#12.2.18

[alltheselights]

YESSSSSS

[missinvisibleandco]

"Suburban Reality"

(12.2.18)

[honey-and-sting]

How to Be Alone Again

When he yells at you, ask him to stop. When he shakes his hands in your face, don’t move or he will slap you. When he pushes you, tell him it hurts. When he doesn’t stop, find a way out. When he blocks the door, find a way out. When the police come, remember this is not the first time he has chosen his anger over you. Breathe.

When he goes to jail, don’t try to bail him out. When you want him back, remember this is not the first time he has chosen his anger over you. When he starts dating, let him go. When he takes your things, let them go. Breathe.

When the night terrors begin, remember he is not there. Buy pepper spray & change the locks. When the loneliness hits at night, watch animated movies, fill your bed with blankets & pillows, remember you are better off alone. Breathe.

When it hurts, cut the ties. Cancel the utilities. Close the bank account. Get your name off the lease. Block him. Take off your rings. File for divorce. Remember this is not the first time he has chosen his anger over you. Breathe.

When you don’t know how to survive, Drink water. Eat something. Put on some clothes & stumble into the living room. Do some laundry. Unpack your life. Ask for help. Breathe.

His anger does not define you. His lack of love does not make you unlovable. His violence does not diminish your worth. When you forget, stand tall & remember, what he did was about his character, not yours. When people try to deceive you, remember this is not the first time he has chosen his anger over you.

Breathe.

You are better off alone.

[notsofine]

I crashed, I picked myself up and I carried on. Made it through the rest of the day and I’m feeling quite proud of myself because there was a time when I wouldn’t have been able to.

[samsi6]

Stoff, Baby

Hast Du schon gehört? Der Kleine von nebenan, der ist ja jetzt groß geworden und hat sich ja gerade so furchtbar… weil er der Süßen von da hinten, also, der macht er ja schon jahrelang den Hof, die hat er ja angeschmachtet, da war er noch ein Winzling, er hatte ja eh schon so süße Augen, gell, aber wenn er die gesehen hat, das Strahlen in seinen Augen, das war unglaublich, sein ganzes Gesicht strahlte dann immer, und bis neulich noch immer, und alle haben es gewusst, immer, er hat nie etwas gesagt, aber jeder wusste es, nur er wusste ja nicht, dass es jeder wusste, er guckte immer nur sie, ne, und dann brach’s aus ihm raus, neulich, da machte er ihr den Hof, so richtig, er ist da zu ihr hin, als sie gerade nach Hause kam, gell, hatte hinter dem Rücken ‘n Blumenstrauß, 'n schönen, Rosen, nur Rosen, rote, so 'ne feinen, und gibt sie ihr und sie, sie freut sich und er dann so von Liebe und so, jedenfalls stammelte er ganz viel und schwitzte auch, echt, ey, und dann isser stumm geworden und hat auf'n Boden geguckt und sie so, Danke, und so und dass sie überrascht wär’ und leider sie nicht, aber er ganz toll, trotzdem, und Freunde, immer, aber Liebe, ne, ja, und dann isser aufgestanden und hat Koffer gepackt. Amerika hatter gemurmelt. Amerika. Als gäb’s da keinen Herzschmerz…

[alltheselights]

dermot having to dig through the giant group hug lol

[chocobo-translations]

Takkun (12/2/18)

Isn’t this cute? It’s so cute. The price is astonishingly not cute 😭😭 I want to become an adult who can shop like this

[chocobo-translations]

Panmen: TakuPan performed their new work Nonfantasy. YujiLeoPan performed White Love and everyone covered Give Me Chocolate!, Koi and Love so sweet. We also performed Good Night, Ogoe Diamond, nerve and Precious Story for the first time in a while! There was a lot of variety 😳 Memorizing everything was really hard, but it was a lot of fun~~~