I miss the feeling of you lying next to me. I miss you pulling me in closer and sincerely kissing my head. I miss you softly speaking my name or yelling my name in the crowds in pure support. I miss having your name pop up on my phone and I miss your nicknames for me. I miss going to the grocery store and spending sometimes hours cooking food, which we would sit on the couch later on and enjoy. I miss going on adventures. I miss watching you jam out to the radio or your cds. I miss the comfort of your bed. I miss seeing your car parked out in front of my house. I miss my friends and family asking about you. I miss waking up to you getting ready for work and wishing you a good day at work. I miss meeting you for lunch. I miss making your bed and helping you pick up the kitchen a bit. I miss Princess and Snowball. I miss the doggies as well. I miss hearing your dad groan in his sleep, which would result in either us laughing a bit or your grimacing in annoyance. I miss listening to the beat of your heart and feeling your fingers run through my hair. I miss you laying your head on my chest and wrapping yourself around me as much as you could to get as close to me as possible. I miss the sound of your voice speaking my name, or really anything at all. I miss telling you cheesy jokes and puns. I miss the feeling of your soft skin on mine. I miss the flow of both your hair and your hips. I miss undressing your soul so I could see a little more of your heart each and every time. I miss it all, dammit. The things that pissed me off.. I miss those too. Maybe we weren’t ever meant to be lovers.. but we found love and it was beautiful. I don’t want to leave things like this. Maybe time is honestly what we need, but I can’t help but hope to find each other again someday and find what we seemed to have lost. Nonetheless, I would rather have you as a friend than as nothing at all. I was lucky to have ever seen your soul.. so thank you for that; I know it took a lot. I hope you are doing well, darlin’. I miss you.. all of you.
With much love,
Baby babe.
