lee

writer. all of my works has my username on it. my dms are always open.

[sxzxolee]

just incase if u want to know me well :3

about me 🌷

i'm someone who finds comfort in words—i love writing poems, prose, and short stories. it's where i can be most myself.

my hobbies include reading, sleeping (a lot), and going on little adventures whenever i feel like escaping routine.

yes… sleeping deserves to be mentioned twice—i'm proudly a sleepyhead.

i love taking pictures of sunsets, skies, nature, and anything cute or aesthetic—little moments that feel soft and beautiful.

i adore dogs, but deep down i’m more of a cat girly.

i'm half chinese and half filipina.

i'm approachable and easy to talk to, especially if you need someone to listen. i'm definitely more of a listener than a talker.

crowded places aren't really my thing, and i wouldn't call myself a social butterfly—but i'm friendly in my own quiet way.

i'm open to being friends with people of all genders. good vibes and genuine connections matter more to me than anything else.

music is a big part of my life—i love singing, and i play both electric and acoustic guitar. i also play the piano when the mood hits.

i love looking at the stars and the moon at night—it's when everything feels calm and a little magical.

i'm not a morning person at all—i'm a night owl, wide awake when the world is quiet, and asleep when the sun comes up.

i have a soft spot for all things pink—yes, i’m that kind of girly 💗

[sxzxolee]

Pride in Every Color

we rise together, bright and bold, stories of courage proudly told. every heart a unique light, shining free, shining bright. with love we stand, with love we grow, seeds of hope in every soul. this pride month let colors fly, celebrating truth under every sky.

[angelwingss111]

[littlesparkequeen]

[sxzxolee]

the real DISASTER!!!!

[sxzxolee]

"life doesn't get easier overnight. some days you're carrying burdens nobody sees, fighting battles nobody knows about, and still finding the strength to keep going. that's the quiet kind of courage people often overlook. so if you're struggling today, remember that surviving another day is already a victory worth being proud of."

[sxzxolee]

hi moots!!! let's interact

[sxzxolee]

detach and disappear.

[perfectquote]

“Your peace is more important than driving yourself crazy trying to understand why something happened the way it did. Let it go.”

— Mandy Hale

[quotefeeling]

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath

[su0l]

i was meant to love one person with my entire soul.

[unseenmonstermuse]

the intimacy of:

“someone waiting for you the whole day just to have a small conversation with you.”

[sxzxolee]

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[sxzxolee]

sometimes i think cannibalism isn't always about flesh and blood. sometimes it's emotional. sometimes it's loving someone so deeply that they slowly consume every soft part of you until there's nothing left. and the worst part is realizing you willingly handed those pieces over because you thought love meant sacrifice. you thought if you gave enough, stayed long enough, understood enough, maybe one day you'd finally be chosen the same way you chose them.

i wanted something real. something safe. something mutual. the kind of love where i didn't have to question my place in someone's life every single day. the kind of love i know i deserved from the beginning. but instead, i ended up trapped in something painfully one-sided, constantly pouring into a connection that only survived because i kept carrying it alone.

i kept making excuses for the inconsistency. i kept holding onto small moments like they meant more than they actually did. a little attention felt like hope. a few sweet words felt enough to keep me staying. meanwhile, i was starving emotionally, trying to convince myself that crumbs could somehow become a full meal if i just loved harder.

yearning changes people. it turns you into someone willing to accept almost-love because the fear of losing it feels worse than the pain of enduring it. and that's what destroyed me the most — not the absence of love, but the constant glimpse of it that was never truly mine to keep.

i gave patience, understanding, loyalty, softness, reassurance — everything i wished would be returned naturally. instead, i slowly watched myself disappear inside a connection that only took from me. my peace, my time, my emotions, my sense of self. loving like that feels like being eaten alive quietly.

and maybe some people only love being loved, never the person loving them.

i got tired of begging silently. tired of questioning my worth. tired of feeling unwanted in something that was supposed to make me feel cared for. love should never feel like constantly proving why you deserve to stay.

so i finally cut ties.

not because the feelings disappeared, but because i needed to save whatever was left of me before i lost myself completely.

[loveyladyfingers07]

[sxzxolee]

Between Prayer and You

your name still lingers after every prayer, soft as smoke beneath cathedral light. i loved you quietly, carefully there, like hiding daylight somewhere inside night.

your mother spoke of heaven, rules, and grace, while mine drew borders shaped by ancient fear. we stood like sinners wearing holy faces, pretending not to wish to disappear.

they taught us love should never cross the line, that faith and family must decide our fate. but every time your trembling hand found mine, the world outside the chapel had to wait.

so if forever keeps us far apart, i'll still keep your voice beneath my skin. some loves are written not to reach the stars— only to burn beautifully within.

[sxzxolee]

"autumn sounds like falling leaves, fading memories, and the kind of love that lingers long after goodbye."

[sxzxolee]

how do people find a boyfriend so easily here on Tumblr TT ^ TT while i'm just reblogging memes and crying in the tags 😭