♡ Kairo ♡

【Capricorn】【Just a simp :) 】 ➡ 18 - Jan 1 ➡ Anime, Kpop, Art ➡ Oneshots and Drabbles ➡ Angst Lover (*´︶`*)➡ Genderfluid➡ Sukaira is my comfort oc I love her omg

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it's so cute, also woah I'm alive AGAIN

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a noble sacrifice

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👁️👁️.

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I'm back?

uh so, I've been busy getting to know everyone in my campus since I just got into college a few months ago. I just recently began to have free time so I'm sorry if I haven't been active nor writing at all. I think I'll write the beginning of the orv fic I posted. Not sure when I'd finish it but I'll prolly have to make it short considering how busy I'm getting.

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ORV—Not Supposed to Happen

➡ 〔Kim Dokja x AMAB! KPOP! Reader〕

➡ Letter Content: Where a kpop idol loves to read webtoon after practice. His group's holiday turns into a nightmare fest and now he struggles to accept his reality.

➡ Messenger Note: If I wrote a fanfic lol, TW: Mentions of death, murder, blood. I mean, it's the first scenario cmon.

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How could the protagonist of ORV adapt so easily? How could he have thought so fast in the matter of a few minutes? How could he be so lucky?

Well, you weren't him.

You didn't have fourth wall like every fanfiction out there may suggest... Why not? You're just as well aware of this fictional world as Kim Dokja is, so why not you?

You asked these questions because unlike him, you had to follow the rules in the first scenario. You had blood on your hands.

The blood of a friend turned traitor. Now, you're desperate to have a peace of mind. Where else other than by the actual protagonist, Kim Dokja's side?

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This wasn't how the holiday was supposed to go.

This wasn't a dream, you've tested it. The pain is real, the squeeze in your heart felt real, the blood trickling down from your cheek to the floor felt and so did the multiple wounds on your arms felt real.

【The constellations applaud your tenacity.】

This... Was supposed to be fictional, a fun little webtoon to read after practice.

So why were your friend... Your family sitting in a sea of their own blood? Why did you hold the knife and why was it lodged into your mates' head?

Why are your hands red?

Why are you trembling, crying?

【Congratulations! You're the only survivor in this room!】

【300 coins gifted for completion. 】

A scream echoed in the hotel room.

Was that screaming you?

Was that why your throat is parched?

Shit.

You let out a sob, your hands smudging the large window panes overlooking Seoul with red. Your body felt weak as if you were contracting the worst of covid-19's symptoms kind of weak. The 'running a 5 lap, 1000m marathon' kind of weak, the 'danced everyday, without sleep, without rests and without food for hours on end' kind of weak.

I mean, how could you not feel exhausted? You were roomed with the main dancer in your group who regularly exercised—in addition to that, one of the former gymnast champions in all of Japan.

It's a surprise you survived instead of him.

A weakling, only ever locking yourself in your room despite being the lead dancer just to get a chance of reading the ever-so-popular omniscient reader's viewpoint.

ORV in short.

You were close to the main dancer, someone who you won't name as a friend anymore; He who jumped at the butter knife and launched at you to survive. He who screamed for you to give in because he would make sure to avenge you.

Avenge you?

You weren't even dead.

Of course you'd fight for your life.

How could he attack you in your most vulnerable state? You thought you could trust him. He was your friend after all. He was supposed to protect you. How could he try and kill you?Ha. You didn't even know you had it in you to break his wrist, to pick up the knife and stab it through his head whilst he was strangling you.

You didn't know you had the guts in you to kill.

To kill your own.

You stumbled into the wall, your breathe barely catching the needed oxygen for you to survive as the sobs successfully slipped out through your lips.

Staggering, you approached the doorway. Dismissive that you would regret not collecting the items you needed for survival going forward as all there was in your mind was your other group members.

What about the leader and the youngest? What about the staff members and the assistant trainees? Are they alive? Are they dead? Did they kill to survive too?

Your hand twisted the doorknob, but you didn't open it.

"(Name)...? Y-you're alive?"

It's your leader. Your eyes were getting heavy, either way you willed yourself to look into theirs.

He must've been expecting him...

【The Constellation 'Blind Hunter with Lion Skin' is interested on how you will take care of this one. 】 【The Prophet whose prophecies were not believed bets that you will spare him. 】

"...Sunbae."

Your knees buckled below you. A headache forming in your head from the messages.

Luckily, your leader catches you, his hands trembling as well but his face steeled at your state.

"I... I killed him." You stuttered out, body flinching as his hands gripped your shoulders.

"Shh... It's okay now." His voice spoke ever so softly, as if you would break if handled roughly. He placed your head onto his shoulders as he rubbed your back in a comforting manner.

"He tried to—he went for me."

"I know. I know."

"I'm scared."

"I'll protect you. Your sunbae will take care of you." Liar.

His voice hitched.

He's as scared as you were.

His hands... They're red too.

Flashback? Idk yet, these two constellations are my fav.

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Masterlist

Thanks for checking out my masterlist! It is mostly nsfw, sfw is designated accordingly (most sfw pieces will be at the oneshots section or in fluffy drabbles near the end of this post!) 

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Hesitant - Ushijima x Reader

After the Match - Ushijima x Reader

Someone Else’s - Sakusa x Reader x Ennoshita

Birthday Boy - Kuroo x Reader 

Bury the Dead, then Other Things - Matsukawa x Reader 

Baby, It’s Cold Outside - Oikawa x Reader  (sfw)

Lesson - Atsumu x Reader 

Eat - Osamu x Reader  (sfw)

All I Want For Christmas - Kuroo x Reader 

Similar - Osamu x Reader  (sfw)

Father Dearest - Takashi Utsui x Reader

Toshi’s Bunny - Ushijima x Reader

What We Inherit - Ushijima x Reader (sfw)

November Baby - Ushijima x Reader

What’s In a (Nick)Name? - Reon Ohira x Reader (sfw)

He, Hercules - Ushijima x Reader (sfw)

Good Teacher - Sugawara x Reader

Power Struggle - Ushijima x Reader

CROSSOVER

Not Enough - Oikawa x Reader x Gojo (JJK) (sfw)

Series: Look at Me, Senpai - Hinata has had eyes for the captain’s girlfriend since high school and doesn’t hesitate to shoot his shot.  {Completed}

Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3 || Part 4 || Part 5 

Series: Be My Last - You have trouble moving on from a past relationship, and you’re afraid to break Iwaizumi’s heart. {Completed}

Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3 || Part 4 || Part 5

Series: A Life Well Lived - Bokuto’s destined to die but an angel-in-training will protect him until then. Protect is not well-defined.  {Ongoing}

Part 1

Series: Restraint - The boys try to hold back… Sometimes they can, sometimes they can’t. ***  {Ongoing}

- Tetsuro Kuroo

- Oikawa Tooru

- Tobio Kageyama

- Satori Tendou

- Ushijima Wakatoshi

- Chikara Ennoshita

- Sawamura Daichi

- Koutaro Bokuto

Series: Menage a Trois - Three’s not always a crowd… {ONGOING}

- Oikawa Tooru & Hajime Iwaizumi

Series: Songscapes: Love and lust scenes to fit songs.  {ONGOING}

-  Luxury - Azealia Banks, Futakuchi x Reader  (sfw)

-  Que Malo - Bad Bunny feat Nengo Flow, Atsumu x Reader 

- Golden - Harry Styles, Hinata x Reader

- Hourglass - Catfish and the Bottlemen, Osamu x Reader 

-  Down - Ella Mai, Atsumu x Reader 

-  Sex Talk - Megan Thee Stallion, Iwaizumi x Reader 

-  Daddy Issues - The Neighborhood, Kyoutani x Reader 

-  Pu$$y Fairy - Jhene Aiko, Matsukawa x Reader

-  Stay With Me - Miki Matsubara, Tendou x Reader

-  Manga - Mayra Andrade, Oikawa x Reader

-  Kiss Me More - Doja Cat ft. Sza, Ushijima x Reader

|| HEADCANONS ||

Haikyuu dads who just want to have sex in peace

Part 1: Ushijima, Daichi, Oikawa, Hinata, Kageyama

Part 2: Tendou, Matsukawa, Makki, Shirabu, Semi

|| THIRSTS & THIRSTY DRABBLES ||

- Iwa’s pomodoro technique

- Hinata + breeding

- Hinata + facefucking while recording

- Sakusa + comfort after a bad day

- Daichi + bruising your ass

- Ushijima’s hands

- Koganegawa’s hands

- Ushijima + lactation kink

- Hoshiumi + winning you over

- Goshiki + pity-fucking

- Gora + face sitting

- Hoshiumi + public sex

- Oikawa + some femdom

- Atsumu + your handprint on his ass

- Daichi + fingers down your throat, legs in the air

- Iwa + watching your couple porn with Oikawa

- Suna + degradation

- tell Oikawa he’s beautiful with your hands in his hair

- Kuroo + taking photos of you naked

- tagteamed by Oikawa and Hinata in Brazil

- Suga + bdsm

- sub!Ushijima

- Ushijima + toys

- Hinata + daddy kink

- Daichi + loving your voice

- Oikawa + more femdom

- Sakusa + bratty wife

- Akaashi + sexy cuddling

- Matsukawa + reassurance

- Suna + first kiss

- Oikawa + public sex

- Ushijima + blowjob

- Ushijima + inversion therapy

- Makki + wandering hands

- Ukai Jr + closing time sexy times

- Saeko + first meeting

- that time you suffered consequences for your entanglement with dilf!Iwa

Ask Game: Dirty Jenga from this reblogged post.

- Give a mouth and ice massage - Oikawa

- Talk dirty to them - Ushijima 

- Lick whipped cream off a body part - Bokuto

- Sit in someone’s lap - Kuroo

- Pinch someone’s butt - Sakusa

- Suck on someone’s fingers - Matsukawa

- Cop a feel - Tsukishima Kei

Minithirsts: You don’t know what you’ll get :)

- Oikawa

- Kuroo

- Bokuto

- Futakuchi

- Kageyama

- Kenma

- Sugawara

- Hinata

- Coach Nekomata

- Iwaizumi

- Sakusa

|| ANGST & ANGSTY DRABBLES ||

- love triangle with Oikawa

- missed soulmates with Ushijima

- “i have belonged to you in a way you haven’t to me” - Iwa x Reader

- “It’s time to face the music, I’m no longer your muse.” - Semi x Reader

- “Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.” - Sakusa x Reader

|| FLUFF & FLUFFY DRABBLES ||

- random Sakusa x reader  (sfw)

- very first christmas with Ushijima  (sfw)

- first date with Ushijima (sfw)

- Ushijima cooking for you on Sunday mornings (sfw)

- how Oikawa handles your insecurity (sfw)

- how you meet Aone (sfw)

- Matsukawa has a habit of humming (sfw)

- Kageyama apparently likes pda (sfw)

- on sleeping with your hq fav (sfw)

|| EVENTS ||

#valentine’s day event

recreating your first date + Arryhythmia + Tsukishima

firefighter AU + HeartBeat + Meian

stargazing date + HeartBeat + Tendou

revenge AU + HeartBreak + Ushijima

Whale watching + Arrhythmia + Oikawa

Enemies to Lovers + HeartBeat + Ushijima

Recreate your first date + HeartBeat + Kita

Childhood friends to lovers + HeartBeat + Mattsun

A bet + HeartBeat + Kenma

A kiss at midnight + HeartBreak + Oikawa

Firefighter AU + HeartBeat + Iwaizumi

A quiet night at home + HeartBeat + Sugawara

Accidental kiss + HeartBreak + Asahi

Biking + Arrhythmia + Ushijima

(Last edited: 5/14/2021)

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Masterlist for anyone bored ig it's haikyuu

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Sofia ✰ Kuroo Tetsurou

Sofia by Clairo

kuroo tetsurou x gn reader [ soulmate/reincarnation!au ]

Through the Summer and the Fall // Haikyuu!! Songfic Series

a/n: hi everyone, I’m sorry for another late post. School is making me busy, and to be honest, I’ve been feeling really unmotivated lately, sorta because my boyfriend ended things? long distance for the both of us has been really hard because of our schedules, so I am sad 😌 n e ways… It’s also,,, ahaha,,, not Oikawa, like I had previously said. However… I typed this whole thing up instead of writing a paper worth 15% of a class grade, so, uh anyways, yeah. I worked super hard to get this all out with the quality I wanted it to be at, so I hope you enjoy! Happy belated birthday to my scorpio king, Tetsu 🥰 if I’m not bombarded by more work, hopefully either Oikawa or Atsumu will come out soon!

Word Count: a whopping ~10.2k, I am so tired

Warnings: death, death, death, and more death. a lot of death. angst, violence, and a couple of curse words. there are also suggestions/implications of sexy times. there is a lovely, happy, open ending. this is also unedited because its one am and I’m tired

Prompt: For eight short lives, you have loved each other. On your ninth, you are finally able to see it out to the end. (9 lives, haha, get it? Because he’s a Nekoma and they’re cats and… ahaha… anyways)

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HI!! i hope it’s ok I’m hopping in your asks again!! hdw has been living in my brain rent free for a couple days and I was just thinking of how amazing it would be to buy a paperback/printed copy of ur work? like being able to highlight my favourite parts of ur writing? AMAZING. bookmarking it and picking it up and rereading it the next day? A DREAM.

anyways, tldr, i doodled some “book cover” fanart for hdw and I hope u like them!!

ffs. will someone please hire this godsend to draw for official animated marketing already? istg if a company doesn’t snatch u up quick or people don’t commission u for art (fanart or original) then i will gatekeep you for myself and flaunt u to everyone who is missing out on your talent.

good god, bb. the reason i’m answering this a little late is bc 1) i didn’t know how to react without keyboard smashing so it took a while to pull myself together TT and 2) i had to convince myself i wasn’t being delusional and imagining this in my inbox. what the hell are u doing to me ; - ; WHY ARE U GIVING ME THESE GIFTS I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSFSELFKF TTOTT

how did u know,,, my lifelong pipe dream has always been to write a best-selling romance novel? u kno those YA novels u start reading in middle school that basically define ur idea of love? and now u made it come true just a little bit bc u were kind enough to do this... how do i thank u :<<< pls...

i love the way you drew oikawa... he looks so pretty in your art style :<<< his tears make him look even prettier and can i just say u drew his hair so well too? in the second cover... is that the red string of fate drawn as their rings? bc that is one of my favorite soulmate things ever 😭 it reminds me of the movie Your Name, which is my favorite anime movie in the world :( ugh i hope it’s okay that i’m saving these to my phone so i can always look at them later 😭

also, u are always allowed to hop in my asks. u can damn well live in them for all i care <3 oh and your handwriting and cursive are immaculate. i hope you have a good week !! (ahhh sorry idk why the pics went vertical when i answered this TT)

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𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝟷𝟶 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚞𝚝𝚎𝚜

𝚜𝚢𝚗𝚘𝚙𝚜𝚒𝚜: when you get a call one afternoon from an unknown number, you decide to answer it; what story lies behind it was beyond your imagination; astronaut!Oikawa Tooru

𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐: angst, no happy ending, major character death

𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚝: 2k

                 » [based on an episode of 911: Lone Star] «

“Hello?”

The line on the other side kept cutting off, unstable and breaking, making it hard to hear the voice on the other end. It wasn’t until a few seconds later, the line seemed to find its way to a stable connection, that you heard a very loud voice on the other side.

“Mom!? Mom, is that you!?” As if it found its perfect position, the line suddenly stabilized. With no more breaks in the line, you could hear the voice perfectly; the voice on the other end completely unfamiliar to you and you would be lying if you said that you weren’t feeling anxious, scared almost, by the fear and panic in the male’s voice, yelling at you through the phone’s speaker.

“I-I’m not your mom,” you looked around your empty apartment, but no one was around while you were lazing on the couch, your favorite TV show playing and a refreshing drink on the table, “I’m hanging up no-“

“NO, WAIT! PLEASE DON’T HANG UP!”

You gulped at the needy tone. The male was certainly frightened, maybe in need of some help, guidance, medical care, but who were you to provide him with any of that. You weren’t supposed to answer the phone in the first place. “Sir, if you were calling 911, you’ve dialed the wrong number-“

“I hoped you were my mother.” Have you not been speaking softly, you would’ve missed it. The loud, booming voice now turned into something so fragile, glass-like; it edged on some kind of sympathy, yet, you felt nervous. “Nobody’s answering the damn phone. Now!? Now when I need them the most, they’re not fucking answering!?”

“Sir, please calm down,” you could clearly notice the fear in your own voice, but tried to mask it by faking a cough, “if you hang up, maybe you’ll get them to answer.”

“Please…” Eyes widening at the obvious cry, you stayed silent for a few seconds, letting the man cry and try to calm down. “I-I’m dying…and no one is answering my calls…”

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You're my Forever.

➡ Receiver: Kenma

➡ Letter type:Angst

➡Note from messenger: I couldn't find an angst for Kenma that had something like this, though that's probably been done and written by the time I eventually post this so oop.

➡ Fake lovers to real lovers, proposal, drunk confessions, car accident, major character death, depression, mentions of drinking before driving, anxiety, break downs, profanities, accusations of infidelity, arguments, insecurities, jealousy stressing both parties for different reasons. Hints of Kenma going into a coma.

Kenma swore to himself, he'd never hurt you and that he'd protect you.

That was the promise he made when he proposed to you, it was so perfect. The night was beautiful, the water sparkling as it reflected the moonlight and illuminated his kneeling silhouette. The cheers from yours and his friends as you said yes with tears in your eyes and mascara starting to run down your soft cheeks.

Remembered how tight he hugged you as he chanted 'I love you' s to you on repeat as he felt himself finally shaking, coming down from the adrenaline; secretly afraid that you'd reject him beforehand and relieved that you were willing to spend eternity and have someone like him to be your partner, a potential father perhaps be one a grandparent with you by his side. Being so sickinigly sweet that the kids would gag at how loving you two were—grow old and die peacefully together.

You were his first for everything.

First kiss, first romantic love, first time, first anything.Truth be told, he probably would've stayed single if it wasn't for you asking for his hand in marriage jokingly in one of his reunions, and drunkly said yes to your proposal—which mind you, Kuroo had caught on camera and accidentally posted in their public account.A relationship that was once fake that turned to reality. A cliché, yes, but a miracle to him nonetheless.A miracle that unfortunately, ends too soon.

Like any relationships, problems arose. Those problems in your relationships included his job, his health and the ugly green thing growing it's head... Jealousy.

At first, it was the little "maybe later" or the "hang on, I'm busy". Then it was the "a friend asked me to record with them today, so maybe not" and "Oh yeah, I'm collabing with a friend so you can go without me"A friend?

It's happening too often, and you didn't want to be a your fiancé. How could you? You two are supposed to trust each other. So you asked occasionally. When you two sat down for food, or sat to watch a movie or played a game. Maybe it was when you two were in the car or perhaps in a restaurant out on a date.

To him, you asked too much and looked into things too much— he thought you knew he kept his job seperate. To you, you were scared—scared that he no longer loved you anymore and that the friend he played... One of them could be...

Of course, he got offended.How could he not? Are you doubting his loyalty? His feelings? His promise?

『"Do you not trust me?" He furrowed his brows, a frown settling on his lips.

"I do... It's just that I... I'm just curious. Nothing much you know?" You gave him a shaky, tense smile as you averted his eyes.』

It didn't help that when he held a 24hr stream with said friend, he had made it clear not to be disturbed leaving you to sleep and eat alone.

Lonely.

Without him by your side. So he bud you goodnight and collected his food and drinks for the stream.

The queensized bed no longer feeling comfortable to sleep in, the room freezing up his side of the bed whilst you were forced to hid under the covers while you bit your lips and cried. Insecurities plaguing your mind as you shivered and curled up into a ball. The light in his gaming room didn't help with your struggle as you heard him occasionally laugh and chuckle—something you noticed he hadn't been able to do with you.

Whimpering to yourself, you opened your phone before squinting at the uv light attacking your eyes. Your fingers finding their way to Shoyo, a friend you met Kenma through and someone who played a big role in how you two got together.

You messaged him, not expecting a response on the middle of the night—ding!—nevermind. Shoyo, being the remarkable sunshine that he was, never failed to put a smile on your face and erase the rearing head of the ugly thing in your heart as you chuckled to yourself lightly at a ridiculous hermit meme he sent alongside bloodshot eyes of a drunk Hinata playing (more like failing) volleyball whilst a drunk Kageyama served a ball to his face. Something about how it had been awhile so the two were catching up...

You never ended up sleeping enough so you groggily made your way to the kitchen only to start having an attack as you sobbed on the floor.

Kenma, being the attentive partner that he was, immediately dropped his things to bolt to your sunken form. The feeling of his smooth hands wiping your tears and shushing you as he pressed your body against his in worry.

He was a softhearted partner, willing to do all the work if it meant you were home safe and sound.

Imagine to your surprise that when you asked him the questions again, both a little tipsy, that he told you how you were getting on his nerves and how you overthink too much. Eventually leading to the both of you screaming and shouting at each other—furiously.

『"Oh for heavens sake, not this again. Didn't I tell you that were just coworkers? How many times do I need to repeat myself. Fuck, stop bringing that up! "

"Kenma relax, I'm just asking. You know how I feel about them."

"Please for the love of God, can we NOT talk about it here? I'm tired. I just want to sleep."

"You're always tired, busy. You never spend anytime with me anymore. You don't even sleep on the bed, it's always on your desk. I'm just worried!"

"Well I don't need you to be. Just worry about yourself—" 』

You failed to notice the motorbike speeding past the green light as Kenma tried to scream before the car slams into a pole and your head hits the wheel—Kenma's into the window. His last memory of you was the blood dripping down your head before blacking out.

『... Beep... 』

Next thing Kenma knew, he hears his heart monitor beeping. A few sounds of movement hidden behind his closed lashes. Sounds of his name slowly entering his somewhat disfunctional hearing—could that be you?

His eyes struggle to open themselves, hissing at the bright light as he was desperate to know of your condition.

Kuroo, his best friend since childhood and Hinata, best friend since high school.

Both had tired, exhausted faces; Uncharacteristically of them. Red eyes, tear stained cheeks, dark eye bags and messy outfits. Kuroo looked like he ran out of an important meeting and Hinata looked like he ran out after a game.

『"... name...? His hoarse voice managed to squeak. Eyes struggling to stay open. 』

Hinata let out a broken sob at the mention of your name, he bit his lip as he started crying again. He apologises over and over again. Kuroo had shushed Hinata as his eyes scanned Kenma's shaking lips.

『"K-kenma, kenma, oh god. I-I'm so sorry. I'm so so so sorry—"』

It seemed like he knew.

His gold eyes, eyes that you had complimented so many times, glossed over as a tear slips out before he shuts his eyes again.

Falling into a deep slumber.

Now there's no forever.

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Fic Update?

I swear I'm finishing my kazuha fic, I'm just going through some school stuff and finals is coming up in two weeks 😭

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Hanahaki Disease Aftermath - WIP

"... Cough..."

"Need a napkin?"

"Yes, please."

Hanahaki disease.

What an awful disease it was, targeting vulnerable hopeless romantics and one-sided love. Only giving the option to die with their undying affection or forget their affections for survival through surgery.

Now, there are many different after effects for each person when undergoing through surgery.

One will forget any memories they made with their love just to remove all sorts of feelings—these often than not ruins sex-drive and romantic interest along with the fact that patients now struggle to express romantic feelings as they would've been, the other removes any feelings whatsoever relating to loving something romantically—this can only happen when the infected person chooses to do the surgery early on in the process.

The one final one is when the infected person does the surgery very late which is that they can remove their memories by tweaking with the memory side of the brain alongside the emotional side which often than not leads to comas and deaths during an operation.

Most patients in comas often don't wake up or will wake up very very late with no memories of who they are whatsoever.

However because most infected patients are lovesick, they rather die than forget their love.

This was not the case for you, for which you took the surgery as soon as you showed symptoms of the first ever petal. Fortunately keeping you memories of both you and your ex-love...your bestfriend.

They notice that you had changed how you acted around them; more relaxed and calm. At ease and laid back and so very free from any burdens. You no longer looked like you could die any second —an exaggeration considering you hadn't gone far into the process—but you had eyebags and skin as pale as snow and eyes red and coughing every so often, how could they not exaggerate?

You told them about your situation, where you had experienced the disease but quickly had surgery—effectively saving your life but ruining any chances of starting any. Later on, you find that they develop feelings for you way too late. Despite them knowing that you had done the surgery... Your awareness increased, making it easier to sense whether someone liked you or not.... So it was unfortunate to break it for them...

➡ Kazuha

He was a sweet boy and that was one of the reasons you fell for him hard. He had these dimples whenever he smiles and his eyes so soft it squeezed your heart. His fingers were ever so gentle whenever he handled you, be it helping you out, tying your hair or hanging out with you, he was oh so gentle.

He would hold your hand and caress your hair, sometimes lending his clothes just for you. Oh, you would blush and fiddle with your fingers as you felt giddy... When he smiled at a girl called Lumine and started chatting with her happily, your stomach dropped.

That was when the first cough began.

Your coughing fit increased gradually throughout the week and it had not crossed your mind at the time that something was wrong.

How could there be?

It was just a simple coughing fit right? Well, after 3 months of having these coughing fit (2 consisted of blood) the first petal came along with excruciating pain.

You had seen these in the news, the symptoms and the warnings.

You knew what to do and did not hesitate, you loved him but wasn't to the point where you'd sacrifice yourself. When you exited that building, the heavy weight on your shoulders lifted. It felt so nice not having pain everyday.

"Hey MC, Lumine wanted to ask if she could hang out with us this weekend, do you mind?" He asked sheepishly, as if nervous to see what you had to say.

Normally, he'd see you stare at him a couple of seconds and frown...but today you raised your brow and smiled, eyes half-lidded as you agreed.

"Yeah, sure why not? I haven't talked to her in ages anyways."

He blinked, not that there was anything bad with the way you responded but... You were acting unusual from before.

Again, not like there was anything wrong with that. For some reason, his gut feeling told him something was wrong.

(I'm not done yet but here's a sneak peak. This is my first time uploading one of these oneshots since I found I can never finish a fanfictions but here we have it)