Some thoughts on our flight home
Our boys have begun to travel like we do—carrying their own backpacks, taking charge of their things, learning to streamline what is needed, and not needed with the view of avoiding having check-in luggage unless really necessary. I was particularly grateful for the airport security staff who spoke to each of them in turn about their bags ('do you have a handphone, laptop, or iPad?') as they placed them in baskets before they passed through the bag scanner. That he didn't speak over their heads to ask us, their parents, directly, was important to me. I did laundry on two nights this trip but it was less because we needed clean clothes and more because I didn't want the stains to set—I brought a stain remover and used shampoo to get the stains out, but perhaps I'll bring detergent pods and a little brush next time.
I'd packed precisely what I had needed this trip, which is always satisfying for me, and it was definitely in no small part thanks to the weather being so agreeable.
I let go of my ten-year old Converses before we left our room. I have three other pairs of sneakers, but have always been partial to my Converses. I have gone through several pairs since being a teenager, and these particular ones have seen me through the past decade in which I became a wife and mother, and through this past year of intensive care medicine residency where I wore them almost everyday, even though the soles had all but lost their grip on the smooth hospital linoleum floors. Our last adventure was walking the 4.7km Igidae coastal path, and climbing up and over rocks during our spontaneous off-the-track detour (with me in a mini skirt, no less.) Truly the end of an era. Norman brought me to a Converse store at Shinsegae wanting to get me a new pair, but I couldn't bear the thought of simply replacing my weatherbeaten, yellowed, sewed-up ones. I don't see myself getting another pair of Converses anytime soon, and perhaps that's for the better. I might get more wear out of my other pairs of sneakers now.
I brought an old unread issue of apartamento along on this trip with me, one of the last few copies I had received when I was still on a subscription. I was too busy with work and home duties to read the magazine even biannually, and was racking up a backlog, so I cancelled my subscription maybe two years ago. I didn't have the time to read it at all, no surprise, from our days out and nights spent doing laundry and looking over our plan for the next day. But today I managed to read a little during our late breakfast, and now on the plane home (it's my turn to sit on my own while the boys sit with their father), the pleasure of reading my favourite magazine as returned, untouched by the years that have intervened, and anew.
One of the interviews was with Rose Wylie, a painter who is still working everyday, now, after her husband has passed away and her children have grown up and moved away. In it she is asked to reflect on the years she spent caring for her children—twenty-four years in all—in which she kept engaged with current work and discourse, and simply 'absorbed', but painted nothing for herself, until one day, she simply 'stopped reading and started doing' again, that is, painting. Twenty-four years sounds like such a long time to someone who has barely lived thirty six. It is a reminder that life is long and seasons are but seasons, and we might become friends with time by growing along with it, learning about ourselves, staying curious, paying attention, and keeping our friends.
I've finished reading #34!