Feb 22, 2024
Bugün bi öğrencim (11) yanıma gelip “hocam beni bana geri ver yüce Tanrım” diye bi şarkı var bunu dinlediğinizde hiiiç bir derdiniz tasanız kalmaz bi dinleyin nolur” dedi lsfjdhfhdhhd
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Bugün bi öğrencim (11) yanıma gelip “hocam beni bana geri ver yüce Tanrım” diye bi şarkı var bunu dinlediğinizde hiiiç bir derdiniz tasanız kalmaz bi dinleyin nolur” dedi lsfjdhfhdhhd
Can't you give us five more minutes?
God, I miss you. It’s been two months now but it hasn’t stopped hurting. So many things still remind me of you so much, sometimes I just can’t handle it. The thought that I will never see you again, hug you, tell you how much I love you. I’ve always been scared of losing you, I knew someday it would happen but I didn’t think it would be so soon. Maybe it was a naive thought. But you were doing so well, I had so much hope you’d reach the 100. I know it’s better this way, you weren’t suffering, you were not in pain or anything. You just fell asleep for good. I miss you lots, granny. You are the brightest star in heaven now. But I hope you are doing well now, I hope you’re surrounded by your loved ones. I hope you’re happy. But even though I know you are doing better now, I can’t stop thinking of how I’d love to have you here, too. If I had known it was the last time when we visited you, god, I would’ve hugged you a little longer. I wish I could tell you one last time how much I love you, how much I miss you and what a great person you were. Everybody loved you. You were one of a kind. I will miss you forever.
i love traveling by train so much. seeing the landscape fly by, watching the clouds morph into one another. just me and my headphones. ahh.
Intense day. Switching jobs is hard and so are all the accompanying tech nightmares. But I did what I could, and I visited a new work site and made a good impression and navigated bad public transport. I'm proud of myself that I got home and made a healthy dinner and had a hot bath to help with my cramps, which did subside too. I am going to yoga tomorrow morning which should help too. I'm ready to sleep for a while, won't force myself to wake up early after the day I've had. So many times wanted to scream or start crying in frustration and overwhelm. This is part of my process in something new so I'm giving myself grace.
Liam last sunday in London (x) - 22.02
düştüğün kapı arkalarında ilk iş anahtarı çevirişin, duvarlara alnını çaktığın yerde perdeleri çekişin, ağrıyan yerine değil ağzına bastırdığın ellerin, sen hep haklıydın nefret, bizi yaşatan kimsenin öldüğümüzü görmeyişidir. yaramızı saran yaramız olduğunun bilinmeyişidir. şimdi o incecik boynunu usulca kaldıracak, sıktığın dişlerini bir sırıtışla süsleyeceksin. ne olacaksa olacak kızım. ateş olan yerde duman tütmeyecek. hadi topla saçlarını.
Liam last sunday in London (x) - 22.02
today feels better. i had breakfast with my sister and managed to help her out with some things. am on my way to work now and i feel quietly sad, but also hopeful and at peace.