꒰ 爆豪勝己 ꒱ › katsuki hates being loud in bed. mdni.
pro hero! bakugo x fem! reader. unprotected piv
for someone who’s so loud and cocky, katsuki is surprisingly quiet in bed. because he hates the sounds he makes, finds his own whimpers and groans pathetic and weak. he hates the way his control dissolves, the way his body betrays him with hitched breaths and feeble groans. every time a whimper ‘threatens’ to spill from his lips, he’s gulping it down, jaw clenched so tight it aches.
he kisses you like he’s trying to swallow the moans building in his own chest. his tongue sweeps into your mouth, not just to taste you, but to make sure you’re so full of him that no sound can escape.
“kats breathe,” you gasp when he finally lets you up for air.
“shut up,” he snarls, but there’s no heat beneath his words.
when you finally sink down onto him, taking him in inch by excruciating inch, his whole body goes rigid. a sharp hiss falls through his gritted teeth, and he immediately buries his face in the crook of your neck, as if in shame. you can feel the vibration of his groan against your throat, a guttural sound he tries so, so hard to kill.
“fuck,” he breathes, a mere puff of air against your glistening skin. his hips remain still, even as his cock throbs inside you
when you start to ride him, his hands fly from your hips to your ass, then to your shoulders, anywhere he can get purchase, as if he’s physically trying to hold himself together. his breathing becomes harsh and uneven. you can hear the struggle in every inhale. his crimson eyes are squeezed shut, his brow furrowed in concentration that has everything to do with not falling apart.
you love watching him like this. you love being the one to unravel him. you pick up the pace, rolling your hips in that way you know drives him wild, and you feel the tremor that starts in his thighs, the way his calloused fingers dig bruises into your perfect skin.
a sound that’s half-gasp, half-whimper, bubbles up, and katsuki immediately clamps his mouth down on your shoulder — using your body to silence his own.
he’s drunk on the copper leaking from your broken skin. he presses soothing kisses to your shoulder and it makes you clench even harder around him. that’s what finally makes him break. a moan tears from his throat, muffled by your flesh but unmistakable. a vulnerable sound that’s completely at odds with the explosive hero he is by day. it’s the sound of him stripped of all his defenses
and he hates it. you can feel the way he freezes for a moment, horrified by his own lack of control. “don’t—”
“don’t what ? don’t stop ?” you tease, rolling your hips again.
“stop fuckin’ lookin’ at me like that,” he’ll grumble, turning his face away even as his hands white-knuckle your hips, pulling you closer.
but you’re not having it. you reach back, tangling your fingers in his sweat-damp blond hair, and pull his gaze towards yours. “let me hear you,” you murmur “wanna hear how good i make you feel.”
“no,” he shakes his head, stubbornly, eyes squeezed shut. “can’t. it’s too damn embarrassing.”
“it’s hot” you counter, “you’re hot katsuki. now let me hear you.”
“don’t — hah — say shit like that” he groans. his hips, now freed from their self-imposed prison, thrust up to meet yours. his moans become more frequent, little whimpers and moans he can’t swallow, each one is followed by a tightening of his jaw, a rosy flush of embarrassment creeping up his neck.
“that’s it kats,” you encourage, “just like that.”
when you lean back, changing the angle just so, he finally, truly surrenders. his eyes fly open, wide and glazed with pleasure, and his mouth falls slack. a string of curses,spills from his lips. “fuuuck . . . you’re so—hck— damn you”
his face is completely red, and he’s so, so loud but he’s past the point of caring. his hips slam into yours, his movements losing all finesse, driven purely by need
“gonna. . fuck, baby. . i’m gonna—” he chokes out, and it’s the most warning you’ve ever gotten from him.
he cums with a strangled cry, your name a wanton mess on his lips. his whole body all but arches off the bed. the sounds he makes are muffled by your skin, but you feel them all the same—the whimpers, the groans, the exhausted panting. for a long moment, the only sound in the room is his ragged breathing and the pounding of your own heart.
then, slowly, he relaxes, his body going limp against yours. you know he’s replaying every sound, every whimper, and cringing. you card your fingers through his hair, holding him close, and wait. eventually, he shifts, pressing a soft, chaste kiss to your sternum before muttering against your skin, “that’s never gonna happen again”
you don’t have to say anything. you just smile, because you know that next time, when you’re skin against skin and joined together as one, you’ll break his silence all over again.
꒰ 呪術廻戦 ꒱ › nerd!jo will always put you first. sfw.
fem!reader. very self indulgent fluff. college au.
it’s 2:34 in the morning, and the only light in your dorm room comes from your glowing laptop screen. your history paper, a fifteen-page monstrosity on the socioeconomic impact of the second world war, is due at 8:00 am. you’ve been surviving on a combination of caffeine and sour candy for the past six hours, and you can feel the exhaustion settling deep into your bones
you’re typing the topic sentence of your conclusion, when without warning, without so much as a flicker, your screen goes completely black and the low hum of the fan ceases. your heart hammers against your ribs, a beat of pure panic. no. no, no, no.
you spam the spacebar. nothing. you mash the power button, holding it down until your finger aches, then releasing it and pressing it again. nothing.
you try every combination of keys you can think of, hands trembling so badly you can barely type. nothing. the screen remains a void mirror that reflects your own, tear-streaked face back at you. the document. your sources. hours of work. . . gone.
a choked sob escapes your throat. tears spill over your waterline, blurring your vision until the dark screen is just a smear of nothingness. you can feel the panic building in your chest, squeezing the air from your lungs.
your roommate, shoko, is dead asleep across the room, her soft snores the only sound breaking the suffocating silence. you can’t wake her up. you can’t bother anyone with this. with the sole exception of satoru gojo, of course.
with trembling fingers, you grab your phone and pull up his contact. thumb hovering over your keyboard.
it’s almost three in the morning. satoru is meticulous about his sleep schedule. he needs his eight hours or he’s insufferable and cranky all day. and he has his biochem final today. you can’t. you shouldn’t.
but the thought of starting over from scratch, of facing this alone, is more than you can bear.
toru i’m gonna cry
[ 02:36 am ]
you stare at the words you’ve typed up, they’re so dramatic and unserious but you send them anyway.
i hate my fucking chungus life
[ 02:36 am ]
three little dots appear before you can even wipe the fresh tears from your cheeks.
toruuu ❤︎ :
What’s wrong baby?
[ 02:36 am ]
the simple text is enough to make another sob wrack your body. you type out a response, your fingers slipping on the screen.
my laptop isn’t working
i was working on my history paper
AND THE SCREEN WENT BLACK
[ 02:38 am ]
toruuu ❤︎ :
Everything’s going to be okay
Did you try restarting it?
[ 02:38 am ]
his calm, logical response is simultaneously comforting and annoying. of course you tried restarting it.
mhmm
i tried like six times it’s not working
idk what else to do
[ 02:40 am ]
toruuu ❤︎ :
Okay. I’ll come take a look at it
Give me a few minutes
[ 02:40 am ]
you’re sniffling quietly, trying to muffle the sound in your palm so you don’t wake shoko up. you feel so helpless, so stupid for not saving your work to the cloud more often.
ilysm you’re the best ❤︎
[ 02:40 am ]
toruuu ❤︎ :
I love you most Princess
Hang in there
[ 02:40 am ]
true to his word your phone buzzes again, eight minutes later
toruuu ❤︎ :
I’m here
[ 02:48 am ]
you slip out of bed, socked feet making little to no sound on the cold linoleum floor. you crack open the door just enough to see him standing in the dim hallway, a silhouette of messy white hair. he looks exhausted, eyes hazy with traces of sleep, hair sticking up at odd angles. his expression softens when he sees you
he steps inside, closing the door quietly behind him, and his arms are immediately around you, pulling you into a warm embrace. he smells like patchouli dreams and his clean laundry detergent. his large hand comes up to cup the back of your head, fingers smoothing over your hair as he presses a featherlight kiss to your forehead.
“shhh, hey, none of that,” he murmurs, wiping at the tears on your cheeks with his thumb. “it’s just a computer. we’ll figure it out.”
you nod into his chest, “i’m sorry i woke you up ‘toru.”
he just shakes his head, pulling back to look at you. “don’t be silly. you know i’d rather be awake with you than asleep without you.” he gestures with his chin towards your desk. “let me take a look at it”
you lead him to your desk, where your macbook sits. a 2017 pro with the glowy touchbar, decorated by a myriad of stickers from your favorite bands and cartoons. you can’t imagine parting with it.
satoru sets his own laptop bag down on your bed. the one he uses for gaming, a beast of a machine that he treats like his firstborn child. “here,” he says, unzipping it and pulling out the sleek laptop. “you can use mine to finish your paper. i’ll see what i can do.”
you want to protest, but he’s already booting it up. the screen lights up, and you can’t help but smile through your tears.
his lockscreen is a picture of you, fast asleep on his shoulder. he has dozens of widgets centered around you — your wishlist, your shared calendar, one that says ‘days since i last told my princess i love her: 0’. he types in the password ( your birthday, of course ) and hands it to you.
“try and finish your paper baby,” he says softly, already turning his attention to your dead laptop. “i’ve got this”
you settle on your bed, pulling the heavy laptop onto your thighs. you can hear satoru muttering quietly to himself as he gets to work. you sign into your microsoft account and pull up your most recent cloud backup to find that you’ve only lost the last few paragraphs. it’s salvageable.
you’re still sniffling occasionally and every time you do, satoru glances over at you, brows furrowed in concentration. “you okay over there?” he asks after a few minutes.
“yeah,” you murmur, not looking up from the screen. “i’m okay.”
he works in silence for a while longer. you can hear him humming to himself, technical nerdy stuff that flies completely over your head. “flex cable . . . backlight. . hinge.” he examines every port, every seam, long fingers moving delicately
finally, he lets out a long, heavy sigh. “oh, baby,” he exhales, and his tone is so full of pity your stomach drops. “i’m so sorry.”
“what?” you look up from his laptop, your heart starting to pound again. “can’t you fix it toru? you fix everything.”
he shakes his head slowly, “come here, look at this.”
you get up and move to stand behind him, peering over his shoulder at your laptop. he opens the lid just a tiny crack, a couple inches wide. for a split second, the screen flickers to life. you can see your desktop background, a picture of the two of you at the beach, and the thin sliver of light from the screen illuminates his face. then, as he slowly opens the lid further, the light sputters and dies, plunging the screen back into darkness.
“see?” he frowns quietly, closing it again. “your lcd cables are all shredded. they run through the hinge and over time they break. it’s a super common issue with this model.”
“no clue what any of that means,” your voice quavers, “can you replace it?”
“i mean, yeah, i can,” he says, leaning back in your desk chair and running a hand through his already messy hair. “it’s just . . it’s a risky repair. i’ll have to order the parts, and even then it’s a crapshoot. if i mess it up, i could damage the logic board, and then it’s really gone”
“so what do we do?” you whisper, feeling the panic start to creep back in.
he looks at you for a long moment, blue eyes heavy lidded and drowsy. “i can order the new cable and try the repair. if it doesn’t work. . .” he hums, trailing off as he considers the options, “i’ve backed up your macbook so i can transfer all your files to a new one.”
“i’m not buying a new one ‘toru,” you sigh, the thought of the expense makes your head spin even more than the lack of sleep.
a slow smile spreads across his face. the look he gets right before he does something completely unnecessary, all in the name of ‘taking care of you.’ “who said anything about you buying it?”
“you can’t just buy me a new macbook, satoru,” you scoff, your voice firm even as your heart does a little flip
“can’t i?” he raises a brow, leaning forward in the chair. “why not?”
“because it’s too much even for you! i can’t ask you to do that”
“it’s a good thing you didn’t ask then,” he shrugs, gently closing your broken laptop for good and setting it aside on the desk. he stretches as he clambers to his feet. padding over to the edge of your bed and patting his lap. “come here.”
you hesitate for a second before obliging. he wraps his arms around your waist, pulling you flush against his chest and burying his face in the crook of your neck. his breath is warm against your skin and you can feel the steady beat of his heart against your back.
“how much of your paper do you have left?” he murmurs against your skin.
“almost done writing my conclusion,” you sigh, leaning your head back against his shoulder. “it’s probably not even that good.”
“don’t say that,” satoru tuts, giving you a gentle squeeze. “none of that self-deprecating stuff tonight. you’re brilliant and you know it.”
“i guess” you sigh, skimming through your body paragraphs
he shifts, maneuvering you both until you’re situated more comfortably on your bed. he’s propped up against the headboard with you nestled between his legs, your back to his chest. he places a tender kiss on your shoulder.
“you’re on the dean’s list for a reason,” he says quietly “finish up your paper. i’ll stay up with you.”
with him soothing you like this, the panic in your veins finally subsides. you type the last few sentences of your conclusion. you proofread your essay once, twice, then format the bibliography.
when you finally hit ‘submit’ on the university portal at 3:29 you let your head fall back against satoru’s shoulder with a soft thud.
“done?” he asks, voice thick with sleep. “done,” you sigh.
“so proud of you” he smiles, pressing another kiss to your shoulder. “time for bed, then.”
he gently takes the computer from your lap and sets it on the floor, then shifts you both down until you’re lying properly under the sheets. he doesn’t even try to walk back to his own dorm. he just pulls you into his arms, tucking your head under his chin to keep you close.
“toru?” you whisper into the darkness. “hm?” he murmurs sleepily
“thank you. for everything.” he just holds you tighter, his hand rubbing soothing circles on your back. “any time, princess.”
you know he’ll probably scold you for staying up so late in the morning but he’ll also make you matcha and help you look for a new macbook. one with the same specs as your now useless one.
you fall asleep knowing that this is just one of many nights. that there will be other disasters that feel like the end of the world. but you also know that satoru will always be a text away.
꒰ 呪術廻戦 ꒱ › gojo’s eyes glow when he’s close mdni. unprotected piv ⁝ inappropriate use of reverse cursed technique. overstimulátion ⁝ inspired by this tiktok i saw a few days ago ✶
there’s a whole galaxy in the space between satoru’s lashes. you could spend hours just watching his eyes. they’re the kind of blue that doesn’t feel real, wisps of the sky and the deepest parts of the ocean. you’ve memorized the way they darken when he’s focused, the way they soften when he looks at you, and the way they glow when he has you caged beneath him.
the first time you notice it, you’re intertwined in the dark of your bedroom. the only light source is a lunar sliver cutting through the curtains. satoru’s moving above you, a steady rhythm that has you arching into him, nails digging crescents in the sweat-slick muscle of his shoulders.
“that’s it baby” he murmurs, skin against skin echoing in the room, “keep looking— hck— at me”
his eyes light up. familiar blue flares into a something unrecognizable — a white neutron star. it’s blinding. you squeeze your eyes shut as a gasp falls from your lips.
when you open them again, the luster is dim. his usual azure gaze is fixed on you, though his pupils are blown wide, practically swallowing the color whole.
“toru. . .” you breathe, heart hammering against your ribs. “what was that?”
he stills, hips pressed flush against yours. a cocky grin spresding across his face, “what was what?” he teases, though his voice is hoarse and his breath is ragged as he leans down to graze your collarbone
he chooses that exact moment to roll his hips and the follow-up question dissolves on your tongue, forgotten in a haze of pleasure. but you don’t forget the sight.
you can’t. not when it’s seared onto the back of your eyelids
you start to anticipate it, heavy-lidded eyes squinting to commit each subtle tell to memory. you notice the way his breath hitches, the way his hands grip you tighter, knuckles growing paler with each thrust. a delicate, pretty pink flush spreading from his face to his chest. beads of sweat glistening in the moonlight
and then when he’s right there, on the verge of it all, his eyes are filled with starlight. the closer he gets, the brighter they burn. until the blue between ivory lashes is eclipsed by the intensity of his cursed energy
now it’s all you can focus on when your legs are wrapped around his waist and his name falls from your lips like a fervent prayer.
he’s rutting into you, all inklings of restraint gone. his forehead rests against yours. his pretty blue eyes, blanched out by an incandescent white, are locked on yours and they’re so, so bright you can see your reflection in them.
you’re the center of his universe.
“mhh ‘toru” your whimper, your body jolting as he shifts his angle ever so slightly. yet another orgasm ripples through you. you clench around him as your back arches off the bed.
you’ve lost count completely. they all blur into each other, leaving you boneless
“fuuuck” he chokes out, his hips grind against yours in a circular motion that has you seeing stars, “squeezin’ me like that i’m—”
his words are swallowed by the guttural sounds reverberating in his chest. his whole body goes rigid above you and his eyes are blinding white. you feel him pulse as he spills into you, marking you from the inside out. there’s so much of it.
satoru buries his face in the hollow of your neck. for a fleeting moment, there’s only the sound of your heavy breathing. the light from his eyes fades, plunging the room back into a familiar dimness.
within seconds, he props himself up on his elbows. hair disheveled, white strands plastered to his forehead with sweat, lips swollen and red from your kisses. eyes already starting to simmer again
“you’re so beautiful” he murmurs, cupping your cheek in his hand. all you can do is lean into his touch. you turn your head just enough to press a kiss into the center of his palm
then you feel it, a wave of renewable energy that washes away his exhaustion, soothes his strained muscles, and clears the blissful fog from his mind.
he’s using his reverse cursed technique for something so selfish, so human. his lips brush against the shell of your ear “‘m not even close to done with you,”
he doesn’t give you a chance to respond. he pulls out slowly, letting you feel every thick inch of him before he slams back into you, burying himself to the hilt in one fluid motion.
his eyes are glowing again, nearly too much to look at. you have to fight the instinct to shield your face from the sheer intensity of his gaze. a celestial force that has absolutely no business belonging to a human, albeit the strongest
it’s the most beautiful, yet terrifying thing you’ve ever seen.
꒰ 呪術廻戦 ꒱ › nerd!jo hates your energy drinks sfw.
fluff fluff fluff + nerdy chem stuff. very self-indulgent
satoru loves you so completely it feels like a fundamental law of his universe, as unchangeable and indisputable as gravity, polarity, and einstein’s theory of general relativity.
but he hates your energy drinks with an intensity that rivals his love for you
he hates the garish colors of the cans, the aggressive branding, the chemical-sweetness that clings to you after you’ve had one. and most of all, he hates what they do to you.
he hates the subtle tremor in your hands that you try to hide by shoving them in your pockets. he hates the way your eyes dart around, unable to settle on one thing for too long, he hates the slight spike in your heart rate when he presses his ear to your chest, a frantic rhythm that has nothing to do with him and everything to do with the caffeine coursing through your veins.
sometimes, late at night when you’re curled up against him, he’ll trace your face with his fingertips and think about all the articles he’s read, all the studies about cardiovascular health and the long-term effects of chronic caffeine consumption.
he finds himself terrified because he loves you too much to watch you slowly poison yourself, even if it’s in the name of productivity.
when satoru finds you in the kitchen each morning, he doesn’t even have to look up to know what you’re holding. he just knows, and his jaw tightens
“another one?” he asks, he’s leaning against the doorway, arms crossed over his chest, glaring at you like you’re about to drink a vial of poison.
you take a deliberate, long sip, the sugary, chemical taste coating your tongue. “good morning to you too, ‘toru.”
he pushes off the doorframe and walks over, snatching the can from your hand before you can stop him. “do you even know what’s in this? do you even know what taurine is?”
“does it matter?” you groan, reaching for it to no avail. standing at well over six feet, he holds it out of your grasp effortlessly.
“the artificial sweeteners in here,” he starts, already in lecture mode, “the obscene amounts of sucralose and acesulfame potassium in these is what’s making your stomach hurt all the time. it’s altering the composition of your intestinal bacteria and making you bloated”
you rub your temples, a dull throb already starting behind your eyes. “i know, toru. you’ve sent me seventeen articles about it this week alone.”
“have you read any of them?” he queries, a frown tugging at his lips
“i skimmed,” you admit, trying to grab the can again. he’s too fast, “your fearmongering makes me anxious”
“no sweetheart, that would be the caffeine stimulating your central nervous system and triggering your adrenal glands to pump out cortisol and adrenaline. think about how many milligrams of caffeine are in each can. every time you crack one of these open you’re forcing your body into fight-or-flight”
satoru finally looks at you, his glasses slipping down his nose slightly. his blue eyes are filled with concern that makes you feel guilty. “baby, the long-term effects on your cardiovascular system are terrible. you’re increasing your blood pressure, elevating your heart rate, and putting yourself at risk for arrhythmias. . . especially when you drink them like water. you’re torturing your nervous system”
you sigh, leaning against the counter, the exhaustion already creeping in despite the caffeine you just consumed. “yeah well, i can barely function without them. what am i supposed to do?” you ask, your voice sounding smaller than you’d like. “i have too much on my plate, i can’t just stop drinking them.”
“i worry about you,” he says simply, and the sincerity in his tone makes your heart squeeze. “i hate seeing you like this”
his fingers trace your jawline, and you lean into his touch despite yourself. “i just need to get through the day,” you whisper.
“i know, baby, i know” he says softly. “but we can find something that doesn’t slowly poison you like a matcha latte or black tea”
you smile up at him. “only if you make it for me.”
he grins, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead. “deal. but no more of these,” he says, tapping the offending can. “they’re all going in the trash.”
you know he’ll probably follow you around all day to make sure you don’t buy another one, and you know you’ll have a headache by noon, but as he pulls you into a proper kiss, you find that you don’t really mind. for once, it’s okay to let someone else take care of you.
“sit down baby.” he murmurs softly, “i’ll make you a matcha latte, and if you hate it, we can try something else tomorrow morning”
꒰ 呪術廻戦 ꒱ › satoru’s favorite way to unwind. sfw.
gn!reader. fluff. slightly inspired by ^ this funny ass tiktok i saw
satoru’s head is heavy in your lap. you’ve been carding your fingers through his hair for what feels like hours, fingertips brushing against his scalp softly. he’s melting into a syrupy puddle, like putty in your palms as he laments about the trials and tribulations the higher ups put him through today.
“and then they tried to tell me that my mission reports need more detail,” he mumbles against your thigh, voice muffled by your skin. “as if i have the time to write an essay about every curse i exorcise.”
you hum softly in response, your nails gently scratching against his scalp. he sighs contentedly, nuzzling deeper into your lap like a cat seeking warmth. his hand, which had been resting limply at his side, now moves to grip your knee, fingers pressing in just enough to ground himself.
“they have no idea what it’s like out there. they just sit on their old wrinkly asses making decisions about things they’ve never seen or experienced,” he continues, his voice growing quieter with each word. “sometimes i wish—”
you shift slightly, reaching for the throw pillow beside you to prop behind your back. the movement is minimal, a slight readjustment to get more comfortable. but satoru freezes.
immediately, his head starts shaking back and forth against your lap. it’s not quite a tantrum, but it’s close—like he’s physically trying to shake off the discomfort of your hands leaving his hair.
“one sec,” you murmur, still focused on getting the pillow positioned right.
the shaking stops abruptly, replaced by a high-pitched whine that’s utterly uncharacteristic of the strongest sorcerer. the honored one. he’s lucky megumi isn’t here to tease him. he sounds pathetic and needy, and it makes your heart ache a little.
“sweets,” he whimpers, voice cracking slightly. “i’m six seconds away from dying, why’d you stop ?”
“so much for being the strongest . . ” you roll your eyes but you abandon the pillow instantly, hands returning to his hair. as soon as your fingers resume their threading through his soft strands, he goes boneless against you again, a shudder of relief running through him.
“okay,” you lean down to press a soft kiss to his forehead. “you were saying ‘toru. . ?” he presses his face deeper into your lap, breathing evening out the second you continue playing with his hair.
“sometimes,” he murmurs against your thigh, his voice barely audible, “i wish i could just kill them all. every last one of those old men in their stuffy rooms. it would make my life so easy.”
you don’t respond, knowing he doesn’t need you to. he just needs to say it, to let the darkness out where it can’t actually hurt anyone.
“no more long ass meetings,” he continues, his words slurring with exhaustion. “no more stupid reports, i’d finally have peace and quiet. i just want peace and quiet. . .”
you lean down again, this time pressing your cheek against the top of his head, your hand never ceasing its gentle movements through his hair. “i know,” you frown, “i know, toru.”
he sighs, the tension finally leaving his body and surrendering to the comfort of your touch, your presence is the only thing in the universe keeping him from spiraling. what would he do without you ?
꒰ 呪術廻戦 ꒱ › satoru’s tired of being the strongest mdni
angst + they’re fwb so suggestive. pre-shinjuku. gojo x f! reader.
satoru gojo was made for winning. not loving. the gojo clan taught him everything under the sun, moon, and stars — except how to bear his heart to another. they taught him how to shatter a curse with a flick of his fingers, how to crush his opponents with a lazy grin, how to carry the weight of the entire world on shoulders that were still, technically, those of a boy. they taught him how to be the strongest.
the burden he’s been forced to carry around since he was a child has, without a doubt, shaped his apathetic outlook on life. every victory is hollow, every moment of peace is just the lull before the next battle. he stands at the precipice of humanity’s survival and is expected to be the one who always wins. the one who saves everyone. and he’s well past over it.
you’d always known that being with satoru was doomed from the start. he wasnt raised for love. for life. it wouldn’t last. you’d told yourself this much as a third year at jujutsu high. but surprisingly it did. it does. now years down the line, the air in your bedroom is saturated with the scent of him, the salt of your drying sweat and the sweet scent of the jasmine candle on your nightstand.
satoru’s body is a furnace against your back. he has an arm thrown over your waist, anchoring you to this moment, to this bed, as if holding you tight will stop the sun from rising. his chest rises and falls steadily against the shell of your ear, but you know he’s not asleep. you can practically hear him thinking.
he’d been so, so different tonight. not his usual, playful self in the slightest. his kisses had been bruising, his hands grasping at your hips, your thighs, your hair, with a frantic need to memorize every inch of you. he’d used his reversed cursed technique to keep going, round after round, until your limbs felt like lead and your mind was blissfully blank. he’d been insatiable.
and he would have kept going, you know, until the sun painted the windows in shades of bruised amber and ijichi’s impatient knock echoed from the living room. until he had to pull on his haori and become the hope of the jujutsu world again. he would rather stay in your arms forever, but he can’t. the fate of humanity resting on his shoulders, is a weight far heavier than your body on his.
you shift, turning in his arms until you can see his face. moonlight filters through your blinds, casting stripes of shadow and pale light across his features. his sapphire eyes are fixed on the ceiling, seeing something you can’t
“what’s the first thing you wanna do after defeating sukuna?” your voice is a soft murmur, barely disturbing the comfortable silence.
he blinks, slowly, like he’s waking up from a really bad dream. a ghost of a smile touches his lips, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. “hmm? i’m surprised you’re still awake.”
“answer my question, toru.” you pout, glaring at him in the darkness
“assuming i don’t die,” he starts, and the words land like a stone in the pit of your stomach, “i’ll probably be really hungry after all that fighting. so i think you should take me out for dinner and spoil me.”
you laugh “in your dreams, we’ll get dinner and you’ll pay like a gentleman. . plus you’re richer than me”
“ah, so you are just using me for my money.”
“among other things,” you tease, but your heart isn’t in it. “i’m just not paying for you to eat enough to feed a family of six.”
“i’m a growing boy.”
“you’re twenty-eight. you’re not growing, you’re just greedy” your teasing subsides, and the weight of his earlier words settles back in the room, pressing down on your chest. “. . . what do you mean, ‘assuming you don’t die’?”
“well, an assumption is when you make a statement with no concrete proof,” he begins, “and seeing as i’m yet to go toe to toe with the king of curses, there’s a statistical probability that i—”
“don’t be an asshole,” you cut him off, your voice sharper than you intended. “i know what an assumption is.” you prop yourself up on your elbows, “the only way you’re dying is if you don’t take the fight seriously. and then i’ll kill you myself. you promised me we’d elope one day, satoru. and you know how i feel about broken promises.”
his smile fades completely, replaced by profound sadness that makes all four chambers of your heart ache. “you would hate being married to me,” he murmurs, his gaze finally sliding away from the ceiling to meet yours, and the look in his eyes is so desolate it takes your breath away.
“that’s an assumption you don’t get to make,” you shoot back, your voice trembling slightly. “seeing as i’ve put up with you this long.”
“you might get lucky,” he says, his voice dropping to a near-whisper. “you might not have to put up with me much longer.”
“why are you being like this?” you demand, your brows knitting together. his eyes drift away from yours again, to the window where snow is beginning to fall, dusting the glass in swirling patterns. he looks anywhere but at you. “no seriously . . what’s your problem?”
he lets out a long, weary sigh, the sound deflating the last of the warmth between you. “c’mon, sweets. i don’t want our last night together to be like this. . . forget i said anything.”
“last night?” the question is a choked whisper. “what do you mean, last night together? you’re clearly just trying to upset me now”
“i’m not trying to upset you . . but there’s a plan, y’know?” he says, matter-of-factly. “if i die. shoko, yuuta. . . they have contingencies. yuuta’s supposed to use kenjaku’s technique with my body. there’s a plan b alllll the way to z. me winning isn’t the only outcome.” he pauses, before saying. “and i’m okay with that. i. . . i kinda hope i don’t win. it’ll be really great for my character development.”
the joke is so absurd, so horribly out of place, that it makes you want to scream. to hit him. you shake your head in disbelief. “you’re so selfish for saying that.”
“selfish,” he repeats the word, testing it on his tongue. “maybe. but it’s the first time i’ve ever been selfish. it’s not like my life has ever truly been my own. i’d like to die on my own terms at least . .”
this wasn’t how tonight was supposed to go. you were supposed to be fantasizing about life after sukuna. about lazy mornings and going to that cafe he loves, ordering everything on the menu just because you can. you were supposed to be planning a future together, not talking about his death at three in the morning.
satoru getting sealed had been a nightmare. and it was only then, in his absence, that you truly understood how much you needed him in your life. he wasn’t just your annoying classmate with too much power and a smart mouth. he wasn’t just your coworker who flirted with you during meetings. you love him. sure, he was too haunted by the ghost of suguru to ever give you all of him, but he gave you enough.
“i was destined for a miserable life since the moment i opened these damn eyes. but when i’m like this with you,” his voice softens, “i almost think a happy ending is possible for me but it’s not. deep down, i know it’s not . . and you deserve more than this.”
( on the tip of his tongue are broken phrases about how you deserve someone who can take you out on a real date. someone who can do the boring things like cooking and cleaning with you. someone who can come home to you in one piece. someone who can tell you they love you. someone who isn’t him. because he was programmed to be the strongest, to protect a world that would never truly know him. because he isn’t capable of being a boyfriend. a husband. a father. yours. he isn’t sure there’s a future with you in his cards at all )
“i want to lose tomorrow,” he admits, his voice cracking. “sure, i can beat sukuna. but i don’t want to. . i’m just . . so tired.”
you pull away from him, heart hammering against your ribs. “you don’t mean that,”
“nah. . i do,” he says, his eyes finally finding yours again. and the defeat and decisiveness in them is terrifying. “i kinda hope i don’t win for once. might just let it happen.”
“let it happen. . ” you can’t believe him. “sometimes i really hate you.”
he flinches. it’s almost imperceptible, a slight tightening of the muscles around his pretty eyes, but you notice it. he’s the strongest sorcerer in the world, and your words are what finally break him. “i know,” he whispers, his voice quavering. “sometimes i really hate me too.”
tears you didn’t realize were forming spill over. you hate him for wanting to leave. you hate him for making you love him this much. but most of all, you hate the world that made him feel like this was his only escape. his only chance at freedom
“don’t say that,” you choke out, reaching for him, fingers tangling in the soft ivory tendrils at the nape of his neck. he lets you pull him closer, his forehead resting against your sternum. you can feel the dampness of his tears against your skin, and it breaks you all over again. this is the third time. the third time he’s let himself fall apart in your arms. suguru’s defection. suguru’s death. and now, this. the eve of his own demise.
“just want it to be over,” he murmurs against your skin, voice muffled, thick with exhaustion so profound it feels ancient. “i’m so tired of being the one who has to fix everything. . . i just want to be. . done.”
you hold him tighter, your own tears falling freely now, soaking into his hair. you want to scream at him, to shake him, to tell him to fight, to live, for you, for everyone. but the words won’t come. because you understand him more than anyone. and you love him.
“if you win you won’t have to be the strongest anymore” you whisper, “because all our problems will be gone. . and you can just be the man i love.”
he looks up at you then, his eyes red-rimmed and glistening, pupils swimming in endless pools of pain “i don’t know how to be that,” he admits, voice barely a whisper.
“then i’ll teach you” you breathe through your trembling lips, “when you come back. i’ll teach you”
you say the words, you make the promise but deep down you know he won’t make it back to you. you know that his life’s script was never written with a happily ever after in mind.
satoru doesn’t answer, just looks at you with those devastatingly beautiful eyes — his greatest feature, his twisted curse — and for a moment, you let yourself believe that you can fix him, that you can give him the peace he’s never known. you let yourself believe in a world where the only thing he has to do is love you. but the future you so desperately wanted to believe in, everything you’d dreamed of teaching him, dies with him in the rubble-strewn streets of shinjuku.
thinking about growing old with yuuji, who confesses his love to you shortly before you graduate from jujutsu high. his words tumble out in a mess of emotions that makes your heart ache. he looks so vulnerable standing there, hands shoved in his pockets, amber eyes wide with fear of rejection.
you kiss him and he melts against you like he’s been waiting his whole life for this moment. your relationship makes all his suffering worth it. every battle, every near-death experience, every night spent haunted by the screams of those he couldn’t save.
all of it fades into nothing when you’re in his arms.
thinking about growing old with yuuji, who insists on you moving into an apartment in the city together.
you fall into the routine and rhythm of domesticity — cooking unhealthy portions of spicy ramen together, your laughter echoing off the kitchen walls. curling up on the sofa together and watching studio ghibli and horror movies, his arm wrapped around you as you bury your face in his chest during the scary parts. he traces patterns on your skin as you sleep, memorizing every inch of you like he’s afraid you’ll disappear if he looks away for even a second.
thinking about growing old with yuuji, who proposes on a random tuesday, down on one knee in your living room with a ring he’d clearly saved up for for months.
thinking about growing old with yuuji, who cries bittersweet tears at your wedding. it’s a small, very private affair, consisting of everyone who survived sukuna. when you kiss as husband and wife, yuuji holds you so tight you can barely breathe
thinking about growing old with yuuji, who isn’t really growing any older, any weaker. who watches you age until you look old enough to be his mother, his grandmother. your hair turns silver, your hands spotted with age, your movements slow.
thinking about growing old with yuuji, who traces your wrinkles and refuses to leave you despite how weird and disorienting it is for you to see your husband look like a teenager while you’re geriatric. who still thinks you’re just as beautiful as you were the day he met you.
thinking about growing old with yuuji, who hates how far you’ve grown apart. separate rooms. separate beds. separate lives. not because you don’t love him—you do, so much—but because it hurts too much to wake up next to someone who doesn’t age while your body fails you day by day.
thinking about growing old with yuuji, whose heart is beyond shattered when he realizes he’s going to be alone some day. so he leaves —because he thinks it’s easier for you, less confusing for your foggy brain — without saying goodbye. pressing a kiss to the wrinkled skin of your forehead. leaving a letter on your nightstand. gone with the moon.
thinking about growing old with yuuji, who only returns after you succumb to old age and a broken heart. whose grief is exacerbated when he sees his kids who look so much older than him.
thinking about yuuji, who leaves orchids by your grave every week. who sits in solitude, weeping. it’s the first time he experiences what the rest of his miserable life is going to be like. he’s going to be alone forever. your son and daughter will die eventually. and he’ll be left in solitude to mourn you forever. with the same face, year after year, like time has simply stopped considering him worth touching.
thinking about yuuji, who can’t bring himself to look at your children, with wrinkles of their own, with children of their own, and eyes full of pity so thick it chokes him.
thinking about yuuji, who watches his reflection in shop windows, in puddles after rain, in the polished surface of your headstone. forever fifteen. forever the boy who confessed with shaking hands and a voice that cracked on your name. he traces the faint scars on his face and wonders if this is his punishment. not the screaming in his head, not the blood on his hands, but this eternal youth where he’s forced to watch everything he loves turns to dust.
thinking about yuuji, who’s slowly starting to struggle to remember your face. to remember what your voice sounded like. to remember your touch. and finds himself wishing he’d never told you how he felt in the first place.
꒰ 切島鋭児郎 ꒱ › kirishima is terrified of hurting you. mdni.
pro hero! kirishima x fem! reader. öral ⇢ m! receiving
eijirou kirishima is the perfect boyfriend in every conceivable way. he remembers your coffee order. he brings you back little trinkets from patrol routes that made him think of you. he ties your shoes for you because he doesn’t want you tripping over your laces. he guides you through crowds with his hand on the small of your back. he’s respectful, he’s kind, he’s your rock.
and he’s the perfect gentleman. he’ll kneel at the foot of your bed, broad shoulders nudging your thighs apart, ruby eyes dark with reverence that almost makes you feel shy. he’s meticulous, tracing every dip and curve of you with his tongue until you’re a writhing, whimpering mess, clawing at his spiky hair and the sheets.
he gets off on it, you know he does. he lets low groans out against your skin, his hips rut against your mattress, and he dons a blissed-out grin when he finally emerges, face glistening and eyes heavy-lidded with satisfaction. he loves it. he loves pleasing you.
but the second the tables turn, he pulls away from you so quickly it gives you whiplash. your lips will trail south, pressing soft open-mouthed kisses against his toned abs. your fingers will slip beneath the waistband of his boxers, intent on returning the favor he so eagerly bestows upon you. and without fail, he’ll stop you.
he’ll thread his fingers through yours, stopping their descent, and cup your chin, angling your face up towards his to capture your lips in a kiss that’s meant to distract you.
the first time you tried to sink to your knees in front of him, he’d looked absolutely horrified. his eyes went wide, his sharp teeth biting into his lower lip as he pulled you back up, stammering something about how you’re a goddess and he should be the one on his knees.
you’d laughed it off then, thinking it was just some ‘manly’ notion he had. but it kept happening. and after six months of frustrating one-sidedness, the novelty has worn off, replaced by gnawing insecurity.
you’ve endured months of him eating you out with fervor and gently redirecting your hands every time you try to touch him.
you’re starting to believe the worst. that he can’t get it up around you. that you don’t turn him on, that he finds you so unappealing that he’d rather focus solely on your pleasure than face the embarrassment of his own lack of it. the thought makes you sick to your stomach.
kirishima comes to your apartment tonight looking exhausted. he’s had a grueling twelve-hour shift that involved a building collapsing and too many civilians to carry to safety. he’d swung by his own agency just long enough to shower and change, and now he’s here, collapsing onto your sofa with a heavy sigh.
his hair is slightly damp, devoid of its usual sharp spikes and gravity-defying gel. it falls in soft, red waves around his shoulders, making him look softer, more vulnerable. he’s in a pair of grey sweatpants and a loose graphic t-shirt. all you want to do is curl up in his lap and never let him go.
“long day?” you murmur, settling beside him and running your fingers through his damp hair. he hums, leaning into your touch like a starved animal.
“the longest,” he sighs, turning his head to press a kiss into the divot of your palm. “i missed you.”
the words are a balm to your bruised ego. you shift, straddling his lap and wrapping your arms around his neck. “i missed you too, ei.”
you begin peppering soft kisses against his jawline, trailing down to the column of his throat. his skin is warm, and you can feel his pulse fluttering beneath your lips. he sighs, his hands come to rest on your hips, holding you close.
you rock against him. you want to feel him, want that reassurance that he does want you. you’re rewarded almost instantly. you can feel him growing hard beneath you, a thick pressure against your core that sends a jolt through you.
but then his huge hands tighten on your hips, stilling your movements. “slow down baby,”
you pull back, looking down at him. his eyes are squeezed shut, his jaw clenched. “what’s wrong?” you ask, sounding so much smaller than you’d like.
“mhh just give me a second,” he grits out, eyes still closed
something inside you snaps. you scramble off his lap, standing over him with a frown etched across your lips. “is there something wrong with me?” you ask, your voice shaking
his eyes fly open at your tone, wide with alarm. he sits up straight, holding his hands out in a placating gesture. “whoa, whoa, hey. it’s not you. it’s never been you.”
“then what is it, ei?” you hate how sad his name sounds coming out of your mouth, “because i’m starting to think you’re just not attracted to me.”
he’s on his feet in an instant, crossing the space between you. he looks so devastated “no. god, no, don’t ever think that. you’re the most beautiful person i’ve ever seen. i want you so much it hurts. that’s . . that’s the problem.”
you stare at him, completely lost. “that makes no sense.”
he runs a hand through his soft hair, pacing your small living room. he looks so, so conflicted. “it’s my quirk,” he finally says, his voice barely a whisper. he stops pacing and looks at you, his expression so vulnerable it makes your heart ache. “i’ve always been insecure about it, you know? but this is different. i’m scared of it. i’m scared of hurting you with it.”
you blink. “your quirk? ei, what are you talking about? you’re not going to hurt me.”
“i don’t know!” he bursts out, “i have this irrational fear, okay? i’m convinced that if you . . .touch me. .” the thought alone is enough to make his cheeks rosy, “. . i’ll lose control completely. my quirk will activate without me meaning for it to! and my dick will get really hard, like hardening quirk hard, and i’ll hurt you . . i’d never forgive myself.”
you stare at him, mouth agape. you’re trying to process his words, to wrap your head around the sheer absurdity of it. “you’re serious?” you finally manage to say.
“yeah,” he says, looking miserable. “i think i’ll enjoy it too much and end up hurting the person i love more than anything. and i can’t. i just can’t.”
you can’t help but laugh. it’s not funny, not really, but the relief you feel is so overwhelming it’s all you can do. he’s not rejecting you. he’s not unattracted to you. he’s just . . an idiot. a sweet, well-meaning idiot who loves you so much he’s terrified of his own body.
“oh, ei,” you sigh, stepping forward and wrapping your arms around his waist. you press your face against his chest, feeling the steady beat of his heart. “you’re so silly.”
he stiffens, but then his arms come around you, holding you tight. “so you’re not . . mad?”
“i’m not mad,” you say, pulling back to look up at him. “i’m going to prove you wrong.”
he looks wary. “or you’ll prove me right”
“we’re going to start small,” you say, a slow smile spreading across your face. “i’ll only suck your tip. that way, at most, i’ll get a little cut on my lip.”
he hesitates, his ruby eyes searching yours. you can see the conflict within him: his desire versus his fear. he’s so pent up from hero work, from months of denying himself. and you’re looking at him with so much trust, so much love. the thought of your lips wrapped around him, your eyes watering as you look up at him . . . it’s too tempting. it’s a fantasy he’s had for months, one he’s ruthlessly suppressed.
“okay,” he breathes. “okay. but if i start hurting you please stop. immediately.”
“deal,” you agree, taking his hand and leading him towards your bedroom.
he sits on the edge of your bed, looking like he’s about to face a villain and not a blowjob. you kneel in front of him, hooking your fingers into the waistband of his sweatpants, and he tenses, but he doesn’t stop you. you pull them down, along with his boxers, and his cock springs free.
he’s huge. impressively big. it’s your first time seeing all of him, and you can’t help but stare. he’s thick and long, with a prominent vein running up the underside. the tip is flushed a deep, angry red, already beading with precum.
you reach out and wrap your hand around his base, and he stiffens, a sharp hiss escaping his teeth. but he doesn’t push you away. you take your sweet time, leaning in to press soft, wet kisses against his length, starting at the base and working your way up. his hips buck and a soft whimper escapes his lips.
he’s so sensitive. you’ve barely touched him and he’s already falling apart.
you reach his tip, and you can’t resist. you stick out your tongue and swirl it around the head, lapping up the salty precum. he nearly cums on the spot. his whole body jerks, and he lets out a strangled moan, his hands fisting in the duvet beneath him.
“fuuuck,” he gasps, his voice ragged. “oh, fuck.”
you smile, then take his leaking tip between your lips. you suck roughly, taking him even deeper so his tip bumps against the roof of your mouth. it feels so good, the weight of him on your tongue, the sounds he’s making. he’s petrified, you can feel it in the taut line of his muscles
“careful, baby,” he murmurs, “oh, god, careful. mghh, feels so good.”
you ignore his warning. you take him into your mouth inch by inch, bobbing your head. it’s all so lewd, so intimate. the wet sounds of your mouth on him, the way his breath hitches, he’s so close, you can feel it in the way his thighs are trembling. in the desperate sounds he’s making.
“i’m . . i’m gonna cum,” he warns, his voice breaking. “baby, i’m gonna cum. you should hah pull back. .”
he expects you to listen, to pull your lips off and let him finish himself off. it’ll be safer that way. but you have no intention of stopping. you want to taste him, to swallow him down, to prove to him once and for all that he’s incapable of hurting you.
you keep sucking, keep bobbing your head, taking him deeper and with a loud, broken cry, he cums. his whole body stiffens and he spurts hot, thick ropes of cum into your mouth. it’s so much. you swallow it down greedily, your eyes never leaving his.
he’s panting, chest heaving, when you finally pull off with a soft pop. he’s so sure he’s somehow cut open your tongue, shattered your teeth, done some irreparable damage.
you smile and stick out your tongue, showing him that you’re perfectly fine.“see?” you say, your voice a little smug. “i told you it’d be fine.”
he pulls you up into his arms, crushing you to his chest. “i love you” he murmurs into your hair, voice thick with emotion. “so much”
you just grin, already thinking of ways to get him to let his guard down even more. you have a feeling it won’t take too much convincing