chemistry. on stage, youâre electric, but backstage itâs all snide comments, heated arguments, and mydei slipping in petty lyric changes just to piss you off. youâre not sure whatâs worse: how much you still hate him or how much you donât. 16.7k words.
â pairing lead guitarist!mydei x lead singer!fem!reader
â tags romance, angst, smut (angry sex, unprotected sex, oral sex, wall sex), exes to lovers, rockstar!au, alcohol consumption, profanity, smoking, mildly toxic relationship, fellow band members castorice/phainon/hyacine, everyone is emotionally constipated, etc. section titles are all from olivia rodrigoâs song, get him back! not beta read.
â a/n slowly reposting all my old fics as i work to regain my love for writing (for myself, and my enjoyment) :) i hope youâll stick around! âĄ
i). wait, is this the song with the drums?
Your first instinct, when Anaxa drops the news about the reunion tour, is to shake your head and vehemently say no.
âAbsolutely not,â you say, holding up a hand like that might somehow physically block the idea from reaching you. Anaxa simply raises an eyebrow and adjusts his glasses.
âItâs not a request,â he replies, flipping through the stack of papers he brought with him. âItâs happening whether youâre on board or not. Your contractâs airtight.âÂ
âThatâs impossible,â you scoff, folding your arms defensively. âI specifically remember agreeing to no future projects involving him.â
âYeah, well, when youâre in a band that makes millions, the label doesnât exactly care about your personal vendettas. Fans have been begging for this for years. You know how much money this is going to make?â
âI canât do this, Anaxa. You know what heâs like. Heâs gonna make this a living hell for me.â
Your managerâs eyes soften just enough to make you look away. âLook, I know itâs not ideal. But itâs just a tour. A few months, and then you never have to see his face again if you donât want to.â
You hesitate, teeth worrying your bottom lip. Anxiety coils inside your stomach like a live wire. Youâd thought youâd buried that part of your lifeâleft it to rot somewhere in the wreckage of what used to be your band and your relationship. Mydeiâs name still leaves a bitter aftertaste whenever it slips out of someoneâs mouth.
But the label wants it. The fans want it.Â
âSo, whatâyou just expect me to pretend we didnât break up in front of the entire world?â you snap, though thereâs less fire behind it this time.
Anaxa shrugs and sets the contract on your coffee table. âPretend, donât pretend. Hell, make it part of the show for all I care. As long as youâre both on that stage together, the crowdâs going to eat it up.â
You hate how practical he sounds. How it almost makes sense. You glance at the contract, at the neat, tidy letters spelling out your own name and Mydeiâs right next to each other, and feel something bitter curl up in your chest.
âIâm gonna kill him,â you mutter.
Anaxa pats your shoulder as he heads for the door. âTry not to do it on stage. Though that might actually sell more tickets.â
You flip him off without looking, and Anaxa just laughs on his way out. The contract sits there on the coffee table, and no matter what you do, you canât seem to look away. Your eyes blur over the words, and all you can think about is him.
Mydei.
Youâve spent months forcing yourself not to say his name out loud, not to think about his legs tangled with yours in bed or the rasp of his voice in your ear when he couldnât keep his hands to himself before a show. You donât let yourself think about the songs you wrote together. You definitely donât think about the way it all fell apart. It was easier when you could pretend that part of your life was overâwhen you didnât have to picture his face or hear his voice in your head, mocking you with every love song you swore youâd never sing again.
With a resigned sigh, you grab the pen Anaxa had placed next to the contract papers and flip to the last page. Your signature comes out a little shaky, but itâs done. You let the pen drop onto the table and lean back against the cushions.
The rehearsal studio feels too small. Itâs ironic, reallyâafter spending years crammed into dingy vans and shitty motel rooms together, youâd think it wouldnât bother you. Youâre the first person there (Anaxa had threatened to personally drag you out of your apartment if you didnât show up on time), and because you donât know what else to do, you set about adjusting your mic stand.
Itâs stupid. You know itâs already set to your height, but it gives your hands something to do. The room is way too quiet, the walls lined with soundproofing and a few faded posters from when your bandâthe Chrysos Heirsâwas at its peak. Thereâs a familiar, musty smellâstale air and old fabricâand it makes your chest ache just a little.
Without really thinking about it, you start humming one of the old songsâone that never made it to an album, just something you and Mydei had messed around with one night in the back of a bus. The melody flows out of you like muscle memory, soft and a little shaky at first, but gaining strength as you let the lyrics slip past your lips.
âKiss me once and call me baby,Lie to me and say Iâm crazyâCanât believe I let you take meââ
The door swings open mid-verse, and you stop singing so fast it almost gives you whiplash.
Mydei steps inside, and for a second, you canât move. Itâs like being punched in the gutâseeing him again after all this time. He looks almost the same, and thatâs what pisses you off the most. The same messy hair, the same worn leather jacket hanging off his shoulders, that same stupid, self-assured expression. The only real difference is the hint of stubble lining his jaw, like he didnât bother shaving before showing up. Typical.
He stops just inside the door, guitar case slung over his shoulder, and his eyes lock onto yours. His expression doesnât give away muchâjust a calm, uninterested look, like he couldnât give a shit about being here. Your stomach twists, anger simmering just under your skin. Youâd spent months convincing yourself that youâd moved on, that he didnât matter anymore, but seeing him here, right in front of you, makes all that effort feel pointless. You hate that he still looks good.Â
He doesnât say anything, just drags his gaze over you like heâs sizing you up. You force yourself not to react, keeping your expression as neutral as possible, even though your hands are shaking where they grip the mic stand. You canât let him know how much this is messing with you. You refuse to give him the satisfaction.
Mydei glances at the mic stand, then back at you, and thereâs a flicker of something in his eyesâannoyance, maybe, or just plain indifference. You donât know which is worse. You half expect him to make some smartass comment about your singing earlier, but he doesnât say a word. Just sets his guitar case down on one of the couches and starts unzipping it, still not acknowledging you.
The way heâs ignoring you grates on your nerves. Youâre tempted to snap at him just to get some kind of reaction. But you know how that game goesâhow heâs always been good at pushing your buttons and making you the one who loses their cool first. Youâre not giving him the satisfaction today.
You busy yourself with the mic stand again, even though thereâs nothing to fix. Itâs something to do with your hands, at least. The air feels thick, and your chest feels tight, and you canât stop your mind from wandering back to late-night songwriting sessions and whispered promises that ended up meaning nothing. You wonder if he thinks about those nights tooâor if heâs just moved on completely while youâre still stuck in the aftermath.
The door swings open again, and Castorice and Hyacine walk in, chatting and laughing about something. They both pause when they see you and Mydei, exchanging a quick look before stepping inside.
âHi,â Castorice greets, adjusting the hem of her faded purple band t-shirt. âEverything okay here?â
You force a smile that probably looks more like a grimace. âYeah. All good.â
Hyacine gives you a small smile, her pigtails swinging, and starts setting up her bass. Castorice nudges Mydei with her elbow as she passes by, but he just shrugs her off and keeps tuning his guitar. She rolls her eyes and grabs her drumsticks.
You canât help but glare at him, half-hoping heâll look up so you can throw something snarky his way. Maybe if heâd just stop pretending like youâre invisible, you wouldnât feel like your chest is caving in. Youâre caught between wanting to scream at him and wanting to leave before your hands start shaking too hard to hide.
Phainon slips in a few minutes later, his snowy hair wind-ruffled and his jeans ripped at the knees. âAlready at each otherâs throats, huh?â he mutters, mostly to himself, but you hear it.
âNah,â you bite out. âNo oneâs dead yet.â
Phainon chuckles and unslings his guitar case. Itâs forced, yes, and you know heâs just trying to lighten the mood. It doesnât help much. Mydei doesnât even acknowledge the comment; he just keeps strumming a few notes like heâs deliberately tuning you out. You look away.
[CUT TO BLACK SCREEN]
Text appears on screen: âChrysos Heirs: The Reunion Tour â Behind the Music. Episode One.â
[INT. STUDIO â DOCUMENTARY INTERVIEW SETUP]
Soft lighting. Castorice sits on a stool, tapping her drumsticks against her knee absentmindedly. She grins when she notices the camera.
CASTORICE: The first practice? Oh, man. That was a nightmare. I mean, I knew it was gonna be awkward, butâwow. I half expected the room to just spontaneously combust. (Laughs) They didnât even look at each other for the first half hour. I thought Iâd have to throw a cymbal at someone just to break the ice.
[CUT TO: HYACINE, sitting cross-legged on the floor, her bass leaning against her shoulder.]
HYACINE: Honestly, I wasnât sure if theyâd even show up. _____ got there first, and Mydei came just before me and Cas showed up. When we walked in⌠(Sighs) It was like stepping into a freezer. I kept looking at Castorice like, Are we really doing this?
[CUT TO: PHAINON, leaning against the wall with his guitar propped up next to him.]
PHAINON: You could cut the tension with a knife. I was just waiting for one of them to snap, honestly. ____ was messing with the mic stand like it owed her money, and Mydeiâ(snorts) he just acted like he didnât give a shit. Everyone knows he does, though. I could see his hands shaking a little while he was tuning his guitar.
[CUT TO: MYDEI, slouched on the couch, arms crossed.]
MYDEI: First practice? Whatever. I showed up, didnât I? (Shrugs) _____ was already there, singing something I wrote. I didnât say anything. Didnât feel like arguing. Didnât feel like⌠dealing with that. (Pauses) We got through it. Thatâs what matters.
[CUT TO: YOU, sitting on a folding chair, arms crossed, eyes fixed somewhere off camera.]
YOU: I didnât think heâd actually come. And when he did⌠(shakes head) I was just angry. At him, at myself. At the fact that he didnât even look at me. We used to be⌠I donât know. Better than that. He didnât say anything to me, and I wasnât gonna be the one to break first. We both have too much pride.
[CUT TO: CASTORICE AGAIN, twirling a drumstick between her fingers.]
CASTORICE: Eventually, I just started playing something random to break the silence. That usually worked back thenâget the rhythm going, and the rest will follow. I guess some things never change, because once I started up, Phainon joined in, and Hyacine just kinda jumped in too. ____ and Mydei just stared at each other like it was some kind of weird staring contest.
[CUT TO: HYACINE AGAIN, laughing softly.]
HYACINE: I thought one of them was gonna strangle the other before we even got to the chorus. But after a few minutes of us just messing around with the intro, _____ gave in and started singing. Mydei followedâstubborn assholeâbut it actually sounded good. Like, almost better than I remembered.
[CUT TO: PHAINON AGAIN, smiling with his eyes crinkled at the corners.]
PHAINON: It was a mess. A beautiful mess. Thatâs just how it is with us. Always on the edge of imploding but somehow making it work. They didnât say a word to each other the whole practice, but the music spoke for them. Itâs weird how that works, huh?
[CUT TO: MYDEI, still looking annoyed, but his jaw clenches a little.]
MYDEI: We got through the set. It wasnât⌠terrible. (Pauses) She still sings like sheâs got something to prove. Never really lost that passion. I guess thatâs one thing that hasnât changed.
[CUT TO: YOU, looking almost hesitant.]YOU: The music was the only thing that didnât feel different. Thatâs the worst part. We still fit together on stage. I donât know how to feel about that.
ii). he had an ego and a temper and a wandering eye.
The venue is packed, lights flashing in time with the beats of the opening song. Castorice is good. That hasnât changed, not even a little. The heat of the stage lights is already making sweat prickle at the back of your neck, but you force yourself to ignore it, keeping your eyes fixed on the dark mass of people in front of you. You can barely make out individual faces past the glare, but it doesnât matterâtheyâre all screaming, hands in the air, chanting your bandâs name like a war cry.
To your left, Hyacineâs fingers fly over the bass strings, head bobbing in time with the rhythm. Her eyes are focused and sharp, lips curved into a smile. Next to her, Phainon strums his guitar, sweat dripping down his temples. Heâs got that manic grin on his face, the one that always surfaces when heâs deep in the music.
Youâre trying to focusâkeep your voice steady, keep your hands from shakingâbut itâs hard when you know heâs right behind you, adjusting his guitar strap and dragging his pick over the strings just loud enough to be a distraction. You swear heâs doing it on purpose, plucking random notes like heâs got nothing better to do, just to see if he can make you crack.
You refuse to look back at him. Instead, you take a slow breath and lean into the mic, eyes half-lidded and voice low as you speak to the crowd.
âHey, everyone,â you drawl, and the noise swells, cheers and screams merging into a single deafening roar. You give them a crooked smile. âFeels good to be back. Did you guys miss us?â
The crowd roars. You can feel itâthe way theyâve been waiting for this, for you. You ignore the way it makes your throat close up a little, focusing instead on the setlist displayed on the prompter. The opening song is one of your older hits, the kind of thing that used to play on the radio at least once a day back when it was first released. Youâve sung it a thousand times before, but tonight, it feels different. Heâs right there, and you hate how you can feel his presence without even looking.
The drums kick in, pounding through your ribs, and you throw yourself into the first verse.
âBite your tongue âtil it bleeds,
Hide the bruises on your knees,
Say you never caredâ
I know youâre lying through your teeth.â
Your voice is steady, loud enough to carry over the instruments as the crowd sings with you. You almost lose yourself in it. The light pulses red and white, casting shadows across the stage, and you grip the mic stand tighter, putting every ounce of frustration into your performance.
Out of the corner of your eye, you see Mydei move closer to his mic, his guitar slung low and his fingers dancing over the strings. You force yourself not to look at him, focusing on the rhythm instead, on keeping your breathing even as the verse transitions into the chorus.
âBittersweet vendetta,
Carved your name into my skin,
Kiss me like a secret.
Make me wish Iâd never let you in.â
You push your voice harder, practically shouting the last line, and the crowdâs response is instantaneousâvoices rising to meet yours, some of them screaming loud enough to rival the speakers. You finally risk a glance to your right, just in time to see Mydeiâs lips curve into a smirk, his head tilted like heâs daring you to acknowledge him.
He leans into the mic, and his voice slices through the air.
âShe lies like she means it,
Fake love on her lipsââ
You clench your jaw so hard it aches, but you donât miss your next cue, even though your mind is reeling. Thatâs not the original line. Heâs never changed it beforeânot in all the years you performed this song together. You shove down the surge of anger, forcing yourself to keep going as if nothing happened.
The audience reacts immediatelyâsome laughing, some whooping. You know they heard it. You know he did it just to get a rise out of you. You hate that itâs working, that your pulse is thrumming in your ears and your hands are shaking even as you keep your expression blank.
You donât look at him. Instead, you pour every ounce of your irritation into the next verse, voice dropping low and venomous.
âCut me down with your clever words,
Always knew how to make it hurt,
Fake your way to heaven,
But Iâd follow you through hell first.â
You swear you hear Mydei laugh under his breath, but he keeps playing like nothingâs wrong, his fingers moving over the strings like second nature. Your stomach twists, and you canât tell if itâs fury or something uglierâsomething that feels like regret buried under years of resentment.
The bridge comes crashing in, and you give it everything youâve got. Your voice is raw and unrestrained.
âSwore Iâd never write about you,
Guess I lied again somehow,
Made my bed on broken promises,
Tell meâare you happy now?â
The crowdâs roar almost drowns you out, but you donât let up, spitting out the words like theyâre poison on your tongue. Youâre breathless by the time the final chorus hits, and the last line comes out almost like a snarl.
When the song ends, the audience erupts, and you finally allow yourself a moment to breathe, wiping sweat from your forehead with your palm. Your ears are ringing, but you catch a glimpse of Mydei as he steps back from his mic, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. He doesnât look at you. Nor does he seem to particularly care that he just tore through one of your most iconic songs with a cheap, unnecessary jab.
You force a smile and wave to the crowd.
The moment the stage lights cut out and the cheers of the crowd fade behind the heavy backstage door, youâre off. You donât bother thanking the crew or even stopping to catch your breathâyou just march straight to the green room, hands still trembling from the adrenaline and the anger. Your heartâs pounding so loud in your ears that you barely hear the door swing open behind you.
You whirl around just as Mydei walks in, still wiping sweat off his face with the hem of his shirt. The sight of himâsmirking like he didnât just pull that shit on stageâmakes your stomach twist with rage.
âWhat the fuck was that?â Your voice comes out harsher than you intended, but you donât care.
Mydei just raises an eyebrow, like heâs confused about why youâre yelling. âWhat was what?â
âDonât play fucking dumb,â you snap. âYou changed the fucking lyrics. You know exactly what Iâm talking about.â
He just shrugs and tosses his towel onto one of the chairs. âOh, that. Yeah, I thought it sounded better. More honest.â
You take a step closer, jabbing a finger at him. âYou donât get to do that. You donât get to just rewrite shit on stage without telling anyone. We practiced that song a hundred times, Mydei. What the hell is wrong with you?â
âYouâre really gonna get this worked up over one line?â He scoffs, running a hand through his sweat-damp hair. âCome on, itâs not that deep.â
âNot that deep?â You laugh, but itâs humourless and cold. âYou made it sound like Iâm some kind of manipulative bitch in front of thousands of people! How the hell am I supposed to not get worked up about that?â
âMaybe if it wasnât true, it wouldnât bother you so much,â he says, leaning back against the wall.
Your jaw drops. âExcuse me?â
Mydei shrugs again, his voice low and taunting. âYou always were good at faking itâfeelings, sincerity, the whole tragic frontwoman act. Sorry if I just cut through the bullshit.â
Something snaps inside you, and before you even realise it, you shove him backwards with both hands. Mydei doesnât stumble, but his smirk falls for just a secondâjust enough to make you feel a flicker of satisfaction.
âFuck you,â you spit out. âYou donât know a single thing about me.â
His face hardens, and he pushes off the wall to get right back into your space. âDonât I? I know you lie like itâs second nature. You get off on being the victim, pretending like youâre the one who got hurt. But we both know youâre just as guilty as I am.â
âYouâre a fucking asshole.â Youâre breathing hard now, fists clenched at your sides to keep from swinging at him. âYouâre the one who decided to leave the band first. Iâm not the one who bailed.â
âYeah, because sticking around and watching you sabotage everything we built together sounded like a blast. Youâre impossible to deal with. Always have been.â
âYou think Iâm impossible? Youâre the one who picks a fight every chance you get. Itâs like you canât stand if Iâm not miserable,â you shoot back. âNewsflash, Mydeiânot everythingâs about you and your bruised ego.â
âSays the girl who canât stand it when someone calls her out,â he says, lips curling into a mocking grin. âMaybe I hit a nerve because you know Iâm right. Youâre so used to being adored that the second someone questions you, you lose your shit.â
You shove him again, harder this time, and he doesnât moveâjust stays rooted to the spot, glaring down at you. âGod, I hate you,â you seethe, voice cracking despite yourself.
âFunny. Didnât sound like hate the last time you were screaming my name.â
You freeze, heat rushing to your face, and the anger bubbles into something darkerâsomething desperate and bitter. âYou think youâre so fucking clever, donât you? Always gotta have the last word, always gotta prove something. Youâre pathetic.â
âYouâre one to talk,â he grits out. âStill hung up on shit that happened years ago. Iâm pathetic? Youâre the one still singing about heartbreak like itâs gonna make people feel sorry for you.â
You want to hit him. You want to scream at him until your voice breaks. Instead, you shove him again, and this time he catches your wrists, yanking you forward until your chest brushes his. His face is inches from yours, breath hot against your cheek.
âAdmit it,â Mydei murmurs, low. âYouâre pissed because I called you out, and now you canât hide behind your lyrics like a coward.â
You wrench your hands free, but you donât move back. Youâre too close, breathing hard. âYouâre such a fucking asshole,â you whisper, voice tight.
His eyes bore into yours. âAnd youâre a goddamn liar.â
Before either of you can say anything else, Hyacine pushes the door open with a scowl. She takes one look at the two of you and shakes her head. âSeriously? Already? I knew this tour would be a shitshow, but I didnât think youâd try to kill each other on night one.â
You finally rip yourself away from him, swiping at your face like youâre trying to scrub the confrontation off your skin. Mydei doesnât look at you. He just picks up his towel and wipes his hands.
Castorice slips in behind Hyacine, still buzzing from the performance. âGod, you two are like feral cats. Canât we just chill for five seconds?â
âWeâve got interviews in ten minutes,â Phainon pipes up from behind her. âYou guys need to get your shit together.â
Hyacine levels both of you with a glare. âI donât care what personal shit youâve got going on, but donât pull that crap on stage again. Mydei, you donât change the lyrics without telling us. _____, stop feeding into his bullshit. Youâre both being idiots.â
Neither of you says anything, but youâre still seething, trying to force down the bitter ache in your chest. Mydei rolls his shoulders and turns away, his shaggy hair falling down the nape of his neck. When you finally turn and leave the room, you can still feel his eyes on your back, and it makes your skin crawl. You tell yourself youâre just glad to be away from him, but the knot in your stomach says otherwise.
[CUT TO BLACK SCREEN]
Text appears on screen: âOpening Night â Sold Out.â
[INT. STUDIO â DOCUMENTARY INTERVIEW SETUP]
[CUT TO: CASTORICE, her expression thoughtful.]
CASTORICE: Okay, look, Iâm not gonna go around pinning the blame on anyone. That doesnât do anyone any good. (Shifts slightly) I just think that weâre all adults here, and what Mydei and _____ were doing didnât do us any favours.
[CUT TO: HYACINE, scowling at the camera.]
HYACINE: Theyâre pretty f***ing immature, if you ask me. Sometimes I think Mydei and _____ forget that theyâre not the only people in the band. They founded it, sure, but what about me, Cas, and Phainon? This isnât just some petty high school-level battle of the bands shit. This is our f***ing careers weâre talking about.
[CUT TO: PHAINON, leaning back with a cigarette rolling between his fingers.]
PHAINON: Yeah, itâs real inspiring when your frontmen are trying to rip each otherâs heads off backstage. Real rock and roll. (Scoffs) Look, theyâre both stubborn as hell, and itâs not like we didnât see it coming. You put two people with that much history on the same stage, and itâs like throwing a match into gasoline.
[CUT TO: MYDEI, arms spread out on the back of the couch.]
MYDEI: Itâs not my fault she canât handle the truth. Weâre supposed to be putting on a show, arenât we? Guess whatâdramaâs a part of it. If she wants to get pissed because I added a little honesty to the setlist, thatâs on her. (Shrugs) Iâm not gonna apologise for making it real.
[CUT TO: YOU, visibly tense, gripping the edge of your seat.]
YOU: He didnât change the lyrics because it was real. He did it to hurt me. Thereâs a difference. Itâs not about the fans, or the show, or whatever bullshit excuse heâs telling himself. Itâs about control. He just couldnât stand the fact that I was getting through it without him, that I was⌠fine. (Pauses) Or at least trying to be.
[CUT TO: CASTORICE AGAIN, rubbing the back of her neck.]
CASTORICE: (Sighs) Youâd think that after all these years, theyâd have learned how to work together without turning it into a battlefield. Weâre not in high school anymore. Weâre on tour. If one of them messes up, itâs not just their mess to clean upâitâs all of ours.
[CUT TO: HYACINE AGAIN, looking more annoyed than before.]
HYACINE: Itâs exhausting. Weâre just trying to make music, not mediate whatever unresolved shit theyâve got going on. Half the time, I feel like Iâm babysitting. They either need to figure it out or shut the hell up and be professional for once.
[CUT TO: PHAINON AGAIN, giving a resigned laugh.]
PHAINON: Honestly, if theyâd just screw and get it over with, we might finally get some peace around here.
[CUT TO: MYDEI, AGAIN]
MYDEI: Phainon said that? Not a chance. Iâd rather set my guitar on fire.
[CUT TO: YOU AGAIN, rolling your eyes.]
YOU: Yeah, well, might be the most impressive thing Mydeiâs done in a while.
iii). do i love him? do i hate him? i guess itâs up and down.
[CUT TO BLACK SCREEN]
Text appears on screen: âThe Foundersâ Cut.â
[INT. STUDIO â DOCUMENTARY INTERVIEW SETUP]
[CUT TO: YOU, sitting upright with your arms crossed.]
INTERVIEWER (off-camera): Can you tell us about the bandâs early days? How did the Chrysos Heirs come together?
YOU: God, that feels like forever ago. (Pauses) It was just me and Mydei at first. We were⌠just kids, really. Weâd meet up after school in my dadâs garageâhim on guitar, me scribbling down lyrics on whatever scraps of paper we could find. It wasnât anything serious back then. We just wanted to make noise and piss off the neighbours.
INTERVIEWER: Did you always know it was going to be a band?
YOU: (Shakes head) Not at all. We didnât plan for it to be anything more than a way to kill time. Weâd play until our fingers ached or Dad came out yelling at us to cut it out. (Smiles a little) It was messy and loud andâfun. We didnât think much past that.
INTERVIEWER: When did it start to feel like more than just noise?
YOU: When Castorice came into the picture. She was incredible. She had this way of making everything tighter, more precise. Like she just knew what needed to happen to make the sound click. Mydei knew her from some music workshop thingâsaid she was the only drummer heâd met who wasnât full of shit. (Laughs softly) One day, she just showed up with this beat-up drum set and told us our timing was crap. And she was right.
INTERVIEWER: What was your reaction to her criticism?
YOU: Oh, I was pissed. I didnât want some stranger telling us we were doing it wrong. But she wasnât mean about itâjust honest, I suppose. And once she started playing, we couldnât really argue with her. She made us sound like an actual band.
INTERVIEWER: And Hyacine and Phainon? How did they join?
YOU: They came later. Weâd been playing these tiny, shitty bar showsâbarely getting paid, just trying to scrape together enough for gas and food. It was clear we needed a bassist. Castorice was the one who pushed for it. She said we sounded hollow without that low end. She knew Hyacine from some other band that had just implodedâsome drama I never got the full story on. Hyacine came in and just took over. She was relentless, always pushing for perfection. It drove me and Mydei crazy at first, but she made us sound good. Really good.
INTERVIEWER: And Phainon?
YOU: (Smiles fondly) Phainon was a surprise. Mydei found him at some underground gigâhe was up there shredding like it was the easiest thing in the world. Mydei practically dragged him to rehearsal the next day, and Phainon barely said a word. He just picked up his guitar and played like heâd been with us the whole time. We didnât even have to teach him the songsâhe just⌠knew. It was weird, but it worked.
INTERVIEWER: What was it like performing together back then?
YOU: Incredible. We werenât perfect by any meansâweâd f**k up chord changes and stumble over lyrics, but people didnât care. There was this energy that made up for it. The crowd felt it too. Weâd get off stage, drenched in sweat, hearts pounding, and just laugh about how much we almost screwed up. Those shows were something else.
INTERVIEWER: And what about you and Mydei? You two were already together by then?
YOU: (Pauses, glancing away) Yeah. It just happened. It wasnât really something we talked aboutâit just made sense at the time. We were always around each other anyway.
INTERVIEWER: What changed?
YOU: (Exhales slowly) Success changed things. Suddenly we were everywhereâtouring, interviews, non-stop shows. We didnât have time to breathe, let alone talk about anything that mattered. It was just⌠go, go, go. And when things got tough, we didnât know how to handle it. We didnât talk. We just fought. About stupid shitâlyrics, setlists, tempos. It wasnât about the band anymore. It was about us, trying to hurt each other without admitting thatâs what we were doing.
[CUT TO: MYDEI, leaning back in his chair with one arm thrown across the back of it.]
INTERVIEWER (off-camera): Can you talk about why you left the band?
MYDEI: (Exhales, looks away for a moment) It wasnât⌠one thing, you know? People always want it to be simple, like thereâs one big reason I just up and left. But it wasnât. There was justâtoo much shit piling up. Tension between all of us, pressure from the label, and I wasnât in the right headspace to deal with it.
INTERVIEWER: Do you regret it?
MYDEI: Sometimes. Maybe. I didnât really think about what it would do to the others at the time. I needed to figure out who I was without the band. It was selfish, I know, but I couldnât keep pretending I was okay with how things were going.
INTERVIEWER: Were you unhappy with the band itself, or just the dynamics between the members?
MYDEI: Both, I guess. The band was everything to me at one point. It was the one thing I thought I could count on. But then it just got⌠complicated. We went from just being a bunch of idiots messing around to something huge, and I wasnât ready for that kind of pressure. The music stopped feeling like oursâlike mine. It was just what everyone else wanted from us.
INTERVIEWER: How did the others react when you told them you were leaving?
MYDEI: (Chuckles bitterly) Not well. Castorice tried to talk me out of itâsaid I was being impulsive and throwing away something weâd built from the ground up. Hyacine was pissed. She didnât say much, but I could tell she was angry. Phainon didnât say anything at all. Just kind of⌠stared at me like Iâd betrayed him or something.
INTERVIEWER: And _____?
MYDEI: (Stiffens) She didnât take it well. She said I was running awayâlike I always did. We fought about it for hours. Nothing we said made sense by the end of it. Just yelling for the sake of yelling. I think we both knew it wasnât just about the band at that point.
INTERVIEWER: After you left, the Chrysos Heirs seemed to almost dissolve overnight. Can you talk about that?
MYDEI: (Breathes out slowly) Yeah, I heard about it a few months later. It wasnât something I expected. I thought theyâd keep going without me, honestly. I didnât think I was that important. (Pauses) Turns out, though, that me leaving kind of pulled the rug out from under everything.Â
INTERVIEWER: Did the others ever talk to you about it?
MYDEI: Castorice called me once. She didnât say much, just that theyâd decided to take a break, and that without me there, it wasnât working. She didnât blame me, exactly, but I could hear it in her voice. Like she was trying not to say that Iâd screwed everything up. (Shakes his head) Phainon never reached out. I donât know if he was angry or justâdisappointed. Hyacine texted me some stuff, mostly updates, but nothing about how they felt about it.
INTERVIEWER: What about _____?
MYDEI: (Tenses visibly) We never spoke to each other after I left.
INTERVIEWER: Do you think that the band dissolving hurt her the most?
MYDEI: Yeah. I know it did. The band was everything to herâmore than it was to any of us, I think. She was always the one pushing us to go further, to make better music, to keep going even when it was hard. So when it all fell apart⌠I know she took it personally. Like she failed or something. Especially when I saw her trying to do solo stuff after that.Â
INTERVIEWER: Did you listen to her solo work?
MYDEI: (Nods) Every track. It was goodâdifferent, but good.
The studio lights beat down on you like a relentless sun, and you resist the urge to wipe at the thin sheen of sweat forming at your hairline. You force yourself to smile through it, shoulders squared and posture just right, even as your muscles ache from holding the same position for too long. Castorice mutters under her breath about how awkward it feels to act casual when thereâs a giant lens pointed right at your face; you canât help but agree. Itâs been ages since the last group photoshoot, and the discomfort is hard to ignore.
Mydei stands at the far end, stiff and distant, hands stuffed into the pockets of his leather jacket. Heâs staring at some fixed point behind the photographerâs head, looking like heâs seconds away from bolting. It drives you insane how obvious heâs being about not wanting to be here. You catch his eye once, and the look he gives you is so blank, itâs almost insulting.
Castorice throws an arm across Phainonâs shoulders, and the two lean into each other. Hyacine sits cross-legged in front of you, holding up two peace signs and grinning widely.
âAll right, good! Thatâs enough for the group shots,â Aglaea, the director of photography, calls out, clapping her hands together. âEveryone but Mydei and _____, take five. I want a few duo shots.â
You stiffen. Castorice glances between the two of you with something close to worry, but when you shoot her a tight smile, she just shrugs and heads off with Hyacine and Phainon in tow.
Mydei hasnât moved an inch, his hands still stuffed into his pockets, jaw tight. You take a slow breath and will yourself not to let him get under your skin. Not again.
Aglaea gestures you both forward, clearly sensing the awkwardness but too professional to comment on it. âAll right, you two. Letâs lean into the chemistry a bit. I want intimate and rawâlike the worldâs finally looking at you both behind the professional masks.â
Your lips press into a thin line. Mydei doesnât react at all.
âFace each other,â Aglaea instructs, waving a hand to adjust the lighting. It catches on the bright gold of her blouse, and you blink a little. âMydei, hands on her waist. _____, put your hands on his shoulders. Closer. I need to feel the tension. Like youâre caught between fighting and kissing.â
You almost laugh at the irony. Thatâs practically all youâve done since he showed up againâhovering somewhere between wanting to scream at him and wanting to grab his face and never let go. The thought burns. You squash it as you step forward.
Mydeiâs hands settle on your waist, and itâs as if electricity crackles through you, setting every nerve alight. His touch is hesitant, like heâs not sure he has the right to be this close anymore. Your hands come up to his shoulders, fingers brushing over familiar leather and muscle, and you force yourself to look up at him.
His eyes catch yours. Neither of you moves. He looks at you like heâs seeing something he thought heâd lost, and it makes your heart twist painfully.
âCloser,â Aglaea calls out, voice clipped. âMydei, lean in like youâre about to say something youâve been holding back for years. _____, tilt your chin upâgive him that look, like youâre angry but imploring.â
You do as she says, your breath hitching when his forehead dips to rest against yours. Your fingers tighten against his shoulders, and his hands shift on your waist, thumbs brushing over the fabric of your shirt like heâs trying to memorise the feel of it. Those strands of hair that he always braids because he claimed it made him look âedgyâ brushes against the curve of your cheek. You can feel his breath fan across your face, warm and familiar, and it hurts how natural it feels.
When you look to the side, Aglaea is frowning. âCloser,â she says again. âI need to see that longing.â
You donât bother hiding your scoff, muttering under your breath, âMaybe itâd be easier if he didnât look like heâd rather be doing literally anything else.â
His eyes snap to yours, defensive. âSorry Iâm not putting on enough of a show for you,â he mutters back, just loud enough for you to hear.
âMaybe if you actually gave a damn, it wouldnât feel like pulling teeth,â you hiss.
He narrows his eyes, tightening his grip just a fraction, enough to make your pulse jump. âThere you fucking go again. Acting like youâre the only one who cares about this.â
You force yourself to keep the smile plastered on your face for the camera, teeth clenched. âOh, forgive me for thinking you donât give a shit. Itâs not like you havenât disappeared for months without a word.â
âYou think I wanted to leave?â
âYou didnât exactly try to stay,â you snap, fingers digging into his shoulders. âYou left me to deal with the fallout while you got to play the tortured artist somewhere else. And now youâre back, and youâre acting like none of it mattered.â
âYou didnât want me to stay,â he says, barely more than a whisper. âYou didnât even ask.â
The accusation slices through you, and your grip on his shoulders loosens. âHow was I supposed to ask when you made up your mind without me?â you fire back. âYou made it clear that I wasnât worth staying for.â
His expression hardens, like heâs trying to cover the hurt bleeding through his anger. âThatâs not fair. You never once asked how I felt about it. You just decided I didnât care.â
You want to scream at him for being so obliviousâfor acting like you didnât spend weeks waiting for a call that never came. Instead, you force your lips into a tight, brittle smile. âGuess you made it pretty damn convincing when you left even though I asked you to stay.â
Something in his eyes cracks, just for a moment, but then Aglaeaâs voice cuts through.
âYes! Thatâs it!â she crows. âKeep it up. Mydei, cup her face.â
He doesnât move at first, just stares down at you, his breath coming out in uneven bursts. Then his hand lifts, cupping your jaw, his thumb brushing over your cheek like itâs muscle memory. The way he looks at you, then, makes your throat close up.
You want to push him away, but your hands stay where they are, like theyâre glued to him. Aglaea calls out more instructions, but her voice is distantâjust noise behind the thunder in your chest.
When she finally calls for a wrap, you step back, your hands falling limply to your sides. Mydeiâs arms drop away from you, his face shuttered and closed off again. You donât look at him as you turn on your heel and walk off to the break room, every muscle in your body screaming with the urge to just get away from him before you say something even worse.
[CUT TO BLACK SCREEN]
Text appears on screen: âThe Membersâ Cut.â
The screen fades out into grainy footage from an old concert: Mydei and _____ on stage, harmonising, Mydei strumming his guitar while _____ sways with the mic. The audience sways as one, flashlights held up as they move in time with the song. The video fades out.
[INT. STUDIO â DOCUMENTARY INTERVIEW SETUP]
[CUT TO: PHAINON, sitting cross-legged on a couch, an easy smile on his face.]
PHAINON: Back then? Man, they were something else. Youâd think they were fused at the hip with how much time they spent together. Writing songs at three in the morning, huddled over some crumpled notebook, arguing about chord progressions one second and laughing the next. I donât think Iâve ever seen two people make something so good while simultaneously wanting to strangle each other. It was weirdly sweet.
[CUT TO: CASTORICE, sitting in a green room with her legs swung over the arm of a chair.]
CASTORICE: _____ used to steal Mydeiâs hoodies every time we hit a new city. Didnât matter how hot it wasâsheâd be drowning in that thing, sleeves halfway covering her hands. Mydeiâd just roll his eyes and mumble something about it smelling weird when he got it back, but he never complained. Theyâd go on these stupid little coffee dates whenever we had downtimeâjust the two of them, sneaking off like no one would notice. We noticed. Everyone noticed.
[CUT TO: HYACINE, sitting on the floor of the green room.]
HYACINE: Honestly? Their songs were the best ones we ever wrote. Together, they just⌠clicked. It was effortless. I think the first time I heard âAfter Midnightâ, I kinda wanted to throw up from how sweet it was. But you could tellâevery word, every noteâthey put their whole hearts into it. It was like they were making something for just the two of them, and the rest of us were lucky to get a piece of it.
[CUT TO: PHAINON AGAIN, still sporting that easy smile.]
PHAINON: But, yâknow, things got complicated. Like they always do. Theyâre both stubborn as hell, and neither of them knows how to sit down and talk without throwing metaphorical knives at each other. Still⌠(Laughs softly) I stand by what I said. If they screw each other and get it over with, everyoneâs gonna be okay.
iv). wanna kiss his face with an uppercut.
Youâre sprawled across the hotel bed, face buried in the pillow, when your phone rings. You groan, tempted to ignore it, but the screen flashes Anaxagorasâ name, and you know better than to let it go to voicemail.
You pick up and press the phone to your ear. âYeah?â
âDonât sound so enthusiastic,â Anaxa deadpans. His voice is brisk, no-nonsense as always. âIâm just checking in.â
âFantastic,â you say dryly, sitting up and running a hand through your hair. âPhotoshoot went great. Almost fought Mydei. Twice.â
âGreat Kephale,â he mutters, and you can imagine him pinching the bridge of his nose. âAre you two still at each otherâs throats?â
âItâs kind of hard not to be when he acts like breathing the same air as me is a personal insult,â you snap. âAglaea made us take those stupid couple shots, and he looked like he wanted to die the whole time. Itâsââ You break off, clenching your jaw. âItâs annoying.â
Anaxa grunts, unimpressed. âYouâre letting him get to you.â
âYeah, no shit.â
âThen stop it,â he says, as if itâs that easy. âYou donât have to like him, but you do have to get through this. Itâs one shoot and a few public appearances. Youâve handled worse.â
âThatâs the problem. Itâs not supposed to be worse. Weâre supposed to be professionals, but heâsâheâs making it impossible.â
Anaxa doesnât answer right away, but when he does, his tone is firm. âLook, if he wants to act like a child, let him. You donât have to stoop to his level. Smile for the camera, grit your teeth if you have to, and donât give him the satisfaction of knowing heâs pissing you off.â
You hate that heâs right. âYeah. I know.â
âYou want me to handle anything?â
âNo,â you say quickly, shaking your head even though he canât see it. âIâll deal with it.â
He doesnât bother with goodbyes, just hangs up like always. You let your phone drop onto the bed and slump back down, staring up at the ceiling. You hate that itâs still gnawing at youâthe frustration, the hurt, the way Mydeiâs indifference feels like a punch to the gut every single time.
You tell yourself itâs fine. You can handle it. Youâve been through worse.
A knock at the door startles you out of your thoughts. You blink, wondering if you imagined it, but then it comes againâmore impatient, this time. You groan and push yourself up, dragging your feet as you cross the room. Your muscles still ache from the photoshoot, and your mood hasnât improved because of Anaxaâs call.
You pull the door open, expecting maybe Castorice or one of the others, but itâs Mydei. He leans against the doorframe, hands shoved into his jacket pockets, his jaw set in that familiar way that makes you want to slam the door right in his face.
âWhat do you want?â you snap, not even attempting to sound polite.
He glances away, gaze fixed on some spot above your shoulder. âIâ Just wanted toââ
âOh, please,â you interrupt. âLike you fucking care.â
âDonât start.â
âIâm starting,â you snap back, âbecause you spent the whole fucking day making it perfectly clear that breathing the same air as me is unbearable, and now youâre playing concerned? Do you even look at yourself?â
âMaybe I do care,â he tells you, and you cut in again.
âYouâre the one who looked like heâd rather die than put his hands on me. Trust me, I noticed.â
âItâs not thatââ He cuts himself off, jaw clenched, and steps closer. âYou donât get it.â
âThen explain it to me!â you shoot back, shoving his shoulder. âYou canât just act like a dick and expect me to read your mind. Or are you still too much of a coward to admit anything out loud?â
That hits a nerve. His eyes flash, and he steps into your space, so close you can feel the heat coming off him. âMaybe if you didnât act so fucking righteous all the time, I wouldnât feel like Iâm losing my mind around you,â he spits out.
âYeah?â you challenge, shoving him again just to get him to react. âMaybe if you didnât keep running away every time something actually matters, we wouldnât be stuck in this stupid cycle!â
He grabs your wrist, yanking you even closer, and you can feel his breath on your face, warm and ragged. âIâm not running.â
âYes, you are,â you hiss, your voice cracking despite yourself. âYou always do. You think if you act like nothing happened, itâll just go away. Well, fuck you, Mydei, because it doesnât.â
He looks at you like he wants to argue, but his jaw works soundlessly, and youâre so sick of itâso tired of dancing around whateverâs been festering between you since the band split. Before you know it, your hands are gripping the front of his jacket, yanking him forward just as he crushes his mouth against yours.
Itâs not soft or carefulânothing about it is gentle. Itâs teeth and heat and frustration, like trying to punish each other for every stupid fight, every missed chance. He makes a low, frustrated noise, backing you into the room and kicking the door shut behind him.
Your hands are tangled in his hair now, and his grip on your waist is bruising, like heâs terrified youâll pull away. You bite down on his lower lip, and he groans against your mouth, pressing you back until your spine meets the wall.
âYouâre an asshole,â you mutter against his lips, barely catching your breath.
He just smirks, dragging his mouth down to your jaw, his voice rough and breathless. âYeah? Youâre not much better.â
Your fingers tighten in his hair, and he doesnât even try to hide the shiver that rolls through him. You hate himâyou hate him so much for making you feel like this, for pushing and pulling and never letting you breathe. But right now, with his mouth on yours and his hands on your body and heat pooling inside your stomach, the only thing you can think of is him taking you against the wall.
You barely register the way Mydei lifts you off the ground, your legs wrapping instinctively around his waist as he pins you to the wall. His mouth is hot and unrelenting against yours, like heâs trying to erase every insult youâve ever thrown at him. Youâre just as ruthless, biting at his lips and tugging his hair hard enough to make him growl.
He eases you down when you moanâembarrassingly loudly, but you donât give a fuck. His hand slides under the waistband of your jeans, and you donât stop him. You let him tug them down, the denim sliding down your legs and pooling at your ankles. Mydei lifts you up, just so you stand on your tiptoes long enough for him to kick them aside. Every brush of his skin against yours feels like an assaultâevery touch a reminder of all the hurt, all the angerâbut you donât pull away.Â
You hate him. You love him. You need him.
His hands slide down to your thighs, gripping tight enough to leave marks, and then he pulls back, panting, his eyes dark and wild. Youâre wet by now, enough that your underwear feels cool from where a damp spot has formed already.
âYou always have to have the last fucking word, donât you?â he grits out.
You scoff. âSomeoneâs gotta knock you off your high horse.â
He huffs a laugh, but itâs rough. Without warning, he drops to his knees, his hands slipping under your thighs to keep you steady as he buries his face between your legs.
You gasp, one hand flying to the wall to brace yourself, the other still tangled in his hair. Mydei doesnât waste any timeâheâs ruthless, licking you through the fabric of your panties. It makes your head spin. You choke on a moan, trying to squirm, but he just tightens his grip, keeping you firmly in place.
âMydeiââ you start, but his teeth graze your inner thigh, and your words dissolve into a shuddering gasp.
âShut up,â he mutters, yanking your underwear to the side and pressing his mouth against your folds with a fierce sort of hunger. His tongue flicks over your clit, and your head falls back against the wall, a keening sound leaving your throat.
âGod, youâre such an asshole,â you manage to choke out, even as your thighs tremble around his head.
He laughs against you, the vibrations making you bite down on your lip to stifle a whimper. âYouâre still running your mouth,â he taunts, giving your thigh a squeeze. âWonder if I can make you shut up.â
He doubles down, sucking your clit between his lips and flicking his tongue in a manner that has you seeing stars. Your nails scrape against his scalp, and he just groans in response, the vibrations sending another shockwave through you. Your hips jerk forward. He grips you harder, dragging his mouth down to lick at your folds like heâs starved for it.
Your fingers tighten in his hair. You canât help the way you tug him closer, grinding against his face despite yourself. Mydei merely hums approvingly, his hands sliding under your ass to lift you higher, pressing you harder against the wall.
When his tongue dips inside your clenching hole, your knees almost give out, but he holds you steady, refusing to let you escape the overwhelming, maddening pleasure. Youâre barely breathing, trying to swallow down the sounds threatening to spill out, but when he curls his tongue just right, you canât stop the loud, desperate moan that breaks free.
He pulls back just enough to smirk up at you, his lips slick and his eyes burning. âYou done being a brat now?â
You glare down at him, panting and still shaking. âFuck you.â
His smirk only widens, and before you can blink, heâs pressing his mouth against you againârough, merciless, relentless. It doesnât take long before your vision blurs and your head tips back, his name tearing from your lips as you come against his mouth.
He doesnât stop until your thighs are trembling and your grip on his hair has gone slack, and even then, he licks you through the aftershocks like heâs addicted to the taste of you. When he finally pulls back, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, he stands, and says, âYouâll give me one more, wonât you?â
Your breath comes out in shallow pants. You can barely muster the energy to glare at him, but his smirk only grows as he straightens up, dragging his hands up your sides and pushing your shirt higher until itâs bunched under your arms. Youâre still too dazed to protest when he lifts it over your head, tossing it to the floor before his hands find your waist again, pulling you flush against him.
He dips down to kiss you, and you taste yourself on his lipsâsweet and dizzying all at once. Youâre still recovering from your climax, but it doesnât matterâhe kisses you like heâs making up for every second he hasnât touched you, rough and a little desperate, his hands squeezing your hips.
His hands slide up your back, finding the clasp of your bra. You donât even have time to catch your breath before he unhooks it and slides and straps down your arms, tossing it aside without a second thought. His mouth is back on yours in an instant, but his hands cup your breasts, thumbs brushing over your nipples in a way that makes your back arch off the wall.
You donât even think before your fingers find the hem of his shirt, pushing it up and over his head, and he helps you get it off before crashing his mouth against yours again. Your hands roam over his bare chest, feeling the hard lines of muscle and the rapid beat of his heart under your fingertips. His skin is warm and slightly slick with sweat, and you canât resist scraping your nails lightly down his abdomen just to feel him shiver.
He bites down on your lower lip in retaliation, and you gasp into his mouth. It earns you a low chuckle. Youâre about to shoot back with something sarcastic when his hands slide up to cup your breasts again, rolling your nipples between his fingers, and your retort dies in your throat.
âThought you were gonna give me attitude,â he murmurs against your mouth, lips curving into a cocky grin. âGuess you can be good when you want to.â
âShut up,â you breathe out, but your voice comes out shaky. He laughs softly, bending down to take one of your nipples into his mouth, sucking and flicking his tongue over the sensitive bud. Your hands fly back to his hair, fingers twisting in the strands, and he groans the tug.
Your hips buck against his, and he grinds back without hesitation, the hard line of his cock rubbing against your thigh through his jeans. You can feel just how badly he wants you; the thought sends another wave of heat flooding through your veins. You tug at his hair hard enough to make him look up at you, his lips red and swollen.
âQuit teasing,â you pant. Mydeiâs eyes flash with something dark and hungry.
He doesnât bother replyingâjust scoops you up effortlessly, wrapping your legs around his waist. His mouth is back on yours, demanding, and you feel him fumbling with his belt between your bodies. You donât have the patience to wait, so you reach down to help him, your hands brushing against his as you yank the buckle open and shove his jeans and briefs down just enough to free his cock.
He groans in relief when your hand wraps around his cock, stroking it slowly and spreading his pre-cum across the length. He bites back a curse. His hands tighten on your thighs, and you donât miss the way his muscles tense under your touch. You give him a little smirk, but it falters when he presses his tip against your entrance, not quite pushing in yet.
âAre you sure?â he asks, eyes roaming over your face.
You roll your eyes, grabbing his face and pulling him down into a bruising kiss. âIf you donât fuck me right now, I swearââ
You donât get to finish because he thrusts into you all at once, knocking the breath out of your lungs. Your head tips back against the wall, and Mydei buries his face in the crook of your neck, groaning against your skin as he adjusts to the tight warmth of your cunt. His breath is hot and ragged, each exhale brushing against your collarbone. His fingers dig into your thighs.
âFuck,â he rasps, voice rough and strained. His hips pull back just enough to drag his length almost completely out before he slams back in, his pace brutal from the start. The force of it makes your back scrape against the wall, and you can feel every inch of himâthick and girthy, splitting you open in a way that has your body straining towards him.
Your hands scrabble for purchase, nails leaving crescents on his shoulders as he sets a relentless rhythm, each thrust hitting deep and perfect. Youâre clinging to him, your legs tightening around his waist as he drives into you. The wet, obscene sounds of your skin against skin echo through the room, mingling with your breathless mons and his low groans.
âFuckâso tight,â he mutters against your skin, his mouth dragging along your throat, teeth scraping and biting hard enough to leave a slight stinging in their wake. âYou feel so fucking good. Sâlike you were made for me.â
You whimper, your hips rocking against his instinctively, desperate for more. You canât stop yourself from moaning his name shakily. It spurs him on. He grins against your neck, pressing a sloppy kiss to your pulse point before sucking a bruise into your skin.
âYeah? That good, huh?â he taunts, his tone mocking but laced with genuine awe. One of his hands slides from your waist to cup your breast, squeezing just enough to make you gasp. His thumb grazes over your nipple, and the sensation has your back arching off the wall, pushing your chest further into his hand.
Your head is spinning, pleasure coiling tight and hot in your belly as he fucks into you hard. You can feel every ride and vein dragging against your walls, every thrust forcing sounds out of you that you didnât even know you could make.
His mouth finds yours again; his teeth nip at your bottom lip before he slips his tongue inside. Youâre so lost in him, so overwhelmed, that it takes you a second to realise his other hand has slipped between your bodies, his fingers finding your clit and circling it with almost punishing pressure.
âFuckââ Your hands are back in his hair, tugging hard enough to make him hiss, but he doesnât let up, the rough pads of his fingers rubbing insistently as his cock drives into you again and again. âI canâtâfuck, Iâmââ
âGonna come again?â he growls against your mouth, his pace never faltering. âYouâre gonna come all over my cock, arenât you? Thatâs it. Good girl.â
His words make your thighs clench. Your climax comes over you without warning, tearing a strangled cry from your throat. Your walls clench around him, pulsing and fluttering as pleasure blazes through every nerve ending. You feel your thighs trembling where theyâre locked around his waist.
Mydei doesnât slow down; he just keeps fucking you through it, each thrust coaxing another wave of sensation that leaves you gasping and boneless in his grip. Your mind is a haze, barely able to process how good it feels to be taken like this. Youâre dimly aware of his breathing getting rougher, his hips stuttering as your body milks him.
You drag his face back to yours, capturing his lips in a desperate, messy kiss, biting until you taste copper. He groans into you. You feel him shudder just before his rhythm falters. With one last, deep snap of his hips, he buries his cock inside you, spilling hot and thick as his body shakes with the force of his release.
His forehead presses against yours as he catches his breath, both of you panting and trembling. He stays inside you, like heâs not quite ready to let you go, his hands sliding up your sides to hold you close. Youâre still reeling, your pulse racing, but you manage a small, satisfied smile, brushing your lips over his with a gentleness that almost feels out of place after what just happened.
For a long moment, neither of you moveâyou just breathe each other in, letting the remnants of pleasure tangle in the space between you. Finally, he pulls back enough to meet your gaze, his thumb brushing over your swollen lower lip.
âStill think Iâm running my mouth?â you whisper, still trying to muster some semblance of defiance.
Mydei simply nudges his nose against yours. âMaybe,â he says, a little bit hoarse, âbut at least I finally shut you up.â
[CUT TO BLACK SCREEN]
Text appears on screen: âChrysos Heirs: The Reunion Tour â Behind the Music. Episode Two.â
[INT. STUDIO â DOCUMENTARY INTERVIEW SETUP]
[CUT TO: CASTORICE, sitting on a stool.]
CASTORICE: You want to know about the relationships? (Grins) Oh, man. Itâs like a dysfunctional family reunion. Some of us slipped right back into old habits, and some of us⌠well, itâs complicated. Mydei and _____? (Snorts) Donât even get me started. You can feel the tension from three rooms away.
[CUT TO: HYACINE, sitting cross-legged on the floor.]
HYACINE: Thereâs definitely still some⌠uh, unresolved stuff. We used to be so tight. All of us. I mean, we fought, sure, but weâd always make up eventually. Now? I donât know. Itâs like everyoneâs got their guard up. Phainonâs doing his best to keep things light, Castorice just barrels through any tension like she doesnât notice, but Mydei and _____⌠(Pauses) Itâs like walking on eggshells around them.
[CUT TO: PHAINON, leaning back against the wall with his guitar across his lap.]
PHAINON: I think everyone kind of forgot how to be around each other. We spent years being everything to one anotherâfriends, family, bandmates, rivals. When the band split, it wasnât just the music that fell apart. It was us. Now itâs like⌠weâre all trying to figure out where we stand again. The way Castorice and Hyacine laugh like nothingâs changed, while Mydei and _____ act like theyâre on opposite sides of a war zone. Itâs exhausting.
[CUT TO: MYDEI, still slouched on a couch with his arms crossed.]
MYDEI: Iâm not gonna sit here and pretend everythingâs fine. Itâs not. The band breaking up after I left? Iâm sure that wasnât just some decision they made over drinks. Castorice acts like weâre one big happy family again, but she knows itâs not that simple. Phainonâs always the peacemaker, trying to smooth everything over, but that just makes it worse sometimes. I donât know.
[CUT TO: YOU, sitting on a folding chair.]
YOU: Itâs frustrating. We used to be so close. All of us. And now it feels like every word has teeth. Castorice is trying so hard to keep us from falling apart again, and Hyacineâs just⌠tired. Phainonâs stuck playing mediator, and Mydeiâ(shakes head)âhe still looks at me like itâs probably my fault. Maybe it is. But it wasnât just me who made it boil down to this.
[CUT TO: CASTORICE AGAIN, balancing her drumsticks on her finger.]
CASTORICE: Weâve always been a mess. Thatâs kind of our thing. But it used to be that we were messy together. Now it feels like weâre just trying not to accidentally set each other off. I miss how easy it used to be. Back when Mydei and _____ could actually talk without biting each otherâs heads off. Back when Hyacine would just crack a joke instead of staying quiet.
[CUT TO: HYACINE AGAIN, resting her chin on her hand.]
HYACINE: Sometimes it feels like weâre playing pretend. Like weâre trying to convince ourselves that weâre still friends when weâre really just⌠people who used to know each other. Cas keeps pushing for us to hang out after shows, but it never feels right. Everyoneâs just waiting for someone to break the silence. I donât know. Maybe itâll get better once weâve been on the road for longer.
[CUT TO: PHAINON AGAIN, eyes thoughtful as he fiddles with his guitar strap.]
PHAINON: I think everyoneâs just afraid to be the one who cares the most. Back in the day, we knew each other better than anyone else did. Now, itâs like weâre scared of stepping on each otherâs wounds. Mydeiâs carrying too much pride to apologise, and _____ is too stubborn to forgive. Castorice and Hyacine just want everyone to get alone, but no oneâs talking about the elephant in the room. Weâre good at pretending on stage, though. Real good.
[CUT TO: MYDEI, his jaw clenched, his eyes hard.]
MYDEI: You donât just come back from something like that. You donât go from being everything to each other to nothing without it leaving a scar. Iâm not saying itâs all her fault. (Hesitates) Iâm just saying that itâs easier to be mad than to admit I mightâve messed up, too. Thatâs why I keep my distance. Itâs just⌠easier that way.
[CUT TO: YOU, looking almost weary.]
YOU: I never thought it would feel this hollow. I donât know what I expectedâa clean slate, maybe? But it doesnât work like that. Weâre still carrying the past with us, and itâs dragging us down. I guess⌠I just wish heâd talk to me. Even if itâs to say he hates me. At least that would be something.
[CUT TO: CASTORICE, shrugging with a half-smile.]
CASTORICE: Whatever happens, Iâm not giving up. Weâre stuck with each other. Thatâs just how it is. Even if we have to scream it out or throw things at each other, weâre gonna make it work. Because the way they look at each other sometimes? Thereâs still something there. They just gotta get over themselves long enough to see it.
[CUT TO: PHAINON, adjusting his guitar.]
PHAINON: Theyâll figure it out. Weâre not just a bandâweâre more than that. And sometimes, being more means we break and put ourselves back together. Weâll get there.
[CUT TO: HYACINE, giving a faint smile.]
HYACINE: If we can just stop letting the past dictate everything, maybe we can start being friends again. Maybe more. I donât know. But I do know thisâon stage, weâre still the same. Maybe the music will help us remember how to be us again.
v). so i write him all these letters and i throw them in the trash.
When you stir in your sleep, the mattress beside you is cold.Â
Itâs lateâpast midnight, probably. Your stomach grumbles; you sit up and shuffle tiredly over to the mini-bar and grab a bag of salted cashew nuts, tearing it open. Thereâs no trace of Mydei. Itâs as if he was never here, didnât fuck you against the wall like it was all he could think of, didnât lay down on the bed next to you and curl a strong arm around your waist.
You wish you could say you were just disappointed. The truth is, you had expected nothing else, but disappointment still curls around your ribs.
Itâs stupid. You walk over to the glass table placed in front of the plush armchair towards the side of your bed. Thereâs a notepad and a slightly blunt pencil placed on top of it. You sink into the armchair, popping a handful of cashew nuts into your mouth and chewing.Â
The words should be flowing by nowâanger and frustration always make for good materialâbut tonight, theyâre stuck somewhere between your ribs, buried under the feeling of his mouth on your skin.
It shouldnât feel like this. You knew what you were getting into. You knew better than to expect anything else from him. But the way he kissed you, like he was trying to make you forget every fightâmade your chest ache. Youâre not surprised that heâs gone. Youâre not even hurt, really. Just angry. Angry at him for leaving without a word, angry at yourself for caring that he did. You shove a few more cashews into your mouth and wipe your fingers on your sweatpants before picking up the pencil.
Your hand moves almost without thinking, words scrawling across the page faster than you can catch up with them.
You look at me like Iâm your only song,
And I play the part even when it feels wrong.
Weâre always dancing on the edge of a goodbye,
But Iâd risk the fall just to feel you by my side.
You pause, glaring at the lyrics. You should throw the notepad across the room, rip the page out, crush it in your fist. Instead, you just sit there, tapping the pencil against your knee. You can still feel the way his mouth moved against yours, the bruising grip of his hands on your hips. You take a shaky breath and force yourself to keep writing. Itâs better than sitting here drowning in the memory of him.
Weâre tangled and twisted and never the same,
We love like it hurts and kiss through the pain.
Youâre poison and honey and everything wrong,
And I hate that youâre still the one I want.
The pencil scrapes harshly against the paper as you press harder than you mean to. The words taste bitter in your mouth, but at least theyâre honest. Maybe thatâs why itâs so hard to write them downâbecause admitting that you want more than just his hands on you feels like exposing a wound youâve been pretending doesnât exist.
You swallow down the knot in your throat and lean back, squeezing your eyes shut. It would almost be easier if you hated him. If you could just shove him out of your head and pretend he was nothing more than a bad decision. But itâs not that simple. You donât just want him; you want the old him, the one who used to light up when you walked into the room, who teased you until you were laughing so hard you couldnât breathe. You want the Mydei who didnât always look at you like youâre a problem he canât fix.
You know youâre being unfair. Heâs not the only one whoâs changed. Youâre not the same eitherâtoo guarded, too tired. Sometimes you wonder if youâre just setting yourself up for disappointment because itâs easier than admitting you still love him.
Your chest aches, and the next words come almost like a confession.
You look at me like Iâm the one youâve been missing,
Kiss me like Iâm the dream you keep wishing
Would come true when the lights fade awayâ
But you never stay.
You finish the verse and set the pencil down, pressing your fingertips to your lips like you can still taste him there.
You told yourself you wouldnât do this again. But he looked at you tonight like he was starvingâlike you were something he couldnât resist. And you let him have you because a part of you needed it, too. Needed to feel wanted, even if it was just for a few hours. Even if he was gone before you woke up.
You shove the notepad away, letting it fall to the floor as you curl up in the armchair, knees pulled to your chest. The song lingers in your head, the lyrics clawing at your heart. You feel ridiculous for letting him get under your skin like this, like a bruise that wonât heal.
The truth is, youâd let him hurt you a thousand times if it meant heâd look at you like that again. Like youâre the only thing keeping him alive. Maybe that makes you a fool, but you donât know how to be anything else when it comes to him.
Shaking your head as though to dissolve it of its thoughts, you tear out the sheet of paper with your lyrics on it, fold it into a square hastily, and shove it inside the pocket of your sweatpants. You stand up and grab your lighter from your bag. You need a smoke.
[CUT TO BLACK SCREEN]
Text appears on screen: âThe Foundersâ Cut.â
[INT. STUDIO â DOCUMENTARY INTERVIEW SETUP]
[CUT TO: YOU, sitting on a simple black stool, hands loosely clasped in your lap.]
YOU: Writing with Mydei⌠God, it used to be so easy. We didnât have to think about it. (Smiles softly) Weâd just be sitting on the floor of his shitty apartmentâbarely any furniture, just the couch his neighbour was gonna throw out and that one rug we stole from Hyacineâs place. One of us would pick up the guitar, start playing something, and it was like everything else just faded out.
INTERVIEWER (off-screen): Was it always that natural?
YOU: (Nods) Yeah. It just worked. Sometimes we didnât even talk before starting a song. Iâd be on the floor, writing down whatever came to mind, and heâd be next to me, leaning against the wall with his guitar. Sometimes Iâd hum something, and heâd justâpick it up. It was like we were reading each otherâs minds.
[CUT TO: MYDEI, sitting with his back slightly hunched, elbows on his knees.]
MYDEI: We wrote some of our best songs at 3 A.M, dead tired, arguing about lyrics while eating instant ramen. Sheâd always overthink the wordsâhad to make sure they said exactly what she wanted. I didnât care as much. I guess I figured the feeling mattered more than getting every word right.
INTERVIEWER: Do you have an example for the same?
MYDEI: There was this one song (pauses, shakes his head). We wrote it after this stupid fight. Iâd stormed out, pissed as hell, but when I came back, she was sitting on the floor, scribbling lyrics like her life depended on it. I didnât say anything. Just sat down and played along with whatever she was humming. Neither of us apologised, but⌠I guess that was our way of making up.
[CUT TO: YOU]
YOU: We never talked about it, you know? Weâd write all these songs that were practically confessionsâabout each other, about how much it hurt when we fought, or how we couldnât stand being apartâand then weâd just⌠move on. Never acknowledged it.
INTERVIEWER: Do you regret that?
YOU: (Hesitates) Sometimes. But the songs made it pretty obvious. We were practically begging each other to figure it out without actually saying it.
[CUT TO: MYDEI]
MYDEI: She always wrote like it was her way of⌠bleeding out whatever she couldnât say. We made something good out of it, though. Even if we never said it out loud. And⌠yeah. Sometimes I miss that. The simplicity of it. Just us and a guitar and whatever shit we were working through. I didnât need anything else back then.
[CUT TO: YOU]
YOU: Itâs funny. We used to write about heartbreak like it was this distant conceptâsomething that happened to other people. Never thought weâd end up writing about each other.
vi). i want to get him back (and then?)
The rooftop is quiet at this hourâtoo early for most and too late for the rest. The sky is more navy than blue, more shadow than light. You push the heavy metal door open with your shoulder, and it clicks shut behind you with a soft thud. You tug your hoodie tighter around you, retreating into the warmth, and dig around in your pocket for your cigarettes.
The lighter sparks on the second try. You inhale. Smoke fills your lungs, and something in you loosens. You hate how easy it still is to find comfort in bad habits.
Thatâs when you notice him.
At first, itâs just the faint glow of a cigarette at the far corner of the rooftop. But you know itâs himâknow it in the shape of his silhouette, the way he leans forward with one elbow braced on the ledge, hoodie pulled low over his face. Mydei. Of course.
You hesitate for a beat, frozen halfway between the door and where he stands. It would be easier to leaveâpretend you didnât see him, pretend you didnât spend the night tangled up in him and then wake up to cold sheets and silence.
But you donât.
Your steps are quiet as you cross the rooftop, stopping a few feet away from him. He doesnât look at you, just exhales slowly, eyes on the horizon. You take a drag from your cigarette, watching the tip burn orange, watching the smoke curl upwards and vanish into the sky.
âWhyâd you leave?â you ask. You mean the hotel room, but not only that.
Heâs quiet for a long time. You wonder if heâs even going to answer.
âI didnât want to wake you,â he says eventually, still not looking at you.
You huff a breath. Itâs not quite a laugh. âYou didnât want to be there.â
He doesnât argue. The silence stretches again, but itâs not uncomfortable. Just tired. He glances at you. The wind picks up a little, brushing your hair across your cheek. He noticesâalways noticesâand shifts just slightly so heâs blocking the breeze. Neither of you says anything about it.
âYou looked peaceful,â Mydei says. âI didnât want to mess it up.â
âYou think not being there was better?â
âI didnât know what to say.â
You nod. You donât push. Youâve learned not to with him. âItâs not just about tonight,â you say quietly.
He nods, eyes dark and shadowed. âI know.â
The sun starts to edge over the horizon, painting faint streaks of pink and orange across the navy sky. Itâs beautiful in that fragile, fleeting way, like something youâre scared to touch because you know itâs too delicate to last. You both watch in silence for a while, letting the smoke and the light fill the air between you. Thereâs a comfort in it, strangely enough. The way the world keeps turning even when your heart feels like itâs stuck. The way mornings come anyway.
You look at Mydei again.
Heâs tired. You can see it in the curve of his mouth, in the slump of his shoulders. But heâs here. Part of you wants to ask him why. Why he came up here. Why he didnât leave the hotel entirely. Why he lets himself touch you but wonât let himself stay. Instead, you say nothing.
He offers you his lighter when yours gives out, and your fingers brush when you take it. Itâs a brief touch, barely there, but itâs enough to make your chest ache in that too-familiar way.
You smoke the rest of your cigarettes side by side, not speaking, not needing to. Itâs the kind of silence that used to exist between songs in the studio. When you stub the last bit out on the ledge, you take one last look at the sunrise. The light catches on his face now, gold and soft, and you want to say something. You donât even know what.
So instead, you pull your hoodie tighter and nod. âI should go.â
He nods too, but he doesnât move. Doesnât stop you either.
You turn back towards the door, and as you do, a folded piece of paper slips from your pocket. You donât notice it fall, fluttering once before landing gently near his feet. You donât notice it, because youâre too busy disappearing back into the stairwell, too wrapped up in keeping your shoulders straight and your breathing steady.
He doesnât move for a while after youâre gone.
Then, slowly, Mydei leans down and picks up the paper. The handwriting is unmistakableâyour quick, slanted script, a few smudges where the pencil dragged.
He reads it once. Twice.
Then he folds it back up, holds it in his hand like it might crumble, and watches the sun break over the city, alone.
The lights shift from the vibrant spotlights of the previous set into something softer, slowerâdimmed gold and dusky purple spreading like ink over the stage. Your mic is cold under your fingers. You roll the cord absently through your hand. You canât see much beyond the footlights; only the sea of shadows, the faint outlines of swaying arms and cell phone lights blinking like stars.
But Mydeiâs there, across from you. This next song is just you and him, after all.
Heâs adjusting the strap of his guitar, head bowed, eyes hidden beneath the fall of his hair.
Itâs the same stage. The same lights. The same song. Why does it feel so different?
The crowd doesnât know what theyâre about to hear. Most of them donât even know the song, youâre pretty sure. Itâs some B-side from one of your earlier albums. You remember when you wrote it. The quiet of three in the morning, the late-night arguments that bled into music, the unraveling of two people who couldnât speak to each other unless it was in chords and half-rhymed lines.
Here you are again. Older. Worse at pretending.
The intro begins with gentle chords, the kind that hurt more than they soothe. Your mic is already at your lips. You inhale like itâs your first breath of the night.
âI told myself I wouldnât care this time,
Said your name like it didnât still taste like goodbye.
But you look at me like you never learned how to let goâŚâ
Your voice holds, though it feels like walking a tightrope. Every word comes out measured, like if you let it slip, your heart will come out tumbling too. You donât look at him, not yet. You can feel his presenceâlike gravityâbut you donât turn your head.
Not until he sings. Then, you do. He meets your gaze.
âI said we were fire meant to burn out fast,
But I keep finding you in every song Iâve written last.
You donât ask me to stay, and I donât ask you to tryâŚ
But weâre still standing here, pretending weâre fine.â
His voiceâGod, his voice. Itâs rougher than it used to be, edges carved by years and distance, but it still wraps around your lyrics like it was always meant to. Heâs not just singing. Heâs looking at you like heâs saying every word for the first time. It knocks the air from your lungs.
Your heartâs pounding now, and you hate that it still reacts to him like this. Like your body remembers the way he used to hold you when no one else was watching.Â
The chorus crashes over both of you.
âSo lie to me, baby, say itâs still love,
Say the ending never mattered, that this beginningâs enough.
We were smoke, we were stars, we were doomed from the start,
But tonight, just tonight, sing like you still mean every part.â
Mydei steps closer. You do, too. Itâs instinct, not plan. You donât even realise it until youâre nearly toe-to-toe, voices tangling into harmony, eyes locked.
You wonder if the crowd can feel it. If they can hear the way your throat tightens, how the vowels tremble when he looks at you like that. Like heâs trying to remember the shape of youânot just your face, but your soul. The bridge comes. You always dreaded it.
âMaybe weâll break like we always do,
Maybe weâll forget this in the morning too.
But for nowâGod, for nowâ
You still feel like a home I never knew.â
The line lands like a punch to the chest. Yours, and maybe his too.
You let it ring out, raw and full. For a second, it feels like the two of you are back in that tiny studio years agoâbarefoot, angry, tired, in love. Writing a song you were both too scared to mean. But you meant it. You always did, and you do now.
The last chorus is quieter, a lullaby instead of a plea.
âAnd Iâd sing this with you a thousand times⌠if youâd let me.â
You drop your hand from the mic, breath catching in your throat, and for a momentâjust a momentâthereâs silence. Just you and Mydei.
He doesnât move. Heâs staring at you with something unspoken lodged in his eyes, something that looks too close to regret.
You turn away first. Your heartâs already too full. One more second and it might burst.
The crowd roars behind you, applause crashing in waves.
[CUT TO BLACK SCREEN]
Text appears on screen: âThe Membersâ Cut.â
[INT. STUDIO â DOCUMENTARY INTERVIEW SETUP]
[CUT TO: CASTORICE, lounging back on the couch.]
CASTORICE: It was just a fact. Mydei and _____. You didnât say one name without the other. (Shakes her head) And the way they used to look at each other on stage? Insane. Like, weâd be in the middle of a song, and Iâd be watching them instead of playing because damn. The rest of us couldâve vanished into thin air, and they wouldnât have noticed.
(Laughs lightly, rolling her eyes.)
CASTORICE (CONTâD): It was kinda funny, actually. Like, okay, we get it, youâre in love. Can we get through the set without you two making heart eyes at each other? (Pause) But, yâknow⌠it was also kinda nice. Seeing people that in sync. That kind of connection isnât something you fake.
[CUT TO: HYACINE, sitting cross-legged on the floor, bass resting on her lap.]
HYACINE: They were disgusting. I mean that in the nicest way possible. (Grinning) Like, youâd be tuning your guitar, and theyâd just be standing off to the side, whispering to each other like they werenât literally about to perform in front of thousands of people. And yeah, sure, couples sing duets all the time, but with them? It was different. Like they were letting us in on something private, something meant just for them. Even if it was a song theyâd performed a hundred times before, it always felt like they were saying something new.
(Chuckles, eyes soft with nostalgia.)
HYACINE (CONTâD): They made you believe in that kind of love, yâknow? The all-consuming, this-song-is-about-you kind of love. You couldnât watch them and not feel it.
[CUT TO: PHAINON, sitting with his arms draped over the back of the chair, smirking lightly.]
PHAINON: Yeah, they were that couple. The ones who made you roll your eyes but also kind of wish you had what they had. Like, I remember this one showâMydei had just finished this crazy guitar solo, and instead of, I donât know, reveling in the applause like a normal person, he immediately turned to _____ like she was the only one whose reaction mattered. And she just grinned at him, and I swear to God, he looked like he won the lottery.
(Shakes his head and scoffs.)
PHAINON (CONTâD): They were reckless with it. Loud about it. No hesitation, no holding back. They didnât just love each other, they showed it. And thatâs rare. You donât get that kind of honesty on stage very often.
(His smirk fades just slightly.)
PHAINON (CONTâD):  âŚThatâs why it was so hard when it ended.
vii). âcause i miss the way he kisses and the way he made me laugh.
The crowd is louder tonight. Not louder in volume, necessarily, but just⌠like theyâre expecting something. Like they know something you donât.
You glance at the setlist as someone does your in-ear check. Your duet with Mydei is coming up nextâthe same one youâve done every night for years. Itâs not your most popular song, but itâs yours. It always has been. Something about it felt safe even now, when everything else between you and him was held together with duct tape and willpower.
You take a sip of water and step towards the side of the stage, waiting for the intro cues.
But when you hear the first notes, theyâre not yours.
Your stomach drops. The chord progression is soft, a little unfamiliar. Itâs not one of your tracks, or a part of the agreed setlist.
Your gaze snapes to the center of the stage where Mydei standsâguitar in hand, face calm. Heâs adjusted his mic, and heâs⌠smiling? Not a grin. Nothing cocky. Just this small, quiet thing, like heâs doing something that matters to him more than heâs ready to admit.
âThis oneâs not on the list,â he says into the mic, casual, like this doesnât upend everything. âI wanted to try something new tonight.â
Your brow furrows. You step a little closer, careful not to draw a scene. Castorice gives you a sharp look from behind her kit, like, Did you know about this? You shake your head once.Â
Mydei starts to sing.
âYou look at me like Iâm your only song,
And I play the part even when it feels wrong.â
It hits you like a punch to the ribs.
That lyric. That exact line. You know it because you wrote it, alone. In that hotel room weeks ago, scrawled in a burst of emotion you werenât proud of, folded up and shoved into the pocket of your sweatpants. Youâd thought it got tossed in the wash or lost somewhere in the shuffle between cities.
Apparently not. Apparently he found it. And instead of asking youâlike a normal person wouldâhe set it to music. He built a melody around your bleeding heart and decided to sing it to a crowd of thousands.
âWeâre tangled and twisted and never the same,
We love like it hurts and kiss through the pain.
Youâre poison and honey and everything wrong,
And I hate that youâre still the one I want.â
Itâs a beautiful melody, and you feel something inside your chest twist, hard. He sings softly but unsteadily, like he wasnât sure that youâd hear itâor worse, that you would.
He doesnât look at you while he sings. He scans the crowd, eyes on the horizon. But the meaning is clear. You can feel it in the tightness in your chest, in the hush thatâs fallen over the audience, like they know this isnât just a love song.
You fold your arms over your chest, more for grounding than anything. Castorice doesnât play a beat. Hyacine and Phainon watch silently, hands loose on their instruments like theyâre ready to jump in if needed, but they donât. Neither of you do.
This is his moment, and your words.
âYou look at me like Iâm the one youâve been missing,
Kiss me like Iâm the dream you keep wishing
Would come true when the lights fade awayâ
But you never stay.â
You exhale shakily. You feel exposed, as if youâre standing naked in front of an entire arena. The words werenât just lyricsâthey were confessions. Grudges. Regrets. Things you never had the guts to say out loud. And here Mydei is, saying them for you.
No. Singing them.
Your fingers curl into your palms. You donât know whether to be furious or deeply, deeply moved.Â
He finishes the song in a whisper, almost. The last chord rings out like an unanswered question. The audience is silent for a beat too long. Then they eruptâwhistling, cheering, screaming. Itâs a standing ovation for something they didnât even know was a story.
And still, Mydei hasnât looked at youâuntil now.
He turns, finally, just a little, and meets your eyes across the stage. You donât smile. You donât clap. You just stare at him, speechless and conflicted.
Then, Mydei steps back from the mic and gives the signal to move on with the set. You turn your face away before the next lights come up, blinking hard. Your heartâs racing. You donât know what happens after this; what this means; what youâre supposed to say.
You only know one thing: That song was yours, and now, itâs his, too.
The hallway outside the dressing rooms is buzzingâcrew rushing around, the muffled roar of the crowd still seeping through the walls, someone shouting about cords and lights and encores. But all you can hear is the blood in your ears and your name echoing in Mydeiâs voice as he sang your lyrics.
His voice, but your words. Your heart on a scrap of paper you never meant for anyone else to see.
Your footsteps are harsh against the floor as you turn the corner and push the door open. The dressing room is too bright, too sterile compared to the intimacy of the stage. Mydei stands with his back to you, shirt clinging to his skin with sweat, hair pushed off his forehead like he ran his fingers through it too many times.
You close the door behind you with a click. Quiet, but final. He hears it.
âHey,â he says, not turning around yet.
You stare at the back of his head. âDonât do that to me.â
Mydei pauses. Slowly, he turns to face you. âI figured youâd be mad.â
âMad?â You laugh, breath catching somewhere in your throat. âYou think Iâm mad?â
âYou look mad.â
âI am mad,â you snap, taking a step closer, heart pounding. âYou sang a song you werenât supposed to have. You didnât even ask me, Mydei. You justâjust stood there and threw it at me in front of ten thousand people like it meant nothing.â
âIt didnât mean nothing,â he says. âThatâs why I sang it.â
Youâre both quiet. The silence stretches and tightens until itâs almost unbearable.
âYou couldâve told me,â you say finally, voice hoarse. âYou couldâve talked to me. About the song. About anything. But you donât. You never do.â
Mydei exhales slowly, resting his hands on his hips like heâs bracing himself. âI didnât know how.â
You tilt your head, lips parting in disbelief. âThatâs such bullshit, Mydei. We wrote songs together. We told each other everything through music. And now youâre justâstanding there, acting like itâs some impossible thing.â
He looks at you, then. Really looks. And for a moment, heâs not the cold, distant version of himself heâs been for months. Heâs just him. The boy who used to fall asleep beside you in the tour van. The one who hummed half-finished melodies in your ear at midnight in whatever motel you were crashing in. The one who used to kiss you like the world might end before morning.
âI didnât know how to say I missed you,â he admits. âSo I used your words instead. Because mine never come out right.â
You donât want to forgive him. You really donât.
But the hurt in his voice is real. So is the way heâs looking at youâlike youâve always been the only person in the room, and heâs just been waiting to see you again for real.
You take one shaky step forward. Then another.
When your lips crash into his, it isnât careful or slow. Itâs everything youâve been holding back: Rage, longing, grief, hope. His hands find your face, yours grip his shirt, and everything around you blurs until itâs just him, just the warmth of his mouth and the softness of his sighs and the undeniable truth that this still feels like home.
You part, breathless.
Neither of you speaks at first. Youâre still close enough to feel his breath on your cheek, the heat of his skin under your fingertips.Â
Your voice comes out quieter than you intend when you tell him, âI want to get you back.â
Mydei doesnât hesitate. âYou already have.â
It hits you harder than the kiss did. Something cracks inside youâsomething small and soft and long-buried. You almost donât realise youâre crying until he wipes your cheek with the back of his hand.
You let out a breath, something between a laugh and a sob. âIâm still mad at you.â
âI know.â His thumb traces the edge of your jaw. âYouâre allowed to be.â
You step back first, gently. He lets you go, but his eyes follow you like heâs afraid youâll vanish if he blinks.
As you adjust your jacket and run a hand through your hair, something slips from your pocketâfolded paper, creased from being handled too many times. You donât notice, but Mydei does.
He kneels to pick it up after youâre gone, quietly unfolding it to find another unfinished song. Lyrics in your handwriting. His name, half-crossed out and rewritten three times.
He reads the first line. Smiles.
He doesnât hand it back to you. He tucks it into his jacket, like he already knows how it ends.
[CUT TO BLACK]
Text appears on screen: âChrysos Heirs: Reunion Tour. THE END.â
Youâre the only one initiating sex between you and Mydei. And it has gotten to a point where you question if heâs actually into you physically!
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Itâs been three months. THREE months since the last time you got intimate with Mydei. I meanâ you couldnât blame him. He had a lot of duties as a Chrysos Heir, him being sent to protect Okhema left and right from the black tide making him immersed with tasks Lady Aglaea would give.
But he isnât always on the battlefield, most of the time heâs just strolling around Okhema along with Phainon and you, playing with the children or answering Verax Leoâs questions that leaves Mydei scratching his head. It has become a hobby of his now.
Other times heâd be competing with Phainon: Who could stay in the hot baths the longest, which one of them could kill the most titankinâ and many more.
Itâs been a year now ever since you both officially started going out. Mydei isnât that vocal with his needs and wantsâ in fact heâs very shy around you. He always makes excuses everytime you both cuddle when you notice he has a hard on. Or just anytime youâd noticed heâs bricked up. You just shrugged it off the first few times because you thought heâs just shy, I mean itâs just the first few months of your relationship. So you paid no mind to it.
He never asks you to help, and always rejects your offer to help him. Heâs just so confusing it makes you feel frustrated. But the thing is he never turns you down when you ask for it. It makes you feel guilty, with it being only one sided.
You were both cuddling on the bed, it was an intimate moment. Your head was resting on his chest, arm placed on his stomach. His hold was locked on you, Mydeiâs arm hugged you tightly, his hand on your hair caressing it gently. While his other arm is placed behind his head making it a pillow for him.
It was a sweet moment, one that you both always share when youâre alone in the comfort of your own home. But then Mydei was caught off guardâ your leg was suddenly placed across his thighs, innocent, right?
What you didnât notice was the fact that you accidentally brushed it past his dick. It was just a small nudge, really. But it got him all tensed and bricked up, he was particularly sensitive that dayâŚ
You felt him twitch slightly with the contact, you looked at him and then at your thigh, then back at him. Then you saw it, he was hard. It was practically raising a tent inside his pajamas, raging to break free from the restraint of the fabric it was hidden in.
âDe, youâre hard⌠do you need helpâŚ?â You ask softly as you looked up at him. It was Curtain-fall hour, most people are asleep right now⌠and probably wouldnât hear you both if you were to have sex. Mydei glanced at you, head laying on his chest. He had that panicked flushed look in his eyes as he looks at you.
You can already tell heâs bricked up and ready for any contact that youâre willing to give him. His face slightly flushed, as he bit the inner corner of his cheek, letting out a small groan.
âNo, itâs fine. I just⌠n-need to pee thatâs all.â He said clearing his troat as he quickly sits upâ excusing himself, leaving you on the bed to go to the bathroom. You didnât dare follow him because you already know that he wonât let you help him. It was useless, so you just layed there in the bed waiting for him to return as you stare in the ceiling. I didnât know peeing takes about 5 minutes. You thought to yourself.
Honestly, everytime you both had sex it was only you who initiates it. And now itâs gotten to a point where you question if heâs even into you physically.
Maybe you crave him more than he desires you?
Nonetheless, you felt awful for these thoughts. You knew he loves you a lot and would go through harsh lengths just to see you happy. However⌠it just makes you overthink, adding more and more tension in your head. What if Iâm not physically attractive to him?
The last time you both had sex made you overthinking and overanalyze everything. Nothing haunted you more than the fact that heâs getting uncomfortable when you ask him if he needs help. And another fear of yours is that heâs just agreeing to do it with you out of obligationâ and heâs not really enjoying itâŚ
So thatâs when you stopped asking, and now itâs been three months since you both last did it. You donât know if you should be proud or not. The thing isâ youâve been craving him more the past month, and it hasnât been easy just using your fingers.
To your surprise, he was gone for a month. Why? Because Lady Aglaea sent him out with Phainon to an expedition to Find Cipher. The Demi-God of trickery. Apparently, Aglaea wanted to speak to her but found no traces of her in Okhema.
A whole moon has passed, and now heâs back. Mydei brought some treats with him, along with your favorites. Seeing him after a month made your heart happy. Heâs finally home.
âDe! Youâre back.â You said happily walking to him, arms opened as you two hugged. Your arms wrapped around his neck as he cages his big arms around your waist. Tightening it securely.
âIâve brought back some of your favorites.â
âThatâs nice, we could eat it later. Wash up first?â Mydei nodded as he lets go of you, then you take the things he has brought back, putting it on the kitchen counter arranging it in order.
Later that night, as you take a warm shower. Thoughts ran through your head while you scrub your body with the fragrant soap he brought back home for you. The smell of fresh cardamom and roses filled the stuffy air as you happily scrub your body with it.
Even after being away from me for a month he really still hasnât initiated anything. Maybe he just has low libido tonight, rightâŚ? Or maybe heâs just tired, yeah⌠peobably tired from the trip.
Or so you thought. Your eyes wandered on the tiled wall and saw a thick white liquid clutching on the wall for dear lifeâ Is thatâŚ? Your eyes squinted, drawing your face closer. At first you thought it was just the liquid body soap he always use, but the more you thought about it. How could the soap last that long?
And then it dawned on you. Really? You scowled feeling rejected once again. Does he really find you unappealing to avoid doing anything with you?
Your heart fell to your stomach, overthinking everything about your current predicament. Maybe he met another woman there whose body is better than me? Am I too fat? Or did he find me way less attractive when he saw me after a month? Is my body turning him off that much?⌠Youâve never expected that youâll get to a point like this.
âMhm⌠why are you sleeping so far away?âŚâ
It was taking a toll on your mind, making you unable to sleep. You initially thought about communicating your feelings to him so it could just all endâ but it scared you. Heâs a really nice person under that cold persona, knowing himâ heâs a really understandable person deep down. Heâs just really scared too, heâs scared to hurt you. Thatâs why heâs very gentle with you in every single way.
Mydei is a big empath, heâd feel guilty if he made you feel the slightest bit uncomfortable. Mydei pulls you closer to him grabbing you by your waist, burying his head on your neck. His breath fanning the back of your neck, as his lips are pressed there too.
But you also thought, if you told him. Wouldnât he think that youâre so weird for this? Making a small trivial matter such a big issue. Maybe he was just⌠uncomfortable? Yeah⌠probably. You didnât want to pressure him into doing things out of guilt. Youâre aware of how much love and devotion he has for you. This is his first life after all, he makes mistakes tooâŚ
After a few minutes you got up from your shared bed and went into the kitchen. You couldnât sleep, as it weighs heavily on your mind. The weight of it getting bigger and bigger every second, you really wanted to tell him. But canât find the right time to.
ââŚAre you okay?â Surprisingly Mydei was behind you, his hands found your waist, his broad muscular chest presses on your back, he usually sleeps with no shirt on, just his pajamas on. It caught you off guardâ you couldâve sworn he was asleep besides you earlier. And when you got out of bed you made sure to be quiet as a mouse and not disrupt his sleep.
You were just drinking water on the sink, planning to eat some of the chocolate he has brought for you. You hummed at him, âYeah, wh-why do you ask?â Shit, I stuttered. Well, thatâs embarrassing. You cursed yourself mentally for this, heâs really good at reading your emotions. Youâre fucked.
Mydei rested his chin on your shoulder, youâre already pinching your self mentally for stuttering. I felt like he noticed. He hummed, âDoesnât seem like it, are you sure?â Pressing the matter to you once more.
Ha, heâs really good at reading me. You despise him for that, but at the same time, youâre thankful for it. Maybe thisâll save you from some of the embarrassment of itâ right?
âYeah, totally sure!âŚâ You closed your eyes, bitting your inner cheek, praying he would just stop this and save you from this unease pilling in the pit of your stomach. It felt incredibly hot, especially when his body is literally pressed up against yours.
He hummed again, this time his arms are snaked on your waist, caging it securely. âIâm just worried about you.â Mydei said softly, burrying his face on your neck, leaving soft pecks on its wake.
âI swear Iâm fine, itâs just⌠just some personal things. I can handle it though.â You muttered, taking the chocolate from the counter, tearing open the packaging of the chocolate he brought for you. Not bothering to read the brand.
âYou know⌠you can talk to me right? Iâm willing to listen to it. Your problems are also mine.â Well, itâs now or never. You gathered up the courage to tell him the truth about everything.
âItâs⌠just that weâŚâ You broke a piece of the chocolate and ate it before breaking another piece of feeding it to him. âHavenât had sex in the past three monthsâŚâ
He chews on the chocolate you gave him, silently listening to your words. ââŚAnd the fact that you wouldnât let me help you when youâre⌠you know.â
Mydei nods, taking your words in. Letting you speak your thoughts as you feed him more of the chocolate. âI donât want to force you in anything youâre not comfortable in, but I felt like youâre just⌠obligated to follow through when I initiate things between usâŚâ
He hums, muttering low apologies. Yes, Mydei felt guilty about all of this as he listens to you rant. âDo you get turned off when I offer my help to you?⌠cause you kept declining. And I want to know whyââ You turn your head to face him and before you could even finish your sentence, he kisses you.
You whimpered in the slow kiss he shared with you. You felt hot, not the type of hot that you typically feel during summer. This was different. Mydei looked at you flushed, âIâm sorry, itâs just that⌠I didnât want you to worry that much about me and I want you to focus on yourself. Not that much on me,â His words were heartfelt, he ment it. He truly ment it all, âIâm really sorry that you thought I didnât want youâŚâ
Mydei felt guilty, he didnât expect for things to escalate this bad. His stomach churned hard as his heart shattered learning that you started to think you were unattractive in his eyes. He wanted to make it up to you now as he apologizes multiple times. âI love you so much, sometimes I wanted you so bad but⌠I justâ canât explain that I⌠I-Iâm so sorryâŚâ
You just sigh in relief, caressing his hair. âItâs alright, Iâm sorry too⌠I shouldâve told you earlier.â Communicating with him is so easy, you both just accept your mistakes and move on. You turned around to face him as you lean on the counter, his hands on your side. Caging you on the counter top.
Taking the last piece of chocolate from the wrapper, you ate half of it before feeding it to him. Everything was fine now, the silence wasnât deafening, it was just right. Mydei smiles, placing his pointer finger under your chin, bringing your head up to look at him. He captured your lips in for a kiss, tasting the chocolate off your mouth as your salivas mixed.
You can tell, he was already hard as his buldge pressed on you. His tall frame towering, the kiss wasnât rushed nor sloppy. It was a heated, slow, intimate one not those desperate rushed kisses. This one is filled with passion and longing, his tongue was scouring through your mouth slowly exploring itâ memorizing everying single corner.
Mydeiâs hands moved to your waist to pull you closer, deepening the kiss. You were already out of breath so you pulled away, a string of saliva left both your mouths: The only remaining thing thats connecting you both. He kissed you cheek, dragging his lips down to your neck sucking till a red spot appears. You canât help but moan at the contact.
You felt something was off, everything was so hot, you were already so sweaty for no reason. It was not the type of hot youâll feel during the summer, this one made you feel dizzy, a little nauseous, and your core was dripping wet. Every touch by Mydei made you feel weak, you were aching for some kind of contact. Anything. Just anything will do at this point.
You looked at Mydei to see if he was feeling the same thing, you can tell just by how drenched with sweat he is. He was a flushed messâ and so are you. He drawed his lips away from your neck slowly to just look at you. Yeah no shit, you both were so confused as to why youâre both feeling like animals in heat.
Is this the effect of having no contact for three months? Wrong, Mydei had to double check the chocolate you ate and fed him with to see if it had some funny ingredient mixed in with it.
He was right, it had aphrodisiac mixed with it. Originally, Mydei bought it with good intentions. He bought a lot of chocolates from the street vendor and the vendor asked if he had a special someone at home. Reluctantly, Mydei nodded. Apparently the vendor said that his partner would enjoy this chocolate, he should share this with her and youâll both be happy.
I mean he is right though, Mydei just agreed and bought the chocolate without checking what the ingredients are. He thought this is just a new flavor, being a chocolate lover that you areâ He just wants to make you happy.
The vendor was right. Now, both are incredibly horny, but later youâll both be incredibly happy. Mydei just sighed eyebrows furrowed by how stupid he is, he shouldâve checked the ingredients first. You whimpered, rubbing yourself against him, desprate for relief.
Mydei wasted no time as he carried you by your thighs. You instinctively wrapped your legs around him so you wonât fall on the cold hard floor. He carried you to the nearest thing with a cushion so you wouldnât get uncomfortable as he fucks you that night.
Deciding on the couch, he quickly layed you there gently. Head hitting the soft cushions as his broad frame towers over you, legs still wrapped around his waist securely. Itâll take a whole set of guards to pull you off this man right now.
He pulled your shirt off of you, buldge pressing on your core past through your panties. There was already a wet spot forming indicating how wet you were. You really didnât want any foreplay right now, you just wanted him to stick it in.
âCan we skip the foreplay?⌠I really⌠canât anymore.â You said breathless, whimpering slightly from the small contact from him as you try to pull his pajamas down. âAre you sure? Itâll hurt.â Mydei said softly, no matter how many times he penetrates you, it still leaves you in pain and you couldnât get used to it. Heâs just too big, it was about above average. Around 7 inches, 5 and a half in width, veins buldging all around, and really heavy when itâs hard.
Mydei contemplated while withdrawing it out of his pajamas with his hands, stroking it for a few times before sliding your panties off. He knows it wonât fit in the first try but looking at your pussy right now, itâs already soaking wet.
âFuck, youâre so wet right now.â He said groaning swipping his middle and ring finger on your slit gathering your slick on it. You whimpered from the contact, he took his slick covered finger and tasted it. You trembled slightly.
âYouâre so sweet baby, already dripping for me? Missed my dick for the past three months?â He said with that smirk you oh so loved and hated so much. Guess heâs back to his old self again, teasing you playfully.
Mydei rubbed his tip on your hole, positioning it and collecting the slick your pussy produced, teasing you slightly before inserting his cock head slowly in you. Your breath hitched, shrieking from the piercing tip of his cock splitting you open, it was absolute torture for your hole as it was the first time you were taking him in after three months without sex. You missed this bittersweet pleasure of the stretch heâs giving you when he pushes his cock onto your pussy.
âFuck, did you get tighter? Baby please relax a little⌠youâre too tensed.â He whimpered from the tightness of your hole eagerly sucking him in yet struggling to take the whole head in. For the first time in three months he was finally sheathed in your perfect pussy again, it felt surreal.
Mydei was struggling to keep himself from fucking his whole length into you in one go. He placed his fingers on your clit while half of his cockâs head was resting inside you, he rubbed it in circles to arouse you more so itâll be much easier to penetrate his dick in your tight pussy. The sudden contact made your body arch, moaning from the contact in your bud. It felt so good that tears started to swell up in your eyes, it worked. Your pussy welcomed him with ease as he pushes the remaining in.
Now his pelvis was pressed on your folds, cock fully sheathed in. Mydei leaned in to kissed you, hips backing out as it slowly slams back in, he started to move, hips colliding with yours in a slow deliberate mannerâ his cock dragged inside you in long and deep strokes. The first few thrusts was slow, he did it on purpose so you could adjust more to his size. You mewled in the kiss as he explores every inch of your mouth, breath shortening as he continues to thrust repeating a slow constant pace.
You pulled away from the kiss, breathless as he tries to kiss you again but you rejected his advances, âFa-faster⌠go faster.â You said out of breath, you looked down where your bodies are connected as you see his cock ramming in your pussy slowly. The creamy white substance connecting you both with each thrust he makes to your pussy.
Mydei looked down to see what youâre looking at as he smirks, placing a light peck on your lips. âEnjoying the view, pretty?â He speeds up his thrusts a little as you watch his massive dick go in and out of you. You were so turned on that you keep on clamping on his dick, squeezing and sucking the life out of it as if you donât want it to go out of you.
At that point he was fighting the urge to just take you there and fuck you into oblivion, wild thoughts running through his mind as you continue to moan in his ear. Mydei is just controlling himself, he didnât want to hurt you so he always set a medium pace when you both fuck. You really wanted him to fuck you hard, like a feral animal. That is a long time fantasy of yours. But the only thing thatâs holding you from living it is him.
When you ask him to do it he said no because of one thing: He didnât want to hurt you. He wasnât opposed to the idea, it was actually something he wanted to do for a long time now. He was just afraid that heâll end up fucking it up for you both and the niht will end with you landing on the emergency room. Heâs well aware of his strength.
You placed your hands on the back of Mydeiâs hair pulling on it as you shamelessly moan his name loudly, âfaster⌠faster please mhah...â The last thread he was holding on to snapped. You were so insatiable it drove him crazy, he rocked his hips aggressively against you, skin slapping can be heared from all corners of the room. It echoed across the hall, you didnât care how loud you were anymore.
The walls are made out of stone anyways, itâs not like the neighbors could hear you. Mydei placed his hands on the couch, right beside your head as he bends you over moreâ your legs super close to your chest. His cock is now reaching a new kind of depth within you as he ransacks himself into your messy pussy.
âYou feel so nice, fuckâ I love you so much, so fucking perfect.â You were gasping, moaning, as you grip on his arm leaving red scratch marks. Mydei was hitting all the right places, especially when the tip of his cock hits that one specific spot in you that left you crying. Tears falls down your eyes, back arching against him as the pleasure started to reach itâs peakâ you were close. So fucking close.
Mydei knew your body well, hearing you moan and cry like that, he knew you were close. He abused that spot inside you, repeatedly hitting it as his pre-cum starts to fall out of his tip while thrusting inside you, a white creamy ring started to form at the base of his cock from the repeated thrusts. He pressed himself closer against you, moaning your name in your ear. âYour pussy is so good, so tight just made for my cockâŚâ
He ruts his cock harder into your pussy, pulling out till his tip was the only thing left inside youâ then slamming back in once again leaving you crying in pleasure. His balls was slapping against your ass, dick twitching inside you. The thrusts started to get sloppy, he was getting close too, âShit Iâm close, cum with me âyeah?â
You didnât respond, too fucked to even open your mouth to form a sentence when everything coming right out of your mouth was drool, moans, and his name being repeatedly chanted like an incantation spell. âYouâre so f-fucked dumb right nowâŚâ He kisses you softly while he continues to rut his hips onto yours, his cock was easily gliding in and out of your pussy now because it was so wet and streched from his massive cock.
Then the moment came when you came on his cock, it coated his length top to bottom, some even got on his pelvis. You moaned loudly, mumbling incoherent words as you came. Your whole body trembled from the pleasure, but he didnât stop.
He was still thrusting his cock inside you, even as you came, walls gripping on him as you coat his cock with your cum. Mydei was determined to chased his high, so he didnât stop poundingâ bullying his dick on your entrance, your cries got louder as you get overstimulated with pleasure. Pussy still sensitive from your orgasm.
By now Mydei slams his cock deeper inside you as you cried, he buries his cock in harderâ rougher, harsher in you. Slick falling out of your hole and into his balls, as it slapped against your ass hole. Breath ragged against your ear, moans spilling out of his mouth. Heâs now very close to spilling.
Mydei slams inside you one final time, pressing his hips against your ass. You felt the twitch of his cock as he buries his hot load deep inside youâ he stayed still, not moving an inch. You finished again, but this time with him. A silent cry left your lips as Mydei shuts them off with his lips interlocking with yours, savoring the taste of your sobs.
You couldnât move as he locked you in place while you both came, Mydei still thrusts inside you slowly, letting his cum reach the deeper areas of your pussy. He groans in the kiss, letting his cum pump out of his fat cock head, letting the last drop go inside you.
He places his forehead against yours as you whimper. The room was stuffy, the smell of sex flooded the room, you two just stayed in your position as you both came down from your high. You were exhausted from all that had happened, you didnât even bother open your eyes.
Mydei kissed you in your forehead and sat up, letting your legs unfold being placed back onto his waist. He admired your pussy as it is wreaked open by his cock, Mydei pulled his cock out of your warm pussy, letting his cum mixed together with yours drip out of you.
He leaned in closer to your entrance and licked a fat strip of your pussy. You shivered at the contact of his tongue, hands flying to his hair. Mydei slurped and cleaned your pussy filled cum with his mouth, as his tongue entered your hole and licked the cum off of it.
The warm sweet and salty mix of your cum entered his mouth, he drank everything up. Leaving your pussy cleaned from any sticky load. Mydei then proceeded to lean back closer to your face, he wipped the corners of his mouth before mouth kissing youâ making you taste both of your cum.
đŐ. .Ő𦯠â˘. Š cchampagnepapii 2025
note. ⌠I didnât proof read so some of the grammar (spellings) r wrong asfâŚâŚâŚ. I also wrote this directly here on tumblr so Iâm sorry if I had some writting errors. Oh nd this is inspired by Chappell Roanâs song! (Picture you) its the title lol listen to it plsplspls I also used this as a refrence lol
Synopsis: In the ruins of Okhema, you fall in love with a man you can never keep.
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Pairing: Mydei x F!Reader
Word Count: 3.2k
Content Warnings: spoilers for 3.5, set entirely in 3.5, angst, mydeimos the lance of yearning, vague mentions of body horror wrt the soul-splitting ceremony??, mydei probably is ooc sorry idgaf he is being a good boy for the (nonexistent) plot, krateros glazing, eurypon is a good dad as he canonically Was in that one cycle, coping mechanisms and relationship dynamics many would considerâŚinterestingâŚ, light smut (not really described but theyâre basically naked in like every scene so mdni please!), the majority of this was written on a vibe so itâs very incoherent and plotless
A/N: hi the posts about the soul splitting ceremony haunted me too much i had to get my thoughts down somewhere . donât expect greatness or comprehensibility okay thank you <33
Krateros liked to tell you that Okhema was once the heart of Amphoreus â a Chrysos Heir in its own right, as stalwart and gleaming as the ones who loved it â but now, it was little more than a witching town, empty and devoid of life barring those few remaining ghosts that steadfastly defended the formerly holy city. He was one such ghost, heâd often remark to you and Mydei when the three of you would break bread together, and then heâd wince, because inevitably Mydeiâs gentle expression would fall at the reminder that of you and Krateros and his parents, not a single one had his vitality, his eternal, golden-blooded youth.
It was the king who fell first, that lion-maned man who resembled Mydei so greatly. You remembered how proud he had been when the Kremnoan Legion marched into Okhema, his wife at his side and their prince behind him, how assured and incredible he had seemed, how certain and levelheaded. His back was to the sun, to better disguise the shadows and lines already gathering in the hollows of his face, for it was not their manner to falter, and so he did not until the very end, when he keeled over with an arrow in his heart that was meant for Mydeiâs back.
He had come to you that night, Mydei, although he did not cry. He sat on the edge of the bed and stared at the wall in silence, and you waited for him to move, to tuck himself into your arms or beg for you to comfort him, but he did no such thing. He just sat there, and then, with a hollow laugh, as empty as Okhema itself, he shifted, ever so slightly, and smiled at you.
âMy father always told me,â he said, âthat if I am to weep, lilies will bloom from my sorrow.â
âIs it true?â you said, too frightened to touch his face as you mightâve, were it any other time. He shrugged halfheartedly.
âI do not allow myself to weep, so I cannot say,â he said. âWhat is the use? Mourning is not our custom. We bury our grief on the battlefield and kill it before it can kill us.â
âBut you cannot outrun it forever,â you said, and somehow, you mustered the strength to place your hand on the place where his undying heart still beat, would forever beat, long after the rest of you had departed. âIt will catch up to you eventually, wonât it?â
âThen I will fall, just as my father did,â he said. âAnd how glorious it will be.â
His expression was so terrible, so serious, that before you knew it you were leaning forward and embracing him, your cheek to the curve of his neck, your tears slipping freely, readily, cold against his warm determination, hot against your frigid horror. You didnât want him to speak of such things, of glory and grief and lilies and dying, and you told him so in a tremulous, wavering voice.
It was then that he pressed his lips to your hairline, and it took you by enough surprise that you paused. There had always been something between the two of you, a small, quiet, blooming thing, but you had never really expected anything to come of it, and based on the way he stilled against you, you doubted he had, either. How could it? In these dusty remains of the Marmoreal Palace, surrounded by the meager resistance that he was the only one left to lead, there was no time for these lingering thoughts, which were as prone to souring as overaged honeybrew. There was a danger to the way he kissed you again and again, along your face and against your mouth, a bell tolling in that old refrain from the Okhema of before â a farewell, a countdown, a warning.
He held you to his lap that night, tender yet unyielding, and then he did as his people always did, burying his grief deep within you. His breaths came harsh and ragged as his forehead fell to your collarbone and he whispered secrets against your skin, fervent and feverish, making promises he could never keep while the bells in your mind kept ringing and ringing and ringing in an unceasing clamor.
When his mother died, that sweet, vicious queen who could only be cowed by the combined efforts of an entire wave of the foul tide, he came to you again and told you about Styxia, which had fallen just as Gorgo had, to the Black Tide and its commander. Then there was salt on your tongue and you wondered if the drowning taste resembled that famed, bloody sea; his eyes were wild but his touch along your jaw was kind when he told you to spit it out so that you did not choke on it. You supposed that meant it mustâve.
Nobody ever asked you what you meant to the prince, not even Krateros himself, though you could tell he always wondered. But it was the closest thing to kindness that he could muster, always sitting with his scarred eye facing you, so that he could pretend he did not see the shattered bone of Mydeiâs hand holding onto your own as though he might be lost without it. He was silent in his own way, dear Krateros, and you did not know what he made of it, of you, except that in his blindness â feigned or not â he never found cause to chide his charge, and on those nights after particularly difficult campaigns, he forbade the rest from searching for him until it was time to don their armor and take to their spears once more.
âI wish I had known you before,â Mydei told you, the evening before he would set out again, as he always did, as he always would. His armor and his lance leaned against the door to the dim room, but beside you he was bare, save for the red ink curling around his muscles and marking him as a warrior. âI wish I had known you in the Imperatorâs time, or even earlier.â
âIn the Imperatorâs time, you would still have been the prince of Kremnos,â you said, âbut I would have been any other girl from Okhema. We wouldnât have met, let alone known one another.â
âWe would have,â he said, rolling over onto his side so that he could brush your hair away from your face. âMy father wouldâve sent me here to learn the ways of that tyrant, and I wouldâve ran from the palace to meet you on the rooftops instead.â
âKrateros mentioned that Okhema once had a market,â you said, fighting back a snicker at the image of the infamous and long-dead Imperator doing something so domestic as fostering another kingdomâs royalty, especially a royalty such as Mydei, who was as mild-tempered as she was known to have been cruel. âIts merchants sold everything, even goods we cannot hope to imagine anymore. Maybe we mightâve met there, then. If you are so determined to believe that we wouldâve.â
âYes,â he said. âI wouldâve bought you something. I wouldâve bought you anything, if it was what you wanted.â
âHm,â you said, nuzzling closer to his chest, because suddenly you wanted to hide and you could think of no other place but him, your blanket high over your shoulders, your eyes closed and your breathing slowing to match his. âYou wouldnât have had to buy me anything.â
âI know,â he said. âBut I still wouldâve. If it were you, I wouldâve.â
Yet this was not the Imperatorâs time, and Okhema was a witching town. The rooftops were treacherous at best, the tiles slick and crumbling without anyone to maintain them, and there was nothing for Mydei to buy when there hadnât been a market in over a century, so his words meant little. Soothing and pretty and sweet, yes, but ultimately and completely meaningless. Still, you kissed him for his efforts, and then you told him that if Cyreneâs stories of the Deliverer and their cycles were true, then surely there had been at least one where the two of you had done exactly as he described.
After Kraterosâs death, word came from Mydeiâs beloved Sage, Anaxagoras. It was cryptic even to you, but Mydei seemed to understand, for he folded the paper and set it aside, nodding to himself with the sort of certainty that made your heart leap to your throat. You blinked from where he had wrapped you in his blankets, the scent of him overwhelming, dizzying, and you waited for him to explain, but for a while he did not.
âMydei?â you prompted when he remained so still. He did this every time, he retreated into his mind and buried his grief with callousness; you were sure, suddenly, that one day, maybe even today, he would bury himself and his own eternal heart along with it. And how glorious it would be.
âIt will be done,â he said, as if he were your king and you, his subject. âTomorrow.â
âWhat will?â you said, and then your stomach dropped. âIs it what Trianne warned you against?â
âYes,â he said. Trianne, the little prophet, who had as of late been distraught, bursting into tears whenever she looked upon Mydei â you had asked her what it meant, but she told you she wasnât allowed to say, nor could she dissuade him. âAnaxagoras will arrive in the morning. We have delayed long enough.â
âI donât understand,â you said. Finally he turned, and his expression was just as his fatherâs had been, with the light to his back so that he could better disguise the sickly, rancid terror rolling off of him in waves, so evident despite his calm.
âI will become a titan,â he said. âIn this world, which has no use for Strife, I will take up the mantle of that great fury in the sky, and I will â I will ââ
âWhat will he do to you?â you murmured, but he was resolute, his chin tilted up and his jaw clenched. How fierce. How proud. You almost told him the king would admire him for it, but you knew better than to speak of the Kremnoan dead, lest they haunt you for the rest of whatever life you had left to live.
âI will defend our forsaken city,â he said. âWith everything that I am, with every piece of me that is left, I will defend it.â
âMydei,â you said, and then you cast aside the blankets, standing and taking his hands in between yours, looking up at him as beseechingly as you could. âThe Sage. What will he do to you?â
âIt was my own idea,â he said, closing his eyes. âI only took his counsel to ensure it was possible, and he said it was.â
âWhat is it?â you said, guiding his palms so that he was holding your face, clutching his wrists so that he could not escape as you knew he wished to. He sighed through his nose and then leaned forward, forward, until his lips nearly brushed against yours and he became the one holding you in place.
âHeâll split me apart,â he breathed, and you could all but taste him, sweet like pomegranate and fiery like pepper, impossible to escape either way. âA five-pointed star, one for each corner of Okhema, the final to remain in its center and defend it until my bitter end.â
âYou donât meanââ
âI do,â he said. âHe will cut me along the seams of my body, so that his scalpel may reach the lines of my soul and cleave it into the fragments of Strife. It will leave me in the eternal agony Trianne is so saddened by, but it matters not. Pain I can endure. Pain I can become.â
âHe will cut you,â you said, and you were horrified into a sort of numb blankness. You could not fathom it, the indomitable Mydeimos stripped so savagely, his strong, perfect body rendered into sparkling little puzzle pieces, into the golden shards of a man-turned-titan. âHe will cut you, that wretched, despicable Sageââ
âYou mustnât blame him,â Mydei said, cutting you off with a swift press of his thumb to your lower lip. âDidnât I tell you? It was my own idea. This is the best way for all of us.â
âHow can that be? You said it yourself â you will suffer eternally!â you said.
âBut maybe you will live,â he said, and he always spoke so simply, straightforward and honest as he was, but unlike every other time when you considered it a blessing, today you cursed him for it. âMaybe Amphoreus will survive until the Delivererâs return. The suffering of one man is meaningless to that.â
You knew, then, why Trianne had said it was futile to convince him. His mind was made, and if Anaxagoras agreed with him, that finicky blasphemer, then this really was the only way forward. It would be done, then. Tomorrow. The Sage would arrive and he would take that body you had learnt so well, for so long, and then he would cut it, he would rip it and rip it until Mydei turned into something far beyond recognition.
He took your hand, then, holding it up to the candlelight and admiring it before placing it on his right shoulder, allowing your fingertips to skim along the slope of his arm, the arc of his muscle. The entire time he watched you, but you pretended you did not notice, because you were consumed with this old knowing, this new memorization.
âThe first,â he murmured, his voice low in the back of his throat. âCourage. And the second will be the left. Honor.â
He took a step forward, bidding you to sit on the edge of the bed, and then he allowed you to lean your cheek against his stomach, your nails digging into his hips as he stroked your hair in that way of his, so idle and careless that it could only be orchestrated with the utmost of consideration.
âTenacity and Sacrifice,â he said. âA leg each. And the finalââ
âEnough,â you said. âEnough, I donât â you are not yet a titan, so lie with me as Mydeimos, as Mydei, donât let them cut you apart before you must ââ
He fell atop you then, graceless and relieved, and you wanted to tell him that he ought to cut you apart, too; you mightâve, if you thought it would inspire anything but disgust in him. Pull me into pieces, you wanted to beg as his nimble fingers worked through laces and ties and fabric, too much fabric, pull me and tear me and let me bury my grief in you.
You would never be used to him, to that weight heavy within you, to the silken locks that brushed against your skin, to the burning fingertips which maneuvered you and toyed with you easily, so easily. You loved him, that was what it was, you would love him in the Imperatorâs markets or on the Goldweaverâs rooftops or even here, in this palace left for witches and waifs, silent save for your pitiful, helpless whining.
âI wonât be afraid,â he said when he lay his head against the swell of your breasts, though it was hard to believe when his voice was so choked with something entirely foreign, entirely unlike him. âI will face it as my mother and father taught me to.â
âYou can be afraid,â you said, combing through his hair with your fingers, your own tears long since dried and gone and ensconced somewhere far. âI should not judge. Who would? If anyone in the world can be afraid, it is you.â
He pressed impossibly closer to you, for once the one hiding his face from the world. âBut thatâs not true. I more than anyone must remain unafraid, and so I will stay on my feet until the end.â
âYou donât have to.â
âI will. And I wonât cry, either.â
âOkay,â you said, because you were far too exhausted now, far beyond arguing with him. âYou wonât cry.â
âYou shouldnât, either,â he said. âIâm luckier than most. This âdeathâ is not the end for me; it isnât even a death in the first place. I will still be with you. I promise that as well.â
âBut not like this,â you said, a stubborn prickling along the back of your eyes rising once more, curious and detestable and impossible to win against. âNever like this. You wonât be Mydei.â
âNo,â he said. âI suppose I wonât be.â
You will be a titan, not a man. You will be a five-pointed star, not a prince. You will be Striife, not Mydeimos. I will love you and you will not even know me. I will love you and you will love the world more, and never can I blame you for it.
You did not know what more to say, what else to say without sounding achingly, consumingly selfish, so you were silent, and you supposed at some point you mustâve fallen asleep, for when you next awoke, the pillows and blankets were arranged neatly around you how you always preferred, and there was a letter written in a childâs handwriting on your bedside, right next to a vase of white lilies.
Friend,
Dei asked us to write to you, because he canât anymore and we are the only ones left who can understand the tongue of the titans. Itâs funnyâŚhe still sounds so similar, still speaks the exact same, the way any good Kremnoan might. We wish you could talk to him yourself, but since you canât, this will have to do.
He has taken on the Coreflame of Strife, and the Soul-Splitting Ceremony is complete. Courage, Honor, Tenacity, and Sacrifice have left for the four corners of Okhema, where they will make their stands against Lygusâs forces. We made sure to light his way; we promise that as long as there is some of us left, his every path will be free of obstacles.
Oh, he is as impatient as he was when we were his tutors, in those memories little Reney showed us. We are writing too much for his tastes! He wants you to know that he apologizes, but he could not help himself from his weakness, and that he hopes you do not think less of him for this proof of his mortality, when he is meant to be invulnerable. He did not weep, he maintains this, but in the end he did lie on his side instead of standing as his parents had taught him, and he hugged his knees instead of facing Anaxagoras in the way of a warrior king.
But he also wants you to know that in exchange for this promise which he has broken, there has been another that he has kept, that he will continue to keep: his final fragment does not march forth to the battlefield alongside its brethren. Here it remains, in Okhema with us. With you.
âI am not Mydei,â it says. âI am only his heart, his Reason â but I will stay with you. In this empty city, even if there is nothing and no one else left to defend, I will stay with you.â
There was once a great garden on the roof of the Marmoreal Palace. Nothing grows there anymore, but we are sure that if you look for him where the lilies used to bloom, you might find him waiting.
mydeimos, the undying warrior, and the ambitious explorer of the bush. | mydei x f!reader - 1.4k words
⤡ 18+, cunnilingus, a peculiar fascination with your bush, his freak knows no bounds but heâs a softie too so thereâs that, a little biting.
"what are you doing?" your voice rang out in the bedroom, which had been quiet for a while now, long enough for it to tip over the edge of peacefulness and make you curious.
you laid on the bed with nothing but a sleep shirt on, hiked up to your stomach, legs parted and a hint of embarrassment starting to creep up onto you. mydei had been kneeling on the floor and in between your legs, which were dangling off the bed, minutes ticking by as his golden eyes assessed your pussy with quiet reverie.
his fingers had busied themselves with twirling the thick patch of hair on your pubic mound, fiddling with the strands between his index and thumb, his elbow propped on the mattress, other hand neatly placed under his chin. in any other circumstance, he would've looked like he was amidst of thinking something important. revolutionary even.
but here he was, staring at your half naked form and just playing with your bush.
"are you attempting to⌠pet my bush?" you snorted, though your face had long heated up by now, confused and curious. mydei had never backed down from showering your body with every ounce of affection he had within him, going all and beyond to show just how much he adored you, tracing your body akin to how a sculptor would tenderly measure out it's work, fingers caressing every curve and bump.
which also meant that mydei was rather shameless.
"maybe," his reply was short, not curt. "it's calling to me."
"calling to you?" you choked out, covering your mouth instantly when he shot you a light-hearted glare, genuine in his words.
"of course." his lips brushed against your left inner thigh, dangerously close to your folds, teeth nipping onto the skin. his hands, roughened from years of sparring and fighting, now held your hips delicately, fingers digging into the skin slightly.
"must've missed me." a hint of amusement seeped into his voice, his lips now grazing against your folds, pressing swift pecks on them, purposefully avoiding parting your folds or going anywhere near your clit, as if he was intent on riling you up. "so breathtaking, isn't she?"
you didn't respond, instead groaning, your hands reaching up to cover your face, only to be stopped halfway when mydei leaned up to grab them by the wrists.
"don't even attempt to hide yourself." he huffed, yet his tone softened at the end. his thumb rubbed circles at your connected wrists before he let them go, his eyes darting back between your legs, almost as if he couldn't help it.
"you just sound soâŚ" your breath hitched, unable to form words. it was pathetic really, how mydei was barely doing anything and here you were, on the verge of melting into a puddle, unable to speak coherently. but he found it endearing, indescribably so.
"lovesick?" his breath fanned against your pussy, fingers once again moving through the curls of your bush. "i am." he paused for a while, before a grin twitched onto his lips. "never shave it."
"mydei!" your head fell back after giving him a shocked stare, though you kept laughing, unable to not smile despite your cheeks hurting at this point. "now don't start talking to my bush too, please."
mydei hummed under his breath, his fingers spreading your folds open, glistening with your arousal. he heard the way your breath hitched when his exhaled warmly against your clit, twitching, slightly puffy. he stifled back a groan, which â to no avail â was still audible enough for you to hear, sending a rush through your body. he sounded hungry, ravenous.
yet his fingers didn't cease their gentle wandering, both hands holding onto your sides, mapping out your body. "you're so beautiful." he whispered hoarsely, his tongue sticking out to lick a long strip across your slit, teeth scraping just the slightest against your clit, enough to earn a sweet whimper from you. your legs trembled, loosely wrapping around his torso, keeping him close.
mydei tilted his head slightly, his nose caressing your inner thigh before he parted his lips, biting onto the soft flesh gently. you twitched, hands instinctively finding themselves reaching for his head, fingers tangling into strawberry blond hair. he suckled onto the skin, firm yet not harsh, nipping on it enough to leave a hickey when he pulled back.
"you're so messy." you swallowed, fingers tugging at his hair in an attempt to guide his face back towards your pussy, not bothering to hide your restlessness at this point.
"am i?" he asked, mostly rhetorical, too distracted by the way you were pulling at him. and who was he to deny you?
grabbing your hips, he pulled you forward until his mouth was latched onto your clit, his tongue circling the sensitive bundle of nerves firmly, feeling it pulsate. he kept circling around your clit, his golden eyes peering up at you lazily, nose buried into your pubic curls.
"f-fuck-" you stuttered out, helplessly bucking against his mouth.
mydei was all consuming with his presence, domineering and effortlessly magnetic. yet here he was on his knees, feasting upon you like a man starved, even though this clearly wasn't the first time he was doing this with you. a man so hopelessly in love.
his lips enclosed around your clit, beginning to suck on it. a choked moan left you as you threw your head back, fingers unconsciously tightening around his hair, electric heat blooming within you. he didn't bother to keep it quiet, slurping and sucking loud enough for it to fill the bedroom up.
his left hand gently supported you by sliding down to cup your ass, pushing it up slightly so his other hand could slide between your legs with ease, fingers probing against your entrance.
mydei's gaze never left yours, watching every furrow of your brows and every tremble of yours lips, making sure you were alright. you looked so gratified, a thin sheen of sweat covering your forehead, lips parted, eyes closed. his middle finger gently pushed past your entrance, instantly clenched by your walls, his mouth continuing to suckle on your clit.
as his middle finger gently rubbed inside your pussy, his index soon joined in, both fingers parting to stretch you out, the roughened pads of his fingers rubbing firmly against your spongy walls.
"oh- it's so much!" your legs had subconsciously tightened around him by now, thighs squeezing around his head, neither of which he minded. the continuous pressure of his mouth on your clit and his fingers thrusting against your sweet spot with such ease were making you quiver wholly, heat flaring in your lower abdomen, threatening to explode.
"i'm so closeâŚ" you whined out, squeezing around his fingers.
mydei hummed against your clit, the sound sending small vibrations through your insides whereas he was too busy to even speak, the pace of his fingers unrelenting and not changing its steadiness, encouraging you.
as the pressure building within you reached it's height, it wasn't long until you came all over his tongue, your body convulsing and squeezing hardly around his fingers. his fingers slowed down alongside his mouth on your clit, gently letting you ride your orgasm out until you fell limp onto the mattress, all mush and heavy breaths.
when mydei pulled back, panting softly, his lips and chin were glistening, a pleased grin adorning his lips as he looked down at the sight of your slightly damp curls and the your face, all heated up, hair strands sticking to your cheeks.
"hey," he whispered softly, pressing soft peck along your thighs and moving up to your hips, squeezing your waist. "look at me?"
"mmhâŚ" you made a little noise, vision bleary as you looked down at him, his own hair tousled with all the pulling you'd done.
âyou did so good.â
your legs still trembled from the after-shocks of your orgasm, the stress slowly seeping out.Â
mydei got up from the floor and joined you on the bed, strong arms cradling your body close to his, rubbing your back soothingly.
âcome here.â you slurred out, attempting to pull him even closer, burying your face into his neck. he chuckled lowly, pressing a soft kiss on the crown of your head. your sweet, unapologetically ardent mydeimos.Â
finding a piece of writing irl but the author seems suspiciously good at it so you start speculating if they wrote fanfiction once or writes fanfiction
you hear music coming from the living room one afternoon, only to find out mydei has...unexpected taste in music.
mydei x f!reader, modern au!, established relationship, fluff, mydei is a momma's boy
currently listening to "valerie live at bbc"
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You wake up from your afternoon nap to the sound of music and the high pitched sound of someone trying to tune a guitar. The clock on your phone shows 2:03pm.
You slowly step out of the bedroom and are greeted by the pleasant sight of Mydei tuning his guitar on the floor while a song plays on his mother's old record player.
"Amy Winehouse..?" You ask slowly. Mydei nods, "Just felt in the mood. Sorry if I woke you up."
"I didn't know you liked jazz. Or any kind of music that wasn't rock for that matter." You teased, sitting down criss-cross beside him on the floor.
Mydei gives you an unimpressed look, before turning his attention back to the guitar on his lap, "Mum used to play all sorts of music. She especially liked jazz."
"Well, she had good taste." You said softly, trying not to break the gentle atmosphere surrounding the two of you.
Whenever Mydei spoke of his late mother, his features softened in a way that made him look less like a scary, tatted-up 23 year old, and more like a little boy. It made you fall in love with how genuine his is.
"When she passed, I took her vinyl collection, along with the record player. It's comforting to know that I have them, and not my dad. After all, it's thanks to her that I started playing guitar in the first place."
You rest your hand on his leg, softly rubbing the skin of his knee as his hand reaches to lace your fingers together.
"Did you sleep well?" He changed the subject.
"Would've been better if someone was there, but it was alright, I guess."
He sets the guitar to the side before turning to you again and patting his lap for you to sit on.
"What?" You asked as he pat his lap once more.
"I wanna teach you something." Was all he gave you.
After you accommodated yourself in his lap, he reached for his guitar once more, placing it over your legs and gently guiding your hand to the rosewood fretboard.
He takes your non-dominant hand and places it into a simple shape over the strings. Your first finger on the first fret of the second string from the bottom, and your second finger on the second fret of the second string from the top.
"This, is called an A minor 7th chord." His voices whispers gently over your shoulder.
"What song are you teaching me, Dei?" You asked to which he stayed quiet..
Without answering, he moves your hands into a slightly more complicated shape, "This is a G chord."
He grabs your dominant hand and places it over the pick-guard, putting your thumb on the second string from the top and moving your fingers back to Am7. Your thumb gently glides over the strings as you strum the first chord.
After some time of playing the two notes back and forth, you realized,
"Hey, this sounds kinda familiar, Dei.." You teased, "I think I know this song~"
He looked away momentarily, "If you know it then why don't you sing it for me?" He teased back.
Getting comfy in his lap, you rest your head against his shoulder, and he continues guiding your hands through the song.
"You're everything I want but I can't deal with all your lovers. You're saying I'm the one but it's your actions that speak louder."
"Giving me love when you are down and need another, I've got to get away and let you go, I've got to get over."
When you get to the chorus, he takes over on the guitar, since you don't know the following chords.
"But I love you so."
"I love. you. so." You poke his chest in time with the words, and he lets out a chuckle.
"I love you so, I love you so."
He stops playing and you look up to see his face, "Someone's feeling nostalgic today."
"T-That's not it. It's just-" The tips of his ears turn red to match his tattoos..
"Just what? You just randomly remembered the song that played in the cafe during our first date?"
"There's no 'nostalgia' behind it." He made air-quotes on nostalgia, as he is taken back to that awful day.
Your first date took place in a humble cafe that was close to campus, called Lucid Hour. He had been a nervous wreck, and although you were too, you did a better job at hiding it.
When one of the baristas, and also a familiar face, Phainon, noticed exactly who was sitting in one of the tables, he came over and started teasing the two of you,
"Aww, you guys finally did it! I'm so proud, I feel kind of like a parent right now!"
"You do know I'm older than you, Phainon." Mydei had grumbled.
"Haha, I'm well aware, Mydeimos. Oh, I know just the thing to make this better!" Phainon ran off to the back of the store, and soon after the background music of the cafe had changed.
"The Walters..? Who knew Phainon had decent music taste.." You spoke your thoughts out loud.
"You'd think it would match his taste in clothes, complete garbage." He joked
"Maybe, he's just trying to help the atmosphere.."
"Maybe, he's should quit paying attention to us and making things awkward instead of doing his job." He said, the tips of his ears turning red, almost the same shade as his intricate tattoos.
Back in the present, your laugh pleasantly fills his ears, much better than any music, "Haha, Admit it, Dei! You're a softie!"
"... Maybe I am." His leans down to kiss the crown of your head, "but only for you."
Synopsis: In the ruins of Okhema, you fall in love with a man you can never keep.
HSR Masterlist
Pairing: Mydei x F!Reader
Word Count: 3.2k
Content Warnings: spoilers for 3.5, set entirely in 3.5, angst, mydeimos the lance of yearning, vague mentions of body horror wrt the soul-splitting ceremony??, mydei probably is ooc sorry idgaf he is being a good boy for the (nonexistent) plot, krateros glazing, eurypon is a good dad as he canonically Was in that one cycle, coping mechanisms and relationship dynamics many would considerâŚinterestingâŚ, light smut (not really described but theyâre basically naked in like every scene so mdni please!), the majority of this was written on a vibe so itâs very incoherent and plotless
A/N: hi the posts about the soul splitting ceremony haunted me too much i had to get my thoughts down somewhere . donât expect greatness or comprehensibility okay thank you <33
Krateros liked to tell you that Okhema was once the heart of Amphoreus â a Chrysos Heir in its own right, as stalwart and gleaming as the ones who loved it â but now, it was little more than a witching town, empty and devoid of life barring those few remaining ghosts that steadfastly defended the formerly holy city. He was one such ghost, heâd often remark to you and Mydei when the three of you would break bread together, and then heâd wince, because inevitably Mydeiâs gentle expression would fall at the reminder that of you and Krateros and his parents, not a single one had his vitality, his eternal, golden-blooded youth.
It was the king who fell first, that lion-maned man who resembled Mydei so greatly. You remembered how proud he had been when the Kremnoan Legion marched into Okhema, his wife at his side and their prince behind him, how assured and incredible he had seemed, how certain and levelheaded. His back was to the sun, to better disguise the shadows and lines already gathering in the hollows of his face, for it was not their manner to falter, and so he did not until the very end, when he keeled over with an arrow in his heart that was meant for Mydeiâs back.
He had come to you that night, Mydei, although he did not cry. He sat on the edge of the bed and stared at the wall in silence, and you waited for him to move, to tuck himself into your arms or beg for you to comfort him, but he did no such thing. He just sat there, and then, with a hollow laugh, as empty as Okhema itself, he shifted, ever so slightly, and smiled at you.
âMy father always told me,â he said, âthat if I am to weep, lilies will bloom from my sorrow.â
âIs it true?â you said, too frightened to touch his face as you mightâve, were it any other time. He shrugged halfheartedly.
âI do not allow myself to weep, so I cannot say,â he said. âWhat is the use? Mourning is not our custom. We bury our grief on the battlefield and kill it before it can kill us.â
âBut you cannot outrun it forever,â you said, and somehow, you mustered the strength to place your hand on the place where his undying heart still beat, would forever beat, long after the rest of you had departed. âIt will catch up to you eventually, wonât it?â
âThen I will fall, just as my father did,â he said. âAnd how glorious it will be.â
His expression was so terrible, so serious, that before you knew it you were leaning forward and embracing him, your cheek to the curve of his neck, your tears slipping freely, readily, cold against his warm determination, hot against your frigid horror. You didnât want him to speak of such things, of glory and grief and lilies and dying, and you told him so in a tremulous, wavering voice.
It was then that he pressed his lips to your hairline, and it took you by enough surprise that you paused. There had always been something between the two of you, a small, quiet, blooming thing, but you had never really expected anything to come of it, and based on the way he stilled against you, you doubted he had, either. How could it? In these dusty remains of the Marmoreal Palace, surrounded by the meager resistance that he was the only one left to lead, there was no time for these lingering thoughts, which were as prone to souring as overaged honeybrew. There was a danger to the way he kissed you again and again, along your face and against your mouth, a bell tolling in that old refrain from the Okhema of before â a farewell, a countdown, a warning.
He held you to his lap that night, tender yet unyielding, and then he did as his people always did, burying his grief deep within you. His breaths came harsh and ragged as his forehead fell to your collarbone and he whispered secrets against your skin, fervent and feverish, making promises he could never keep while the bells in your mind kept ringing and ringing and ringing in an unceasing clamor.
When his mother died, that sweet, vicious queen who could only be cowed by the combined efforts of an entire wave of the foul tide, he came to you again and told you about Styxia, which had fallen just as Gorgo had, to the Black Tide and its commander. Then there was salt on your tongue and you wondered if the drowning taste resembled that famed, bloody sea; his eyes were wild but his touch along your jaw was kind when he told you to spit it out so that you did not choke on it. You supposed that meant it mustâve.
Nobody ever asked you what you meant to the prince, not even Krateros himself, though you could tell he always wondered. But it was the closest thing to kindness that he could muster, always sitting with his scarred eye facing you, so that he could pretend he did not see the shattered bone of Mydeiâs hand holding onto your own as though he might be lost without it. He was silent in his own way, dear Krateros, and you did not know what he made of it, of you, except that in his blindness â feigned or not â he never found cause to chide his charge, and on those nights after particularly difficult campaigns, he forbade the rest from searching for him until it was time to don their armor and take to their spears once more.
âI wish I had known you before,â Mydei told you, the evening before he would set out again, as he always did, as he always would. His armor and his lance leaned against the door to the dim room, but beside you he was bare, save for the red ink curling around his muscles and marking him as a warrior. âI wish I had known you in the Imperatorâs time, or even earlier.â
âIn the Imperatorâs time, you would still have been the prince of Kremnos,â you said, âbut I would have been any other girl from Okhema. We wouldnât have met, let alone known one another.â
âWe would have,â he said, rolling over onto his side so that he could brush your hair away from your face. âMy father wouldâve sent me here to learn the ways of that tyrant, and I wouldâve ran from the palace to meet you on the rooftops instead.â
âKrateros mentioned that Okhema once had a market,â you said, fighting back a snicker at the image of the infamous and long-dead Imperator doing something so domestic as fostering another kingdomâs royalty, especially a royalty such as Mydei, who was as mild-tempered as she was known to have been cruel. âIts merchants sold everything, even goods we cannot hope to imagine anymore. Maybe we mightâve met there, then. If you are so determined to believe that we wouldâve.â
âYes,â he said. âI wouldâve bought you something. I wouldâve bought you anything, if it was what you wanted.â
âHm,â you said, nuzzling closer to his chest, because suddenly you wanted to hide and you could think of no other place but him, your blanket high over your shoulders, your eyes closed and your breathing slowing to match his. âYou wouldnât have had to buy me anything.â
âI know,â he said. âBut I still wouldâve. If it were you, I wouldâve.â
Yet this was not the Imperatorâs time, and Okhema was a witching town. The rooftops were treacherous at best, the tiles slick and crumbling without anyone to maintain them, and there was nothing for Mydei to buy when there hadnât been a market in over a century, so his words meant little. Soothing and pretty and sweet, yes, but ultimately and completely meaningless. Still, you kissed him for his efforts, and then you told him that if Cyreneâs stories of the Deliverer and their cycles were true, then surely there had been at least one where the two of you had done exactly as he described.
After Kraterosâs death, word came from Mydeiâs beloved Sage, Anaxagoras. It was cryptic even to you, but Mydei seemed to understand, for he folded the paper and set it aside, nodding to himself with the sort of certainty that made your heart leap to your throat. You blinked from where he had wrapped you in his blankets, the scent of him overwhelming, dizzying, and you waited for him to explain, but for a while he did not.
âMydei?â you prompted when he remained so still. He did this every time, he retreated into his mind and buried his grief with callousness; you were sure, suddenly, that one day, maybe even today, he would bury himself and his own eternal heart along with it. And how glorious it would be.
âIt will be done,â he said, as if he were your king and you, his subject. âTomorrow.â
âWhat will?â you said, and then your stomach dropped. âIs it what Trianne warned you against?â
âYes,â he said. Trianne, the little prophet, who had as of late been distraught, bursting into tears whenever she looked upon Mydei â you had asked her what it meant, but she told you she wasnât allowed to say, nor could she dissuade him. âAnaxagoras will arrive in the morning. We have delayed long enough.â
âI donât understand,â you said. Finally he turned, and his expression was just as his fatherâs had been, with the light to his back so that he could better disguise the sickly, rancid terror rolling off of him in waves, so evident despite his calm.
âI will become a titan,â he said. âIn this world, which has no use for Strife, I will take up the mantle of that great fury in the sky, and I will â I will ââ
âWhat will he do to you?â you murmured, but he was resolute, his chin tilted up and his jaw clenched. How fierce. How proud. You almost told him the king would admire him for it, but you knew better than to speak of the Kremnoan dead, lest they haunt you for the rest of whatever life you had left to live.
âI will defend our forsaken city,â he said. âWith everything that I am, with every piece of me that is left, I will defend it.â
âMydei,â you said, and then you cast aside the blankets, standing and taking his hands in between yours, looking up at him as beseechingly as you could. âThe Sage. What will he do to you?â
âIt was my own idea,â he said, closing his eyes. âI only took his counsel to ensure it was possible, and he said it was.â
âWhat is it?â you said, guiding his palms so that he was holding your face, clutching his wrists so that he could not escape as you knew he wished to. He sighed through his nose and then leaned forward, forward, until his lips nearly brushed against yours and he became the one holding you in place.
âHeâll split me apart,â he breathed, and you could all but taste him, sweet like pomegranate and fiery like pepper, impossible to escape either way. âA five-pointed star, one for each corner of Okhema, the final to remain in its center and defend it until my bitter end.â
âYou donât meanââ
âI do,â he said. âHe will cut me along the seams of my body, so that his scalpel may reach the lines of my soul and cleave it into the fragments of Strife. It will leave me in the eternal agony Trianne is so saddened by, but it matters not. Pain I can endure. Pain I can become.â
âHe will cut you,â you said, and you were horrified into a sort of numb blankness. You could not fathom it, the indomitable Mydeimos stripped so savagely, his strong, perfect body rendered into sparkling little puzzle pieces, into the golden shards of a man-turned-titan. âHe will cut you, that wretched, despicable Sageââ
âYou mustnât blame him,â Mydei said, cutting you off with a swift press of his thumb to your lower lip. âDidnât I tell you? It was my own idea. This is the best way for all of us.â
âHow can that be? You said it yourself â you will suffer eternally!â you said.
âBut maybe you will live,â he said, and he always spoke so simply, straightforward and honest as he was, but unlike every other time when you considered it a blessing, today you cursed him for it. âMaybe Amphoreus will survive until the Delivererâs return. The suffering of one man is meaningless to that.â
You knew, then, why Trianne had said it was futile to convince him. His mind was made, and if Anaxagoras agreed with him, that finicky blasphemer, then this really was the only way forward. It would be done, then. Tomorrow. The Sage would arrive and he would take that body you had learnt so well, for so long, and then he would cut it, he would rip it and rip it until Mydei turned into something far beyond recognition.
He took your hand, then, holding it up to the candlelight and admiring it before placing it on his right shoulder, allowing your fingertips to skim along the slope of his arm, the arc of his muscle. The entire time he watched you, but you pretended you did not notice, because you were consumed with this old knowing, this new memorization.
âThe first,â he murmured, his voice low in the back of his throat. âCourage. And the second will be the left. Honor.â
He took a step forward, bidding you to sit on the edge of the bed, and then he allowed you to lean your cheek against his stomach, your nails digging into his hips as he stroked your hair in that way of his, so idle and careless that it could only be orchestrated with the utmost of consideration.
âTenacity and Sacrifice,â he said. âA leg each. And the finalââ
âEnough,â you said. âEnough, I donât â you are not yet a titan, so lie with me as Mydeimos, as Mydei, donât let them cut you apart before you must ââ
He fell atop you then, graceless and relieved, and you wanted to tell him that he ought to cut you apart, too; you mightâve, if you thought it would inspire anything but disgust in him. Pull me into pieces, you wanted to beg as his nimble fingers worked through laces and ties and fabric, too much fabric, pull me and tear me and let me bury my grief in you.
You would never be used to him, to that weight heavy within you, to the silken locks that brushed against your skin, to the burning fingertips which maneuvered you and toyed with you easily, so easily. You loved him, that was what it was, you would love him in the Imperatorâs markets or on the Goldweaverâs rooftops or even here, in this palace left for witches and waifs, silent save for your pitiful, helpless whining.
âI wonât be afraid,â he said when he lay his head against the swell of your breasts, though it was hard to believe when his voice was so choked with something entirely foreign, entirely unlike him. âI will face it as my mother and father taught me to.â
âYou can be afraid,â you said, combing through his hair with your fingers, your own tears long since dried and gone and ensconced somewhere far. âI should not judge. Who would? If anyone in the world can be afraid, it is you.â
He pressed impossibly closer to you, for once the one hiding his face from the world. âBut thatâs not true. I more than anyone must remain unafraid, and so I will stay on my feet until the end.â
âYou donât have to.â
âI will. And I wonât cry, either.â
âOkay,â you said, because you were far too exhausted now, far beyond arguing with him. âYou wonât cry.â
âYou shouldnât, either,â he said. âIâm luckier than most. This âdeathâ is not the end for me; it isnât even a death in the first place. I will still be with you. I promise that as well.â
âBut not like this,â you said, a stubborn prickling along the back of your eyes rising once more, curious and detestable and impossible to win against. âNever like this. You wonât be Mydei.â
âNo,â he said. âI suppose I wonât be.â
You will be a titan, not a man. You will be a five-pointed star, not a prince. You will be Striife, not Mydeimos. I will love you and you will not even know me. I will love you and you will love the world more, and never can I blame you for it.
You did not know what more to say, what else to say without sounding achingly, consumingly selfish, so you were silent, and you supposed at some point you mustâve fallen asleep, for when you next awoke, the pillows and blankets were arranged neatly around you how you always preferred, and there was a letter written in a childâs handwriting on your bedside, right next to a vase of white lilies.
Friend,
Dei asked us to write to you, because he canât anymore and we are the only ones left who can understand the tongue of the titans. Itâs funnyâŚhe still sounds so similar, still speaks the exact same, the way any good Kremnoan might. We wish you could talk to him yourself, but since you canât, this will have to do.
He has taken on the Coreflame of Strife, and the Soul-Splitting Ceremony is complete. Courage, Honor, Tenacity, and Sacrifice have left for the four corners of Okhema, where they will make their stands against Lygusâs forces. We made sure to light his way; we promise that as long as there is some of us left, his every path will be free of obstacles.
Oh, he is as impatient as he was when we were his tutors, in those memories little Reney showed us. We are writing too much for his tastes! He wants you to know that he apologizes, but he could not help himself from his weakness, and that he hopes you do not think less of him for this proof of his mortality, when he is meant to be invulnerable. He did not weep, he maintains this, but in the end he did lie on his side instead of standing as his parents had taught him, and he hugged his knees instead of facing Anaxagoras in the way of a warrior king.
But he also wants you to know that in exchange for this promise which he has broken, there has been another that he has kept, that he will continue to keep: his final fragment does not march forth to the battlefield alongside its brethren. Here it remains, in Okhema with us. With you.
âI am not Mydei,â it says. âI am only his heart, his Reason â but I will stay with you. In this empty city, even if there is nothing and no one else left to defend, I will stay with you.â
There was once a great garden on the roof of the Marmoreal Palace. Nothing grows there anymore, but we are sure that if you look for him where the lilies used to bloom, you might find him waiting.