#11.23.2020

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dorito ears

[angelishere407]

Selfie filter fun. Night time fun.

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slee pea pub bee

[honey-and-sting]

Drowning

How do I describe what it’s like to remember, all at once, the angry voices, or the shaking, or the way  it felt when he was on top of me?

It feels like drowning

& I don’t want to remember anymore.

I want to learn to cut off who I was then & everything that happened to her- all the shattering & gasping & the grasping at pieces she tried for so long to hold together.

Teach me how to cut her off

ruthlessly

so I don’t feel like I’m drowning anymore.

[cloudyending]

Let me drown and gasp for air

pushing me deeper

I'm to reliant

to dependent

where the fuck did it go?

where did my love of independence go?

I need to stop

stop the clock

stop it

stop it

stop it

stop it

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