#1118pm

[dimashkudaibergendearspage]

DJFC 🇯🇵公式 ディマシュ ジャパンファンクラブ (@dimash.japanfanclub) posted on Instagram • Jun 24, 2020 at 11:18pm UTC#dimash_kudaibergen

[theamericanbandwhore]

I just don't feel strong enough anymore.

I don't want to keep fighting it.

I've all but done it anyways.

Why should I care if my coping mechanism isnt healthy?

Why should I care if I'm disappointing everyone?

I just want the pain to stop.

Even if it's just temporary.1

What's a little blood and a scar or two more gonna do anyways?

At least I won't be dead, right?

Because all I can think about is how easy it would be to just give up.

I feel like it'd be so much easier for everyone else if I wasnt here.

All I am is stupid and high maintenance and annoying and. Fuck.

I already had a break down in the Walmart fucking parking lot, went at my arm with the lid of a fucking zippo, and wheezing from crying on the fucking road so bad I started to choke and my vision was blurred with my own fucking tears.

Is it even worth it to fight it anymore?

The relief of a cut and spotting of blood as it trickles up out of the skin.

Everyone thinks that's insane but so what?

Would you hate me if I did it?

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[kristinedaywit]

FUUU.

YOU ARE SO FOCKING NARROW MINDED. We are NOT administration that y'all can say that "drama doesn't get its recognition" "choir doesn't either" LIKE WHAT. Okay cool you're venting about YOUR own problems BUT THAT DOESN'T SUPPORT YOUR ARGUMENT. & also, EVERYONE already knows you guys are talented enough to audition for plays & make cuts or audition for a team & makw cuts. Colleges can't look at it the same way as you do. Hate to break it to you, but entertainment isn't the thing that can prevent a disease or building the roads you drive on. & you said that 4.0+ students are "talentless." Excuse me? That's a big OUCH to the 4.0 students in BAND, SPORTS, & other clubs & extracurricular activities that are still able to maintain an even HIGHER gpa than a 4.0 such as a 4.17 or 4.3. They work HARD at what they do. They strive because they know the world is competetive. "These 'electives' create humanitarians, composers, and decent human beings who understand the value of talent and dreams." All sorts of wrong. These COLLEGE PREP CLASSES will be the ones where we will have HUMAN BEINGS(decent human beings? lmao you have GOT to be kidding me..) become doctors that will be saving your life one day, lawyers, and engineers and teachers. EVERYONE has dreams & they all have different views and perspectives on it. Anyone will be able to understand their own dream. Yes, i do understand that colleges & admin may not look as high on those electives as others, yet you're taking all the wrong turns at supporting your argument.