learn to love again

Tabitha here; just another one of the Fabray sisters. I respond to Tabitha, no variants. Mother to Tallulah Fabray and always grateful Daniel Evans for being her father and my best friend. Lulah and I live in New York with my sisters and I attend NYU as a Women's Studies major. You can usually find me working at the day care, at home with my favorite girls, or indulging in the spoiling of my little princess. Currently taken...and no further questions about it thank you very much.

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Private → CeceTabs

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Tabitha, I love you. We were literally one entity at one point, it’s biologically impossible for me not to care about you on some level. So if you want to pursue happiness with…Hope, then have at it. You’re still my sister, I’ll still love you, etc.

I’d rather not discuss it further. You made your choice, I’m dealing with it, the end. 

[tabithasroses]

If it's "biologically impossible" for you not to care about me, then why does it feel exactly like that right now? How many times do I have to apologize for having feelings for both you and Hope at the same time? For not telling you sooner? I apologize. I'm sorry. I'll make sure you never run out of tapioca pudding or Pop Tarts. I'll let you take extra shifts at work or go on a lengthy internship if that's what you want. I must re-iterate: my feelings for you have not changed. I love you. I love Hope. Is that supposed to be wrong to want both of you romantically? 

Fine. I tried to explain myself and you obviously don't care. I opened up to you so many times when it's so painful for me to tap into that part of my brain and now you're throwing that...throwing me away. I made my choice to love both of you, to try and work it out and hope to pursue something with both of you, all cards and chips on the table, yet you're writing me off like the devil.

You once told me I wasn't anything like Russel, but I can see that was a lie.

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Private → CeceTabs

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There  are plenty of other people who would love to be an elephant/lion with you. How about Hope? Why don’t you two go be big, fat, peanut brained pachyderms together?

[tabithasroses]

Maybe there are but that doesn't change the fact that it wouldn't feel right without you there with me too! Cecelia Jean you take that back right now. Did it ever occur to you that I've been more than remorseful at the outcome of all of this? I'm sorry I didn't tell you myself about Hope and I when it all happened; I apologize profusely for that. But don't you for one moment think that diminishes my feelings for you. I'm still heavily confused about all of this. You obviously can tell how much more... in tune Hope is with her sensuality and flirtatiousness and I'm simply... not in most cases. I still think about you every day, Cecelia, and miss sharing tapioca pudding with you and our marathons of Doctor Who or your favorite medical shows. I miss holding you at night and trying to keep you from getting ready for your day so early. Yes, I am most definitely dating Hope, but my feelings for you didn't just simply disappear. They're still there, strong and burning, and I hate myself for not sorting out my emotions sooner.

Please, talk to me, Cece. I miss you.

[asipof-tea]

Well y’know the usual schemes with Cece, drowning in work - ooh and I’m planning a protest. Well it’s not official yet but its in the works. What about you Tabithaaaaa? How’s Lulah?

[tabithasroses]

I do hope it's a peaceful protest. I kind of don't want to bail anyone out of jail again. But I shall do my best to support you, whatever the cause may be. I have been planning this Disney World trip mostly, at least, in between finals and work. I think Lulah is getting pretty excited about the trip, actually.

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You could manage without me, surely.

[tabithasroses]

No I wouldn't. I'm appalled you think that way.

[asipof-tea]

It is actually very adorable Tabs. I am, very much so.

[tabithasroses]

If you say so. Besides eating your weight in gummy bears, what have you been up to, Téa? Should I be...alarmed?

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You can go be an elephant or lion then.

[tabithasroses]

... Where's the fun in that without you there?

[hopefabray]

Sun, Mickey Mouse and my favorite girls

[hopefabray]

I am pretty excited too.  What souvenirs made the list?  And you know we have to see Belle right?  I need a picture with Belle.  Jasmine would be good too.

[tabithasroses]

Mouse ears of course. We're going to see how much we like the princess wands there. Already bought cute cups and a swimsuit and beachy things for Lulah online; they came this week. I'm not sure what I want at the moment. Yes of course I have Belle listed! We will be visiting Tiana and Naveen, Ariel, Belle and Beast, Jasmine and Aladdin, and we'll be searching high and low for Pocahontas and Mulan. And since Maleficent was released, we'll be paying a visit to Aurora as well. Oh, and Merida. I hear good things about Merida.

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asipof-tea:

So when one’s spirits are low there is only one place of comfort I can recommend and that place cherished sisters is right here. I may or may not have been scrolling through there for the past hour whilst eating my weight in gummies.

What even am I looking at. It's actually pretty adorable. Good find there, Téa. Are you enjoying your...extensive stash then?

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It’s silly that people do actually go about mocking them; they’re a clever species and more intelligent than a large majority of the human population. 

[tabithasroses]

I guess they are but still, why would you want to be an animal? If you're going to be an animal, at least be an...elephant or a lion.

[hopefabray]

Sun, Mickey Mouse and my favorite girls

Nothing is better then that?

[tabithasroses]

Definitely nothing better. I am incredibly pumped and prepared for this. I have my list of souvenirs we must buy and characters we must take pictures with and spots we must visit... There is just too much I want to do.

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           Iwish we were all monkeys. Everything would be so much easier if we were monkeys.

[tabithasroses]

Why would you wish to be an animal that lives in a jungle and is constantly mocked?

[daphnevanessafabray]

So everyone geared up, Disney and Florida.

Everyone has made plans to leave early June right?

[tabithasroses]

Yes, that's about right. I'm making some last minute stuffing arrangements of clothes and things into our suitcases, but mostly we're ready. And one last writing assignment to turn in, but I've finished my finals thankfully.

[tabithasroses]

Sunshine in the Moonlight || HopeTabs

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Tagging: Hope and Tabitha Fabray

Date: May 3, 2014

Location: Undisclosed restaurant and art exhibit

General Notes: Tabitha plans a secret date for her and Hope, wanting to ‘wine and dine’ her Sunshine properly.

Warnings: Possible smut later on.

Hope just grinned having the perfect comeback in her opinion.  ”No I am just absolutely in love, this is what I am like when head of heels,” She countered amused and smirked a little.  She knew finally that she had an effect on Tabitha, if had taken a while to get to the point where her girlfriend could show it in her own way.  Hope had waited not just for sex but signs her affections were returned for longer then she had ever held out for sex since her teenage years, it may not of been the greatest comment on her character, but it spoke of her devotion to Tabitha she liked to think.

The dancer nodded and agreed with Tabitha’s assessment in the proper places, honestly she thought it was the right idea.  But, Tallulah with Tabitha’s daughter so Hope did her best to not make it seem like she was trying to hone in on her niece and decisions about her.  ”This is a nice excuse to be pressed up against you,” She hummed near her twin’s ear as they made their way through the subway station.  ”Of course My Heart,” She whispered back and part of her prayed for an old lady or something to come along so she could have an excuse to switch to Tabitha’s lap.

Tabitha:

It was still a magical kind of feeling to have Hope look at her longingly, or to hear the dancer's flirty comebacks. Tabitha wasn't too certain how to flirt back with her girlfriend since she found her attempts to be pitiful in comparison. At the very least, Tabitha was trying harder to match up with hope's speed in this regard. This date would be one of their first public opportunities for her to catch up and she planned not to disappoint. "Then I am more than happy to experience it every day," Tabitha replied, gaze settled a bit dreamily on her Sunshine.

Leaning against Hope and squeezing her hand had a certain possessiveness creeping within Tabitha. She loathed the thought of someone bumping into them and throwing off their balance; Hope was her beauty to share a beautiful evening with, not theirs. Realizing the borderline creepy nature of her fantasies, Tabitha ducked her head down until she was inhaling the calming scene of Hope's shampoo. Humming in agreement to Hope's words -- not exactly sure what the older twin said, but certain it was a compliment somehow -- the young mother just focused on the warmth of her Sunshine's arm. However, memories of their previous night spent in each other's arms were interrupted by the request of a limping woman to take up Hope's seat. Without hesitation, Tabitha helped her date onto her lap, holding the dancer incredibly close to her chest, stroking those enviably toned abs. "Comfortable, Sunshine?" came her gentle whisper as the subway train whizzed through the tunnel.

[tabithasroses]

Sunshine in the Moonlight || HopeTabs

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Tagging: Hope and Tabitha Fabray

Date: May 3, 2014

Location: Undisclosed restaurant and art exhibit

General Notes: Tabitha plans a secret date for her and Hope, wanting to ‘wine and dine’ her Sunshine properly.

Warnings: Possible smut later on.

"You’re welcome," Hope replied sweetly.  She just chuckled at the rebuke and gasp.  "Not when you are looking that good, sorry just can’t be helped, I somehow managed to get an angel next to me and I want to dance the most sinful dance with her," Hope teased whispering into her twin’s ear and gave it a cute peck.  She smiled softly as she was just expressing her wonder in the way she knew best, flirting.

"Good, its also better for you too, cause you’d be lost with me," Hope grinned and pecked Tabitha’s joined hand.  The dancer blushed immensely at her twin’s complimentary commentary about her dancing.  From Tabitha it always felt so much more, well more as silly as it sounded.  "Thank you, if she likes it then I am sure she could manage it, maybe even better then me if she has the talent, but she won’t know if she doesn’t try, you know?" Hope noted and paid for their subway tickets with some tokens she still had.

Tabitha:

With a stern expression on her face, Tabitha listen to Hope's reply, but it soon morphed into something more bashful, looking down at her shoes. Her girlfriend really did know how to lay on the compliments, causing the younger twin's heart to flutter wildly. She was still getting used to the sensuality and sexuality of their relationship, and Hope was just a genius at making Tabitha horny and blushing at the same time. "You're absolutely terrible," she muttered in an affectionate tone.

Turning her head back to give Hope a smile, Tabitha entwined their fingers. "I wouldn't want it any other way," she commented. Now seeing the blush on her girlfriend's face had the younger twin feeling proud of herself since it seemed to be such a rarity. "No, we wouldn't know without trying and I'm more than happy for her to try things out we can easily help her with." Pushing through the revolvers and keeping her girlfriend close, Tabitha brought them to the subway car's entrance just as the door opened up. "Have a seat, Sunshine," she said softly, offering the closest seat to her girlfriend.

[tabithasroses]

Sunshine in the Moonlight || HopeTabs

[tabithasroses]

Tagging: Hope and Tabitha Fabray

Date: May 3, 2014

Location: Undisclosed restaurant and art exhibit

General Notes: Tabitha plans a secret date for her and Hope, wanting to ‘wine and dine’ her Sunshine properly.

Warnings: Possible smut later on.

Hope couldn’t help running her hand along Tabitha’s back, keeping it in acceptable places at first, just a line down her spine.  ”Dazzling?  That’s hard to imagine compared to you,” She admitted biting her lip and trying not to blush.  ”And your welcome, Tabitha,” She smiled as she surrendered her hand.  ”Trust me, I am going to have as much if not more trouble fighting them off, let along trying not to get my hands under it,” Hope admitted and looked away to feign innocence.

"So lead the way and I will follow, or tell me where to go and I will try to find it," The dancer grinned and knew the second plan was too risky but sometimes fun.  She just walked with Tabitha for a bit and hummed. "So did you think anymore about whether to put Tallulah into dance classes eventually?" She asked curiously as they went on.  Hope couldn’t teach her niece officially most likely but she could give extra lessons.

Tabitha:

She knew she should've expected Hope to do wicked things to her like this, but that knowledge didn't stop Tabitha from feeling surprised and gasping just slightly. Pushing a few strands of hair behind her ear, she was already being flattered by her girlfriend's compliments. "Thank you," she breathed out. Realizing what the older twin had just said, Tabitha gasped audibly this time and hit her arm. "Behave yourself," she reprimanded.

Taking a deep breath and holding her hand once again, Tabitha brought Hope downstairs and out of the house with her. "Oh, no, I wouldn't be that mean to you," she said. As they made their way to the nearest subway station, she felt comforted by Hope's soft humming. "Yes I've thought more about it and I think I will sign her up," Tabitha decided with a smile. Helping Hope carefully down the stairs into the station, she turned her head to look at her lovely girlfriend. "Do you think she'll like them? Or that she might turn into a fabulous dancer like her aunt?"

[tabithasroses]

Sunshine in the Moonlight || HopeTabs

[tabithasroses]

Tagging: Hope and Tabitha Fabray

Date: May 3, 2014

Location: Undisclosed restaurant and art exhibit

General Notes: Tabitha plans a secret date for her and Hope, wanting to ‘wine and dine’ her Sunshine properly.

Warnings: Possible smut later on.

Hope wasn’t doing much better, she had switched up her outfit three times before remembering Tabitha had said blue.  She had the perfect classy little number, it was a touch on the erotic side but just barely.  It came down her cleavage a bit, left her shoulders exposed but for two little soft straps and was at a little below knee length, with slits up the side going just a little above her knee.  Underneath she had a strapless bra and pair of again classy but revealing panties, both in pink.  The dancer added a little eye shadow but kept it light.

Puckering her lips for the mirror she grinned.  She tried to calm down and sighed.  ”I am ready My Heart, just lead the way,” Hope said coming out and walking over to inspect her girlfriend’s outfit.  ”What wonder does my eyes partaking?” She complimented playfully eyeing her twin up and down.  ”Honestly you look simple wonderful Tabitha,” The dance instructor whispered and kissed her girlfriend lightly on the lips.

Tabitha:

Smoothing down her black lace dress. Tabitha did hope she'd see her girlfriend wearing some pretty and blue; it felt as if her Sunshine didn't wear the color often enough. With Hope keeping up with her wild and cropped hairdo, Tabitha felt that the oldest Fabray in blue quite literally made her the sun and sky. The brightest ray of sun on her cloudiest days. With a small smile on her lips, she wondered when she'd become this sappy, almost poetic kind of person. If anyone ever heard her inner thoughts now, they'd probably laugh.

But not her Hope; she was sure of it. When the door opened and she was greeted with the sight of Hope all dressed up, Tabitha could've sworn she swooned. Inwardly, of course. Fidgeting with her hair again, she let Hope inspect her, glad to know she had her twin's approval. "Thank you, Hope," she replied, kissing her back. Parting their lips just a little, Tabitha took her hand. "And you look dazzling," she breathed out, in awe of the older twin. Now she felt almost too covered up with her sleeves and barely there jewelry and purple pumps covering most of her feet. "I feel almost silly for taking you on the subway now. I'm worried someone will try to woo you."

[tabithasroses]

Sunshine in the Moonlight || HopeTabs

Tagging: Hope and Tabitha Fabray

Date: May 3, 2014

Location: Undisclosed restaurant and art exhibit

General Notes: Tabitha plans a secret date for her and Hope, wanting to 'wine and dine' her Sunshine properly.

Warnings: Possible smut later on.

She was fidgeting and it was the most frustrating thing. Tabitha hated fidgeting no matter how much her nerves plagued her. She wanted to be calm and composed at all times. Not to mention, she'd been out places with Hope before. They'd been intimate since Christmas, finding moments to hide away and enjoy each other's touch. If she could handle seeing her girlfriend naked and vice versa, then what was a little date to make her so jittery?

Taking a deep breath, Tabitha looked in the bathroom mirror once more, checking her slightly messy ponytail -- Téa insisted that the style was cute on her and perfect mix of dressy-casual -- and adjusting her minimal jewelry. Well then, she was ready for this and needed to stop acting like a teenager. With a deep breath, she made the short trip to Hope's bedroom door, biting her lip then knocking gently. "Hope? Are you ready yet?" Tabitha asked in a gentle tone.