XCVII: i don't know either
I've tried starting this point countless times, I really have no clue to start this.
My mind has been in a daze, in some other world. I can't snap out of it, why can't I snap out of it? I feel like I'm cursed, which isn't such a far off feeling. There was a day a couple weeks ago where a psychic stopped me asking if she can look into me. Sounds weird and all, but that was the third time in my life that I've been stopped by some psychic, palm reader, person of the sort. So I was like, what the hey! Third time being stopped by someone like her, might as well. She wasn't really looking for money, though I still had my guards up, maybe she wanted to reel me in first and then spend money on the "full reading". But nope, she offered to "see" me for free.
She told me that this period of my life is around the time I meet my soul mate, so I either have already met them or I'm going to meet them soon. That my aura is bright but there's a cloud of darkness that's setting me back. And as cliche as it sounds that that cloud of darkness is a "curse". And that curse is actually just a shroud of jealousy, and someone's (or some people's) jealousy is ultimately the reason why I can't get to my soulmate.
Amongst other things, she even guessed my major and, more surprisingly, my second major. Which at the time no one knew about. She also knew that I wasn't from the city of Sacramento, nor was I from the city I came from before living in Sacramento (Stockton).
I came home after work that day in so much confusion. Trying not to let that "curse" thing get to my head, I remember I laid on my couch mindlessly cruising through my different social media sites. Who was exuding animosity towards me? I wondered.. It doesn't make sense, I don't talk to anyone and I'm not close to anyone nor does anyone really know any type of event that happens in my life besides my family.. And even they don't know absolutely every detail. But I guess it's possible for people not directly in my life to "curse" me. That concept is pretty scary, like someone or others can think so much negative thoughts about someone that their person of interest (per se) can consequently get cursed.
I mean I still try not to think about how I possibly have met my soul mate already and how I'm cursed because of jealousy, and because of that curse I can't get to my soul mate. That's absurd! Right? RIGHT??
