PizzaWombat

(23 l Transport l he/they) Half abandoned blog that sometimes churns out poetry now. And oh yeah I got cancelled once and still get harrassed. Affiliated accounts: @pizzawombatsshitpostblog @pizzawombatsbeejieblog

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Hello my darlings!! (Yes I'm speaking like Cruella DeVil for some reason now).

I decided to make it easier to find what I've written by making this Masterlist! :3

BeetleBoi x Reader

(Note: Reader is Genders Neutral)

Beetlejuice One Shots:

• Daffodils (SFW)

• Fluffy Comfort (warning: cringy) (SFW)

• Beejie's Hearty Panties (NSFW?)

Beetlejuice Prompts/Headcanons:

• Calling Beej "Law" (SFW)

• After sex cuddles (NSFW)

• Ukulele (SFW)

• Helicopter Dick (NSFW?)

• Beej's Hair Headcanons

• BJ's musical taste

• Bugman comforts his breather (SFW)

• Beejie Boi sees you clean his suit (NSFW)

• Little Bug Gets a Concussion :c (SFW)

• Flowers (SFW)

• Mario Mustache (SFW, potential to be NSFW)

Beetlejuice WIPs:

• My Fic Ideas

• I'm also working on one consisting of Beej getting a pet <3

Other Beetlejuice Related Stuff (bc finding stuff on this hellsite can be a huge pain in the ass)

• My Beetlejuice Pins!

• Cute Birthday present!

• Appreciation of the Bugman's Boobage (NSFW???)

Other Writing:

• Lil Rant of mine about why I don't write much/anymore

• Uh, a lil ficlet I wrote (triggering)

• Crappy Lyrics I wrote at 17

• Being canceled rant/cancel culture mini essay?

Masterlist for Stuff I find Useful:

TBA

Side Blogs:

@pizzawombatsshitpostblog

@pizzawombatsbeejieblog

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Oh yes. I fell in love with someone.

Turns out he was just using me.

He decided he no longer needed me and I am worthless trash.

He didn't even have a conversation with me. He just stood me up and blocked me everywhere one Saturday. Issue is no everyone around is blocking me too when I haven't even spoken to them, interacted or been close to their radar.

I had to ask his bff wtf happened or what, cus he didn't say shit.

Firts time spending holidays alone. So that was fun too.

Just getting used to the fact I am all alone and other humans hate me.

Basicslly, I am all alone with no prospects for the future. No talent, no money, no family, no community. And on top of that, everyone hates me and wants me gone.

Also yes, I have a therapist, but there isn't shit she can do to make people not harrass or bully me. So taking meds is all I have to cope.

That and I may also become an alcoholic just to get through the day on my own.

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At least I no longer believe no one cares about me.

Now i know some people actively want me gone? Irl too, not just some of the sadistic fucks here who ask me to die 🤷‍♂️

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I may come back to Tumblr for Mr. Adrian Allen Chase alone, that man has awoken something in me.

Don't worry, will make another blog just for him ♡

Pls don't follow me there if you are one of the peoole being assholes to me here

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I want out so fucking bad

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Surprised it's been more than 20mins since I last posted and I still haven't gotten a single anon message telling me to die.

Thats a record

Cmon guy, I'm bored I need to troll one if you again

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Imagine finding someone who loves me

The way I have loved you

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I don't want love

I don't want to adult

I just want to be a frog

And eat some bugs

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New title of rock album just dropped:

I wish I could be a Frog and not and Adult

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But then again its maybe that

The most fatal flaw he could have

For why would you want

The one, the one

The one who knows what he wants

And that someone's not you?

When that's all there is to that

Cause at the end of the day

He doesn't want you.

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It's like I can do no right

In other people's eyes

Now that my whole life

Seems to be falling apart

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I'm doing my best

But my best isn't enough

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I'm doing my best

But my best isn't enough

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Even now I still want to DM you and ask if I ever meant shit to you

But I know I never mattered enough for you to even bother answering that question

You would just leave me on read and roll your eyes at me

Get annoyed maybe and then forget about it.

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I hate that I never meant shit to you

I hate that I gave so much of myself trying to matter to you

To mean something to you

And nothing I did was ever good enough for you

I tried so hard being there for you

I tried supporting you, being your friend showing up for you

Listening to you

Checking up on you

Learning about and inquiring about you

And at the end of the day I am still left wondering if I ever meant anything to you

Knowing my absence will never affect you

Knowing you moved on like I never had any impact on you

It makes me feel meaningless

Nothing I do matters

I make no impact

I want to belong and to matter

People just use me and discard me when they're done.

When you would describe sex with your boyfriend. I wanted to be happy but it stung.

It reminded me I'm not wanted cause I will never have a p*nis

It reminded me how incomplete I am.

It reminded me even if you had wanted me I could have never satisfied you because I don't have the correct body parts.

It reminds me how other guys would reject me pre transition because my tits weren't big enough and I wasn't pretty enough.

Now I don't have the proper equipment and I feel like a shell of a human

I could have been the most perfect person and it still would have never been enough.

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Whenever I think I want to fuck

I just think of my crush

And that's enough to kill my funk

Cause I can't be his luv

UnU

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For context... and a bit of a love letter cause journaling also helps:

Having had a crush on a guy for 3 years now. Went from finding him super cute to getting closer to him, becoming friends and falling super hard for him as a person. And developing serious feelings beyond a silly crush.

Yes we are friends... I think

And yes he knows how I feel.

I told him.

He doesn't feel the same way.

Don't blame him. He can't help it.

You like who you like and you don't like who you don't like.

The emotioms run strong I need somewhere to express it before they eat me alive.

I like him so very much and it hurts. It just hurts.

I feel my heart shattered. Broken in two.

I have tried to move on and pretend I'm fine.

But I need to stop running and lying to myself.

Whenever I try to see or think of other people. Deep down I want them to be him.

And thats why I can't move on.

Is he perfect? No, but I love all his imperfections

Am I just infatuated? Perhaps but I do think I love him as a person.

I am in love with ever aspect of him. Even his little flaws.

I think he is just beautiful.

Not to sound cheesy but like a piece of art.

Of course I would never say that out loud. I don' want to creep him out and make him uncomfy?

I truly do care about him and his emotional well being.

I just wish he would love me the same way. See me the same way.

I have enough pride to want those feelings reciprocated!!!!

I have never been one to state what I wanted, being raised as a woman I was taught not to say what I want...

So its hard for me to admit it loud?

But I have to say it... what do I want?

I want you to be my boyfriend $^^#&@ (not saying his name here)

I want to kiss you and take care of you, to be there for you. Be your rock and have you know you can always rely on me.

Make you never feel alone and abandoned because you will always have me. Know that I will always be by your side and you will never loose my loyalty.

You can trust that I will defend you as other people shit talk you.

I will stabd up for you and defend your honor when you are not around.

I would willingly kiss you in public to show I don't care what others think because I love you and I think you are SO worth it.

We both have social anxiety. I want to be there to comfort you and hold your hand when you are stressed and think others are judging you.

When you don't know where to go from here.

You are scatterbrained like me and yet I want to be a supporr for you, remind you of things not because I think you are incapable but because I want to make life easier for you...

Yes I want to pamper you, fuck what ohers think.

You know Im in love with someone when instead of taking I give so much of myself so willingly.

I want to tell you daily how amazing you are, how smart and funny and handsome and dorky you are.

To hold you close and be able to snuggle you and spend time with you

To make you smile and make you laugh.

To be there when you're sad.

I tried holding onto rumors about you trying to placate my crush on you, but the more I get to know you and the more you prove those rumors wrong the more my feelings for you grow.

Who knew I could have feelings this strong?

I want to grow old with you and get to know you more and more.

I know you have things in your past you are not proud of but so do I.

And I am proud of how far you've come.

I love getting to know the person you are.

And I wish you were mine