Different Story, Different Day
So, I’m for sure one of those people that believes you are what you eat, what you read, what you listen to, what you allow. You attract what you put out. I’m a non fiction reader and I like to read nutrition and business as those are my areas of my life I’m striving at.
I picked up The Four Hour Body book by Tim Ferris. He’s basically a productivity genius so I was excited to get right into the reading. At this point I’m only 25% of the way through the book but he starts out by talking about how measurement is key to track success and being real about where you are and what you are doing is key. Lots on that for sure. But it struck me that I should take before photos as I start his program (which isn’t that complicated just slow carb and MED exercise which I already participate in through my Pure Barre addiction.)
So as instructed I got a volunteer to take pics of me in my underwear, no make up, no posing, no sucking it in or leaning certain ways, or having the camera angle point downward. No funny business. Just head on straight on jail style full body mostly naked pics. When I grabbed the camera to check myself out I was truly shocked as to what I looked like.
How could I be so shocked? Don’t I see myself everyday? I don’t avoid the mirror. I do know about my size and cellulite and what fits and doesn’t. I know my waist measurement, in fact I could probably rifle all my numbers off right now. Seeing how my body looked in these photos is by far the biggest motivator I’ve ever had but it’s concerning to me how unaware I was about the way my body looks. It makes me wonder how oblivious and not self aware I am in my everyday life.
Not only will this journey make me certainly healthier and happier but I am determined to be more self aware. Along with studying business and nutrition I will be trying to learn more on the subject of self awareness and mindfulness. I might need to slow down a little more and spend more time in the quiet and by myself to gain these skills, but I’m ready to do that as I think it’s imperative to be a good human to posess self awareness. Not to mention I wouldn’t be in this weightless journey if I had had those skills to begin with.
I usually feel like I’m “restarting” or “starting over” every time I start a new diet or regimen. And I tend to beat myself up about how if I didn’t quit I wouldn’t have to start over. Today, I’m not starting over. Have I gone off the wagon since I started this tumblr? Yea a little, but I’m certainly on the same road and I defiantly think self awareness is the key to the door that has seemed to be locked these past years.