#1:38pm

[ajyal-azez]

أحبّ صوتَ همسي وسط أُذنيكَ الآن،

يقشعرّ له بدنك، وترتجفُ ملامحك..

كأنّ الكلمات تلامس روحك قبل مسمعك،

وتُربك هدوءك الذي اعتدتَه،

فتغدو أقربَ دون أن تدري،

وتنصتُ إليّ، وأخمد حريق الظهيرة..

كلّها إليك.

[ajyal-azez]

لا شيء يُعادل شاي الظهيرة..

[ajyal-azez]

أيتها الموسيقى، أطربيني أعتلي مكامني وأنعشيني..

[ajyal-azez]

للأعين والأيادي، لغات ثانوية تُحكي.

[ajyal-azez]

يداه وعيّناه، وحدهما قادرتان على فك طلاسم فكري.

[ajyal-azez]

هنا في هذا الوقت تحديداً يجب أن تمرّ الأشياء بسلام.

[ajyal-azez]

مزجت روحك في روحي كما

تمزج الخمرة بالماء الزلال

فإذا مسك شيء مسني

فإذا أنت أنا في كل حال

الحلاج

[killedbycorona]

your hearts break for me as my heart breaks for him. I want to show him everything

I don’t feel comfortable being in my grief with you - I didn’t feel comfortable in my good with you

I just had him here how did he leave that fast

The hardest two weeks of my life and he flashed before my eyes

panicking so deep I can’t stand right or sleep at night chest is tight body’s at fight and flight using all my might to keep him from walking towards the light but his goal is in sight and I can’t try to fight he leaves his body to fly like a kite runs his body’s energy to white across the country there is no sight isolated darkness nothing is bright sinking my teeth in won’t take a bite adrenals spiking in the fright sinking too low to jump from this height still won’t stay all despite his plight to his wife hardest two weeks of my life

did you know he never grew orchids? I have three now, though. he didn’t grow any of the flowers in these bouquets yet I have roses til the end of my days. he didn’t even have sunflowers but he had all the sunshine. the magic of his backyard garden was always mine