seen from Norway
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Netherlands
seen from Netherlands
seen from United States
seen from Australia
seen from United States
seen from China
seen from Malaysia
seen from Netherlands
seen from China
seen from Malaysia
seen from China
seen from Singapore
seen from China
Song of the Day
Here is another group that I was introduced to by SAO. They’re also a pretty cool hip-hop group from Dublin. People are waiting for them to drop an album after the singles they’ve been releasing. I enjoy their songs too.
So, enjoy this!
Last May 2018, I told myself to never lose that light. It was the light that urges me to keep going. As long as it’s there, I have my path. I got my dream job and there were a lot of calmer days than my darkest hours. 2019 came and I have this urge of doing a lot of things this year. I made plans, a checklist so I could make this year happier. Then, my unforgettable sleepless Sunday night happened. I came to work with no sleep. Little did I know my mind was preparing me for the storm. Last Tuesday, my heart broke. But it was just the beginning. It was last Thursday when my whole world collapsed. I couldn’t stop myself from crying out loud. I was in so much pain. My heart hurt so much I wanted to get out of “here”. I wanted to run away. I couldn’t accept it. I lost that light. I got scared. I don’t know what to do. My mind refuses to rebuild the path I made early this year. This anxiety... I forced myself to sleep because if I didn’t, I might have done it. I was in so much pain it became an option. If I did it that night, I may have not regretted it. I couldn’t think. And the monster kept on telling me to do it. It hurt so much and it was the easiest way. Thinking about it now, I’m glad I did not do it. I might have gone broke with the hospital bills. I might have lost everything. For seven years, I relied upon my strength to them, not just their music but them themselves. They made me do it. Their excitement every concert, their smiles every time they perform, it gave me the courage to carry on. They helped me see that light. They helped me see things. Now, I don’t know what to do. I don’t think I could listen to their songs the same way I did the week before. It will hurt. I couldn’t even look at his pictures directly. There will always be sadness, probably until I have forgiven him. I’m still torn of wanting him to stay or wanting him to leave. But I signed the petition for him to stay. I guess I’m a fool for doing that. I still hate him but I don’t think I can listen to their music without his voice and his guitar. It won’t be the same. I’m giving him another chance, the same way I’m giving myself another chance to move. It’s still dark but someone pushed me to keep going. That’s all I need for now.
Day 1172: Beedle and Wooze got to perform today!! stand-up and haikus! I’m so proud of them.
Hi holstein
I know it's only been a few hours since you left, but I wanted to write to you anyway. I miss you, obviously, but I know you're happy out there with David Bowie, Carrie Fisher, and Nana. You were awesome when you were alive, and I'm sure they all love you.
I didn't get to tell you this while you were here, but I got to see love, simon the other day. I went alone, and I cried while I was watching it. It was a sweet movie. You would have loved it too, if you were a person.
Don't be mad, but I'm planning on getting a new cat soon. I'm not replacing you, because I don't think I could ever do that. It's just that you were always there for me when I couldn't talk to people about my problems, and I'm realising that the comfort I need now is cat comfort. I don't know who I'll get as a cat. I know you'd hate my choice, because you never liked other cats, but I hope you understand why I'm doing this.
I wish I didn't have to get another cat, holstein. You were the best cat, and I love you so much. I wish you were here still, and that I could just hold you and bury my face into your fur until I felt better.
It just started raining really hard. I think the world is mourning with me.
I love you, my precious baby.
Philippine International Pyromusical Competition 2018 - UK Pyrotex Fireworks entitled “Angels”
There are maybe some things in life meant only for the naked eye to see. I just look for a video to relive the feelings i had last night hahah. I never thought fireworks could give me theseeeee. Ugh the synchronization with the songs was on point. Especially Snow Patrol’s Chasing Cars (or maybe bcos iz one of my fave songs) but my, i cant stop smiling all throughout. It felt like I was in a movie. 03172018
