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In the Name of Science | Jake Sully
Avatar Jake x Avatar Reader + Human Jake x Human Reader Word count | 9.3k Warnings | 18+, explicit smut, gun kink, gun riding, reader gets hella freaky for Jake's gun, fingering, oral, p in v
Summary | You love your job. Science fascinates you. But there’s something about the way Sully drives his Avatar with that goddamned gun in his arms that you can’t get enough of.
It's shameful, really.
How quickly the good little scientist dropped her glasses and turned tail since it all began.
Shameful how easily a couple of roguish grins and low-drawl teases from that stupid ex-marine on wheels had your meticulous research neglected—gathering dust in a messy, heaped state on your desk.
Shameful how frequent the lying became as you started slipping off to your link unit for extra "field trips" in the name of science. Your self-appointed bodyguard trailing closely at your heels as you'd slink deeper into the vibrant canopy of Pandora. The tuft of your tail ghosting past his t-shirt, his hot breath teasing your neck.
Shameful how pitifully his name rolls like a desperate prayer from the trembling tongue of your Avatar right now. Your cargo shorts discarded at your boots as he pins you face-first against the rough bark of an ancient tree—the shockingly cold steel of his machine gun barrel prying your thighs apart from behind.
It turns you on to the high fucking heavens seeing that idiot play soldier in his massive suit of blue skin.
And he knows it.
“God damn, doc, you're soaked.”
Jake's wolf-whistle pierces the forest air like a siren as he leans back to take an appreciative look at the sodden cotton of your panties, using the tilt of his huge gun against your thighs like a tool for inspection.
He lets out an amused grunt, as though the evidence of your arousal is highly entertaining to him.
Bastard.
You whip his side with a hard thwack of your impatient tail, and he leans back in, pressing his dumb, cocky smirk against your cheek. The one that transfers so startlingly to his Avatar.
He lets out a low, vibrating chuckle beside your ear. "What's the science on that?"
“Urgh—shut it, smart-ass, and get those fucking fangs on me,” you growl.
You blindly reach back to hook a long, blue finger into the tight slot between his comms strap and the slick skin of his striped throat, giving him a sharp yank down into the crook of your neck.
The close air of Pandora's lush jungle always leaves you both drenched in a thick layer of humidity. Your tactical clothing ruined with dark, heavy sweat stains, your indigo skin tacky and wet.
But you couldn't care less.
If anything, the stifling heat only turns you on more.
You love feeling the smooth, slippery expanse of your massive Na'vi bodies sliding against each other like butter when you fuck.
“So demanding, baby,” Jake chuckles breathily against your neck, the delicate lavender points of his arched ears retreating back to his head.
Jake's never one to hesitate when you boss him around and call him names. He laps that shit up like it's his remedy. A well-trained soldier eager to please.
He pushes his bodyweight into you, pinning you harder against the tree with his gun grazing dangerously close to the spot that's screaming for it between your legs.
It's a magnificent tree—one that deserves more respect than having such devious activity like this inflicted upon it—but the guilt evaporates like steam off your skin the second Jake's mouth hits your neck.
His ivory fangs bear down over your rapid pulse point, the sharp tips dragging in a long, languid line all the way to your shoulder, sending a prickly wave of gooseflesh breaking out across your entire body.
They're predatory fangs that could draw serious blood if he really chose to clamp down, and the thrill of it has you trapping your shaky lip with your own canines as a hot pulse of arousal bleeds into your groin.
“Fucking hell, Sully...” you quiver, your eyes shutting tightly.
Jake twists you around to face him by the waist, his mouth curled back in a smirking snarl at the sight of your flushed face.
“Such a filthy little mouth for a nerd.”
His eyes fall sharply to your bottom lip, preying on the slight tremble of it. He brings his thumb up, brushing the rough pad over to release the swell from it's grip.
You're quick to sweep your tongue out to get a taste of his thumb tip before he can retract it, giving the end a soft, wet dab.
It tastes bitter. Like gun oil and metal.
Fuck. You love his gun.
You take the tip of his thumb between your lips more desperately, heavily moaning your approval—your head bobbing as you give it a series of light, teasing sucks while gazing up at him through your lashes.
Sucking his fingers is a little trick you've discovered that always has him losing his shit.
Even in his most cocksure of moods.
His eyes go dark and hooded, a deep, gravelly groan reverberating in his throat as he watches. He growls a low, breathless "fuck", swooping down to your lips to catch your muffled gasp in his mouth.
As you lose your mind to the slide of Jake's possessive kiss, whining as that spit-wet thumb now makes its way down to roll your nipple into a hard, aching peak beneath your tank top, you're harshly reminded of how you'd fallen so deep into this gritty pit in the first damn place.
Wasting your afternoons to fuck around with Sully in your Avatar instead of working had spiraled into a regular occurrence.
An addiction you couldn't seem to shake. A high you couldn't stop chasing.
To say he'd become a distraction from your research would be a laughable understatement.
You knew he was going to be nothing but trouble from the moment he first rolled into the Avatar compound and introduced himself. Blindsiding you from analyzing the DNA sequencing of a Stingbat with a warm, firm handshake and the sort of charming grin that crawled under your skin and stayed there.
So when it all started snowballing, inevitably—recklessly—you couldn't exactly bring yourself to blame your own damned weakness.
“Just need to get my hands on that one last sample before I compile it,” you'd straight-up lie to Grace whenever she'd ask why you were jumping back into link again when you were supposed to be writing your reports from yesterdays trip.
The very trip you'd spent sprawled out under the spiraling pink fans of Helicoradian plants—writhing in ecstasy with the incredible, heavy tongue of Jake's Avatar embedded deep between your thighs. Lapping you up—hurling you mercilessly into a dimension that easily beat the paradise of Pandora.
“At least eat something when you get back, for God's sake,” Grace would complain, rubbing her temples without a glance up from her monitors. “And make sure Sully's looking after you out there. Last thing I need is losing your expensive as shit Avatar to a damn Thanator.”
He'd roll into your room on silent wheels late in the evenings.
That up-to-no-good grin plastered all over his face as your fingers flew over your laptop keys in a frantic rush to upload your backlog of data.
“Just taking the boss a coffee,” was usually his choice of bluff whenever he bumped into anyone in the tight dormitory corridor.
His offering never did stand a chance of being consumed before going cold. Your glasses discarded on your laptop next to it as you'd find your limbs in a tangle with his beneath the rough sheets of your cramped, metal bunk bed. Making out—hot and heavy—as though playing with each other in your Avatars all afternoon hadn't been enough. Jake's savvy fingers slipping eagerly under the waistband of your pyjama bottoms while yours coursed through the thick, gorgeous waves of his chocolate hair.
Jake's dirty talk is a dangerous game.
But his sweet talk is the real lethal killer.
He'd linger at shoulder some early mornings in the communal lab space, having seemingly nothing better to do with himself.
Openly snooping on your data, his sharp, stubbly jaw resting flush against your shoulder as you'd sit hunched over your desk with your eye pressed tightly to the microscope.
“You know how gorgeous you look while you work?” he'd murmur lazily next to your ear, the vibration of his rugged voice tickling your skin, his lips ghosting the base of your neck like you were supposed to be able to ignore it. “So damn sexy. Inspiring me to go do some more of that hands-on research with you later.”
“Jake, stop. I really need to focus,” you'd protest with a slightly breathless giggle. A light slip of sound that was always your first mistake.
A subtle open door that would fuel Jake's flame—inviting him to drag his warm, open-mouthed kiss up your neck, leaving you right on the ragged edge of caving in your seat until you'd both sharply snap apart at the sound of the lab doors hissing open with Norm waltzing in, whistling to himself in cheerful oblivion.
Norm.
Norm knows.
He has to, from walking in on so many of these frighteningly close calls in the lab.
And from the way the atmosphere hangs heavy with a weight that's not just the humidity when he joins you both out in the field. The two of you harvesting samples together with Sully trailing in your stride—carrying his heavy-duty machine gun in his huge blue hands like it's a sleek, lightweight toy.
There's not a shred of doubt that Norm wonders why your eyes flick back to him so often.
But you can't help it.
You get a kick out of finding Jake looking at you with that lazy, vicious grin playing on his face. His heavy eyes sweeping over your body like it's a piece of prey he's tracking and fully intends to devour once he's pinned it.
But Norm keeps his mouth shut.
Because he's a good little scientist, like you used to be.
You love your job. Science still fascinates you like it always has.
But there's something about the way Sully drives his Avatar with that goddamned gun in his arms that you just can't get enough of.
You peel his clingy teeth from your lips with effort, your palms colliding against the coarse material of his backpack straps as you shove him back—hard.
Hard enough to make him stumble back over his muddy combat boots with a dorky, lopsided grin creeping up over his face.
His striking feline eyes flick between yours expectantly, the soft green flecks in the citrine of his irises mirroring the lush foliage around you. They're pretty eyes—ones you often find yourself chewing your pen lid over during those long, dragging mornings in the lab.
You straighten up against the tree, levelling your gaze with his.
“Put it in me, Sully.”
Jake loves a direct order. Thrives on it, even.
It has the marine in him lighting up like a spark off a live wire.
His grin turns crooked, his yellow eyes suddenly swimming with barely restrained mischief.
“Yes, ma'am.”
He pushes his rolled shirt sleeve a notch higher up his bicep, the leaves crunching on the soil beneath him as he adjusts his footing to haul the hefty steel beast up.
You admire the power in those striped forearms as he easily guides the tip of the barrel back between your legs, trailing it up your sensitive inner thighs with slow precision until the cold, flat muzzle rests flush again the brewing heat of your panties.
You peer down at the sight, your ears drooping helplessly to your head at the metal touching your throbbing pussy.
A shaky sigh slips past your slips as your knees buckle inward, your thighs pinching at the heavy weapon. “Fuck, yeah. That's what I'm talking about.”
Jake guides the tip in slow, gentle strokes through the wet seam of your folds, using it to spread your own slick up over your aching clit.
“Mm. You like that?”
His voice vibrates in his throat like sexy, low-drawl honey—a sound good enough in itself to get you off—and a hearty moan breaks out of your chest as your pussy pulses in agreement.
You roll your impatient hips over the hard, unyielding edge of it as you lock your hooded eyes onto him. “Mm, fuck. I want it inside me. Put your big, hard gun in my pussy, Sully.”
Jake's eyes snap up like a magnet at your dirty words, landing squarely on your parted mouth.
You can tell it's short-circuited his brain from how his eyelids have gone heavy, from the way they hover half-closed as he slowly blinks.
You grin.
He always looks so fucking adorable when he gets drunk on his own arousal.
He lets out a low huff of air, his ears giving a small flick as he tilts his head with trance-like slowness. His eyes still stuck on your lips.
“Better get those panties down for me then, angel.”
You hook two fingers into the waistband of your briefs, pulling them down with a shimmy of your thighs and letting the sodden piece of material drop onto your heaped cargo shorts at your boots.
Jake's nostrils flare, his pupils gaping wide as his gaze drops to the sight.
“Fuck, mama...”
His long tail sways with weight as he crouches down close, feasting his wide eyes on your bare, blue cunt.
His heavy gun is sidelined, thudding softly into the leaves next to him as his hand approaches your swollen, glinting slit with a mind of it's own.
“She looks hungry,” he chuckles like a distracted child, touching you without a shred of hesitation.
Jake's primal fascination with the body of your Avatar is still raw and all-consuming, even after having played with it enough times to think he'd be used to it by now.
You'd make a dig at him if you weren't already gasping at the delicious pressure of his fingers on your clit.
It sends an electric pulse through you as he glides his fingertips over the bump, down to the slick, arousal-swollen center of your parted folds. His welcome touch releases a hot surge of your pent-up arousal, and Jake's ears twitch and flatten at the loud moans it wrings from your throat.
“God damn... Beggin' for my big gun, aren't you, pretty?” He grins, his glinting teeth flashing.
His tail undulates wildly behind him as he taps your ankle.
“Lift up for me, sweetheart. Let's get these shorts off.”
You lift your feet as he strips them off over your chunky boots, tossing them aside while you sink back against the tree with your legs spread invitingly.
Jake coasts his fingers down your pussy once more, teasing another sharp inhale into your lungs and making your walls flutter, before sliding them underneath to find your entrance.
He dips a fingertip inside. Circling it tantalizingly around your wet, begging hole before adding another, sinking both of the thick, long digits into the hilt in one confident plunge.
Oh fuck. That stretch.
It has you dissolving into a shaky, pinch-browed groan, your head rolling back to the tree as his curled fingers start moving in and out of you with agonizing slowness.
“Yeah... that good, baby?” Jake purrs, watching his gleaming blue fingers disappear and reappear in a hypnotizing rhythm.
“So good,” you whine, your back arching off the tree as you fidget under his fingering. “I need more though, Jake. Your gun. Please.”
When there's no response—none of his usual teasing or quick-witted remarks, you furrow your brows, wondering what the hell he's doing.
“Jake?...”
You roll your head forward from the tree to peer down at him.
He's staring. Frozen. Looking like a starved man who's been lost out in the jungle for days.
His ears have fully folded back in a tight streamline against his head, his irises reduced to razor-thin rings around his blown out, pitch-black pupils.
Fuck sake. Not this again.
He's lost himself.
This happens sometimes, when his face gets too close to your pussy—the tangy scent of your juices and pheromones searing his sensitive nostrils and devouring his rational mind entirely.
It's the cost that comes with fucking in these Na'vi skins. Of inhabiting creatures driven by blood and instincts far sharper than any human's, and even after the many afternoons you've spent fooling around out here together, poor Jake is still very much at the mercy of it.
You rarely scold him for it. After all—you get your own kicks out of seeing him completely disarmed and ravishing your body with an intensity that's just not possible in human form.
But on days like today, when you just want him to stay focused and give you what you asked for... his distraction is an inconvenience.
“Fuck, I... I just need to taste it...” Jake finally stutters, succumbing clumsily to his knees with a heavy thud against the leaves, his tail giving a sharp flick behind him as he leans in.
You open your mouth to object, but it's too late.
He's already there. Nuzzling his flat, broad nose against your mound with a ragged groan. His top lip brushing up and down the hood of your clit as his tongue sweeps out to thirstily lap up the slick arousal that's coating your soft folds.
“JACOB!” you gasp—half moaning it, half scolding—your eyes turning to saucers as your hands fly down to the top of his head.
You don't know if you want to pull him in all the way. Get him to sink that fantastic tongue in until it makes you pop, or push him away, and tell him to stick to the goddamn plan.
Fuck. It's too good for the latter.
You let out a heavy sigh, melting back against the tree with your eyes fluttering. Giving in for a moment to enjoy the sweet, sweet relief his mouth provides for your craving center, while Jake emits a satisfied rumble from deep in his chest.
His big hands hover lightly at your hipbones while he completely loses himself in worshipping the shrine between your legs, his knees splaying out wider against the dirt as he devours you with licks and sucks of perfect rhythm and pressure.
Your legs tremble as he pulls your clit into his mouth, giving the little bead a dab with his tongue before releasing it and repeating. Shifting further under you, trailing the tip of his tongue in a point from the back of your slit to the front before breaking into wide, firm strokes, his sharp teeth grazing your delicate skin.
Sweet fucking Jesus, it's heavenly.
Jake's talent for cunnilingus proved itself the first time he went down on you in human form, in your bunk bed during those early nights of getting intimate.
You hadn't expected much—given past experience with men not always knowing what goes where or really caring to find out—so when you giggled with your knees hitched under the covers as he shimmied himself down between your thighs, his playful blue eyes locked on yours as his tongue started a slow, sensual dance with you... it's safe to say he blew your expectations completely out of the water.
It made you laugh when he told you it was his secret weapon.
But it was true.
Having lost function in his genitals from being paralyzed from the waist down, Jake had to make up for what he lacked between his legs in other ways.
More creative ones.
It was mind-blowing, how he'd build you up so silently. Getting you to the point of writhing and grasping for fistfuls of the bedsheets as your shaking hips lifted to chase his mouth, and only at that point would he do that incomprehensible thing with his thumb—something you'll never truly understand—having you popped over your white-peaked edge in a mere matter of moments.
It was lethal.
Terrifying, actually. Transferring that kind of godly talent to his nine foot feline form.
One with two strong, working legs—and a third one hanging between them.
It was enough to de-throne you at your best.
“Oh, god,” you mewl, your ankles threatening to give way under the hot, mounting pressure that's tightening between your hips. “Jake—please, I want your gun. Don't make me come like this.” You dig your fingers further into the silky strands of hair on top of his head to haul him away quickly before he can get you there—ripping his mouth from its tight seal around your pulsing clit.
He's panting hard as he looks up at you—a complete, undone wreck with his lips obscenely wet with your juices. More dark, messy strands of his disheveled hair have escaped his braid and cling to his sweaty forehead, and he draws himself up confidently, taking your face in both his hands as he leans in to smother your mouth with his in one swift motion.
His tongue pushes into your mouth possessively—delivering the tangy taste of you thats coating it—and he swallows your muffled moan with his own deeper one, pushing you up against the tree with his body flush to yours.
His hasty hands roam over you hungrily, his knees bending as he gropes your ass and tits—pulling you up and pinning you against the bark with short, rhythmic grinds of his hips.
Your stomach tightens as you feel the outline of his rock hard erection pushing into you, throbbing like a heartbeat beneath his cargos.
“Which gun do you want?” he pants breathlessly as he breaks from your mouth, trailing his crude smirk in hot, wet kisses across your jawline and down your neck.
He recoils with a sharp grunt as you suddenly jab a long finger hard into his ribs—a warning that your impatience for his cocky games is running very thin.
“Ow! Fuck. Alright, alright.”
He peels himself off of you with sulking reluctance, swallowing hard to try and control his ragged breathing as he drops back down to a crouch to pick up his gun from the dirt.
“Better give the lady what she wants, then,” he mutters to himself, taking a firm grip on the handle as he draws the weapon back up between your legs—and this time, he keeps his focus locked.
You brace yourself with your hands on the tree either side of you, your heart fluttering fast as Jake works to position the blunt, heavy barrel at the entrance of your pussy.
Once he seems satisfied that all systems are go, his eyes flick up to yours, waiting for permission.
“Ready?”
“Yes! Just fucking put it in already, Jesus,” you growl.
He moves at your command, slowly pushing the cylindrical metal up into you, and it sinks through your slick folds.
The hard, cold width of the barrel stretching you open to fill the craving, empty space inside you.
Your head slams back against the tree, the frustration in your voice from mere seconds ago melting and liquefying into something carnal.
“FUCK, Sully.”
You groan between tight lips as Jake retracts it, before sliding it in further—slipping the steel inside you with the smooth lubricant of your own arousal. The stretch burns like fire, the cool metal already starting to warm from the friction—from your pussy walls squeezing and clenching at it hungrily.
“Oh, Jake. It's so fucking good.”
“Yeah? Tell me how you want it, baby.”
“Faster,” you whine.
Jake picks up the pace immediately. The muscles in his arms and shoulders bunching under the strain of lifting such a heavy-duty weapon and moving it with enough deliberate control to not hurt you.
He hitches a knee up to rest his elbow on as he works, taking some of the weight off his arms as he readjusts his grip on the stock with a grunt, his breathing growing heavy as he pumps the machine gun into you with quick, firm thrusts.
“That fast enough, doc?”
“Mhm! More, Jake, please!”
Your hips grow reckless, rolling down to meet each of his thrusts at its deepest, and it tightens the ache that’s coiling inside you each time the blunt tip of the barrel strikes hard against a spot of pressure.
A pressure that’s going to be the death of you if it carries on building.
You clutch your breast through your tank top, tugging and playing with your erect nipple while your other hand flies down to your clit to deliver quick, frantic circles, and the heightening of pleasure it provides has his name erupting from your throat in a loud cry.
“Fuck, baby,” Jake breathes hoarsely. “You’re gonna make me lose it doing that.”
He lunges up—too needy to merely watch you writhe in pleasure from a passive crouch beneath you—and leans over to catch your gasping lips, kissing you clumsily as the heavy weapon rocks chaotically between your bodies.
Jake can’t help his unbridled hips as they start to roll blindly against the hard handle of the weapon, an attempt to grind out some relief for the leaking bulge thats cooped up in his cargos.
It has him spilling a groan into your mouth, his brows pinched together tightly, and it’s not long before the pathetic pleading starts tumbling out of him against your lips.
“God, let me fuck you with this blue dick, baby, please? I’m so hard. I wanna cum in that sweet pussy so fuckin’ bad.”
“Not yet,” you hiss, clamping your fangs down on his bottom lip.
His twitching hips falter on the metal, and you can tell he’s holding back a whimper.
Your own climax is pulsing like a threat around the unyielding cylinder inside you as you pull away from Jake’s dumb, chasing mouth.
You gaze at him for a moment through heavy lids.
Taking in his flushed, sweat-sheened face. His pretty bioluminescent freckles that faintly pulse with his arousal.
“Load it, Sully.”
Your firm words slice the air like a knife.
The whir of nature from the surrounding expanse of trees dials up sharply, and Jake’s hips instantly freeze.
You glance down at his crotch. Watching as the thick outline of his cock throbs visibly against the sudden stillness of his body.
The hungry thing has already made a mess of his cargos, spilling some of his much needed release in a blooming, damp patch of glowing pre-cum at the tip.
He blinks, barking out a quick, uncertain laugh.
“What?”
You hold his gaze.
“You heard me.”
A soft, nervous chuckle, his ears flattening.
“Come on, sweetheart… That’s too far.”
"Oh... sorry, Jake," you giggle. A sweet, bubbly sound that catches him off guard, and his ears lift slightly from the sides of his head. "It's just, I was under the impression you weren’t such a pussy.”
The throat strap of his comms shifts with the heavy, nervous bob of his Adam’s apple, his lips hanging parted at the drop of your tone.
Your hand brushes past his as you lean forward and wrap your fingers around the gun grip, deliberately dragging the heavy, charcoal shaft deeper inside you.
“Don’t make me ask again, Sully. Or I might have to tell Grace you’ve been slacking.”
Ok.
You can’t deny it. You took things a little too far, sometimes.
Got a little… wild, out here in the forest.
Blame it on the foreign composition of Pandora’s atmosphere, or the rash impulses of the Na’vi blood running through your veins.
You’d feel sorry for poor Jake for having to put up with this untamed, gun-crazed kink of yours, except that was never the case at all.
He gets off on the thrill of danger just as much as you do, and although the extent of your requests had undoubtedly grown more… extreme, since your first escapades—Jake hadn’t denied you anything yet.
He can't resist a challenge thrown his way.
It’s in his blood, human or not.
But above all, he can never say no to his favorite, precious little scientist.
He huffs an uneasy laugh as he glances to the side, his brows furrowed with his head cocking slightly as though he’s still trying to wrap it around the order.
It’s hard not to home in on the sweat that glistens on his cheekbones and nose. Or the sharp crunch of leaves under his clunky combat boots as his feet shuffle nervously below you.
He finally rolls his broad shoulders. A heavy click resonating as he cracks his neck.
“Alright.”
His throat muscles jump in another rough bob as he takes a wary glance down to where the gun is still buried inside you, and there’s not an ounce of playfulness left in his yellow eyes when they snap back up to meet yours, his husky voice dropping an octave.
“Only for a second, though. Ok?”
You nod quickly. Holding your breath the way you’re holding onto the climax you so desperately want as Jake slowly stabilizes the robust frame of the machine gun.
His tail twitches erratically behind him as he slowly draws his long fingers to rest over the charging handle.
Your heartbeat pounds against your ribs as they hover there.
And then he takes the plunge.
A quick, sharp inhale—and he racks the bolt.
The heavy, mechanical clack-clack of the weapon cycling sends a sharp vibration straight through the barrel buried inside your pussy, the sound making both of your ears twitch in unison.
Fuck.
There it is.
Loaded ammunition inside you.
A breathless hush seems to fall over the trees. The only sound the thrum of your pulse like rushing water in your ears as you stare at your own round eyes reflected in the black mirror of Jake's pupils.
And then your pussy pulses in demand.
You grind. Once. Rolling over the steel that now buzzes with the terrifying weight of a live round chambered right inside you.
And then again—feeling that deep, delicious ache of the weapon pressing at your insides. Digging into your g-spot and shooting a spine-tingling spike of heat straight through you.
Your body takes control.
Your hips slip into a fast, shallow rhythm, and you resume rubbing quick, rapid circles against your clit. Humping your hand unashamedly like an untamed animal in front of Jake’s dumbfounded stare.
An immense, hot convulsion of pleasure surges through your core and down your legs—your pussy beating and fluttering around his gun—and a throaty moan tears out of you, your eyes going hazy at the edges as you hold Jake's sharp, petrified ones.
His grip on the gun is like iron, his whole body taut as he tries to stop his hand from trembling violently over the giant body of metal. Terrified that one wrong twitch of his fingers or one violent squeeze of your walls will slip the safety.
“Oh fuck—Jake—keep it inside me, I’m gonna—”
Your plea trails off as your climax creeps up tremendously, forcing the breath still in your lungs. Your hips bob in little rigid shudders over the hazardous toy inside you as you reach the brink, your fingers losing all strength and smushing clumsily against your peaking clit.
It’s a fight to keep your eyes open—your vision turning white and starry—but you can’t miss the sight of Jake watching you help yourself to orgasm over his gun.
His gorgeous feline features a picture of agonizing torment.
You can tell it’s taking every solid inch of his strength to restrain from tearing the gun away as fast as possible. To chuck it a mile and fuck you himself instead.
But he holds it. Letting you ride it to completion like you asked. His blown out eyes trained between your shaking thighs as your sweet bliss crashes down on you.
Your eyes clamp shut. Your body shuddering as a guttural shriek rips from your lungs, and the back of your head cracks violently against the rough bark behind you.
Waves. All you can feel is waves. Delicious, crashing waves. Tight, heavenly waves that pulse and squeeze at the smooth metal inside you, turning your legs hollow and weightless.
Waves that are suddenly shattered as Jake ruthlessly rips the length of the barrel from your convulsing pussy.
He un-cocks it. Hastily.
Dropping the deadly thing to the ground from his vice-like grip like it’s something born of the devil.
“Oh my… fuck. Baby—”
His wired eyes are trained on you, suddenly flaming with gold, his flustered fingers blindly fumbling to unclip the utility belt that suffocates his waist.
The straps slip from his shoulders, the weight of his backpack hitting the forest floor behind him with a heavy, dead thud.
And then he lunges.
Trapping your slumped, slack body against the tree. Pouncing on you with a predatory force that might scare you if your brain wasn't so clouded over from ecstasy.
The impact punches a breathless whine out of you, the ridges of bark clawing unforgivingly at your back, and you know it's leaving marks on your poor Avatars back for days.
Jake’s already pinned your wrists above your head, locking them both in the inescapable band of his hand while he clumsily battles the buckle of his belt in the other.
“You scare the goddamn shit out of me with that stuff, you know that?”
His bellowing voice is reprimanding as he brutally breaks his belt open, yanking his cargos down in one sharp tug that lets his thick, rock-hard erection snap up against his stomach.
“Why you gotta do that to me sweetie, huh?”
You can’t help but let out a chuckle despite the dizzying whirl of adrenaline that's making your head spin, your gaze dropping to the profusely leaking, lavender tip of his cock as it bobs beneath you.
“This doesn’t look that scared to me, soldier…”
He opens his mouth—probably with some witty remark ready to fire back—but it dies in his throat, overruled by his need to sink his throbbing dick inside you before he ruins himself up your front.
His cock really is beautiful like the rest of him, and it suddenly looks infinitely more appealing than cold metal as he spreads your thighs wider with a rough, heavy shove of his knee.
He bullies his hips in between yours, lining the steaming wet flare of his cock-head against your entrance, and it draws one last lazy, residual orgasmic twitch out of your walls.
There’s many great things about fucking out here, in the vast, echoing expanse of Pandora’s jungle.
One of them being just how much noise you could make.
Neither of you ever held back from the undignified sounds that would spill from your mouths as you lost your minds over one another. Not without a soul within miles to hear such unearthly resonance.
Unlike the constant threat of being overhead through the paper thin walls of your dorm room back at Hell's Gate, the forest was your perfect, soundproof playground. A place that gave you the ultimate freedom to fuck each other however loudly you desired—an endless opportunity to let loose like feral, savage beasts.
And you both made the most of it.
Jake’s booming, chest-deep “MURRGHH” rattles you to the bones as he lifts you off the ground with his powerful thighs in a single, brutal upward thrust, his buttocks clenched rock-hard as his cock spears you to the hilt.
The roar is enough to scatter a troop of swinging Prolemuris in the trees nearby, and that delicious, white-hot sting of the sudden penetration has you matching him with a piercing shriek of your own.
He fits your pussy flush like a glove—his Na’vi anatomy tailor-made to ruin you—and the deep, fulfilling ache of the stretch has your toes curling hard inside your boots.
It’s even better than his loaded machine gun.
Much better.
Your eyes roll straight into the back of your skull as he single-handedly rearranges your brain chemistry with another deep, sharp thrust, putting words into your mouth that you barely even recognize as your own.
“Oh my god… Sully, fuck me—NOW!”
Jake doesn’t waste a fucking second.
He drives into immediate, frantic action—his pelvis rutting up rapidly into yours, his cock slipping in and out of your tight, silky slit with ease.
“Hohh-shit baby, that’s it,” he pants raggedly, the glowing freckles tracking his forehead flaring fiercely through the messy strands of his hair, lighting up with his spiking pulse—his eyes rolling back for a split second. “Fuck, you feel like heaven. So wet for me angel. So fuckin’ good for me.”
He hooks the hand that isn't pinning your wrists into the hem of his grey sweat-stained t-shirt with a grunt, wrenching the unwanted fabric up and out of the way in a jagged line.
It reveals the intricate strings of bioluminescence that drape down his toned stomach, trailing in bright streams to the solid V-line of his lower abdomen that funnels directly to the base of his pounding cock.
Jesus fucking Christ.
The sight of Jake’s naked Avatar never failed to completely destroy all of your inhibitions.
The combination of the sheer, muscular anatomy with the majestic prettiness of it is simply mind boggling, and you’re not sure if you’ll ever be able to wrap your little scientific brain around how such a god-forsaken thing grew in a lab when it looks like it should have fallen straight from the skies.
It leaves you weak to the very core every time you see it, and even in the desperate, deep throes of being pounded and crushed by him, you can’t help but take a moment to simply stare at the stunning sight of his torso.
Your poor eyes are ripped away as he jerks your own vest up over your breasts.
“Mm, yeah. Nice little tits, aren’t they, doc?” Jake hisses, pulling his t-shirt up higher so he can press his broad chest right against yours. The friction of his slick, bare skin rubbing your nipples into stiff peaks.
He drops your wrists from their shackle above your head only to hoist one of your legs up and over his shoulder with a rough hand, making you gasp, while the fingers of his other wrap tightly around your erect nipple to give it a tight, bruising squeeze.
“Takin' my cock like such a good little scientist.”
He slams up into you, pinching his lip between his teeth with the effort as he funnels his glazed, fuck-drunk eyes into yours, and you splutter out a choked cry as the new angle has his cock-head ramming deeper into your cervix.
The mix of pain and pleasure is intoxicating, and it has a string of undignified, strangled curses spewing from your mouth. The unadulterated, filthy kind you could never be caught dead releasing within the rigid confines of Hell’s Gate.
Not unless you wanted to lose your damn job.
“Such a tight little cunt,” Jake wheezes through gritted, bared teeth, his tail wrapping in a tight coil around his muscular thigh to steady himself, and you know he’s on the brink from the garbled filth that starts pouring out of him.
“Dirty little slut, ain’tcha? Bad gal. Lettin’ me fuck you senseless like this when you should be working. Mad lil scientist. Crazy little—”
He barks out a breathless, hysterical chuckle— sounding borderline insane—before faltering with a soft, whiney crack in his voice.
“Oh fuck, mama—”
You adored the mouthy trash talk that would spew from Jake right when he was about to explode into smithereens.
But the sound you practically worshipped during the heated throes was his whimpering.
There was something so utterly exhilarating about hearing a rugged, capable man like Jake make such a vulnerable little noise at the power your body held over him that never failed to have your panties dripping.
You’d been hooked ever since you first heard it escape him one afternoon, while you had his thick, twitching shaft buried deep in your throat, the muscles of his striped thighs trembling and bunching underneath you from the suck of your mouth.
It seemed to only come out when he was hovering at the edge of complete ruin, his inhibitions completely obliterated over the loud, pulsating thrum of his own sexual pleasure.
It was shameful to admit it, but it became your personal mission to actively coax this gorgeous sound out of Jake for your own pleasure.
Whether that meant rubbing the strangely hyper-sensitive spot under his tail that seemed to push him over the brink a bit too quickly, or pulling your mouth away to lick lazily at the leaking slit of his cock right when he was about to cum. Tormenting him while the tip oozed and begged for more, his head rolling back as he let out a sexy, chest-heaving whimper.
It gave you something to play in your head while you fingered yourself on nights when he wasn’t sharing your bunk bed with you.
But best of all... it gave you something to tease him with.
Ammunition to rein him in whenever he’d start getting too cocky for his own damn good.
You loved having that needy little noise to pull out of your pocket whenever he got a bit too big for his boots.
It kept that soldier in line.
Jake’s hands slam onto the tree either side of your head, his fingers clawing into the ridges of bark as he clamps his teeth down hard on his bottom lip.
It's a cute effort to stifle the pathetic whimper that’s begging to burst from his throat right next to your ear. You admire it.
But unfortunately for him, his neck is exposed.
The perfect weak spot right next to your lips.
You dig your teeth hard into the slick flesh as you roll your hips up into each of his punishing thrusts. The heavy, rhythmic smash of his pelvic bone against yours making your walls clamp around his cock in a relentless chokehold.
It wheedles that sweet, sweet whimper right out of his lungs, spilling a ladle of heat directly into the bowl of your belly.
“Argh, fuck, bad girl.” Jake’s face contorts into a pretty mask of agony from your sharp bite and pure, unadulterated ecstasy from your fluttering walls. “Gonna make me cum.”
His thrusts turn jerky. Quick and chaotic, his cock swelling against the constraint of your slick teasing walls. The length pulsates in steady, rhythmic throbs, nudging at the deep pit of your insides as though giving a warning of the incoming explosion.
“Mm, do it, make mama proud and shove me full of your glowing cum, soldier,” you moan, cupping either side of his face between your hands.
You pull his ear to your lips. Slipping in a quiet, devastating whisper.
“I want you to fill me up like your bullets would.”
It’s enough to have Jake tumbling over his wall of white-hot bliss like a weak fool.
“Oh fuck, doc,” he grinds out, his voice seething out between his teeth as his screwed-up face rolls to the heavens for mercy, his ears clamped flat against his skull as he slams home, and you can feel his knees buckling under you. “Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck—”
His orgasm has him stiffening up. His quivering hips pinning you in a tight hold against the tree as the release starts leaking out into you—hot and wet and throbbing against the enticing clench of your walls, before erupting violently.
“JAKE!” Your eyes slam shut in a tight squeeze as the sweet rhythm of his ejaculation sends your pussy into a frantic dance.
Thick waves of his hot cum floods your center, pulsing like lava against your soft insides as a thunderous roar ruptures from his lungs, forcing your sensitive ears down to your head.
Your hands scramble at his shoulders for fistfuls of his utility shirt as you desperately rush to catch his high—grinding on him in a frenzy until his seed spills out down your ass and thighs.
Jake yelps, his hands quaking on the tree from overstimulation as you bounce hard against him until you finally come—erupting into a garbled, sore-throated wail. Writhing and whining—weakly tugging and shoving at his shoulders until every last nerve in your body is shattered. Over-sensitized, numb and utterly spent.
You go limp.
Your head flops back as Jake’s falls down like a dead weight onto your shoulder. Panting with his massive, sweaty frame draped over you, holding you up against the tree as he trembles from head to toe.
Jesus.
If you ever needed a reminder of why you’d started abandoning your work for this shit…
This right here was your evidence.
You both slouch there. Panting like sweaty horses after a race.
You finally roll your dizzy head to the side, and you wonder if Jake’s fingers have melded to the bark from the way he’s still clutching onto the tree on either side of you.
It’s impressive. How he’s remained standing this whole time without buckling at the knees entirely.
“Jake..." you giggle breathlessly. "How… how’re you still standing?”
His laughter is faintly delirious as it bounces jaggedly against your chest, and he draws his head up off of your shoulder, taking an exhausted, half-lidded look at you.
His facial features are completely heavy. Loose and relaxed compared to just moments ago.
“Putting these damn legs to use the right way,” he grins.
You laugh, grinning back as you take his cheeks between your palms and drag his sweaty forehead in to rest against your own.
“Made you cum hard, didn’t it? I know you like that gun shit. Don’t try and hide it.”
His hiss of laughter tickles your lips as it escapes him, his jaw jutting to the side with his tongue in his cheek as he looks down.
A wordless answer.
He peels his sticky front from you, and your eyes follow his gaze to the gooey state that’s now sat between you. Your blue skin glints with a mixture of sweat and cum, the subtle bioluminescent hue of Jake’s seed glowing around your thighs and pussy.
He whistles, his face turning slappably smug.
“Dang, doc. Look at the mess you’ve made.”
Your mouth falls open in disbelief.
“My mess?”
Jake chooses to ignore your comment. Instead trailing his lazy, smirking gaze up the length of your body.
“Better get you all cleaned up and back in your little lab coat before Grace starts wondering where you are, hm?”
You bark out an incredulous laugh. “God, I’d slap that look straight off those blue cheeks if you weren’t so fucking pretty.”
“Aw, baby.” He flashes his fangs in a full-blown, wolfish grin. “You think I’m pretty, huh?”
He leans in to kiss you, but you stop him in his tracks, pressing a firm finger against his puckered lips.
“And because you have extra brownie points for…”
You pause, watching his ears prick forward.
“…pleasing me, today.”
Jake chuckles cooly. But the flick of his tail tuft behind him gives him away.
“Really fucking pleasing me.” Your lips roll up into a wicked grin. “You wanna sleep in my bunk tonight?”
His brows fly up.
“Jesus, sweetheart, this not enough for you?”
“No,” you laugh, tracing a fingertip over the trail of white dots down his nose. “I mean, just... sleep with me. For the night.” Your fingers trace lower, running over both of his lips, making them catch with the drag. “You look really fucking cute when you make my bed in the morning.”
Jake grins like an idiot.
His gaze falls to your lips, the playfulness in his eyes turning warm and sincere as you let him lean in to deliver a light peck to your lips. “Yeah. I’d love that.”
You give a little giggle, glancing down.
The discomfort of the mess between you and the sudden apparent sting from the bark on your back makes you want to get moving.
“Come on, Sully. Get your soft cock out of me and pull your damn trousers up. Better clean up this mess of mine before getting back.”
The air conditioning that circulates your room feels chilly against your skin later that night. Hell’s Gate seeming noticeably colder and more clinical.
It always feels this way after being out there. After growing accustomed to your Avatar’s larger veins and the temperate climate of the beautiful forest.
But snuggling beneath the covers with Jake’s comforting arm thrown around you warms you from the inside out, and you wiggle down further, cocooning yourself in him with your leg draped over his.
Jake’s arms are one of his proudest assets. A place where he can wear the strength from years of wheeling his own bodyweight around. They feel big and comforting as they envelop you, even when his human body is smaller and more vulnerable than his nine foot tall blue version.
It’s pitch black save for the dim glow of a nearby floodlight outside, providing just enough light through the small window for your eyes to adjust to the swirls of opaque tattoos entwining his arm.
You trace the sharp outlines with your nail idly, feeling a light tug of nerves in the pit of your stomach.
“Hey, Jake?”
“Yeah, sweetheart?” he mutters.
“I’m sorry,” you mumble. “You know… for all that stuff with the gun today. I don’t know what comes over me, I’m just…” You break off, your fingers plucking anxiously at the material of the tank top over his chest. “Everything feels so different out there… You know?”
Jake shifts, and you feel him craning his neck to look at you in the dark.
He brings his other arm across his chest, finding your chin with his thumb and forefinger and tilting your face up towards his.
“Hey. No need for apologies, baby.” He leans down to kiss you with lips softer than earlier.
“I get it. I mean...” he chuckles quietly. “Look at me. I’m the idiot who actually let it happen. I’m just as dumb and hooked on that crazy stuff as you are.”
You chuckle back. “I know. It’s just… to ask for something like that. I can’t believe how insane I really am sometimes.”
“Yeah… me neither.”
You suck in a sudden, quiet breath.
You see the faint pale outline of his playful smirk, his voice a husky whisper. “We’re both insane. And I fucking love it.”
His lips meet yours again, and you can’t help but break into a slow smile against his mouth. It alleviates some of the lingering nerves that swirl in your belly.
But as Jake settles back onto the pillow, shifting his arm underneath his head with a content exhale through his nose, you find yourself chewing at your lower lip.
There’s something else you’d been meaning to ask him tonight.
Something that sends your pulse spiking whenever you consider plucking up the courage to say it out loud.
You try to keep your finger as idle as possible as you trace over his chest.
You decide to just go for it.
It’s probably as good a time as any—lying here in the pitch black so he can’t see how fucking hard you're blushing.
“Jake...”
“Mm?”
“I’ve been… err… thinking. About something,” you mumble.
His head shifts again.
“Yeah? What’s that, love?”
“Well, it’s…” you clear your throat softly. “Sort of a... Well, I mean… I wanted to know if you’d be interested, first, so I thought I’d ask…”
“Oh, Jesus,” he chuckles blithely. “Not sure if I’m quite ready after today’s excitement.”
You let out a nervous laugh. “It’s not anything like that.”
“No?” He squeezes your hip impatiently before bringing his hand up to your hair, raking his fingers in light, gentle strokes through the strands. “What is it then, baby? What’s got that smart tongue of yours in a twist.”
“Well… you know how I love getting to see you drive your Avatar, when I’m like this. With my own eyes.”
Jake’s fingers slow down in your hair, almost stilling completely.
He’s deathly silent, so you hurry on. Sucking on your teeth before releasing a string of words in a tumbling hot flurry.
“I just wondered if maybe you’d wanna get in link and we’d fuck around while I’m still a human or something.”
You scrunch your eyes shut, your nose crinkled up in a cringe.
You realize your whole body has gone tense, waiting for his reaction, until his fingers slowly resume their steady strokes through your hair.
The thrum of the air conditioning unit hums loudly at the edge of the room, and you feel the heavy weight of the grin in Jake’s tone when he finally speaks.
“Ah… You want it really big, huh?”
You let out an embarrassed laugh, your face on fire.
“I mean, I think it could be… good. From a research standpoint. You know?”
Jake laughs darkly. “Oh yeah? That right?”
He rolls into you, squeezing your ass tightly as he kisses you again.
This time it's deeper, the scratchy stubble on his jaw grazing your chin as it moves powerfully against yours, and you giggle, trying to keep the kiss light despite the sudden heat flooding straight through your core.
Meeting Jake out there when you were both driving your Avatars had your blood pumping, sure.
But on those rare occasions you got to see him swagger over to you all blue, towering over you while you were trapped in your human skin…
Well. That was an entirely different game that had your knees on the verge of caving under your weight.
He always seemed extra teasing and playful when you were smaller than him. Crouching down to your level to prod you with his big, blue fingers—flashing you Cheshire grins, ones that seemed far wider and sharper than when you were in your own Avatar.
It was impossible to hold any command over him when he was peering down from five feet above you, and he clearly got a kick out of seeing you get in a fluster over it.
Grace was never fond of him bringing his Avatar into the lab without good reason. And equally there was rarely a good reason for you to be out in the field in an exo-pack, either.
It would be a sensitive minefield to navigate.
But...
You have an idea.
And that idea is seeming more attractive by the second from the haziness of currently being locked in Jake’s all-consuming kiss.
“So,” you pull back from his mouth to breathe. “What do you think?”
“I think I can’t say no to this beautiful, smart woman in my arms,” he rumbles, leaning down to press his pandering lips into your neck instead.
“Hey.” Your voice comes out firmer as you push him back by his forehead. “Don’t get all mushy on me like that when I’m talking about you jamming your godly Na'vi cock in my human pussy.”
“There she is,” he chuckles low and devilishly, pulling himself back up level with your face, his breath tickling your lips.
“Mm… Getting to feel my Avatar’s dick in this tight little thing?”
You gasp as he slides a heavy, warm palm over your pyjama bottoms, slotting his lightly curled fingers into the sensitive gap between your thighs.
“I’d love nothing more, sweetie.”
He kisses you again, slowly. The soft, slick sound of your lips sliding together in the dark sending a fresh spike of heat straight between your legs under the pressure of his massaging fingers.
“I think something can be arranged,” Jake murmurs.
The Velvet Halo
Summary: Sure, burlesque wasn’t as popular in the 90s anymore, but they never stopped you from doing something you were passionate about. You traveled between Las Vegas Los Angeles, performing at many high end burlesque club, used to the crowd of business men and socialites — but you were never used to have a group of rockstars in the crowd watching you.
Pairing: Rockstar Eddie Munson & Burlesque Dancer Reader
Tags: Mature Themes, Mutual Pinning, Smut, Sexual Themes, Burlesque Dancing, Tension, Flirting, Pet-Names (Baby & Sweetheart), Dressing Room Sex, Protected Vaginal Sex, Creampie, Praising, Slight Body Worshipping, Oral Sex, Fingering, Finger-Sucking, Doggy-Style, Hair-Pulling, Slight Choking, — Both are consenting adults that know what they want.
Word Count: 8.1k
A/N: The reader is called ‘Lettie’ because her stage name is Scarlet soo Lettie is just a nickname given to her :)
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The first thing you notice about Los Angeles is that it hums with bright, lively energy. Neon signs buzzing above liquor stores and tattoo parlors, leaving Sunset Boulevard glowing in electric pink and poisonous green fluorescents. At the same time, the scent of cigarette smoke, hairspray, and ambition lingers heavily within the air, leaving the city on the verge of something breaking or becoming something.
You pressed your head against the cool taxi window, watching as it passed through the city, palm trees blurring past in streaks of beige and shadows across the asphalt. Back in Las Vegas, the lights are manufactured fantasy, carrying addictive ambition and egotistical pride, but here, everything feels hungry, like people are chasing something that can make or break them.
Just like you are.
The garment bag lies across your lap, holding the burgundy costume, the one that always makes the room go quiet before gasps of appreciation fill the silence. It carries the satin corset, with black lace detailing that traces along the curve like whispered secrets, paired with matching lace garter straps and sheer stockings, and a red feathered fan that’s been deemed your signature item.
You’ve been invited to perform for a week at some burlesque club tucked between an old bar and a tattoo parlor on the Strip. Here in Los Angeles, burlesque clubs were the most popular places. The popular scene was anything involving rock n’ roll or metal music, crowding whatever bar was playing guitar solos loud enough that it felt like lightning strikes rumbling through your skin.
Still, you have your audience. You always do, but you didn’t know that your audience tonight would include a certain rockstar who stared at you like something serenely divine.
The club is smaller than most of the lounges back in Vegas, but it has character with its deep crimson walls, decorated with golden-framed mirrors and round tables lit by low lamps that cast everything in a sinful glow. The stage is circular and intimate, close enough that you can see the exact moment desire flickers behind someone’s eyes.
Backstage smells like powder, perfume, and nerves.
You sit in front of the mirror, bulbs framing your reflection in warm light as you lace yourself into the corset, tugging the strings tighter until your waist cinches and breathing turns shallow in the way that makes your posture appear perfect. You smooth the black lace over your hips, adjusting the stockings and fastening the garters wrapped around your thighs.
When you look in the mirror, you feel transformed, though not in the way that brings exposure or vulnerability, but something that invites the power of being able to command a room without speaking a single demand.
Out in the main room, the crowd is beginning with a lively atmosphere after another venue down the street celebrated some non-local metal band that just went platinum. The entire city has been buzzing about them, magazines filled with their photos, music blasting on nearly every radio in each car that passes by. The DJ mentioned their name earlier when you arrived, while majority of the girls grinned with excitement as they whispered about the band.
But you didn’t catch it, you were too focused on the stage.
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Down the street, the crowded bar is vibrating with the post-celebration adrenaline. Eddie settles into the chair, head tilted back as he laughs loudly at something one of his bandmates said. He looks different from the way he did all those years ago in Hawkins, the curls are longer now, wild and untamed past his shoulders. There are rings on nearly every finger now, and even a sleeve of tattoos peeking out from under the sleeve of his skirt.
The newfound frame sits on him strangely, though it’s not arrogant or obnoxious. Instead, it sits on him like a jacket that he was never meant to put on, but somehow fits anyway.
“C’mon, man.” Gareth insists, clapping him on the shoulder. “We just went platinum. We deserve something better than sticky floors and watered-down beer.”
“I heard there’s this burlesque place a few doors down. Apparently, some new dancer is performing tonight.” Jeff adds on, grinning in amusement as he stares between the two of them.
“A burlesque place?” Eddie questions, raising an eyebrow. “What is this, 1940?”
“Maybe it’s better than a strip club,” Gareth jokes, nudging Eddie playfully, clearly egging on Jeff’s suggestion. “Classier, ya know. Tits with jazz.”
“Dude, you’re an idiot.” Eddie chuckles, shaking his head at their behavior.
But he goes anyway, telling himself that it’s for the guys, for the celebration, and the story that they’ll laugh at later because he doesn't really expect anything worthwhile.
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The house lights dim, and a sultry melody plays through the speakers, something slow and teasing, with a pulsing rhythm beneath. You step onto the stage surrounded in darkness until the spotlight hits, pulling everyone’s attention onto you.
You don’t rush the performance, letting one heel slowly click against the floor as you take your place at the center of the stage. The red satin gleams beneath the lighting, black lace casting delicate shadows against the curve of your skin. You lift your shin, the feathered fan brushing against your thigh as the room forms around you.
Eddie leans back in his chair, one arm lazily slung over the backrest, smirking faintly as if he’s preparing to be anything but impressed, until you start moving, and he realizes this isn’t what he expected.
There’s no desperation in your movements, or any frantic stripping. Every motion is deliberate and controlled, as the feathered fan brushes against your skin, shoulders slowly rolling with the rhythm of the music, back arching subtly enough to draw attention without begging for it, because you aren’t performing for them.
You’re simply gracing them with your presence.
His smirk fades as the music slides deeper, bass thrumming intimately against the speakers. You glide across the stage, heels clicking against the floor with precision as the fan snaps open in a burst of red, hiding half your body. You peek over the top of it, eyes scanning the crowd with a lazy, yet predatory expression.
Your gaze passes over businessmen, tourists, and men who are already leaning forward, practically drooling at the sight of you. It’s all expected, until your attention catches a pair of brown eyes and silver rings that glowed in the warm light. He wasn’t shouting like the others, or whistling loudly; he was just watching, eyes following your every movement like you were something holy.
The intensity of it makes your breath hitch, something barely noticeable to the crowd, but you feel it resting uncomfortably against your chest. You turn away first, focusing on the performance, hiding the spike of interest, because control was everything right now.
Eddie doesn’t even realize he’s leaning forward until Gareth elbows him, staring at him with a knowing expression before smirking. “Dude, you’re staring.” Gareth adds.
But, Eddie doesn’t answer.
You circle the stage slowly, dragging the edge of the feather fan down your arm, across your collarbone, and between the curve of your breasts, before stopping between your legs and flashing the crowd that signature taunting expression. The movement is teasing, something suggestive enough to let their thoughts race without giving anything away.
When you turn your back to the audience, you glance over your shoulder, staring directly at him. His fingers tighten around his drink, jaw clenching slightly because he’s seen girls backstage at shows, even groupies trying desperately to find some proximity to fame, but there wasn’t any hunger in your expression, just a silent challenge.
You begin unlacing the gloves from your hands, slowly peeling one finger free at a time. Each movement is perfectly timed with the music’s pulse, and when you finally toss the glove into the crowd, someone eagerly lunges for it.
You don’t look at anyone else in the audience, keeping your eyes focused on him, this time refusing to look away from the undivided attention. The attention almost feels dangerous, silent and devoted, because he isn’t reacting the same way everyone else is.
He’s studying you, like he’s trying to understand something.
Eddie feels like he’s being pulled somewhere he didn’t mean to go, falling underneath some spell that left him enchanted with each elegant shift of your hips, and when you step toward the edge of the stage that was closest to his table, the air suddenly feels thinner with tension.
You kneel gracefully, bringing yourself closer to his level, the spotlight following you every move as the fan brushes beneath his chin, smiling proudly at the sudden hitch in his breathing. Up close, you can see the faint scar on his brow and the way his lashes cast shadows against sharp cheekbones. There’s something boyish there beneath the rockstar exterior, something honest.
You lean in, not enough to touch, but close enough that he can feel the warmth radiating off your body, and the gourmand smell of your perfume. “Enjoying the show, darling?” You whisper, just loud enough for his ears only.
“Yeah,” Eddie murmurs, voice rougher than he expected. “Yeah, I am.”
You pull away first, standing in one fluid motion, the fan flaring widely as you move back toward center stage. Your posture straightens, fingers slowly tracking up the sheer stocking, watching the crowd with that condensing pout as you slowly tug at the lace wrapping around your thighs. The crowd reacts audibly, people whistling loudly while some clapped in appreciation, but none of that was the reason for your racing heartbeat.
It’s racing because for the first time in a long time, someone looked at you like that.
Not like a body, but like a force.
By the time your performance ends with a dramatic flourish of feathers and a perfectly timed blackout, the entire room erupts with applause, whistles, and the scrape of chairs as men stood up. You bowed gracefully, listening to the sound of applause for a moment before rising, eyes catching his one last time.
But, he isn’t cheering loudly like the others. He’s on his feet too, smiling calmly like he just discovered something that he didn’t know he needed.
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You exhale heavily once you're backstage, adrenaline shaking through you, making your fingers tremble slightly as you set down the fan. The sound of chatter fills the silence, their laughter drifting in through the closed door of your dressing room, but your mind is drifting somewhere else.
The sound of knocking quickly snaps you away from your thoughts, looking over the door as the club’s manager pokes her head in. “You’ve got some visitors, Lettie.” She says with a knowing smirk.
“Plural?” You hum, arching a brow.
“Band guys. The platinum ones. They asked if you’d say hi.” She explains, expression dull, like this was something obvious.
You hesitate for a moment, because you’ve met musicians before and most of them think the world owes them something, but you agree. “Alright, just give me a minute.” You say softly.
Once the door closes, you don’t bother changing out of the corset, just reapplying your lipstick.
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Eddie almost doesn’t go backstage, because the thought feels stupid, almost juvenile, like being seventeen again and working up the nerve to talk to a girl after a show.
“Dude, you were practically drooling.” Jeff teases.
“I was not.” Eddie snaps automatically, glancing at Jeff with an unamused expression.
“You so were.” Gareth grins tauntingly.
Eddie ignores them, telling himself that he just wants to complement your performance, from one artist to another, just simple respect for artistry and nothing more than that, but his pulse doesn’t agree with him.
When you step into the little lounge backstage, their conversation dies instantly, because you look even more unreal close up. The red satin of your corset catches the low lighting, hugging your figure perfectly as your hair cascades over your shoulder, lipstick still painted on perfectly despite the heat of the stage lights.
Your gaze lands on Eddie first, something knowing simmering beneath your expression. “Well, to what do I owe the pleasure?” You ask smoothly, voice dripping like velvety smoke.
Gareth starts to speak, but Eddie quickly cuts him off. “We just wanted to say, you were incredible out there.” He says in admiration.
You study him carefully, a subtle smile curving over your lips. “Just incredible?” You tease lightly.
He huffs a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “No. That’s not the word.” His eyes drop briefly to the lace at your waist, then return to your face. “You were mesmerizing.”
“Mesmerizing?” You repeat softly, something in your chest tightening as you step closer.
“Yeah.”
The space between you narrows, not touching, but close enough that you can feel the heat radiating from him. “You don’t seem like this is your usual scene.” You point out.
“It wasn’t until about five minutes in.” He admits.
“And now?” You question, smile deepening slightly.
“Now I don’t think I’ll ever look at a stage the same way again.” Eddie says with no hesitation
The air shifts, thickening with something unreadable as your fingers lift, brushing lightly across the silver rings on his hand, the contact brief, but electric. “So, you’re the band everyone’s talking about.” You ask quietly.
“Guess so.” Eddie shrugs, smirking proudly.
“Platinum album, and you still look at me like that.” You add, almost in disbelief, as you look over his expression.
“Like what?” He asks, brows furrowing together in amused confusion.
“Like I’m the one on top of the world.”
“Maybe you are.” Eddie says softly.
The words land somewhere deep because you’ve been desired before, you’ve been admitted before, but this feels different, and now your pulse is pounding against your chest.
“You’re in town long?” He asks.
“A week.”
“That’s convenient.”
“For who?”
“For me.”
You laugh, soft and genuine, but the conversation is cut short when someone down the hallway calls your name. You glance toward the sound, then back at him. “Walk me out? After I change.” You ask lightly.
“Yeah.” He answers immediately.
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Standing underneath the neon glow of The Velvet Halo’s sign, the night starts to feel warmer as the rest of the band drifts ahead, giving space without commenting on it. You stand close to him on the sidewalk, red replaced by something comfortable and loose, but the memory of the feathers lingers between you.
The city continues around you, cars passing as music spills faintly from nearby clubs, but his attention remains on you.“You always command a room like that?” He asks.
“You always watch like you’re trying to worship something?” You counter, tilting your head slightly with an amused smirk.
“Maybe.” Eddie says, a breathless laugh slipping past his lips.
You step closer, close enough that your chest nearly brushes his. “If I asked you to come see me again tomorrow, would you?” You ask quietly.
“Yeah. I would.” He says without any hesitation.
“And if I asked you to meet me somewhere quieter after?”
His breath catches, but he nods. “I would, whatever you asked.”
“You sound very sure.” You point out, fingers sliding across the zipper of his jacket.
“I am.”
You study him one last time, then you lean in slowly and deliberately pressing a soft, lingering kiss to the corner of his mouth. It wasn’t directly pressed against his lips, but the touch was just enough to seem like a promise instead of something innocent, and when you pulled back, his eyes darkened.
“Tomorrow, rockstar.” You whisper, then step away, heels clicking against pavement as you disappear into the Los Angeles night.
Behind you, Eddie Munson stands beneath the neon glow, heart pounding like a drum solo, already knowing that platinum records and screaming crowds have never felt as intoxicating as the way you looked at him under a single spotlight.
And tomorrow?
Tomorrow, he’ll be back in the front row.
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The second night feels different before you even step through the doors of the club, because Los Angeles is louder tonight. After all, the word has spread about the platinum band celebrating on the Strip and about the burlesque dancer in red who made half the room forget how to breathe.
Inside, the air is thick as anticipation hums beneath the chatter like feedback before a guitar solo. You sit at your vanity backstage, staring at your reflection. The bulbs framing the mirror glow warmly, but your skin feels cool as you press your fingertips lightly against your throat, feeling your heartbeat there.
He’ll be here, this time it won’t be accidentally or dragged in by his bandmates. He’ll be here because you asked him to be, and that changes everything, because you’ve commanded rooms before. You’ve performed for businessmen, tourists, lonely husbands, and even curious couples. You know how to seduce a crowd and own the spotlight, but tonight, this isn’t about the crowd.
The black corset is sharper than the red one, sleeker and tighter. The lace detailing trails like delicate spiderwebs across your ribs and hips, and the neckline plunges deeper, edged with intricate black beading that catches and fractures the glow of the stage lights. The stockings are sheer, smoky, and your heels lacquered black, tall and lethal, with daggers designed onto the stiletto.
Your hair has been styled into structured curls, glossy and dramatic, framing your face in vintage glamour. Your lips are painted a deeper crimson than last night, borderline deep wine, and your eyes are darker too, heavily lined, shadowed in charcoal and plum.
It all looks almost vampiric, predatory and intentional.
When you stand, the transformation feels complete, and you look like something that belongs to midnight. The club manager knocks before peeking inside. “Hey, Lettie. Packed house tonight, people heard about last night.”
You glance over at him, a small smile curving over your lips. “I guess I left a good impression.”
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Out front, Eddie Munson sits closer to the stage than he ever has in his life. He told himself he’d play it cool tonight, that he wouldn’t act like some lovesick idiot, but he failed the moment he walked in. The place was overflowing with filled tables and bodies standing along the walls, the entire club carrying an edge in the air, like everyone senses something is about to happen.
Gareth leans toward him, smirking. “She requested we come again, huh?”
Eddie doesn’t answer because he hasn’t stopped thinking about the way you kissed the corner of his mouth, and the way your fingers traced the rings on his hand like they meant something. He told himself it was flirtation, just some performance bleeding into real life, but when he laid awake in his hotel room, staring at the ceiling, it didn’t feel like a performance.
It felt personal.
The lights dim, and the chatter lowers into a murmur, then an opening guitar riff tears through the speakers. His head snaps up immediately because he knows that riff, he wrote that guitar riff. It’s raw and heavy, the opening of Corroded Coffin’s newest single, the same one that’s climbing charts across the country.
The bass thrums deep, the drums sharp and insistent, and for a moment, the entire room is confused, then the spotlight ignites, and you step into it. The moment Eddie sees you, dressed in black like a goddess of something divine, he nearly forgets how to breathe.
You don’t move right away, letting the music fill the space, letting the crowd realize what they’re hearing, watching the ripple of recognition when people realize what exactly they’re listening to. Your eyes find him in the crowd, a small, barely noticeable smile curving over your lips as you slowly begin swaying your hips to the rhythm of his own music.
The heavy guitar becomes something sensual in your hands, and Eddie feels like he’s watching something heavenly. His song was written in a cramped rehearsal space, sweat and frustration and adrenaline. It was meant to be loud and rebellious, but now it’s transformed into something dangerous.
Your movements aren’t frantic, they’re deliberate. You turn your back to the crowd, glancing over your shoulder at him as the chorus hits, hips rolling precisely as each motion is synced perfectly with the drums.
The room fades, leaving only you and him as you trace the feathered fan along the soft curve of your breast, flashing a seductive smile as the spotlight trickles over your figure, earning a collective murmur from the audience, but you aren’t looking at them, you’re looking at the man whose lyrics are spilling through the speakers.
Eddie’s pulse hammers in his ears as he recognizes his own voice layered into the track, rough and commanding, watching you move to it changes everything. It feels intimate, almost sacred now.
You step down from the stage, gasps echoing through the club because burlesque isn’t meant to break the fourth wall so boldly, but you do.
You move between tables like a shadow, heels clicking softly and fingertips trailing across tabletops as shadows of your lashes fall against your cheeks whenever you lower your gaze.
Then you stop, directly in front of him.
You place one knee on the edge of his table, leaning forward slightly. The black satin outfit glistens in the lighting, letting the lace of your stockings brush against his thigh as your hand finds his shoulder, resting there comfortably.
The contact is electrifying as he stares up at you like you’re something otherworldly. You lean down, lips hovering near his ear. “You recognize it?” You murmur, your voice barely audible beneath the music.
His throat moves when he swallows. “Yeah, I recognize it, sweetheart.” Eddie breathes out.
“Good, enjoy it.”
You straighten slowly, dragging your fingers from his shoulder down to his hand, and hooking one of his rings gently with your fingertip before releasing him. The crowd watches, but they feel distant because this is strictly a conversation between you and him.
You return to the stage as the final chorus builds. This time, your movements are sharper, more intense. You arch back dramatically, hands sliding through your hair as the drums crash. The corset laces loosen slightly at your motion, revealing more, but never everything.
You spin, black lace flaring, curls bouncing with the motion as the song ends with a thunderous finish, freezing in that final performance pose, chest rising and falling heavily with anticipation.
There’s a pause of silence, then the room explodes with applause and whistles, but you’re only watching one reaction. Eddie is on his feet, just staring at you with something that borders on awe.
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The backstage area feels smaller tonight as you close the dressing room door behind you, leaning against it for a moment and exhaling shakily, because tonight’s performance didn’t feel like just a performance.
A soft knock comes a few minutes later, and you already know who it is. When you open the door, he’s standing there alone this time, looking dazed and slightly disheveled.
“You used our song,” Eddie says, his voice low.
“Did you mind?” You ask, tilting your head slightly.
He steps inside without thinking, the door clicking shut behind him. “Do I mind? You turned it into something else.”
“I wanted to.” You whisper, closing the distance even more.
“Why?”
“Because you were watching.”
The honesty hangs between you, thick and heavy. Eddie studies your face like he’s searching for insincerity, and when he doesn’t find any, he speaks again. “You have any idea what that did to me?” He asks quietly.
“What did it do?” You ask, feeling your pulse quicken beneath your skin.
His hand lifts, hesitating for a second before settling lightly at your waist. “It made it feel like that song wasn’t mine anymore. It felt like yours.” He admits.
“Maybe it is now.” You whisper, heat blooming between your legs.
His thumb shifts slightly against the lace at your hip, the contact sends a spark through you. “You were incredible out there, sweetheart.” Eddie whispers.
“So were you.”
“I wasn’t even on stage.”
“You didn’t have to be.”
Silence falls again, but this time it’s charged and heavy with everything neither of you have said. Your hand lifts, fingers brushing against his jaw lightly, almost testing for his response. When he leans into it instinctively, the movement steals your breath.
“You’re not like the others.” You say softly.
He huffs a quiet laugh, glancing away for a brief second. “Yeah, I’ve heard that my whole life.”
“I mean it differently.”
“Then tell me how.”
Your heart pounds as you step closer, bodies nearly touching. “You look at me like I’m more than what I’m wearing.”
His hand tightens slightly at your waist, but it’s not possessive. “You are, sweetheart.” Eddie says immediately and the certainty in his voice makes your chest ache.
For a moment, neither of you moves, then he does, and his other hand comes up slowly, brushing a curl away from your cheek. His fingers slide lightly into your hair, not ruining the style, just holding you there.
“You keep doing that,” Eddie murmurs.
“Doing what?”
“Making it impossible to look anywhere else.”
“Maybe I don’t want you to.”
And, that was all it took for the space between you to disappear.
The kiss is slow at first, testing and warm. His lips are moving against yours like he’s memorizing the shape of them. Your fingers curl into the fabric of his shirt, pulling him closer as heat spreads through you like wildfire.
His hand slides from your waist, the heaviness of his palm resting against the stretch of your back, keeping you pressed firmly against him. He pulls back just enough to look at you. “Tell me to stop, and I will.” Eddie says quietly.
“I don’t want you to stop.”
“Whatever you want, angel.” Eddie whispers against your lips, kissing you with more certainty as your hands slide over the leather covering his chest.
His lips trail from your mouth to the stretch of your jawline, leaving warm kisses against your soft skin until the lace of your corset brushes against his chin. Your head tilts back slightly, eyebrows furrowed as you stare at the ceiling, pulse hammering through your body at his touch.
“Eddie, I need you.”
The way you whisper his name makes him shudder, feeling the heat of the moment rush straight to his cock. “In here? You sure?” He asked, pulling back just enough to look at you, eyes searching your face for any hesitation as his hands snaked around your back.
You nodded briefly, leaning closer just enough to press your lips against his jawline. “I’m sure,” You whispered against his skin, hands pushing off the leather jacket covering his shoulders. “Right here, I don’t care about the others. I just need you.”
His eyes widened for a moment before a smirk spread across his face, fingers wrapping around the silk ribbon that kept your corset tied. “Yeah, sweetheart?” Eddie raised an eyebrow, one hand wrapped around your waist as he guided you in front of the mirror.
Eddie stood behind you, hands trailing along the structure of your corset, watching as your pupils dilated from the reflection of the mirror. “Can I take this off, angel?” He asked, fingers looping around the silk ribbons keeping the corset laced together.
You looked at Eddie through the reflection of the mirror, his eyes darkened by something similar to lust. You nodded lightly, swiping your hair over your shoulders to reveal the ribbon work along the spine of the corset. “You can take it off, Eddie.” You said, voice carrying a breathless plea.
His fingers slowly work at the silk ribbons, feeling himself shuddering at the cold material against his skin, something to ease the reverent heat blistering through him. The spine of the corset carefully undid itself as the ribbons came apart, revealing the soft skin of your back. Eddie looked up in the mirror, noticing how your hands pressed against the chest of the corset, keeping it from revealing your bare breast.
“Don’t hide from me, sweetheart.” Eddie whispered, his voice carrying a low raspy that made you whimper in his response. “Let me see how beautiful you are, please.” He pleaded, his warm breath trickled across your shoulder blades as he pressed soft kisses against your skin, humming in satisfaction whenever your back arched.
You exhaled shakily, eyes closing for a brief second at the warm sensation of his lips against your skin, addicted to the way his fingers curled around your bare waist as he held you close. The corset slowly lifted itself from your chest as you removed your hands, allowing the black fabric to slip off your body.
His eyes darkened as the corset gathered on the floor, inhaling sharply as the warm light laid flawlessly over your skin. “There she is,” Eddie whispered huskily, allowing his hands to glide across the delicate curve of your waist, the cold metal of his rings igniting your body with a blistering desire for closeness. “Look at you, angel. Absolutely gorgeous, fucking breathtaking.” He complimented, voice dripping with allure.
Eddie’s hands glided along your skin, soaking up the pulsing warmth that radiated off you, memorizing how your goosebump-covered skin felt beneath his fingertips. His hand reached around your stomach, laying possessively over your abdomen as the other trailed toward the stretch of your neck. “Look at yourself, sweet girl.” He whispered in your ear as his palm rested over your throat. “You look like you were made for me.”
You whined softly, feeling his fingers pushing against the pulse points of your neck, the pressure making your mind dizzy with hormones. You lazily tried to glance at him, eyes dusted over with lust as your chest continued to rise heavily, practically begging him for more. “Please, god, I can’t take it anymore.” Your voice sounded airy with desperation, hips subconsciously rolling against him for friction.
His hand tightened around your throat, inhaling sharply at the feeling of your ass pressing against his aching bulge, cock straining against the denim jeans he wore. “Yeah? You want more, sweetheart?” Eddie asked quietly, voice trickling down your spine with that sultry tone as his hand slowly trailed down your body, fingertips dipping beneath the waistband of your lower garments.
Eddie chuckled as you eagerly nodded, wiggling your hips gently as he tugged down the lace underwear. You carefully stepped out of the fabric, leaving you in nothing but the stockings and garters that wrapped around your plush thighs, the mouth-watering sight making him groan lowly in appreciation. His hand found your waist, guiding your body to face forward, pulling your attention away from the mirror as he lowered himself onto the ground.
“Place your leg on my shoulder, sweetheart.” He instructed, calloused palm reaching for your thigh, giving you an encouraging nod before lifting your leg upwards, revealing the sweetness buried between your thighs. “Lean against the desk, if you need to. Want you just like this.” He mumbled huskily, lips pressing soft kisses against your clothed ankle, trailing along your calf before reaching your inner thigh.
Your fingers tangled between the strands of his messy hair, gently tugging his face forward as his nose brushed against your clit, the friction sending ripples of pleasure through your body. Eddie hummed at the subtle eagerness, tongue swiping across the wetness of your folds, licking up the honeyed taste of your arousal as it left his chin glistening.
“Fuck, baby. You taste so good.” He mumbled, eyes half-lidded, completely drunk of the taste of your cunt seeping onto his tongue. His hands trailed along your body, gripping the plush curve of your ass, pushing your body closer until your leg wrapped around his neck, letting his hands rest along your waist to keep you steady.
His tongue lapped across your puffy cunt, curling slightly to gather the sticky liquid that seeped from your body, groaning in satisfaction at the feeling of your thighs trembling around his face. Your body was pressed against the desk, fingers roughly gripping at his hair, while the other hand tightly held onto the edge of the table behind you. The sound of delicate moans slipped past the part between your lips, tongue rolling over the dryness as you looked down at Eddie, his eyes darkened with lust and hunger as he continued to devour you.
His cock practically ached against his jeans at the sound of your honeyed moans, feeling pre-cum spilling onto his boxers at the incoherent mumbles that left your mouth as his tongue flattened against your clit, applying sudden pressure to the sensitive bud. The sound of squelching wetness filled the dressing-room, echoing off the walls as the point of his tongue pressed into your hole, leaving your body squirming against his grasp.
Eddie groaned heavily, forcing himself away from your cunt, chin glistening with arousal. “Up on the table for me, sweetheart.” He instructed, giving your waist a gentle squeeze before pulling away, watching yourself hoist yourself onto the desk. His hands reached for your thighs, spreading them apart and draping them over his shoulders, leaving your cunt exposed.
He looked up at you, eyes darkened with that predatory gaze, watching your expression furrow as he sucked on his fingers, coating them with his saliva before swiping them between your folds. Eddie slowly pushed his fingers inside you, feeling the warmth of your cunt fluttering around him, exhaling heavily at the sound of your wispy moans.
Your head tilted backward, leaning against the mirror as your eyes fluttered shut at the sensation of his fingers pushing inside you, curling against the sensation spot that made arousal gush onto his hand. You moaned loudly, the music from the current performance keeping the sinful noises wrapped in the privacy of your dressing-room as he continued to push his fingers into your seeping cunt.
Eddie groaned lowly, a lazy smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth, completely enamored with the dazed expression that melted over your face as the pleasure of his fingers rippled through your body. He moved forward, tongue lapping around your clit, sucking on the sensitive bud as a clear liquid squirted onto his hand, squelching noises filling the room as he moved his fingers faster.
“Oh, fuck, sweetheart. Look at you, making such a mess already.” He murmured, voice muffled against your skin as he pulled away, playfully nipping at your thigh, leaving bite marks across the supple skin as if he were claiming you entirely.
You felt a surge of embarrassment blistering against your skin as the pressure tightened in your abdomen, adding to the mess that left his fingers coated with your slick. You shifted slightly, glancing down at Eddie, strands of hair clinging to his forehead as he looked up at you, smirking against your thigh before his tongue swiped over your clit.
He groaned loudly, eyes practically rolling backwards as his lips reattached to your cunt, the overly sweetened taste melting across his tongue as your thighs trembled around him. His tongue sloppily glided across your folds, pushing his fingers with the same rhythm as his tongue, feeling your cunt fluttering around his fingers, hinting at the overwhelming pleasure that bubbled in your core.
His hand glided across your thighs, forcefully spreading them apart, fingertips gently digging into the soft skin. “Keep ‘em open, angel. Just let it out, make a mess for me.” Eddie said, voice sounding muffled from his position between your legs, letting his grip tighten as he held you firmly against the vanity.
Eddie completely ignored the way your thighs trembled and ached to squeeze shut. “C’mon, sweetheart. Stop holding back, show me how good it feels.” He hummed, staring up at you with a darkened gaze as his fingers curled slightly, repeatedly pushing against the sensitive hilt buried inside you.
You moaned loudly, a blissful wave washing through your senses as your orgasm racked through your body, leaving your jaw slack as spews of incoherent noises spilled through. Your back arched away from the vanity mirror, thighs trembling around his face as the creamy substance of your release coated his fingers.
Eddie watched closely, eyes trailing over the sight of your convulsing body, arousal leaving his chin drenched and glistening. “Good girl, baby. Such a messy little thing.” He said, voice laced with intimacy as he slowly pulled out his fingers.
A sweet whine slipped through your parted lips, laced with disappointment from the sudden lack of warmth. You looked down at Eddie, expression still painted with haziness as you slowly came down from the orgasm, barely processing the movement as he lifted himself from the kneeling position between your legs.
“Open your mouth for me, sweetheart.” Eddie instructed gently, tapping his cum-coated fingers against your lips.
Without hesitation, you opened your mouth, moaning softly as his fingers pressed down on your tongue, the taste of your release filtering through your tastebuds. You glanced up at him, eyes covered in a lustful haze, tongue swirling around his fingers, savoring the taste on his skin.
Eddie inhaled sharply at the sight in front of him, feeling his cock against his jeans as your tongue glided across his fingertips. “Fuck, you’re something else, sweetheart.” He muttered quietly, pulling out his fingers with a subtle pop. “Bend over the desk for me.” He whispered, hands reaching for your waist as he lifted you off the tabletop.
Just as instructed, you shifted positions, nerves bubbling beneath your skin as you stared at your reflection in the mirror, catching his admiring expression as his hands glided across your waist before gently pressing your forward until your back arched naturally. The cold surface of the vanity pressed against your bare chest, stifling a quiet gasp, mixed with surprise and anticipation as the sound of his zipper caught your ears.
You glanced into the mirror, watching as he tugged down his jeans, the heaviness of his cock slapping against the lower skin of his stomach as he pushed down his boxers. Eddie stepped behind you, his hand gliding across the stretch of your back, gently nudging your legs further apart with his feet, lifting one of your legs, and placing it on the edge of the vanity.
“Just like that, sweetheart, look so beautiful like this.” He hummed in approval, hand kneading the soft flesh of your ass before spreading you further, cock sliding along the stickiness of your folds.
Eddie choked back a hiss of pleasure, expression sneering slightly as his cock twitched against your pussy, practically aching to be wrapped around the sweet warmth that oozed from your cunt. “You’re perfect, angel. So fucking warm and sweet for me.” He praised, tone dripping with intimacy as he slowly pressed the head of his cock inside you.
The stretch of his cock sent your jaw hanging slack, staring at the reflection in the mirror as his hand reached for your lifted thigh, holding you firmly in place as his cock bottomed out inside you, pulsing against the tightness of your cunt sucking him in. You inhaled shakily, fingertips clawing at the edge of the vanity, gripping onto nothing as the fullness of his cock pressed against the sweetened hilt buried inside you.
Eddie reached around with his other hand, gently wrapping it around your throat, forcing your attention onto the mirror as his thumb tauntingly pressed against your pulse point. “Keep those eyes on the mirror, sweetheart.” He hummed, slowly moving his hips forward, dragging his cock along the warmth of your pussy.
“You’re taking my cock so well, baby. You were made for me, weren’t you?” He praised, leaning down slightly as he pressed sloppy kisses along your bare shoulder. “Made to be my little performer, splayed out just like this for me.”
“Fuck, Eddie. Feels so good.” You moaned sweetly at the praise, feeling your cunt fluttering around his cock as his fingers pushed deeper against your pulse points, excitement flaring through your chest.
The thick tension bubbled in your stomach as his hips gradually picked up pace, the sound of squelching echoing throughout the dressing-room as your cunt clenched around him, arousal leaving a creamy substance around the base of his cock. Your head tilted forward, forehead pressing against the slightly fogged mirror, breath ghosting across the glass with each heavy breath.
Eddie straightened, hand slipping from around your throat, burying his fingers between the strands of your hair, gently tugging you back up as he watched your head dip forward. “C’mon, sweetheart. Keep those pretty eyes forward, I want you to watch, baby.” He said through a groan of pleasure, his other hand gripping the plush skin of your thigh before landing a gentle smack that made your ass jiggle.
You whined loudly, lips parted with incoherent mumbles as his handprint flourished across your skin, lingering with a blistering warmth. Your eyes stared into the mirror, watching as his teeth sank into his bottom lip, feeling your stomach coil at the sight of him. “Mmph! Fuck, ‘s too much.” You moaned in pleasure, hips subconsciously moving back against his thrust, eagerly rubbing against the pressure of release rapidly building.
His hand tightened around the strands of your hair, groaning loudly in pleasure at the feeling of your pussy clenching around him as your hips pushed back against him. “It’s okay, sweetheart. I’m here, I gotcha, let it out, baby.” He said with that raspy tone, thrust slowing into that deep and sensual pace, leaving your body trembling beneath him.
The sweet raspiness of his voice sent the fuzziness in your abdomen snapping, the thick wave of pressure rippling through your body as your pussy tightened around his cock, release slicking up his cock as you trembled beneath him, fingers gripping the edge of the vanity while incoherent moans of pleasure spilled over your lips.
Eddie watched with a close eye, teeth sinking into his bottom lip as you came undone around his cock, thrust still slowly pushing into you with sensual movements, softly fucking you through the intense orgasm. “That’s it, sweet girl. Take a little more for me?” He pressed, looking at your reflection in the mirror with an intimate gaze, almost pussy-drunk on the way you felt around him.
You nodded lightly at his question, body trembling against the tabletop, still sucking his cock in for more, the intimacy of his touch leaving you addicted, desperately clinging onto the pleasure. His hand dropped from your hair, letting your head dip forward slightly as he reached for your waist, carefully readjusting the position until you were facing forward, legs wrapped tightly around his waist as his cock pushed inside you.
His hand reached for your waist, thumb brushing across your blistering skin, slowly moving his hips forward, the sound of his heavy breathing mixing into your soft moans, skin glistening across your bodies as he leaned forward. “God, you look beautiful like this, sweetheart.” Eddie complimented, brushing the curled strands of hair away from your face, staring at the post-orgasm glow that stretched across your face.
“An absolute angel dressed in sin.” He whispered lowly, palm tenderly resting against your jawline, tilting your face towards him as his lips pressed against yours, swallowing the sweet moans that melted past your tongue.
You smiled into the kiss at his words, thighs tightening around his waist, drawing him closer as your arms draped across his shoulders. “And what does that make you?” You whispered against his lips, tantalizingly leaving kisses down his collarbone, listening to the breathless sound of his chuckle. “A worshipper draped in chains.” You added, briefly looking up at him with eyes darkened with intimacy, tongue swiping across your lips with that smile.
Eddie’s expression shifted, lustful amusement glimmering beneath his eyes, cock pulsating with the ache for release, stomach coiling with pressure at the sudden switch in your words. His hand slipped beneath the length of your hair, firmly, but gently holding the back of your neck. “I’d worship you day and night, sweetheart.” He whispered, tilting your head and revealing the stretch of your neck, lips brushing against the sensitive spot as he inhaled the pheromones pouring off your skin.
You whimpered sweetly at the feeling of his teeth sinking into your skin, subtle claims blistering across your neck, overwhelming heat blistering throughout your body. “Fuck, please. I need that, I need you.” You replied shakily, mind slipping into that haze of pleasure, fingers clawing at his shoulder blades as the tension bubbled in your abdomen, becoming drunk on the sensuality of his words while his cock pressed against the sensitive hilt buried inside you.
Eddie’s body jerked at the sharpness of your nails, hissing at the pleasurable pain of your fingers dragging across his back. His fingers pressed against the side of your throat, pulling away from the crook of your neck, staring at the fucked-out expression pulling at your face. “Yeah, sweetheart? I’m here, not leaving, gonna give you everything you want.” He muttered through his tightened jaw, cock twitching against your cunt, desperately aching for release.
You nodded weakly, body pressing against his chest as your fingers pushed beneath the messy strands of hair, gently tugging his head backwards. “Mhm, a-ah, fuck. Feels so good, think ‘m gonna cum.” You moaned senselessly, desperately clinging onto him as the slow sway of his hips gradually picked up, repeatedly pushing against that sweetened hilt.
His hand dropped from around your neck, tightening around your waist, firmly holding you against the vanity as his hips sloppily thrusted inside you, pushing your body over the edge as the pressure snapped, leaving your cunt fluttering around him. “Let it out, angel. I gotcha, baby.” Eddie muttered in pleasure, guiding you through the orgasm as his own release stirred through him.
The pressure coiled in your abdomen, moaning loudly in pleasure as he continuously thrust into you with desperate motions, the intensity of your orgasm whipping through your body, leaving his cock coated in your release. “Oh, god, Eddie. Right there, right there.” You babbled, needily clinging onto the pleasure as your body trembled with aftershocks.
Eddie glanced down at you, head still angled from the tightening around his hair, eyes brightening with something similar to worship as he watched you come apart around him, thumb soothingly brushing against the curve of your waist. “Just a little more, please, baby. Just a little bit more, promise.” He whispered repeatedly, voice carrying that raspy shakiness as he bottomed out inside, hips stuttering while his cock twitched against your cunt. “Fuck, sweetheart. Don’t move, don’t move.” He babbled, thick ropes of cum spilling inside you, leaving his chest heavily rising with each heavy breath.
You exhaled heavily, chest stuttering with each breath of air you pulled in, body trembling around him as your hands weakly dropped from his hair, lazily resting against his shoulders. Eddie pulled back slightly, noticing that dazed look in your expression, gently brushing the hair away from your forehead. “C’mere, sweetheart.” He whispered, pulling you closer, hand resting against the back of your head, letting you press your head against his shoulder as the two of you steadily came down from the lingering intensity.
His arm wrapped around you, holding you securely against his chest as his fingertips traced idle patterns along your spine. “You’re okay, I’m here.” He spoke softly, pressing a tender kiss against the top of your head, smiling tiredly at the tiny exhales spilling across your lips. “Let’s get you cleaned up.” He added, trying to catch a glimpse of your face, noticing the half-lidded exhaustion in your eyes.
Eddie carefully untangled your bodies, slowly pulling out his half-hard cock, whispering soft praises at the tiny whimpers that slipped past your lips at the loss of warmth. “I know, baby. You did so good, an absolute angel for me.” He spoke quietly, wiping down the mess between your legs with the cloth he found in your vanity, before grabbing the duffle bag you pointed at, helping you dress into fresh, comfortable clothes.
“Thanks.” You mumbled tiredly, holding onto his shoulder as he helped pull the pair of lounge pants over your legs.
When he finished helping you change, the two of you stood there for a moment, loosely holding onto each other, before he twisted the rings on his fingers, pulling off one of the silver ones with a red gemstone. “So you don’t forget when you leave.” He said, carefully tucking the ring into the palm of your hand.
You looked down at the ring, smiling lightly as you wrapped your hand around it, looking back up at Eddie with a sweetened, yet amused expression. “Why don’t you drive me home?”
a/n: i love this but i don’t, but i really do at the same time. it’s been so long since ive wrote a good detailed smut </3 . i stayed up literally all night writing this so i do apologize if its choppy and has some errors :’)
Just one more | sex pollen
Pairing: Clark Kent x reader Word Count: 3.5k
Description: When Clark gets poisoned with sex pollen, he tries everything in his power to stay away from you. Until he ends up crashing into your living room, and you have a god on his knees, with your name in his mouth and your body at his will.
Tags/warnings: smut, established relationship, clark is sorry, he gets freaky with his powers, consent kink, breaks you and worships you at the same time, begging, praising, hovering (yes hovering👀), so much dirty talk (he’s feral but sweet), overstimulation.
Note: Guess who watched superman today and got a new man to obsess about🙂↕️ honestly I don’t even know what took over me when I wrote this but all I can say is go ahead, live your best life and enjoy the sweet filth 🫶🏼
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You wake up with a loud crash coming from your living room. You jolt upright from your bed as you hear glass shatter, sprinting toward the noise. You curse as your body, only covered by Clark’s giant shirt, gets hit with the crisp midnight air as wind gushed through your apartment like a hurricane just passed by.
A figure stood where your glass door used to be, leaning weakly on what was left of the frame. You turned on the lamp next to you, illuminating your boyfriend’s stumbling body.
“Clark!?” you exclaim, confused by his abrupt arrival.
He doesn’t look up, just stands there against the frame, chest heaving, fists clenched. Like he is barely holding himself together.
Worry washes your features, something must be really wrong. You start making way over to him, but as soon as you take a step forward he puts a warning hand in front of him.
“Stop! Don’t move,” his deep voice comes out strangled, like he’s been screaming for hours. “Don’t come closer… please. Just–just stay there.”
He keeps his hand up to stop you, panting heavily as he swallowed to try to soothe his dry throat. He slowly looks up, and groans when he meets your eyes. His pupils are blown wide, dry lips parted, his breath ragged like he’s been flying across the globe. His usually perfect wavy hair is now flat, messy, sticking to his sweaty forehead.
“I didn’t want to come here,” he whines. “I–I didn’t want you to see me like this.”
“What happened to you?” You ask from your spot, fighting the urge to run to his aid.
“I’ve been infected,” he chokes out, and your brows furrow more. “Some kind of … alien pollen. It hit me out there. I flew straight into it and fuck ... It’s messing with my head, my body, I…”
He suddenly turns away, pacing in small frantic circles on your balcony like he’s trying to shake something off. His hands tremble as he fights to not make eye contact, like just looking at you hurts.
“What do you need? D-do you have the antidote?” You ask, scared as hell. He never acts like this.
He just shakes his head first with a bitter laugh, only to nod frantically afterwards.
God, if only you knew.
“I tried to wait it out,” he groans, fists now in his hair. “I swear I did, my love, I locked myself away for hours …tried to fly as far as I could but I kept turning back because I could smell you.”
“I can smell you, sweetheart. Even from across the city …I can hear you breathing…your heartbeat. I didn’t want to hurt you but right now I have you in front of me and I can see–dammit…I’m sorry–“
He stumbles backwards like he’s ashamed of himself, like he can’t even look at you.
“You know I can’t turn it off,” he whispers. “I never mean to look, I swear, but I can see you now. Everything.”
Of course you know what he means. You know he can see right past his giant shirt covering your body. And the guilt on his face is gutting. He looks like he’s trying to claw his own powers out of his skin.
“Clark… it’s okay. You don’t have to explain.” You step forward slowly. “It’s not like we haven’t–“
“No–you don’t get it!” He snaps, his voice booming through your walls so loud you were sure everyone on the building heard him. He instantly feels worse with the way you flinched to his volume. “S-sorry darling… you just don’t get it…you have no idea what it’s like to smell you and know how soft you are, how warm. My instincts are going crazy. I just need to be inside you…I need to touch you, mark you, fill you up until I can’t think straight,” he just rambles, eyes raking through your body.
You take a deep breath, his words making you clench your thighs together and he noticed. Of course you’ve had sex before. You know what he sounds like when he’s needy. But this? This is feral. You’ve never seen him like this.
But you’re willing to do anything to help him.
Always.
“Clark…you don’t even have to ask,” you speak softly, your own eyes darkening with desire.
He shakes his head. You don’t even understand the amount of restraint he’s having right now.
“I do…I always do. Especially now. Because I’m not going to touch you like I should. I’m not going to make it about you. I’m going to use you. Because you’re the only one who can fix me…you are the antidote and I hate it. I hate that I can’t even think straight unless I’m inside you…I need you so bad, darling, I’m shaking–” He cries, actual tears come out of his desperate eyes.
You’re watching a god fall apart in front of you.
Because of you.
You finally cross the space left, and he doesn’t stop you this time. You grab his face between your hands, and kiss him without hesitation. His arms immediately cling to your frame, cold hands slipping under your shirt to roam every inch of your warm skin.
You moan into his lips, when you taste the salty tears on his face. His hands land on your ass, and he squeezes hard, bruising, making you squeal. He immediately pulls back, apologizing. Like he still can’t let himself go.
“I’m sorry–” He blurts out immediately, hands soothing the skin he pinched as he fought the urge to do it again, harder. “God I love you…and I would never hurt you. Never. I swore I’d never touch you like this–unless you asked me to. Unless you wanted me to. So please … tell me you want this too. Say yes, or I’ll leave. I swear I will.”
He nods frantically, like he’s trying to convince himself more than he’s trying to convince you.
“I’ll leave if you tell me to.” He swears. “I’ll fly through a mountain. I’ll bury myself in the ocean. Just don’t say yes unless you want this. I’m barely holding on– if you say it, I won’t be able to stop.”
You want him. God you always want him.
The way he keeps asking makes you want him even more. Even if he’s not your Clark now. Even if he won’t take care of you like he always does. Even if you can’t breathe or move after. Because you love him too.
“I want it,” you whisper against his lips, nodding. “I want you. You need me? Use me. Take all you want…I can take it.”
It’s over.
The moment you say yes there’s no going back. He lunges forward, tightening his grip on you as he lifts you off the ground to fly you towards the wall, knocking the lamp when your back hit the wall, leaving you both in complete darkness. Only the moonlight left to shine over his hungry eyes.
His massive hand cradles the back of your head to protect it from the hit, while the other tears off your shirt like he needs to see your skin on his or he’ll die. Your panties don’t even last two seconds before they he rips them away too.
His lips crash yours. Tongues are desperate, hands everywhere, so large, so shaky, everywhere at once. He groans into your mouth like a man dying of thirst finally tasting water.
“Thank you,” he gasps between kisses. “Thank you sweetheart…I’m so sorry I can’t help you first…but I need you…I need to feel you inside, please just let me…”
He knows it hurts you when he doesn’t prepare you properly, when he doesn’t make you cum at least twice on his fingers before he fucks you…but he can’t right now. Not when he can smell how soaked you are already, not when he swears it’s dripping on the carpet.
“Do it,” you pant, hungry for him. “Clark just do it… please.”
He doubts only for a second, and then without thinking he rips the suit. Literally tears it at the waist, tugging it to get rid of it completely. He’ll give a damn about that later.
Right now he is just muscle in front of you.
His painful cock springs up, and he presses himself to you with a wet slap, your back hitting the wall again. Your pussy throbs at how impossibly huge he is over your stomach.
You’ve had him before. You’ve barely made it.
You still want him to rearrange your guts.
“Feel that?” he groans. “That’s what you do to me, that’s what’s been driving me insane all day, darling.”
He’s not even pretending anymore, his cock is throbbing, massive, already leaking. He aligns himself between your soaked folds, rutting the tip against your pussy a few times like he’s lost control of his body entirely. You moan at the friction. Every nerve ending screaming. You know he’s gonna wreck you. You weren’t ready. But at the same time you’ve never been more ready.
He grabs your thigh and lifts it against the wall, before whispering against your lips. “I’m sorry…”
He pushes his hips forward, and when he finally slides home with a snap…raw, hard, you let out a strangled moan.
One long, broken sound, high pitched and helpless, because he stretches you brutally, all at once, bottoming out with a growl. An actual growl. Like he finally felt some type of relief since he got hit with the pollen.
You fight back a cry, lunging forward to bite his shoulder. He starts fucking you into the wall as he whispers ‘I love you’ ‘Thank you’ ‘Sorry’ like some sort of chant. A prayer. Like it’s the only thing keeping him rooted to the version of him that is still careful with you when you make love.
Right now it’s just sex. Dirty, rough, unfiltered sex.
Your breath leaves you in gasps, your bare back against the cold plaster, one leg around his waist, the other held away by him, arms clinging to his biceps for dear life. All you can do is moan as you get adjusted to his unfairly thick cock slamming in and out of you.
“Just like that…you’re taking me so well,” he pants. “You can do it, sweetheart…you’re doing so good… fuck, you were made for this…made for me.”
His hands grip your thighs. He fucks you like he’s possessed, no rhythm, no thought into it, just deep, hard thrusts that hit something devastating every time, shaking the wall with every slam of his hips.
And the whole time, he keeps whimpering into your neck.
“I love you…I’m sorry…I love you…I’m gonna ruin you …I need it…”
You think you’re about to white out when the room starts moving, but you quickly realize what’s happening. He’s lifting your bodies off the ground.
Still fucking you.
Going up as much as your ceiling allowed him too. He pins you high on the wall when his head touches the roof, like gravity doesn’t apply anymore. It never does anyway, not to you, not to him.
So now you’re fucking hovering. Literally. Unable to do anything but take it.
And you feel him like never before. A complete moaning mess. Nails dragging down his back, mouth open in shock as you look down to the floor. Your whole body is a live wire, and he’s fucking you like it’s the only thing keeping him alive.
It literally is.
His cock twitches inside you. He’s already close. Has been since he walked through that window. But he’s holding it, fighting it, because he needs to stay inside. Needs to keep taking. You can’t keep giving all night.
“Fuck Clark…I’m gonna–“
“Yes? Do it. Darling please, you’re doing so well. I’ve got you…cum all over my cock, I got you.”
Your body breaks before you can even breathe. Your first climax of the night hits hard, walls clenching around him, as you pant into his chest. Your whole body goes limp and he feels it.
He fucks you through it. Rough thrusts with his hand stroking your back and the other wrapped under your thighs. He keeps thanking you as his cock splits you open over and over.
“I wanna give you everything,” he groans, voice cracking. “Fill you up, stuff you full of me…Can I? Please? Let me finish inside you….let me have you–“
“Yes, yes, fill me up,” you blurt out, still seeing stars.
He slams in once more and chokes, hips locked, whole body shuddering as he comes with a moan so broken it feels like it came from his soul. He shakes as he fills you, mouth pressed to your neck.
He doesn’t pull out yet. He holds you there, trembling, pressed against the wall like he knows you’ll fall if he loosens his grip.
Even after the first wave passes, after the groans, the shaking, the desperate I love you’s, he holds you like you’re the only thing anchoring him to this planet.
“…Are you okay?”
You just nod, breathless, a blissed out smile in your face. He smiles too. And then, slowly, he lowers you back down to the floor.
But he’s not soft for long. He doesn’t even give you a minute to recover. He can’t. The second round starts before the first one even finishes sinking in.
You’re still trembling in his arms, leaking down your thighs, whimpering his name into the crook of his neck. And he’s still inside you. Still painfully hard.
Still needing you.
“One more, please. Just–just one more,” he begs. “Let me have you again. Please, darling I need it.”
“Take it Clark, take all you need,” you nod, absolutely wrecked.
But what’s a few more rounds with your unearthly strong boyfriend?
He melts.
You usually go multiple rounds, but he’s softer, he gives you downtime, even brings you water in between orgasms. But right now he can’t believe the way he fucked you and you still let him have more. But he needs more. The pollen is fogging his brain.
He finally pulls out, just to set you down on the floor. The second your back hits the rug, he’s on top of you again. And god he’s heavy. Solid. He doesn’t even hold his weight like he usually does because all he’s thinking about is fucking you senseless.
He buries himself deep again, groaning, cursing under his breath. You close your eyes, nails digging the carpet, back arching when you feel him deeper from this angle. You pant small whines from the feeling.
“Shhh…don’t–“ he coos, he wants to be slow, but he can’t. His hips snap hard without even thinking. “You’re doing so good, sweetheart…so good for me… just need one more.”
You know it’s not just one more. And he fucking knows that too.
None of you cares.
“You’re so wet…so perfect” he groans, the filthy sound gushing loudly every time he thrusted. “I didn’t even give you time to come down…didn’t even let you breathe and you still take me so well”
He praises. Worships. He looks down to where your bodies meet, and he sees right through your skin. He can see his huge cock filling you with every thrust. He can see your walls clenching around him. And he loses it.
You’re suddenly running out of air when he presses his chest to yours, pining you tighter to the floor with his body as he pushes harder. And you feel all of him. The broadness of his chest against your ribs. The strain of his thighs bracketing yours. His cock still buried deep, rock hard.
You hit his bicep with your hand first, but he’s not paying attention, he’s too caught up on the way your pussy takes him to notice.
It’s not smooth. Not rhythmic. Just sharp, ragged thrusts that hit you so hard your body jerks on impact, tits bouncing, nails clawing at his back as he crushes you into the floor with every rut of his hips.
Your head starts spinning.
“Clark,” you choke out, hitting his bicep again. “I can’t–can’t breathe…”
His head finally snaps at you, eyes going wide. He lifts up a bit, but he doesn’t pull out, he just … can’t.
You finally gasp for air as he shushes you softly, tucking away the hair sticking to your sweaty forehead.
“I’m sorry…I can’t…can’t stop. I tried, I swear I tried,” his forehead presses to yours, without crushing you alive this time.
His hips don’t stop moving. You pant between moans. You’re close again, you can feel it.
“It’s okay, you’re just…you’re so big…so heavy.”
“I know,” he breathes. “I’m sorry, I know. I just…I don’t want to let you go–”
“Don’t,” you whisper. “Don’t let me go.”
His expression breaks. Because he knows. And you know. He’s not really letting you go. Not all the way. He’s still pressing his weight into you, even as he tries not to. Because he needs to. Because letting go means losing you, even just for a second.
He doesn’t know what takes over him, he grabs your hands and pins them above your head. Watching you sob, moan, eyes rolling back, skin already bruising in multiple places by his grip. He’s not like this. He should be apologizing. Begging. But you just feel so damn good.
And you like it, god you love it.
“I–I love it when you fuck me like this,” you confess, voice barely above a whisper, dumb smile on your face as he hits that spot repeatedly. “I just–I can’t…”
“I know darling, I know…just a little more,” he groans. “One more please. You can take it…you’re doing so good.” He coos, but he can’t slow down, not when you’re clenching him like that.
He picks up the pace.
“C-Clark…please, I’m gonna-“
“I’ve got you, darling…I’ve got you, let yourself go for me.”
You see white this time. You’re not even moaning anymore. Just gasping. Twitching. Letting him take what he needs because you want to. Because this is Clark, your Clark, and you’d give him your whole body a thousand times if he needed it.
And he does.
He fucks you like you’re his last breath.
Even after you’re wrecked, limp, twitching…he keeps going.
You don’t even remember the next time he finishes. Or the time after that. Or where it happened. Your body is a mess, trembling and raw and wet and full. Marked. Praised.
All while he keeps saying, “Just one more…just let me stay inside you a little longer…please sweetheart, I’m still hard I know you can take it…this is the last time I promise…”
Again and again. You’ve never heard him lie so much before.
Yet still, with your hair splayed, legs shaking, literal tears leaking from the corners of your eyes from the pleasure, the pain, the strain, the goddamn pollen he pumps into your body every time he comes…
You are having the time of your life being drunk on his cock.
“Fuck me harder.”
You beg, even when you can’t feel it that much anymore. Maybe that’s why you need it harder…deeper. And because you knew that once he came back to normal he wouldn’t fuck you like this again. And he makes sure to let you know.
“I’m sorry. I just need you so fucking much…I love you I love you I love you—”
You just nod, because it hurts embarrassingly good.
You lose count of how many times he comes in total. How many times you come. You only know time’s passed when the sky starts to lighten outside your broken window, and Clark is rocking into you so slowly it’s more like he’s just holding you in place, his mouth pressed to your shoulder, whispering thank you with every lazy thrust.
By the time he finally slows down, finally wears the substance out of his body after dumping it all inside you…you can’t move. You’re limp in his arms, boneless and dripping and his.
Your bed feels incredibly soft in contrast to all the spots he fucked you on last night.
You’re draped across his chest, tracing the muscles under his bare skin. His fingers are in your hair. Barely moving, just tracing small patterns. Soothing you like he didn’t cause all the pain in your body.
You’re still trembling a little. Just from…after. Your body’s still echoing with everything he gave you. Everything he took.
Worth it.
Clark kisses your temple. He hasn’t stopped kissing you every few minutes. It’s like he’s trying to apologize without saying it. Like he’s trying to prove that he’s still the man you love, the man who flinches when he bumps your head by accident, who picks you flowers and gets flustered when you kiss him in public. The one who always put you first in bed.
Not the one who just broke the sound barrier flying to your apartment because his cock told him to.
“…I broke your window,” he finally breaks the silence, a chuckle makes his chest vibrate against your ear.
“Clark…you broke a lot more than my window.”
You both start giggling…somehow glowing. Your throat hurts, you’re sore, probably can’t even walk today or the whole week, and somehow, it feels like the safest place on Earth.
“I love you,” he whispers. “So much.”
“I know,” you whisper back. “You said it like 87 times while destroying me.”
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✦Read on a03! - Masterlist - Dean Masterlist✦ ✦summary: Dean's refusing any help to get over his sex curse, no matter how many women you find for him. If only he'd just tell you why✦ ✦warnings/tags: Dean Winchester x female!reader, no use of y/n, sex pollen, angst, pining, Dean being a dummy (it's okay we love him), big emotions (sex pollen does that), just the nastiest smut (praise kink, soft!dom Dean, finger sucking, fingering, some car sex, dirty talk, oral f!receiving, sex pollen appropriate stamina, overstimulation, body worship, dumbification, creampie), love confessions during sex, light fluff at the end✦ ✦wc: 10k✦ ✦author's note: voted for my the people! this might be the horniest thing i've written ever like i got possessed plz enjoy✦
This room is going to suffocate you.
Outside, there’s a chilling breeze that bites at your ears, and you had to turn the heater off after an hour of Dean whining about it. You’re wearing a few layers and thick, fuzzy socks that slide on the floor. When you look at your fingers, they’re developing a purplish tint under the nails, and you’d think your nose was bleeding if you could feel it at all.
But you’re burning alive. Deep in your stomach with shame, and an arousal you’re not allowed to indulge. It’s wrong, right now, to have flushed cheeks and sweat gathering under your clothing. A tingling heat that’s hidden under the collar of your shirt, and restless fingers as you work, itching to touch something.
Yourself. Just a rub between your thighs for a little pressure of relief to help you focus.
Dean. Lying on the bed, moaning lewdly and humping the sheets like you’re not even in the room.
He’s apologized fifty times. He apologized when you left that old, moldy house and he started staring at you and palming himself in the car. Apologized when you’d been walking inside, and he’d doubled over in pain on the side walk. He’d grabbed your hip for support, and while you’d been trying to figure out if he was okay, his hand had slipped up to your inner thigh. Apologized when you went to get him some ice—he’d said he was warm, you’ d been worrying about a fever—and you had to come back to find him lying in your bed, head thrown back, eyes squeezed shut and groans slipping from his lips.
At least he hadn’t been touching himself. He’s managed not to do that at all, which you’d be impressed by if you weren’t so worried.
Sam says it’s a pretty basic sex curse. Maybe a pollen, from that mold. Nothing you need to worry about finding a magical cure for.
“We’ve seen these before.” Sam had said. “It’s run-of-the-mill. Dean knows what to do.”
Run of the mill.
Simple.
Sam had said it like you’d be clear in an hour. Nothing fancy required.
Dean gets laid, the fever goes down, everyone’s good.
And it might’ve been simple. You might’ve been done an hour ago, if Dean just got it over with and left when he was clear. You would’ve sat in your bed, running the sheets between your fingers while you read. Trying desperately not to think about Dean only a door over, about the sounds creaking through the wall as he railed someone else into oblivion, about how he’d look.
Probably just like this. Wrecked and hungry, his eyes blown out and skin slick with sweat. Every muscle in his body straining, hair stuck to his brow, mouth hanging open as he’d hover over some lucky girl, showing her a heaven even angels didn’t get to experience.
Your heart would’ve silently ached, a wound you’ve been letting fester opening wider and wider. Your hands would’ve tugged nervously at the sheets, trying to gather whatever he’d left over like a twisted little souvenir for your perverse brain.
The brain that won’t stop being in love with him, no matter how much logic you offer to counter it. You’ve spent nights staring at the ceiling, acting like love was a debate. Like if you reasoned with yourself enough, all the blood in your body would simply stop flowing in a song of his name. Your heart would shift into a new rhythm, no longer a war drum trying to call for him. Your eyes would stop looking for tiny bits of evidence he loved you too, in just as much silence as you love him.
He’s about ten years older than you. He opens doors for you, and that can be a secret desire thing. He’s not emotionally available. He talks to you, about his dad and complicated fights with Sammy and his past, and that has to mean something. He’s got anger issues. He’s stubborn, he’s reserved. You have issues too, and you’re more stubborn. He’s fucked up- You’re fucked up, and he’s also sweet and loyal and handsome and the best kind of stupid a man can be, where he’s a dumbass that never pretends to be incompetent. He’d probably be possessive. You’d like to be possessed. There’s no future there. Yet.
You’ve always lost the debate. You stay in love with Dean, because your heart wasn’t even kind enough to give you a crush. A brief and intense high of adoration and lust would’ve been manageable. You would’ve recovered.
Instead, it’s love. Not even love with a half-life, weaning off with just a little time. Deep, long love.
The kind of love that has you looking at him now, and crudely thinking that he’s being a bit of a pussy. It’s not a fair thought. He’s cursed, has a fever of a hundred and two, and his body is probably trying to convince him to do things that he’s not on board with.
But you live like that every day, and you don’t whine about it. You’ve felt like if he didn’t touch you now you’d die, you’ve gone sick with your own perverse thoughts about what you’d let him do to you, you’ve been delirious with adoration until Sam clears his throat, and mutters that you’re staring again. Maybe the mold should’ve crawled into you, or however this works.
You wouldn’t have been such a massive bitch about it.
You would’ve had nasty motel sex with a stranger an hour ago.
You wouldn’t have made Dean sit in a room with you while you pillow humped, forcing him to look for a sex partner to break your back.
You would’ve been home by now.
But Dean wants to be a little fucking bitch.
“You’re being a bitch.” You say it plainly, because maybe it will snap him out of whatever the fuck this is.
Instead he just chuckles, twisting to give you an amused look. “Ouch, sweetheart- Shit-“
The movement looks like it made his dick brush against something, and now he’s back to cowering in the sheets. Jaw clenched and eyes squeezed shut, visibly pained, and what’s wrong with you that he’s never looked so hot-
“You’d be a bitch too.” He mutters, groaning as he rolls back onto his stomach. “I feel like I’m dying-“
“You’d stop feeling like that, if you’d just pick someone to fuck.”
“I’m tryin’-“
“Not hard enough.”
“Trust me, I’m plenty hard enough- Fuck-“
You throw one of his pillows at his face, and he makes a strangled noise like you hit him with a bullet.
“You’re gonna attack a dying man-“
“I can do whatever I want, when I’m helping you find a fuck buddy.” You stick your tongue out at his back, then return your attention to his phone. “How about Miranda? She’s thirty-six, she’s got really nice hair, and- Oo-“ You scroll a little further down the page. “She likes boats! Those are like water cars, you guys could bond over that.”
Dean laughs again, shaking his head. “Boats aren’t water cars.”
“They are. Think about it.“
“They don’t have a big engineering overlap, I don’t know shit about boats-“
“Then you can just fuck her stupid, you nerd.”
Dean’s silent for a long moment, and you hover your thumb over the screen, fully ready to subject yourself to the worst torture possible for Dean’s stupid, cursed sake.
“She looks nice.” You mumble, praying he doesn’t hear the exhausted, hopeless pain in your voice. “I think you’d like her.”
Dean grunts. “No. Next name.”
You sigh, and swipe left. Adding Miranda to the long, long pile of rejected applicants.
It’s been like this for two fucking hours. Dean lying in your bed, you cross-legged in his, absolutely no progress on curing the curse. He barely even looks at you anymore. He’s been facing the opposite wall since you sat down, burying his face in your pillow every time he moans, trying to hide the roll of his hips under the sheets and failing miserably.
The tingling pain between your legs is almost unbearable now. You’d call Sam and ask if the pollen was transferable, if you weren’t terrified of the answer being no. There’s no way it’s not just Dean anyway. His thick arms stretching up to grip the pillow, his broad, muscled shoulders and back bare, the fact that sometimes when he humps fast and rough, the sheets ride up and you swear you see the tip of his cock. It’s wrong. So fucking wrong, to be getting off to him like this.
But it’s your own personal hell, to have this responsibility. To have him right there, and not be allowed to touch him.
You’ll deal with your shame later in the shower, where you can wash it off and maybe cry from a few different places over your body.
Later. When he’s not dying, and doing absolutely nothing to help you save him.
“Hannah.” You read out the next profile, pulling your knees to your chest. “She’s got curly hair, really nice brown eyes. Looks like she’s a nail artist. That could be nice.”
Dean snorts. “What, you think I’m gonna have her get me a manicure after?”
“No, I just-“ You take a long breath. You’d rather have a living Dean that doesn’t love you, than a dead Dean, who also doesn’t love you.
Dean starts to twist—he’s going to try and look at you again—and you clear your throat.
“It might be nice to look at. Aesthetically. Or- arousing.”
He mutters your name, but you push on.
“For a handjob. Nice nails, going- Up and down your- Um- Your dick-“
Dean lets out the loudest moan yet, and your jaw snaps shut. That sounded like your name. He was probably just trying to warn you to shut up, but that still sounded like your name-
“Sorry-“
“Stop talking.” He snaps, and you nod.
Without him asking, you swipe left on Hannah. He seems to have forgotten about her, and you have no desire to let her and her perfect nails anywhere near his dick.
It takes a while for Dean to request the next candidate. Long minutes of him just panting and grunting, burying his face in the pillow and thrashing in the sheets like he’s having a nightmare.
You see the head of his cock again. It’s thick looking and red and shining with pre-cum. Angry and hard and Jesus fucking Christ-
“Emma!” You shout to the room. You need this to be done. “She’s a nurse, that can be a kink thing-“
“Stop.”
You sigh, turning down the phone screen. “Dean-“
“No. Don’t want Ella-“
“Emma-“
“Don’t fuckin’ care. We’re not doing more of this- Shit.”
“Are you just swearing, or is that an adjective-“
“Sweetheart.” He’s almost growling, a hand slipping out from the sheets to fist the mattress. “Stop. Talking.”
You close your mouth, bowing your head as shame floods your body. You’re trying to help. You’ve given your whole night just to help the man you’re hopelessly in love with have sex with someone else, and you’re tired. Tired of doing this to yourself, tired of him shooting everyone down like suddenly he’s got the highest sexual standard in the world, tired of acting like it’s not killing you and tired of watching him like this.
He’s in so much pain. You can hear it straining in every word, tensed in every movement. You’re not allowed to touch him, but the last time you made him check his own temperature, it had gone up again. With how he’s looking, how he’s muttering to himself under his breath, you’re willing to bet it’s gone up another handful of degrees.
Dean’s going to die, if he doesn’t deal with this. And if he dies, you’re not going to deal with it.
You don’t want to think about what you’ll become, if he goes. You might be the one that turns into a ghost, haunting this goddamn hotel room and growing up the walls like that mold. A shell of a person, caught in a million what-ifs, her heart ash in the wind with his body.
Dean wants to be done with this.
You’re not done with him.
You swipe right on Emma.
For an hour, you let him keep moping and groaning. You flirt with Emma for him, because you’re the best friend in the world, and pretend you can’t see him trying to move a pillow between his legs to offer extra pressure.
“Dean.” You say softly, and he grunts.
“Baby, I need you not to talk-“
“You can take it out.” You mutter, keeping your focus on Emma’s texts. “If you need that. I’m a big girl, I- I won’t mind.”
That’s a lie through more than just your teeth. If he starts touching himself in front of you, all the poetic fawning about how your love is killing you won’t be dramatic anymore. Your heart will beat right out of your ribs, your head will get so light you’ll float away, your need for him will become so consuming you’ll either fall to your knees and open your mouth for him to use, or simply just explode.
But if it helps him. You’ll do anything to help him, even if it’s searing the most sinful, impossible image into your head for the rest of your life.
Dean with his cock in his hand, head thrown back, beating himself right next to you. Maybe moaning under his breath, thrusting up into his fist, accidentally looking at you as he cums, mouth hanging open and eyes hooded as thick white ropes paint the sheets-
“No.” He grunts, and you blink.
“It’s okay-“
“No. I‘m not doin’ that to you.”
You swallow, heated shame rushing through you. “I- I could leave the room-“
“No, don’t-“ He almost shouts your name, flipping over suddenly.
Looking at you.
His eyes are almost black with lust, his face red and slack, expression desperate. He hisses—the movement likely too much—but still reaches out a shaking hand, like he’s going to try and grab you.
“Don’t go, just- Fuckin’-“ His words trail off, eyes locked on your face, and another moan escapes his lips.
You push up on your knees, fear clenching at your heart. “Dean-“
“’m fine-“
“You’re not fine-“
“I’m- Son of a bitch-“ His eyes widen on yours then slam shut. His hand curls into a taut fist, face pulling in pain, and that’s enough.
“Fine. Don’t masturbate, see if I care.”
He says your name, low and rough, and you shake your head.
“You’re not fine, you fucking idiot. You’re dying.” You push to your feet, grabbing his phone from the bed.
Emma’s very nice. Nice in the kind of way that’s going to make you hate her, and you feel sort of bad. She was doomed to your loathing from the moment she swiped right.
But she’s going to help. She’s going to save Dean, and you’ll offer her grace for that.
Dean’s eyes had opened, when he heard you moving. He’s looking at you like a lost street dog, opening his mouth to say something that only comes out in a panting groan of your name.
Whatever protests he has, you won’t hear them. He’s not allowed to die.
“Get up.” You snap, tossing his clothing onto his face. “Get dressed. I’m starting the car in ten minutes, and if you’re not there, I’m coming back and you’re having sex with me.”
You don’t look over your shoulder to see his reaction. The sounds of torment leaving his chest are bad enough.
It hurts. It cuts deeper than a blade, the idea that he detests the idea of sex with you that much. You’re good at sex. You’ve gotten raving reviews, you’re batting a hundred, flawless reports and a hundred percent customer satisfaction rate, even if you don’t really enjoy most of it yourself. Most people you have sex with don’t manage to make you cum, and when they do it’s a tiny little shudder through your body that you forget about in five minutes.
Dean witDean would be lucky to have sex with you. You’d worship him. You’d get on your knees and let him use you until he was leaking out of every hole. You’d let him fuck himself back into you, you’d let him throw you around, you’d do anything-
It’s probably a good thing your threat works. Dean stumbles out of the motel right at the nine-minute mark, pallid and flushed all at once, hunched in pain and wearing a massive raincoat over his jacket to hide the boner.
You never would’ve forgiven yourself, for taking advantage of him like that. It’s better like this, no matter how much it hurts.
You smile when he gets into the car. “Nice fashion statement-“
“Shut up.” He grumbles, glaring out at the road. “Where’re we goin’.”
“A bar.”
He makes a sour expression. “Why.”
“Because you have a date. With Emma the nurse.”
Dean goes dead quiet. He tenses next to you—your elbows brushing for a split second, before he recoils like your skin is coated in toxins—works his jaw, then shakes his head.
You sigh. ‘Dean-“
“No. I told you, I’m not doin’ that.“
“Yes, you are.”
“No-“
“Yes!” You slam the brakes harder than you mean to, as you approach a stop sign.
You expect Dean to snap about you being careful with his baby. Maybe try to make a joke about how maybe the frustration is rubbing off on you, or argue about how this is his dumb choice to make.
And it is. But he made the wrong choice, and you are not letting him die.
He mutters your name, and it’s the same way he said it earlier. Soft. Almost pleading.
You take a deep breath, and twist to look him in his pretty, glazed and dilated eyes.
“You’re going into that bar. You’re going to flirt with Emma. If she asks if you have a fever, you tell her you work construction or something, and you’d just been at a shift. You run hot. Nothing for her to worry about.” You drum your fingers on the wheel, forcing down the lump in your throat. “You’re going to tell her she’s pretty. You’re going to call a fake uber, and I’m going to drive you to the motel. You’re going to fuck Emma until you’re cured, and then we can go home. Understand?”
Dean’s throat bobs. He opens his mouth, a glint in his eyes like he’s going to argue. You don’t give him the chance.
“No. You’re doing this. If you don’t, you’ll-“ You cut yourself off, pressing your lips in a tight line. You won’t cry. You won’t.
Dean says your name, and he has to stop doing that. It’s too gentle. Too close to something real.
“You’re not allowed to- To go.” You look out at the empty road, praying the night is hiding the glossy tears, pricking at your eyes. “I can’t- I won’t- You’re not allowed to.”
You raise your chin, your breathing too shaky to speak for a moment. The silence hangs in the car, even the sound of Baby’s engine not enough to drown out your thoughts.
“Okay?” You snap, trying to sound stronger than you are.
Dean lets out a low sound, but nods. “Okay.” Then, under his breath. “For you.”
You pretend you don’t hear. There’s too much weight in those words, and you don’t have the time to pick them apart, don’t have the energy to ask him what the fuck that means.
Instead, you just give yourself the easiest out. Dean does love you as a friend. You’ve never doubted that for a second. He’s doing it for you because you’re the one demanding he go have sex.
What a horrible friend you are, making him get laid so he doesn’t die.
You huff a dry, pitiful, laugh to yourself. Your drink swirls in its glass, untouched and mocking. You ordered it when you got here, about thirty minutes ago. Made Dean take a possibly dangerous dose of Advil and Tylenol to make him lucid, then hidden yourself in a booth on the other side of the bar. Where you can see Dean and Emma, but only Dean can see you. He’s supposed to give you a thumbs up, when he’s about to call the ride. Right now, he seems so engrossed in her that you’re worried he’s going to forget.
Emma’s pretty. Just as pretty as her pictures. She lit up, when she spotted Dean, and you’d felt a sickening, loud hatred take root in your chest.
Everyone should be happy to see Dean, but none of them are happy like you’re happy. You know him. He’s the love of your life, and your joy is born of that, not just seeing a pretty man. You love seeing him because you know you’re going to be safe. Because he’s going to smile and the world is going to be alright, you’re going to talk and he’ll listen and look at you like there’s no one else in the world, he’s going to make jokes and you’re going to laugh.
But he’s making Emma laugh right now. She’s got one of those high, insufferable giggles, and you’re being needlessly mean but you hate her. You have a giggle like that. It comes out for Dean all the time, and it has a little snort on the end that you hated until Dean casually mentioned that he liked it, and you’ve felt like the most beautiful thing in the world.
It doesn’t really matter though, whose laugh Dean likes more.
Emma’s the one going home with him. You’re being left here.
You focus on ignoring their laughter and voices from the bar. You can’t drink, but you sulk and focus on the music floating through the bar. Your fingers drum on the table, pull at your sleeves, shred three napkins before gripping the cold of the glass like a lifeline. Your vision is going unfocused with envy. Every second you feel the wound in your heart tearing open, an infection of jealousy taking root, and you might actually be about to throw up-
Dean grunts your name, and your eyes shoot up.
He’s standing outside your both, hands in his pockets and a deep scowl on his face. Emma’s not with him. Or at the bar.
“Where-“
“She left.”
Your mouth falls open. “She left? I- What the fuck happened-“
“I told her to. Wasn’t gonna work out.”
“Dean, you-“ Your voice cracks, every thought in your head getting louder. He’s dying, he’s dying, he’s dying. “You promised-“
“I know.” He’s jaw tics, eyes darting away from yours. “Just couldn’t.”
“Couldn’t what? Couldn’t fuck her? What the hell was wrong with her that somehow doesn’t meet Dean Winchester’s if it’s got a hole standards?”
Dean flinches, and it was a low blow, but right now you don’t care. He’s going to die. Why doesn’t he fucking care that he’s going to die and leave you.
“Come on.” You snap, slamming a few bills on the table and shooting up. “We’re chasing her. You’re apologizing.”
He frowns. “No, I’m not-“
“Then we’re going back on the dating app, and finding someone else.”
“I don’t want someone else.”
You roll your eyes, shoving the bar door open and marching to the car. You have Emma’s number. You’ll do the apology yourself if you have to.
Dean’s stumbling after you into the parking lot, and you can’t stop yourself from looking over your shoulder every few seconds. Just to be sure he hasn’t hurt himself. He calls your name, voice pained, and you freeze. Turn slowly, your arms crossed over your chest.
“I’m not doin’ this.” He snaps, stalking towards you in uneven steps. “You can bitch and whine about it all you want, sweetheart, I’m not fucking that girl.”
“I’m bitching and whining?” You laugh, the sound crude even to your ears. “I’m not the one who decided the best time to become a fucking celibate was when he got hit with a sex curse. You’re the one acting like a fucking child here-“
“I’m not acting like a child-“
“Then you’re acting like an idiot!” You scream, taking a large step forward.
Dean goes rigid. Takes a long step back, like you’re poisonous. It just fuels the burning, exhausted fire, kindled by every bit of fear, of love, of fury that he’s putting you through this with almost no remorse.
“It’s not like you have to marry her!” You shout, barbed wire tightening around your throat. “It’s just sex! Fuck, you don’t even have to look at her, it’s- I don’t understand why this is so fucking hard for you all of a sudden, it’s not like you’re some virgin fucking pussy-“
He mutters your name, a low warning, and you ignore it.
“I’ve spent all day trying to save you, Dean! I was going to be your- Your fucking sex chauffer, and I haven’t been complaining, but you can’t do me one fucking favor and have sex with a pretty girl?”
You take another step forward, and this time he isn’t fast enough. You jab his chest, and he stumbles back like you shot him, eyes panicked and wide on yours.
“What the fuck is wrong with you?!” You shriek, shoving him again. “Do you want to die? Are you trying to fucking kill me? Do you hate me, Dean? Is that what this is?”
He rasps your name, and you shake your head.
“I’ve been trying so- So hard to save you. I- I told you that I can’t- If you-“ Your words are getting choked, and the pain is too heavy to just shake off. “You’re not allowed to go! I told you, I won’t let you, but you- You fucking hate me-“
You try to shove him again, hot tears burning down your face, but this time Dean’s ready. He catches your wrist, and you try to pull back but he’s got more strength left than you thought.
He squeezes his hold on you, stalking forward. A fire lights in your core, at the intensity of his gaze. Unyielding and hot, searing into you as your back hits the Impala. He towers over you, jaw clenched, nostrils flaring as he takes in your open mouth and slack expression. You don’t know how you expected him to react, but it wasn’t this. This makes your knees weak, your heart hitting a dangerous pace at the top of your chest.
You can smell his cologne, smell his. A salt, deep musk that’s just Dean, that might as well be a drug for how it’s making you freeze. Your free hand moves to press flat against his chest, but you don’t push.
He grunts, his muscles rippling like you just threw a rock into water. He seizes up, head bowing, and there’s nowhere for you to hide from him.
Dean’s tongue darts over his lips, and your breath hitches.
“Don’t do that.” He grunts, and you just nod.
Lean a little closer, until the heat of your breath is fanning over your cheeks. Your eyes flutter, and when you risk meeting his gaze he looks almost predatory. The hunger in his eyes sends a pleasant shiver down your spine, your thighs pressing together, and it’s hot, so hot-
“I don’t hate you.”
You blink at him. You’d forgotten about that. “Dean-“
“I don’t.” He snaps. “Don’t fuckin’- Never think that, alright? I don’t hate you.”
“Then why are you doing this to me?” You whisper desperately. “Why couldn’t you just go have sex with Emma-“
He shakes his head. “I don’t want Emma.”
“Then let me find you someone you want, please-“
“No.”
“Why-“
“Cause I don’t want any of them.” He hisses, your foreheads bumping as he leans further down. “I don’t want some random fuckin’ chick you pull for me, I don’t want to fuck her, don’t wanna touch her, hell, I don’t even want to goddamn look at her.”
You take a shaking breath, a haze overtaking your head. “Dean, you need someone-“
“You think I don’t know that?” He pushes his hips forward, and you can feel it.
His cock, straining through his jeans, pressing against your thigh. You bite down a moan, completely still in his arms, trying to make him understand with just your eyes. It’s not fair for him to do this to you. He doesn’t understand, this is all you’ve ever wanted and he’s just taunting you with it-
“I can feel it, sweetheart.” He mutters, rolling slightly against you, making that fire in your core threaten to sweep you away. “I feel myself dyin’. My muscles are hurting like I ran a mile, I’m sweating through ten damn layers, think the fever is getting me so bad I might be about to go fucking crazy. But I didn’t even notice ‘till you started getting all worried. You know why?”
It takes you a second to realize you’re supposed to answer. You barely shake your head, before he’s squeezing your wrist, leaning down to whisper in your ear.
“’Cause of you.” He breathes, voice soft and dangerous. “I always feel like an animal when I see you. Spent the whole car ride back from that damn house wanting to hump your leg and didn’t think twice. You just do that to me, and you got no fuckin’ idea.”
You gasp slightly, turning your head to look him in the eyes. They’re hooded, almost feral on yours. You’re so dizzy, you’re worried you might be walking through a dream.
“De- Dean-“
“You can keep looking for some random girl for me, if it’s gonna make you feel better. But I won’t fuck ‘em. I can’t.” His lips ghost over yours, and you lean forward.
“Dean-“
“Sex barely even works for me anymore, baby.” He mutters, tongue flicking over his lips. “Nothin’ does. I get kicked out of bed ‘cause I call your name. So just fuckin’-“ He squeezes your wrist again, drawing slowly back. “Stop. If you wanna give me a dying wish, cut it out and let me go in some damn peace.”
You gape at him as he pulls away, his grip going slack on your wrist.
Dying wish.
He still thinks he’s allowed to die.
“What- What if you fuck me?” You say, so quiet you barely even hear yourself.
Dean’s head jerks up, and he says your name with a harsh, unforgiving snap. “No. I’m not askin’ you to do that just because I’m some perv who can’t get it up-“
“You’ve got it up.” You smile at up, pressing your knee up into his crotch.
He groans, doubling back down so you’re caged against the Impala again. “Baby, don’t fuckin’- I’m not bending on this shit, alright. I’m not gonna be some pity fuck-“
“It’s not a pity fuck, I’m saving your life-“
“I told you, no-“
“Do you not want to have sex with me?” You challenge, and Dean gives you a pleading, wrathfully frustrated look.
“Don’t ask stupid questions, course I wanna have- Fuck-“ He groans, eyes fluttering as his brow presses against yours. “Yeah. Yeah I want to. But- I won’t ask you to. So no.”
You swallow. It’s probably the fever making his tongue so loose. He’s so hot it almost burns to be this close, but that might just be Dean.
It’s always just Dean. And he has to know that.
“What if I want to have sex with you?”
Dean grunts, shaking his head. “Don’t say that if you don’t mean it-“
“I mean it.” You fist your hand in his shirt, dragging him a little closer. “Do you?”
He stares at you again. Scans over your face like he’s looking for one clue that you’re just indulging him, that there’s a single doubt running through your head.
There isn’t. Your breathing is uneven, but your heart is going too fast for it to be anything else. You’re flushed with an unending, arduous hunger to just have him, however he needs you.
Slowly, testing the waters, Dean slides a hand onto your neck. You raise your chin, holding his gaze. He squeezes slightly, and you lean into him, tugging on his shirt for more.
His thumb moves up, dragging over your lower lip. You part your lips, and his nostrils flare.
Dean pushes his thumb slowly between your lips, and you close them obediently around him. Your eyes flutter as you suck, letting your tongue circle around the thick finger, tilting your head and letting your eyes flutter. He pushes a little deeper and you moan. Your hand flies up to grab his wrist, holding him against you, and Dean groans. His eyes are clearer than they’ve been all night, shining with something like awe.
You smile, grinding up into his torso and humming with pleasure.
Dean mouth hangs slack.
“Jesus fuckin’-“
He cuts himself off, pulling his thumb out with a pop and grabbing your jaw. You giggle happily for a second, and Dean swallows the sound, crashing his mouth against yours.
You’ve pictured this kiss a million times, a million ways, almost every night since you met him. Somehow, this is better than any slow, fairytale kiss with swelling music and sunlight hitting both your faces like a spotlight.
Dean’s not taking his time. He’s kissing you like you’re the last thing he knows, the only thing he’s ever wanted. Like a man who’s been starving himself, finally allowed a feast and wasting no precious seconds on manners. It’s urgent and forceful, words he can’t say being pushed down your throat with his tongue and spit. You kiss him back with everything you have, your fingers digging into his chest through his shirts, your head spinning as you neglect breath just to taste a little bit more whiskey and salt on his tongue. But nothing you throw at him Dean can’t seem to double.
You yank at his shirt, and he pulls your hair back. You try to grind up again, and he grabs your leg, hiking it over his hip. You grab his face, trying to kiss harsher, give more, and Dean slams down like a tidal wave, dominating your mouth with unforgiving need.
A moan escapes your throat, your body going limp in his arms, and he grunts. Ruts up into your core once, making your legs spread in a shameless invitation.
Dean grunts, yanking back like someone pulled him on a leash.
He stares at you for a long moment, his thumb finding its way back to your cheek. He smears a bit of spit over your cheek, and you tilt your head into the touch.
“You’re sure-“
“Yes.”
He nods tightly, takes a heavy breath, and leans away. “Get in the car.”
It’s a short, curt order. You don’t think twice before you obey.
You scramble into the driver’s seat, fumbling with the keys and slamming them into the port like you’re about to enter a car chase. Dean’s barely in the car before the engine is rumbling and you’re reversing out of the spot, gripping the wheel with white knuckles. It’s happening. It’s happening.
“Easy, baby.” He chuckles, the sound raspy and sending more shivers through your body. “You that eager-“
“Yes.” You snap, and Dean hums.
A light, almost taunting hand lands on your thigh. You glance over and find him palming at his crotch, his eyes wholly black and mouth hanging open. It’s an animalistic expression, his chest rising and falling at a rapid pace, and when you murmur his name he barely seems to hear.
His fingers dance up the inside of your leg, and you take an unsteady breath, spreading your legs wider. A deep, rumbling sound leaves Dean’s chest, those infernal fingers curling on the sensitive spot where your leg meets your core. Little electric shock rush through your body, and that’s just through the jeans.
“Dean.” You whisper, not even managing to make your voice firm. “I- I’m driving-“
“So look at the road.” He growls, knuckles brushing against your groin.
You bite your lower lip, and nod. It’s not worth arguing with him, and if you don’t think you can focus, you’ll just pull over. You told him you were sure. Told yourself that whatever he gave you, you’d be happy.
You just didn’t expect him to be borderline feral. The palming you could deal with. You expected.
This is different.
Dean scoots further, and you’re about to mumble something about a seatbelt when his lips brush the curve of your neck. You inhale sharply, gripping the wheel for dear life. Dean hums, his tongue flicking over a pulse point. His fingers start to crawl up to your abdomen, his mouth getting more insistent on your neck.
He nips at a pulse point before sucking on his, his tongue flat on your skin and a low sound leaving his chest when you lean back to grant him further access. He kisses a sloppy line up your throat as his fingers dance on your stomach, and you’re starting to get a little dizzy.
“De, be- Be careful-“
You cut yourself off with a breathy gasp, as his mouth latches behind your ear and he pulls down your zipper. He bites softly before sucking another bruise, popping the button open and slipping his hand into your pants.
“I- Fuck-” You tip your head back, hopelessly trying to keep your eyes on the road, and this is not a safe way to drive. You really should be shoving him away, but there’s no one on the road.
And with how he’s barely even speaking—just touching—you’re a little worried it might take extra effort to drag him out of the haze of the curse and push him away. He seems to be blinded to anything that isn’t you. His mouth drags back down your jaw as his fingers brush over your clothed pussy, and your whole body shakes.
He hums, leaving open kisses on your cheek and hairline. “Sensitive, sweetheart. Been a long time?”
You flush, and Dean starts to gather the fabric of your panties best he can through your pants. He drags it up, bunching it around your pussy, and another moan slips out from the pressure.
“Answer me-“
“Maybe.” You mumble, forcing yourself not to grind into his hand. “You- You know I don’t do that-“
“Do what?” He presses the fabric deeper between your pussy lips. “Don’t fuck?”
“Dean-“
“How long’s it been.” His words are hot against your neck, demanding and possessive. “Who touched you last, baby, who shoved their fingers in this pussy-“
“I- I don’t remember-“
“That’s fuckin’ right.” He pulls your panties tighter against your clit. “’Cause they don’t’ fuckin’ matter, sweet girl. No one else is ever gonna touch you like this. I’m gonna make you soak my fingers, my face, my cock, and it’s gonna feel so good in that smart, pretty mouth,” he kisses the corner of your lips, and only the wheel in your hands stops you from turning and claiming his mouth again. “That’s always fucking teasing me, it ain’t gonna remember a single word but my name. You want that, baby? Wanna be my perfect fuckin’ slut?”
Jesus Christ, this is worse than the not speaking. If this is a dream—because you’ve had them like this before—you never want to wake up.
He yanks his hand away, leaving your underwear bunched up in your cunt, and slaps your pussy over the jeans. Your mouth falls open and you lean forward, lightning surging through your whole body.
“Oh my- Dean-“
“I told you, answer-“
“Yes, I- Yes, please-“ Your words fall off into a moan, as Dean shoves his hand back against you, this time dragging the panties away and plunging two fingers deep into your pussy. “Dean-“
“That’s right.” He mutters, crooking them deep against a sensitive spot. “That’s my girl, you’re so fuckin’ wet- This all for me?”
“Mmm- Mhm-“
“Fuck yeah it is.” He starts his attack on your neck again, only speaking between kisses, his fingers scissoring inside your pussy. “So damn tight, know you’re gonna take my cock so good, bet you taste like heaven- Fuck, I wanna taste this pussy, wanted to taste it for years-“
His own words fall into a moan, and for a second you think he’s just out of dirty talk, but he’s still mumbling incoherently against your skin.
Then you risk another look at his body, and the hand that isn’t in your pants has pulled out his cock.
And fuck, if it isn’t the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen. Thick and long, but not painful looking. Throbbing and twitching as he jerks himself, the tip leaking and slick with pre-cum. It takes effort to look at the road and not just stare at the rock-hard, veiny marvel of a specimen between his legs.
You don’t know why you’re surprised. Dean’s a specimen himself.
He’s somehow already figured out how to finger you in such a confining position. His wrist has twisted, letting his thumb drag lazy circles around your clit, his fingers giving shallow, rough thrusts that make his fingers taunt your g-spot. Never really fully touching it, but sending shivers through your whole body.
“Oh- Oh-“ You have to take deep breaths to keep your head clear, your whole body winding tight with the arousal he’s pulling out of you, more and more every second. “Dean-“
“Shh.” He grunts, biting right under your jaw, and you squeak. “Just feel it. Sweet fuckin’ pussy, gushing around my fingers-“
You moan, loud and lewd, his deep voice not doing anything to help you keep it together.
It’s a miracle you make it to the motel. It’s a shit parking job—you’re definitely over the lines—but you’re both alive.
You barely shift the gears before Dean’s pouncing on you like an animal. Whatever the ride was, he still seemed to be showing restraint. Now that you’re safe, all bets are off.
A squeal leaves you, as he flips your body. Pressing your back to the window and prowling over your body, slamming his mouth over yours and kissing until you’re slumping against the glass. Your hand flies up to grab the back of his neck, your hips rolling up to where his knee is pressed between your thighs. Your eyes dart down when you pull apart for a single, ragged breath—Dean pulling your lip between his teeth, and kissing your nose and cheek like breathing is really no longer his concern—and you whimper at the sight of him, still erect and hanging out of his pants.
Dean drags your chin back up, searing his lips over yours, and you melt. He’s a good kisser. And you knew that, but it’s not like anything you’ve felt before. It’s like you’re trading souls, like he’s trying to brand you with wandering hands and lips.
When you pull away again, your dizzy from the pleasure and force of him. You whine at the loss as he leans away, but Dean just squeezes your waist and smirks.
You hear a rip, as he claws your pants and underwear down your legs. You don’t get a chance to adjust before he’s shoving your knee up against the bench, dragging the other one over his shoulder as he ducks between your legs.
“Dean- Shit-“ Your breathing gets shallow as his breath fans over your pussy. “We- We’re supposed to be doing things that are- Like blowjobs-“
It’s so hard to argue with him when he’s between your legs. The sight alone is almost enough to tip you into a frenzy. His shining eyes looking up at you, his full lips grazing your inner thigh, leaving teasing kisses everywhere but where you’re aching for him. You run your fingers through his short, soft hair, trying to get his attention. He just makes a low sound like a purr, and presses his mouth over your clit.
You almost fly out of your skin. He’s making out with the sensitive nerve like they’re your mouth, his tongue dragging and pressing, his hands on your thighs kneading with every suck and graze of his teeth. All you can do is cover your mouth and try to stifle your moan.
Dean withdraws, and you make a strangled sound of frustration. He can’t just do that, it’s not fair-
“No doin’ that.” He grunts, dragging your hand from your mouth. “Wanna hear it.”
You nod weakly, but still try one more time to remind him who this is about. “Dean, it- it’s supposed to be stuff that’s good for you-“
“This is good for me.” He mutters, letting go of your thigh over his shoulder to let his fingers drag back over your fluttering pussy. “Look at you.” He mutters with pure awe. “Responsive, wet little pussy. Bet you’d like it when I do this.”
He pushes one finger knuckle-deep inside you, and you yank on his hair with delight.
“Yeah, you do. How about,” he drags it out, then shoves it back in, and your head tips back against the window, eyes screwing shut.
“Dean, Dean, please-“
He groans, adding a second finger and repeating the slamming motion. Once, twice, a third time. His tongue flicks against your clit on that last one, and your eyes roll back in your head.
“Dean-“
Another deep sound, another flick, and you’re seconds from begging like a whore when he snaps.
Dean wraps his mouth back around your clit, resuming his ministrations from before with twice the fervor. His fingers pick up their pace, wet sounds filling the car as he finger-fucks you into oblivion.
The curse seems to have it’s full hold on him. He’s borderline feral. You’ve never had a man who eats pussy like he’s having a five-star meal, like it really is good for him. Sometimes he just pulls his fingers out and drags his tongue down your cunt, angling his head to press his tongue deep inside you and working his jaw until your toes are curling. His nose bumps your clit and his stubble scrapes your thighs, his free hand squeezing your thigh as he devours.
“Oh- Oh fuck-“ You let out a vulgar, lustful sound as he drags you further forward against his mouth, the pleasure rushing through your body. “Dean- God, just like that-“
He drags his mouth back up to your swollen, neglected clit, and those two fingers pump back into your hole. It’s somehow better and worse, and a shriek rips from your mouth as he spanks your pussy, then resumes his rhythm.
“Dean, please- Please, fuck- please-“
You’re already babbling, the tension in your lower abdomen so tight it’s almost painful. Your body is shaking with the stimulation, and Dean’s working you like an instrument. He finds every hyper-needy spot that makes you moan his name and playing it like a professional. You’re kept right on the edge for what feels like a million years, his fingers and mouth switching in and out, begging and begging as he turns you into an empty-headed, drooling wound-up mess.
Then he finally lets you over the edge.
Dean pushes his fingers right against your g-spot, and rubs. Your body seizes up, eyes crossing as his tongue flicks against your clit, and the heat built up in your gut explodes.
You shake as your orgasm rips through your pussy, your spine, every nerve in your body glowing with a deep, sex-addled bliss. Your clit is swollen between Dean’s lip as he drags you through it, your pussy gushing around his fingers and fingers yanking at his hair.
“Fuck, yes- Yes-“ You moan, legs locking around Dean’s head, and he groans against your pussy.
When it pulls another lewd sound from your chest, he does it again, slowly easing his fingers out and starting to clean up the mess between your thighs. He licks and hums, the sensation making your oversensitive body spasm every time he finds one of those spots.
It’s not certain you’re going to be able to walk to the motel room, when he finally pulls away.
But there’s a gleaming light in his eyes, that makes you think it’s really not going to matter.
Dean’s a wreck. His face is flushed, chest heaving, cock still hard but coated in a white stain that tells you he’s not close to working off the curse.
“Oh, you’re gonna be so mad about that when you’re better.” You mumble, seeing the stains on his precious bench, and Dean chuckles.
“I’ll get over it.”
You giggle, and Dean leans over you again, kissing you slow and deep. One orgasm seems to have cleared his head for a seconds, enough that he’s gently rubbing your bare, tender pussy, a soothing touch that’s really only working you up more.
“Love that sound.” He mutters, and you frown against his lips.
“Wha-“
“Your laugh.” He sucks on your upper lip, wrapping an arm around your waist. “Love it so much. Don’t think I’ve told you that before.”
He hasn’t. It somehow makes you flush more than any of the dirty things he’d been hissing in your ear before.
“You’re telling me a lot of new things.” You manage to mumble, and he huffs in amusement.
“Blame it on the curse.”
You giggle again, and his face shines like he won a prize.
“Son of a bitch,” his eyes are already darkening again, voice getting thick with the curse-driven hunger. “I love you, you know that?”
You can only gape at him. He must not have said what you thought he said. “What?”
“You heard me.” He presses his brow against yours, reaching up to cup your cheek. “I love you.”
He rasps your name, and you blink away tears.
“Dean, if it’s just the curse-“
“It’s not. It’s-“
He slides his mouth against yours and this is the romantic kiss you always pictured. Slow and devoted as he takes the time to memorize you, to bask in the glow of your heart as you shine with love beneath him.
“You know it, right?” His voice is gravelly, his body pressing firmer over yours. He’s going back under. He can probably feel it. “That I mean it?”
He’s still asking—almost begging—you to tell him that you know.
“I know.” You mumble. “I- I love you too.”
Dean goes rigid over your body, and you blink up at him, as nervous as a doe in headlights. Just like the kiss, you’ve dreamed of saying it. Pictured it somewhere romantic, your makeup perfect and the breeze running through your hair. Dean falling to his knees after, kissing your hands before sweeping you off your feet.
Instead you’re lying in the car, cum staining your tangled legs, everything in you ruined from being eaten out by the sinful mouth that haunts your dreams. Dean’s hovering over you, tongue darting over those same lips—shining with your arousal, making your thighs rub together under him—and your holding onto his flannel, both your clothing stuck to your skin from sweat.
He doesn’t fall to his knees. He just looks at you like he’s not sure it’s a dream either.
At least he still sweeps you off your feet.
Dean moves like a machine. You’re not even sure what’s happening until you’re being hit by the wind, dragged down the bench by your ankles and wrapped in one of his jackets to preserve your modesty. His dick has been hastily shoved back into his pants—the fly still fucking down—and you’re about to tell him you’d at least like your underwear before he’s picking it up and shoving it into his pocket.
“Dean!” You gasp, and he just grunts, sweeping you fully into his arms.
“Mine.” He mutters under his breath, looking around the parking lot like he’s still trying to orient himself. “I- I gotta, fuck-“
Gently, you reach up and turn his chin in the direction of your motel room. “Over there, De.” You mumble, and he nods tightly.
He’s fully back under. You don’t bother to struggle or try and convince him that you can walk, because you’re not even sure you could. It’s not worth distressing Dean over anyway.
Despite his fever soaring and gaze being fogged by the curse, he manages you gently. When you get into the room you’re tossed on the bed and pinned back down for his mouth to work you open again, but the brusing grip is full of care, his mouth worshipful on your pussy. After that he’s rising over your body, ripping clothing like it’s a personal offense on his sensibilities and descending over you with another feral growl.
Your legs are shoved apart, but he rubs a hand over your calves almost reverently. Staring at your glistening, abused pussy with a look of pride and affection, gaze slowly dragging up your flushed breasts and thoroughly marked neck to meet yours.
You give him a honeyed, coaxing smile. You’re his to take, if he wants it.
He makes a low sound from his chest, and starts to kiss up your body. You gasp when his lips wrap around one of your peaked nipples, sucking gently until your grinding up into him. His hand splays over your stomach, gently guiding you back down, and you whine desperately.
“Patience.” He hums, kissing over your breast before switching to the other nipple. “Gonna take care of you. Fuck- You’re so beautiful, so fuckin’-“
Dean moans to himself, and you whimper his name, yanking on his hair.
But there’s no rushing him. He plays with your tits until he’s had his fill—when they’re swollen and you’re arching into every touch—then works back down to your pussy. Tasting your arousal, soaked and messy and almost shamefully dripping down his hand when he touches you.
He doesn’t seem to mind it at all though.
“Messy girl.” He grunts, twisting one finger inside of you. “Think you’re ready for some cock, aren’t you. Gonna take me, princess? Show me how much you love me?”
You blink at him through tears, on the brink of screaming his he doesn’t let you cum again soon. When you nod it’s like a bobblehead, and you only remember his orders from before at the last second.
“Yes.” You gasp. “Yes, Dean, please-“
Again, he moves.
You’re almost a ragdoll in his arms. A ragdoll that he moves like you’re threaded from gold, tossing you around and gripping your hips so hard you’ll have a handprint in the morning, but kissing over every hickey on your neck and muttering words of low, tender praise every second.
“Good girl.” He mutters as he drags his cock between your pussy lips. “Good fuckin’ girl, already cockdrunk and stupid for me, aren’t you. Love taking you like this, looking at you all pretty and dumb-“
You whine, head lolling to the side. Dean slides two fingers into your mouth and you suck on them like candy, taking anything he’ll offer.
He growls, dick catching on your entrance, and you shiver, looking up at him under fluttering eyes.
Dean drags you up like you weigh nothing, slowly sitting you down on his massive cock, and every thought but his name is driven from your head.
He’s thick. So think you almost don’t think you can take it, but your whine of protest is only met by cooing, filthy praise in your ears and careful circles around your clit. You don’t know how he can still be so far into the curse and able to restrain himself from rutting you like a beast.
Probably because it’s Dean. That feels like explanation enough.
It takes a moment for him to bottom out, and when he does you’re sure you’ve never been this full. He’s hitting places inside of you that you hadn’t known existed, dropping you into a pool of pleasure that makes your breathing stuttered, your nails scratching over his shoulders as you try to keep yourself from floating away.
Dean kisses you, hot and deep. You moan against him and he grabs your hips, starting to roll you up and down on his cock. You can tell he’s experimenting again, trying to figure out where he hits the deepest, working you open until you’re riding his cock smoothly your head falling back as pants of his name leave your mouth.
It’s paradise. Your toes are curling with every twitch of his cock inside you, every rush of heat when he slams extra hard and hits your cervix. It takes him takes him some time to decide how he wants you , and you’d laugh at what he settles on if the air wasn’t being fucked from your lungs.
Dean cums while holding you in his lap, his thrusts getting short and a groan of your name falling from his mouth when he ruts up, his cock pumping hot release inside of you and your own orgasm rolling through your body like an electrical storm. But then you’re being picked up and flipped around so your back is pressed to his chest, his arm locking around your neck and his hand returning to your clit as his fucks up into you. Then you’re moved forward onto the mattress, Dean turning your face so he can hear your moans and keeping your ass into the air as he slams from behind, his balls slapping against your clit and bringing you back up to the edge.
You’re in his lap again, folded under him with your knees to your chest, rolled on top of him so he can play with your tits and watch you ride.
Every time he cums, you’re thrown into a new position and held there until you both fall back over the edge. You’ve never been wrecked like this before, your head empty, pussy drenching his cock as he spills and claims every spot on your body.
“Dirty fuckin’ girl,” he growls into your ear from below you, dragging his fingers down your inner thigh, gathering his release on his fingers. “So pretty, bouncing on this cock, my pretty fuckin’ baby-“
“Dean.” You whine, scraping at his chest. “Dean, feels so good, so fucking good-“
“I know.” He coos. “Made for me, getting so fucking stupid on my cock- Open.”
He slaps your cheek lightly, and your lips part. Dean feeds you his cum, other hand rubbing up and down your spine, and you grind down onto him with need.
“Good girl, fuckin’- Christ you’re so good-“ His thrusts get shorter, brutal and uneven. “You’re mine, this sweet pussy is mine, gonna- Gonna fuckin’ worship you, fuck-“
He drills up into you, taking his hand away to bounce you how he likes.
You both cum, Dean calling your name and throwing his head back, watching you under hooded, still hungry eyes.
There’s a second to catch your breath, as he palms your breast. Pinches a nipple, rolling it between his fingers, watching how you arch into his touch.
“You like that?” He grunts, and you hum.
“Feels good.”
“Damn right it does.” He grabs the other one, working them in tandem.
You whine his name, looking at him under pleading lashes.
Dean groans. “Fuck, baby…”
He’s hard again, and you’re being moved into another position.
By the time he finds one he wants to keep, you’re a disaster of a woman. Making sounds that are supposed to be his name, boneless below him and still trying to chase more, even as your body turns into a raw, live nerve.
Dean’s got you under him again, his body pressed over yours, cock plunging in and out of your pussy at a lazy, torturous pace. You’ve been like this for what must be an hour, maybe a day, maybe fifty years. Tears of pleasure are stained on your cheeks, there’s a wet sound with every thrust as his cum leaks out of your stuffed hole, and Dean’s praise is becoming more and more lucid.
“I love you.” He mutters, and you moan, turning your head to try and kiss him.
“Dean…”
“I know.” He mutters. “I know, baby, but you’re doin’ so good. Feeling better, almost done, just gotta-“
He kisses over your face, finally capturing your lips as he starts to rut, pounding into your swollen g-spot over and over.
You barely have the energy to arch up, when you cum. You breathe out his name, pussy clenching as you feel that last bit of his cum squirt into you, and a wet, hot feeling floods your pussy as your vision goes white.
“Love you.” Dean’s still muttering as you float through the haze, his lips pressed over yours. “Loved you forever, never- Never thought-“
His voice cracks, and you know the curse is over. He’s not getting hard again inside of you, not trying to chase more.
Just pressing his face into the crook of your neck and holding you tight, words muffled against your skin.
“Thank you.” He mutters. “Thank you for- For sayin’ it back, even if that wasn’t-“
“It was,” you breathe out. He needs to know. “I love you, Dean. Have for longer.”
He chuckles, squeezing your body, and you smile into the air.
You find the strength to thread your fingers through his hair, and he hums, pressing a sweet kiss to your sensitive skin. You shiver, whining softly, and he chuckles again. Both of you too fucked out to move. You’re not sure you’re going to be able to walk in a straight line for a month.
But it was worth it.
Holding Dean here, so peacefully, was more than worth it.
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lessons in sociology
pairing: eddie munson x reader
summary: Eddie Munson is your good friend and study buddy for sociology. when he mistakes the novel you're reading for your sociology textbook, you get a more...hands on approach to learning about power dynamics.
wc: 7.2k
order up: college!au, friends to lovers, d/s dynamics, jealousy, confessions
tw: explicit smut, p in v unprotected, d/s dynamics, use of petnames [princess, sweetheart, baby, honey, guys a whole mess of honorifics], spanking, eddie eats pussy because of course he does, ropeplay mention
a/n: hi hi hi, i have so many eddie requests in my inbox and while he isn't my brainrot rn, i really hope you guys enjoy this one because i loved writing it.
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Your dorm room felt smaller during midterms.
Books everywhere. Highlighters bleeding through thin pages. Half-drunk cans of cola sweating onto your desk because you kept forgetting they existed.
Eddie Munson was sprawled across the floor on his stomach, boots kicked off, rings tapping idly against his soda can as he flipped through his notes.
“You’re overthinking it,” he said for the third time, pushing his hair out of his face. “The professor literally said the theme was power dynamics. That’s, like, my whole brand.”
You shot him a look from your desk chair. “It's not a campaign metaphor, Munson.”
“Everything is a campaign metaphor,” he countered.
There was a comfortable rhythm to this.
You quizzing him. Him derailing you.
It was easy, being like this. Friends who studied together. Friends who argued about symbolism. Friends who definitely did not think too hard about the way the other stuck his tongue out a little when he concentrated.
Eddie groaned dramatically and rolled onto his back. “I need a different book. The one with the red tabs. It’s on your bed, I think.”
Your stomach dropped.
Because yes, there was a book with red tabs on your bed.
But it was not the sociology textbook.
It was tucked half beneath your comforter, face-down, like it had tried to hide itself at the last second. Black cover. Embossed lettering. A very intentional ropework design worked into cover in a way that was… not subtle.
You opened your mouth.
“Wait—”
Too late.
Eddie was already on his feet, crossing the room in three lazy steps, reaching down to grab the book from your bed before you could physically launch yourself at him to stop it. His fingers curled around the spine, and he lifted it casually, flipping it over—
—and froze.
"This is... not your sociology textbook." He says, eyes wide as he flips through the pages.
Your blood ran cold. It was a specific, visceral feeling, like an ice cube sliding down your spine.
Everything faded to a dull roar in your ears. The only thing that existed was Eddie, standing there, holding the single most damning object you owned.
He didn’t flip through it with shock or disgust. There was no theatrical recoil. Instead, his thumb brushed against the pages with a strange, focused curiosity. His eyes, wide and dark, weren't judging; they were reading. Absorbing.
He finally looked up, but not at you. His gaze landed on the open textbook on your desk, red tabs that marked actual academics and not fantasies.
A slow, disarming smile started at the corner of his mouth, one that you’d seen a hundred times after a good roll of the D20.
“Y’know,” he said, his voice a low, conspiratorial rumble that felt like it vibrated right through the floorboards. “This… is a much more practical application of power dynamics than our textbooks.”
Your throat was dry.
"Thats not funny, Eddie." You turn, face red. "Give it back."
He tilted his head, studying your blush as intently as he'd studied the book. He didn't move to give it back.
"I promise you, my porn stash is way more embarrassing than this." He waved the book around a little. "At least yours has literary merit."
"It's not porn!" you shot back, your voice a little too loud in the small space. "It's research!"
The excuse sounded flimsy even to your own ears.
Eddie's smile widened. "Research," he repeated, testing the word on his tongue. "For what? Your dissertation on rope burns?"
He was teasing you, but it wasn't cruel. It was… interested. He wasn't making fun of you. He was engaging. He held the book out, not quite close enough for you to snatch back.
"This shit isn't even accurate," he said, tapping a page. "This is all showmanship. They forgot the most important part."
You blinked, confusion warring with humiliation. "What part?"
"The conversation." His eyes met yours, and for a second, the teasing faded. There was something serious there. Something intense but inherently safe.
"Well, the conversation isn't the sexy part." You mutter.
"Oh so you're admitting it's porn now?" He smirks and you narrow your eyes. "And also... the conversation is definitely the sexy part," he added, stepping closer. "It's the whole point."
You held your ground, even though every instinct screamed at you to snatch the book, throw him out, and crawl into a hole for the rest of eternity. Instead, you lifted your chin. "You think so?"
"I'm well versed, yeah."
He finally lowered the book, setting it down on your desk, on top of your sociology textbook. The juxtaposition was dizzying. Academia and anarchy. Theory and practice.
He took another step into your personal space. Close enough that you could smell the faint scent of the joint he smoked outside.
"I'm going to guess you haven't put this into practice yet," he said softly.
You couldn't answer. The lie was stuck in your throat. Because he was right. The book, the fantasies—they'd always been in your head. A private world.
A world he had just stumbled into.
"So tell me," he said, his voice dropping to a near-whisper, looking you directly in the eye. "Is it something you only like in fiction or would you like to learn it for real?"
He waited.
And the silence that followed was the loudest thing you'd ever heard.
His question hung in the air between you, shimmering and dangerous.
Is it something you only like in fiction or would you like to learn it for real?
It was a test. A doorway. A chance to step out of the theory and into the practice.
"I mean, I don't exactly have a partner to, you know..." Your hands flew up in a vague, helpless gesture. "It's not like I can just walk into a bar and ask 'Hey, any of you guys into safe, effective, and nonjudgmental bondage?'"
The joke landed weakly, but Eddie didn't laugh. He just watched you, like a predator assessing prey. He leaned against your desk, crossing his arms, the casual posture doing nothing to hide the focus in his gaze. He picked up the book again, not to mock you this time, but to flip to a specific, dog-eared page.
"Okay," he said, tapping the pages of a sex scene you had clearly marked with interest. "This, for example. The rope work is all wrong for this position. It would cut off circulation after five minutes."
You blinked. "You... you know about ropes?"
He shrugged. "I have hobbies. Guitar isn't my only practical area of expertise." He met your eyes again.
"I guess that makes sense for your whole... look." You gesture vaguely at him.
That one does make him laugh a little. "Yeah sure the whole aesthetic probably doesn't hurt." He smirks at you, eyes scanning over you again. "But the look is just a bonus. Not a guarantee. I know people who are vanilla as hell who dress like me. And I know people who would put this whole book to shame who wear polo shirts."
You think about that for a second, mulling it over as he speaks again.
"Do you like my 'look' or something? You getting off on the thought of me being the one tying you up?" He teases you, but it's not a joke, not really. It's a question.
The question hung there, an invitation wrapped in a dare. Your cheeks burned, but you forced yourself to hold his gaze.
"Okay, light teasing was fine but don't purposely be an ass about this." You warn him, the bite in your words making him raise an eyebrow. "And... yeah. The thought occurred once or twice. I'm not blind." The admission felt like ripping off a band-aid—painful, but necessary.
Something shifted in Eddie's expression. His smirk was softer, like he didn't expect you to admit it. He let it hang in the air for a beat, savoring the victory.
"Once or twice, huh?" he mused. "That's... nice."
He set the book down again, this time closing it. The conversation was moving on, past the fantasy and into reality.
He sits on your bed, not like he usually does where he's just sprawled out with no care in the world. This was different. He sat close to the edge, leaving a space between you, but the air crackled with new possibilities. He rested his hands on his knees, a position that was open, non-threatening, but still completely in control.
"I've thought about it like, way more than once or twice honestly. I've thought about what it would be like with you. So, like, if you want to try some things, or even just talk about them, I'm more than willing to be your partner in crime."
You couldn't speak, but he continued.
"Unless, you know, you'd rather ask that guy from your history class. What's his name? Mark? The one who looks like he was grown in a lab to sell minivans."
"Mark is just my project partner." You roll your eyes. "He's literally been here once to study."
"You laugh at his jokes a lot in the dining hall." He shoots back. "I've seen it."
You had no comeback for that. Because he'd noticed. And you had laughed. But Mark's jokes were safe. They were about midterms and dining hall food. Eddie's jokes were about things that made your stomach flip.
"Okay, that doesn't mean I want to jump his bones. And even if I did, which I don't, how is that even rele--"
It hits you then
"You're jealous." You say it out loud, a statement, not a question.
Eddie didn't flinch. He didn't deny it.
He just shrugged again, that infuriatingly casual gesture that meant everything and nothing.
"I'm territorial about things that interest me," he said simply.
You were no longer just a study partner.
"Look. We've been friends for a while. You know me. You know I'm not a creep. We can just… talk. No touching, no ropes, nothin'. Just words. We lay it all out. Boundaries. What you're curious about. What's an absolute hard 'no'." He leaned forward slightly, his voice lowering again. "Safe words. Pet names. the whole deal."
He was laying out a curriculum. A syllabus for your most private, secret class. And the professor was the guy who made fun of your D&D character for being too lawful good.
"This is insane," you whispered, the words feeling like bubbles in your chest.
"Is it?" He stood up and walked to your door, closing it and twisting the lock.
"Eddie... what if I say yes?"
He paused, his back to you for a second, before turning around. He leaned against the door, hands in his pockets.
"Then the real research begins." He gave you a small, genuine smile. "But only if you say the word."
The choice was yours.
"Okay." The word was barely a whisper.
He pushed off the door and walked back toward you, gesturing at your bed. "Okay. Rule one. Sit."
You carefully moved from your desk chair and sat on the bed, your back ramrod straight, perched on the very edge of the comforter like it might give way beneath you.
He sat down, leaving a careful foot of space between you. The mattress dipped with his weight, pulling you closer.
"You're tense as all hell, princess. Relax." The pet name was new. It wasn't teasing. It was... grounding.
You tried to unclench your shoulders.
"Let's start easy. Your safe word. It needs to be something you'll remember even if your brain is all fuzzy. Not something you'd normally say during sex. 'No' and 'stop' can be part of the scene. Your safe word is what makes the scene stop. No questions asked."
"Scene? That's so formal. So..."
"It's practical," he corrected gently. "It keeps things from getting messy. So. What'll it be?"
You thought for a moment, your mind racing. "Dragonfruit." It was stupid, random. No one would ever shout it accidentally.
A slow grin spread across Eddie's face. "Dragonfruit. I love it. Okay. That's ours. If you say it, we stop. Everything."
He shifted a little closer, the warmth of him seeping through the thin fabric of your shirt.
"Is there anything you like to be called? Or don't like?" He says, more seriously now. "Some people like being called a slut or a whore. Some people like 'good girl'. Some people hate it. There is no right answer, it's all about you."
The directness of the question made your breath catch. "Good girl," you admitted, your cheeks flushing with heat. "I don't think I'm ready for degradation yet..."
Part of you was worried saying that like you'd dissapoint him or something. but he just nodded, like you'd given him a perfectly reasonable answer.
"Alright. 'Good girl' it is. We can save the other stuff for an advanced class." The wink he threw you was both a joke and a promise.
"What about you?" you found yourself asking.
He seemed surprised by the question for a second. "Oh, well, I guess I'm pretty fine with most things. I mean, you could probably call me an asshole and I'd still like it cause it was your voice."
He said it so casually, as if he were discussing his favorite brand of guitar strings, and not the thought of you moaning for him.
"I liked when you called me princess..." You admit. "You could call me that."
"Princess," he repeated, the word soft on his tongue. "I can do that."
He was so close now. You could see the flecks of gold in his brown eyes.
"Okay, new question..." Those big eyes drag down your figure. "Can you come sit on my lap? I want you closer."
He wasn't just asking a question about a hypothetical scenario anymore. This was real. This was happening.
Your body obeyed before your brain could catch up. You slid across the small space between you, the comforter a whisper under your knees, and settled yourself onto his lap.
His big hands went to your waist automatically, steadying you. He was warm, solid. You could feel the worn denim of his jeans against the thin material of your leggings.
"Alright. First lesson." His breath was warm against your ear, making you shiver. "Power isn't about force. It's about control. My control, your surrender."
You nod, mentally taking notes and he smiles before leaning into to whisper in your ear.
"You can always say no." He says gently. "Right now, to me. You can say 'no, Eddie, I don't want to sit on your lap' and I'll let you go, no questions asked. This is still a conversation."
"I know." You say, a little breathless.
"But you aren't going to say that, are you? No... you want this."
"I do."
"Good girl." The words were a low rumble you felt straight between your legs. "I'm going to put my hands on your thighs now. Just to hold you. Alright?"
You could only manage a small nod.
You could feel the weight of his rings through your leggings.
"Looking so pretty, all for me." He whispers and you lean into him, your head falling to rest on his shoulder as your eyes flutter shut. You trusted him. You'd known him for years. He was safe.
This was what he meant, about the conversation. Every touch was a question. Every reaction, an answer.
"Are you going to be good for me?" He asks.
"Y-yeah," you manage. "I'll be good."
His grip on your thighs tightened just a fraction.
"I know you will." He nosed at your neck. "Now, hands behind your back. Let me hold them."
Your heart hammered against your ribs. You swallowed, your throat tight, and slowly, deliberately, you moved your arms behind you, lacing your fingers together at the small of your back. The position pushed your chest out, making you feel incredibly vulnerable, incredibly exposed.
He made a soft, satisfied sound.
"Always like it when you wear a low cut top like this." He admits. His hands slid from your thighs to your back, covering your clasped hands with one of his own. The gesture was light, not restrictive, but it felt impossibly final.
His other hand came up to trace the neckline of your shirt, a single finger grazing your collarbone, then dipping lower, following the curve of your breast. He didn't grab, didn't grope. He just… explored. Mapping the territory.
"Your heart's beating so fast," he murmured, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear. "I can feel it."
You couldn't answer. All your focus was on the path of his finger as it drifted to the peak of your breast, circling your nipple through the thin fabric of your shirt and bra.
"Responsive little thing, aren't you sweetheart?" He teases.
He circles it a few times, making you squirm on his lap and you can already feel the hard length of him through your layers of clothes. The evidence of his own desire.
His other hand still holds your wrists.
"You like your nipples played with? I know you're sensitive." He asks and you nod again. "Let's see more of these pretty tits."
He doesn't ask to take your shirt off. He just does.
He expertly pulls the shirt over your head in one fluid motion, momentarily freeing your hands before he catches them again, this time pressing them more firmly into the small of your back. He then goes for the clasp of your bra and he undoes that too, pulling it down your arms until you're topless for him.
"Look at that." He whispers and it's the most turned on you've ever heard him.
He runs his thumb over the pebbled flesh of your nipple, and your breath hitches. The calloused pad of his thumb created a delicious friction, a direct line of heat pooling in your core.
"I'm going to pinch," he warned, his voice a dark promise. "Just a little. To see how you like it."
You tensed in anticipation.
He didn't make you wait long. He rolled your nipple between his thumb and forefinger, applying a slow, deliberate pressure. A sharp, surprising jolt of pleasure-pain shot through you, pulling a soft gasp from your lips.
"Good," he rasped. "You like that."
It wasn't a question. He read your body as easily as he read the tabbed pages of your sociology textbook.
He keeps pinching and playing as he trails soft kisses from your collarbones and lower, purposefully avoiding where you want his mouth. He was kissing all around your breasts, teasing you with featherlight touches until you're squirming and whining.
"Shh, be patient." He whispers against the skin of your breast. "I'll get there."
He does it again to the other breast. The pinch, the pleasure, the feeling of being completely at his mercy. He was testing you, seeing what made you gasp, what made you squirm. And you were arching into his touch, a silent plea for more.
He finally lowered his head, taking one peaked nipple into the warm, wet heat of his mouth. He sucked gently, his tongue swirling around the sensitive nub, before grazing it lightly with his teeth.
The whimper that left you was undignified. Needy.
He pulled back, releasing you with a soft 'pop'. He looked up at you, his eyes dark with an emotion you'd never seen directed at you before. Possessiveness. Pride. Awe.
"Look what you do to me," he murmured, one of his hands releasing yours to guide your own down, pressing it flat against the hard bulge straining against the denim of his jeans.
"You're going to have to take care of that later, aren't you?" He says, pushing your hips down a little, making you grind against him.
The friction was obscene, a delicious drag through the layers of clothing that sent sparks skittering up your spine. You did it again, a little more boldly, rocking yourself against the rigid length of him. A groan rumbled in his chest, a purely male, primal sound of appreciation.
"Not yet," he said, his grip on your waist tightening, stopping your movements. "That's a reward. And you haven't earned it yet."
He shifted you slightly, adjusting your position so you could feel him more acutely, a perfect, infuriating pressure against your clothed core. His free hand drifted down to the waistband of your leggings. His fingers toyed with the elastic, a casual touch that made your entire body clench with anticipation.
"You're soaked through already, aren't you, princess?" he whispered, his breath hot against your ear. "I can feel it. All this fuss just from me playing with your pretty tits."
"Is that weird?" You ask, a little nervous now.
"Not at all. It's perfect." He says gently. "It means your body is honest. It tells the truth. And right now, your body is telling me how much you want this."
His fingers dipped below the waistband, not touching you where you craved it most, but just resting against the soft skin there.
"We could stop right now," he offered, his tone maddeningly level. "We can stop anytime you want. We can just put your shirt back on, order a pizza, and fail our sociology midterm together. All you have to do is say one word. Do you remember our word?"
"Dragonfruit," you whispered, testing it on your tongue. It felt foreign, distant. Not what you wanted at all.
"Now, tell me what you do want."
You took a shaky breath. "I want you to touch me."
"Touch you where? You have to use your words."
Every nerve ending was on fire. "My... I want you to touch me between my legs."
"Good girl."
He finally moved, his hand sliding further down, past the damp cotton of your underwear, through your slick folds. He didn't rush, exploring you with a surgeon's precision.
"This pussy is so fucking wet for me, princess." He breathes out in awe.
He found your clit with an unnerving ease, a single finger circling the sensitive bundle of nerves. You jolted, a sharp inhale of pleasure.
"Right there?" he asked, feigning innocence.
You could only nod, your head falling back against his shoulder as he continued his slow, torturous circles. He was drawing it out, making you feel every spark, every tremor. You were wound so tight, a trembling knot of need.
Your hips began to move of their own accord, chasing the friction, the building pressure. But he stopped you again, holding you still with a firm grip.
"Uh-uh. My pace," he chided softly. "You don't get to finish until I say you can."
A whimper escaped your lips, a sound of pure frustration.
"Patience," he murmured, kissing your temple.
You notice now, that he hasn't kissed your lips, but you don't make a comment on it, too busy feeling everything else to care.
He was a master of this, a conductor of your pleasure. He varied the pressure, the speed, watching your every reaction, learning what made you gasp, what made you whine. He slipped a finger inside you, then a second, curling them upward to stroke that spot that made your vision blur.
"You think I should let you come soon?" he asked, his voice a dark, intimate rumble. "You've been so good for me. Sitting still. Taking what I give you."
"Please," you begged, the word ripped from you. "Eddie, please."
"Please what?"
"Please let me finish."
He chuckled, a low, wicked sound. "Since you asked so nicely."
He increased the pressure on your clit, the circles becoming faster, more demanding. His fingers inside you stroked with renewed purpose. The tension in your belly coiled tighter and tighter, a spring ready to snap.
"That's it, sweetheart. Let go. Soak my fucking hand." he commanded.
You were cumming by the time he said 'let go', your body convulsing in a blinding wave of pleasure. You cried out, your back arching, your hands still trapped behind you, leaving you nothing to hold onto but him. He held you through it, his movements slowing, gentling, as you shuddered and trembled.
When you were riding out the after shocks he released your hands, letting you decide where to put them. You immediately brought them around to his shoulders, clinging to him. Your face was buried in the crook of his neck, catching your breath.
His hands came up to your back, stroking you slowly, grounding you. He whispered sweet nothings against your hair, words of praise and affection.
"I know that wasn't as extreme as what your little book had, but trust needs to be built up slowly for things like that." He says softly, kissing your shoulder. "We'll get there.
You could feel the rapid, steady beat of his heart against your cheek. You could still feel the hard press of his arousal against you, a silent testament to his own restraint.
"Eddie..." you whispered, your voice hoarse. "You didn't..."
He shushed you, a finger gently tilting your chin up. "Hey. it's okay. Tonight was about you. About learning you."
You looked at him, really looked at him. His hair was a mess, his lips were swollen from where he'd been kissing your skin, and his eyes were dark and soft and full of an emotion that made your chest ache.
Without thinking, you leaned in and finally, finally kissed him.
He didn't move at first and you pulled back quickly, suddenly feeling stupid.
Was kissing not okay in this arrangement?
Did he only want the physical part?
Did he even like you like that?
Before you could speak, he did it first.
"Hey you, don't look like that. It's not what you think." He says gently.
"I- I just thought..."
"I know what you thought. And it's okay. I wanted to kiss you. More than anything."
"So why didn't you?" You ask, not in an accusatory tone, but a genuinely curious one.
"Because if I kissed you," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "I wouldn't have been able to handle it if this was just a one-time thing. Or if this was just about sex. I wouldn't have been able to control myself, and we might not be here right now."
This confession was so raw, so vulnerable. It was more intimate than anything you'd done.
"So... what is this then?" You ask, your heart pounding.
"It's whatever you want it to be." He says honestly. "But I want it to be something. Something real."
You lean in again, slowly, giving him the chance to pull away.
He didn't.
He met you halfway, his lips finally claiming yours. It wasn't a kiss of frenzy or desperation. His hands cupped your face, holding you tenderly, as if you were something precious. His lips were soft, tasting faintly of you, of the cola he'd been drinking hours ago. He kissed you slowly, deeply, a conversation without words.
When you finally parted, you were both breathless.
"Do you still want me to do something about..." You trail off, letting your eyes flick down to the very prominent problem in his pants.
He groaned, pressing his forehead against yours. "Princess, you have no idea how much I want that. But I also want to do this right. So... right now, nothing too demanding, just let me fuck your brains out?"
You laughed, a real, genuine laugh that made your whole body feel lighter.
"You're an idiot."
"You know what?" He says with a teasing smile, before flipping you so he was hovering over you on the bed. "I like it better when you're on your back, anyway."
He made quick work of your leggings and underwear, tossing them aside. He stood up to strip off his own clothes, and you watched him, your gaze hungry. You'd seen him shirtless before, at the lake, at a party, but this was different.
The chain around his neck rested in the dip of his collarbone. His chest was lean, a smattering of dark hair trailing down his stomach, disappearing into the waistband of his boxers. He was all sharp angles and wiry strength. And as he pulled down his boxers, your breath hitched.
"You want this huh? This is what you were grinding against earlier?" He smirks. He was long and thick, flushed with arousal, curving up towards his stomach.
He climbed back onto the bed, settling himself between your legs.
"Take what you want," he commanded, his voice a low growl.
Your hand trembled as you reached between your bodies, wrapping your fingers around him. He was hot and heavy in your palm as you guided him to your entrance, and he pushed forward, just the head breaching you.
A shared gasp. You were so wet, so ready for him, but the stretch was still intense, a delicious burn.
"Oh, good girl, you listen so fucking well," he praised, before sliding the rest of the way home with one slow, deep thrust.
He filled you completely, and you instinctively wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him closer.
"Fuck," he breathed, burying his face in your neck. "You feel better than I ever imagined."
He started to move, a slow, deep rhythm that stole the air from your lungs. Every drag of his cock against your inner walls was a fresh wave of pleasure. This was different from the sharp, focused intensity from before. This was a deep, all-consuming fire.
"Look at me," he demanded, pulling back just enough to see your face. "Hold on to the headboard."
You obeyed, your hands finding the cool metal bars of your headboard, as he began to move again. This new angle let him hit that spot inside you with every thrust, making your toes curl. He wasn't just fucking you anymore. He was claiming you. Marking you from the inside out.
"Who's making you feel this good?" he grunted, his hips snapping a little faster.
"You are," you moaned, your knuckles white where you gripped the headboard.
"Whose cock makes you feel this good?" He asks, a dark look in his eyes.
"Yours," you gasped, the words torn from you. "Only yours, Eddie."
"Fuck yes, it does." He says, a smirk on his face. "Not some loser from the dining hall." He speeds up a little, getting cocky. "Not your project partner. You wanna know who knows exactly what to do with you? Me." He punctuates his words with a hard thrust and you can't help but arch your back.
"You're mine now, sweetheart. This pussy is mine to use." His voice is a rough possessive rasp as he leans down to whisper softly in your ear. "Gimme a color, princess. Are we green?"
You were so far gone, but you knew what he was asking. "Green," you moaned. "So green, Eddie."
He smiled, a triumphant, feral grin. "Good girl. You want me to keep talking like this, honey? You want me to tell you how I'm going to fuck you every day after our study sessions from now on? How I'm going to bend you over that desk until you're screaming my name?"
"Yes," you whined, a desperate, needy sound. "Please."
"Then I guess I'll have to do it." His hips began to piston faster, the headboard knocking against the wall in a steady, rhythmic beat. "Would you like that, sweetheart? To be my good little girl? To cum whenever I say?"
"I would," you cried out. "God, I would."
He brought a hand between your bodies, his thumb finding your clit again. He didn't circle it this time. He pressed down, hard, in direct counterpoint to his thrusts.
"Cum for me," he commanded. "All over my cock."
Your orgasm ripped through you, violent and overwhelming. You screamed his name, a raw, ragged sound, as you convulsed around him, your body spasming with the force of your release.
"Mmm, gonna wake up the whole dorm." He praised. "Such a good fucking girl." He kept thrusting through it, prolonging your pleasure until you were a sobbing, writhing mess beneath him.
He pulled out and kissed you softly, the kiss slow and deep as you shook under him. You could feel his erection against your thigh, hot and hard and insistent.
"You still haven't..." You begin, trailing off again as you try and catch your breath.
"I haven't bent you over the desk yet." He grins, before he pulls you up from your comfortable spot on your back.
His hands were on you instantly, guiding you to your feet and then turning you, walking you the few steps to your desk. He swept his arm across it, the textbook with the red tabs, a stack of flashcards—all of it clattering to the floor in a mess of academic debris.
His lips are kissing by your ear as he speaks, caging you in from behind. "You need me to get a condom?" He asks, and you are a little surprised by the question.
"I'm on the pill." You say quickly, and he makes a happy humming sound, kissing the back of your neck.
"Perfect." He whispers, before he's pressing your chest flat against the desk. The cool wood was a shock against your heated skin.
"Think you can handle a little more for me, baby?" He asked, his hands stroking over your ass.
You nod, your face turned to the side, your cheek pressed against the smooth wood.
"Use your words."
"Yes," you breathe out. "I can handle more."
He doesn't enter you right away. Instead, he kneels, spreading your cheeks, and you feel the hot, wet shock of his tongue against your pussy. He licks a long, slow stripe from your clit to your entrance, groaning at the taste.
"Fuck, you're delicious," he murmurs, before diving back in.
He was relentless, eating you out with a single-minded focus that left you trembling. He alternated between broad, flat strokes of his tongue and pointed, targeted flicks against your clit.
His hands grip at the fat of your ass as he eats you out like a man starved, and you can't help but push your hips back against him. He eats it until your legs are shaking and you're whining for him to stop. When he does, he stands up, his chest heaving.
He pauses and you furrow your eyebrows in confusion. You glance behind you to see him taking the rings off his right hand, leaning over your back to put them on the desk as he places small kisses on your back.
"What are you..."
Your whisper turns into a whine when a callous palm hits your ass cheek. Not hard, but enough that you gasp at the suddenness.
He shushes you gently, rubbing the reddening mark. "Just a little color for my pretty girl." He murmurs. "You like that? Just a little sting?"
You nod, your mind fuzzy with pleasure and confusion.
"Words, baby." He reminds you.
"Y-yes. I like it."
He spanks you again, this one harder, and you feel the jolt of it deep in your core. He alternates between spanking you and rubbing the tender skin, until you're a quivering, whimpering mess.
Another smack and you don't even register when he lines himself up with your entrance, and glides in, slick and easy, bottoming out with a deep groan. The angle was different, deeper, and it made you feel utterly possessed.
He set a brutal pace, the sound of skin slapping against skin echoing in the small room, mingling with your moans and his ragged breaths. One of his hands grabs your face as he leans over to kiss you.
"Taste how fucking sweet you are?" He whispers against your lips. You're nodding dumbly as he continues to fuck you, tongue licking into your mouth.
His other hand slides around your body, finding your clit, rubbing tight, fast circles. It was too much, too intense, and you tried to squirm away.
"Uh-uh. You take it," he commanded, his voice a low growl.
"Take everything I give you, princess." He was praising you, his words stoking the fire in your belly. You were already so sensitive from your previous orgasms, every drag of his cock against your walls a fresh wave of pleasure.
"Please," you begged, not even sure what you were asking for.
More? Faster? For it to never end?
"I know, I know." He cooed at you. "Good girls like you need to be fucked until they can't think straight."
You clenched around him, and he grunted, his rhythm faltering for a second.
"Yeah, you like me saying that, don't you? You like being my good girl." He punctuates his words with a hard thrust that makes you see stars.
Your clit was throbbing under his thumb, the pleasure so sharp it was almost pain. Your body was a live wire, humming with a frantic, desperate energy.
"Gonna cum," you sobbed, the words barely intelligible. "Eddie, I'm gonna cum."
He pressed you down more against the desk, his hips snapping faster, harder. He leans over your back so you can feel the sweat from his chest on your skin as he speaks right into your ear.
"Come on," he urged, his voice rough with strain. "Cum for me. One. More. Fucking. Time."
You whined out, needier than ever, as your body convulsed, your inner walls clamping down on him. Your legs gave out, and you would have collapsed to the floor if he hadn't been holding you up, pinning you to the desk.
He gathered your hair in one of his hands, pulling your head back slightly, the angle new and dizzying as he keeps fucking you through your orgasm. This let him see your face as he uses you for his own pleasure. He looked wild, untamed, his pupils blown wide with lust.
"That's it, baby. Milk my cock. Such a good fucking girl." He moans as he starts to lose the steady rhythm. You could feel him getting closer, his thrusts becoming erratic, more desperate.
"Gonna fill you up," he growled, his grip on your hair tightening. "Mark this pretty little pussy as mine."
With a final, guttural groan, he buried himself to the hilt, and you felt the hot pulse of his release deep inside you. He stayed there for a long moment, his forehead resting against your back, both of you breathing heavily, trying to come back to earth.
His hand in your hair changed from a grip to soothing stokes
His fingers danced up your body from their ruthless attack of your clit, to splay across your stomach. You feel him press gently. He was still inside of you. Softening, but still present.
"You okay?" he murmured against your spine, the words muffled by his soft kisses to your skin.
You managed a weak nod, not trusting your voice.
He laughed softly, the vibration traveling through you. "Good. Because I'm not done with you yet."
He slowly pulled out, and the emptiness you felt was acute. You could feel his release begin to trickle down your thigh, a sticky, intimate reminder of what you'd just done.
He helped you to the bed, tugging you back into his arms. You both were sweaty, sticky, and your room was a mess. You couldn't bring yourself to care.
You curled into his side, your head on his chest. The steady, reassuring beat of his heart was a comforting anchor in the haze of satiation.
His hands never stopped caressing through your hair.
He was quiet for a long time, just stroking your hair and pressing soft kisses to your forehead.
"So," he said, his voice quiet. "Is the reality better than the book?"
You thought about it for a second. The book was theory. This was practice. This was real.
"I thought you said you weren't done with me?" You manage, weakly.
He just pulls his head back enough to get a proper look at your face, the most genuine smile accentuated by his dimples.
"Yeah, the aftercare. The cuddles. The praise. That's all part of it." He said, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. "Being the one who has to clean up our mess."
He sits up, leaning over the side of the bed to grab the t-shirt he'd been wearing earlier. He carefully, almost reverently, began to clean you up. The cotton was soft against your sensitive skin.
"You're so good at that," You say softly, referring to the entire night, but more specifically the way he was taking care of you.
"Yeah? Well I'm a man of many talents." He teases, but the way he's looking at you is soft.
He's gentle, methodical, as he wipes away the evidence of your night together. Once he's satisfied, he tosses the shirt aside and pulls the comforter over both of you, cocooning you in the warmth of the small bed.
You're quiet for a long time again. Just listening to each other breathe.
"Hey," he whispered.
"Hm?"
"About the kiss earlier..." he started, his voice a little hesitant. "When I said I didn't know if I could handle it if this was just a one-time thing... I meant it."
He shifts a little, so he's looking you in the eye. "This was never gonna be just a one-time thing for me. You have to know that. I've been wanting this for so long."
You are looking up at him in the dim light of your desk lamp. He's looking at you with a unguarded expression that you'd never seen from him before.
"You really have? I thought... I thought this was just... you know, because of the book."
He let out a small, breathy laugh. "Sweetheart, the book was just a convenient excuse. A cosmic sign from the universe to finally do something about the massive, soul-crushing crush I've had on you since we were assigned as lab partners in freshman chemistry."
His signature smirk reappeared then.
"The fact that you're also into the same filthy shit I am? That's just a very, very lucky bonus."
You couldn't help but laugh, the sound bubbling up from your chest. It was a laugh of pure, unadulterated happiness.
"So, what now?" You ask, your voice barely a whisper.
"Now I get to enjoy this body being all soft in my arms." He says, kissing your forehead. "Now I get to wake up next to you and make you breakfast. Now I get to walk you to our sociology class and sit next to you knowing exactly what you sound like when you orgasm."
He pulls you closer. "And now I get to tell you that I want to be your boyfriend. If you'll have me."
You tilt your head up to look at him, a slow, genuine smile spreading across your face.
"I'll have you," you said simply.
"Oh, no enthusiasm for the man who made you cum three times in an hour?" He teases gently. You just lean up and kiss him, soft and sweet.
"I think you fucked all the enthusiasm out of me." You mumble against his lips.
He chuckles, satisfied and proud.
"It's a skill." He smirks. "But don't worry. I'm a great teacher. We'll build up your stamina." He winks, and you feel a fresh wave of heat wash over you.
He pulls you to his chest, safe and warm. You could get used to this.
"Next time," he whispers against your hair. "Next time I'll bring my ropes."
You press a kiss to his chest, right over his heart. "I'll hold you to that."
He held you tighter, a silent promise. The night wasn't over. Your time exploring each other, it seemed, had really just begun.
L.O.V.E. Machine || Eddie Munson x Reader (NSFW)
Pairing: Eddie Munson x female! Henderson reader (No use of y/n)
Summary: A steamy first time in the back of a van. It's exactly what it looks like folks.
Series Warnings: Explicit sexual intercourse, dirty talk, praise play, first-time sex, tobacco use, semi-public sex (in a vehicle), size/power dynamics between characters, sort of corruption kink if you SQUINT (Eddie is sweet I swear), mentions of reading porn, oral sex (female receiving).
Disclaimer: In an effort to be a better neighbor to all my readers, I am working to keep my descriptions sensation-based. As I navigate this learning curve, some white-coded/specific language may still be present. I’m sharing this so you can curate your reading experience with that in mind!
Rating: NSFW (18+) no minors allowed!
Word Count: 14k
Author's note: This was inspired by THIS post from @starrieststarrystarrystar! I had a some time and figured why the hell not. Not quite a “quickie” but ya girl can’t keep things short if I wanted to. I've missed our boy while I've been working on Sam. So here's a small return to Hawkins. Not properly edited because I’m on a road trip. Peace and love folks ~ Mae
Masterlist
Dustin Henderson had long realized that his social equity was largely comprised of a revolving door of sudo babysitters, self-appointed mentors, and siblings. Growing list ranging from his sister, an unlikely friend in Steve, and Mr. Clark. With the daunting, jagged horizon of Hawkins High looming over him, Dustin’s nerves weren't just frayed; they were unspooling.
He had heard the gospel of high school survival from his older sister for years. She’d described the transition from the familiar halls of Hawkins Middle to the asphalt expanse of the high school parking lot as a brutal demotion. For the socially unranked or the academically obsessed, the shift was less of a walk and more of a gauntlet. Previously, Dustin hadn't paid much heed to her cynical warnings. His sister was an anomaly in the social ecosystem of Hawkins: smart enough to be dangerous, friendly enough to avoid being a target, but possessing a ghost-like ability to inhabit the periphery. She was the girl with her nose buried in a paperback, tucked into the back corner of the library, wearing flared jeans and a quiet armor of indifference. People didn't shove her into lockers because they barely realized she was there.
But the "Summer of ‘85" had changed the weight of her words. After surviving interdimensional horrors, navigating a secret Russian subterranean base, and enduring traumas that should have been reserved for war veterans, Dustin had stopped viewing her advice as "big sister nagging" and started viewing it as actual insight. Then there was Steve Harrington. Steve had become the pseudo-older brother Dustin had never asked for but desperately needed in the absence of their father. Naturally, Dustin’s first instinct had been to play matchmaker. He’d told them both, with the bluntness only a thirteen-year-old can muster, that since Nancy Wheeler was out of the picture, his sister was the next logical choice. Neither had bitten. Steve was still nursing a bruised heart and a shattered ego over Nancy, and his sister? Well, Steve Harrington simply wasn't her type. She’d had enough run-ins with Tommy H. and Carol over the years to know that the "King Steve" era carried a stench she wasn't interested in, and no amount of Steve taking hits from Russians or swinging a nail-studded bat was enough to bridge that aesthetic gap.
The BMW pulled up to the curb of the Henderson house, its engine purring with a domesticity that felt at odds with the tension in the air. Their mother was out of town, tending to a sick aunt in Kersey, leaving Dustin to rely on Steve to skirt the edges of his curfew.
"Where’s your sister?" Steve asked, his brow furrowing as he scanned the darkened house. There was no warm glow from the living room lamp, and the window to her bedroom was a void of shadows. The typical reading light extinguished.
"Probably out," Dustin sighed, adjusting his hat.
"Out? Out where?" Steve asked incredulously. To Steve, she was a constant, fixed point in the Hawkins map. She was the girl who sought sanctuary in the back of the library or the furthest table in the lunchroom, safely cocooned by her Walkman. "Your sister is always home. I’ve seen her leave the house for exactly three things: school, the library, and occasionally to save our lives from certain death."
"Not since July," Dustin replied, his voice dropping an octave. The events at Starcourt Mall hadn't just shaken her; they had cracked the shell she’d lived in for years. In the wake of that trauma, something entirely unexpected had bloomed.
"Is she... okay? Like I know she cracked some ribs and all but, is she lonely, or...?"
"I’d say she’s more than okay," Dustin replied, casting a side-eye at Steve, a humored, almost smug expression crossing his face.
"Then why isn't she home?"
"Date," Dustin said. He looked bored, genuinely confused as to why Steve was treating this like a front-page headline. In the last month, he’d grown accustomed to the shift. There had been no clandestine sneaking around. Just a week after the Fourth, she had walked through the front door on a Saturday afternoon, hand intertwined with a stranger's. Their mother had been ecstatic, thrilled to see her daughter finally engaging with the world of the living. Especially given the suitor's theatrical, albeit genuine, promise to have her home by the stroke of midnight before her glass slippers faded away.
Even Dustin found he didn't mind the guy. He was a refreshing change of pace. Someone who didn't talk down to him, who understood the intricacies of a D20 roll, and who could actually debate the merits of high-fantasy lore. During a three-person outing for ice cream and a stint at the arcade, Dustin realized the guy wasn't just tolerating him for the sake of it. He actually seemed to like hanging around. He wasn't just putting in time to get under his sister’s skirt.
"A date?" Steve repeated, his voice climbing an octave. "Your sister? The notorious 'do not touch me with a ten-foot pole, I find boys tedious' Henderson? She’s on a date?"
"Yes, Steve. Keep up."
"With who?"
Steve didn't have to wait for the answer. The silence of the suburban street was shattered by the rhythmic, heavy thrum of a dying muffler and the screech of old brakes. A beat-up GMC van, more rust than paint, came rattling around the corner, its headlights cutting through the dark like twin spotlights. It pulled up to the curb with a dramatic jerk, idling aggressively adjacent to Steve’s pristine BMW. Steve stared at the van and then at the silhouette visible through the driver's side window. His jaw tightened as the realization hit him like a freight train.
"You are shitting me." Steve deadpanned.
Dustin didn’t even look at Steve. He just leaned back against the headrest, his eyes fixed on the rusted GMC as the engine gave one final, hacking cough before falling silent. "Not shitting you, Steve. It’s been three weeks. Get with the program."
Steve’s hands tightened on the steering wheel until his knuckles turned a ghostly white. "Munson? Eddie Freak Munson? Dustin, tell me you’re joking. Tell me she’s doing some kind of rebellious social experiment."
"You sound jealous," Dustin remarked casually, reaching for the door handle. "It’s a bad look, Steve. Makes your forehead do that weird crinkle thing."
"I am absolutely not jealous!" Steve hissed, whipping his head around to glare at Dustin. "I am concerned! There is a massive, gaping chasm between 'being protective' and 'watching your friend’s sister climb into a van that definitely smells like the set of a Cheech and Chong film.' She needs to be careful. She’s smart, usually anyways, so why is she hanging out with a guy who can’t graduate high school?"
Dustin let out a short, sharp laugh, shaking his head. "Steve, relax. Eddie’s a good guy."
"A good guy?" Steve bristled, his voice rising an octave. "I’m sure your mom doesn’t know, otherwise she’d be reeling."
"He’s nice to my mom," Dustin countered, his tone turning uncharacteristically firm. "He actually listens when she talks about her garden. He’s kind to her. And he’s kind to my sister. Do you know how rare that is? Most guys in this town look at her like she’s a piece of furniture or a puzzle they can’t be bothered to solve. You included."
Steve slumped back, his bravado momentarily deflated, but he wasn't ready to let it go. "Dustin, he’s a stoner. He sells drugs behind the wheel of that rolling tetanus shot. And he’s repeating his senior year for the second time. Pretty sure he’s got a criminal record. He’s a dead-beat."
Dustin paused with his hand on the door, his expression softening into something more serious. "It’s her business, Steve. Not mine, and definitely not yours. And for the record? He makes her laugh. Like, actually laugh. Not that polite little 'huff' she does when she’s being nice, but that loud, messy sound she hasn't made since before the mall. Since before everything went to hell."
Steve opened his mouth to argue, but the words died in his throat. He looked back at the van, seeing the faint, flickering orange glow of a lighter through the windshield. He remembered the haunted look in her eyes after they’d climbed out of the wreckage of Starcourt. The way she’d retreated so far into herself he wasn't sure she’d ever come back.
"Look," Dustin said, breaking the silence as he pushed the door open. "I’d like to get inside before I have to witness my sister necking with her boyfriend in the front seat of a GMC. I’ve seen enough trauma for one year. See ya, Steve."
Dustin hopped out, slamming the door and jogging toward the house without a backward glance. Steve sat in the idling BMW, the engine purring in stark contrast to the rattling beast parked twenty feet away. He watched the van for a long beat, his eyes narrowing as he caught a glimpse of a wild mane of dark hair leaning toward the passenger side. "Unbelievable," Steve muttered under his breath, a mix of genuine confusion as he peeled off the curb, headed home. ๋࣭ ⭑🎸⊹ ࣪ ˖
Inside the van, the air was thick with the scent of cheap tobacco, old upholstery, and the lingering musk of teenage boy. The dashboard was a chaotic graveyard of cassette tapes, crumpled gum wrappers, and dice that rattled with every vibration of the engine. She leaned back against the worn vinyl seat, the metal of the door cold against her shoulder, watching the way the streetlights caught the rings on Eddie’s fingers as he drummed them against the steering wheel. He wasn't looking at the road anymore; he was looking at her, a lopsided, mischievous grin tugging at the corner of his mouth.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" She asked, voice barely a whisper.
"Like what?" he countered, his eyebrows shooting up toward his chaotic fringe.
"Like you’re waiting for me to do something impressive. Or like you’re trying to memorize my face for a police sketch."
Eddie chuckled, the sound deep. He reached out, his hand hovering before he tucked a stray lock of hair behind her ear, his rings cool against her skin. "Neither. I’m just looking at you because you’re really pretty. Is that a crime now, Henderson? Am I going to be hauled off to Hawkins’ jail for being an appreciator of beauty?"
It was still so strange, the way he said things like that without a hint of irony. For years, Eddie Munson had been a fixture of the Hawkins background. A loud, abrasive blur of denim and hair who occupied the same social strata as the ghost she pretended to be. He’d been in Steve’s grade originally, but after two failed attempts at graduation, he was set to be a second-time repeat senior just as she was starting her own final year. Before July, she had effectively ignored him. She’d seen the boy who barked at people in the hallway and lived for the theatricality of being an outcast. Yet now she felt like an idiot, realizing how much she’d had let the noise of his reputation drown out the man beneath.
Everything had changed a few days after the mall. She had been a shell of a person, her body aching and mind fractured by the memory of the Starcourt shadows and the cold sterile walls of that Russian elevator. Needing to escape the suffocating concern of her mother and the frantic energy of Dustin, she hiked out to Skull Rock. At night, it was a den for wandering hands and cheap beer, but in the harsh light of a humid afternoon, it was a sanctuary.
Or, it was supposed to be.
She found Eddie there, tucked into a jagged crevice with an acoustic guitar and a pack of Marlboros. He’d looked up, ready to snap a witty remark at whoever was invading his territory, but the words had died on his tongue when he saw her. Her face was a map of the week’s horrors. A fading purple-and-yellow bruise blossomed across the cheekbone, a gift from a Russian soldier's fist. She had prepared a lie about a bike accident or a fall, the same one her and Dustin told their mother, but Eddie hadn't pressed. He’d simply moved his guitar to make room on the stone.
"Rough week?" he’d asked, his tone surprisingly gentle.
"Rough year," she replied, clutching the copy of The Hobbit to her chest like a shield.
He’d spent the afternoon with her, playing soft, meandering chords while she read. He didn't ask for the story behind the black eye, though his gaze lingered on it with a sort of quiet, protective anger. At one point, he’d looked at her and sighed exasperatedly. "You know, it’s really unfair," he’d murmured. "Most people look horrible when they get beat up. You? You manage to look even prettier, Henderson. Very distracting for a man trying to practice his scales."
That was the moment the wall started to crumble. They bonded over Tolkien when she told him how her dad used to read The Hobbit to her and Dustin before he walked out. And Eddie had listened with an intensity that made her feel like the only person in the world. He was roguishly handsome in a way that felt somehow safe. He was sweet. Not the performative sweetness of guys like Steve, but a raw, honest kindness that didn't expect anything in return. And when he’d tentatively asked her on a date a week later, stuttering over the words, she hadn't even hesitated. And the rest, as they say, was history.
The silence of the van felt electric with the memory of the night. A greasy pizza shared under the flickering fluorescent lights of a booth, and the feeling of his hand constantly finding hers. A movie complete with the warmth of each other pressed close after throwing up the bar between their seats. Eddie’s fingers tracing mindless patterns on her shoulder from where it sat.
"Earth to Henderson," Eddie said softly, snapping his fingers. "You’re doing that thing where you go somewhere else. Somewhere far away. Want a map back to the present?"
"I'm here," she smiled, leaning across the center console. Then she reached out, her fingers disappearing into the wild, dark thicket of his hair. It was soft, despite the chaotic appearance, and smelled faintly of the rain that had started to mist outside. She found a stubborn knot near the nape of his neck and began to gently work it through with her thumb. Eddie let out a low, contented hum that vibrated through the small space, his eyes fluttering shut for a second before he caught himself. "Careful there, Princess," he rasped, though he didn't pull away. "You really shouldn't go poking around in that rat’s nest. You might lose a finger. Or find a guitar pick I lost in '84."
She scoffed, tugging playfully on a frizzy curl. "It wouldn't be a rat's nest if you actually brushed it once in a while. Or used conditioner. I’ve seen your shower, Eddie. One bar of soap for everything? It’s a miracle you have hair at all."
"Brushing? Proper maintenance?" He gave her a look of mock horror. "That wouldn't be very rock and roll of me, would it? The aesthetic requires a certain level of... let's call it unrefined grit. Besides, I’m just glad your mom isn't one of those pearl clutching parents who thinks long hair is a sign of moral decay. I half-expected her to demand I put a pair of scissors to it before I was allowed to take you out."
"She likes you," she reminded him, finally smoothing out the knot and running her fingers down the length of his hair until she found his upper back. "She thinks you’re charming. Probably because you pull that 'polite young man' act out of your pocket whenever she’s around."
"It’s not an act. Well entirely," he insisted, though his grin suggested otherwise. He shifted, his leather jacket creaking as he turned more fully toward her in the cramped space. His expression grew a bit more focused, his dark eyes searching her own."So," he began, his voice dropping into a conspiratorial rasp. He leaned back against the driver’s side door, watching her intently. "Since the Henderson matriarch is away and the curfew is... shall we say, more of a suggestion tonight... How do you want the rest of this evening to go? I am at your service, oh captain, my captain." He turned back to the road, his voice dropping into a lower, more deliberate register. "We could go back to the trailer, and just put on a record or I could just sit here and let you keep de-tangling me until I fall asleep behind the wheel."
She felt a surge of boldness, fueled by the lingering adrenaline of the date and the way his leather jacket smelled like cheap cologne. She leaned in further, her lips hovering just inches from his jawline, voice dropping into a low, deliberate purr. "I don't know, Eddie. It’s a nice night. Maybe we could drive back out toward the woods? I hear Skull Rock is particularly... scenic this time of night."
Eddie blinked, his brow furrowing in genuine confusion. "Scenic? Princess, it’s pitch black. You can’t see the rock, let alone the view. The only reason anyone goes out there at this hour is to make out in the back of a car or–" He stopped mid-sentence. The gears shifted visibly behind his eyes, his mouth falling open slightly as the implication finally landed. He looked at her, his usual bravado momentarily eclipsed by a flicker of uncertainty.
"Wait," he stammered, his fingers tightening on the steering wheel. "Are you... are you saying what I think you’re saying? Because, look, I’ve done that... once. And it wasn't exactly a cinematic masterpiece if you catch my drift." He looked at her with an earnestness that made her heart ache. "I just... I didn't think you’d be ready for that yet. I didn't want to be the guy who pushed."
She reached out, cupping his face and forcing him to look her in the eye, silencing his spiraling thoughts as he pulled to a crawl outside her house, "Eddie," she said, voice firm and warm. "I want to. I trust you."
Eddie didn’t move immediately. He just stared at her, his chest rising and falling in a quick, shallow rhythm that betrayed the nerves beneath his cool exterior. He looked like he wanted to say something profound, something poetic and Tolkien-esque, but instead, he just let out a shaky, breathless laugh. "Okay," he whispered, the word more of a promise than an acknowledgement. "Okay, Henderson."
He reached into the pocket of his denim vest, pulling out a crumpled pack of Marlboros. His hands, usually so steady when shredding a guitar solo, had a slight, endearing tremor as he flicked his lighter. The flame cast a sharp, amber glow across his features. Th high cheekbones, the dark intensity of his eyes, and the way his lips pulled back as he took a deep drag. He held the smoke for a second, then exhaled it in a long, slow plume that joined the mist curling against the windshield.
He leaned over the center console, his body casting a shadow over hers. He pressed his lips to hers, tasting of tobacco and the cherry Icee they’d shared earlier. It wasn't the chaste, sweet kiss of their earlier dates; it was hungry, desperate, and laden with the "three weeks of holding back" that was finally snapping.
As he pulled away, he pressed the cigarette to her lips, letting her take a drag while his other hand found the ignition. The van roared to life with a violent bang, vibrating with a raw energy that seemed to mirror the heat in the cabin. Eddie threw the GMC into gear and floored it, the tires chirping against the asphalt as he tore away from the curb. The suburban houses became blurred streaks of grey and white through the thickening fog. Inside, the atmosphere was thick and heady. Eddie reached over, taking the cigarette back from her, his fingers lingering against her chin.
"You have no idea," he rasped, his voice dropping into a low, gravelly register that made her toes curl. He glanced at her, eyes dark and predatory, before snapping them back to the mist-shrouded road. "How many times I’ve sat in this van after dropping you off, just... staring at your front door like a total loser, wondering if you were gonna stop being so polite and start being this dangerous."
"Dangerous?" she echoed, a small, daring smile playing on her lips.
"Fucking lethal," he corrected. He passed the cigarette back, his thumb grazing her lower lip. "You’re sitting there looking all soft and quiet, and then you say something like that? Makes me want to do such horrible things to you Henderson."
He shifted gears, his movements fluid and aggressive. The engine groaned as they hit the incline leading toward the outskirts of town. The silence was broken only by the rhythmic thump-thump of the tires and the crackle of the radio playing a, distorted hair-metal ballad.
"You know what I’m gonna do when we get there?" Eddie asked. He didn't wait for an answer. One hand stayed on the wheel, while the other moved to her thigh, his fingers digging into the denim of her jeans. "I’m gonna find out if you taste as good as you smell. Because right now, Henderson, you smell like vanilla and trouble, and it’s driving me absolutely insane."
He squeezed her leg, the heat of his palm seeping through the fabric, and for a second, the only sound was the rumble of the GMC. The fog was a wall now, turning the world into a claustrophobic, private chamber.
"Tell me something," he said, his tone shifting. It was still low, still heavy, but a flicker of that gentle, inquisitive Eddie who sat with her at Skull Rock rept back in. He glanced at her, his eyes searching hers with a soft intensity. "What’s the tally, Princess? And don't give me the polite version. I mean... what have you actually done? How far have the boys of Hawkins gotten before they hit the 'no entry' sign?"
She bit her lip, the ghost of the cigarette smoke still on her tongue. "Not... far. Nowhere, really. Just some fumbling at a party once that I ended before it even started."
Eddie let out a breathy, knowing laugh, his thumb tracing a slow circle on her knee. "Yeah. I figured. I’d bet my last guitar string that you’re a virgin." He didn't say it like a judgment. "But," he added, his voice dropping into a playful, seductive rasp, "I also bet you’ve got the most active imagination in this entire zip code. All that reading, all those hours tucked away in the library... you’re not just reading about hobbits and dragons, are you?"
He leaned a little closer, the scent of his leather jacket filling her lungs. "Come on. Tell me. What does that brilliant, beautiful brain of yours do when the lights are out and you’re all alone? I want to know the things you think about. The things you’re too shy to even whisper to your pillow."
He looked at her with such genuine, wholesome wonder, like she was a mystery he was honored to solve. "I bet you read it, don't you? The smut. The stuff the librarians keep behind the counter. The paperbacks with the embossed gold letters and the shirtless guys on the cover. I bet you’re too scared to actually watch it but you read it."
She felt the heat flare in her neck, a deep, tell-tale crimson. She gave a small, jerky nod, suddenly finding the dashboard very interesting. Eddie’s grin softened into something incredibly sweet, his fingers moving up an inch, his touch reassuring and light. "Hey, look at me. It’s okay. It’s actually... it’s hot, Henderson. It’s really hot that you have this whole secret world inside your head." He tilted his head, his dark curls spilling over his brow. "So, be brave for me. Tell me one thing you read. Something that made your heart race. Something you’ve read on a page and thought, 'I wonder if that feels as good as it looks.' What’s something you’ve always wanted to try out?"
He waited, his expression a perfect, dizzying blur of a boy who wanted to take care of her and a man who wanted to ruin her, his hand staying perfectly still on her thigh to let her know the choice was entirely hers. She took a shaky breath, her gaze flickering from the fog-slicked windshield to the rings on his hand, still resting heavy and warm against her thigh. The vulnerability of the moment felt sharper than any physical threat she’d faced that summer.
"I remember reading about a guy," she started, her voice barely audible over the rattling of the van's loose muffler. "He didn't just... it wasn't just about him. He went down on her. And the way the author wrote it, it wasn't like a chore. It was described like he really got off on doing it. Like her pleasure was the thing that made him lose his mind."
Eddie’s hand jerked slightly, a silent, physical reaction to her words. He let out a low, whistling breath, his eyes darkening as he processed the image. "Why that, Henderson?" he pressed, his voice dropping an octave, becoming a thick, velvet sandpaper. "Of all the things in those dusty books, why does that one stick in your brain?"
"Because," she whispered, finally finding the courage to look at him. "Everything in this town feels so one-sided. Guys want to score, so they can brag. But in that story, it was like he was worshipping her. It felt... deliberate. And intense."
Eddie’s lopsided grin returned, but it was softer now, devoid of its usual mockery. He looked at her with a quiet awe. "Deliberate. I like that word," he murmured. He shifted the van into fourth gear as the road began to wind upward, the trees closing in like a canopy. "Okay. Message received. Loud and clear. What else? Don't stop now, Princess. You’re on a roll."
She twisted a loose thread on her blouse, her heart hammering against her ribs. "I like the dialogue," she admitted, her voice gaining a tiny bit of strength. "I like when they talk. Not just moaning. I like how it is when the guy guides the girl. Especially if she hasn't, you know, done it before. I like when he’s caring, but he’s still in charge. Like he’s teaching her a language only the two of them speak."
Eddie pulled the van toward the shoulder of the road for a brief second, his eyes never leaving hers even as he steered with practiced ease. He reached out, his thumb catching her chin and tilting her head up. "You like a guide, huh?" he asked, his voice a soothing, seductive hum. "Someone to show you the map so you don't get lost in the dark?" He leaned in, his forehead resting against hers for a fleeting, tender second. "I can do caring, Henderson. I can be the sweetest guy you’ve ever met. But you have to know, if I’m the one guiding you, I’m not gonna stop until you’re shaking. I’m gonna talk to you the whole time. I’m gonna tell you exactly how beautiful you look when you’re coming apart, and I’m gonna make sure you know that every sound you make is better than any song I’ve ever heard."
He pulled back just enough to see her pupils blown wide, mirroring the darkness of the woods outside. "Is that what you want? You want me to talk you through it? To tell you where to put your hands and how to breathe while I’m taking my time with you?"
His hand slid a little higher on her thigh, the heat of his palm a searing brand. "Because I’ve been thinking about this since the day at Skull Rock. I’ve been imagining what it would be like to be the first one to see you like that. To be the one who gets to be careful with you, but also the one who gets to... well, let's just say I’m not just interested in the 'worship' part, though there’s gonna be plenty of that." He shifted back into gear, the van lurching forward as they neared the turn-off for the lookout. "I’m gonna guide you, Princess. Every step of the way. And I promise you, by the time we’re done, you’re not gonna need those books anymore."
The mist swallowed the GMC as they turned onto the gravel path, the crunch of the stones beneath the tires sounding like a countdown. "Tell me one more thing," he said, his voice a low, commanding purr as the van slowed. "When you read those stories... do you imagine the guy looks like me?”
She didn't hesitate this time. The bashfulness was still there, a soft glow beneath her skin, but it was being overtaken by a raw, quiet honesty. She reached out, her fingers grazing the back of his hand where it gripped the gear shift, tracing the prominent veins and the silver rings that felt like ice against her feverish skin.
"It’s always been you. Since that day at the rock, Eddie," she whispered, her voice steadying as she found the words. Eddie’s grip on the wheel tightened, his knuckles straining, but he stayed silent, hanging on her every word.
"I think about your hands," she admitted, her touch traveling up to his wrist, feeling the frantic skip of his pulse. "I think about how they look when you’re playing guitar. How fast they move, how strong they are. I’ve spent so many nights wondering how they’d feel if they weren't on a guitar, but on me instead. If you’d be just as… precise."
Eddie let out a jagged, shaky breath, his chest heaving under the layers of denim and leather. "Precise," he choked out, the word sounding like a prayer. "Jesus, Henderson."
"And your hair," she continued, her voice growing more rhythmic, almost hypnotic as the van slowed to a crawl at the edge of the clearing. "I think about losing my hands in it. I think about how it would feel falling over my face, or how I could pull on it to bring you closer when you're... doing those things I read about. I like that you’re messy. I like that you’re loud and that you don't fit into the boxes this town built for us. When I'm alone, I don't think about a hero in a book. I think about the way you look at me like I’m the only thing that matters in this entire world."
Eddie cut the engine. The sudden silence was deafening, filled only by the tink-tink-tink of the cooling metal and the heavy, synchronized breathing of two people who had run out of road. He turned toward her, unbuckling his seatbelt with a violent click. He didn't move to touch her yet; he just sat there, looking at her with an expression that was so painfully sweet it made her throat ache, yet so predatory it made her stomach flip.
"You have a very dangerous way with words, you know that?" he said, his voice a low, vibrating rumble. He reached out, his hand finally leaving the wheel to cup the back of her neck, his thumb sliding behind her ear to tangle in her hair. "You like my hands? You like the way I look at you?"
He leaned in until their noses brushed, the heat radiating off him in waves.
"I’m gonna go slow, just like your books, and I’m gonna talk you through every single bit of what I’m doing to you. And if you want to pull my hair? You go right ahead."
He slid his hand from her neck down to the first button of her blouse, his rings clicking softly against the plastic. "But first," he rasped, his eyes locking onto hers with a burning, protective intensity, "I want you to tell me you’re sure. Because once I start, I’m not gonna want to stop until I’ve worshipped every part of you that you’ve been keeping hidden."
She didn't speak; she simply nodded, a sharp, decisive movement that broke the last of his restraint. Eddie’s hand slid from her button to her jaw, his thumb hooking under her chin to pull her into one last, kiss before he scrambled over the center console. She followed him, limbs tangling in the cramped space between the seats, the friction of denim on vinyl squeaking as they tumbled into the cavernous, darkened rear of the GMC.
The back of the van was a den of shadows, smelling of stale patchouli, motor oil, and the dampness of the fog clinging to the exterior metal. There was a mattress of sorts. A thin, lumpy thing covered in a heavy, scratchy wool blanket. The moment she settled against it, Eddie was over her, his weight a sudden, grounding reality that pinned her to the floorboards.
He didn't start with words. He started with the devastating, physical press of his mouth against hers.
It wasn't a soft landing. It was the collision of two people who had been vibrating at a high frequency for miles. His lips were chapped and hot, molding against hers with force. He tasted of the acrid tang of the Marlboro and the lingering, synthetic sugar of the cherry Icee, a combination that felt illicit and intoxicating. When he tilted his head, his teeth grazed her lower lip. A sharp, accidental spark of pain that immediately dissolved into a surge of heat.
Eddie groaned, a low, tectonic sound that she felt in her own chest as he pried her mouth open with his. His tongue was a restless, rhythmic intruder, slick and heavy as it swept past her teeth to claim hers. The kiss became a messy, uncoordinated battle of suction and friction. She could feel the damp slide of saliva coating her lips, the wetness blurring the line where his mouth ended and hers began. The air in the van grew stifling, humid with their shared breath. Every time he pulled back for a fraction of a second, a thin, glistening string of spit stretched between them before he crashed back down, more desperate than before. His hair was a wild, static-charged curtain falling around her face, the coarse strands tickling her cheeks and forehead, creating a private, lightless tent.
His hands were exactly as she had described: precise and unrelenting. One was buried deep in the hair at the base of her skull, his fingers knotting into the strands to hold her steady for the onslaught, while the other was splayed flat against the small of her back, pulling her hips upward to meet the hard, heavy line of his thighs.
The intensity escalated until the "sweetness" he had promised was buried under the raw mechanics of desire. There was the audible, wet slap of their mouths meeting, the occasional jarring clink of his rings against her teeth when he reached up to cup her face, and the rhythmic, frantic panting that filled the small space. He sucked at her tongue, pulling it into his mouth with a strength that made her head swim, his own tongue darting deep to explore the roof of her mouth with a feverish intensity. He broke the kiss for a second, his face hovering barely an inch from hers, both of them gasping for the oxygen that had been sucked out of the van. His lips were swollen, slick and shining in the dim light filtering through the foggy glass.
"God, Henderson," he rasped, the sound torn from the back of his throat. He didn't look sweet anymore; he looked wrecked, his dark eyes blown out until the irises were just thin rings of mahogany. He let his head drop into the crook of her neck, his hot breath blooming against her collarbone. "You move like that again, and I'm gonna forget all about being a gentleman. You're fucking ruining me."
Eddie didn’t give her time to catch her breath. He shifted his weight, sitting back on his heels with a fluid grace that made the van’s suspension groan. "Come here, gorgeous," he rumbled, his voice dropping into that low, chest-vibrating register. He reached out, his large hands spanning the entire width of her waist, and hauled her forward until she was straddled across his lap.
The heat of his thighs through both their denim was a shock, but before she could process the friction, he was reaching for the hem of his black Megadeath shirt. In one jagged, impatient motion, he whipped the fabric over his head and tossed it into the front seat. The air hit his bare skin, and she froze, her breath hitching in a sharp, audible gasp. In the dim, milky light filtering through the fogged-up windows, Eddie’s torso looked like a map of another world. The ink was dark and aggressive against his pale skin. The swarm of bats trailing up his forearm, the demonic imagery, and the jagged lines of the spider. It was a chaotic, beautiful mess of art and rebellion.
Eddie caught the look on her face and a low, melodic chuckle vibrated through his chest. He leaned back slightly, bracing himself on his elbows, the muscles in his stomach rippling with the movement. "Relax, Princess," he teased, his eyes dancing with a mix of pride and affection. "I promise they don’t bite. I don’t either, unless of course you ask me to."
Seeing her still rooted in place, he reached up and took her wrists. His touch was incredibly gentle, a stark contrast to the heavy-metal aesthetic of his skin. He guided her hands toward his chest, pressing her palms flat against the ink. "It’s okay," he murmured, his voice softening into something deeply endearing. "You can touch them. I’m not made of glass, Henderson. Go on, explore the gallery."
She let her fingers roam, her tips tracing the raised, slightly scarred texture of the black lines. She followed the curve of a bat’s wing, the dip of his collarbone, and the hard, flat planes of his pectorals. The skin was hot and she could feel the steady, heavy thrum of his heart beneath her right palm. Eddie watched her with his head tilted back against the side of the van as he let her take him in.
"I’d really love to see you too," he whispered, the playfulness in his voice replaced by a thick, heavy sincerity. "If you'll let me." She nodded, a quick, nervous jerk of her chin. Her heart was a trapped bird in her chest, but when she looked into his eyes, she found nothing but a steady, grounding heat.
Eddie reached for the first button of her blouse. He didn't rush. He made a point of maintaining eye contact, his dark pupils blown wide, capturing the faint light.The first button slipped through the hole. He watched her reaction, his thumb grazing the hollow of her throat. The second gave way, revealing the pale curve where her neck met her shoulder. His movements were methodical, deliberate, turning the simple act of undressing into a ritual. When the last button was undone, he gripped the collar and slid the fabric down her arms, letting it pool on the wool blanket behind her. The cool air hit her skin, causing a shiver to race down her spine, but Eddie was already there to warm her.
He didn't grab. Instead, he extended a single finger, and began to trace a slow, agonizingly light line from her collarbone down toward the center of her chest. The physicality of it was electric. The scrape of his nail against her soft skin creating a trail of goosebumps in its wake. "You're so beautiful," he rasped, his voice sounding like it was being pulled through gravel. His gaze dropped to the lace of her bra, his breath hitching. He leaned in, his nose brushing against the swell of her breast, the scent of her skin making his head swim.
"Please," he whispered against her skin, the word a ragged plea. "Let me take this off too. I want to see all of you. I want to feel you against me, no barriers. Can I, Princess?"
His hand moved to the clasp at her back, his fingers fumbling slightly with the metal hooks. A humanizing, sweet break in his seductive armor as he waited for her silent permission to finally close the distance between them. She didn't speak, her voice lost to the thick, humid air of the van, but she arched her back slightly, a silent surrender that gave him the access he craved. Eddie didn't need another hint. With a deft, practiced flick of his fingers, the tension of the clasp gave way. The moment the barrier was gone, he didn't immediately move to touch her. He just looked, his chest heaving. Then, he leaned forward, closing the final inch of space.
The sensation of their bare chests meeting was a physical jolt. The contrast was staggering: his skin was hot, slightly damp, and textured with faint hair on his sternum; hers was smooth, cool from the night air, and soft as silk. As they pressed together, the friction of skin on skin created a static-like heat that seemed to radiate through her entire body. She could feel the hard, solid muscle of his pectorals crushing against the yielding softness of her breasts, their heartbeats slamming against one another in a frantic, syncopated rhythm.
Eddie let out a long, shuddering groan into the crook of her neck, his hands sliding down her back to grip her waist, pulling her even tighter into his lap. He stayed there for a moment, just breathing her in, before he pulled back, his dark eyes fixated on her chest. "I told you," he whispered, his voice a jagged ghost of a sound. "Fucking lethal."
He lowered his head, his dark curls spilling over her skin. He started with the lightest of touches, his tongue darting out to lick a slow, wet stripe across the swell of her breast, the moisture cooling instantly in the drafty van. Then, he opened his mouth. His lips, hot and swollen from their kissing, encircling her nipple. The sensation was overwhelming. The wet, high-pressure heat of his mouth was a sharp contrast to the cool air. He didn't just bite or suck; he used his tongue with a deliberate movement. He swirled it around the sensitive peak, the texture of his tongue sending sharp, electric jolts straight to her core.
He began to suckle, pulling her deep into the heat of his mouth. She felt the distinct, pulsing suction as he used his lips to create a vacuum, his tongue flicking rapidly against the hardening tip. It was a heavy, concentrated sensation, the tugging causing a deep, low ache to bloom in her hips. Every time his teeth grazed her in just a hint of a sharp edge, she gasped, her fingers digging into the muscles of his shoulders, her nails scraping against the ink of the bats on his arms.
He was relentless, his breath hot and damp against her skin as he shifted his focus, his lips sliding over the sensitive underside before returning to the center. The sound of the wet, rhythmic noise of his mouth on her filled the quiet of the van. He looked up at her through his lashes, his eyes dark and glazed with a terrifying level of hunger, watching her face crumble as he continued to worship her exactly the way she had read about, but with a physical intensity no book could ever truly capture.
The friction of her shifting hips against the rough denim of his thighs sent a jolt of clarity through her that was almost as sharp as the pleasure he was grounding into her chest. As she moved, the slick, heavy heat between her legs made itself known, a dampness that had saturated the thin lace of her underwear. She let out a broken, jagged gasp, her back arching instinctively away from the sensation, her hands flying to his shoulders to steady herself. Eddie felt the hitch in her breath, the way her body suddenly stiffened and then melted in a different, more desperate direction. He pulled back, his lips wet and glistening, a slow, predatory smirk spreading across his face as he watched the realization dawn in her eyes. He didn't have to ask; the way she was trembling, the way she couldn't quite meet his gaze, told him everything.
"Henderson," he rumbled, his voice a low, vibrating purr that seemed to echo in the very floorboards of the van. "You're shaking. And I think I know why."
He reached down, his large, ringed hand sliding between their bodies, his palm flattening against the denim of her jeans right over the apex of her thighs. He didn't move it; he just let the heat of his hand sink in, feeling the unmistakable dampness that had already begun to seep through the heavy fabric. His eyes darkened, the mahogany turning to a scorched earth black.
"Look at me," he commanded softly. When she finally lifted her gaze, his expression was a dizzying mix of that "guide" authority and a raw, primal hunger. "Remember that story you told me? The one about the guy who really got off on doing it for her? The one who wanted to taste her more than he wanted to breathe?" He leaned in, his nose brushing against hers, his breath a hot, humid cloud. "Will you let me do that? Will you let me eat you out, Princess? I want to see if you taste as sweet as you smell."
She couldn't find her voice, so she simply nodded, her fingers curling into the hair at the nape of his neck. Eddie didn't waste a second. He shifted her weight, guiding her back onto the scratchy wool blanket while he moved to the foot of the mattress. He reached for the button of her jeans, his fingers surprisingly steady as he worked the metal through the hole. The sound of the zipper was deafening in the quiet of the foggy woods. He didn't just pull them off; he dragged them down slowly, his eyes never leaving the map of her legs as they were revealed. When he got to her underwear, his breath hitched. The lace was translucent with her own heat, a dark, damp patch marking the center.
He hooked his thumbs into the waistband, sliding them down her legs with a slow, agonizing deliberation. Once they were off, he didn't toss them aside. He held the small, damp scrap of fabric in his hands, his fingers tracing the lace. He brought it to his face, closing his eyes as he inhaled deeply, a low, guttural sound escaping his throat.
"You mind if I keep these?" he asked, his voice a thready whisper. He looked up at her, his expression stripping away the bravado, leaving only a raw, honest want. "I’d love to revisit this later. When I’m stuck in that trailer alone, thinking about the way you looked right now..."
He folded the lace and tucked it into the pocket of his discarded vest, his eyes softening as she buried her face in her hands. "Hey," he murmured, crawling back up the mattress until he was hovering over her again, his bare chest a wall of heat. He gently pried her hands away from her face, his touch as light as a feather. "Don't hide. You're fucking precious, you know that? Every single part of you."
He kissed her forehead, a sweet, lingering gesture that felt like a promise, before his gaze drifted back down. His hands found her inner thighs, his thumbs stroking the sensitive, pale skin there, moving upward in slow, rhythmic circles. "Now," he whispered, his voice dropping back into that seductive, authoritative rasp. "Let's see if I can't make you forget how to speak entirely."
Eddie didn’t hesitate. He moved with a focused, hungry intent, sliding down the length of her body until he was kneeling between her spread knees. The cool air of the van rushed over her exposed skin for only a second before the heat of him replaced it. He draped her legs over his shoulders as he leaned in. When his mouth finally made contact, it was a revelation of pure, wet heat.
He started slow, the tip of his tongue tracing the very outer edges of her, testing the waters. He was incredibly thorough, his tongue flicking and swirling with a rhythmic pressure that mimicked the way he played his guitar: calculated, fast, and devastatingly accurate. The texture was a contrast of slickness: the soft, velvet glide of his tongue against the sensitive, swollen folds that were already weeping for him.
She let out a high, thin wail, her head tossing back against the lumpy mattress. As if on cue, the light mist outside finally broke, and a sudden, heavy downpour began to lash against the metal roof of the GMC. The sound was a frantic, metallic drumming, a chaotic percussion that seemed to sync up with the wet, rhythmic sounds Eddie was making between her thighs. He grew bolder, his mouth opening wider to draw her in. He used his lips to tug at her, his tongue working a frantic, fluttering pace against her clitoris. The physicality was all-consuming: the scrape of his stubble against the inside of her thighs, the hot, humid clouds of his breath hitting her skin, and the way his fingers dug into her hips to hold her still against the onslaught.
"Eddie," she choked out, her fingers tangling in the wild, damp mess of his hair, pulling him closer.
He didn't stop. If anything, the rain hammering on the roof seemed to drive him harder. He delved deeper, his tongue long and insistent, exploring every inch of her. She could feel the dampness of his own saliva mixing with hers, a slick, hot slurry that coated everything. The pressure was constant, a building tension that felt like a wire being pulled taut.
Every time she thought she couldn't take any more, he would shift his angle, his tongue flat and heavy one moment, then sharp and precise the next. He was drinking her in, his throat working as he swallowed, making good on his promise to worship her. The van rocked slightly with his movements, the sound of the storm outside muffling her cries as he drove her toward a ledge she had only ever read about in the quiet of the library, now made terrifyingly, beautifully real by the man who refused to let her go.
The tension inside her was a bowstring pulled to the snapping point, her heels digging into his shoulders as her hips began to stutter in a frantic, involuntary rhythm. The hammering of the rain on the van’s roof reached a deafening crescendo, a wall of white noise that made the space feel like a tiny, vibrating island in the middle of a storm. Just as she reached the precipice, her breath catching in a jagged, suspended sob, Eddie suddenly pulled back just an inch. The loss of that direct, searing contact made her whimper, her hands clutching at his hair to pull him back down.
"No, no," he rasped, his voice a thick, dark command that cut through the sound of the rain. He looked up at her, his face a mess of slick moisture and blown-out pupils, his jaw set with a hard, focused intensity. "Look at me. Don't fight it, Henderson. Don't you dare hold back."
He slid his hands under her, lifting her hips higher, his thumbs pinning her open as he leaned back in. He didn't go back to the slow swirls; he used his tongue in a flat, heavy, relentless stroking motion, firm and rhythmic. "Let go," he groaned against her skin, the vibration of his voice buzzing through her. "Right now. I've got you."
The command was the final push. The wire snapped. Her entire body convulsed, a violent, beautiful shiver that started in her toes and crashed through her spine. Her vision whited out, the sound of the rain turning into a dull roar in her ears. She felt the heavy, wet heat of his mouth stay pinned to her through every internal pulse, catching every drop, refusing to let the sensation fade until she was completely spent. Her muscles turned to water, her legs sliding off his shoulders to thud limply against the mattress.
The silence that followed, save for the rhythmic drumming of the storm, was heavy and thick. Eddie didn't move for a long minute. He stayed there, his forehead resting against the inside of her thigh, his breathing coming in ragged, labored hitches. Finally, he crawled back up the length of her body, the movement slow and deliberate. He looked wrecked, his hair a tangled curtain around his face, but as he settled beside her, the predatory edge had vanished, replaced by a soft, glowing warmth.
He pulled the scratchy wool blanket over both of them, shielding them from the drafty air of the van, and hauled her into his side. Her head landed on the hard, tattooed plane of his chest, her ear pressed right over his heart, which was still hammering like a trapped bird. "Jesus," he whispered, his hand shaking slightly as he smoothed her hair back from her sweaty forehead. He kissed the top of her head, his lips lingering there. "You taste so good, Princess. You hear me? So fucking good."
His voice was a low, soothing hum, a complete departure from the gravelly seduction of minutes before. He reached down, taking her hand and lacing his fingers through hers, his rings cold but his palm searing.
The wool blanket was a rough, warm cocoon against the cool air of the van, but beneath it, the air was still charged with a residual, static electricity. She shifted against his side, her movements slow and languid, like someone waking from a heavy dream. While her ear tracked the thudding rhythm of his heart, her free hand began to wander. She let her fingertips graze the line of his stomach, feeling the way his abdominal muscles instinctively rippled and tightened at her touch. Slowly, almost tentatively, she reached lower. Her fingers found the heavy brass buckle of his belt, the metal cold against her knuckles.
Eddie’s breath hitched, a sharp intake of air that hitched in his throat. He didn't pull away, but he did go still, his hand pausing its gentle stroking of her hair. "Hey," he murmured, his voice dropping into a soft, gravelly register that was more protective than provocative. He looked down at her, his dark eyes searching her face in the gloom. "Henderson... look at me. You don't have to do that. Tonight isn't about some fair-trade agreement, okay? I’m perfectly happy just holding you until the sun comes up."
The rain outside seemed to underscore his sincerity, a steady, rhythmic wash against the GMC’s metal skin. She looked up at him, her eyes clear . "I know," she whispered, her fingers curling more firmly around the leather of the belt. "But I want to, Eddie."
Eddie stared at her for a long beat, his expression a complex map of uncertainty, heat, and a profound sort of gratitude. He wanted to make sure she wasn't acting out of a sense of obligation. He searched for any flicker of hesitation, any shadow of doubt, but found only the same quiet resolve that had carried her through the summer’s horrors. "You're sure?" he pressed, his voice barely a breath. "We can stop right here. We can just listen to the rain. I'm not going anywhere."
"I'm sure," she said, her voice small but unwavering.
A slow, breathless smile broke across his face. The kind of lopsided, genuine grin that made him look like the boy she’d first met at Skull Rock. "Okay," he breathed. He sat up slightly, the movement causing the van to rock on its old springs. With a fluid, practiced motion, he unbuckled the belt and began to shimmy out of his heavy denim jeans. The friction of the fabric against the mattress made a dry, rasping sound that filled the small space. He kicked them off his ankles, leaving him in nothing but his plaid boxers.
He paused then, his knees framing her hips as he hovered over her. He reached down, his hands trembling just a fraction as he gripped the waistband of the boxers. But instead of pulling them down, he stopped, his gaze locking onto hers with an intensity that made her heart skip. "Actually," he rasped, his voice thick. He took her hands and guided them to the elastic waistband, letting her fingers feel the fabric. "I want you to be the one to do it."
She didn't hesitate. With her heart drumming a frantic rhythm against her ribs, she hooked her fingers under the elastic of his plaid boxers and slowly slid them down the long, lean line of his legs. As the fabric fell away, the air in the van seemed to vanish. Eddie sat back on his heels, his hands braced behind him on the lumpy mattress, exposing himself to her with a raw, vulnerable honesty that felt louder than the rain. In the dim, shadowed light, his manhood was a stark, imposing reality. He seemed impressive even if she didn’t have anything to compare it to. A coarse, dark thicket of hair grew at the base, curling upward toward his navel in a thin, enticing line.
Tentatively, she reached out. Her fingertips grazed the very tip of him before sliding down the smooth, velvet length. Eddie let out a sharp, jagged gasp that was almost a cry. His head snapped back, his throat working as he swallowed hard, and the muscles in his arms corded with the effort of staying still. "Jesus, Henderson," he choked out, his voice a broken whisper. "Your hands... you have no idea what that feels like."
She grew bolder, her palm cupping the weight of him, feeling the way he pulsed and jumped against her touch. He was searingly hot, the blood thrumming through him with a life of its own. Every time her thumb swiped over the sensitive tip, a low, guttural vibration started in his chest, a sound of pure, unadulterated friction.
He watched her for a moment, his eyes glazed and dark, watching her small hand against his skin. The physicality of watching her stroke him seemed to be the thing that finally pushed him over the edge of his restraint. "Wait," he rasped, gently catching her wrist to stop the movement. He leaned forward, his forehead briefly dropping to her shoulder as he tried to catch his breath. "I want you. God, I want you so bad. But I need to be a responsible 'guide' for a second." He let out a shaky, self-deprecating laugh, his rings clicking as he ran a hand through his hair. "Don't go anywhere. I’ve got a stash in the glovebox."
He scrambled over the center console, his bare back rippling in the shadows. The van rocked as he leaned far forward, the glovebox clicking open with a plastic snap. There was the frantic sound of him rummaging through cassette tapes and loose change before he let out a triumphant "Aha!"
Eddie scrambled back into the dark cavern of the van, the small foil packet clutched in his hand like a prized treasure. But as he knelt before her, the cool, collected "Dungeon Master" persona was fraying at the edges. His fingers, usually so nimble when dancing across the fretboard of his guitar, were visibly trembling. The foil crinkled and slipped in his grip as he fumbled to tear the notched edge, his breath coming in short, erratic hitches that betrayed just how much the sight of her had unmoored him. He let out a frustrated, self-deprecating huff, his face flushing a deep, embarrassed red. "Okay, so maybe the 'cool and collected' act is a bit of a stretch right now," he muttered, his rings clinking as his hands shook.
She reached out, her fingers steady as she gently pried the packet from his grasp. "Give it here, Munson," she whispered.
Eddie let out a long, shaky exhale, sinking back onto his heels and watching her with wide, reverent eyes. A flicker of his usual mischief returned, though it was softened by the vulnerability of the moment. "Oh? Does the Princess know her way around a prophylactic?" he joked, his voice a low, gravelly rasp. "Or are we just winging it like a first-level rogue?"
She didn't look up, her focus entirely on the careful task at hand. "You aren’t the only one who had to sit through Coach Higgins’ health class, Eddie. I remember the banana demonstration perfectly well. Though, for the record, this is a significant upgrade from a piece of fruit."
Eddie let out a jagged, genuine laugh that vibrated through the floorboards. "You flatter me fair maiden," Once the barrier was in place, Eddie didn't rush. He moved forward, his bare, tattooed chest a wall of heat as he guided her back onto the scratchy wool blanket. He hovered over her, his arms braced on either side of her head, his dark hair falling like a curtain to seal the world away. The rain outside was relentless now, a heavy, rhythmic thrumming against the metal roof that felt like the heartbeat of the forest itself.
"Okay," he whispered, his voice dropping into that seductive, authoritative register. "I want you to listen to me. Close your eyes for a second."
When she complied, the world narrowed down to the tactile and the auditory.
"Focus on the details, Princess," he murmured, his breath hot against her ear. "Listen to the rain. Hear how it hits the roof? It’s loud, and it’s messy, and it’s exactly like us right now. Feel the weight of me. Feel how my skin is sticking to yours because of the heat in here. Smell the old upholstery and the smoke. Feel how hard I am? This is all for you." He shifted, his lower body pressing against hers, the physical reality of him finally closing the distance. He moved with an agonizingly slow deliberation, his hands sliding down to lace through hers, pinning her palms against the mattress.
"I’m gonna go slow," he promised. "I’m gonna guide you through every second of it. You just keep listening to the rain and feeling the way I move. If it's too much, you tell me. If it's not enough, you pull on my hair. You’re the boss tonight, Henderson."
He nudged her knees further apart with his own, his eyes locked onto hers with a burning, protective intensity as he prepared to finally bridge the gap, the sound of the storm outside providing the only soundtrack to the moment they had both been waiting for.
"Eyes on me," he commanded, his voice a low vibration that seemed to travel from his throat directly into her bones. The first contact was a shocking contrast of textures: the latex barrier, the slickness of her own readiness, and the heavy, blunt pressure of him finally finding his mark.
As he began to slide in, the world narrowed to a singular, piercing point of physical awareness. It was a slow, stretching invasion. The feeling of being filled, inch by painstaking inch. She felt the internal friction of him, the way her muscles tensed and then yielded to the sheer, solid bulk of him. A sharp, gasping sound escaped her, her head falling back as her fingers dug into the wool blanket, the fibers coarse and scratchy beneath her nails.
"Deep breaths," Eddie urged, his own voice sounding wrecked. He caught her mouth in a wide, open kiss, his tongue sweeping deep to catch her moan. He tasted like the dying embers of a cigarette and the iron-sweet tang of desire. The sound of their mouths was muffled by the violent rat-tat-tatof the rain hammering the metal roof just inches above them. The air in the van was thick with the scent of rain-damp leather, the metallic tang of the old GMC, and the musky, salt-sweet aroma of their joined bodies. Eddie’s hair fell forward, a wild, dark thicket, brushing against her cheeks and neck.
He paused when he was halfway, his body trembling with the Herculean effort of restraint. His forehead pressed against hers, and she could see the erratic pulse jumping in his neck, the way his jaw was locked tight. "You okay?" he rasped, the word barely a breath. "Talk to me, Princess. Tell me what you feel."
"Full," she managed to choke out, her voice a thready whisper. "I feel... everything."
"Good," he groaned. He began to move again, finishing the distance until they were flush, hip-to-hip, his pelvic bone a hard. The sensation of being completely occupied by him was overwhelming, a heavy, pulsing ache that felt like it was radiating through her entire nervous system. He stayed still for a moment, letting her body adjust to the new, staggering reality of him. Then, he began to pull back before sliding back in with a slow, rhythmic grind. The sound was unmistakable: the wet, sliding friction of skin on skin, the creak of the van’s old springs, and the heavy, synchronized panting of their breathing.
He leaned down, his lips grazing her ear as he picked up the pace, his voice a dark, encouraging hum. "That's it. Focus on the rain, Henderson. Focus on how I feel inside you. Just you and me in a tin box in the woods. Nobody else exists."
Every thrust was a deliberate lesson in physicality. She could feel the way his thighs bracketed hers; the way his rings felt cold against her shoulders when he reached up to brace himself; the way the humid air seemed to vibrate with every sound they made. He was a force of nature, guiding her through the dark with a steady, unyielding hand.
The rhythm of the rain on the roof intensified, shifting from a rhythmic drumming to a chaotic, deafening roar that seemed to wall them off from the rest of Hawkins. Inside, the air was a thick, sweltering soup of oxygen and salt. Eddie increased the pace, his movements losing their initial hesitance and gaining a raw, driving power. Each thrust was a heavy, sliding thud of contact, the sound of their bodies meeting becoming the only thing she could hear over the storm.
"Look at me, Henderson," he gasped, his voice straining under the weight of his own pleasure. He braced his weight on his forearms, muscles quivering with the effort of maintaining his rhythm while hovering over her. "Tell me you can feel that. Tell me exactly how I’m stretching you out right now."
He didn't wait for her to answer, his hips rolling into hers with a slow, agonizing grind that made her toes curl into the scratchy wool. "You’re so tight," he groaned, the words vibrating against her lips as he leaned down to capture them in another messy, saliva-slicked kiss. "Like you were made just to hold me like this. You hear that sound? That’s you, Princess. That’s what you do to me."
The physicality was staggering. She could feel the hard, corded ridges of his abs pressing against her stomach with every downward stroke. The sensations of him were everywhere. An intoxicating mix of his cheap cologne, the metallic scent of his rings, and the primal, musky heat of their shared exertion. When he moved, she could feel the slide of his sweat-slicked skin against her own, a frictionless glide that made the friction inside her feel all the more intense. "Focus," he whispered, his voice a dark, encouraging rasp in her ear. "Right here. Just the rain and the way I’m taking you. I want you to remember the weight of me. I want you to remember the way my heart is trying to kick its way out of my chest because of you."
He began to drive harder, his thrusts becoming shorter, sharper, and more urgent. The van rocked violently on its tired suspension, the old metal groaning in protest, but Eddie was oblivious to anything but the woman beneath him. He reached down, his fingers lacing through hers and pinning her hands back against the mattress again, his rings biting slightly into her skin. "You're doing so good," he panted, his eyes blown wide, watching the way her face fractured with every hit. "Talk to me. Make some noise for me, Henderson. Let the whole woods know you’re mine tonight. Tell me you want more."
"I want more," she finally broke, the words torn from her throat in a jagged, breathless sob that was instantly swallowed by a particularly violent roll of thunder. "Eddie, please, more."
The request was the final match in the powder keg. Eddie’s eyes went feral, a low, guttural growl vibrating deep in his chest as he shifted his grip, his fingers digging into the soft flesh of her hips to anchor her for the final, desperate sprint. The pace turned frantic, a blurring sequence of heavy, sliding friction and blunt impact that made the van’s frame shudder. "That's it," he choked out, his voice a broken, rhythmic chant against her neck. "Take it. Take all of it, Henderson."
She could feel the exact moment the tide turned. Her internal muscles began to pulse in involuntary, frantic waves, clamping down on him with a fierce, rhythmic suction that sent Eddie’s head snapping back. His movements became staccato, his breath hitching into short, sharp gasps as the friction inside her became a searing, white-hot localized sun.
Then, the world simply ceased to exist.
She felt the first wave of her climax crash over her. A physical, tensing jolt that started in her core and radiated outward until her fingers were clawing blindly at the skin of his back. She screamed into the humid air, the sound raw and unpolished, her back arching so sharply that only her heels and shoulders touched the blanket.
Seeing her break was the final trigger for Eddie. His body went rigid, his muscles locking into hard, straining cords under his ink-stained skin. He delivered one last, deep, agonizingly slow thrust, bottoming out with a heavy thud of pelvic bone against pelvic bone. A loud, visceral groan was ripped from his lungs. He held himself there, pinned deep inside her, his entire frame vibrating with the force of his own internal earthquake.
The sensation was total sensory overload: the slick, hot dampness where their bodies were fused; the stinging scrape of his chest hair against her breasts; the taste of salt on her lips as she kissed the sweat from his shoulder. They stayed locked together as the pulses slowly ebbed, the silence of the van rushing back in to replace the noise, save for the frantic, wet sound of their struggling breath. Eddie finally collapsed forward, his strength spent, burying his face in the crook of her neck. He was a dead weight, heavy and hot, his sweat soaking into her skin as they both trembled in the aftershock. The rain continued its relentless assault on the roof, but inside, the air had gone still and heavy.
He didn't pull away. He stayed merged with her, his heart hammering a frantic, muffled code against her ribs, his breath hot and damp against her collarbone. Slowly, he reached up, his shaking hand finding hers and lacing their fingers together, pressing her palm into the scratchy wool. "Holy... shit," he whispered into her skin, the words vibrating through her entire body. He let out a wet, breathless laugh.
The violent intensity of the last few minutes ebbed away, leaving behind a heavy, syrupy bliss that felt like being submerged in warm honey. The van grew quiet, the frantic drumming of the rain softening into a steady, rhythmic patter that hummed against the metal shell. Eddie shifted, his movements slow and ginger, as if he were afraid he might break the spell if he moved too fast. He let out a long, shuddering sigh and rolled onto his side, reaching for the discarded denim vest crumpled near the mattress. With a slight tremble still lingering in his fingers, he fished out the crumpled pack of Marlboros and a lighter.
As he sat up, the cool air hit his sweat-slicked back, causing the dark ink of the wyvern on his arm to ripple. He flicked the lighter, the small flame casting a sharp, amber glow across his sharp features and the messy, wild halo of his hair. He took a deep drag, the tip of the cigarette glowing like a lonely star in the dark, and exhaled a plume of smoke that swirled into the misted interior.
While he sat there, grounded and quiet, she shifted on the wool blanket. The back window of the van was completely opaque, a thick wall of white steam from their shared heat. Reaching out a hand, she pressed her fingertip to the glass. The condensation gave way easily, leaving a clear, dark streak. With slow, deliberate movements, she traced the curve of a heart into the steam, the moisture beading and rolling down the pane like a silver tear. Eddie turned his head, catching the movement. A slow, lopsided smile tugged at his mouth. He didn't say anything; he didn't need to. He just reached back with his free hand, squeezing her knee in a silent, affectionate pulse.
She sat up behind him and moved closer until her chest was pressed against his warm back. She began to reach into the tangled mess of his hair. It was a disaster. Matted from the humidity and the way he’d been throwing his head back, full of knots and static. She began to work through the tangles with her fingers. Eddie’s head tilted back instinctively, a low, contented hum vibrating through his shoulder blades and into her. He took another drag of his cigarette, his eyes fluttering shut as she gently unpicked a stubborn knot near the nape of his neck.
"You're a mess, Munson," she whispered, her voice a soft, raspy thread in the dark.
"Yeah," he murmured, the smoke curling around his head as he leaned back into her touch, his voice thick with a drowsy, post-climax warmth. "But I'm your mess tonight, Henderson. Don't go fixing me too much."
She smiled against his skin, her fingers continuing their rhythmic, soothing work, finding peace in the quiet aftermath of the storm. ๋࣭ ⭑🎸⊹ ࣪ ˖
The drive back through the winding veins of Hawkins was a blur of silver and grey. The GMC rattled along the lightless roads, its headlights cutting weak, yellow tunnels through a fog so thick it felt like the world had been erased, leaving only the two of them in their metal sanctuary. The rain had settled into a steady, rhythmic drizzle that hissed against the asphalt. Eddie drove with one hand draped over the wheel and the other locked firmly with hers on the center console, his thumb tracing mindless, possessive circles over her knuckles. He looked different in the dashboard’s faint green glow. Softer with the sharp edges of his theatricality worn down by the weight of the night.
When the van finally groaned to a halt in front of the Henderson house, the silence of the suburban street felt heavy and expectant. The house was still dark, a silent witness to their return. Eddie killed the engine, and the sudden absence of the muffler’s roar made the sound of the rain against the roof seem deafening. "Back to reality," Eddie murmured, though he didn't let go of her hand. He turned to her, his eyes dark and searching. "You still with me, Henderson?"
"I'm here," she whispered, though her body felt heavy, her limbs humming with a dull, pleasant ache that made the prospect of moving feel like a monumental task.
Eddie reached into the back, grabbing his oversized leather jacket. It was heavy, smelling of the night and the unmistakable musk of him. "Come here," he said, and as she leaned over, he draped the jacket over her shoulders. It was far too big, the sleeves hanging limp, but the warmth of his body heat still trapped in the lining felt like a second skin. He hopped out first, the cool, damp air rushing into the van, and rounded the front to open her door. When she stepped out, her knees buckled. A sudden reminder of the intensity of the hours prior. Her legs felt like jelly, the muscles uncooperative and weak.
Eddie caught her instantly, his hands firm on her waist, pulling her flush against his side to steady her. He let out a low, playful chuckle, his breath ghosting against her temple. "Whoa there, easy. Legs a little shaky, Princess?" He looked down at her, his grin lopsided and brimming with a mix of pride and genuine concern. "What’s the matter? Do I gotta carry you the rest of the way, or can you manage the twenty feet to the porch?"
"I can walk, Eddie," she huffed, though she leaned into him heavily, letting him take most of her weight as they navigated the slick grass.
"I don't know," he teased, his arm tightening around her shoulders, pulling the leather jacket closer around her. "I think I might’ve broken you just a little bit. I should probably just sling you over my shoulder to be safe. Very 'caveman' of me, I know, but it gets the job done."
They reached the shelter of the porch, the overhang providing a brief respite from the drizzle. He turned her to face him, his back to the street, shielding her from the misty wind. He reached up, his rings cold against her cheeks as he cupped her face. The sweet Eddie was back, the one who looked at her like she was the only fixed point in a chaotic universe. He leaned in, his forehead resting against hers for a long, quiet beat.
"Tonight was..." He paused, struggling for a word that wasn't too goofy for the moment. "It was everything, Henderson. I hope you know that."
He kissed her then. A slow, deep, and lingering goodbye that tasted of the rain and the remnants of the night. It wasn't the hungry, desperate clash of the van; it was tender, a promise of more to come, a seal on the secret they now shared. When he pulled away, his eyes were soft, his thumb grazing her lower lip one last time.
"Get inside. Get warm," he whispered, his voice a low rumble. "I'll call you," Eddie promised, his voice a low, gravelly vibration that barely carried over the steady hiss of the rain. He stayed on the top step of the porch for a moment longer than necessary, his eyes tracing the line of her jaw as if he were trying to burn the image of her into his permanent memory. "First thing in the morning. Or, well, afternoon, since I’m probably going to sleep like the dead."
He took a slow step backward into the encroaching mist, the darkness of the yard beginning to swallow the lower half of his silhouette. She turned the key in the lock, the heavy click echoing in the quiet foyer, and pushed the door open. The warm, stagnant air of the house rushed out to meet her, smelling of floor wax and the mundane reality she had left behind hours ago. She paused in the threshold, one hand on the brass knob, and looked back. Eddie was standing at the edge of the porch’s yellow light, his damp hair clinging to his neck in dark, chaotic coils. He caught her eye and offered a sharp, theatrical two-finger salute before turning to disappear into the fog toward the idling van.
She eased the door shut, the latch catching with a finality that felt like the end of a long, feverish chapter. The house was silent, but her internal world was a riot of noise. Leaning her back against the wood, she let out a long, shaky exhale that puffed out in the cool hallway. It was only then, as the silence settled around her, that she realized the weight on her shoulders. She looked down and saw the cracked, heavy leather of his jacket still draped over her, the sleeves dangling past her fingertips. She hadn't even thought to give it back, and he hadn't asked for it.
She pulled the lapels closer, burying her nose in the collar. The smell hit her. It was the pure, concentrated essence of the last few hours. It was the sharp tang of Marlboros, the musk of his skin, and the damp, earthy aroma of the rain-soaked woods. It was a sensory map of Eddie Munson, and it was wrapped entirely around her. She walked toward the stairs, her movements still heavy and uncoordinated. Her legs felt like they belonged to someone else, a lingering, pleasant weakness that made her climb the steps with a slow, deliberate rhythm. Passing the hallway mirror, she caught a glimpse of a stranger: her hair was a wild, damp disaster, matted at the nape where his fingers had spent so much time, and her blouse was haphazardly buttoned, the fabric wrinkled and clinging to her skin.
She reached her bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed, refusing to turn on the light. The darkness was better; it allowed the memories to play back against her eyelids in vivid, high-definition flashes. She could still feel the phantom pressure of his lips against her nipple, the slick, hot friction of him between her thighs, and the way the van had rocked in time with the storm.
She reached into the pocket of the leather jacket, her fingers brushing against a loose guitar pick and a crumpled receipt, before she simply curled up on top of her blankets, still wearing the jacket, still covered in him. Outside, the rain continued to weep against her window, but for the first time since the mall, the shadows in the corner of the room didn't feel like monsters. They felt like the dark, wild curls of a boy who had promised to call, and for the first time in her life, she didn't need a book to tell her how the story ended. She fell asleep with a lopsided smile, the taste of salt and smoke still lingering on her tongue.
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Eddie Munson x fem!reader smut
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summary eddie tries out something new with you whilst you’re watching a film together. but you’re pretty he’s only interested in pulling as many pretty sounds from you as possible.
warnings smut!! lots of smut!! soft!dom eddie, almost a sub!reader but it’s very gentle, fingering, neck kissing, lots of eddie talking, eddie talking you through it, slight overstimulation, fem!reader, reader is described as having boobs, eddie’s a menace who just wants to drive you insane <333
Eddie loves to pull you to sit in front of him whilst you’re watching a movie. He’ll move you so your back is directly against his chest, his arms wrapped around you so he can keep you close to him.
Tonight’s no exception, he’s got you settled in front of him, your body relaxed into his as a movie plays out on the tv. But then his hands start wondering, they’re slipping under your top and his fingertips are running along your bare skin, his cold rings making you shiver each time they touch you — you lean further into him, whining as he places gentle barely-there kisses along the stretch of your neck.
“Jesus you’re so needy f’me, I haven’t even done anything yet sweetheart”.
You’d be embarrassed by how you had to stop your hips from grinding against nothing, but all you can think is EddieEddieEddie as you feel consumed by his entire being. His whole body wrapped around you, you can barely even here the film anymore. Eddie still looks the picture of calm, composed — if it wasn’t your body he had his hands on you wouldn’t be able to guess that he was doing anything at all.
“Keep watching the movie, baby” Eddie’s voice is low, quiet, barely noticeable over the dialogue coming from the tv.
You lean your head back against his shoulder, you feel his hair brush against your cheek. Eddie takes the scrunchie off your wrist and ties his hair back — a gesture that makes you squeeze your thighs together. You tilt your head back so he can kiss your neck. Eddie moves one of his hands to your chin, tilting your head back down so you could still watch the film; but he’s not that mean, he tilts your head further to the side and lets his lips ghost over your sweet spot. You feel a shiver go down your spine and your hand searches for his hair, intertwining your fingers in his hair and pushing him further into your neck. Eddie lets out a breath of air at the way you can’t help but beg him without even needing words.
“Keep your eyes on the tv, can you do that for me my love?” You nod your head with the enthusiasm of someone being promised the world. Eddie kisses your neck in response, parting his lips slightly and running his tongue over the area where he’d been sucking at the delicate skin over your pulse point.
“You take your eyes off the tv, I stop touching you, understood?”.
You freeze, Eddie notices — you feel his smirk against your neck. When he talks to you like this you’re screwed. Completely and utterly screwed. His voice turns your mind blank, his lips take control of your body and his hands turn you into putty in his arms.
“Answer me, sweetheart — or I stop.”
“I understand.” Your voice is airy, breathless, with words only coming out between whines and other sounds that Eddie could only describe as the prettiest sounds he’s ever heard someone make.
“Good girl.”
Oh.
That one’s new. Honestly you didn’t think that would do anything for you, but… well… you were wrong. Like— extremely wrong. Your whole body moves, you push back against Eddie. It’s as if you can’t get close enough to him.
“You like that? Wanna be my good girl, hm?” Eddie’s all cocky smirks and strong arms around you as he figures out yet another thing he can do to you to make your knees go weak. He keeps a note of things like this, it’s important to him. You can’t find a reason to complain.
Eddie’s lips haven’t left your neck, sucking and biting and running his tongue over it. You whine and squirm in his lap at every movement he makes. Eddie only tightens his arms around you, going even harder against your neck.
His hands are still under your top, but you can feel his fingers running down your body. You feel him ghost over your stomach as he lets his hand stop at your waistband. You unconsciously lift your hips, searching for his touch. “Shh, shh” Eddie whispers against your ear.
“Please—” you’re almost begging him. Lifting your hips again as he runs his fingers over the sliver of skin that’s showing between your top and your bottoms. He’s barely touching you, you have to focus on him to even feel the way his fingers are feathering over your skin. You shiver when he touches you just under your waist-band, it’s a split-second touch. Gone as soon it began. Eddie smiles against your neck, letting his teeth pull your skin and bite down. Soothing it immediately with his tongue when you wince-moan at the feeling.
You search for his hands with yours, finding them and linking your fingers with his. He lets you, but his eyes dart to follow what you’re doing. You let your hand hold his for a second, and then you’re moving his hand down. Eddie lets you, even though he knows what you’re trying to do. You go to move it under your waist-band, desperate for him to touch you right there.
“Uh-uh.” Eddie stops your hand from moving, he simply tenses his arm and you can’t move it. You whimper, an embarrassing noise that makes you sound like a needy child who hasn’t gotten their own way. You swallow down the embarrassment and focus your eyes on the tv.
“What do you want, sweetheart? Gotta tell me, use your words.”
“Want you to touch me.” Your words fill the room as Eddie uses one of his hands to hold your hips down as you try to lift them again.
“I am touching you—” Eddie moves your top up so it rests below your boobs, he runs his hand over your stomach and you’re sure at the point he’s trying to kill you. You’ve never know him have this much patience, usually he’s got your clothes off and your on your back underneath him the second you whine out his name in the middle of a makeout session. But tonight’s different, tonight Eddie can’t help but find the way you’re moving and begging for him to be something he just can’t move past too soon. He’s never seen you like this — truly he’s never pushed you to this point. But he’d sensed for a while that you like him being in control. Softly taking charge whilst he was inside you and your nails dug into his back.
This was a sort of experiment. The way you were reacting, the red that spread across your cheeks and the sounds that came out of you when he kissed your sweet spot below your ear convinced him that this was the only way he wanted to touch you from now on.
“How do you want me to touch you? Tell me and I’ll do it.”
You struggled to find your voice, to tell him exactly what you wanted. Eddie kissed down to your shoulder, moving your top out of the way so he could press kisses against every square inch of your skin that he could reach.
You swallowed down a moan and finally told Eddie what you wanted — no, what you needed — from him.
“Want your fingers, Ed’s—”
Eddie let his hands rest over your waist, his fingers ghosting over your waistband; almost as if it was a reward for you talking to him.
“My fingers? Where d’you want them?” Eddie’s voice echoed throughout the room. You moaned as he lowered his hand, letting it feel you through the layers of fabrics that you were cursing right now. You don’t know why you’d even put clothes on right now, with Eddie around wearing clothes seemed like the worst thing you could have done.
“Wan’ them inside me, please—”
“Fuckin’ good girl. What my girl wants she gets, hm? I told you you only gotta ask.”
Eddie moved his hands under your bottoms, running his fingers along your clothed slit as you let out a moan that sounded like pure sin. Your head fell even further back against his shoulder as your whole body felt like it had been set on fire.
Eddie froze, his hand stopped moving and lifted his fingers up so they were no longer resting against you.
“What did I say to you?” Eddie spoke to you bluntly. He moved one hand to hold your chin gently, moving his lips so they ghosted over your ear.
“Baby? What did I tell you?”
“Don’t take my eyes off the tv,” you whimper out, trying (and failing) to hide how turned on this whole situation was making you. Eddie knew.
“And what did you do, huh?” Eddie pulled your head up, turning it so that he could look at you, focusing on how fucked out you looked already.
“Sorry—” you found the word somewhere within you, but with all you attention on Eddie and how desperate you were for him to touch you again you were impressed you could even get that word out.
“Don’t apologise” Eddie said, kissing your lips gently, pulling back as you moved forward trying to capture his lips with yours again. Eddie didn’t let you (even though he really really wanted to) “just do what I say, okay? Got it, angel?”
You nodded. Eddie turned your head back and you focused every cell in your body on keeping your eyes on the tv. Eddie kissed your neck again, your skin sensitive after he’d already covered your neck in marks. He wasn’t done yet.
Eddie’s lips kissed your pulse point again and you moaned our his name as his fingers lowered back down, slipping under the waistband of your underwear and finally touching you.
“Your hearts racing, baby” Eddie whispered against your neck, his lips still resting there as he felt how desperate you were for him. He let his fingers run through your slit, feeling how wet you were just from him kissing your neck and teasing you for the past— heaven knows how long it had been. You didn’t care.
You murmured an almost-response and attempted to spread your legs apart even more, ensuring Eddie could touch you just how you needed him to. Eddie smiled as he felt what you were doing. He finally dipped his fingers lower, letting one slip inside you as you moaned out, covering the noise of the tv as you felt him enter a second one,
“Fuck, Eddie—”
“I got you, sweetheart” Eddie resured you, curling his fingers inside you as you whined and moaned out his name. With one swift movement he had your hips moving in the air and one of your hands gripping onto his forearm.
“Yeah? That the spot, baby? Right there?”
You nodded and almost closed your eyes before you remembered that if you did that he might stop, and if he stopped you were pretty sure you’d lose your shit.
“Yeah, fuck right there— pleasepleaseplease”
Eddie kept curling his two fingers as he fucked you. Kissing and sucking your neck as you kept a firm grip on his arm. You felt his rings against you each time he moved his fingers back and forth. You threw your head back but made a point to keep watching the film. You didn’t even know what had happened in the film anymore, you really didn’t care. How could you when Eddie was fingering you and kissing your neck. Whispering sinful things against your ear each time he felt you clench around his fingers.
“Jesus— that’s my girl, so fuckin’ desperate.”
Eddie kept his fingers pressed against you, keeping curling them against that spot inside you that had you seeing stars.
Suddenly it all got too much, but in the best way, your ears felt like they were ringing and your eyes closed before you could do anything about it. Eddie held your hips down with his free hand, putting just enough pressure on your lower stomach that it made everything feel even more intense.
You tried desperately to tell him — tell him how good it felt, that he was gonna make you come — but you couldn’t get the words out. Eddie could read you like a damn book, though. The way you were whining and moaning told him everything he needed to know.
“Let go for me, sweetheart. Come on, come all over my fingers”
You saw stars and your whole body felt like it was on fire. Eddie fingered you through your orgasm, drawing it out until you were practically screaming his name. He kept going until you physically stopped him, pulling back from him and pulling on his arm to stop his from touching you as the overstimulation hit you all of a sudden.
“Shh, shh, shh, you’re okay, baby. I got you, you’re okay” Eddie kissed your cheek and moved both of his hands to run up and down your side as you came down from your high. Eddie was talking you through it but you could barely even make out what he was saying.
“— that’s my girl. Did so fuckin’ well for me. You looked so pretty, you know that? Sounded like a goddamn angel.”
“Jesus Christ Eddie” were the first words that left you after you’d come down from that high.
You moved slightly so you could look at him. Eddie tilted his head as if to ask what you meant, holding back a laugh at how entirely fucked our you looked.
“Jesus I felt like I was gonna crawl out of my damn body” you told him, leaning in to kiss him but having to stop as you still fought to catch your breath.
“That good, huh?
“Yeah— Jesus fuck you’re dangerous” you told him, laughing as he turned you in his lap. Resting his legs on either side of him as he leant in to kiss you. Running his tongue along your bottom lip before you opened to let him run his tongue along yours.
He wasn’t finished with you yet.
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this was meant to be a couple hundred walls and just a little drabble… but… oops! i got carried away. i hope you enjoyed! love youu 🤍
“fuck baby you look so pretty like this,” peter couldn’t help but admire his view right now. his back against the headboard, legs spread, with you on your knees sucking stroking his leaking hard dick.
your eyes were tearing up from getting your throat filled by his thick cock and it didn’t help that johnny was behind you fucking his fill inside you. each hard thrust from johnny would send you mouth deeper towards peter’s cock, your nose grazing the hair on his groin. “fuck, this is so hot, look at how you’re taking our dicks.”
this was a challenge in of itself because the two boys were gifted with sizable members. peter’s longer and more sensitive, vulnerable to each lick and suck causing him to leak so much. johnny’s had the grithier cock, providing so much pleasure from your sex.
“put peter’s cock back in your mouth baby,” johnny ordered, his left hand holding onto your hip while the other played with your sex. it was an immaculate display of pleasure. your eyes falling back as your elbows and knees buckled from the force of pleasure.
“this feels good for you like it feels good for us?” peter asked, light grabbing your hair so he can fuck his cock more. you hummed a response.
there was something so arousing about the way peter looked in the moment. the muscles on his abdomen tensed and relaxed in fast paces, his cheeks flushed red, and despite being motionless on the bed his hair was damp from sweat.
you let go off his cock with a pop, a string of spit on your lips. “it feels so fucking good, i need you both so bad,” johnny whispered something about switching, but you were so inebriated from the fucking that you just let them move you around.
this time you were straddling johnny. he was significantly bigger than peter, wider shoulders, his chest bigger, and his thighs the perfect seat. and despite doing most of the action, he was more composed. your held his shoulders while he slowly let you down on his cock, his hands planted on your waist.
johnny’s touch was warm, almost hot at times. it was soothing in a way that made you feel even more like you were in a dream. “pete, hurry you need to feel this, man,” behind you peter wrapped and arm around your waist, lining up his cock to join johnny in filling up your sex.
“fuck, dude,” peter moaned. you cried out, this was something you decided you were ready for, but this was new and god did it feel good.
they were slow at first, making sure you got to warm up to them. their hands moved all over your body, fingers on your nipples, hands on your sex, you buried your face on the corner on johnny’s neck inhaling his warm scent.
when their thrusts gained momentum, your arms were fully wrapped around johnny’s shoulders, your chest against his. peter eventually was flush on your back. three sweaty bodies moving as one, alternating in moans, grunts, and curses. “i’m so close, fuck move faster,” you gasped when they followed.
each time they thrust they would his the sweet spot and it made you leak so much your thighs were fully wet. peter’s mouth was on your nape, leaving wet kisses, johnny’s hand went to peter’s ass, holding him for support.
johnny’s was first to yell out “fuck i’m coming baby,” and peter followed “me too, fuck,” your center felt so sore and hot, eyes lidded, nails digging into johnny’s back, “fuck,” you yell.
the three of you fell on the mattress, covered in sweat, chests heaving. “i’m gonna need ten minutes and a glass of water and i can go again,” johnny said in between breaths.
“are you serious? i can go in five,” peter said, laughing.
“hell no! i’m actually all ready,” johnny sat up. you rolled your eyes, you loved both of them so much.
i love when you nerd out- eddie munson
summary: eddie talks excitedly about his nerdy interest and it turns you on…
w: mdni! this story contains smut; fem|dom (ish? i feel like it is) she’s needy!; eddie being the cutest hottest nerd there is!
You loved your nerdy boyfriend. That was probably one of your favorite things about dating Eddie. Of course, his looks could give many things to interpretation. The way he’d dressed, the songs he’d listened to. People thought he was mean and bold and careless. Which he really adopted as part of his identity. But that was not the real Eddie, just a facade he put up to the trashy people in Hawkins.
But he wasn’t that ‘top of the class, teachers pet’ kind of nerd. He was smarter than he’d give himself credit though, he just didn’t care about academic validation. He was a nerd when music came up, obviously. He liked to explain every little detail to you, history behind the bands, best instruments and who played with them.
He was also a nerd in DnD, teaching you for the 100th time the rules and how he prepared the campaigns he put on so much work. Not only DnD but other board games, movies, books, cars even. He was the best kind of nerd, he didn’t mock you for not knowing, he wanted you to understand, to enter his world and get as excited as he got about the things that matter so much to him.
He captivated you even if you didn’t understand. It was hypnotizing to watch him get riled up about something he loved so much. But sometimes that got in the way of things. You’d stare too long without blinking, thinking “how come you’re even hotter now? keep talking…”
That was the case for a casual evening, he invited you to his place to spend the night. You didn’t think anything would happen, just wanting to spend some quality time with your boyfriend. But then Eddie started to explain the book he was reading and how some details were very much alike the campaign he put up a month ago.
“I’m telling you, even the wizard had the same looks as mine. I imagined him in a dream once, that’s where the idea came from. But he’s narrated just like i pictured my wizard” He was excited as he sat in front of you, showing you the notebook with all the details of last campaign. “But I don’t care, the book is really good so far. Not better than Lord of the Rings though, that’s probably something that will never happen…”
He didn’t even realize he was talking nonstop and you didn’t say a word. Not interrupting him once, mesmerized by his charming smile, his pretty eyes the same color of his hair. His perfume was intoxicating and called for you. You were so hot for him and, before you could stop yourself, you were straddling his lap, running your fingers through his hair. He stopped, smiling nervously, not realizing what was happening yet.
“W-What are you doing?” He shivered when you caressed his back and freed the path to his neck.
“Don’t stop.” You murmured, leaning towards his neck and kissing him slowly. “Keep talking Eds…”
So he did. Stuttering every now and then but kept talking about the characters that inspired him. You were getting more excited with every word, grinding on him. He realized what was happening and guided your hips, encouraging you to keep moving, growing hard on his tight jeans.
“Fuck… I don’t think I understand what’s got you turned on, but god I’m loving it!” He was rooting upwards meeting your own grinding. The friction was so good you let out a moan.
“Take your pants off. I need you” You gave him space while you worked on your own pants. “Why did you stop? Keep talking!” You encouraged him.
You got on his lap again and you didn’t waist another second and bottom out. You were so wet, it slipped easily without any trouble. Eddie could barely concentrate anymore, just talking rubbish about DnD while you bounced on his dick. Your moans made his head spin.
“Fuck Fuck Fuck” He said with every bounce, looking at the way your bodies connected. You squeezed him tight, probably getting tired of bouncing so fast, and he lost his shit, dropping his head on the pillow. He concentrated not to come just yet but it felt so good, so he continued to talk about an elf that was just like you. “Her hair was just like yours and- and she was pretty good w-with the arrow and bow. I always pictured her as you… Jesus-”
The picture before your eyes was hypnotizing. His eyes were shut, his hair forming a halo around his head. You leaned on his chest, changing the position to improve your movements so you could move better. You placed your hand on his chest while your hips moved fast again and god, he was so deep inside you. He opened his eyes to see the change and he rolled them to the back of his head. You leaned even closer if that was possible and now, inches from his face, feeling his hot breath against your lips, you replied.
“Really? And did you picture her like this?” You felt his hands, both squeezing your ass and guiding you the way he wanted. You moaned again as he hits the right spot over and over.
“… Now I will.” He replied and smirked. You looked into his eyes and they were filled with desire and lust. He couldn’t think of anything else now, just how good and tight you were wrapping your pussy around his dick. “I’m so fucking close, I’m sorry sweetheart, but you feel so good!” He moaned your name, cursing on how good he felt. You were close to, one slip away from pure bliss.
“Then come for me, Eddie. Please, I need you so bad.” You kissed his lips fervently, your words were it for him and he came, grabbing you and keeping you in place as he rooted up on you, releasing himself. You couldn’t take it anymore, his deep grunts, his strong arms wrapping around your body, his perfume, everything messing up with your head. You came right after, squeezing him again and again.
You both stayed in place for a moment, absorbing all that happened. You move and lay down beside him, still panting. Eddie, also breathing heavily, looked at you in awe.
“I don’t think that ever happened…” He said barely above a whisper, afraid to let go of that moment.
“What?” You said in the same tone “Me being on top? Because I have.”
“No… You being this… needy.” He muttered, not sure of what to say or think. You messed with his head in just a few minutes. Maybe it was that sex sent in the air.
“What can i say?” Leaning on his chest, you looked at him. “I love when you nerd out…” And you gave him a deep and passionate kiss. He never thought being a nerd could be a quality, he always thought otherwise, but now he changed his mind.
He only really got convinced when, a week later, in your room where you restlessly talked about this book and how badly comprehended it was. He felt shivers in his spine as you talked and then he understood. You definitely got a return… maybe even twice as hard the loving you gave him.
Just one more | sex pollen
Pairing: Clark Kent x reader Word Count: 3.5k
Description: When Clark gets poisoned with sex pollen, he tries everything in his power to stay away from you. Until he ends up crashing into your living room, and you have a god on his knees, with your name in his mouth and your body at his will.
Tags/warnings: smut, established relationship, clark is sorry, he gets freaky with his powers, consent kink, breaks you and worships you at the same time, begging, praising, hovering (yes hovering👀), so much dirty talk (he’s feral but sweet), overstimulation.
Note: Guess who watched superman today and got a new man to obsess about🙂↕️ honestly I don’t even know what took over me when I wrote this but all I can say is go ahead, live your best life and enjoy the sweet filth 🫶🏼
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You wake up with a loud crash coming from your living room. You jolt upright from your bed as you hear glass shatter, sprinting toward the noise. You curse as your body, only covered by Clark’s giant shirt, gets hit with the crisp midnight air as wind gushed through your apartment like a hurricane just passed by.
A figure stood where your glass door used to be, leaning weakly on what was left of the frame. You turned on the lamp next to you, illuminating your boyfriend’s stumbling body.
“Clark!?” you exclaim, confused by his abrupt arrival.
He doesn’t look up, just stands there against the frame, chest heaving, fists clenched. Like he is barely holding himself together.
Worry washes your features, something must be really wrong. You start making way over to him, but as soon as you take a step forward he puts a warning hand in front of him.
“Stop! Don’t move,” his deep voice comes out strangled, like he’s been screaming for hours. “Don’t come closer… please. Just–just stay there.”
He keeps his hand up to stop you, panting heavily as he swallowed to try to soothe his dry throat. He slowly looks up, and groans when he meets your eyes. His pupils are blown wide, dry lips parted, his breath ragged like he’s been flying across the globe. His usually perfect wavy hair is now flat, messy, sticking to his sweaty forehead.
“I didn’t want to come here,” he whines. “I–I didn’t want you to see me like this.”
“What happened to you?” You ask from your spot, fighting the urge to run to his aid.
“I’ve been infected,” he chokes out, and your brows furrow more. “Some kind of … alien pollen. It hit me out there. I flew straight into it and fuck ... It’s messing with my head, my body, I…”
He suddenly turns away, pacing in small frantic circles on your balcony like he’s trying to shake something off. His hands tremble as he fights to not make eye contact, like just looking at you hurts.
“What do you need? D-do you have the antidote?” You ask, scared as hell. He never acts like this.
He just shakes his head first with a bitter laugh, only to nod frantically afterwards.
God, if only you knew.
“I tried to wait it out,” he groans, fists now in his hair. “I swear I did, my love, I locked myself away for hours …tried to fly as far as I could but I kept turning back because I could smell you.”
“I can smell you, sweetheart. Even from across the city …I can hear you breathing…your heartbeat. I didn’t want to hurt you but right now I have you in front of me and I can see–dammit…I’m sorry–“
He stumbles backwards like he’s ashamed of himself, like he can’t even look at you.
“You know I can’t turn it off,” he whispers. “I never mean to look, I swear, but I can see you now. Everything.”
Of course you know what he means. You know he can see right past his giant shirt covering your body. And the guilt on his face is gutting. He looks like he’s trying to claw his own powers out of his skin.
“Clark… it’s okay. You don’t have to explain.” You step forward slowly. “It’s not like we haven’t–“
“No–you don’t get it!” He snaps, his voice booming through your walls so loud you were sure everyone on the building heard him. He instantly feels worse with the way you flinched to his volume. “S-sorry darling… you just don’t get it…you have no idea what it’s like to smell you and know how soft you are, how warm. My instincts are going crazy. I just need to be inside you…I need to touch you, mark you, fill you up until I can’t think straight,” he just rambles, eyes raking through your body.
You take a deep breath, his words making you clench your thighs together and he noticed. Of course you’ve had sex before. You know what he sounds like when he’s needy. But this? This is feral. You’ve never seen him like this.
But you’re willing to do anything to help him.
Always.
“Clark…you don’t even have to ask,” you speak softly, your own eyes darkening with desire.
He shakes his head. You don’t even understand the amount of restraint he’s having right now.
“I do…I always do. Especially now. Because I’m not going to touch you like I should. I’m not going to make it about you. I’m going to use you. Because you’re the only one who can fix me…you are the antidote and I hate it. I hate that I can’t even think straight unless I’m inside you…I need you so bad, darling, I’m shaking–” He cries, actual tears come out of his desperate eyes.
You’re watching a god fall apart in front of you.
Because of you.
You finally cross the space left, and he doesn’t stop you this time. You grab his face between your hands, and kiss him without hesitation. His arms immediately cling to your frame, cold hands slipping under your shirt to roam every inch of your warm skin.
You moan into his lips, when you taste the salty tears on his face. His hands land on your ass, and he squeezes hard, bruising, making you squeal. He immediately pulls back, apologizing. Like he still can’t let himself go.
“I’m sorry–” He blurts out immediately, hands soothing the skin he pinched as he fought the urge to do it again, harder. “God I love you…and I would never hurt you. Never. I swore I’d never touch you like this–unless you asked me to. Unless you wanted me to. So please … tell me you want this too. Say yes, or I’ll leave. I swear I will.”
He nods frantically, like he’s trying to convince himself more than he’s trying to convince you.
“I’ll leave if you tell me to.” He swears. “I’ll fly through a mountain. I’ll bury myself in the ocean. Just don’t say yes unless you want this. I’m barely holding on– if you say it, I won’t be able to stop.”
You want him. God you always want him.
The way he keeps asking makes you want him even more. Even if he’s not your Clark now. Even if he won’t take care of you like he always does. Even if you can’t breathe or move after. Because you love him too.
“I want it,” you whisper against his lips, nodding. “I want you. You need me? Use me. Take all you want…I can take it.”
It’s over.
The moment you say yes there’s no going back. He lunges forward, tightening his grip on you as he lifts you off the ground to fly you towards the wall, knocking the lamp when your back hit the wall, leaving you both in complete darkness. Only the moonlight left to shine over his hungry eyes.
His massive hand cradles the back of your head to protect it from the hit, while the other tears off your shirt like he needs to see your skin on his or he’ll die. Your panties don’t even last two seconds before they he rips them away too.
His lips crash yours. Tongues are desperate, hands everywhere, so large, so shaky, everywhere at once. He groans into your mouth like a man dying of thirst finally tasting water.
“Thank you,” he gasps between kisses. “Thank you sweetheart…I’m so sorry I can’t help you first…but I need you…I need to feel you inside, please just let me…”
He knows it hurts you when he doesn’t prepare you properly, when he doesn’t make you cum at least twice on his fingers before he fucks you…but he can’t right now. Not when he can smell how soaked you are already, not when he swears it’s dripping on the carpet.
“Do it,” you pant, hungry for him. “Clark just do it… please.”
He doubts only for a second, and then without thinking he rips the suit. Literally tears it at the waist, tugging it to get rid of it completely. He’ll give a damn about that later.
Right now he is just muscle in front of you.
His painful cock springs up, and he presses himself to you with a wet slap, your back hitting the wall again. Your pussy throbs at how impossibly huge he is over your stomach.
You’ve had him before. You’ve barely made it.
You still want him to rearrange your guts.
“Feel that?” he groans. “That’s what you do to me, that’s what’s been driving me insane all day, darling.”
He’s not even pretending anymore, his cock is throbbing, massive, already leaking. He aligns himself between your soaked folds, rutting the tip against your pussy a few times like he’s lost control of his body entirely. You moan at the friction. Every nerve ending screaming. You know he’s gonna wreck you. You weren’t ready. But at the same time you’ve never been more ready.
He grabs your thigh and lifts it against the wall, before whispering against your lips. “I’m sorry…”
He pushes his hips forward, and when he finally slides home with a snap…raw, hard, you let out a strangled moan.
One long, broken sound, high pitched and helpless, because he stretches you brutally, all at once, bottoming out with a growl. An actual growl. Like he finally felt some type of relief since he got hit with the pollen.
You fight back a cry, lunging forward to bite his shoulder. He starts fucking you into the wall as he whispers ‘I love you’ ‘Thank you’ ‘Sorry’ like some sort of chant. A prayer. Like it’s the only thing keeping him rooted to the version of him that is still careful with you when you make love.
Right now it’s just sex. Dirty, rough, unfiltered sex.
Your breath leaves you in gasps, your bare back against the cold plaster, one leg around his waist, the other held away by him, arms clinging to his biceps for dear life. All you can do is moan as you get adjusted to his unfairly thick cock slamming in and out of you.
“Just like that…you’re taking me so well,” he pants. “You can do it, sweetheart…you’re doing so good… fuck, you were made for this…made for me.”
His hands grip your thighs. He fucks you like he’s possessed, no rhythm, no thought into it, just deep, hard thrusts that hit something devastating every time, shaking the wall with every slam of his hips.
And the whole time, he keeps whimpering into your neck.
“I love you…I’m sorry…I love you…I’m gonna ruin you …I need it…”
You think you’re about to white out when the room starts moving, but you quickly realize what’s happening. He’s lifting your bodies off the ground.
Still fucking you.
Going up as much as your ceiling allowed him too. He pins you high on the wall when his head touches the roof, like gravity doesn’t apply anymore. It never does anyway, not to you, not to him.
So now you’re fucking hovering. Literally. Unable to do anything but take it.
And you feel him like never before. A complete moaning mess. Nails dragging down his back, mouth open in shock as you look down to the floor. Your whole body is a live wire, and he’s fucking you like it’s the only thing keeping him alive.
It literally is.
His cock twitches inside you. He’s already close. Has been since he walked through that window. But he’s holding it, fighting it, because he needs to stay inside. Needs to keep taking. You can’t keep giving all night.
“Fuck Clark…I’m gonna–“
“Yes? Do it. Darling please, you’re doing so well. I’ve got you…cum all over my cock, I got you.”
Your body breaks before you can even breathe. Your first climax of the night hits hard, walls clenching around him, as you pant into his chest. Your whole body goes limp and he feels it.
He fucks you through it. Rough thrusts with his hand stroking your back and the other wrapped under your thighs. He keeps thanking you as his cock splits you open over and over.
“I wanna give you everything,” he groans, voice cracking. “Fill you up, stuff you full of me…Can I? Please? Let me finish inside you….let me have you–“
“Yes, yes, fill me up,” you blurt out, still seeing stars.
He slams in once more and chokes, hips locked, whole body shuddering as he comes with a moan so broken it feels like it came from his soul. He shakes as he fills you, mouth pressed to your neck.
He doesn’t pull out yet. He holds you there, trembling, pressed against the wall like he knows you’ll fall if he loosens his grip.
Even after the first wave passes, after the groans, the shaking, the desperate I love you’s, he holds you like you’re the only thing anchoring him to this planet.
“…Are you okay?”
You just nod, breathless, a blissed out smile in your face. He smiles too. And then, slowly, he lowers you back down to the floor.
But he’s not soft for long. He doesn’t even give you a minute to recover. He can’t. The second round starts before the first one even finishes sinking in.
You’re still trembling in his arms, leaking down your thighs, whimpering his name into the crook of his neck. And he’s still inside you. Still painfully hard.
Still needing you.
“One more, please. Just–just one more,” he begs. “Let me have you again. Please, darling I need it.”
“Take it Clark, take all you need,” you nod, absolutely wrecked.
But what’s a few more rounds with your unearthly strong boyfriend?
He melts.
You usually go multiple rounds, but he’s softer, he gives you downtime, even brings you water in between orgasms. But right now he can’t believe the way he fucked you and you still let him have more. But he needs more. The pollen is fogging his brain.
He finally pulls out, just to set you down on the floor. The second your back hits the rug, he’s on top of you again. And god he’s heavy. Solid. He doesn’t even hold his weight like he usually does because all he’s thinking about is fucking you senseless.
He buries himself deep again, groaning, cursing under his breath. You close your eyes, nails digging the carpet, back arching when you feel him deeper from this angle. You pant small whines from the feeling.
“Shhh…don’t–“ he coos, he wants to be slow, but he can’t. His hips snap hard without even thinking. “You’re doing so good, sweetheart…so good for me… just need one more.”
You know it’s not just one more. And he fucking knows that too.
None of you cares.
“You’re so wet…so perfect” he groans, the filthy sound gushing loudly every time he thrusted. “I didn’t even give you time to come down…didn’t even let you breathe and you still take me so well”
He praises. Worships. He looks down to where your bodies meet, and he sees right through your skin. He can see his huge cock filling you with every thrust. He can see your walls clenching around him. And he loses it.
You’re suddenly running out of air when he presses his chest to yours, pining you tighter to the floor with his body as he pushes harder. And you feel all of him. The broadness of his chest against your ribs. The strain of his thighs bracketing yours. His cock still buried deep, rock hard.
You hit his bicep with your hand first, but he’s not paying attention, he’s too caught up on the way your pussy takes him to notice.
It’s not smooth. Not rhythmic. Just sharp, ragged thrusts that hit you so hard your body jerks on impact, tits bouncing, nails clawing at his back as he crushes you into the floor with every rut of his hips.
Your head starts spinning.
“Clark,” you choke out, hitting his bicep again. “I can’t–can’t breathe…”
His head finally snaps at you, eyes going wide. He lifts up a bit, but he doesn’t pull out, he just … can’t.
You finally gasp for air as he shushes you softly, tucking away the hair sticking to your sweaty forehead.
“I’m sorry…I can’t…can’t stop. I tried, I swear I tried,” his forehead presses to yours, without crushing you alive this time.
His hips don’t stop moving. You pant between moans. You’re close again, you can feel it.
“It’s okay, you’re just…you’re so big…so heavy.”
“I know,” he breathes. “I’m sorry, I know. I just…I don’t want to let you go–”
“Don’t,” you whisper. “Don’t let me go.”
His expression breaks. Because he knows. And you know. He’s not really letting you go. Not all the way. He’s still pressing his weight into you, even as he tries not to. Because he needs to. Because letting go means losing you, even just for a second.
He doesn’t know what takes over him, he grabs your hands and pins them above your head. Watching you sob, moan, eyes rolling back, skin already bruising in multiple places by his grip. He’s not like this. He should be apologizing. Begging. But you just feel so damn good.
And you like it, god you love it.
“I–I love it when you fuck me like this,” you confess, voice barely above a whisper, dumb smile on your face as he hits that spot repeatedly. “I just–I can’t…”
“I know darling, I know…just a little more,” he groans. “One more please. You can take it…you’re doing so good.” He coos, but he can’t slow down, not when you’re clenching him like that.
He picks up the pace.
“C-Clark…please, I’m gonna-“
“I’ve got you, darling…I’ve got you, let yourself go for me.”
You see white this time. You’re not even moaning anymore. Just gasping. Twitching. Letting him take what he needs because you want to. Because this is Clark, your Clark, and you’d give him your whole body a thousand times if he needed it.
And he does.
He fucks you like you’re his last breath.
Even after you’re wrecked, limp, twitching…he keeps going.
You don’t even remember the next time he finishes. Or the time after that. Or where it happened. Your body is a mess, trembling and raw and wet and full. Marked. Praised.
All while he keeps saying, “Just one more…just let me stay inside you a little longer…please sweetheart, I’m still hard I know you can take it…this is the last time I promise…”
Again and again. You’ve never heard him lie so much before.
Yet still, with your hair splayed, legs shaking, literal tears leaking from the corners of your eyes from the pleasure, the pain, the strain, the goddamn pollen he pumps into your body every time he comes…
You are having the time of your life being drunk on his cock.
“Fuck me harder.”
You beg, even when you can’t feel it that much anymore. Maybe that’s why you need it harder…deeper. And because you knew that once he came back to normal he wouldn’t fuck you like this again. And he makes sure to let you know.
“I’m sorry. I just need you so fucking much…I love you I love you I love you—”
You just nod, because it hurts embarrassingly good.
You lose count of how many times he comes in total. How many times you come. You only know time’s passed when the sky starts to lighten outside your broken window, and Clark is rocking into you so slowly it’s more like he’s just holding you in place, his mouth pressed to your shoulder, whispering thank you with every lazy thrust.
By the time he finally slows down, finally wears the substance out of his body after dumping it all inside you…you can’t move. You’re limp in his arms, boneless and dripping and his.
Your bed feels incredibly soft in contrast to all the spots he fucked you on last night.
You’re draped across his chest, tracing the muscles under his bare skin. His fingers are in your hair. Barely moving, just tracing small patterns. Soothing you like he didn’t cause all the pain in your body.
You’re still trembling a little. Just from…after. Your body’s still echoing with everything he gave you. Everything he took.
Worth it.
Clark kisses your temple. He hasn’t stopped kissing you every few minutes. It’s like he’s trying to apologize without saying it. Like he’s trying to prove that he’s still the man you love, the man who flinches when he bumps your head by accident, who picks you flowers and gets flustered when you kiss him in public. The one who always put you first in bed.
Not the one who just broke the sound barrier flying to your apartment because his cock told him to.
“…I broke your window,” he finally breaks the silence, a chuckle makes his chest vibrate against your ear.
“Clark…you broke a lot more than my window.”
You both start giggling…somehow glowing. Your throat hurts, you’re sore, probably can’t even walk today or the whole week, and somehow, it feels like the safest place on Earth.
“I love you,” he whispers. “So much.”
“I know,” you whisper back. “You said it like 87 times while destroying me.”
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what is and what should never be
eddie munson x reader
when you and eddie get separated from your friends in the upside down, you find yourselves at hawkins lab in search of water and shelter. what you discover is something neither of you could have ever expected.
word count: 3.8k+
warnings/tags: 18+ only mdni, smut, sex pollen!!!, dub con but it is as consensual as possible, reader is an adult, reader is afab, no use of y/n, some angst i guess, friends to lovers, brief mention of an injury and blood, unprotected sex, oral, porn with some plot, sex with feelings, one mention of marijuana, use of pet names (sweetheart, baby), eddie picks reader up once
author’s note: i originally wrote and posted this after season 4 came out. i felt it was worth a repost, so i decided to touch it up and expand it a little bit. so here’s a new and improved version 🫶🏻
Time doesn’t exist in the Upside Down.
Hours have passed at this point. Maybe even a full day. You and Eddie have been trekking through the woods for an ungodly amount of time. You ache down to your very bones, so cold that your toes have gone numb inside your shoes and so hungry that your stomach growls loudly enough that you’re surprised the noise hasn’t drawn any unwanted attention.
The two of you had been separated from your friends ages ago, when a hoard of bloodthirsty bats sent everyone running for safety in various directions. You learned from their first attack hours prior that it was best to find shelter and hide as quickly as possible, so you and Eddie both ran towards the woods, taking shelter in a small cave until the bats lost interest.
You don’t know how long ago that was. You don’t know where the others are or if they’re okay. You’d gone back to where you’d last seen them, but there was no sign of anyone. Whether that’s for better or worse, you’re unsure. You pray that it means they all managed to get to safety and are still hiding out, or actively searching for you and Eddie.
You aren’t even searching for any one particular thing at this point - your friends, a gate back to your home dimension, a fucking bottle of water - you’d be thrilled with anything that isn’t this creepy, vine-infested forest. All you know is that it’s dark, and cold, and your legs feel like jelly from walking for so long.
“You think they’re okay?” Eddie asks softly, breaking the eerie silence between you.
You tighten your grip on your flashlight. “Yeah. They’re smart. Resourceful. They’re probably asking the same thing about us right now.”
Eddie nods, his shoulders relaxing the slightest bit at your reassurance. A moment later he laughs under his breath, though it sounds forced.
“If I die out here, tell Henderson he can have my mixtape collection.”
You nudge him with your elbow. “Eddie, you’re not going to die. We’re going to find the others and we’re all going to get out of here. I promise.” Right as the last word leaves your lips, an involuntary shiver rips through you. You cross your arms over your chest in an attempt to fight off the bitter air.
“Are you sure you don’t want my jacket?” Eddie offers for probably the dozenth time at the chatter of your teeth.
“I do want your jacket,” you admit. Every time he offers, you’re more tempted to say yes, even just to be enveloped in the comforting scent of him - Pall Malls and dollar store body spray. “But I won’t take your jacket, because then you’ll be even colder, too. If you froze to death, there’s no way I’d be able to carry your body out of here.”
He sighs, accepting your answer for the time being. “I’m less worried about freezing to death and more worried about the fact that my stomach feels like it’s eating itself,” he complains.
“Well, if a lone demo-bat comes at us, we may have a chance at harvesting its flesh.” You’re too focused on the ground beneath you, making sure you didn’t trip on any of the large, veinlike vines to notice that Eddie has stopped dead in his tracks. “I’m not necessarily keen on eating bat meat but if the alternative is starving…”
“What?” Your gaze snaps up to look at his face - he’s staring off in the distance, squinting his eyes tight. You follow his gaze, immediately seeing what has grabbed his attention.
A building - a large building, fenced and gated. You’re not convinced it isn’t a prison. There’s no lights on that you can see, and it looks seemingly as abandoned as the forest surrounding it. Like the rest of the Upside Down, it’s covered in noticeable large vines.
“I’ll take my chances checking that out, I guess,” he sighs resignedly. “Because I’m not eating fucking bat meat.”
There’s a heavy, sick feeling in the pit of your stomach when you realize what the building is as you get closer.
HAWKINS NATIONAL LABORATORY
“Nothing good happens at Hawkins Lab,” you caution. “I doubt whatever we find here is going to be a hot meal.”
“I doubt that, too,” Eddie huffs. He approaches the gate to the chain link fence, freezing when it comes open without any trouble at the first pull. “But maybe we’ll get lucky and there will be some expired cereal or something. People had to eat here sometimes, yeah? And even if there’s no food, there’s bound to at least be something I can bandage this bad boy up with.” Eddie lifts the tail of his shirt, exposing three shallow but long scratches from a bat. The bleeding has mostly slacked off, but the wound still needs to be cleaned and dressed.
If nothing else, the inside of the building would at least offer temporary reprieve from the cold. You both need to rest for a while, too. Preferably somewhere the demo-bats or whatever else calls this place home can get to you.
You follow him through the gate. There’s no sign of any living being. You don’t even know if anyone has ever been here, to this lab in this world.
The front door opens as easily as the gate did.
The only source of light is what little trickles through the windows from the red-tinted sky outside, and the now pale yellow light from your flashlight. The thing had been on for hours and is getting dimmer by the minute. You make a mental note to look for batteries while you’re here.
The hallways are vast and empty, as are most of the rooms you peek into. A few rooms contain old computers, others have typical equipment found in labs - microscopes, Bunsen burners, empty freezers. The whole place smells sour and musty and there’s a thin layer of grit and grime on every surface.
It’s eerily silent except for every one of your footsteps that seem to echo for miles.
Eddie stays positioned ever so slightly in front of you the whole time, his body shielding yours. Without thinking, you wrap your arms around his bicep, hugging his arm.
You search the whole first floor without any success. No food, no water, no means of communication.
“Bat meat is starting to sound more and more tempting,” Eddie mutters under his breath as you walk down a flight of stairs to a lower level.
It’s even darker, and colder. Goosebumps and peach fuzz simultaneously raise across your skin and you hug Eddie’s arm tighter. He’s putting on a brave face, but you can tell by how tense he is that he feels as uneasy as you.
There’s a set of large, hospital-like double doors at the end of the hallway with the word INFIRMARY in bold red letters.
“Let’s at least try to find something for me to clean your wound with,” you tell him, accepting that food or drinkable water isn’t something you’re going to find here. “And then get the fuck out of here.”
To call it an infirmary would be generous. There’s a singular hospital bed and several cupboards that are mostly bare, except for one. You spot a bottle of rubbing alcohol, amongst a bunch of other various vials and glass cylinders on one of the higher shelves.
It’s almost too tall for Eddie to reach. Even on his tippy-toes, it’s a stretch. He lunges for the bottle but misses, knocking several over in the process. One rolls off of the shelf, falling at least ten feet to the concrete floor right at his feet. You jump out of the way right before it shatters, putting several feet of space between you and a veil of red dust that floats through the air around Eddie.
“Shit,” Eddie mumbles, still reaching for the bottle of rubbing alcohol. “Did they design this place for giants? Why are these shelves so fucking tall?”
“Maybe you could try to lift me up?” You suggest. “I could put my feet in your hands and you could give me a boost—”
Eddie’s body goes rigid. You point the flashlight at him, noticing that his eyes are darting around frantically.
His breathing turns sharp and ragged. He presses the heel of his hand to his forehead. “Something’s wrong,” he rasps. “I feel… God, I don’t even have a word for it.”
You step forward, but he flinches away like your touch could burn him. “Hey,” you whisper, worry creeping into your voice. “Talk to me, Eddie. Tell me what’s going on.”
“I can’t - sweetheart, please. Just - keep some space.” His voice cracks on the last word. You attempt to take another step toward him.
“Don’t!” He shouts, and it echoes through the empty building. “Don’t step any closer to me,” he adds in a quieter voice.
“What the fuck is going on? You’re scaring me, Eddie.”
“I don’t - I don’t know - fuck, what the fuck.”
He starts to walk backwards, distancing himself from you. You stay where you’re at, but follow him with the light of the flashlight. He’s hunched over, in visible pain, as if there’s a knife in his stomach. Your first thought is that the cuts from the bats are hurting him, but he’s been completely fine up until this point.
No, this is too sudden. This is something far more urgent.
“What the fuck was in that vial?” Eddie curses through gritted teeth.
You turn to the pile of glass on the floor a few feet away from you. There’s a layer of red dust coating the floor around the shards of glass. You take a cautious step towards the mess, noticing a label still attached to one of the larger shards. You squint to read the small print.
Caution: potentially fatal. PROCREATION POLLEN.
“Something is seriously wrong with me,” Eddie gasps. “I’m - I’m covered in sweat, I can’t breathe, I feel like I’m going to explode, like my skin is crawling and I need to.. need to..” He trails off, pacing with his fists in his hair.
Procreation Pollen. You can’t say you’ve ever heard of it, but the name on the label is relatively self-explanatory. And given the place you’re at right now - a laboratory infamous for its experiments on human beings - you quickly piece together what the contents of the vial is meant for.
“Have sex?” You finish his sentence, your voice barely above a whisper. He doesn’t respond at first. He seems to be focusing all of his energy on breathing - his chest is heaving and there’s an almost feral look about him that you’ve never seen on a human being.
Then, without looking you in the eye, he nods. “I can’t explain it. I feel like…like my heart’s going to explode if I don’t.”
Your thoughts are spiraling a mile a minute. It all happened so fast. One second, he was fine - well, as fine as one can be in a place like this with bloody claw marks across their abdomen. The next? It’s fuck or die.
And you’re the only person here. Likely the only person for miles.
“I’m serious, sweetheart. Don’t. I’m barely controlling myself right now,” he pleads when you take a step towards him.
“Eddie, I don’t think this feeling is going to go away unless we do something to make it go away.” You try to reason with him delicately. “You’d really rather die than have sex with me?” Your voice is almost teasing, a poor attempt at lightening the very real, very scary situation at hand.
“No!” Eddie gasps - whether it was out of shock or discomfort, you’re not sure. “Of course not. I just…don’t want it to be like this. Don’t want it to happen here. This isn’t anything like I imagined it. When we fuck, I don’t want it to be because of…this.” He makes a vague gesture at your surroundings and laughs, but you can hear the pain behind it.
You walk towards him slowly, until you’re less than a foot away from him. This time, he doesn’t try to stop you. “How did you imagine it, then?” You ask softly.
He freezes again. It looks as though he’s trying to hold his breath - like your scent could send him over the edge.
You place the flashlight you’d been holding on the nearest countertop surface before closing the gap of space between you. You place your hands on either side of his abdomen and he groans. His muscles are taut and he feels feverish even through the fabric of his shirt. He still refuses to look at you, his eyes closed and his teeth digging into his bottom lip hard enough to draw blood.
“It’s okay,” you soothe. “You don’t have to answer. Why don’t I tell you how I’ve imagined it? Is that alright?”
He exhales a shaky breath and then nods.
You’re too terrified to be anything other than brutally honest. Past the point of caring how desperate you may sound. Right now, you’ll tell him anything he needs to hear.
“I’ve imagined it happening in your room with Black Sabbath blasting at full volume to drown out the noise. I’ve imagined it in the back of your van when we’re stoned out of our minds because we’ve smoked one too many joints. I’ve imagined it fast, I’ve imagined it slow. I’ve imagined you between my legs, my hands in your hair.” For emphasis, you raise a hand to the side of his head, lacing your fingers through his dark curls. He whimpers, his lips quivering.
“No, I definitely haven’t pictured it happening like this,” you concede with a nervous laugh. “But I want you. Any time, any place, Eddie. Including here.”
“Christ, sweetheart.” His voice is hoarse, like he’s dying of thirst. Large hands find your hips and he digs his fingers into the flesh in an attempt to ground himself and hold himself back all at once. “Any other time, this would be music to my ears. But you can’t say that shit to me right now. Not when I’m doing everything in my power to resist this…this fucking gasoline in my veins telling me to throw you on that bed and fuck you until you can’t walk out of here.”
Fucking hell. You’ve never heard such vulgarity come from him. It hits you in your core and you have to remind yourself that you’re not the one under the effects of whatever hellish aphrodisiac they cooked up in this lab.
“Let me help you,” you plead. The pain written across his pretty face is enough to make you want to get down on your knees and beg. “Let me help you and when we get out of here, you can tell me all the ways you’ve pictured this happening and we can make them a reality.”
His mouth opens but no sound comes out. You can see the last bit of his restraint slipping more by the second.
“Promise me,” he breathes, his voice unrecognizable with barely controlled lust, “this won’t be the only time I get to have you. I can’t stand the thought of only having you once and it being this.”
“I promise,” you tell him without hesitation, bringing your hand to cup the side of his face. His gaze settles on your lips as he licks his own. “Of course I promise.”
And then his lips are on yours.
He pulls you flush against him - the heat from his feverish body instantly makes you feel the warmest you’ve been since you jumped into Lover’s Lake after Steve and Nancy. It’s an addictive reprieve and your hands shoot back to his hair and you pull him closer, closer, closer.
He moans into your mouth when you part your lips, allowing his tongue to explore your mouth. He tastes faintly of the last of his menthol cigarettes that he’d chainsmoked in the woods of the Upside Down. You nip at his lower lip and he practically growls, the sound vibrating through you.
You can feel that he’s already hard through his jeans, the noticeable bulge nudging against you through your clothing. His hands smooth over the swell of your ass, settling on the backs of your thighs and he lifts you. Surprised, you yelp into his mouth but instinctively wrap your legs around his midsection as he carries you to the small bed.
There’s an urgency to his actions, but he’s still gentle. As gentle as you’ve always imagined he’d be.
You shrug out of your jacket and toss it on the floor before tugging your shirt over your head. You’re left in only your bra from the waist up. Eddie removes his own jacket and shirt before kissing you again, ever so gently pushing you backwards and pinning you between his body and the hard mattress.
His skin is covered in a thin layer of sweat that quickly smears against your own stomach and chest. He kisses you softly once more before hovering above you - his fingers hook into your bra and he pauses before going any further.
“It’s okay,” you assure him, tucking a thick curl behind his ear. Even in an immeasurable amount of discomfort, he’s still making sure you’re comfortable.
Even with this drug in his system, he’s still him. Still Eddie.
He tugs the cup of your bra to the side, exposing your breast. The chilly air of the laboratory instantly hardens your nipples - his mouth encases one a second later. You arch into his touch, his name slipping through your lips.
“You’re beautiful,” he croons when he pulls away. He sits back on his knees and gazes down at you. “Always been so fucking beautiful.”
“You can barely see me,” you tease, sitting up and unhooking your bra, the straps falling down your shoulders. The low light produced by the flashlight a few feet away is enough to make out his silhouette and the hint of a smirk on his face.
“Doesn’t matter,” he whispers, voice strained. “Don’t need to see you right now to know that you’re beautiful.”
“You’re sweet,” you hum, leaning toward to press your lips to his belly, peppering kisses down his happy trail before pausing at the waistline of his pants. You pop open the button and help him shimmy them down his thighs, his underwear quickly following. His dick springs forward, almost hitting his belly button. “I’m gonna help you feel better now. Okay?”
He nods, eager. You waste no more time before swirling your tongue around his leaking tip. He lets out a visible shudder as you ease him into your mouth, his hands flying to the back of your head to steady himself. Little by little, you take him deeper, until the head of his cock nudges the back of your throat and your jaw burns from the stretch of it. You pull back, taking the base of him in your fist as you continue to work his swollen head with your tongue.
“Not gonna last long, sweetheart,” he says in a strained voice. You pull yourself away from him with a pop, continuing to work him with both hands now.
“Isn’t that the point?” You hum, looking up at him through your lashes. “Make you come so you don’t die?”
He chuckles, then leans down to press a soft kiss to your lips. “If you think I’d ever finish before going down on you, then you must not know me very well, sweetheart.”
He doesn’t give you a chance to object. He lays you down against the mattress and yanks both your pants and panties down in one quick motion. He spreads you in front of him - nestles himself between your legs and splays his hands across the squish of your thighs.
The feeling of his hot breath against your center sends goosebumps across your skin before his lips make contact with you.
Despite the pressing matter of time, he’s thorough with you. Drinks from you like you’re the first taste of water that he’s had in days. His hands wrap around your wrists, keeping you where he wants you - mewling beneath him.
You’re almost over the edge, familiar hot pressure building in your lower belly, when he pulls away with a pained groan. He looks up at you almost apologetically. “Need to be in you,” he says, out of breath. “Don’t think I can wait any longer—”
You shush him gently and pull him up to you, crushing your lips to his again in a searing kiss that floods your senses with the sweet yet salty flavor of you. He pulls away to rest his forehead against yours, taking his length in his hand to line himself up at your entrance. He pushes in gently - pausing when you both hiss in pleasure - before filling you all the way up.
“Feels like you were made for me,” he breathes next to your ear. “You okay, sweetheart?”
You nod, wrapping your arms around his midsection and pulling him even closer. His bare chest is flush against yours, not a millimeter of space between you. “Never been better. Don’t hold back,” you encourage, desperate for him to move.
You’re already soaked from his ministrations with his mouth and it takes no time at all for the vacant laboratory to echo with the obscene noises that come from between your bodies. You plant wet kisses along his jaw and down his throat, nipping at the sweat-slicked skin and drawing animalistic noises from deep within him. His thrusts become messy and sporadic and you clench around him like a vice.
“Need to come, baby,” he grunts. “Want you to come with me.” He snakes his hand between your bodies, finding your swollen sweet spot and massaging quick circles, the pressure in your belly blooming rapidly.
“Fuck, Eddie,” you moan through gritted teeth. “Just like that. Just like that. I’m gonna—”
Your orgasm tears through you and he lets go at the sensation of your walls vibrating around him, moaning your name into the column of your throat as he spills into you.
You both go slack, momentarily forgetting where you are in the afterglow of your climax. The room spins around you but the weight of his body against yours grounds you, bringing you back to reality.
“Are you okay?” You ask him as soon as your breathing regulates. “Did it…did it work? Are you still in pain?”
He pulls back to look down at you. “I think I’m gonna survive,” he exhales. “Guess Henderson doesn’t get my mix tape collection after all.”
You breathe a sigh of relief. “Can’t believe it took you being poisoned in a creepy laboratory in an alternate dimension for us to do that.”
He brushes a thumb across your cheekbone and snorts a laugh. “Well, the good news is that you said I can tell you all the ways I’ve imagined this happening and we can make them realities.”
You quirk a brow at him.
“And I’ve imagined this happening a lot of different ways.”
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BUCKY BARNES | SEX POLLEN TROPE
main masterlist | note: as the trope includes smut, all of the fics include +18 content. also since at least one party is under the influence of some kind of a chemical, this is dubious content. please proceed with caution and minors dni. enjoy!
toxic heat • bucky barnes x reader | by @nyletac
summary: while waiting for the extraction team after a successful mission, bucky leaves you and runs into a greenhouse room in the mission building with strange plants. accidentally breathing in the gas from the plants he returns to you, but something is off. (smut) (6,4k words)
take you there • bucky barnes x reader | by @heli0s-writes
summary: sam plays a game called fuck or die. it's like he willed it into existence as you and hucky explore the basement of an old hydra lair. (smut, dub-con) (3,8k words)
louder than fear • bucky barnes x fem!reader | by @godmadeaterribleerror
summary: missions involving hydra often go very wrong. this is different. this is worse. this is a strange bioweapon, nobody telling you exactly what's wrong, and staring at the ceiling as bucky roars you name. it’s echoing in your brain. and you love him. (smut, light angst) (8,5k words)
lustful agony • bucky barnes x plus size!reader | by @fatecantstopme
summary: after getting hit in the face with a pink dust during a visit to an old hydra lab, you are confused as to what happened. thankfully, your mission partner knows what it is, and thankfully he knows the solution. (smut, dub-con, unprotected sex, masturbation)
what was rule number #2 again? • tfatws!bucky barnes x reader | by @satinestales
summary: messing around in banner's lab, the night before your mission wasn't as good an idea as you thought, and you begin to question your actions the moment you step out of it. things worsen when you realize the super soldier serum isn't immune to an unknown contagious disease. (smut)
delirium • bucky barnes x reader | by @flowersforbucky
summary: stranded in the middle of the alaskan wilderness with no means of communication after being exposed to a foreign drug, you're reluctant to accept help from the one person who has a shot at saving you. (smut, dub-con, unprotected sex, angst, friends to lovers, avenger!reader) (4,1k words)
play pretend | part two • bucky barnes x reader | by @wkemeup
summary: when bucky is injected with a substance that leaves him desperate for release, you offer your help. (smut, dub-con) (7,8k words)
summary of pt.2: in the aftermath of munich, bucky struggles to go back to how things were before. but now that he knows how it is to love you, he's not sure he can. (smut, mutual pining) (5,8k words)
strawberries • bucky barnes x fem!reader | by @ellemj
summary: bucky, the man with a long list of girls on his roster, gets exposed to a sex pollen in the field. will he fuck the first girl he calls or the girl he's wanted for the last two months? (smut, dub-con, unprotected sex, size kink, fuckboy!bucky) (7,5k words)
does it hurt? | bonus chapter • bucky barnes x fem!reader | by @ellemj
summary: bucky never would've gone out of his way to help you if he knew that hydra was still watching his every move, if he knew that it would shift their focus to you. when you're targeted and taken, it's his fault and he'll do anything to save you. anything. (angst, smut, unprotected sex, abduction, violence, voyeurism, mentions of sa) (24,3k words)
summary of bonus ch.: when you're finally out of hydra’s clutches, the recovery process drives you and bucky farther and farther apart. you can't decide if what you felt between you was real or chemically-induced. what will it take to sway you? (smut, angst, non-descriptive smut) (12,4k words)
untitled • bucky barnes x reader | by @myfictionaldreams
summary: it was your first mission out with your mentor, bucky, but not all goes to plan when you stumble across an old hydra laboratory and accidentally trigger a trap. (smut, dub-con, grumpy x sunshine, rough sex, praise kink)
high for this • new avenger!bucky barnes x reader | by @buckysleftbicep
summary: during a mission, you and bucky are exposed to a gas meant to strip away restraint. he resists, and well, you try. but when the heat fades, it’s not the mission that haunts you both, it’s what happened behind that door. (smut, unprotected sex, rough sex, angst, regret) (3,8k words)
desperate | uncertain an sure • bucky barnes x fem!reader | by @buckets-and-trees
summary: enemies? rivals? it's always been reluctant teamwork between you and the winter soldier, but when put in a situation where personal feelings have to be put aside, maybe actual personal feelings are uncovered. (smut, kidnapping)
desperate measures • bucky barnes x avenger!fem!reader | by @simplyholl
summary: when you encounter a mysterious substance during a mission, it forces you and your mission partner to get closer. (smut)
petals • bucky barnes x fem!reader | by @biteofcherry
summary: it was supposed to be so simple. a boring reckon mission. just to check the cabin and secure any samples of the ongoing experiments the former hydra doctor ran the place. however the unexpected comes in the form of a flower. (smut, dub-con, fingering)
unleashed • avengers!bucky barnes x fem!reader | by @veltana
summary: during a mission, bucky is exposed to something that removes his inhibitions and all he wants is you. (smut, slight fluff, possessive!bucky, unprotected sex) (4,2k words)
crimson fever • bucky barnes x fem!reader | by @mandoalorian
summary: in the icy shadows of 1944 occupied europe, you uncover a dangerous hydra secret that could shift the war’s tide. but hydra’s ruthless scientist, arnim zola, marks you as a threat, unleashing a sinister drug—“crimson fever”—that set your body and soul ablaze with an unrelenting desire. as you fight to protect vital intel, your path collides with sergeant bucky barnes, your childhood friend from brooklyn, whose unspoken love for you burns brighter than the war’s chaos. (smut, dub-con, unprotected sex, exhibitionism, violence, torture) (6,7k words)
Toxic Heat
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Agent! Female! Reader
Summary: While waiting for the extraction team after a successful mission, Bucky leaves you and runs into a greenhouse room in the mission building with strange plants. Accidentally breathing in the gas from the plants he returns to you, but something is off.
Warnings/Tags: 18+, Smut, Cursing, Fingering, Rough Sex, Edging, Enemies to lovers, Hormone inducing plant, Vaginal sex, Multiple orgasms, Aftercare, Super Intense (my god this is so dirty.)
Word Count: 6.4k
The mission had been straightforward at first: infiltrate the abandoned research outpost, gather intel, and get out before anyone noticed.
But when the team’s extraction was delayed, you and Bucky found yourselves trapped inside the building’s dusty corridors, waiting for backup.
After the constant, usual bickering and insults, he left and you heard his footsteps retreat down the hall as he scouted ahead, his metal arm clanking softly with each step. You stayed close to the cracked wall, nervously fingering the strap of your gear. Wishing there were windows to bring in any source of light throughout the creepy dim building.
Suddenly, Bucky’s footsteps stopped. Silence swallowed the hallway. Slight worry grew over you, as you take a look down the hallway, however, no sight or sound of him to be found.
When you finally heard footsteps again, you quickly peaked your head past the doorway down the hallway. Seeing Bucky approach, his movements were slower, heavier. His dark eyes held something unreadable — a flicker of distraction mixed with a strange heat.
You noticed the sweat beading at his temple, the way his breath came a little too fast, a little too shallow.
“Bucky?” Your voice curious, concern knitting your brows.
He didn’t answer immediately. Instead, he leaned against the doorway, jaw clenched tight, hand pressing over his mouth as if trying to catch his breath.
Your heart pounded. You couldn’t just stand there.
Carefully, you took a few steps closer, eyes scanning his face for any sign of injury or distress. “Are you hurt? You don’t look well.”
Your fingers hovered uncertainly near his arm before gently laying it on the flushed skin.
The contact made him flinch, a sharp intake of breath escaping his lips, and his whole body tensed under your touch.
He looked at you, confusion clouding his dark eyes before darting his eyes away. “I… I don’t know what’s happening,” he admitted quietly, voice strained. “I can’t… focus.”
You bit your lip, cheeks burning with a mix of worry and something else you couldn’t name.
Despite your hesitation, your fingers lingered, tracing the line of his jaw slowly.
His heavy breathing filled the tight space between you.
He wasn’t the bold, direct, and frankly asshole of a man you’d expected to come back— he was confused, vulnerable in a way that made your heart ache.
And yet, beneath that confusion simmered something primal, waiting to break free.
You swallowed hard, fighting the urge to pull back as Bucky’s gaze locked with yours—dark, confused, and somehow raw in a way you’d never seen before. His chest rose and fell rapidly, breath hitching like he was struggling to steady it.
“Do you need to sit down?” you offered softly, voice barely above a whisper. You hated how your own hands trembled, but you couldn’t just leave him like this.
Bucky shook his head slowly, jaw still tight. “No,” he said, voice rough, “I just… need a moment.”
You edged closer, feeling the warmth radiating off his body, the subtle tremor running through his muscles. Your fingers brushed again against his skin—this time along the softer flesh of the inside of his wrist, inspecting his seemingly pulsing veins.
He flinched again, that sharp intake of breath turning deeper, ragged. His eyes fluttered closed for a second, turning his face away from you as if trying to contain something he didn’t understand.
“Bucky…” Your voice softened, uncertainty threading through every word. “What’s going on?”
He opened his eyes, dark pools swirling with confusion and frustration. “I don’t know,” he said roughly, voice breaking just slightly. “I feel… wrong. Hot. Like I’m… burning up from the inside.”
You bit your lip, heart clenching. The man who is feared, who’s a deadly super soldier, was now trembling under your touch, vulnerable and raw.
Without thinking, your hand moved to rest flat against his chest, feeling the rapid thud of his heartbeat beneath your palm.
His breathing hitched, eyes darkening as if the simple contact overwhelmed him. “Don’t…” he growled out, voice hoarse.
The room seemed to shrink around you both, heavy with unspoken tension. You wanted to pull away, to respect his boundaries, but your body betrayed you—drawn to him like a moth to flame.
“Bucky,” you whispered, “I’m here. I’m not going anywhere.”
Your palm pressed against his chest, trying to calm the wild thumping of his heart. Bucky’s breath was ragged, uneven, like he was barely holding himself together. His dark eyes flicked toward you, filled with confusion—and something raw, unfiltered.
He growled softly, a frustrated sound. “I ran into some kind of room in the west wing with a bunch of plants. They were releasing some kind of gas. I don’t know what it’s doing to me, but—” He cut himself off, jaw tightening. “—it’s making me feel things. Things I don’t like.”
You raised an eyebrow, and try to lighten the mood. “Oh great. Just what I needed: Barnes, the grumpy tin man, suddenly turned into a hot mess.” You say softly, rolling your eyes with a slight smile
He scowled but didn’t deny it. “Keep it up, and I might just knock that smug smile off your face.”
“Yeah, yeah. Not like this you won’t” you teased, voice light despite the tension.
Bucky took a deep, shuddering breath. “Don’t tempt me. Besides, this isn’t a joke. I don’t know how to control it, and I don’t want you getting involved.”
You stepped closer, still wary but unable to look away. “Since when did you care what I think?”
His eyes darkened, and he took a half-step towards the other side of the room, like you might be contagious. “Since this gas has me all messed up and I’m not sure I’m still me.” He growls out
You bit your lip, trying not to let your cheeks betray how much the sight of him like this was affecting you.
“Look,” he said, voice low and rough, “I understand that we’re partnered up for this mission, but—” His voice cracked slightly, “right now… I need you to just stay out of it. Or maybe just don’t make it worse.”
You raised your hands in mock surrender. “Fine. But only because I’m curious what’ll happen next.” Not sliding in the tid-bit that you’re still extremely worried for him no matter how aggravating he may be or how many times he’s insulted you back at the avengers tower.
Bucky’s glare was sharp, but something softer flickered beneath it before he turned away, trying to hide the vulnerability that scared him.
Bucky’s back was stiff as a board as he leaned against an abandoned table in the room, jaw clenched tight, but the rapid rise and fall of his chest gave him away. The gas wasn’t just messing with his head—it was twisting something deeper, something primal he clearly didn’t want to admit.
Without a word, he suddenly stepped closer, the heat radiating off him intense and raw. His dark eyes locked onto yours with a sharpness that made your breath catch.
Then, almost abruptly, his hand reached out and grabbed your wrist—his grip firm but not cruel.
His voice came low and rough, like gravel scraping over steel. “You don’t get it. This gas… it’s messing with me. Making me feel things I shouldn’t.”
You blinked, caught off guard, heart pounding.
He swallowed hard, eyes darkening as if fighting to hold himself back. “I don’t want you involved. Hell, I don’t want anyone involved. Especially not you.”
You stepped back slightly, wary but steady. “Just cut deeper why don’t you.” You say dripping with sarcasm.
Bucky’s jaw tightened even more. Standing in silence very clearly thinking something through despite the haze he’s under. “I feel like I’m starting to lose control—and you’re the one thing that’s driving me crazy.”
His breath hitched. “I don’t want this. I don’t want to want you.”
Your cheeks flushed but you didn’t pull away.
He hesitated for a moment, then leaned in just enough for you to feel his breath on your skin.
“Don’t make me lose it,” he warned, voice rough and low.
The closeness of his face, feeling the hotness of his breath fanning over your skin, the tone of his voice. You can’t help but to begin breathing heavily. Despite you and Bucky’s mockery, insults, and arguing, you can’t help but be affected by how he’s acting towards you right now. Your eyes scan over him as you fail to resist the squeezing of your thighs and the feeling of molten heat pool in your stomach.
You notice his nostrils flare and his eyes close, inhaling deeply as he lets out a low groan. His eyes open and burned into yours, fierce and unyielding, but underneath there was a raw vulnerability that made your chest tighten. He walks closer towards you, making you back up until your back hits the cold concrete wall. The tension between you wasn’t just the usual snark or competition anymore—it was something sharper, hotter, dangerous.
Bucky closed the last few inches and pressed his palm flat against the wall beside your head, trapping you gently but firmly. His metal fingers brushed lightly against your temple, and a flicker of something desperate crossed his face.
“You don’t know what this is doing to me,” he muttered, voice thick with frustration and something darker. “I’m not… me right now. And I don’t want to hurt you.”
You swallowed hard, nerves sparking but your gaze steady. “You won’t.”
He swallowed again, chest rising and falling faster now, like every breath was a fight.
Then, almost reluctantly, his hand found yours—fingers curling around yours, cool against your skin but firm, possessive.
“I’m warning you,” he breathed, his voice dropping lower, “if you let me, I might not going to be able stop.”
His gaze flicked down to your lips, then back up, heavy with unspoken promises and desperate need.
You felt your heart hammer in your chest, caught between fear and the undeniable pull drawing you closer to him.
Bucky’s grip tightened around your fingers, a low growl rumbling deep in his throat. His dark eyes searched your face like he was looking for permission—and maybe begging for it too, though his pride wouldn’t let him say so.
“I don’t want this,” he snarled softly, voice rough and raw, “but I’m losing the fight.”
His breath hitched, hot and ragged against your skin. The heat radiating off him was suffocating—an almost tangible force pulling you closer, burning away the space between.
You wanted to pull back, wanted to remind him that you weren’t sure what this was either, that this was the opposite of professional, opposite of what you two were—but something in his expression held you fast, unsteady and trembling.
His metal hand slid from your fingers to your wrist, then higher, tracing the delicate skin of your forearm. Every inch was electric under his touch, like you were both alive on a knife’s edge.
“Tell me to stop,” he whispered hoarsely, voice thick with frustration, “and I will. But if you don’t…”
He closed the distance suddenly, lips brushing a harsh, breathless kiss against yours—rough and demanding, like he was trying to ground himself through the contact.
Your breath caught, shyness warred with a fierce, blooming heat deep inside you.
Bucky’s hands framed your face, thumbs brushing over your cheekbones as if trying to memorize every line, every trembling breath.
“I’m scared,” he admitted, voice low and vulnerable beneath the roughness. “Scared I won’t be able to pull back.” You feel him physically trying to restrain himself from pulling himself closer to you.
You swallowed, heart pounding louder than your thoughts.
“No,” you whispered, voice soft but sure. “Don’t pull back.”
His lips instantly found yours, crashing into your lips, with a wild insatiable hunger. There was no gentleness in it, just raw need and the taste of restraint shattering. He gripped your waist, his hands big and calloused, roughly pulling you flush against his body like he needed you to stay anchored to the ground.
You gasped into him, the sound catching in your throat as you felt the heat of him—every line of muscle, every tremble in his body that betrayed how hard he was fighting to stay in control.
“I shouldn’t want this,” he growled, voice rough against your lips, “not with you… not like this.”
But his hands didn’t stop. One slid up under your shirt, skimming over your ribs, fingertips dragging goosebumps in their wake. His touch was desperate, reverent, like he needed to memorize your body just to keep from coming undone.
“I didn’t even like you,” he muttered hoarsely, forehead resting against yours, breath ragged. “You always ran your mouth, always got under my skin…”
Your hands clutched at the front of his tactical shirt, heart pounding against your ribs. “You didn’t like me?” you managed, breathless.
“I hated how much I noticed you,” he growled. “How I couldn’t stop watching the way you moved… how you looked at me like you saw past the metal and my history.”
You whimpered as his fingers slipped beneath your waistband, teasing the skin just above your underwear. His touch wasn’t tentative—it was firm, claiming. Possessive. But there was a tremble in it, like he wasn’t sure if he was about to worship you or ruin you.
“Tell me to stop,” he whispered again, voice cracking with restraint. “Please.”
But you couldn’t. All you could do was look up at him, seeing him, pieces of hair falling in his face, his dark eyes staring into yours and let out a soft needy whine.
That was all he needed.
His mouth moved to your neck, kissing and biting, the sting softened by the heat of his tongue. His hand slid into your pants, cupping you firmly. The gasp that tore from your throat only made him press closer, lips brushing your ear.
“Fuck, you’re warm,” he groaned. “So soft…”
His fingers dipped lower, teasing over your folds, dragging a moan from you that made his grip falter—like your voice alone was a match to dry gasoline.
“You’re gonna ruin me,” he muttered, pressing his forehead to your shoulder as his fingers slipped inside you, slow but thick and deep. “Don’t even know if this is the gas anymore… or just you.”
You could barely breathe, body melting into his as he thrust his fingers slow and deep, watching your every reaction like he was starving for it. He was so careful despite the desperation coiled in his muscles—his touches growing rougher, but still holding back that last thread of restraint.
His fingers, curling just enough to make your knees shake. You gasped, a tremor running through your thighs as you clutched at the front of his suit, but Bucky didn’t rush—not yet.
He growled under his breath, forehead still pressed to your shoulder, lips ghosting against your skin as his fingers dragged slick and steady inside you.
“Goddamn…” he breathed, voice broken with awe and frustration. “You’re driving me out of my fucking mind.”
You whimpered, your breath shallow. “Bucky…”
His name made him shudder.
He pulled his hand away too soon, and you let out a small sound of protest. Bucky met your eyes then—completely unguarded. His pupils were blown wide, his lips slightly parted, sweat shining along his jaw.
“Don’t look at me like that,” he muttered. “I’m hanging on by a thread.”
You weren’t sure if that was a plead, command or a threat.
Then, you could feel the thick bulge of him straining against his pants, grinding against your soaked core through the fabric of your clothes.
“Feel that?” he rasped into your ear, rutting against you. “That’s what you’re doing to me. And I haven’t even gotten inside you yet.”
Your breath caught. His words lit a fire in your belly, made your thighs clench, made you ache.
His hand slipped down again, running two fingers over your clit.
“Fuck. You’re soaking.”
The curse slipped through his teeth like a prayer as your eyes roll back at the heavenly friction of his hand.
You whine once more as he brought his fingers up and stared at them—coated in your wetness—then met your eyes again as he sucked them slowly into his mouth.
Your legs nearly gave out. “Bucky…” you mutter.
“I’m not gonna fuck you yet,” he said, voice rough and tight like it hurt to say it. “Not until you’re begging for it.”
You whined, hips rolling instinctively toward him, chasing friction.
“Oh, you like that?” he murmured darkly, hand sliding between you again, rubbing slow, heavy circles over your clit. “The mouthy little agent who never shuts up… can’t even form a sentence now.”
You were panting, your body hypersensitive to every stroke, every drag of his rough voice.
“I want to ruin that attitude,” he growled. “Make you forget how to talk. Make you cry.”
His fingers dipped inside you again, thrusting slow and deep, each stroke deliberate and angled just right. You clenched around him, a soft cry leaving your lips, and he chuckled low and sharp in your ear.
“There it is,” he whispered. “That’s what I wanted. So fucking tight around my fingers already.”
His metal hand slid up your shirt, palming your breast through your bra, thumb flicking across your nipple with just enough pressure to make your back arch. “You gonna fall apart just from this?” he taunted, voice husky. “We haven’t even started yet.”
“Bucky—” you gasped.
“No,” he cut in, hot breath against your neck. “Not yet. You don’t get to come until I say.”
Your head hit the wall behind you with a soft thud, pleasure cresting inside you—too much, too slow, not enough.
Bucky’s mouth moved to your jaw, your throat, licking and biting as his fingers fucked you slow, precise, dragging you closer to the edge and pulling you back again and again.
“You think I don’t see the way you look at me?” he whispered. “Like you hate me. But underneath it? You wanted this. You wanted me.”
Your moan betrayed you.
He grinned against your throat, then sank his teeth into the delicate skin there—not enough to hurt, just enough to make you gasp. His hand never stopped moving, never gave you what you needed all the way. He was relentless, teasing, every inch of him vibrating with tension and barely held control.
“I could keep you like this for hours,” he muttered. “Desperate. Soaking wet. Shaking.”
He dragged his fingers out of you and pressed them between your lips.
“Taste how sweet you are,” he said roughly. “And tell me you don’t want me.”
Your mouth opened before you could stop yourself, and the taste of your own need sent heat rushing straight to your core.
Bucky growled. “Fuck, that’s it. That’s what I wanted.”
He pushed his hips into yours again, the thick, throbbing heat of him pressing right against your clit through the fabric.
“You ready?” he asked darkly. “Because once I’m inside you, I’m not stopping.”
You were trembling beneath him, body pinned to the wall, soaked and aching. Every nerve ending buzzed under the weight of his mouth, his hands, his voice—dragging you to the edge, over and over, without mercy.
And still… he hadn’t taken you.
Until now.
Bucky’s jaw flexed like he was still trying to fight it—but the look in his eyes told you he was past the point of no return.
“I told myself I wouldn’t,” he growled, lips ghosting over yours. “Told myself I could ride it out. Wait for backup. Do the right thing.”
He leaned in, pressing his forehead to yours, his hips grinding against you in a slow, punishing circle. You felt him—thick, hard, straining inside the confines of his pants—and your breath hitched.
“But I can’t fucking think straight,” he whispered, almost like it hurt. “Not when you’re this wet. This soft. Looking at me like you’d let me break you open.”
You didn’t say a word. You couldn’t. The air was thick with your shared breath, hot and humid, and your voice had long since abandoned you.
He slid your pants down, low enough for you to shimmy and step out of them. He reached down, undid his belt with shaking hands, and freed himself—thick and heavy and flushed, the head already leaking. The sight of it made your thighs clench instinctively.
Bucky groaned at the sight of you. “Fuck, look at you. So shy all the time, but now…” he leaned towards you, grabbed your thigh and wrapped it around his waist. He pushed your soaked underwear to the side, lined himself up and paused, metal hand gripping your thigh, holding you open, holding you still.
“Last chance,” he rasped. “You want me?”
You look up at him with pleading eyes and a whine, “please, Bucky….”
That was all it took.
He thrust forward in one deep, brutal stroke,
burying himself inside you to the hilt. You cried out, nails digging into his arms as your body stretched to take him.
“Shit,” he gritted through clenched teeth, eyes screwed shut. “So fucking tight. You feel—God—you feel unreal.”
He held still for a beat, shaking from the effort not to lose it too fast. But you clenched around him, and he groaned low in his throat, head falling to your shoulder.
Then he started to move.
Each thrust was deep, rough, and controlled—but just barely. He was shaking with it, like he couldn’t believe how good it felt, like every time he slammed into you it pulled a piece of him loose.
“You like it rough, sweetheart?” he growled against your ear.
But you were already gone—moaning, head back against the wall, gasping as your body met his rhythm instinctively. You give a messy nod.
“Yeah,” Bucky snarled, gripping your ass and lifting you a little higher so he could drive in deeper, your leg not wrapped around his waist barely touching the ground. “You take me so fucking good.”
The sound of skin slapping echoed off the walls, the wet slick of your arousal making each brutal thrust louder, messier.
“You think I don’t see you?” he grunted, voice ragged. “Always biting your lip around me, looking away. Playing innocent. But you’re not.”
His pace picked up, hips slamming into yours harder now, deeper. “You want this. You’ve always wanted this.”
“Bucky—” you whimpered, voice cracking.
“Say it,” he growled. “Say you want me.”
“I want you,” you gasped, clinging to him.
He cursed viciously, his control unraveling at the sound of your voice.
“Fuck—I’m not gonna last—” he bit out, slamming in deeper with each thrust. “You feel too good—too tight—I’ve never—”
He cut himself off with a broken groan, his lips crashing against yours in a searing kiss, swallowing your moans as he fucked you harder, rougher. Your body was shaking, teetering right at the edge, and he could feel it.
“Come for me,” he commanded, voice thick and guttural. “Now.”
And with one last, brutal thrust—he hit the spot that sent you spiraling.
You shattered around him, crying out, trembling as your climax tore through you, soaking him. Bucky followed instantly with a strangled groan, burying himself deep as he came hard, hips jerking, forehead pressed to yours as he gasped your name like a lifeline.
His hips slowed, but only slightly—just enough to ride out his own release as you trembled around him, body slack and twitching in his hold. But he didn’t pull out. He didn’t ease away. He stayed inside you, panting against your neck, every muscle still coiled tight like a predator that hadn’t fed nearly enough.
You whimpered softly as his cock throbbed still-hard inside you, impossibly thick, sensitive—but not softening. Not even a little.
“…You’re still hard,” you breathed, dazed.
Bucky’s shoulders shook with a low, humorless laugh. He dragged his mouth up your throat, tongue catching on the sweat at your collarbone before he murmured, “I know.”
His voice was darker now—gravel scraping over flame—and when he pulled his head back to look at you, his pupils were still blown wide, black swallowing the blue.
“That plant,” he said, panting, “it did something. I don’t feel normal, I—” He gritted his teeth and rolled his hips forward again, slow and grinding.
You moaned, sharp and overstimulated, but it only made him groan. “Still not enough.”
He pulled out just a few inches, dragging his cock against your soaked, sensitive walls—then slammed back in with a low, wrecked sound.
Your body jolted, pleasure colliding with sensitivity, making you gasp. “Bucky—”
“Can’t stop,” he growled. “Can’t. You feel too good. I need more.”
He hooked your other leg up around his waist, spreading you open and lifting you slightly off the ground. The shift in angle drove him deeper, the stretch unbearable, the pressure mounting again despite how recently you'd come. You were already growing slick around him again, your body betraying your mind as it begged for more.
“I should hate you for this,” he whispered against your lips. “You make me insane.”
“Then hate me,” you whispered back, breathless.
He snarled—and then snapped.
His mouth crashed to yours, biting and claiming, tongue dragging over your lips before plunging deep. At the same time, he started to fuck you again—harder than before, frantic and relentless, each thrust punching a moan out of you.
You had no defense anymore. No sharp quips, no witty retorts—just Bucky, inside you, growling your name like a curse and a prayer all at once.
“Gonna keep you like this,” he panted, lips brushing your ear. “Stuffed full of me. Until you can’t walk straight. Until everyone on comms knows what I did to you.”
His words hit you like lightning, heat pooling fast and hard in your gut again.
“You want that?” he murmured, nipping your earlobe. “Want me to ruin you until all you can say is my name?”
You couldn’t speak. You could only cry out, moaning shamelessly as he started slamming into you again—rough, wild, deep. His grip bruised your thighs, his mouth never left your skin, and every thrust sent stars behind your eyes.
“You’re mine right now,” he gritted, pounding into you. “Just mine.”
Your second orgasm hit harder—sharper—your body seizing around him with a cry that echoed through the empty hall. You were pulsing around him, milking him, but this time, Bucky didn’t come.
He just groaned and kept going.
His breath was ragged now, like he was in pain from holding back.
“I’m not done,” he choked out, pressing your back tighter to the wall. “Not until I’ve wrung every fucking sound out of you.”
Then he pulled out, slowly, deliberately—and spun you around.
Your hands hit the wall just in time to catch yourself as he dragged your underwear the rest of the way off. You whimper at the cold concrete pushing against your soft chest. His hands gripped your hips, pulling your ass back toward him—and without pause, he shoved himself back in from behind with a deep, wrecked growl.
You gasped, moaning at the new angle, at how deep he felt this way.
His hand came around to your front again, fingers finding your swollen clit, rubbing in messy circles.
“You’re taking me so fucking well,” he snarled. “Like you were made for me.”
The words made you clench, and he hissed through his teeth, hips stuttering.
“Say it,” he barked. “Tell me you want more.”
“More—” you choked, hands scrambling for purchase against the wall. “Bucky—God—more—”
He slammed into you even harder, punishing now, wrecked with need.
“Good girl,” he growled, voice low.
Your hands braced against the wall, fingers splayed, trying to ground yourself—but Bucky gave you no reprieve.
His thrusts were brutal now, paced with a rhythm that shook through your entire body. Each snap of his hips pushed a cry from your lips, every inch of him stretching you open all over again, slick from your last two orgasms and still somehow burning for more.
You were soaked. Raw. Quivering.
And he was insatiable.
Behind you, Bucky was panting like a man possessed. His forehead dropped to your shoulder for a second, teeth grazing your sweat-slicked skin as his grip on your hips tightened, fingers digging in deep enough to bruise.
“Fucking hell,” he growled, voice wrecked. “I can feel you squeezing me—like you’re trying to pull me deeper.”
You moaned, unable to answer. You weren’t sure there were words anymore—just sensation.
Heat. Pressure. Him.
He slammed into you harder, and your knees buckled, but he caught you—one arm locking around your waist, dragging you up against his chest. Moaning, feeling your body pressed flushed against his. His other hand was still between your legs, fingers working your clit with ruthless precision, flicking and circling until your legs were trembling, your cries coming faster.
“Gonna come again,” he rasped in your ear. “I can feel it. You’re so close, baby. Give it to me.”
His metal hand gripped your throat—slightly tight, just enough to tilt your head, to control you—and he sank his teeth into the curve of your neck as he fucked you harder, faster.
You cried out, your body tipping toward the edge again with dizzying speed, your back arching at the intense pleasure.
“Say it,” he ordered through gritted teeth. “Say you want to come on my cock.”
“Please—Bucky—want it—fuck—I want it, I want it—”
“That’s it,” he hissed. “God, that’s it—gonna make you come so fucking hard—”
You clenched around him, your whole body going taut—and then snapped.
Your climax tore through you like fire, a scream ripping from your throat as your pussy spasmed around him, pulsing, slick, drenching him.
Bucky groaned like it broke him, thrusting deep one last time before he came with a roar—slamming into you to the hilt, cock twitching as he spilled inside, hot and thick, filling you to overflowing.
He held you tight, shuddering, mouth pressed to your shoulder as he rode it out—still pulsing, still deep inside you.
For a moment, everything was quiet—just your panting, the wet sounds of your bodies, and his heart hammering against your back.
Then he finally spoke—voice low, hoarse, almost reverent.
“…Still hate me, sweetheart?”
You let out a breathless, broken laugh against the wall.
“Only when you’re not fucking me like that.”
Bucky chuckled darkly, nuzzling your neck, still buried inside you. “Then I guess I’ll have to keep doing it.”
Bucky’s breathing was still ragged behind you, his broad chest rising and falling against your back. His arms stayed wrapped around your waist, firm but gentle now, as if afraid you’d slip away if he let go.
You both stayed like that for a long moment—pressed together, skin flushed and slick with sweat, the heavy sound of your breathing the only thing filling the silence.
Then, slowly, he eased out of you, hissing softly at the overstimulation. You whimpered, sensitive and sore and still trembling, and he caught you as your knees buckled, guiding you gently to the floor.
The moment your back hit the cold wall, you shivered.
“Shit,” Bucky muttered, voice thick and gravelly. “You okay?”
You looked up at him, lips parted, dazed. “I think so…”
He crouched in front of you, one knee bent, eyes scanning your face—not with lust now, but something softer. Something real. His pupils weren’t as blown out anymore. The sharp edge of heat in them was starting to fade.
And for the first time since all this started, you realized… the gas was wearing off.
You could see it in his body—the subtle way his muscles unclenched, the way his breathing evened, like his senses were slowly coming back under control.
“…Bucky,” you murmured, still catching your breath, “what was that stuff?”
He exhaled hard, dragging a hand back through his damp hair.
“Like I said earlier, there was a room. Down the hall. Some kind of overgrown greenhouse or lab, I don’t know.” His voice was quieter now, more grounded. “I barely stepped inside before I started sweating. My head got light, and then everything started to burn. My skin, my blood… my cock.”
You flushed, throat bobbing as your eyes flicked down between you.
He noticed. His jaw tightened.
“I didn’t know what was happening,” he added, guilt creeping into his tone. “Didn’t understand why I was reacting like that until I saw you again and I just—”
He broke off, shaking his head like he was angry at himself.
“I’m sorry,” he said, finally. “I shouldn’t’ve touched you. Not like that. Not when I wasn’t thinking straight.”
But you reached out and curled your fingers around his vibranium wrist, grounding him.
“You didn’t force me,” you said softly. “I wanted it. All of it.”
His eyes met yours—sharp, guarded, like he was still waiting for the punchline.
“You sure?” he asked. Not a tease. Just a whisper of vulnerability cracking through the armor.
You gave a breathless laugh, nodding. “Yeah. Pretty sure the three orgasms confirm that.”
That pulled a small, crooked smirk from him—but it didn’t last. His gaze drifted back to where your bare thighs were still spread, slick and flushed, your pants still tangled around one ankle. You were raw, used, full of him.
And still… somehow… the tension wasn’t gone.
“You didn’t hate it,” he murmured, like he was testing the waters.
“No,” you admitted. “And… maybe I don’t hate you as much as I pretend to.”
That surprised him.
He tilted his head, lips parting like he had something to say—but instead, he leaned forward, slowly, giving you the chance to stop him.
You didn’t.
His lips brushed yours, soft this time. Nothing like the devouring heat from earlier. Just a quiet, aching thing. A kiss that said we’re not done—but maybe not just in a physical way.
You kissed him back, fingers curling into his jacket. And when he finally pulled away, his forehead leaned against yours, breath warm across your face.
“I’ll get you cleaned up,” he murmured, voice husky again, but this time with gentleness rather than hunger.
You nodded, legs still shaky. “Yeah. I… don’t think I can stand yet.”
That made him chuckle, low and rough.
“You won’t be walking straight for a while.”
You smacked his chest weakly, and he grinned. It was the first time you’d ever really seen him smile—not that tight, sarcastic twist, but something real.
And just like that… something had shifted.
The lines that used to keep you on opposite sides of every room were gone—burned away by sweat, heat, and the way his hands had held you like he was afraid of losing something he didn’t know he wanted.
As he helped you pull your clothes back on, slow and careful, your fingers brushed. You didn’t pull away.
Neither did he.
⊹ ︶⏝⭒ ⊹ ⭒⏝︶ ⊹
By the time the extraction team touched down, the gas was well out of Bucky’s system—but the aftermath lingered on both of you like a second skin.
He still walked close to you. His arm still brushed yours whenever the hallway narrowed. His jacket, slung loosely around your shoulders, smelled like him—warm leather and sweat and something darker, primal, something you’d felt grinding deep inside you less than an hour ago.
Neither of you had said much since.
Not because there wasn’t anything to say—but because the weight of everything that had happened still hummed like a live wire between you.
And when the door to the building finally slammed open and Sam’s voice came over the comms—dry, impatient, and absolutely oblivious—you nearly jumped.
“There you two are,” he said, stepping into view in full gear, eyes flicking from you to Bucky. “Took your sweet time, huh? We were about to call it and let you rot in there.”
Bucky didn’t flinch. He just grunted. “We managed.”
Sam looked at the both of you suspiciously.
Your hair was a mess. Your pants were definitely on inside out, despite your frantic fumbling earlier. Bucky’s shirt clung to him with dried sweat, and his belt was still hanging open under his tactical vest.
And when Sam’s eyes narrowed and slid down to the distinct bite mark blooming just beneath your collarbone, visible even beneath the edge of Bucky’s jacket—
He froze.
Blinked.
And looked back at Bucky. Slowly.
“…Did you fight each other?”
You opened your mouth, panic rising in your throat.
But Bucky—smug bastard—beat you to it.
“Doesn’t matter,” he said coolly, leading the way past Sam without missing a beat. “I won.”
Sam gawked after him. “You won what? An STD?!”
You groaned and followed quickly, cheeks flaming. “Shut up, Wilson.”
“You shut up!” Sam called after you. “I’m gonna have to Lysol the entire jet, aren’t I?!”
Bucky didn’t even blink as he climbed aboard.
You shot him a glare as you slid into the seat across from him, keeping your arms crossed even though his jacket still hung around your shoulders like some ridiculous trophy.
The second Sam stepped in behind you, eyeing the both of you like a disgruntled parent, you tried to school your expression into something neutral.
You failed.
Bucky smirked.
“So,” Sam said, dropping into the pilot’s chair with a sigh. “Either of you wanna tell me why your vitals were going crazy on the monitors for thirty minutes straight?”
“Must’ve been a glitch,” Bucky replied smoothly.
Sam turned, staring at him.
You were biting your lip. Hard.
“A glitch,” Sam repeated flatly.
Bucky shrugged, unbothered. “Must’ve been the plant gas. Messed with my sensors.”
“Oh, I bet it did,” Sam muttered, spinning back to the controls. “God, I’m too old for this.”
The Quinjet engines flared to life.
You glanced at Bucky. He was watching you from under his lashes, jaw tight, one corner of his mouth twitching upward like he was this close to smiling.
You leaned closer, voice just low enough that Sam wouldn’t hear.
“You’re really proud of yourself, aren’t you?”
Bucky’s smile turned wicked.
“You’re the one still wearing my jacket, sweetheart.”
You flushed—and hated how much it thrilled you.
As the jet lifted into the sky, the tension didn’t fade.
It simply shifted.
No longer the tension of enemies circling each other like knives waiting to clash—but the quieter, heavier kind. The kind that simmers under the surface, waiting to boil over again the second you're alone.
And something told you…
This wasn’t over.
Not even close.
Lustful Agony
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x plus size!reader
Summary: It's sex pollen, aka my favorite trope.
Warnings: cursing, use of pet names, an insane amount of smut, dubcon (cuz sex pollen), unprotected sex (p in v), oral (F receiving), masturbation (F).
"Would you please be careful?" you snapped.
Your partner froze and offered you a sheepish smile. "Sorry, doc. I wasn't paying attention."
"I noticed," you huffed. "There are any number of things in here that could kill us, so tread lightly."
"Maybe I should wait here."
You glanced in his direction and nodded. "You know what? Good idea. Stay there and don't touch anything."
You continued on through the dusty lab, hoping to find at least one working computer, but after 20 minutes, it seemed hopeless. Every computer had been destroyed and most of the paper files had been shredded or burned. All that remained was hundreds of glass vials filled with various liquids and gases that did gods-only-knew what.
"I'm starting to think this might be a burn and run," you called back to Bucky--still standing where you'd left him on the other side of the lab.
"If we blow this place, is there gonna be a toxic cloud?"
You shot an annoyed look in his direction. "I said 'burn', James, not 'blow'. We're not blowing up a lab filled with unknown chemicals and biological agents."
"Right, yeah." He looked at the ground, feeling slightly embarrassed. He always seemed to make a fool of himself in front of you and he hated it. He never wanted to be the fool, especially around you.
Your well-trained eyes scanned the room again before falling on a secured biological containment chamber. You knew that would be the best option for storing items for burning. All you'd need to do was get all the bio vials into the chamber and light it up.
You crossed the room to the chamber, feeling Bucky's eyes following you. He hated being in a position where he felt like he couldn't protect you, but he was out of his element here. As the resident hazardous materials expert, this was your area of brilliance.
You grumbled in annoyance when you noticed the lock on the containment chamber was activated. You were familiar with this particular model, and if you were lucky, these Hydra assholes hadn't been smart enough to bother changing the code. You input the pin, silently crossing your fingers, a smile spreading across your face when you heard the distinct sound of the mechanism unlocking.
You lifted the hood slowly, hoping to find the chamber empty. You had a momentary thought that you and Bucky should be wearing appropriate PPE, but the thought occurred to you too late.
A sound of surprise escaped your lips as a puff of sweet-smelling pink dust blew into your face from inside the cabinet. The tactical suit and gloves you were wearing did nothing to protect your respiratory system from the unknown substance.
The dust seemed to dissolve almost instantly, fading into nothingness before you could even alert Bucky to the hazard. He, of course, had heard your surprised gasp, thanks to his super soldier hearing.
"Doc? Everything okay?" he called worriedly.
"Not sure," you replied. "I, uh, I got hit in the face with some pink dust...and I'm willing to bet it's not fairy dust."
Bucky's blood ran cold. "Pink dust?"
"Yeah, smelled like some kind of super sweet candy--or those sugary wine coolers I drank in college."
Any color that remained in Bucky's face quickly drained. "Look at me."
His tone was so firm, it frightened you. Bucky normally joked around with you, but you could hear the fear in his voice and it scared you more than anything else.
You turned to face him and his expression confirmed your fears. "Do you know what it is?"
Bucky nodded. "I think so, but we won't know for sure for at least 30 minutes, possibly longer."
"Am I going to die?" your voice was so soft--so small--that even he almost didn't hear it.
"Not if I can help it."
When your eyes met his piercing blue orbs, he could see the terror reflected in them. He wanted to go to you, help you, but he knew he couldn't--not if you still had even the slightest trace of the dust on you.
"You need to rinse off before we get out of here," Bucky said calmly. "If it's what I think it is, then I can't get that stuff anywhere near me."
"Why? What'll happen?"
Bucky's gaze didn't quite meet yours. "I will tear you apart and not even realize it."
His words cut you like a knife. You knew deep in your soul Bucky would never hurt you, but if this substance could turn him into a wild animal, you wondered what the hell it was going to do to you.
You'd spotted a decontamination area when you'd first entered the lab, so you slowly made your way there, careful to avoid getting anywhere near Bucky.
Bucky radioed in to Sam to give him an update on the situation. You heard him describing what had happened and asking for another team to be sent in to destroy the facility.
You stood under the spray of the shower head and let the water pummel your skin. The pressure was almost painful, but you knew it was necessary to ensure the substance was no longer on your skin. You'd inhaled it, so you were screwed, but there was no reason for Bucky to be too.
After several minutes, you felt comfortable saying you were clean. You just wanted to get the hell out of this lab and back home.
You voiced as much to Bucky, but he shook his head slowly. "You're not gonna make it all the way home, (Y/N)."
You didn't like Bucky's use of your first name in this context...he always called you 'doc', and the change made you feel like death was around the corner.
Your face must have given away your fear because he continued. "I just mean you won't make it home before the symptoms start. Once they do, you won't want to be around anyone."
"So what do we do?"
"Safe house. It's our only option."
You groaned inwardly. You had zero desire to stay in that drafty little cabin another night, but you trusted Bucky's instincts, so you simply nodded.
Bucky was quick to usher you back to the quinjet, filling you in on his conversation with Sam. "He'll send in another team in full Level A hazmat gear. They'll take care of the place."
"Okay."
"You alright, doc? How you feelin'?"
"I feel fine so far. Just moderately terrified."
"Don't be. You're gonna be fine."
You wanted to believe him--really you did--but there was something in his voice that made you question if he even believed it.
By the time the jet touched down by the cabin, 25 minutes had passed since the moment of infection. Bucky still hadn't told you what you were dealing with and it was driving you insane.
You followed Bucky into the cabin and watched him drop his bag on the floor. He turned to look at you, eyes clearly sizing you up, checking to see if you were okay.
"Just tell me," you whispered--somewhere between a plea and a demand.
He sighed deeply. "How do you feel?"
You closed your eyes and took mental stock of your body, seeking anything out of the ordinary. "I feel hot, but that could just be the anxiety."
"How hot?"
"I don't know, like feverish, I guess."
Bucky groaned and the sound sent a wave of need through your body--a need that shocked you to your very core. This was absolutely not the time for your stupid crush to rear its head.
"Please don't hit me, okay? I'm just gonna touch your hand."
"Why would I hit you?" you asked a second before his flesh hand met yours. The feeling was pleasant and it warmed you from the inside out, until he removed his hand. You inhaled sharply as an intense pain you couldn't describe shot through you.
Bucky jerked his hand away, his worst fears confirmed. "I know what it is."
"Please," you whimpered.
"It's a biological agent Hydra developed when their attempts to make a useable super soldier serum failed. It was designed to induce a euphoric sexual state that would result in agony and possible death if penetrative sex was not performed and an orgasm was not achieved."
"I'm sorry, what?"
"Hydra believed they could create super soldiers the old fashion way--by breeding them. Sprinkle some of the magic dust on a super soldier and he'd fuck his way through a room full of women without a single care for their well-being. They called it 'sex pollen'."
Your breathing was labored as pain began to spread through your body. You tried desperately to ignore it and focus on Bucky's words. "What happened?"
Bucky couldn't look at you as he responded softly, "None of the women survived the mating process."
You realized now what he'd meant back at the lab. You didn't really want to know, but you found yourself asking the question anyway, "Did they do it to you?"
Bucky closed his eyes, desperately trying to push the dark memories back down. "Yeah. They did."
"I'm sorry," you whispered.
Bucky shook his head, banishing the memories. "It doesn't matter. What matters now is how we handle this."
"If the sex pollen had that kind of effect on a super soldier, what's it gonna do to me?"
"I imagine it's going to be significantly worse for you if you don't...umm--if you don't reach climax."
"So I have to orgasm? Seriously?"
"I wish it were that simple."
Before you could respond, you doubled over in pain, an agonized groan escaping your parted lips.
Bucky rushed to you without thinking and laid his hands on your arms. You let out a pained whine and he pulled away, suddenly remembering what was happening.
"It feels like my skin is on fire," you cried.
"I know, doll. I know."
It was killing Bucky not to be able to help you. He was your protector in every situation, but he couldn't protect you from this. He knew exactly what kind of hell you were in for and it nearly broke him.
The waves of pain subsided and you were able to pull yourself upright. "Well this is fun," you mumbled.
"It's gonna get worse, (Y/N). Much, much worse."
"That's comforting, Buck. Thank you."
He gave you a sad look. "You can't do this alone."
"What do you mean?"
"The pollen was designed to force the creation of life...the only way to alleviate the pain is to give the pollen what it wants."
Your brain had become too muddled to understand what he was saying. "Plain English, Buck. Please."
"You, uh, you have to have sex."
"So you're saying I can't just masturbate this away?"
Bucky shook his head. "You have to have sex and your partner has to umm--ejaculate inside you."
Another wave of pain raked its claws through your skin, but you managed to stay upright this time. "What happens if I don't?"
You saw the look of sadness on Bucky's face and you knew you wouldn't like his answer. "You'll die."
"Well, fuck." You winced, reaching out to grab the back of the couch for stability. The pain was only increasing and you knew it was a matter of time before you couldn't take it any longer. "How sure are you that I'll die?"
"I mean, I don't know any regular humans that survived contact with the pollen. They were used as test subjects during its creation."
"I swear, Hydra gets more disgusting every time I learn something new."
Bucky was dying to help you. Seeing you in pain was agonizing for him and he knew his pain paled in comparison to yours. He would do anything for you--all you need do was ask.
"I'm gonna try waiting it out," you said firmly.
"What?" Bucky said, shock evident in his tone.
"I'm sure as hell not gonna force you to fuck me, Bucky. So I'm gonna wait it out."
"(Y/N), you're not forcing me to do anything. I'm offering to help. I don't want you to die."
You shook your head. "I'd rather die than force you into this."
"I'm offering--"
"Don't," you snapped. "No matter what you say, I'm going to feel like I'm forcing you to do something and I can't deal with that. So please, let me try to handle this alone."
Bucky knew for a fact he could overpower you with ease, especially when you were in such a state. He could make the pain stop and you would be glad for it in the moment. But he couldn't do it. He would never ever hurt you like that, even if it meant watching you die. It just wasn't something he was capable of.
"Okay, doll."
You could tell he didn't want to agree, but you were glad he wasn't arguing. All you wanted to do was tear your clothes off and try to find some sort of relief. The fire burning under your skin was intensifying by the second.
"I'm gonna take a cold shower and lock myself in the bedroom. Please stay out here."
Bucky simply nodded. He wanted to sit on this couch and listen to the sounds of your pain about as much as he wanted to get shot in the face. But he respected you too much to ignore your wishes.
You dragged yourself into the bathroom and stripped down to nothing before climbing into the cold shower. The frigid water seemed to help at first, but you discovered the effects were short-lived.
You leaned your head against the cold tile and let out a pained sob. You wanted the pain to stop so badly, but you didn't want to involve Bucky. You couldn't. Bucky was your closest friend and partner. His was the relationship you valued most in life and you wouldn't risk it for anything. It didn't matter you were in love with him. It didn't matter you'd wanted him from the moment you'd laid eyes on him. What mattered is you knew he didn't feel the same.
Bucky had a new girl in his bed several times a week. You were pretty sure you'd never seen the same girl twice in the three years you'd known him. Each one was a tall, blonde, model-thin, gorgeous woman. You didn't check a single one of those boxes. You didn't think Bucky was shallow, he just had a type. He was one of the hottest men you'd ever seen, so it only made sense for him to be with the hottest women.
You didn't think you were ugly, by any means. You just weren't his type. You were shorter, very curvy, girl-next-door average. You'd accepted it long ago and vowed to never tell him how you felt for fear of jeopardizing your friendship. Your current situation was as close as you could get to your biggest fear and you weren't willing to risk it. You loved him too much to lose him entirely. Even if he insisted he was willing to help, you knew he would come to regret it. Things would be awkward between you and eventually your friendship would come to an end.
"Not worth the risk," you muttered to yourself.
The cooling effects of the shower had long since worn off, so you turned off the water and grabbed a towel. As you wrapped it around your body, you found it was too small to cover everything and the scratchy material was painful against your overly sensitive skin.
You dropped the towel to the ground and opened the door a crack. "Bucky?"
"Yeah, doll?"
"Um, the towel hurts my skin, so um...please don't look while I walk to the bedroom."
Bucky inhaled deeply, calming himself. Sure, he wasn't impacted by the pollen, but the fact that your naked body was a few feet away from him certainly did.
"I'll close my eyes."
You tentatively opened the door and peeked out. You could see Bucky sitting on the couch, eyes closed as promised. You quickly rushed from the bathroom to the open bedroom door, shutting it behind you. In your haste to get out of sight, you neglected to lock the door.
You nearly collapsed onto the bed, the need to feel some relief the only thing on your mind. Normally, you would have been embarrassed to even consider touching yourself when Bucky was so close by, but this was an extreme circumstance. You mentally told yourself you needed to be quiet at the very least, given his excellent hearing.
You tried to get as comfortable as you could, but it was impossible. The only parts of your body that didn't ache were the ones you were actively touching. You slipped your dominant hand between your legs and felt another wave of embarrassment hit when you felt just how wet you were.
The moment your fingers brushed between your folds, you let out a loud moan. You slapped your hand across your mouth and hoped Bucky mistook the sound for one of pain.
Bucky was breathing heavily as he sat on the couch less than 10 feet from the bedroom door. He could hear every tiny little sound you made, even as you desperately tried to stay quiet.
He knew he shouldn't be turned on by those sounds--not when you were experiencing something so awful--but he couldn't help it. He'd dreamed of hearing you moan for him a hundred times before. It took all his will-power to not bust down that door and give you what you needed.
You let out a particularly obscene moan and Bucky had to stifle his own. His cock strained against his pants and he hated himself for being turned on. He tried to tell himself it wasn't his fault--he'd wanted you for years--but he couldn't shake the feeling of shame.
Ten minutes went by and the sounds coming from the bedroom continued. Bucky gripped the back of the couch with all his strength, determined to not give himself even a modicum of pleasure from this.
Another five minutes passed and he heard you let out a pained sob. His heart skipped a beat and he listened closely for any more noise. He heard the distinct sounds of you crying and his resolve broke. He immediately went to your door and knocked.
"Doll? You okay?"
"It hurts so much," you whimpered.
He leaned his forehead against the door. "I know, sweetheart. Please let me help you. Please."
He could hear you writhing around on the bed, whimpers of pain reaching his ears and making him tear up.
"I can't--it didn't work," you cried. "I'm so hot--it hurts."
"Please, baby," Bucky begged. He placed his hand on the doorknob, dying to turn it and get to you.
"Bucky," you whimpered.
The pain in that one simple word made his decision for him. He turned the knob and was surprised to find the door unlocked. He opened the door a crack, but kept his eyes away from the bed.
"Let me help you," he pleaded again.
Your eyes roamed his gorgeous figure and you let out a choked sob. Nothing else mattered in that moment--all you could think about was him.
"Make it stop," you begged him.
Bucky's eyes snapped open, meeting yours in a desperately hungry look. He didn't say a word, didn't even allow his brain to process the deeper meaning of what he was about to do. You'd asked him to help you--to stop the pain--so that was exactly what he was going to do.
He stripped out of his tactical suit as fast as possible, leaving himself in his boxer briefs, cock straining to be set free.
You reached out a hand to him and he went to you without a thought. He climbed onto the bed, hovering over you as his eyes scanned your face.
"Are you sure about this, doll?" he asked softly.
"I need you," you whimpered back.
Those three little words shattered the sliver of resolve he'd had left. His lips met yours in a hungry, devouring kiss--all teeth and tongue. His hands latched onto your soft curves, touching every inch of skin he could reach.
Everywhere he touched felt like ice against your burning skin. The sensation both incredible and painful all at once. Whatever bit of shyness or insecurity you had was wiped away by the sheer intensity of it all.
Bucky's lips attacked your neck, your jaw, your collarbone--nipping and sucking bruising marks into your skin. While it felt good, it wasn't nearly enough.
"Need more."
Bucky nudged his knee between your legs to spread them wider for him. "I know, baby. I know."
He quickly descended down to your aching core, blowing hot air against it in a teasing manner. You whined and scratched at his scalp, reminding him this was not the time for teasing.
He flicked his tongue between your pussy lips, seeking out your clit immediately. The second his tongue brushed against it, you cried out in pleasure--the first real feeling of relief you'd had since you'd been infected.
Bucky smiled to himself as he settled in to properly feast on your pussy, reveling in the essence of you against his tongue, invading all of his senses.
You gripped his hair in one hand and the sheet in the other, gyrating wildly as Bucky ate you with abandon. The pleasure was blinding, but you could still feel the undercurrent of raging fire flowing through your veins.
Bucky seemed to instinctively know exactly what you enjoyed, following your body like he had a roadmap to your pleasure points. He sent you over the edge with ease three times before finally coming up for air.
You reached for him, still hungry for more. "Bucky."
"I'm here, baby." He kissed you deeply, hands gripping your hips tightly. He wanted to take his time with you, but he knew he couldn't--you needed more from him and you needed it now.
He was quick to discard his underwear before lining himself up with your entrance. His cock nudged against your aching hole and you both moaned.
"Please, please, please, please..." you begged.
Bucky knew what you needed and he wasted no time sheathing himself inside of you. You cried out in pain as his cock stretched you more than you'd ever experienced before. The pain quickly subsided into pleasure and the pollen seemed to sense its purpose was near.
You felt a surge of need and you begged him to fuck you. "I need it, please, Bucky."
"I've got you, sweetheart." He began to thrust gently, trying his best not to hurt you. The sensations began to overwhelm him as much as they were overwhelming you, prompting him to move faster--losing himself in the feeling of you.
"Fuck, baby. You take my cock so well."
Your pussy fluttered in response, a soft whine escaping your lips.
"Best pussy I've ever had. So tight and wet for me. Made for me, weren't you?"
You nodded rapidly, not really registering what he was saying.
"How many times you think I can make you cum, baby? Six? Seven? Think the pollen can get you there?"
Your eyes widened at his words. Unsure if that was possible even with pollen.
Bucky grinned down at you. "I think I can get seven. Bet this pussy will give me whatever I want, won't she? Gonna make my girl scream my name all night long."
You felt the coil in your belly snap as another orgasm rushed through you. You clung to Bucky, a string of profanity spilling past your lips.
Bucky didn't let you come down from it before pushing your body towards another orgasm. He wanted to feel you gripping his cock like this as long as possible--especially since he might never feel it again.
"Baby, you feel so good," he murmured, placing soft kisses to your face. "Love the way you're squeezing me."
"Feels so good, Bucky," you moaned.
"Fuck, been wanting to hear you say that for so long. Needed to be inside this tight little pussy so badly. It's better than I ever imagined."
Somewhere in the back of your mind, you wanted to ask what he meant--if he'd really imagined it, but you were too far gone to articulate a coherent thought.
As another orgasm crashed into you, you momentarily wondered if it was possible to die from overwhelming pleasure. You'd been in so much pain for so long and the sudden change to blinding pleasure was incredible. It was unlike anything you'd ever experienced.
"How many more can you give me, sweetheart?"
"Wanfeelcum," you mumbled incoherently.
"What was that, baby? Too fucked out to speak?"
"Wanna feel you cum, Bucky," you begged.
He was already so close to the edge he nearly lost control at the sound of your voice. But if he was being honest with himself, he didn't want this to end. He was scared if he came, if he gave you what you needed, then you'd be satiated and it would all be over.
"Need to feel you cum on my cock at least one more time, baby."
You whimpered, but nodded your consent.
Bucky picked up the pace, hitting your sweet spot with each thrust. You weren't sure whether it was the pollen or his skill, but you went flying over the edge of blinding pleasure with an intensity you'd never experienced. You screamed his name as the waves crashed over you, pussy gushing juices as you squirted all over his cock and abdomen.
"Fuck yeah, baby. So fucking sexy..." he murmured. "Gonna fill you up. Give you what you want."
"Want your cum," you begged.
"That's right, pretty girl. Gonna give you my cum. Fill up this sweet pussy till you're stuffed."
"Yes, Bucky! Please!"
Bucky's hips stuttered as he came, filling your pussy with ropes of warm cum. Bucky kept thrusting slowly as he whispered your name into your skin over and over like a prayer.
Slowly, the haze created by the sex pollen began to fade, leaving you completely blissed out. Awareness of what you'd done began to creep in, but the feel of Bucky's weight on top of you kept you in the moment.
He finally slowed to a halt, but his lips were still pressing into your hot skin. After several more moments, he raised himself up just enough to kiss you sweetly, making sure you felt his adoration.
The moment he rolled off you, the full weight of what you'd done hit you like a ton of bricks. If your body would have cooperated, you would have turned over onto your side, curled up in a ball, and cried.
Bucky felt the sudden shift in your demeanor and he felt his heart clench in his chest. "(Y/N/N)..."
"I'm sorry," you whispered.
Surprise lit up his face. "What?"
"I shouldn't have done that--I'm so sorry."
"I'm gonna stop you right there." He sat up a little so he could look down at your face. You wouldn't meet his gaze, but he continued anyway. "Don't you dare think for a single second that I did something I didn't want to do. You were in pain and I couldn't let that stand. I would do anything for you, (Y/N). Anything. I don't regret it and I'd do it again in a heartbeat."
Your eyes finally raised to meet his and you saw nothing but honesty in his gaze. You knew he cared about you, but you were still worried you'd crossed a line neither of you could come back from.
Bucky stared at your face, taking in just how incredibly beautiful you were. He was trying to commit it to memory--never wanting to forget any bit of it.
"Thank you," you whispered.
Bucky shook his head. "You don't have to thank me, doll. Like I said, I wanted to." He paused for a moment, a silent war raging inside of him. He seemed to make a decision and once he did, the words just flowed from his mouth. "I mean it, (Y/N). I've wanted to for years--wanted you for years. I never wanted it to happen like this, but fuck baby...here we are. I would do anything you asked of me, okay? I'll rip my own heart out and light it on fire if you ask me to. So if you ask me to pretend this never happened, I will, but I need you to know I don't want to. I want to make love to you over and over again, hear you scream my name, watch your beautiful face as you fall apart for me...I want you. I will always want you."
You were completely breathless by the time he stopped talking. The words coming out of his mouth weren't what you'd ever expected to hear. "You want me?"
"I've always wanted you. Every part of you. Inside and out."
"What about all the other women?"
"What?"
"The ones you bring home all the time."
He touched your face gently, turning your head to look at him directly. "They're fine for a night, but they're not you. They were a poor substitute for the woman I really wanted, but couldn't have."
"Bucky..."
He looked a little crestfallen, mistaking your tone for rejection. "It's okay if you don't feel the same--"
Your hand gently pressed against his lips, shutting him up instantly. "If I could move properly, I would have kissed you to shut you up."
His eyes lit up and a small smile played on his lips.
"Of course I feel the same. Of course I want you. I only pushed you away tonight because I didn't want to lose you. I was afraid you would regret it."
He leaned down so he was inches away from your lips. "Oh sweetheart, I could never regret anything to do with you."
Your lips curled up in a sweet smile. "Really?"
"Mhmm."
"Buck?"
"Hmm?"
"Any chance we can make love? I wanna be in the moment...really in it."
"Right now?" he asked in surprise.
You nodded.
His lips met yours in a loving kiss. "I'm more than happy to oblige."
You grinned as he rolled back on top of you, lips pressing against yours hungrily.
"I'll make love to you as many times as you want. Whatever you want, I'll give you. Just ask."
"Anything?"
"Anything."
You smirked slowly. "Then I might have some ideas..."
"Oh really?"
"Oh yes." You pulled his face down to yours to whisper some of your inner desires into his ear.
"My god," he murmured. "You're gonna be the death of me."
You laughed lightly and he joined in before pulling you in for a passionate kiss, dead-set on giving you everything you wanted and more.
Summer Surprise ࿐࿔ Bucky Barnes
Pairing: Age-gap 40s DBF Bucky Barnes x Mid-twenties Reader
Summary: You've been looking forward to kicking off the summer with a week on your dads new boat. You decide to have one last night of fun before committing to a week on the sea with your family. But you're thrown into a world of shock when you realize the older man you slept with, only days prior, is not only friends with your dad, but also joining you for the trip.
Word Count: 21.0k
Warnings: Graphic Sexual Content. DBF!Bucky. Oral sex (M&F receiving. Mostly F.) Soft Dom!Bucky. Age-gap (40 y/o Bucky x mid 20s reader). Hand jobs. Hair Pulling. Light Choking. Heavy Teasing. Smug asf Bucky. Neck fixation. Body Worship. Wall Sex. Tension. Just so so so so much smut. P with P (but not toooo much plot) ABSOLUTE filth.
18+ blog, Minors Do Not Interact.
Author's Note: Hey guys! I really enjoyed making this one. This one is a little crazy and a little wild. But I hope you guys like it!!! Also, requests are always open.
The air is charged with electricity, the rhythmic base pulsing through the floor. Your delighted laugh is muffled by the heavy beat as you roll your hips into your friend.
Wanda presses up behind you, her hands slithering around your waist to tickly Nat’s hips. Nat smacks her hand away with a snicker, her body swaying into yours.
You pant, a thin sheen of sweat clinging to your skin from the heated room. “Fuck,” you groan. “I’m thirsty, Imma get a drink, you want anything?” You shout over the music, pushing out from between the two women.
“All good,” Wanda laughs, turning to grind back into Natasha.
You giggle at the pair and start shoving your way through the packed crowd. You’ve never seen your favorite club as packed as it was tonight. Usually, that would make things a little more fun, but tonight it made things a nuisance.
You push through people packed body to body, shouldering through couples and friends to get to the bar.
About two feet from the bar, a drunk man shoulders past you to collapse into a free barstool. You feel your heel slip as you wobble- your stomach drops to your feet in a moment of panic. But before you can roll your ankle, strong hands slide onto your waist and steady you.
“You okay?” A rough voice shouts from above you.
You roll your head back, looking up at a jaw dropping man. A drunken smile slips onto your lips as you unconsciously lean back into him. “All good now,” You giggle.
The man helps maneuver you so you're facing him, a chuckle falling from his lips. “You sure?” His dark blue eyes trail down your body shamelessly. His hand stays on your hip.
“Mhm,” you nod heavily, your gaze flickering between the salt and pepper in his hair, to the pretty crows feet that form when he smiles down at you.
He couldn’t be more than forty. Your light buzz sinks a little deeper as you ogle the man, watching the way the neon lights flicker against his skin.
“You want a drink, sweetheart?” He leans down into your space, so he doesn’t have to shout as much for you to hear.
You swallow heavily. “You buying?”
“For someone as pretty as you, absolutely.” His tongue swipes over the point of his teeth.
You grin and nod, shamelessly leaning into him. “Lead the way, handsome.”
And he did lead the way. Just not to the bar.
He led you to the alley out back, where the line to get into the club stretched to the street. And without a care- or thought for your dignity- in site, he presses you against the cold, chipped bricks.
His facial hair burns against your face as you suck gently on his tongue, your hands frantically fisting at his hair. He chuckles into the kiss, his large hands pinning you in place by your hips.
He nips at your bottom lip, rolling it until it stung, then soothed over it with his tongue. He pants softly into your mouth, a hand traveling up to grip your jaw tightly. He angles your head, pressing his lips to yours in a bruising kiss.
“Fuck-” He groans quietly against your lips, his other hand slipping down to grab your ass.
He smells of expensive cologne and lingering smoke. He tastes like fine liquor.
“Gonna take me somewhere-?” You gasp against him. “Or ‘re you gonna fuck me right here?”
He laughs, deep in his chest, against your neck, his lips trailing rough kisses down the expanse. “That eager?” He whispers, dragging his teeth along your throat.
“Fuck yes-” You pant, arching up into him.
He snickers quietly as he pulls back, his hand sliding back around your jaw. “I’ll take you somewhere baby,” he swipes his tongue over your sore bottom lip. “I’ll take care of you.”
And that's how you end up in a strange hotel, your hair in this random mans fist, as he fucks you into the mattress.
You can barely see straight. Your body aches and your thighs are barely holding your weight by now. The man’s strong fingers press bruises into the soft edge of your hip as he drags you back against his cock.
You choke on a broken wine, your jaw loose as he yanks on your hair.
“Fuck-” he grunts, fucking his cock back into your soaking entrance. “Do that again, sweetheart,” his lip twitches back in a snarl as his muscles clench.
Your eyes roll back as your trembling hand pushes between your legs to circle your clit.
“Just like that, baby, doing so good.” He pants, his nails scraping your scalp as he regrips your hair.
“Oh shit-” You moan, rocking back into him.
He smirks to himself, his large hand swinging back to deliver a quick slap to your ass. You whine, your mouth falling open further. He smacks your ass again, pressing his palm to the red mark that follows.
“That feel good, sweetheart? Huh?” He thrust his hips at a steady pace, deep and hard, punching the air from your lungs. “I asked you a question, baby.” He smacks your ass again.
You nod quickly, your scalp burning as he fists your hair. “S-so fuckin’ good…”
“Yeah? Feels so good gettin’ stuffed full of cock?” He chuckles to himself, his own words making him smile. “Bet it does. Bet you’ve never been fucked like this, huh?”
You shake your head, pushing back against him needily. He pulls you back on his dick, grinding into you slowly. He tugs gently on your hair, and then you feel his breath ghosting across your throat. He presses a soft kiss to the hinge of your jaw.
“Ever been fucked by someone older?” He whispers, his lips dragging over your shoulder.
Your vision nearly blanks out when he grinds his hips into you again. You gasp when a sharp sting against your ass shocks you back to reality. “No-...” You groan.
“Mm,” he hums, sinking his teeth into the curve of your shoulder. You nearly sob, your fingers circling your clit a little slower. You don’t want this to be over yet. “‘S it feel good?” He whispers, his teeth nipping at your earlobe. “Do boys your age make you feel this good?” His stubble burns where he drags his chin against your cheek.
You shake your head. He softens his hold on your hair to massage your scalp.
“Does it make you wanna cry?” He whispers, kissing the corner of your lips. He rolls his hips into you a little slower. You choke on a garbled noise.
Your stomach twists almost painfully, something hot and aching spreading through you.
You nod, blinking through tears to try to ground yourself.
You can feel him smile against your cheek. He nips your jaw. “I bet.” He snickers, snapping his hips against yours as he pulls back. He curls his fist back around your thick locks of hair. “I won’t stop you, baby,” he groans, his chin dipping to his chest as he stares at himself sinking into you.
“You can cry, sweetheart. Go ahead and cry.”
You can’t remember falling asleep.
The last thing you could recall from the night before was the man spreading you out on your back, softly kissing your cheeks. His tongue dragging over your skin as he licked away your tears.
You remember his kisses trailing down your stomach, his hand wrapped around your throat.
You remember him smiling against your inner thigh, before he gently kissed your soaking cunt.
After that, everything was a blur.
So now, as you stretch slowly beneath the silky sheets, you feel sore and raw. Every part of you feels so deliciously tender.
Calloused fingers twitch over your stomach. You shiver, glancing down at the thick arms wrapped snug around your waist. You look over your shoulder to find the man sleeping soundly, his face nuzzled into your hair.
You have to bite your lip to stop yourself from grinning like a fool. But you can’t help it. Your whole body still feels loose and raw from the way he picked you apart the night before.
So you relax into the sheets and trace your nails over his knuckles, forcing yourself to stay quiet. To savor the moment a little longer.
His body feels warm against yours, heavy and relaxed. You feel his soft lips brush your nape. Your stomach flutters as you tug the thin sheet a little higher over your chest.
Your little savory moment is cut short when he releases a heavy breath against the back of your neck, his arms winding tighter.
You make a soft noise as his arms press into your stomach.
His chest rumbles in a sleepy chuckle, his lips dragging over your skin. “Morning,” he whispers, his voice all gravel and velvet.
You swallow hard, your mouth now deeply dry. Your confidence now heavily lacking, now that you’re sober.
“Morning,” you mutter.
His hand slides from your stomach to your hip, massaging gently into the muscle. “Feel okay?”
You suppress a shudder, and nod, your eyes glued to the wall across from the bed. “Mhm.”
Something nervous curls in your stomach.
The man makes a rough noise before he starts to turn onto his back- pulling you with him. You shift with him, pressed into his side- almost on top of him. Before you can do much else, the hand not glued to your waist rakes the hair from your face.
You blink up at him now, blue eyes flickering over your features.
“Hi,” he whispers, his teeth nipping his lip.
“Hi,” you groan, dropping your face to his chest. The hand in your hair slips to cradle your nape as he laughs. You can feel the vibrations through his ribs.
“Where’s all that gusto?” He hums, his nails gently scratching your hip.
“You fucked it out of me,” you huff.
He makes a surprised noise at that, his palm loosening around your neck. Once he gathers himself, his nails start gently scratching at your scalp. “There it is.”
You sigh against him, and faintly you realize he still smells like cologne and smoke. You swallow, your lips pressed to his chest. “I’m Y/n, by the way,” you slowly lift your head, an embarrassed smile curling at your mouth.
“Bucky,” he mutters, still stroking your scalp. “Nice to meet you, doll.”
“What a meeting,” You snicker, pushing up over him a little further. You drag the sheets with you as you slowly straddle the man. He watches you, his hands falling to your thighs, where they peak beneath the white sheet.
He hums to himself, biting back a smirk as he looks at you fully. He looks sweet, bathed in warmth and sleep. You rest your hands against his chest, your touch trailing as you reach to cup his jaw. On a whim, you lean down and press a soft kiss to his lips. He hums again, his tongue brushing yours.
“You have pretty eyes,” You whisper against his mouth, feeling his facial hair scrape your face. “So blue.”
He smiles into the next kiss, struggling to keep his teeth out of the mix. “Mhm?” He murmurs, his hands stroking up and down your waist. “Didn’t see much of me last night?”
You shake your head. “It’s hard to see when you’re sobbing.” You snicker.
He groans softly, his head falling back against the pillows in exasperation. “You can’t say that when you’re on top of me, doll.”
You rake your fingers through his hair, pushing it back. “Oops,” you smirk, your stomach fluttering at how pretty his eyes look with his crows feet.
His hair is soft beneath your fingers, thick and tangled. Your gaze sweeps over his face, his neck, his chest. Faint freckles mark his warm skin. You wonder faintly if he has any tattoos.
“Whatcha starin' at?” He chews at his lip, a hand dropping to gently palm your ass over the sheets.
“You’re really fuckin’ attractive.”
He chokes on a laugh, a grin spreading across his face. “Jesus, girl.” He shakes his head at you. He slowly sits up against the headboard, dragging you closer in his lap. “You’re blunt when you’re sober,” he smirks, leaning down to kiss your shoulders.
“Can’t help it,” you mutter, arching your neck to give him space.
“‘S that right?” He nips gently at your throat.
“Mhm,” you sigh.
“I’ve got a few new observations too. Wanna hear?” He lifts a brow at you, struggling to suppress his smile. You nod, your hands slide to rest on his shoulders.
He leans in, his lips pressed to the shell of your ear. “You look good with makeup running down your face.”
You flinch back with an embarrassed gasp, your hands smacking over your face. “You’re kidding-” you groan. “Is it everywhere?”
He snickers heartily, his fingers slowly wrapping around your wrists. You try to keep yourself covered but he easily tugs your hands away. “I’m just teasing, baby,” he chuckles. “You’re fine.”
“Are you?” You lift a suspicious brow at him.
He shrugs slightly. “Only a little.”
You groan and drop your head onto his shoulder. “Oh god-” you huff. In reality, you shouldn’t feel so bad. You know he seems to like it. But the image of yourself you’ve cooked up in your head looks like a mess.
And Bucky is by far the hottest man you’ve ever slept with. So being a mess is less than desirable.
He rubs your back gently, his cheek knocking into the crown of your head. “You’re fine, you’re fine. It’s only a little eyeliner.”
You shake your head in embarrassment, your lips pressed firmly to the thick muscle of his shoulder.
“You’re not gonna look at me now?”
You shake your head.
“Mkay,” he hums. You gasp when his fingers slid into your hair, curling around the strands and yanking. He easily pulls you back to look at him, a gentle sting sizzling against your scalp. He tilts his chin up and presses a soft kiss to the corner of your eye. “So pretty.”
Your stomach twists, butterflies knotting inside you. Jesus. You’ve never had a one night stand like this before.
You stare at him, your face aflame.
“Not gonna hide?”
“No…” you whisper. He easily retracts his hand from your hair.
“Good girl.” He snickers when your eyes bulge.
“Jesus-” you shake your head at him, wiping your eyes with your finger tips. Before another word can leave your mouth, your phone rings somewhere in the room. Your spine immediately straightens. “That’s mine-” You blurt looking over your shoulder past the bed.
You awkwardly climb out of Buck’s lap, dragging the sheets with you in search of your phone. You find it by the door, with your heels and purse.
You have three missed calls from Wanda.
“Shit…” You mutter, calling her back. It rings once before she’s answering.
“Y/n? Finally!” Wanda groans.
“Hey, what’s up? Are you okay?”
“Ah- we’re locked out of the house, can you come by and let us in?” She awkwardly mutters.
“What? Both of you? Where did you sleep last night?” You frown.
“We got a cab to Pietro’s, slept there. But we still can’t find our keys.”
“How did both of you lose your keys?” You groaned.
“Nat put hers in my purse, and then I put mine in my purse, but I think I left my purse in the cab.” You could hear her cringing through the phone. “Nat’s gotta get ready for work, so can you please come home and let us in?”
You stiffen, glancing back at Bucky, who is shameless staring at you from the bed. “I uh- yeah, I’ll be right there. Gimme like-” you glanced at the time. “20-30, okay?”
“Thank you so much- we owe you.”
“Big time,” you hiss, then hang up. You turn back to face Bucky, your fists white knuckled against the sheets. “I have to go.”
“I caught that,” he smiles, lazily rolling out of bed. Your face heats as you watch him find and tug on his boxers. You watch him shamelessly, your gaze traveling down the expanse of muscle beneath his skin.
He steps into your space, and only now did it really sink in how tall he is. Large hands cup your jaw, pulling you up to kiss him. You sigh against his tongue as he takes the lead, easily molding you beneath his hands.
You lean your weight into him, your body sagging against his.
He pulls back with a wet sound, his tongue darting out to lick over your lips.
“Can I see you again?” You blurt, your eyes fluttering open as he sighs against your skin.
He smirks, his nose nudging yours. “You wanna see me again?” He teases, stretching it out.
You nod slowly.
He chuckles, then reaches to snag your phone. “‘F course, sweetheart.” He muttered, already punching his number into your contacts.
You try not to look as light-headed as you feel. You try not to seem as excited as you are. “Thanks,” you mutter when he hands you your phone back. You see he sent himself a text from your number.
Pretty girl from the bar.
Weirdly enough, the fact that he put a period at the end of the text is what turned you on.
You watch as Bucky quietly searches for his pants. You stand there, wrapped in the sheet, wearing nothing but your fragile dignity. He doesn’t pull his pants on when he finds them, and instead fishes out his wallet.
Your brows pinch together in confusion. But then he pulls out two twenties and holds them out for you. “Call a cab so it’ll be here when you’re ready.” When you don't move, he smiles softly at you. He pulls your purse from the floor and sticks the money inside.
“I’m gonna get cleaned up in the bathroom, so you can get changed out here, okay?” He lifts a brow at you as he sets your purse back down.
You nod. “Okay.” You mutter, stunned by his caring actions.
He shakes his head at you with a chuckle as he gathers his clothes and enters the bathroom. The door closes with a soft click. You release a shocked breath.
You would have stood there longer, if you didn’t remember that Natasha and Wanda were shivering and waiting for you. You roll your eyes and start gathering your clothes.
When you’re finally dressed and pulling on your heels, Bucky emerges from the bathroom. He’s holding a damp cloth, folding it up as he approaches you.
When you look up at him, he gently pinches your chin and starts wiping smeared mascara from your temples.
You swear you could have blacked out from arousal right then and there.
“Did you call a cab?” He asks, steadily stroking the warm cloth over your eyes. You nod. He smiles and wipes the remaining smudged makeup from your skin. “Good.” He tosses the rag onto the bed.
When you finally stand, he dips down to press a kiss to the corner of your mouth. You lean into it, your stomach twisting with images of the night before.
“Get home safe, sweetheart.” He brushes a soft kiss over your lips, then he’s gone.
You: I’m still sore
Bucky: I bet. Did you get home safe?
You: Yup, safe and sound.
You: When can I see you again?
Bucky: I’ll be busy next week, but after that, when are you free?
You: Any day after that, I’ll make time :)
You: I’ll tell you my work schedule when I get it
Bucky: Can’t wait. I was thinking of your pretty smile the whole way home.
You: That all?
Bucky: And a few other things.
You: Liiiiike
Bucky: Typing this shit out is a lot harder for someone my age, doll.
You: You act like you’re 60
Right as you send that message, another from him comes through.
Bucky: I was thinking about what you would look like with your mouth full.
Bucky: I’m 40, I’m getting up there.
You: I like where your head's at
You: I can’t wait for next week to be over
Though until this morning, you wouldn’t have meant that. You’re actually really looking forward to the upcoming week.
To kick off the summer, your dad invited you and your friends to join him and your step-mother for a week on his new boat. It had been a long running tradition in your family to spend a week with your dad as the weather turned scorching.
He always looked forward to spending time with you, and now he had a shiny new investment to show off to you and his friends.
Free vacation on a boat? Who turns that down?
Natasha was giddily joining you, though Wanda wasn’t gonna be able to make it. She already had a trip planned with her brother to go visit their parents back home. So you and Nat promised to take as many pictures as you could.
“Are you still texting him?” Nat glanced at you, momentarily taking her eyes off the road.
“Maybe,” you grin, tapping your thumbs against the screen.
“I should have left you behind.” She rolls her eyes. “You better not spend all week drooling over your phone.”
“I won’t, I won’t. I’m just having fun.” You snicker. “He’s so cute with how he texts.”
Nat rolls her eyes. “Don’t start.”
The air feels brisk on your skin, with each brush of the breeze. You can almost taste the salt. Laughter drifts from ahead.
Further down the dock, you see your dad handing his wife a crate of beer. She tucks it under her arm and steps onto the looming, luxurious Yacht. “Dad!”
He grins when he sees you, waving dramatically. “Hey, hon,” He scoops you into a bear hug. “And Natty,” He yanks Nat into his arms. She chuckles, smiling to herself .
“Hey Mr. L/n,” she pats his back and releases him.
“How was the drive?” He lifts another pack of beer, handing it to his wife. The older woman waves hello and smacks a kiss to the top of your head.
“Good, Nat drove the whole way,” you bump her shoulder. “I’m just itching to go swimming- when’s take off?” Your father lifts your bags onto the boat, leading the way to the cabins.
“We were just waiting on you two, I’ll let the crew know we’re good to go while ya’ll get settled.” You follow him through the bottom lower deck, into the first of the several lounge areas.
You whistle low, dragging your fingertips along expensive sofas. Nat hides her shock with slightly raised brows. Just past the kitchen is a spiral staircase that leads below deck.
Your room was larger than you thought it’d be. “Geez…” You huff.
“I would have given ya’ll one of the nicer rooms, but since you’re sharing, I thought you’d be fine with the two twins. ‘S that cool, hon?” Your dad slides your suitcases into the shiny, luxurious room.
“There’s bigger rooms?” Nat gapes.
“I’ll give you the grand tour after dinner, how’s that?” He grins. “But first, you two get changed, I want you to meet everyone. We’re having drinks on deck one. Bars on deck three. ‘You girls need anything else?”
“Nah, we’re fine- we’ll meet you up top!” You pull your suitcase on your bed, yanking the zipper open.
You dad says his goodbyes and slips out of the room. Natasha immediately turns to you with a dropped jaw and widely gesturing hands.
“I mean- come on!” She flops back on her bed.
“Right?” You laugh, pulling out your bikini and shawl. “The perks of the corporate ladder.” You sigh wistfully.
“Maybe we need to quit our jobs and go for the office life.” Natasha stretches with a groan.
“You wouldn’t last a day,” you toss your sunscreen at her.
“Hey,” she catches the bottle and shoots up. “I’ve got a good two weeks in me.”
You roll your eyes. “Shut up, get dressed. I wanna indulge in the free bar.”
The yacht pulled off from the dock shortly after you boarded. You could feel the initial sway of the water as the mass steadily bobbed. After getting dressed, you and Nat made quick work of exploring the kitchen and luxury lounges.
On the second deck, you found a built in, fully stocked bar. A young man worked the bar, who you eagerly interrogated about the boat.
Apparently, there was a crew of 11 people, all who slept in the very bottom ship. There were three chefs, one bartender, and the rest worked on steering and maintaining the boat.
Two of the maintenance crew worked the diving deck, which was stocked with scuba gear and emergency watercrafts.
Natasha moves behind the bar to pick through the liquor while you continue interrogating the young man. You assume your father had just hired him, because he seemed eager and a little nervous.
“Y/n, hon, c’mere!” Your father shouts from the deck below.
You pull back from the built in bar, plucking a cherry from a small bowl. “I’ll be right back,” you chuckle, leaving Nat to continue mixing your drinks.
You jog down to the lower deck where your father and his friends are talking over beer. You adjust your sunglasses as you step around the built in couch.
“I want you to meet everyone- where’s Natty?” Your dad frowns, squinting up at the bar.
“She’s getting our drinks, she’ll be-...” The words die on your tongue as one of the men by the railing turns back to look at your dad. Then you.
Cool blue eyes find yours.
You can see the moment recognition fries his brain. Furrowed brows shoot to his hairline, dark eyelashes flutter as he gapes at you.
“Oh, hon, c’mere,” Your dad shoves you forward. “This is James, he lives a few houses down from me. He’s my running buddy.” He grins ignorantly.
Your tongue feels weighted and dry as you stare up at the man. “Hi.”
“James, this is my daughter, Y/n. She’s here with her friend Natasha,” he points over your shoulder to the red head.
Bucky’s shocked expression shifts back into something resembling calm. “Nice to meet you,” his lips twitch in a soft smile. You glance down at the large hand outstretched towards you.
You visibly shake your head, snapping yourself out of your daze.
“Yeah, you too-” You loosely shake his hand. You try not to shiver when his callouses brush over your smooth skin.
Bucky’s lips curve into an amused smile.
“Uh- James, you said?” You blurt, yanking your hand back.
“James, but I go by Bucky.” Bucky straightens, his curious gaze sweeping over you. You stiffen, turning to your dad to avoid the obvious flush that begs to creep up your neck.
“I prefer James,” your dad shrugs, nudging the man.
“So…” you swallow, “you’re the James my dad’s been training with?” You knew your father had a friend he worked out with. You knew he had help training for the marathon he ran last spring. But him?
Bucky nods slowly, his blue eyes piercing. “Mhm.”
Your words fizzle out as you stare up at the man. The air feels thin and sharp around you. You feel the weight of your phone in your hand, memories of the texts you shared with him just that morning haunting you.
“And this is Bruce, we work together-” You dads voice cut through the moment as he pulls forward his other friend.
You swallow and take a step back, turning to the other older men introducing themselves to you. You nod along in a daze, not absorbing a single name or relationship.
“I’m- I’ll be right back, I’m gonna grab Nat so you don't have to repeat all this later.” You awkwardly interrupt your dad.
Bucky’s gaze burns into the side of your face.
Your dad makes a face and nods, cracking open a beer. “Mkay, be quick!”
You’re already walking away, trying not to shiver under the weight of Bucky watching you. You can feel it. You hear the low rumble of his voice as he says something to your father.
Your ears start ringing. You nearly slam into Natasha on the way back up the stairs. “Come with me-” You blurt, dragging her with you.
“Hey- don’t make me spill, I just made these.” She hisses.
“I don’t care-” You pull her into the cabin on the second story. You slam the sliding door shut, heaving a rough sigh. “He’s here- and he’s friends with my dad.” You shiver, suspiciously glancing out the window at the deck.
You look for only a second, but it’s like he can feel you. Blue eyes snap up to the window as he takes a slow swig of beer. You choke down an undignified yelp.
“Who? What is happening right now?” Nat smack your arm.
“The older guy from the other night- he’s here.”
Nat stares at you for a long moment, a disbelieving smile spreading across her red lips. “The guy that screwed your brains out?”
You shiver and roll your eyes. “Yes, Nat he’s here- oh my god and he knows my dad-” You huff.
“He’s actually friends with your dad?” Nat snickers, taking a sip from her cocktail. “That’s rich.”
“I was literally texting him on the drive here-” You take your drink from her. You gather you’ll be needing a lot of those to get through this trip.
Nat peaks her head through the glass door. She glances back at you with a cheeky look. “Might wanna finish that, looks like he’s coming up.”
Your heart, once again, drops to your ass. You down the rest of your drink, then the rest of Nat's. “Get out, go, go-” You shoo her. She snickers to herself as she slips out. You hear her voice as she says a sly “Excuse me,” on the way down the stairs.
Oh god.
You barely have a second to collect yourself before he’s standing in front of you.
The door slides shut with a click.
Your gaze slides from the floor to his face, shamelessly taking him in. He’s dressed in black swim trunks and a compression t-shirt, accentuating the dips of his muscles.
“Hi,” you gulp.
“Hi,” he tries to suppress the cheeky grin that fights its way onto his face. His sharp gaze trails over your bathing suit, to the cover up that covered nothing, to the tight grip you had on your glass.
“So this is what was keeping you busy for the next week.” You supply helpfully.
“Mhm,” he takes a careful step closer. You don’t pull back. He slowly pulls the sunglasses from your face and sticks them in your hair. “Your dad, huh? Didn’t see that coming.” He mutters, his fingers brushing a line down your cheek.
You glance out the tinted windows, down where Natasha was socializing with your dad. Nerves and paranoia curl into something painful as it flutters in your stomach.
“Yeah,” you whisper, your breath hitching in your chest when his thumb drags over your lips.
“You’re full of surprises,” he hums, tilting his head down at you. He curls his hand around your jaw, lifting your head fully to look at him. You swallow heavily. “So,” he sighs, his breath ghosting your cheek, “What do you want to do?”
You try to hide the fact that you’re teetering on the edge of breathlessness. You try to seem unaffected. You blink stupidly. “What?”
His fingers twitch against your jaw, pressing softly into your cheeks. His smirk curls deeper. “What do you want to do?” He repeats.
“Do you want to pretend nothing happened?” His free hand tugs the empty glass from your fingers. He slips it on the table behind you. “We can ignore the other night and play nice for your dad. Or,” His grip tightens slightly against your jaw, his smile deepening. His pretty crows feet curve against his skin. “Or we make good on our plans.”
“Our plans,” you pant, leaning into him subconsciously. “For seeing each other again?”
“Mhm,” he hums, his free hand skating down your naked waist. “I could show you a few of the things I’ve been thinkin’ about.” He drags his rough palm over your hip. He doesn’t even seem to hesitate over his next words. “You ever been fucked on a boat, sweetheart?”
You shiver, your eyes falling shut. You shake your head.
“Words,” he whispers, his nails pressing into your hip.
“No,” you gasp, swallowing around your tongue. His firm grip on your jaw keeps you from hiding from him. “I haven't.”
“Mm,” he nods in thought. “Wanna try it?”
You nod without thought, blinking back up at him. Your body feels hot. You can feel your pulse in your toes. “Yeah.” You pant.
He smirks, tugging you closer by the jaw. He presses a bruising kiss to your lips, his stubble scraping your face raw. His tongue drags slowly over yours, slow and claiming.
He hums appreciatively, guiding you gently with each slick slide of the kiss. Your wandering hands find his chest, your fingers curling into his tight black shirt.
He snickers into your mouth as you press closer, mocking your desperation.
A chorus of laughter drifts from outside, shocking you back into the moment. You yank back, he lets you go without a fight. You stumble into the table behind you with a wince. Bucky tilts his head at you, brown hair highlighted with grays falling into his eyes.
“Careful,” he glances at your hip. But your gaze is stuck on the way his tongue swipes over his slick lips. He leans back against the wall, his arms folded over his chest.
You suck in a shaky breath, steadying yourself. Why can’t you catch your breath? “My dad can’t find out.” You blurt.
He chuckles. “Goes without saying, sweetheart.”
You nod to yourself, wiping a hand down your face. You wince internally, hoping your lips don’t look too puffy. “Okay- okay, um…”
Bucky sees your panic and sighs. He pushes off the wall, stepping back into your space. You curse yourself, still barely holding it together. He pushes thick locks of hair behind your ears, cupping your face. “If you don’t want him to find out, you have to relax,” he mutters.
You nod, your cheeks puffing from his hold.
He bites back a smile. He pecks your lips, gentler than you were expecting. “C’mon, go get a drink and socialize. I’ll find you later,” he whispers, pulling back with a light smile. “Just relax.”
“Okay,” you nod obediently, taking a deep breath.
He chuckles and releases you. “You’re cute,” he shakes his head, then slips out the glass doors. You’re left alone, struggling to breathe.
When you rejoin the party, Nat’s telling a story, and has every last one of the men wrapped around her finger. You slide up beside her, dropping onto the heated leather of the couch.
The sun hangs high in the cloudless sky, beating down on your skin. You’re sweating. But you can’t tell if it's from the literal heat, or from the way you keep glancing back at Bucky- only to find him already looking at you.
He sips slowly on his beer, his palms growing slick against the perspiration. You spot the pink of his tongue as it swipes over the rim.
You snap your gaze back to the center, to where your father is boasting about fishing stories.
“I’ve been trying to get my girl to come with me, but she just hates her old man,” he huffs, gesturing to you.
“Dad, fishing isn’t exactly up my alley.” You shake your head at him.
“You go hiking with your mother all the time,” he pouts.
“Because hiking doesn’t include fish guts, and sitting in silence. Take one of them fishing!” You snicker, tossing your hand at his group of friends.
“James said he’d fish with me once we park her,” your dad pats the metal backing of the couch.
Your gaze flickers to the mentioned man, who peaked up once hearing his name. “You fish, James?” You watched him over the rim of your glass, sipping on your cocktail.
His lip twitches in amusement. “Mm, not much.” He mutters, shrugging his shoulders lightly. “But I’ll give it a try, since you’re slackin’ on your old man.”
You shake your head, taking a cherry stem between your teeth. “Please tell me you won’t be gutting fish out here,” you turn to your dad.
“We can’t eat it if we don’t prepare it, hon,” Your dad chuckled, setting a hand on his belly.
“The stink of fish guts is exactly what this vacation needs,” your step-mother, Claire, grimaces as she walks up with a bowl of chopped fruit. “I’m with Y/n. If you’re fishing out here, you’re throwing it back.”
You grin, taking the bowl from the woman. “Thank you very much, Claire.”
“Will you give it a try then?” Bucky’s voice makes you freeze, a thick chunk of watermelon stuffed into your cheek. “Without the stink and death, might as well.”
You chew slowly, your stomach turning as you lock eyes with the man. “I think you can handle it on your own.” You pass the bowl of fruit to Nat. “I’ll sit in the hot tub and watch.”
“Watchin’s no fun.” He sips on his beer. Under the bright rays of sunlight, you can see the speckled gray of his hair a little clearer.
“I’ll make do.” You shrug, crossing your legs. You don’t miss the way his gaze flickers to the movement. Your stomach twists with something hot.
“I’ll go fishing with you guys,” Bruce, one of your dads other friends, awkwardly chimes in. You could almost laugh at the innocent shift.
“I’ll go with Y/n and sit back. I’m not one for fishing.” Everett, another friend, makes a sarcastic face before swigging from his beer.
Natasha sets the bowl of fruit on the couch and tugs you up by the arm. “I’m done with fish talk, come sit with me while I tan.”
You throw one last look over your shoulder as she drags you off. Blue eyes follow you with each step. You snap your gaze forward, your stomach twisting. “Jesus,” you whisper.
“You two are real subtle, babe.” Nat chuckles, dragging you down onto two soft beach chairs. You scoot your chair closer and cross your arms over your eyes.
“He’s so hot,” you groan.
“Say it louder, for the crew to hear.” She snickers, laying back with a sigh.
You bite back a smile, stretching your limbs out to soak in the sun. If you put aside the twisting flurry of arousal and attraction burning in your gut, you felt relaxed.
Beyond relaxed. Out here, the air is crisp and fresh, smelling of salt and sunscreen. On the lower decks, if you leaned close enough over the railing, you could feel the cold water misting your face.
You’ve been excited for this trip for weeks now, feeling like summer has finally arrived.
All you wanted to do was swim in the ocean and lounge around with free snacks.
Now, you wanted the same things. Just add screwing the shit out of Bucky to that list, and it’d be perfect.
After you finally get your fill of the sun, you and Nat move down to soak in the hot tub. You have to turn down the temperature so you don't get heat stroke, but god those bubbles feel nice. You sink back into the water and stare up at the clear sky as Nat rambles quietly.
Natasha doesn’t often allow herself to wind down. You were honestly still shocked you got her to join you.
The jets hum softly beneath you, easing your muscles as the salt-tinged breeze brushes your skin. The day’s heat lingers, but the warm water cocoons you in comfort, making the transition into evening feel effortless.
It’s quiet, but not silent. You hear the soft lapping of waves against the hull, the occasional distant call of seabirds, and maybe the gentle clink of ice in a nearby cocktail glass.
The sun slowly drifts towards the horizon, casting melted colors across the water. Light reflects off the waves, rocking and swaying with each brush of the wind.
The drive over took you girls longer than you thought it would, so by the time you set out, it was the late afternoon. With only a few hours on the water, dinner time was already around the corner.
“Girls, start drying off, we’re heading in for dinner,” your father shouts up at you from the lower deck.
Nat rises from the water, playfully splashing you on her way out. “You coming?”
“Mhm, in a minute, I’ll meet you inside.” You hum, your eyes sliding closed.
“Mkay,” Nat wraps the towel around herself and leaves you to yourself. You can hear your fathers loud, boisterous laughter from inside. You assume he’s getting giddy over dinner.
You sink deeper into the water, the warmth beckoning you in as the air grows chillier.
“You planning on skipping dinner?” You jump, water splashing over the edge as you look back. Bucky smiles at you from the steps, that cheeky look on his lips.
“No, just didn’t wanna get out yet.”
“Mm,” he hums, tilting his chin up to glance at the temperature gauge.
“Are you not heading in?” You swallow, feeling bare beneath his gaze.
He shrugs. “They’re gonna bring the food outside, to the lounge.” He nods his head to the lower deck. He snags your towel from the nearby chairs and holds it out for you. “C'mon.”
You lift a brow at him. “Bossing me around now?” You huff, but obediently climb out of the water.
Bucky watches the droplets slide down the valley between your breasts. “‘Mhm,” he hums, a soft sigh leaving his chest when the towel wraps fully around you. “You’re good at listenin’.”
You swallow, your throat feeling dry. “Am I?”
“We’ll find out.” He smirks, gently pushing wet hair from your face. You shiver beneath his touch.
You glance around you, paranoia mixing with arousal. “Someone could see…” You whisper.
His smile twists deeper. His palm curls around your nape. Your knees feel like jelly. “I know,” he mutters, slowly guiding you indoors. You pant softly, feeling breathless as he maneuvers you with a possessive grip.
You follow him into the small sitting area, nothing up there but the bathrooms and a few sofas. A spiral staircase stood between the two restroom doors.
“Where are we going?” You waver, your breath hitching when his thumb strokes your neck.
“Right here,” he pushes you out of view of the windows, pressing you to the wall. Your head knocks back against the firm wall, your gaze a little spacey. Bucky’s warm fingers slip beneath your towel, tugging until it falls to the floor. You gasp, your stomach clenching.
He smiles to himself, pleased with how reactive you are. His knuckles trail between your breasts, then brush over your stomach. “What room’s yours?”
“Huh?” You blink, staring up at him.
He chuckles, meeting your gaze. “What room’s yours?” He tilts his head, his knuckles brushing the hem of your bathing suit bottoms.
“It’s- It’s the fourth one down, to the left,” you pant. “I’m sharing with Nat.”
He nods slowly, his fingers sliding beneath the ties of your bottoms. You hold your breath. “Mkay,” he mutters, pulling back and releasing the band with a snap. You flinch, your stomach flipping. He snickers at you.
A heat rises up your neck, embarrassed and too flustered to care.
“My room is the first one to the right, when you go down the main steps.” He whispers, the hand on your neck gently massaging your muscles. Your lashes flutter. He leans down, trailing his lips over your throat.
“Careful,” you swallow, “not to rub off my foundation…”
“Hm?” He mutters, pressing a soft kiss to the hinge of your jaw.
“I’m- I’m wearing makeup on my neck.” He pulls back enough to look at you, his brow quirked. “You left a few marks the other night. I had to cover them up.”
The sly grin that spreads across his face is less than subtle. His thumb presses firmly to your neck, where he still holds your nape. “Might wanna go easy on swimming.”
“Waterproof,” you smirk.
“Gotta love science,” he dips back down to press a lingering kiss to your jaw. “Where?”
Your shaky hand slides between you. You tap the curve of your shoulder. “Here,” you tilt your head back. “Here,” you brush the apple of your throat. “Here,” you trail your fingertips to several places along your collarbones.
His warm breath tickles your throat as he chuckles, finding great amusement in marking you up. “Don’t want daddy to see,” he pulls back, releasing his grip on your nape.
You roll your eyes, arching into his touch as his fingers press into your side. “Shut up.”
“Do you remember what I said?”
You frown. “What?”
“Where's my room?”
“Oh-” you smack your lips, smiling awkwardly. “Nope.”
“First one to the right when you go down the main steps.” He repeats. “Repeat it back.”
You shiver under his authoritative tone. “First one to the right.”
“What staircase?” He lifts a brow.
“Main one, the main stairs.” You swallow.
He gives you a pleased smile. “Good girl,” he whispers, leaning down to brush his lips over yours.
You lean into it, but he’s gone too soon. He steps back, leaving you cold and panting. You frown at him as he picks up your towel. “Dinners starting. Don’t wanna keep them waiting.”
You wrap the towel around yourself and nod, wiping a hand down your flushed face. Before you can get another word out, Bucky’s already leaving the room.
You stare at him go, trying desperately to catch your breath.
You find yourself at Bucky’s door late into the night.
Dinner was lengthy, shared over drinks and laughter, and plans for the next day. After the meal was finished, everyone took their desserts- scoops of ice cream- to the deck to stare at the stars.
Out on the ocean the stars burned brighter. For the first time in your life, you could really count the constellations.
Your father and his friends poured over generous amounts of beer, listening to music and shouting with laughter.
You and Nat stayed to yourselves, watching and snickering at your dad as he got more and more drunk.
When the night finally came to an end, you felt more awake than ever. You spent the entire night dodging looks from Bucky- hoping to keep your composure.
And now, freshly showered and changed, you stood outside his door. Praying he wasn’t asleep.
You knocked gently on the door, your knuckles thudding softly.
With little to no shame, you leaned in and listened for any signs of life. You waited, barely breathing, but heard nothing. You started to doubt yourself, when you finally caught the sound of the bathroom door clicking.
The door swung open in front of you, revealing Bucky, messily toweling his hair dry. Your gaze travels down his body, to the dark blue boxers being all that clothed him.
A large hand slips around your wrist, tugging you inside. “Standin’ in the hall isn’t exactly secretive,” He chuckles, closing the door behind you.
“Right,” You whisper, peeking around him into his room. You blow out an impressed whistle. “Damn, my dad was serious about the rooms. We got the short end of the stick.”
You step further into the room, to the full sized bed and spacious bathroom.
Plush cream carpet, smooth cherry wood accented walls, polished marble crowning, warm glowing lights. Three towering windows peaked out to the dark blue ocean. By the doors to the hall and bathroom sat a cushioned sofa, where Bucky’s suitcase lived.
Rough hands settle on your hips, a thumb slipping beneath your shirt. Your stomach tenses as stubble drags over the tender flesh behind your ear.
“Maybe don’t mention your dad while you’re in here,” he chuckles throatily, the sound vibrating gently into your skull.
You nod shakily, leaning back into his firm chest. “Right,” you whisper.
His warmth sinks through the thin fabric of your top.
“Did you have fun tonight, baby?” He drags a soft kiss along the side of your neck.
“Mhm, lots.” You sigh, tilting your head back for him.
“Excited for tomorrow?” He presses his lips beneath the curve of your jaw, inhaling deeply. You shiver, your lashes fluttering closed. “Gonna go swimmin’?”
You nod, rolling your head back against his shoulder. He nuzzles his nose into your hair, smelling your conditioner. “Yeah,” you swallow. “Gonna go diving. What about you? ‘Re you gonna fish with you-know-who?”
He slaps your ass playfully, chuckling into your hair. “Watch it.” You press back into him with a sigh, a smile curling at your lips.
“Oops.”
His fingers slip beneath your shirt, his palm pressing into you as he brushes your stomach. “Bring up you-know-who again and Imma fuckin’ gag you,” he huffs, dragging his finger tips along the hem of your bra.
You groan, pushing your hips back against him. “Don’t tempt me.”
He shakes his head at you, pulling his hands from your shirt. He pushes you forward by the hips until you’re in the center of the room. You look back at him with a frown, swaying on your feet unsteadily.
Bucky sits down on the edge of the bed, his knees spread naturally. “Look at me,” he tilts his head at you.
You turn to face him, but before you can move any further, he shakes his head.
“I wanna see how good you listen,” he smirks, looking up at you through dark lashes.
You breath hitches in your chest, like your lungs are slowly being pressed down on by something stronger. Something big. “Okay,” you whisper.
He gives you a pleased look. He slides his hand down his thigh. Your gaze drops to his underwear. To the tent, steadily forming.
“Eyes on me sweetheart,” He chuckles, making you jump. Your eyes snap back to his. “Get undressed.”
You shiver, nodding shakily as you yank your top off. You nearly trip over yourself as you tug your pants off, tossing them somewhere across the room. “This too?” You breathlessly gesture at yourself, your underwear.
“Mm-mm. Not yet.” He smiles. “C’mere,” he holds his hands out to you.
You step between his spread knees, your hands falling to his shoulders. His rough hands slide down your body, along the dip of your waist, over the curve of your ass. You arch into his touch, a flush rushes up your neck as you stare down at him.
He leans forward, holding your gaze as he presses a gentle kiss to your stomach. His palms curl around the backs of your thighs, his fingers pressing firmly into the soft flesh. He tilts his head up, dragging a soft kiss along the swell of your breasts.
His hands slide back up, over your shoulders. He pushes the straps back. “Now?” You whisper into the quiet air between you.
He smirks, his stubble casting a dark shadow into his smile lines. He nods, watching with his lip between his teeth as you unlatch the clasp. You drop the flimsy material to the carpet.
A warm flush burns behind your skin as you inhale a shaky breath, standing before him bare.
“Hm,” he hums softly, his large hands sliding up your stomach to gently palm your breasts. “So pretty, baby.” He presses a soft kiss to your nipple, his thumb circling the other one.
You shiver, your fingers tangling in his hair. “Yeah?”
“Mhm,” he swipes his tongue over the soft point. His sharp stubble drags over the tender underside of your breast. “Prettiest.”
You sink your teeth into your tongue, forcing yourself to stay quiet. Something about the quiet way he nips at your chest makes you feel breathless. Embarrassed.
“Bucky…” You pant, swallowing around your dry tongue.
“Want somethin’, baby?” he smiles as he rolls your nipple between his teeth. “Speak up.”
You tug gently on his hair. “I don’t know what I want…”
He lifts his head, a smirk curled deeply on his face. “Yeah,” he whispers, his hand cupping your jaw. His thumb brushes over your bottom lip, pulling at it gently. “But you know what to do.”
You nod into his touch, sucking his thumb into your mouth. He makes a pleased sound. You slowly sink to your knees, your tongue swirling around the rough pad of his finger. He presses down on your tongue, watching the way your jaw drops.
He watches you, something dark in his eyes. Like he was seeing something you couldn’t. “‘S that feel good? Havin’ something in your mouth?”
You nod, your lashes fluttering as you lean into his large hand. “Mhm…”
His smirk twists into a dark grin, something pleased spreading across his face. He pulls his thumb from your mouth, then wipes it on your cheek. He pushes his fingers back into your hair. Your wet lips press together as your struggle for air. You blink up at him, something hot and slick pooling in your stomach.
“Show me you know how to be good.” He whispers, his nails scratching at your scalp.
You drop your head to his thigh, choking on an aroused gasp. God, you can’t catch your breath. He chuckles at you, gently petting your hair.
“Too much, baby?” He hums, his lips press together as he coos down at you.
“No- no,” you shake your head, swallowing around the lump in your throat.
“Then do as you’re told,” the command is firm, but his sweet tone softens the blow. You shiver and nod obediently, fluttering your eyes open from where your cheek is pressed to his thigh.
You pant softly, your hot breath ghosting over the aching tent in his boxers, inches from your face. You nuzzle forward, dragging your lips over his erection.
Bucky sighs above you, spurring you on.
You press a firm kiss to the shaft, his heat radiating through the fabric. You drag your tongue over the wet spot where the cloth stuck to the head. His fingers tighten in your hair.
“Such a tease,” he chuckles, shaking your head with his firm fist in your hair.
“Can I?” You whisper, your voice muffled from where you nuzzle into his bulge.
“‘F course, baby. Go ahead.” His thumb traces circles into your scalp.
Trembling hands slip under the waistband, tugging down until he lifts his hips. Your breath hitches when you free his aching erection, the length bobbing subtly, flushed a warm color.
You lean forward, sliding your tongue along the thick vein along the underside of his cock. Bucky’s abdomen visibly tenses. He huffs above you, but says nothing.
You press another soft kiss to his tip, precum staining your lips as you pull back. You glance up at him, cold blue eyes meeting yours. Your lips twitch into a cheeky smile as they wrap around the head.
His brows twitch together, his jaw clenching tight as he exhales a shuddering breath.
You suckle gently, your tongue swirling around the head before pressing into his slit. His lashes flutter as he forces himself to keep his eyes on you.
“I was right,” he whispers, using his grip on your hair to guide your head down further. “You look good with your mouth full.”
You hum, hollowing your cheeks on the way down. Bucky’s eyes roll shut, his hips gently rocking into your face. Your throat spasms around him when he presses too far, but he doesn’t seem to care.
You let your eyes fall closed, relaxing yourself as he guides you. You let him take what he wants. The dull ache in your jaw spreads, the tingle in your scalp burns as he yanks at the strands.
But you take it.
A moan falls from Bucky’s lips, the sound rough in his chest. He pants softly, rocking his hips up.
“Takin’ it so good, baby. Just like I knew you would.” He grunts, his stomach twitching as the muscles flutter. “‘Bet you take everything so well. So good for me.”
You moan around his cock, swallowing as he rolls his hips into your mouth. He chokes on a groan, his hips stuttering until he’s pressed to the back of your throat. Your throat spasms again, a wet sound falling from your lips as you struggle to breathe.
Bucky holds you there, his grip on your hair tugging gently as he forces you to kiss his pelvis.
He watches you with a satisfied smirk as you struggle, your eyes rolling shut. “‘Look so cute like this,” he hums, tilting his head. “All full and obedient.”
You choke, your head instinctively pushing back against his hand. Your nails scrape down his inner thighs. You gag quietly, sucking in thin wisps of air around his cock. But you don’t fight him.
Deep down you like it.
Deep down, you burn hot with shame as you press your thighs closer together.
Bucky finally pulls you back up, until only half his length rests against your tongue. You gasp greedily, your mouth falling open. You swallow around his tip, trying to gather yourself. Bucky rolls his hips, fucking his tongue over the slick expanse of your tongue.
You blink up at him, tears blurring your vision.
He grins down at you, his tongue swiping over the points of his teeth.
You watch the muscles in his stomach flutter, twitching as he drags his cock over your tongue. You pant, holding your mouth open for him as he takes what he wants.
You slowly push a trembling hand between your thighs, your fingers pressing against the soaked center of your panties.
Bucky makes a displeased noise from above you, and then he’s yanking you off his cock, a sharp tingling spreading through your scalp. You hiss, your shoulders bunching up.
“So greedy,” he whispers as he kicks your hand away from your thighs.
“Please…” You choke, wiping your tear stains on your shoulder. “Please.”
His expression easily morphs back to something pleased. Something dark. “You wanna show me how good you are, don’t you?” You nod eagerly. “Then wait to do as you’re told.” He whispers, nudging your knees apart with his foot.
“Bucky-” you whine, your lashes fluttering shut as he rubs circles into your throbbing scalp.
“Shh,” he whispers, pulling his hand from your hair. “C’mere.” He gently pats his thigh. You slowly climb into his lap and slide your arms around his shoulders. He strokes a warm hand down your naked back, following the curve. He pinches your chin gently, guiding you to look at him.
“So pretty,” he mutters.
You huff quietly, leaning in to kiss him. He hums against your lips, stifling a chuckle as you take what you want. His fingers curl around your knees as he lifts you up, but you barely register it. You're too busy rutting your hips against his, sucking softly on his tongue.
He moans into your mouth, his hard cock pressed firmly between your bodies. Your stomach twists as the slick head nudges your stomach.
“Bucky,” you whisper. “Please just touch me-”
“I am touching you, baby.” He whispers, gently pressing you against the window. You huff quietly as the cold glass shocks your system. “Just relax, okay?” His palm slides down your thigh until he finds your panties. “I’ll make you feel good.”
You gasp as his fingers press over the soaked fabric sticking to your pussy. He slips his fingers beneath the thin waistband, his callouses rough against your sensitive skin.
“Yeah?” You gasp, grinding into the heel of his palm as his thumb slides through your folds. “You’re gonna-” you swallow around the choked sound that rises when Bucky pushes a finger inside your slick cunt. “You’re gonna take good care of me?”
“Mhm,” he hums, slipping another thick finger inside. “That’s right. ‘Can’t wait to fuck you to tears.” he whispers, curling his fingers against your fluttering walls.
You groan, your nails scraping down Bucky’s nape. “Oh god…”
“Shh,” he kisses your cheekbone gently, nudging your head back against the window. “Just look outside, isn’t the water pretty? Hm?”
Your lashes flutter as you press your hips against his, rolling against his aching erection. His fingers twitch inside you as he gasps, slick precum sticking to your stomach.
“I didn’t say keep your mouth shut, I asked you a question,” he whispers, his stubble burning against your cheek. “Isn’t the water pretty?”
You nod quickly, swallowing around the lump in your throat. “Yes- sorry, yes.”
He smiles against your jaw, his breath tickling against your flesh. “Good girl.” He pulls his slick hand from your panties and wraps his large fingers around his throbbing erection. You suck in a shaky breath as you look down between you, watching as Bucky pumps his cock.
His flushed tip peaks through his fist, his slit dribbling precum before he swipes his thumb over the head. He squeezes on the upstroke, soft groans tumbling from his lips.
You watch as Bucky yanks aside your panties, thumbing at your pretty pussy. You gulp, shifting against him as he nudges you with the head of his cock.
“Greedy little thing,” he chuckles, rolling his hips into yours. You choke on a whine as he slowly fills you, his thick length stretching you open.
At some point, your eyes flutter closed, your body humming with electricity as you slowly sink down on his cock. He groans into your neck, his hands gripping you close.
Something about the firm snap of his hips against yours, the mind numbing pleasure, the choked sounds Bucky makes, it all swirls together into a mess of ecstasy.
You lose yourself in the feeling, clinging to Bucky as he fucks you into the window. Outside, the world is silent, gentle waves rocking against the yacht. Outside that room, the world was oblivious to the degrading way Bucky fucked you.
Oblivious to the way you gave yourself over to him. To the humiliating way he whispered in your ear, quietly laughing at every embarrassing sound you made.
In the back of your mind you knew this was wrong. That this was dangerous. That if your father found out, you would drown in your own shame.
But you ignored that little voice in your head. Because you didn’t care. You didn’t care about the age gap, or the humiliation, or the danger. You didn’t care because it just felt so fucking good to sink down on Bucky’s cock as he whispered filth in your ear.
It felt good to pathetically beg for him to take you harder.
It felt good to let go and sob as he fucked you so hard you saw stars.
Bucky’s rough hands slide over the curve of your ass, his fingers pressing bruises into the tender flesh of your thighs. Your sweaty back presses into the cold window, the chill like heaven on your skin.
Bucky rolls his hips into yours, each thrust knocking you up the wall. He chuckles into your throat as you whine, his teeth nipping at your jaw. “‘S that feel good, baby?”
You gasp, his cock punching something tender in your stomach. “Fuck-” you whine. You knock your head back against the window, panting softly.
Bucky hooks his arms under the crooks of your knees, spreading you open for him to torment. “‘You like gettin fucked like a whore on daddy’s boat?” His tongue swipes over his lips. “Huh? ‘S it make you feel dirty?”
You choke on a sob, your eyes fluttering shut. “Bucky-” you whine.
He chuckles, dragging his tongue along your throat. “Hm? Tell me, sweetheart.”
You pant softly, sinking down on his cock. Bucky unloops a hand from your leg and slithers between you, his fingers pressing over your lower stomach. Your eyes roll back as Bucky groans into your hair. He slides his palm firmly over your lower stomach, feeling his own cock move inside you.
You roll your head back, your tear stained cheek pressed to the cold glass. Your lashes flutter against the fog your breath casts. Beyond the mind numbing pleasure, you registered the dark roll of the ocean, moonlight reflecting off the surface.
“You still in there, sweetheart?” He snickers, chewing at your earlobe. You shudder, rolling your hips against his. “Try to focus, baby.” he whispers.
You roll your head back to look at him, your fingers curling in his dark hair. A flush rises up his neck, painting his skin a warm color. His lips part around muffled groans, his brows furrowed. Blue eyes watch you with intensity, almost too much.
You shudder in humiliation, gasping quietly as Bucky pets his fingers down your stomach, his thumb brushing over your clit. “You’re so cute when you’re fucked stupid,” he grins lazily.
He swipes a stray overwhelmed tear from your cheek, then sucks it off his thumb.
You rock your hips into his, the coil in your stomach twisting tighter. Desperation flares in your chest as your second orgasm draws closer, just within reach.
“I-I can’t-” you whimper, locking your ankles tighter around his waist.
Bucky coos, his heavy hand petting down the side of your face. “It’s okay baby, it’s okay.” He whispers. He peppers gentle kisses against your lips, his facial hair scratching your soft skin. “You’re okay,” he slowly pumps his cock into your soaked cunt, each roll of his hips rendering himself breathless.
He pants into your mouth, his tongue pressing into yours.
“You’re doin’ so good for me, sweetheart.” He whispers, palming your breast between you. You sob against his lips, pressing closer to him as you whine. He chuckles, dragging a soft kiss against the corner of your lips. “Shh, gotta stay quiet. Don’t want anyone to hear.”
You nod helplessly against him, squirming as he slows his thrusts. “I’ll be quiet, I’ll be good- I promise…” you whisper.
“That’s right,” he smiles, grinding his cock into your cunt. “Be a good girl for me and keep quiet. Wanna keep you all to myself, can’t have daddy hear his little girl sobbing over my cock.”
You choke on a moan, your stomach clenching at his words. Your walls flutter around him, making his hips stutter. “Jesus-” you gasp, rolling your head back into the window. “Please just fuck me-”
He snickers, his arms curling back under your knees as he pulls you away from the window. “I’ll take care of you, baby.” He carefully lays you back on his bed, then pushes your arms up over your head. “You just need to be a good girl and take it.”
He snaps his hips forward, catching you off guard. You make a punched out noise as he presses your wrists into the blankets and fucks you into the mattress.
He licks over your lips as you pant, jaw slack. You press your heels into his lower back, pulling him closer.
“That’s it, just take it.”
“Get your ass up, James, we’re going fishing!” The door rattled heavily under the beat of your fathers fist.
You startled awake, your eyes snapping open. Bucky flinched on top of you, his head snapping up from where he was nuzzled into your neck. You twitch, blinking groggily against the sunlight streaming through the window.
Bucky’s large hands skate down your naked body, his palm resting against your ass.
The door rattles again, your father knocking repeatedly. “We're in the middle of the ocean, get off your ass!”
“I’m comin’!” Bucky shouts, wiping a hand down his face. “Let me get up, asshole.”
Your father laughs heartily as he walks down the hall. Bucky drops his head back against your chest, his lips grazing your collar bone. He sighs, grumbling as he curls his arms back around your body. You grunt as he pulls you close, rolling almost on top of you.
You squirm, exhaustion settling deep in your bones. Your leg shifts where it's thrown over Bucky’s hip, your arms stretch over his shoulders.
Bucky yawns as he rubs his face against your shoulder, his stubble stinging your sensitive flesh. “G’morning…”
You swallow, your nails raking down his spine. “Morning, handsome.”
You feel him smile against your neck, a soft chuckle vibrating from his chest to yours. He pushes up, leaning over you with a lazy grin. He strokes your side, his fingers dancing over your breast to slide up your jaw. “Aren’t you pretty,” he hums, leaning down to peck your lips.
You tilt up into him, your lips dragging over his tenderly. A soft blush flushes your skin, staining you with your own embarrassment. When he pulls back you finally get a good look at him, with his messy bed head and soft blue eyes, crows feet curling at the corners as he smiles.
Words are lost on you for a moment.
A knock cuts through the silence again, thumping against the door. “I’m making breakfast, are you coming up? The girls are still asleep, so it’ll just be us and the guys.” Your dad must be making his rounds, waking up his friends, since he circled back.
You flinch again, cringing quietly. Bucky bites back a smile as he pushes his fingers into your hair, raking back the tangled strands. You involuntarily lean into his hand, purring beneath his firm touch.
“If you’re not getting up, I’m waking up the girls and you’ll be the only one left out.” Your father grumbles from the hall.
You flinch, your body going rigid. “How am I getting out of here?” You whisper, dragging your nails down his chest.
Bucky winces, his fingers pressing into your nape. “Jesus, man, I’m coming- pull the stick outta your ass,” he shouts over his shoulder, leaning up a little further.
You shamelessly peak down between your bodies, ogling the muscles in his abdomen as they tense.
“Alright, alright, then I’m going up. Wake up the girls when you’re done, okay?”
“Fine,” Bucky responds, listening for footsteps. When he finally turns back, he catches you staring down at him. A sly smirk slips across his lips. “Eyes are up here, doll.”
Your gaze snaps up to his, suppressing a smile with your teeth. “Oops.”
He shakes his head at you with mock exasperation. He clicks his tongue at you. “Nasty girl,” he snickers, diving down to sink his teeth into your shoulder. You giggle, choking on a gasp.
“Hey- I don’t want to bruise!” You squirm, stifling your laughter in his hair.
He soothes over the bite with his tongue, licking gently over his teeth marks. “You’re already painting half your body with makeup, what's a few more?”
You tug at his hair. “It makes my life a whole lot harder,” you laugh.
He rolls his eyes playfully, leaning back over you. “Fine, but you should have reminded me last night,” he hums, kissing over your purpling hickeys. “I count two more, today.”
You groan, twisting beneath Bucky. “Jesus- my neck is off limits now.” You huff, covering your face with your hands.
“Mm-mm,” he shakes his head. “Nope, not happening. I like that part.”
You roll your eyes, grinning to yourself. “Shut up-”
He snickers, shifting between your legs. The sheets fall by your feet as he sits back on his ankles, your thighs spread over his. You shudder, instinctively reaching to cover yourself. Bucky catches your squirming hands, his hand wrapping around your wrists.
“Ah-ah,” he grins, sliding a palm down your thigh, over your hip bone. “I like lookin’ at you.” He holds your wrists to your lower stomach. “I haven’t gotten to do that enough.” He mutters, his gaze wandering over your exposed body.
“Bucky-” you pant, your cheeks heated in embarrassment. “We should- we have to go, my dad’s gonna come down to find us-”
He smiles shamelessly at your subtly squirm. His palm strokes over the notch of your hip, over the dip of your waist, along the underside of your breast.
“Shouldn’t be mentioning him in here, remember?” He clicks his tongue in disapproval. “Especially not when you're naked in my bed.”
You groan, tugging against the hold he has on your wrists. “You brought him up like a thousand times last night-”
He snickers at you, leaning down to lick a kiss into your mouth. You groan, tilting your chin up into him. He smirks, finally releasing your wrists.
“Alright, fine.” He huffs, pulling back. You swallow a disappointed sigh as he rolls out of bed. You watch him as he finds his suitcase where it's propped on a small sofa. He digs through it until he finds his boxers.
You sigh as you watch them slide over the curve of his ass, shielding him from your prying gaze. He glances back at you, a grin curling at the corners of his lips.
“Perv,” he tugs out a shirt and tosses it to you.
You yank it over your head, shielding yourself. “You’re one to talk.”
You crawl out of bed, picking your clothes up piece by piece.
“That’s for sure,” he mutters, staring at you ass as the shirt rides up when you bend.
You straighten quickly, tugging the hem down. “You’re definitely the perv.” You chuckle, moving towards the door. “An old perv.”
He smacks your ass as he follows you to the door, making you jump. “Shut your mouth,” he huffs, leaning down to press a kiss to your shoulder. You lean back against him, swallowing a sigh.
He nips at your jaw, his fingers tickling your hip. You roll your head back against his shoulder. “I should go…”
“Mhm, you should.” He whispers, pecking a dark bruise along your neck.
You clench your teeth and pull out of his grip. “I should,” you blink through your haze. Without looking back, you creak open the door and peek down the hall. “It’s clear,” you whisper, turning back to him. “I’ll see you at breakfast?”
He nods, stroking his knuckles down your cheek. “Mhm, sounds good.” He leans down and kisses you. You sigh against his mouth, rocking on your heels. “I’ll see you then, sweet girl.” He whispers against your lips.
You shiver, pulling back. “Mhm,” you yank the door open and slip into the hall, breathless.
When you finally get back to your room, Natasha is there waiting- already in her bikini and lacy cover-up. When you turn to face her, wearing only Bucky’s shirt and a handful of bruises, she grins.
“You better tell me every last fucking detail.” She drops her phone. “But only after you shower and clean all of him off of you-” she waves a hand at you.
You choke on a laugh. “For sure,” you drop your clothes. “And trust me-” you glance back at her, a hand on the bathroom doorknob. “There’s a lot of him on me.”
She grimaces, shaking her head at you. “Disgusting, get in there.”
You snicker and shut yourself in the bathroom. You make quick work of your shower after catching a glimpse of yourself in the mirror; hair knotted to all hell, neck littered in hickeys and love bites, lips swollen and flushed.
By the time you were clean and dressed in your bathing suit, Natasha was nearly asleep with boredom. And by the time you were finished telling her about your long, long, night of sexual escapades, you were starving.
“Can-” you spoke through laughter, “can we please go to breakfast now?”
Nat sighs from where she’s spread out on her bed. “Fine- I can imagine you're fucking starved after all-” she gestures between your legs. “That.”
“Jesus,” you roll your eyes, grabbing your bag of sunblock and towels. “Let's go, once we eat we can go swimming.” You bounce your shoulders in excitement.
Natasha follows you into the hall, smacking your ass as you climb the stairs. “You just wanna get out there so you can see him.”
“Shut it, I don’t want anyone to hear you,” you shove her with your bag. She shrugs as she leads you into the first level cabin.
“Whatever.”
The kitchen smells of bacon and toast when you both finally enter. You find your step-mother smacking a piece of bacon from your dads hand while they quietly bicker about his health.
“Eat some eggs first- you know what the doctor said about your cholesterol.” She huffs, hands on her hips.
Your dad peaks over his wife's shoulder and spots you, relief flooding his expression. “Hon, thank god, come here and let her fret over your health.” He gestures to your step-mom.
You roll your eyes and lean against the counter, plucking the bacon from your dads hand. “Don’t think I’m on your side,” you take a bite. “Eat some fruit or something- did you chop the fruit?” You ask Claire. She nods, turning back to your dad. “See, she even chopped you fruit.” You tsk.
Natasha busies herself with filling glasses with juice and iced coffee. “I don’t think you’re gonna win this one, Mr. L/n.”
You snicker, grabbing your bag to follow Nat. “Just eat your breakfast, dad, then you can go fish, or whatever.”
You step out onto the deck, squinting as the first rays of sunlight hit your skin. The rest of the men stand by the steps leading into the ocean, leaning against the railing as they sip on their coffee.
You snag a large chunk of watermelon off the large table that stretches across the sundeck, littered with plates of food. You pop it in your mouth, humming as the juice spreads over your tongue.
Your wandering gaze flickers over to where Bucky leans over the railing to get a view of fish swimming past. You look away quickly as your dad steps outside, fishing gear in hand.
“Can you get my back?” Natasha shakes her sunscreen at you.
You swallow hard and snag the bottle from her hand. “Turn,” you flick the cap open.
As the sun climbs higher, you find yourself distracted by the beautiful open ocean.
You laugh over breakfast on the deck- fruit, pastries, and maybe something savory- then both you and Nat stretch out, feeling the warmth of the morning sun sink into your skin.
As the first sheen of sweat begins to stick to your skin, you drag Nat from her cushioned lounge chair. Your step-mother films you both as you dive off the stern, splashing into icy water. You release an undignified shriek when you pierce the surface, a chill zips down your spine.
Natasha curses, shivering as she rakes her hair back.
You laugh like kids, splashing and floating along the surface- only taking strides back to the stern when the waves pull you out.
The sea is refreshing, cradling you in its endless embrace. Around you, the yacht bobs gently, anchored on open water with no one else in sight. The water is unbelievably clear, glowing turquoise near the surface and fading to a deep sapphire below. Sunlight dances on the waves like scattered glass.
A soft breeze brushes your shoulders, the sun warms your face. Your laughter carries across the water, mixing with the sound of waves against the hull and a distant seagull’s cry.
When you get tired, you lounge on the floating mat tethered to the back of the boat, bobbing gently, talking about anything and everything.
You stare up at the blue, cloudless sky, Natasha's voice mixing with the sounds of waves, and gentle music floating from the deck speakers.
Above you, you hear your father shouting laughter with his friends.
You abandon Natasha on the float as you roll back into the water, finding your own blow up to aid you as you flutter your feet.
You glance up to find sharp blue eyes tracking you.
Bucky leans against the yacht railing, watching you with a smirk as he sips from his beer. You try not to writhe beneath his weighted gaze. Try to focus on swimming with your friend, enjoying the sun, and snacking on fruit.
But something about that smirk, those sharp blue eyes, the grays spotting his hair. God, he set you on fire.
Your dad was busy on the other side of the boat, patiently struggling with the fish. He decided to fish at a distance for safety reasons, of course, as you and Nat swam.
But you were more thankful because it gave you the ability to freely stare at Bucky.
Natasha floats, her chunky sunglasses protecting her eyes. “If something tries to bite me, please stab it.”
“Thanks for the reminder, I’ll just get my harpoon.” You chuckle, leaning over your float as you gently kick your legs.
“Just put your man on watch,” Nat slides her sunglasses up.
You flinch, sending a splash her way. She snickers quietly, steering her float further out. You glance back up to find Bucky still watching you, his head tilted slightly.
You can barely remember your original plans for this trip. Probably soaking in the sun, reading on the deck, and dancing to overly loud music before bed. But now, all you want to do is huddle up in Bucky’s room and drool on his cock.
You slowly swim over to the stern, only a few feet away from where Bucky stands. “Gonna get in, or ‘re you just gonna stare?”
He takes a slow swig of his beer. “I’m feelin’ pretty good just staring.”
You bite back a grin. “Creep.”
He lifts a brow, a slow smirk spreading across his lips. “Watch it.”
“Why? Whatcha gonna do?” You rest your head against the gently bobbing deck, salt water sticking to your skin.
Just as he opens his mouth to respond, your father shouts his name from across the boat. He sighs, shrugging. “Just keep guessing.” He mutters, pushing off the railing.
You huff in disappointment as you're figuratively blue balled by your dad.
“You’re a dirty freak,” Natasha shouts from where she’s floating.
You snicker, pushing off from the dock. “Oh, I know.”
The sun has just dipped below the horizon, leaving behind a sky streaked with soft orange and pink. The ship is anchored in calm water, and warm lights glow along the deck. Dinner has just wrapped up- plates pushed aside, half-eaten desserts, and cocktails still in hand. The smell of grilled seafood and lemon lingers in the air.
“Bullshit!” You slap your cards down on the table, groaning loudly. “This game sucks.”
“You need to learn to play poker, hun.” Your dad chuckles, peeking at his cards before picking at his plate.
“Sorry I don’t have thirty years of experience.” You huff, sitting back in your seat.
Bruce glances over Everett’s shoulder at his cards. “I’m with your kid, pick a new game.” He mutters, squinting at his little deck. Everett elbows the man in the side.
Bucky chuckles at the men as they bicker, his gaze shifting to yours over his cards.
“I’ve been trying to teach you for years, hon. You never wanna come over for game nights,” your dad complains around his mouthful of food.
You roll your eyes. “Because your game nights are game nights. I don’t wanna sit there while you and your boys shout at the tv. Besides, I’m usually working.” You laugh, picking a cherry from your cocktail.
“I thought restaurant schedules were flexible!” He crossed his arms.
You chuckled, sipping from your fruity drink as the gentle breeze rocked through the air. “They are, but you still have to request your days off.”
“You’re a server?” Bucky’s voice cuts through the lighthearted banter, making your stomach drop. He takes a long swig of beer, watching you over the bottle.
You swallow, a flush rising up your neck as you nod. “Mhm, for two years. Nat and I work together.”
“Do you like it?” He tilts his head, his usually intense gaze softer now as he watches you.
You shrug, your gaze nervously darting away from his. “I do, kinda.”
“I keep telling her to go back to school, but I think she’s too scared.” Your dad butts in.
You flinch, your wide eyes snapping to your father. “Dad, that is not true-”
“Kinda is,” Natasha mutters from behind you, where she’s picking through dinner in the kitchen.
“Quit eavesdropping and just join the conversation like a normal person, please.” You shout, avoiding Bucky’s gaze as he watches you.
“So you never went to school, or you left school?” Bucky asks, resting his beer bottle against his inner thigh. You intentionally force yourself to not look at the delicious way he man-spreads.
“I dropped out-” you cringe, blinking up at him.
“She panicked.”
“Dad-” you groan.
“What? You did- you had a whole thing and dropped out. It’s normal,” he shrugs.
You turn back to Bucky, his patient gaze making you flush. “I didn’t have a whole thing, I just wasn’t sure if I was going down the right path. Now can we stop talking about college? I left so I didn’t have to think about it.”
Bucky smiles gently at the frown that curls at the corner of your lips. “It’s fine,” he chuckles. “There’s nothing wrong with rethinking things.”
You glance back up at him through your lashes, chewing at your cheek. “Yeah?”
He nods silently, tilting his head at you, like he wants to hear more.
“Well-” you swallow, “I like what I’m doing now. So that’s what matters.”
“Hey,” your dad throws up his hands. “I never said that was a bad thing. I just think it’s never too late to go for a degree.”
You roll your eyes at him, downing the rest of your drink. You couldn’t say his insistence was wrong. He came from an experienced point of view- he spent years on his degree, then climbed the corporate ladder until he got where he was. And where he was, was on his own yacht.
It wasn’t a bad deal.
It just wasn’t for you.
“Your age is for exploring new things,” Bucky shrugs at you, sipping his drink.
You lift a subtle brow at him, your stomach turning. “Oh yeah?”
“Mhm,” he nods, smothering his smirk. “I tried all sorts of things when I was your age.” He rolls his neck, wincing when it pops.
Your dad groans, waving his hand at Bucky. “Don’t encourage her- nothing you got up to is something I want her exploring.”
You have to press your lips to a thin line to keep yourself from laughing. Something vaguely smug flashes behind Bucky’s eyes. He tosses his hands up in defense.
You dad smacks a kiss to the top of your head, his arm looped around Claire's waist. “Goodnight, honey.” He sings, following his wife inside. You wave, watching them go.
Dinner and games led into drinks, which led to your dad singing on a table. And after an awful three songs, your step mother dragged him off to bed. Everyone retreated inside after that, as the sun sank below the earth, submerging the ocean in a chill.
But you stayed.
So, curled up on the sofa, you stare out at the sea. It's difficult to tell where the water ends and the sky begins, without the bright sun casting its rays.
But the cold moon illuminates the night with a silver glow, making the waves sparkle like stars.
The water is darker than you thought possible- inky, deep, and alive in its own way. Sometimes it’s perfectly still, like black glass. Other times it ripples with silver where the moonlight touches it. Fish darts just below the surface, like shadows scattering.
A gentle breeze rustles your hair, racing shivers down your spine as you pull your knees to your chest. You listen to the soft waves rock against the hull in a gentle rhythm. Like the sea was breathing, beating like a heart.
A thin blanket drops around your shoulders, making you jump. You look to the right to find Bucky rounding the couch, then plop down beside you.
“Hey,” you pull the blanket around your body, shielding your skin from the chill.
“Hi,” he smiles, propping his arm up behind you. You blink at him for a nervous moment, feeling at a loss for words every time you’re alone with him. He just sighs, his fingers brushing your cheek to tuck your hair behind your ear.
You gulp, hugging your knees tighter to your chest. You instinctively glance back to the cabin, where a single light glows in the kitchen. “Someone could see…” You whisper.
“They’re all in bed. Natasha’s the only one roaming the kitchen,” he hums without tearing his gaze from your face.
“Are you sure?” You glance back up at him, your cheeks dusting a warm pink as his knuckle strokes your jaw.
“Mhm, I had to help Claire tuck your dad in.” He chuckles softly.
You chew at your lip, nodding faintly. “Ah.”
“Not ready to turn in yet?” he tilts his head at you.
You shrug, looking back out at the water. “Nah, I wanted to look at the stars for a bit. My favorite part of being on a boat is seeing the sky at night.”
“Oh yeah?” He tilts his head back to look up at the moon. “It’s pretty.” He mutters quietly.
You take a second to stare at his profile, quiet except for the gentle waves. “Mhm.”
“I was lookin’ forward to this trip for the same reason.” He counts the brightest stars. “Sure wasn’t expecting you, though.” He glances at you with a smile.
You huff, looking away from him. “That’s for sure.” You shook your head. “How did you two even meet?”
“I met your dad when I was movin’ into the neighborhood,” he chuckles, his fingers playing with your hair. “He came by and invited me for a barbeque.” You listened silently, shivering when he lightly scratched your scalp. “He started tellin’ me how he wanted to get in shape, so I invited him to join me on my jogs before work. That was about three years ago, now.”
You roll your head to look at him, biting back a smirk. “Speaking of work, my dad lives in a nice ass neighborhood. What do you do?”
“Mechanical engineer,” he hums, his gaze tracing your features.
You gape at him, shaking your head lightly. “Jesus, so you design machines, and stuff?”
“Mechanical systems.” He nods. “Trains, mostly,” his thumb grazes your nape.
“Damn,” you whisper, self consciousness prickling at your skin.
“It’s nothin’ special.” He tilts his head at you. “Tell me about you.” His blunt words make you shiver.
“You heard earlier that I’m a server,” you huff, looking out at the water. “There’s not much else I’m doing…”
“I doubt that,” He makes a face, his lips slightly pouty. He leans in, pressing into your space. “Tell me more,” he whispers, brushing his palm over your hair. “I wanna know.”
Your breath hitches in your chest. You glance back at the cabin in paranoia. “Bucky-” He gently pushes you until you rest on your back, your knees bent.
Bucky leans over you, tenderly brushing the hair from your face. “What?” He whispers, pressing a kiss to your collarbone. “I only know one way to open you up.” He kisses between your breasts, his lips trailing over your bikini top to your stomach. “Tell me more.”
You swallow, your legs making way for his body as he trails down to your hips. “I um-” You stammer, glancing down at him as he unties your bathing suit bottoms.
“Tell me about college,” he tugs the last tie free, letting your bottoms fall open. You suck in a tight breath, your knees instinctively wanting to close. He nudges them open.
“I dropped out,” you gulp, dropping your head back against the cushions.
“Why?” He presses a soft kiss to your core, his stubble making your shiver.
“I didn’t know what was doing-” He spreads you open with two fingers. “I didn’t even know if I liked what I was studying anymore-” you gasp when he licks a stripe from your cunt to your clit with the flat of his tongue. “And I was just sick of school…”
“Mhm,” he hums, stroking his tongue through your folds. “So what do you want?” He mutters against you.
“I don’t-” Your lashes flutter as he sucks gently on your clit. “I don’t know-” you gasp. “I like serving, for now…”
“Why do they think you’re scared?” Bucky’s voice is muffled as he kisses your soaked entrance.
“Because I am- a little…” You try to roll your hips into him, but he keeps you pinned down. This is his game. “I’m scared I’ll choose the wrong path and it’ll be too late. Or that I’ll realize down the line-” His tongue dips into your soaked cunt, fluttering slowly. You groan quietly. “-Realize down the line that I wanna do something else,” you continue breathlessly.
“Mm,” he hums quietly. He releases your clit from his lips, pulling back with a slick pop. “There’s no ‘too late,’ sweetheart. You can always change your mind about things,” he looks up at you, watching your face as he strokes circles over your clit with his thumb. “Use this time to explore different jobs,” he kisses your inner thigh gently. “Then go back to school.”
You nod shakily. “Yeah,” you pant. “Yeah, that’s what I was thinking…maybe I’ll just start with taking a few classes…”
“There you go,” he whispers, pressing a wet kiss to your pussy. You pant as he strokes his tongue through your folds, dipping inside your entrance, then humming against your clit.
Your hands find his hair, needily tugging at the strands as he continues his slow pace, and eager interrogation. You answer every small question about yourself, eyes closed and toes curled. You feel him smile against you, like a cheeky bastard.
When your thighs finally twitch around his head, from where he folded your legs over his shoulders, he slides his hand up to cover your mouth.
You cling to his arm, panting roughly against his palm as he silences you. Your orgasm washes over you silently, sparks flying behind your vision. Bucky guides you through it, sucking on your clit with gentle pressure.
When you’re finally too sensitive to continue, he presses a soft kiss to your cunt, then pulls back. You’re left gasping for breath, staring at the sparkling sky.
Bucky chuckles to himself as he sits up, carefully tying your bottoms back up. He leans back against the couch, rolling his neck as he drags your legs to rest over his lap. You shiver when you hear the man lick his lips.
“This is fucking crazy…” You huff, a lazy grin on your lips.
“I know,” he chuckles, tracing slow lines along your knee.
You swallow around your heavy tongue. “Think it’s a bad idea?”
He shrugs, his thumb rubbing over an old scar on your thigh. “I don’t really care.”
“Me neither...” You snicker.
From the moment you roll out of bed, the day starts bathed in warmth. It feels like summer as a child, unhurried, with excitement hanging around every corner.
Natasha left you at breakfast, reading on the bridge-deck with her headphones in. You didn’t mind, though, since your dad made it clear he wanted to spend the day with you.
So as the sun climbs higher in the sky, your dad drags two paddle boards down from their mounts, and begs you to follow him into the water.
You launch from the stern with a splash of enthusiasm, your bodies slick with sunscreen as you straddle the boards. The boards glide easily over the surface, and soon it’s just the two of you, standing tall, paddles dipping rhythmically into the sea.
You paddle side by side, sometimes drifting apart, then regrouping. There's light conversation and long stretches of companionable silence- just the sound of the paddles in the water and the occasional seabird overhead.
At one point your dad loses balance and topples into the depths. He doesn’t allow you to laugh for long, though, when he tips your board and forces you to fall in after him.
Later, you both take a break, lying flat on your boards, drifting under the sun, arms trailing in the cool water. You talk about old vacations, future plans, and share quiet thoughts that only seem to come out when the world slows down.
Eventually, you head back toward the yacht, feeling sun-warmed and a little tired in the best way. Bruce helps your dad load the boards back onto the ship while you go to find Nat for food.
Cold drinks and a light dinner wait on the deck- fresh fruit, grilled skewers, and icy bubbling drinks.
When you finally sink into a seat on the bridge deck, a towel hugging your body, your stomach is rolling with hunger. Loud voices chatter over one another as everyone joins the table.
You feel a warm tingle at the base of your spine when Bucky pulls out the seat beside you. He’s distracted in bickering conversation with Bruce, throwing sarcastic remarks back and forth.
You can’t even tell if he meant to sit beside you.
“Honestly, the best part of this trip is the food- our kitchen back home still smells like charcoal from the last time Y/n tried to cook.” Natasha snickers, loading up her plate.
“Okay-” You roll your eyes. “I burnt something one time and you won’t let it go.”
“I don’t know, I’m with Natty on this one,” your father grins, biting grilled shrimp from his skewer. “Remember when you torched Claire's new pans when you visited for thanksgiving last year?”
Your eyes bulge from your head. “That wasn’t even me!” You argue, looking at your stepmother. “And I apologized for that-”
Your words die on your tongue as Bucky’s deep laughter drifts beside you. The low timber of the sound makes your skin feel heated.
“Sure it wasn’t you, man?” Everett squints from the end of the table. “You always find someone else to blame when your barbeques go awry.”
Your father scoffs dramatically. You tune out of the conversation as you watch Bucky take a long swig from his beer in your peripheral. Natasha watches you two with a smug look. You suck in a sharp breath, steadying yourself.
“I’m telling you, dad’s the one that ruined those pans.” You force a laugh, stifling a shiver as Bucky lowers his drink to the table, the back of his hand nudging yours.
“Maybe the both of you can’t cook.” Bucky suggests, looking to Claire for evidence. She nods with a cheeky smile.
You barely hear it. Bucky presses his glass bottle against your knuckles. You swallow, your stomach turning as you slip your fingers around the glass. The perspiration feels slick against your palm.
You watch your father bicker with his friends as you carefully pull Bucky’s beer from his hand. You take a slow swig, your stomach turning at the absurdity of how dangerous this feels.
You swallow the cold liquid, your tongue swiping over the rim when you spill a drop. Bucky’s knee presses to yours beneath the table, the pressure steady and heavy.
Your free hand slips beneath the table to tug at his swim trunks, as a warning or plea, you don’t know. He doesn't retract his knee. In fact, he presses closer, sitting up a little further in his seat to pick at some fruit.
“If I can’t cook, it’s because of dad.” You chime in finally, setting the beer back on the glossed table.
Bucky easily plays nonchalant, barely acknowledging your fingers' gentle trail along his thigh.
Your father rolls his eyes with a groan, waving his hand dismissively. “Yeah, yeah.”
You chuckle, finally dragging food onto your plate. You withdraw your hand and let your towel drop behind you, salt still scenting your skin.
As dinner continues, the sun finally dips just below the horizon, casting a warm afterglow across the deck. Lanterns and soft string lights flicker to life above the dining table, and a gentle breeze carries the scent of the sea mixed with grilled herbs and citrus.
Everyone’s gathered around the table on the aft deck- sun-kissed and slightly salty from the day’s swimming and laughter.
As cool air settles over the ocean, your father suggests settling in for a movie in the lounge. A murmur of agreement spreads through the table, and soon everyone’s rising. You take one last long sip from your fruity drink and stand.
“I’m gonna use the bathroom, but I’ll meet you in there,” you mutter to Nat, letting her take your towel as she heads inside.
The nearest bathroom is on the upper deck, so you jog upstairs and go about your business. After drying your hands, you barely crack the door open before someone’s pushing inside.
“What-” You stumble back, your words fizzling to silence once Bucky clicks the door shut behind him. “Oh-” you whisper, gasping quietly as his hands slide down your waist.
“Hi, sweetheart,” he mutters, lifting you onto the polished counter. Your knees fall open on instinct as he steps into your space. Your head spins from his sudden actions. “Did ya have fun today?” He leans in, carefully pushing your wet hair back.
“Uh-” You gasp, barely able to catch your breath as Bucky drags a soft kiss over your lips. You sigh into him, squirming beneath needy hands. “I did-” you roll your head back against the mirror, your fingers pressing into the firm muscle of his shoulders.
He smiles, dragging his knuckles down your waist. “Mhm?” He drags you closer to the edge of the counter, pulling your body against his. You groan as Bucky presses his hips forward, the tent in his shorts dragging over your inner thigh.
“Jesus-” You whine, submitting to the rough kiss he plants on your lips.
You barely saw him throughout the day, busy swimming and indulging in the open waters. You could barely catch your breath enough to ask what had gotten him so worked up.
You pant into Bucky’s mouth, sucking his tongue into yours. Your wandering hands slide down his stomach. You slip a hand into his trunks.
“Fuck-” he groans, his forehead knocking to yours as you wrap your fingers around his erection.
“Yeah?” You swallow, swiping a drop of precum from his flushed tip.
He rolls his hips into your hand, pressing bruising kisses to your lips. “C’mon,” he pants, urging you to continue.
You greedily fist his cock, squeezing on the upstroke, his slick head leaking against your palm. He moans against your lips, dragging you closer to the edge of the counter. You swallow his choked sounds as you stroke his throbbing length.
He huffs, dropping his head to your shoulder. “That’s it,” he groans, his fists white knuckling the counter. “Just like that-”
“Yeah?” You whisper, your warm breath fanning his flushed ear. You pull your hand out for a second, spit in your palm, then slip back into his pants. He sinks his teeth into your shoulder to muffle his aroused whine, his cock twitching as his abs flutter.
Your spit slicked palm slides back over his erection, your thumb digging gently into his slit.
“Fuck-” he groans, his hips twitching into your fist. “We don’t have much time-”
“I know,” you gasp, fisting the swollen head of his cock. “I’ve got you, James.” You whisper, biting back a laugh when Bucky chokes.
“Shit-” he presses his nails into your hip.
He lifts his head, moaning into your mouth as he smothers you in a kiss. You nip gently at his lip, stroking your tongue over his. He swallows a choked whine as you roll your thumb over his tip. You pump his cock in quick strokes, maintaining a steady pace as his length twitches.
His stomach clenches as the coil twists tight. He groans against your tongue as he spills over your knuckles, rutting his hips into your fist. You continue to slowly stroke his twitching cock, spreading his cum over the length.
He sighs in contentment, his lashes fluttering as you guide him into familiar overstimulation. He whines against your lips, his breath hitching as he rides the wave into pain.
You only release him when his hips instinctually twitch back.
You pull your hand from his pants, your searching gaze finding his. He blinks up at you, licking over his lips as he leans back enough to see you.
“‘Did so good,” he whispers, dragging his knuckles down your cheek. You smile pleasantly, leaning back against the mirror.
“Yeah?” You wipe your hand off on the embroidered towel hanging from the wall.
“Mhm,” he pecks your jaw gently. He pulls back after a second of peppering kisses along your neck. You watch him yank the small towel down to clean himself up. “Thank you,” he whispers against your lips, dropping a gentle kiss to them.
You shiver, arching into him needly. “No problem…”
He drops the hand towel into the trash by the toilet. His calloused fingers slide around your waist, his arms locking around your back. You stare up at him silently for a moment, your urgency dying as you settle in his hold.
“What got you so worked up?” You whisper, your cheeks dusting pink as he strokes your spine with practiced ease. As if this was normal. As if this was something he could get used to.
“You look good walking away,” he mutters with a smirk.
You roll your eyes, dropping your head to his shoulder in embarrassment. “There's no way we’re not getting caught…”
“Not with that attitude,” he chuckles, lifting you off the counter. He sets you back on the ground, slowly releasing you. You sigh, pulling back from him. With only a hint of shame, you turn your back to him and wash your hands again.
He watches you fondly in the mirror, though you don’t notice, too busy trying to hide your face.
“You go out first,” he tells you, nodding to the door.
You slip out of the bathroom and make your way unsteadily towards the lounge. Everyone seems to still be settling in when you get there, arguing over snacks and movie choices.
You sink onto a sofa beside Nat, curling beneath the blanket. Natasha stares holes into the side of your head, a sly smirk twitching at her lip.
“Are you serious?” She whispers into your hair.
You roll your lip between your teeth, watching as Bucky enters the room silently. He glances at you once before settling beside Bruce on the sofa parallel to yours.
“Don’t.” You huff, embarrassed by your own depraved actions.
“Jesus, you’re barely gonna be walking by the time we dock.” She whispers, nudging you roughly.
You whip your head to the side, wordlessly telling her to shut up. She snickers at you as the movie begins.
The next night you find yourself back at Bucky’s door.
After a long day of lazing in the sun, you feel bone tired and relaxed. But that didn’t stop the itch beneath your skin, like a craving. You felt his eyes on you throughout the day, careful and watching. You felt the weight, the unspoken words.
You watched him from the sun deck, where you lounged with a sunscreen stained book, as he dived off the stern of the ship. You watched the muscles ripple in his back as he took long strokes.
You watched the water drip and collect in the dips of his muscles, streaking down his chest. You couldn’t help but feel like a dirty voyeur. But every time he looked up and caught your gaze, you knew he thrived beneath your watchful eye.
So now you stand in the hall, knocking gently at his door.
And when he finally opens the door and pulls you inside, you know you’re in for it.
“Fuck-” you sob, your spine arching off the bed as you writhe in overstimulation. You yank helplessly at dark locks of hair, your thighs twitching around Bucky’s head. “I can’t- I can’t…” You gasp, tears sliding down your cheeks.
You don’t know how much time has passed. It doesn’t matter. You’re lost in him.
Bucky groans throatily between your legs, his tongue lazily stroking over your clit. His rough hands press gently over your lower stomach, his large arms locked around your thighs.
Your nails drag roughly over his scalp. Your feet kick helplessly over the man's shoulders. “Please-” you tremble, your hips squirming against the sheets.
Bucky laughs at you, making you sob harder, as he sucks softly on your clit.
Your eyes roll back as he drags another torturous orgasm out of you. Your toes curl so tight your leg starts to cramp. You nearly choke as your lungs refuse to expand, too breathless, too lost. “Bucky please-”
Bucky finally pulls back with a slick pop, his hot breath coasting over your sensitive core as he catches his breath. “Keep still, sweetheart.”
You shudder, your eyes rolling open as you blink down at him. Your whole body tremors beneath his touch, goosebumps trailing over your skin. “Bucky-” you pant, your fingers tight around locks of his hair.
He chuckles at your loss of words, his lips dragging carefully over your inner thigh. “You’re doin’ such a good job, baby.” He whispers, his tongue soothing over old bitemarks.
You shake your head helplessly, letting it roll back against the pillows. “I can’t take any more…” Your voice is raw and dry, rough from smothering your own moans for the past several hours.
“Mm,” he hums, gently kissing your cunt. “I think you can.”
You sob, your thighs clenching in an attempt to close around his head. He pets a large hand over your stomach, the touch traveling down your hip and thigh.
His finger taps your hip, wordlessly telling you to look at him. You blink through tears, staring down at him. “Do you need to stop?” His warm blue eyes stare straight through you. “‘F it’s too much, we can stop, doll.”
You groan throatily at his easy care, at the way he so sweetly takes care of you. You let his words sink in, but you already know your answer.
You shake your head.
“Words, sweetheart.” He whispers.
Your stomach flutters painfully. “I’m okay,” your voice cracks.
Bucky smiles up at you, his large palm stroking over your stomach in appreciation. “That’s my girl,” he kisses your thigh.
You choke on an overwhelmed sob, your trembling hands tightening in his hair.
He taps your thigh slowly. “Open,” his tone is soothing, but carries a commanding undertone. You slowly let your thighs loosen up from where they clench around his shoulders. “Keep your eyes on me, okay?”
You nod, shakily wiping tears from your cheek.
“Words, baby.”
“Okay,” you choke.
Bucky smirks and lowers his head once more, his tongue making slow work of circling your cunt, before dipping inside. You make a broken sound as your walls flutter around him, your stomach clenching pitifully.
Your vision blurs as you obediently watch him, tears slipping down your cheeks when he looks up to meet your gaze. He smirks against your pussy, his lips wrapping around your clit to gently suck.
Your spine arches as your body begs for reprieve, but you know there’s no end in sight.
Bucky’s determined to drag you through orgasm after orgasm, his tongue dragging lazily through your sensitive folds.
He seems at home, happily indulging in you, listening to your broken sounds. He grinds his aching cock into the mattress, his hips rolling in slow circles as rolls his tongue over your cunt.
You lose yourself in the feeling, your heels dig into his back, his lips drag sloppy kisses over your core.
You’ve never felt this way before. So worshiped. So devoured. You’ve never felt so helpless to pleasure.
But Bucky makes you feel it. He guides you through it. He takes you apart, piece by piece, until there's nothing left. Nothing but your stuttering breath and trembling body.
And to your deep shock, he seems just as lost as you. His fingers press bruises into your skin as he clings to you. Rough, throaty sounds rumble in his chest, spilling out between slow licks. His stubble scrapes deliciously against your sensitive flesh, sharp and slick at the same time.
You watch him through blurry vision, your jaw loose as you whimper. You know you need to be quiet. You know you have to keep this secret. But you just can’t.
You’re aching, trembling, and so deeply overwhelmed.
It’s the kind of sensitivity that hurts and throbs but you just can’t stop.
Even when your body is screaming at you that you can’t go on. You make room for it, because you’ve never felt anything like this.
You’ve never felt so fucking alive.
As Bucky guides you through another quivering orgasm, you start to see stars spot your vision. Bucky finally pulls back with a slick smack of his lips- the sound makes tears slide down your cheeks. From humiliation or arousal, you don’t know.
Bucky slowly climbs up your body, caging you in. You shudder when he leans down, dragging his tongue over your cheek to lick up your tears. You let him, your eyes rolling back as you sigh.
“You did so well, sweet girl,” he whispers, peppering gentle kisses to the curve of your cheek bone. His strong hands stroke up your outer thighs in a comforting motion. “You always take it so well for me, don’t you?”
You whine, tilting your head up to kiss him. He smiled against your lips, pulling back just slightly.
“I asked you something,” he whispers.
You shiver and nod your head. “Yeah- yes…” your voice cracks, dry and rough.
He grins, finally capturing your lips in a messy kiss. You moan quietly, tasting yourself on his tongue.
Bucky presses his hips forward, his cock dragging over your slick center. You gasp, your eyes fluttering open to meet his. “If you’re too tired, I can take care of myself,” he mutters, his knuckles tracing lines down your jaw.
You blink, dumbfounded. “That was all foreplay?”
Bucky snickers silently at the look on your face. “Mhm,” he pecks a kiss to your drying tear streaks. “Why don’t you just lay back and watch? Hm? I don’t wanna overwork you,” his pecks your jaw.
You shake your head stubbornly, your tongue swiping over your dry lips. He pulls back to look at you, brow raised. “I-I want to.” You pant, sucking in thin gasps. Your trembling legs slowly wrap around his waist, your ankles locking. “I wanna take care of you too.”
Bucky groans shamelessly, his head dropping to your shoulder. You stroke your nails down his spine, trying to gather yourself. You feel like jelly. You feel broken. You feel healed.
You feel so good, you could pass out.
Cold blue moonlight streams from the window, flickering against the black ocean. Bucky plants a soft kiss on your shoulder, and when he raises his head, the light makes his eyes shine silver.
“Okay,” he whispers, his thumb brushing your bottom lip. “Just lay back, baby,” his lips curl in a familiar smile. “I’ll make you feel good.”
And he makes good on his promise.
He always does.
When he finally sinks into you, his hips pressed to yours, you struggle to breathe. You barely hold back overwhelmed tears as he gently grinds into you.
Bucky holds you close, almost intimately, as his arms wrap around you. He pins you in place, his hands petting you as he silently rolls his hips into yours.
You make a punch out little sound when his cock pulls out, then sinks back in. Bucky shushes you, cooing as he pets your hair.
After that, everything becomes fuzzy. Blurry. A mess of tears and choked off moans, and delicious pleasure.
The next morning, Bucky wakes first.
He curls deeper around your body, clinging to your warmth as the pesky sunlight blinds him. He sighs heavily into your shoulder, already feeling the ache from last night sinking into his bones.
He buries his face a little deeper in your hair, smelling the salt that lingers.
He can’t help but smile to himself when you huff in your sleep.
Bucky eventually pulls back and rolls out of bed, stretching out his sore muscles. He tugs the sheets back over you, where you’re curled up in his bed.
When he checks the time, it’s nearly 11am.
He rakes his hair back and tugs something on. He’s quiet as he gets ready, letting you sleep. When he steps into the hall, he can already smell breakfast.
Climbing up to the deck, barefoot and still a little groggy, he’s met with a breeze that smells of salt and coffee. The sky is wide and impossibly blue, the ocean calm, stretching out like a silk sheet all around him. Someone’s already laid out breakfast on the table under the shade of the upper deck.
The food has lost its warmth by now, but he still builds up a hefty plate.
The coffee is strong and earthy, still steaming in its carafe, and someone’s poured fresh orange juice into thick glasses beaded with condensation.
The others are lounging nearby, barefoot, sun-kissed, quiet in that contented, slow-morning kind of way. A few pages of a discarded book flutter in the breeze. The water laps gently at the hull.
“Finally, you’re up-” your father huffs as he approaches Bucky, his hands waving. “The girls are still asleep,” he complains, “but I want to go diving.”
Bucky squints up at him, chuckling as he sips on his warm coffee. “Better ask Everette. I’m goin’ back to bed,” he mutters, already turning his back.
Your father groans at him, shaking his fist. “You have the entire ocean around you, and you’re choosing to sleep.”
“Mhm,” Bucky grins, already moving down the steps. “What can I say, these are nice beds.” He grins.
He listens to your father grumble behind him as he descends the stairs. He knows your dad’s a little right, that he’s wasting time indoors when he could be swimming.
But he’d rather go back to his room, where he’ll find you bathed in the warmth of his sheets.
He slips back into the room, shutting the door with a soft click. He finds you still out cold, curled around a pillow, your hair scattered and knotted. He sets the plate of foot on the nightstand, then crouches at your bedside.
He tilts his head at you, his fingers carefully brushing locks of tangled hair from your face. Your brows pinch together as you huff, pressing your face into the pillow. He carefully strokes your cheek, his thumb tapping against your chin.
Your eyes twitch open, squinting up at him.
“Morning,” he whispers.
He watches the moment recognition sparks, the moment your cheeks dust a soft pink. “Hey,” you swallow, your voice coming out rough.
“Brought breakfast,” he nods to the plate. “You hungry?”
You nod, the sheets ruffle against your cheek. Bucky’s lips twitch in a fond smile. He pulls his hand back and moves to sit on the edge of the bed. You roll back to make room for him, dragging the sheets with you.
You groan quietly, your body aching as you stretch. “Fuck…”
“Sore?” He smirks, grabbing his coffee.
You roll your eyes, pushing up to sit. Your lower back twinges, making you shiver. “You’re too smug,” you croak. Bucky holds his mug out to you, letting you take it. You take a slow sip, sighing as the warm liquid soothes its way down your throat.
Bucky shrugs, taking a dramatic bite of bacon. “Maybe.”
You chuckle, leaning closer to pick at the plate. “What time is it?” You pop a chunk of scrambled egg in your mouth.
Bucky glanced down at his phone. “11:27pm.” He reads. “Your friend’s still asleep, your dad thinks you're still passed out with her.”
You nod, stealing the bacon from his fingers. “She’s probably up, just covering for me. My dad won’t try to go and wake me up if he thinks she’s sleeping too.”
Bucky hums in understanding, tugging his mug of coffee from where it sat between your knees. “How sweet,” he smiles.
You lower your head, hiding your blush as you chew a square of fruit. “Mhm.”
Bucky watches you with a tilted head, aware of the effect he has on you. “Do you feel okay? Anything hurt?” His kind blue eyes trail down your body, still mostly hidden by the sheet.
“I’m fine,” you shake your head. “Sore, definitely, but fine.” You huff, rolling your shoulders. “The good kind of sore.”
He smiles, his crows feet curling at the corners of his eyes. “Mkay,” he mutters, reaching out to tuck your knotted hair behind your ear.
You gulp, your gaze flickering back down to the plate. Oddly enough, the sex is what comes easy to you. All the parts in between, the care, the conversations, the sweet way he handles you, that's what makes you nervous. What catches you off guard.
You still have no idea what you're doing.
“Is my dad expecting you- I don’t want him to-”
“It’s fine, I told him I was going back to bed.” He cuts you off, easily shrugging. He pushes the coffee back into your hand as he lifts off the bed. “We have time.”
You watch him move over to his pile of clothes on the small sofa. He pulls out a black shirt and tosses it to the mattress. He turns his back, as if wordlessly telling you to put it on. You obey, your stomach twisting in knots as you tug it over your head. When you pop your head through, you find your panties dangling from Bucky’s fingers.
Your face heats as you snatch them quickly. He snickers, his head still turned.
“So you’re making excuses to spend more time with me?” You attempt to tease him.
“Mhm,” Bucky turns back to face you, flopping onto the bed once you’re dressed. “Absolutely.”
“You’re trying to kill me, aren’t you?” You groan, wrapping your arms around your body. “I don’t think my body can take any more.”
He grins, the grays in his facial hair shadowed by his smile lines. “Don’t worry, sweetheart, I’ll leave you be.” He picks a chunk of watermelon from the plate. “For now.”
You use the mug of coffee to hide your blushing grin. “I think I’ve gotten laid more in this past week than I have in my entire life.”
Bucky laughs, wiping a hand down his face. “Jesus,” he groans, his free hand dropping to your bare ankle. “I’ll take that as a good thing.”
“Oh, for sure.” You lift a brow at him. “Not to feed your ego, or anything, but I don’t regret a thing.”
His cheeky grin softens slightly. “Good.”
You stare at him for a moment, your stomach fluttering with nervous butterflies. “So…” you clear your throat. “Two more days until we dock.” You roll your cheek between your teeth. “What now?”
Bucky rolls his head to the side, his knuckles sweeping up and down your bare leg. “Well, we have options.”
“Do tell,” you sip at the coffee.
Bucky rudely plucks the mug from your hand and sets it on the nightstand. You frown softly, your gaze finding his. He leans closer, looming into your space. “We could keep seeing each other,” he whispers, his lips ghosting over yours in a gentle kiss.
You smile into it, a giddy feeling swirling in your veins.
He slowly pulls back, his fingertips tracing a slow line down your cheek. “Or we could go our separate ways.” He hums, bright blue eyes flickering to yours. “What do you want?”
You gulp, your fists curling in the large shirt you wore. “Do you want to keep seeing me?”
He smiles, sweet and warm. “Of course I do, doll.” His words make you want to slap your hands over your face and giggle like a schoolgirl.
“Yeah?”
His lip rolls between his teeth, failing to suppress his smile. “Mhm.”
“Me too,” you confess, subconsciously leaning forward.
“Good,” he cups your cheek in his large hand. He pulls you into him, capturing your lips in a soft, but possessive kiss. You sigh into him, allowing him to guide you with a hand on your neck.
He pulls back slowly, leaving only a few inches between you.
“When we get home, I wanna take you out.” He mutters, his calloused fingers dragging down your jaw. You shiver. “For real.”
“Really?” You whisper, disbelief and nerves mixing together in your stomach.
“Oh yeah,” he nods. “‘Wanna see you all dressed up. Take you to dinner.” He kisses your jaw. “Fuck you in my bed,” his warm breath ghosts over your skin.
You swallow, your lashes fluttering shut. “Okay…”
He smiles, pecking your lips. “Okay.”
So for the first time in your life, you found yourself wishing for vacation to be over.
A/N: Hi....ahaha...just utter filth. I hope you guys like it, I had a lot of fun writing this version of Bucky. I love older man Bucky. Anyways, requests are always open. Comment and let me know what you think!
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