#1.17.19

[daily-tess]

This Tess is from 1.17.19!

[nicolesdoodles]

[astros-turf]

In about 12 hours I'll be leaving for an airport...

In about 24 hours... there's a good chance I'll be the happiest I've ever been /.\

[frogdrip]

So after my hospital visit last night I felt like complete and utter shit, a ball of nerves just bumping around. Usually every morning I wake up and ask myself “what do I want to do today?” And instantly I was like... animals. Need to be around animals. So I drive down to the local humane society (just to pat some cats and hang out) and this woman is like “u looking for a kitten? Go see that one! He’s all alone, sleeping on the stuffed dog!” And I’m like... my kinda cat. Anyway I end up spending like 2 hours just playing w this one cat, and forget about how gross and shitty I feel. So I’ve had at least 3 medical professionals recommend getting a therapy animal in the past 2 months and I’m like... ok this is it. It just FEELS right. So I call up my parents, ask if I can get him, say I’ll pay for him and everything. My recovery is on the front of everyone’s minds right now (including my own) and my parents agreed...!!! I adopted him!!! It was scary bcs another girl came in to adopt a kitty and he was the only one available. I DIDNT BUDGE A STEP tho when she came in lol I even told her I was adopting him, and AS I WAS FILLING OUT THE PAPER WORK she tries to do the same... literally if I waited 5 min hed be gone. And I really bonded w him, he’s sleeping on me rn and even shows off his little belly. I named him Lickle because my Grammy used to say that when she was tickling me and my Grammy is and always will be a huge comfort to me. I love Lickle my love bug 💕

[missinvisibleandco]

"Morning In Review"

(1.17.19)

[bravelyforwardhangingon]

1.17.19 - If I'm Being Honest

I'm tired of putting myself last.

I feel like there's so much I do on a regular basis in my attempt to be agreeable and flexible and a "good friend" (or wife, sister, daughter, etc.) that I always come up short when it comes to doing things for myself. It's exhausting.

I'm working on it. It's probably in the top 5 things I want to talk about in my first real therapy appointment next week. And I have stated to add some "me time" to my calendar -Sunday mornings are for WW meetings, Monday morning for therapy, Wednesday after work is cardio dance at my gym.

But I still feel like by making time for myself, other things fall to the side. I worry (irrationally, I know) that if I'm not flexible or understanding, that people won't like me as much. I mean, I always worry that I'm not important to people, but this may just make it worse.

I want to make time for me, but u want to make time for others so that they'll continue to make time for me too.

I don't know where I'm going with this one, but I'm just feeling tired and a little lonely.

[lettersfordream]

i would also like to say thank you for 200 followers! i really appreciate the support you all have given me, and i will continue to try hard with blog! i love you!!

[upintheattic]

Take me back to the beginning

back to the days when my cheeks would hurt

from smiling so much

back to the sleepless nights

laying awake with you by my side

talking and laughing until the sun came up

.

Take me back to the beginning

back to when hearing your name

didn’t make my heart hurt

Back to when love was moonlit kiss

Instead of sleepless nights

laying awake, all alone

staring at the ceiling and wondering

what went so wrong

until the sun came up