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“I won’t fail” Study of ‘Pietà’ by William-Adolphe Bouguereau This took so long chat ( 11h 35min with 17k strokes…)
since an anon requested nbc hannibal for free on google drive:
season one / season two / season three
Started Hannibal and it is ruining my life
Started Hannibal and it is ruining my life
Will’s vs. Hannibal’s Ways of Expressing Love
The fact that Hannibal loves Will and is in love with him is openly stated in the show several times. Will’s feelings, on the other hand, are more ambiguous, which is why some viewers often doubt whether Hannibal’s love is reciprocated. I think that exploring the ways these two men experience and react to love can explain the varying degrees of their openness about it.
I’ll put TLDR right here: Hannibal is more open about himself and his feelings, including love, hence he doesn’t have many challenges with admitting it. Will is closed off, stiff, and emotionally repressed, so he expresses his feelings in a much more subtle way.
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Feeling a lot of feelings about how Hadestown doesn't present the story as "Orpheus turned around and everything fell apart and there was nothing anyone could do to fix it" and instead presents a story that says "he turned around, he doubted, he failed, but if we keep telling his story maybe one day Orpheus won't" and it's not just about Orpheus as a single character, it's a bout every Orpheus, everyone who runs up against a system they can't change and fails and everyone who sees that failure and gets back up and says "maybe I can change it now" and tries again. That Orpheus failed isn't the takeaway of the story. The takeaway is that one day he might succeed.
thinking about hadestown as a story in which each character realizes both that they're in a time loop + that there is an audience observing them at different points throughout the show
there's this moment in if its true where it seems like orpheus is pleading with the audience to change how the story goes. eurydice knows this has happened before by come home with me reprise ("i can sing us home again" "no, you can't" "yes, i can" "no, you don't understand") but orpheus doesn't know until doubt comes in ("who am i to think that she would follow me into the cold and dark again?"). the gods are both observed and observing (hades and persephone and hermes all stand off to the side for most of the show when they aren't the main people in a scene); for hades and persephone, this happens year after year anyways without any kind of time loop narrative, but hermes is fully aware from the beginning of the narrative structure of the story, obviously.
persephone knows all along that she's being observed, but the amount she cares varies between actors (amber gray's persephone does not care that there's an audience; jewelle blackman's persephone is desperate for this story to be witnessed). hades never knows.
cause here's the thing! to know how it ends!! and still!!! begin!!!! to sing it again!!!!!
@perennii you understand me
[id: tag reading, in all caps "Hadestown is haunted send tweet."]
The fates are an interesting case in this. They know how it goes. And are actively forcing everyone else to stick to the plot, because that’s their job. When the other characters stray from the loop, the fates nudge em back on
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Let people grow.
When I was younger I was very right-wing. I mean…very right-wing. I won’t go into detail, because I’m very deeply ashamed of it, but whatever you’re imagining, it’s probably at least that bad. I’ve taken out a lot of pain on others; I’ve acted in ignorance and waved hate like a flag; I’ve said and did things that hurt a lot of people.
There are artefacts of my past selves online – some of which I’ve locked down and keep around to remind me of my past sins, some of which I’ve scrubbed out, some of which are out of my grasp. If I were ever to become famous, people could find shit on me that would turn your stomach.
But that’s not me anymore. I’ve learned so much in the last ten years. I’ve become more open to seeing things through others’ eyes, and reforged my anger to turn on those who harm others rather than on those who simply want to exist. I’ve learned patience and compassion. I’ve learned how to recognise my privileges and listen to others’ perspectives. I’ve learned to stand up for others, how to hear, how to help, how to correct myself. And I learned some startling shit about myself along the way – with all due irony, some of the things I used to lash out at others for are intrinsic parts of myself.
You wouldn’t know what I am now from what I was then. You wouldn’t know what I was then from what I am now.
It distresses me deeply to think of someone dredging up my dark, awful past and treating me as though that furiously hateful person is still me. It distresses me to see others dredging up the past for anyone who has made efforts to become a better person, out of some sick obsession with proving they’re “problematic.”
Purity culture tells you that once someone says or does something, they can never go back on it. That’s a goddamn lie. While it’s true that some remain unrepentant and never change their ways and continue to harm others, it’s important to allow everyone the chance to learn from their mistakes. Saying something ignorant isn’t murder. Please stop treating it that way. Let people grow.
Still call it out and question it ….
Bruh. No. Listen. Call out what people do now, absolutely. If they haven’t changed, call them out on their record. This post is explicitly not about people who HAVEN’T changed. What this post IS saying is, if someone is making an effort to be a good person, don’t go digging around in their past for evidence that they were once for what they’re now against, or once against what they’re now for, as “proof” of what they “really think,” because people’s opinions and beliefs can change.
The obsession with finding shit in someone’s past and then claiming that a questionable or even sordid past negates all possibility of a good present needs to become extinct. Gold-star activism and purity culture are bullshit and we need to collectively reject the fuck out of them.
If someone has changed for the better, don’t harass them about what they were like before they fuckin’ changed. That’s shitty and it needs to stop.
We can’t change the world if we decide people can’t change.
Gold-star activism and purity culture are bullshit and we need to collectively reject the fuck out of them.
We really need to start asking where this purity bullshit came from. I’m not Christian and was not raised Christian but there has been a lot evidence that much of gold star activism and purity culture originated in of evangelical youth movements and then infiltrated progressive left-wing and center-left politics when those youth left their churches but failed to leave behind the black-n-white puritanical “you’re going to hell if you stray one inch from the righteous path” style of thinking they were taught.
I distinctly remember some conversations I had in the late 00s and very early 2010s with long time social justice activists who were baffled and disturbed by the new crop of youth activists who were practicing something that was decidedly NOT social justice despite stealing that phrase from us.
In the decade and a half that has passed since then, all of this gold-star activism and purity culture has done exactly what I predicted back then: empowered the far-right while sowing division everywhere.
Folks. This shit needs to stop.
Introduction to my BackUp AU I'm working on
Basically, they managed to replace Caine with an AI that had been hidden away in the code, but it had been hidden for a reason
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God i hate this series but love this charcter
*slur* ✌️😜✌️
Lestat as a Trauma Survivor
The literary theory “The Vampire Chronicles” are most often examined with is Queer Theory… for obvious reasons. But I think it is just as relevant and important to examine the books/film/musical through the lens of Trauma Theory.
Imagine: becoming a vampire is symbolic of becoming a survivor of trauma.
Most of the characters have endured an intensely jarring and traumatic event immediately before they become vampires. Lestat and Nicolas are both abducted and abused by literal and figurative monsters. Gabriel is suffering a slow, painful, and terrifying death from tuberculosis (she may also have been abused in the past, possibly by Lestat’s father, as she does not like to be hugged or touched even by her own sons). Louis and Claudia have both endured the horrific death of a family member. Armand’s entire life has been one of child abuse and sexual slavery. After surviving this trauma, the characters are forever “changed.” They are dead but still alive, forced to go on despite their despair and emptiness, a metaphor which alone could describe the feelings and experiences of trauma survivors. This analogy of vampirism and trauma is particularly striking in “The Vampire Lestat.”
Lestat is abducted by a psychopathic serial killer, who has kidnapped and murdered dozens of young boys with blond hair and blue eyes and who has been stalking Lestat for months. The vampire, Magnus, forces Lestat to get drunk and then forces the “Dark Gift” upon him. Metaphorically, Magnus rapes him, as the act of drinking blood and, especially, turning someone into a vampire is explicitly equated with sex in the “vampire world.” Lestat repeatedly says “no” and begs Magnus not to do it, but Magnus ignores him and attacks him against his will.
The experience of becoming a vampire is painful and terrifying but also physically pleasureful, and Lestat is ashamed of the pleasure he feels when Magnus assaults him. Lestat is then abandoned by his abuser and left weeping, confused, frightened, and traumatized. He is ashamed of what he has become. He fears he will be damned, even though he has not done anything wrong, as Magnus has perpetrated this violent act against his will. He begs God for forgiveness, even though he admits he is not sure why he feels he needs to be forgiven. He spends the rest of the night crying and longing to be his “old self” again, before Magnus did this to him. Yet, at the same time, becoming a vampire makes him feel “detached” from his emotions and from reality.
All of this is disturbingly reminiscent of the experiences of survivors of sexual trauma.
Magnus, too, is characterized like a sexual predator. Even as he hurts and violates Lestat, he speaks to him gently and affectionately, caressing, cradling, and kissing him, calling him “perfect” and “beautiful.” Lestat, too, has confusing feelings about Magnus. He initially hates and fears him, but, after he is attacked, he feels strangely as though he loves him, and he begs Magnus not to leave him alone. This is tragically realistic, as survivors of abuse and trauma often feel attached to, dependent on, and even in love with their abusers. Lestat mentions being confused by his own muddled feelings toward his attacker.
After he is attacked, Lestat feels as though he cannot return to his actual love and lover, Nicolas, even though he longs to be with him. He fears he will hurt Nicolas, but he is also ashamed of what he has become and what has happened to him, and he does not want Nicki to see him. Withdrawing from loved ones, especially intimate partners, is common after surviving sexual trauma.
Trauma, in “The Vampire Chronicles,” is merged with the supernatural, which creates a sense of surreality for the characters. When he is kidnapped by an inhuman being, Lestat initially wonders if he has lost his sanity and is hallucinating. At times, he feels as though it is all a nightmare and he will awaken from the terrible dream. The supernatural elements—the impossibility and horror of what is happening—helps to capture the incomprehensible nature of trauma, as trauma is so catastrophic, shocking, and overwhelming survivors are often left unable to make sense of what they have endured. The yearning but inability to understand their vampiric nature and to find peace in understanding torments many of the characters throughout “The Vampire Chronicles.”
There is much more to discuss about Trauma Theory and “The Vampire Chronicles,” but that is enough for one post. In my next post (whenever I get to it), I’ll focus on Louis and the trauma he endures in “Interview with the Vampire.”
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Realized I didn't post my Jayvik bookmarks here yet!