Soooo
The ladies at the vital records office giggling about all the donuts and donuts holes eaten in the office yesterday. Quite bright red maybe from laughing, me too.
I filed this as my new legal
Lily Ësti Zeta
Probably be going by Zeta for a while. Greek letter for 7 and has a bit of an old baba kinda sound I’ve been .really. feeling lately. Has an obvious touch of non-binary as in Ze’ even though I don’t think I’ll be using Ze but They or Zeta or she are good.
I fucking love Lillies.
The texture of Lily is exactly how I feel about names.
I enjoy every single name and I adore the sound of this one.
But then also I feel that there is something about each that needs to be shed.
On the loong term I feel that this one is the free wheel name for me.
I tripped so hard on this that it is the transience of the name could stick it.
Might stick around sheerly because it is of the nature of how it is.
Until I get some surgery, this will be a hard one to pass but goals.
Maybe I don’t have a name, still goes through my head.
The umlaut is a safety check for now, reading that as ehsty and won’t use it as a name till I make a thousand pilgrimages. Found that one in outer space, but its my dharma or samsara name probably. I keep picturing Bill and Ted saying something Schwarvy.
Absurdity, I hope the papers get through.
Ësti or Ester, I like this writing too ǝsti.
But seriously, this is an Umlaut and not bread.
