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Hi, everyone. This has been a long time coming but I figured I’d make things official. As some of you already know, I’ve made the difficult decision to close my Tumblr account.
First, I’d like to say that it has nothing to do with anyone on here - I’ve had the absolute pleasure of meeting and working with some of the finest minds in this fandom. Nor does this mean that I am leaving the K-Pop fandom altogether: I still very much listen to the music, attend concerts, and tune in to the latest news. This has more to do with the enormous (and largely unnecessary) pressure that I put on myself to write and generate content.
For a while, I kept saying “yes” to projects in hopes that my overdeveloped sense of responsibility (and let’s face it: guilt) would be enough to kick my butt in gear and actually finish pieces. I kept coming up with new ideas, which were wonderful and exciting, but the more I said yes, the more I realized I lacked motivation to get things done. For those who know me, this is quite uncharacteristic. So I took a step back to examine what was really going on under the surface, and realized that a part of this has to do with the changes going on in my personal life at this time. Because of it, I’ve attached strings and guilt and a spirit of obligation to writing, and feeling like I’m letting both myself and people down, even though I know that it’s meant to be something fun and joy-giving. So at this time, I’m going to step back and give and intentionally hold space for myself to not just do, but be. It’s hard, but I hope and pray that this decision helps point me in a healthier direction for my life.
I will miss you all terribly. Thank you so much to every single one of you who have come across my blog, who have read or liked or reblogged my content, who have guided me and cheered me on every step of the way. I am so thankful for the acquaintances I’ve made on here that have now translated to in-person friendships. Thank you for staying with me and being by my side.
If any of you would like to still stay in contact once my account closes, please DM me and we can exchange information. I plan on clearing out tags and likes, and then officially closing my account on Oct. 31.
This has been such a full learning experience and I thank God for the two years that I’ve had here to share my passion and heart with this corner of the world.
God bless you all <3
-Fei
