#5:37am

[lonelyvampx]

scared, want to sleep. I don't want to sit with myself, with my thoughts and feelings, there is nothing that can distract me from my thoughts ugh

[releasing-trapped-emotions]

M crying m not happy m sad very sad m tired tears are coming an going just very sad and very tired just hold me please please take my mind away from everything I just want a bit of happy that's all I ask for just a small bit of happiness a small bit of peace without my mind racing just please hold me please just kiss me please please just please

[thought-anon]

Can my intuition not be correct for once? I'm tired of being let down

[sojan]

Just woke up from a very sad dream.

And just like that I’m reminded of just how sad my life is.

Not saying that I’m all sad all the time. I am grateful for the things I do have, and I’m trying to be more mindful of maintaining a spirit of gratitude.

But that dream... after those thoughts and feelings last night... just really put things in perspective.

In really colloquial terms ... tf I look like being sad about a guy, or a social interaction or a friend ghosting me, seriously. I have real things to be sad about.

Just seems like all the more reason to be grateful for what I do have and for what I am doing.

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Came back and noticed this post never posted! But it got saved to my draft so it’s back. Now it’s 6:16am. I’m feeling better. A little anxious, but better.

[misplaced-empathies]

i want to be good again; i want to be free. thing is, all the major changes i’ve made in my life were always prompted by gesture from people who love me.

my brother once called me out when i was 11, telling me i’d changed from being his strong, leading sister. it wasn’t until years later that i started to make up for the jealous hatred i showed him when we were kids.

when i was 14, my friend shouted at me across the hall, “why are you being like this!” when i coldly shrugged off her approach and told her to go away. that was the year i committed myself to being kinder and more compassionate, the year i started to shed victim complex and sharp judgemental attitude.

the umpteenth time i made my mother cry, she expressed how even though i never asked of it, she loves doing things for my brother and i, she just wanted to hear our appreciation. i tried to better empathize and love the people i care about because of her.

the first time i truly fell in love, my partner was so certain of his worldview, he taught me how to settle into my own. i discovered vulnerability and trust, as well as the consequences of being too vulnerable and too trusting. i learned how complacent i can get in the face of a fear that gripping. and though i haven’t achieved my goal, i want to take that experience and make myself a better, more honest person. the confident, snarky, smart mouthed, well versed, and fiesty bitch i know i’ve seen come out of me. someone the little stubborn, confident, and mischievous girl i was born as would be proud to become.

[enioyyyyyyyyyy]

祝自己業績跟這張照片一樣蒸蒸蒸日上☀🚀

[hidden-exterior]

god i have some really fucked dreams

[poloteddybear]

TF AM I STILL DOIN AWAKE!? GOODNIGHT.