#*solitude

[lucidicer]

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[lucidicer]

i know deep down, that i'll do it again

can i truly feel guilt without a hint of regret? is it guilt if i look back at the actions with fondness? surely one cannot exist without the other, and yet i find that brazenly within myself. palms that should’ve been held and gently kissed instead lie stained with blood that no amount of scrubbing could ever lift, my skin will be torn asunder and that dark red will remain and yet i savor the paradoxical warmth it provides. hollow and shaken, just barely akin to a carcass, he feels the skin as it slides out of place making the job that much harder, his face turned inside out - twisted from the blade but also from shame. i accepted things unfolded as they should’ve, i just wish it could’ve been me in his stead.

[lucidicer]

CHARACTER/STORY INFLUENCES TAG

rules: write up a blurb or make a visual collage of the people or characters (from books, TV shows, movies, etc.) that inspired your story and/or OC, either visually, personality wise, or just a general vibe

thank u @literalite for the tag this is the most fun ive had working on something in forever gah. i'm gonna tag @wldestluv-rs @yersea @wasabichips @barbieaiden @mattodore <3 feel free to ignore but also i wanna see your oc's soul >:3

was gonna do more but it is very time consuming so 4 is fine

media: (+ other mentions that i couldn't fit into the final product)

SOLITUDE: lilya 4-ever (2002) / battle royale (2000) / the purge: anarchy (2014) / oldboy (2003) / soapghost (art) / military / cyberpunk / hoshima island / chernobyl disaster / love is a riot! / 2030 - lexie liu / txt post

DITH: brokeback mountain (2005) / the ritual (2017) / bone tomahawk (2015) / rotting / heart rot / tree pod burial / the wind will howl your name / the queen of death valley / the book of isaiah / environmental catastrophe / if i was dead - brooke bentham / unreal earth - hozier / txt post

TANG DUYI: a prayer before dawn (2017) / warrior (2011) / burning / eisoptrophobia / catholicism / guilt / wolves / i'm drowning me / angel - river styx / family tree (intro) - ethel cain / meta ego - lexie liu / txt post

SIÓAR HJORT-COLDING: raw (2016) / yellowjackets (2021-) / dog motif / deer / insatiable / wolves / antlerlock / hedgehog's dilemma / sensation is everything / the aggression sessions / moon song - phoebe bridgers / txt post

[lucidicer]

the abysmal, out of control, out of sight

throwing this pic under the cut cause i dont like it as much as the first one but i spent too long on it so :/

[lucidicer]

(♪)

[lucidicer]

suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee

[lucidicer]

this barbie is a little silly

b/a / hq non glitter version under the cut