[screenshotsofdespair]

[mallqt2000]

the sludge

[iloveyoucallmeback-deactivated2]

do i go on a walk or do i go bat shit insane

[cloudyending]

I didn’t mean to I didn’t mean to I didn't mean to I didn't mean to

[jamesronkko]

[cloudyending]

He is falling

the blood running down his calves

people screaming

shots fired

what do I do

[cloudyending]

I dont know what happened

thats what you tell me

I dont know me

who was I 5 seconds ago

I've already changed

I'm a million people

none of them know eachother

I'm a city in myself

[cloudyending]

I'm tired or keeping my eyes open

are these poems truly me

am I faking everything

am I just building a person

am I really me

[cloudyending]

Today is bland

a tasteless life

full of wasted breathes

[cloudyending]

I always find the best things to say

long paragraphs of love and compassion

my empathy spilling onto the page

but no

there's a small sentence there...

Are you being backhanded?

None of that mattered

what the fuck did you just say

fucking bitch

of course you bully me

fuck

why can't you just say the right thing for once

FOR ONCE

ONCE

ONE TIME OUT OF THE MILLIONS OF TIMES YOU FUCK UP

[cloudyending]

A nirvana I want to reach

with you my darling

hand-in-hand we skip

grinning as we are content

hoping to reach that final step

we trip and fall till we only wept

the porous blood clogging our lungs

we gag as we reach for a hug

withering into intertwined bone

we are these walls of stone

[cloudyending]

Take me and my beauty and burn it

make the petals fall as your fast hands shred me apart

rip me down and tell me how I'm not good enough

Make me cower in your presence

Make me your puppet and play me like a fiddle

Call me out, on all your unsettled

Let me dance in the rain

take my dear sun away

Until the clouds clear again

I'm yours and yours I'll pretend

[720p]

Ada Limón, Mowing

[cloudyending]

I want to run

run until my skin rips

run until the ground is glass,

cutting my feet

its blade digging deeper and deeper

the blood flowing faster and faster

until I'm down,

on my knees I'll lay down

maybe then I'll pass

[cloudyending]

Who am I

am I me

am I the floor?

am I this cd I'm holding?

Is my body even real

[cloudyending]

Let me drown and gasp for air

pushing me deeper

I'm to reliant

to dependent

where the fuck did it go?

where did my love of independence go?

I need to stop

stop the clock

stop it

stop it

stop it

stop it

[cloudyending]

Surrender your body

surrender your soul

little pain is done

to rebirth into a new soul